#its been a productive night

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

I have to wake up in five hours. I'm not remotely tired. I hate morning shifts.

Also I realized I want to get my eyebrow pierced.

#its been a productive night #i made dinner (the beef i used was questionable tbh but i think its okay) #i took a shower. i decided i want an eyebrow piercing. and now im unable to sleep #i have to work 6am-2pm tomorrow #my normal schedule is 1-9pm #i worked mornings for a year and never managed to properly adjust my sleep schedule ao i was just always tired #now i work nights and its perfect for me #but i have to suffer through the occasional morning shift. like for the next two days #i usually cant sleep before 2am. but i habe to wake up at 5am #maybe ill just take an adderall... then i could stay awake and maybe do some chores when i get home #yknow what im salty about? every night i usually sleep like 10 hours by myself in a big bed with a good pillow. ideal sleeping conditions #and i still wake up hella tired #but last night i got drunk. fell asleep woth two other people in the bed. at 2am amd woke at 6am #somehow that was the nest sleep ive gotten in years #oh my god y'all i have a desk now. i got it from the dumpster. its so pretty and having it has reinvigorated my love of life #it has plants and mugs on it. now i have a dedicated spece to do all of my work. im so fucking happy #its the little things i guess #i really fucking want to get my eyebrow pierced now and idk why. i wasnt interested until tonight. nothing prompted it #i just started watching game changers today and im kind of in love. maybe ill watch it until 5am then take an Adderall and go to work #surely that will work out fine and nothing will go wrong with this plan

[midnightclover]

Summon Night: Swordcraft Story (ATLUS, 2003)

#my actual posts lol #haha what if i made a daily diary post thing like nico #..i was just thinking #today was a good day #and i thought of this song #ive been playing summon night swordcraft story a lot as of late.. though none today actually #its still on my mind though #i considered using dweller empty path's song flying through a stary sky instead.. but this is what i thought of first #i think it fits best to use it #i actually had to jump through some hoops to upload music! #cus my tumblr app is kinda old.. i cant properly upload music. i could only put a link #which isnt exactly ideal #so i tried in my web browser.. but maybe its cus i havent updated it in a while or maybe just cus its tor.. it didnt work #so i downloaded firefox and did it on there lol #now im editing it in my drafts back on the app #dont ask why im not just doing it on my computer... shes having some technical difficulties. we're working on it #but not today #... #today was pretty eventful.. even if not very productive. but ive never been a very productive person #we went and saw some light festival thing! it was rly nice.. a little simple at times but it was fun #we went and got some yummy snacks earlier too! tho ive already eaten them all hehe #and i started up animal crossing new leaf. i hadnt played it in ages! its startling how much better it is than new horizions.. imo at least #only problem is i couldnt make it the same as my island.. and i didnt remember why i named my last town #we searched for a while for some reference or somfin to name it after.. but we ended up just going with ''faraway'' #cus i liked the idea of being asked where im going.. and just saying far far away #and as beth said it has a kinda fairytail vibe! #...only after i named it did i realize i accidentally named it after the town in omori. oops! #...im about to hit the tag limit. so whoevers still listening i just want u to know.. #i love you. ok? #goodnight

[darnellthefirestarter]

Is this dumb? I can't tell if this is dumb.

They all have yarn hair, but Darnell and Pico's are brushed out to make their hair look fluffy. They were all created and abandoned together. Bf is a pop star figurine, and Gf is a pretty BJD doll.

#friday night funkin #random thoughts #pico newgrounds #doodle #pico fnf #darnell #gay men #pico x darnell #darnell fnf #nene fnf #nene newgrounds #boyfriend fnf #boyfriend #gf fnf #fnf girlfriend #its late so this might be a stupid product of my tired brain #ive also been thinking about raggedy ann and andy a lot lately lol

[girl-please-study]

2/25 days of productivity

Meet my Krishna Kanhaiya. After attending Temple at midnight for Janamastmi, we woke up at 6 to go for our daily run and exercise! But the park was unusually empty today for some reason.

#the park mightve been empty probably because people slept late last night or its the beginning of 3 days holiday for G20 summit #original #25 dop #heydilli #stem academia #chaotic academia #heypeachblossom #studyblr #problematicprocrastinator #chazzastudiesalevels #adelinestudiess #heygather #productivity #linksstudyblr #durhamstudies #heychemblr #hiyatranquil #heyjulissa #heycoral #heyfio #medisina #motivation #uniblr #desi studyblr #biochemistry #janamastmi

[merverelli]

"im a magician, i just dont bang on about it"

missing marvin the magnificent hours </3

#jacksepticeye #marvin the magnificent #septicart #just like art #fun fact: this pose (???) and inspiration to draw marv again came from a comedy panel show my parents have gotten super into recently #hence the caption: its just a line from the bit this is from lmfao #also hello! im still waiting for uni to start up again #and im trying to be productive before it starts #so im going for my licence sometime soon (april lol) #and im currently hemorrhaging money from seeing doctors about this long term pain ive had for YEARS #going into the city to see one and its gonna be $300 bc life is nothing but agony and suffering #so im thinking about opening commissions???? its still super up in the air #ive only done commissions from people i know lmfao and even then it was stressful tbh #either that or i get another job lmfao #but besides that: ive been good! and i wish the same for you! good night!

[barredandromeda]

if i had a more fem face it would be over for all yall 🙄

#and if my hair worked the way i wanted it to #blaming >t on my aunts hair products tho fur real #and if i had less acne but thats my own fault cause i stopped eating and drinking water as much while also stopping my face routine. so !!! #hashtag in the slumps #im ok tho i just need 2 scream to the void rq so im not stuck on the thoughts for 4vr #i think i need to cut everyone out of my life except for my favs and close friends #close friends r ppl i talk to on a semiregular basis and i AODRE them all theyre my sillies fr #my favs love me i love them 😋🫶 #i keep wishign at angel numbers to find a lover #anyway #nvm i dont feel like ranting i just feel like being dramatic teehee #i need to rip my skin apart and get rid of my acne from the inside and also end my life #sorry Mynails are just unpainted 😋 #i need to get back and redo my acne shit i look so fugly im ending my life #forehead pimples my beloathed i hate anything bringing atttention to my eyebrow nose area cause i always look. way more masc #like good for eric but i just want to be a cute fem like please #post #mae mention #ohmy godd i havent been able to properly hold down food without having to fight tthe urge to vomit like all rhe tiem i need to stop eating #like. forever. survivng on Gatorade alone #godbless my little sister she loves eating so i just keep giving her my meat i hate chicken #unless it s a specific way #i was eating roti last night and had to like Notcry cause it was so not what i l iked but its ok yall #ok doen i hate food and ppl except for favs & cfs for realz

[m3llowm1sh]

mish’s relationships with the rd cast

#rhythm doctor #internsona #aka: random thoughts from a sleep deprived mish #man im so productive when i work at 3 in the morning i should butcher my sleep schedule more often /j #not joking about the productive part tho like ive noticed that at the dead of night i have like 10x more motivation to write for once and #its amazing #i might be the worst person ever at structuring my thoughts into coherent words but once im in the zone IM IN THE ZONE #ive also been thinking about a possible fluffy fic idea thats been circling my head for a couple days but eh #maybe my ao3 account will see an actual use in the future we’ll see #??????? i am not a writer though i do not call myself one its just a thing i like to do when im extremely bored #also i wrote the edega part seperately from the rest of them which is why its capitalized and. kind of bad #mishs art tag

[whumpshaped]

maybe this is a tip you already know but if not i think this might be worth a try! i used to struggle with falling asleep a lot (nowadays less thankfully) and one method that has helped me very often is kind of meditative i guess? idk if it has a name but i’ll just describe it

i basically start with my toes and work my way up to my head in small steps, (mentally) telling each body part that it’s getting heavy and tired. i try to keep a slow pace and to emphasise the sleepy adjectives and it helps me calm down and to keep my thoughts in order and not think about 1000 things at once. some days it works better than others but even if i’m still awake by the time i reach my head (which i usually don’t) i just repeat the whole thing again.

plus just laying down with your eyes closed helps your body rest too, even if you are not sleeping. that thought helps me not get too frustrated if i have a bad day/ night and can’t seem to fall asleep.

yeah i know this one well :) damn i forget what its called too. smth body. body centred meditation? or just body meditation? body awareness? idk i did it a lot for a bunch of stuff. idk. yknow what tho? i think it mightve been the amount of tea i drank. thats likely it.

but on the flip side my to do list is coming along nicely! i cleaned the whole apartment and did laundry and ironed clothes and changed bedsheets and towels! i passed the exam so thats cool. worked out. im gonna like, take a shower and do that drawing thing thats been in my head, then im gonna pack for the trip, make lunchies... then when thats all done i'll come back to the sleeping thing maybe but honestly its like noon maybe i should just go along w it for today and go to sleep at a normal time

#its easily my most productive 34 hours in the past 3 months #oh i gotta proofread a bunch of stuff too #ok u wanna know a special body meditation tip? recently bc ive been so into hypnosis and ocs who use it #i just go full whumpee and imagine my fav whumper doing it🥰🥰 #ONE NIGHT IT WAS LIKE ACTUALLY WILD #so if u know me u know i get the sleepy voices and the super vivid hallucination adjacent stuff #and it was soooo real that night #w a friend's oc #hi friend if u read this lol #but yeah it was awesome and i was out like a light within 2 mins #listening to my fav blorbo man say comforting things to me :) ANYWAY so yea i usually dont have any issues w it or anything #it mustve been the tea i drank a lot of it. like 5-6 cups within the last two days. mightve shocked the body a little #asks

[the-kipsabian]

i also dont know why i get such overwhelming feelings of stupidity and guilt these days when im blorbo posting. especially if its about kip. it just comes to me every time nowadays and i dont know why

#i mean. i think its partially cause of all the shitty comments that ive seen so like. i feel like im doing something wrong by being a fan #which i know is not true #but shit brain chemicals go brrrrr #like posting and gifmaking etc makes me genuinely happy and actually feels like kind of a productive use of my time for once #but at the same time i just keep wondering if i should spend it on someone else #which.. idk. i dont know why this feeling is so strong these days #especially since i know my blog is very obviously branded so people are (or at least they should be i dont fucking know honestly) #likeminded here so i should have nothing to worry about #and yet #anyways i have food now im gonna shut up eat and finish those gifs and then try to write before double or nothing eventually kills me #just.. a thought thats been in my head a lot recently #night is an absolute mess on main

[3416]

love this tweet as if we don't have a winning record rn on the backs of our star players and woll actually

#like...... yeah they cant win every single game for u thats why ur supposed to have some decent depth #when u have shit depth and shelter their minutes u make it harder on ur stars regardless lol #wanna them to carry the rest of the team AND produce somehow like #thats a miracle to ask night in n out but ok #hope the leafs can kick it into gear so i can stop seeing this shit bro #gonna give me an aneurysm #having star players w decent point production is actually Not why were losing some of these games ik thats hard to comprehend #u just look at who makes the most money and go Why arent they winnin 100% of game s whcih has never been done before #there are real reasons they lost last night that will just be deemed as excuses but #when u have mark messier going on tv behng like oh yeah #first game home after a five game road trip is notoriously hard to win n #anyone thst could learn to properly fire a team up after that should make millions #i mean. u have ur answer right there lol #only liking this team when they win is not being a fan lmfaoooo #holding them accountsble or whatever is not ur fucking job n #everyone thst takes to online to play their lil armchair coach looks stupid #i hate losses less for how they make me feel and more for the stupid shit everyone makes me read after it ! #anyway. rant of the day over #or maybe not well see if im still bothered #blocked half of leafs twt n its still not enough i might just have zero leafs takes when im done here

[good-beans]

I do believe it's bedtime 😌

#am sleepy #its early for me but im zonked #got a lot done today!! very products day of cleaning 😤 #we've been slacking but we cleaned the wjole apartment and went through laundry and got some things we needed #finally mopped and it feels so cleeeen :3 #i had a few things i wanted to do tonight but my brain is sayin nope #sorry my blog will just be queued old art the next few days lol -- i have lots to queue soon #my tuesday night class is canceled so im excited for a free night then >:3 #i have no desire to go to work tomorrow so that will help adfgbnnj #hope everyones doing well 😎 #rose rambles

[databent]

[pained wailing emoji]

#.pdf #rd #THE REST OF THIS IS JSUT ME WHINING. FEEL FREE TO IGNORE #i dont wanna go to work ‼️‼️‼️ i feel like i am nearing a breaking point i am sofucking burnt out #every time i go to work. my brain gets Scary at me. stresses me out. dont like it ☹️ #im supposedto be going in tonigjt but im dreading it sososo much #my work hour options have changed from “fully flexible” to “7am-9pm only” whcih yeah i know that doesnt sound that bad. but i have non-24 #(circadian rhythm disorder that makes me sleep progressively later every day circling fully around the clock over ~3 weeks or so) #and bcos of it often i have to force myself out of bed in what my body thinks may as well be the middle of the night just to get to work #and then i dont ever get enough time to recover from that to actually let my sleep fall back into its natural schedule wjich is the only #time i feel properly rested. so essentially im chronically sleep deprived which is making me chronically stressed and way less productive #i just reslly really want to fucking save up a little money and just Not work for a week or two. bjt. with my sleep bullshit i cant really #work enough to be able to put anything aside. at all #so. kind of an unrealistic desire i guess. lol #ive been feeling like this ever since like early january when i was told i ahve to stick to a more normal schedule. & its only getting worse #idont know i just wishthere was something i could do that was fully flexible on timing but also doesnt havw the kind of workload that would- #-stress me out like basically anything with longer-term projects so ykmow Most flexible schedule jobs. #i do have one thing in mind i could do on my own but its dumb and probably wouldnt make much money and has startup costs i cant afford rn..

[this-doesnt-endd]

Watched 13 going on 30 and was like okay im gonna get my life together and we'll start by cleaning and ive hit the point where im hungry and im either making food and possibly staying awake possibly falling right asleep or not making food and just going to bed but i have the emotional momentum and i dont wanna lose it

#maybe if i hadnt been struggling w netflix forever i would have had dinner #now that i think abt it i dont think i really had anything today other than drinks #ill prolly go to bed cause i dont wanna make anything #i thought i had a top ramen i do not and my microwave mac n cheese is the big one not the small one so i dont wanna make it #i want some fries #had some amazing fries last night and i want them again #but its late so i prolly should just go to bed #i got a lot done this morning then vibed i was feeling so productive i was gonna sew a nightgown then i took a nap #and none of that happened

[theworldinclines]

alexa force just said him and neo kissed to break the ice when they found out they had to be paired up for only friends. oh we’re gonna die

lmaogjssjskaksk VILLAINOUS omgjsks where did he say that!!!!! kissed where when how; how could he say that 😫😫 is he trying to put me into an early grave before they even begin filming like🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️be serious pls

#thoughts are being THUNK it is 11:19pm fjsjfkaksmam #im literally looking forward to neoforce so much???? like if boston and top end up together i wouldnt be mad #bostontop and saenmew tbh >>>> #or saenmewray and bostontopnick😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️ #like the flavor potential is astronomical😫😫 #its too late in the night for this; ive been reading a vegaspete fic and now im justksjsjdkskdj A MESS only to see this information #oh my lorty lort🫠😀 #answered #ali #mutuals #neoforce #force jiratchapong srisang #neo trai nimtawat #cast #only friends pre production

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello darkness my old friend. I have insomnia again #it seems i wont get back to sleep. making this the 4th night in a row of 4 to 5hrs sleep. woof #is it insomnia or am i on the bleeding edge of hyp0mania? idk its weird. i can feel the strain in my head #my thoughts dont connect as well. its like im being pulled in two directions. my brain becoming spaghettified. growing thin around the #middle. but im not as tired as one might expect. ive been pretty productive and optimistic but anxiety and internal restlessness are up #like im tired but also i need to get up and pace around. maybe jump up and down. maybe run in circles. #the energy comes in waves. sitting in lectures or sitting for the extended addition of l0tr has been somewhat unbearable #bc im so contained. i would not ever get up and walk around while those things were happening but i desperately wanted to #ugh. whats my problem? who's to say. could also b the medication. i see the psychiatrist next week and i think ill beg to b put back on #lam1ctal. just bc when i was taking it on a super low does i had a week or feeling the most normal i think i ever have in my life #anxiety and evil thoughts were so small and i felt happy in a way im not sure i ever have been #like i think under normal circumstances i just have a low capacity for joy. at most i feel neutral. like i was telling my friends how i #might do some field work in winter and they were enthusiastic abt it and i kno y bc it sounds cool but idk i just dont feel anything abt it #i cant see past the pain it will take to get there. and i mean mood wise i feel alright on 4bilify like in a nutral way but stable isnt #the same as feeling happy. but maybe its all just in my head. 25mg lam1ctal shouldnt b enough to b effective #but idk i think im just sensitive to the chemicals in my body. including hormone fluctuations. idk. i hope she lets me switch. #itll b a pain in the ass to readjust in terms of going off what im on now and it might not work #but theres literature on retrying lamicta1 and they say to avoid inflammatory reactions in the first 2 months. which i did not do. oops #not that i was trying. i didnt think abt it until id had a million holes poked in my skin and was experiencing a mild tatt00 allergy #ugh. anyway. tbh id prefer this being hyp0mania vs insomnia bc then at least i can continue to function a bit during the day #ive never done anything that wild while hyp0manic aside from injure myself from over exercising and make bad choices in how i spend time #ie become insane abt something and not b able to think abt anything else. ugh. and i guess at this point ive tentatively accepted the idea #of being bip0lar. so i swear to christ if i was misdiagnosed ill b so mad. its just that if i fill out an 4dhd and bip0lar checklist. i #get a way heavy positive with bip0lar and the 4dhd is meh. so i think i just have overlap in symptoms due to dyslex1a and 4utism #ugh. me and my collection of diagnoses. so it goes #unrelated

[brightokyolights]

sigh 😔

#so fucking frustrated with my sleep rn! #was trying to fix it so last night i slept like??? 3/4? hours? #and i literally refused to go anywhere near my bed all day. made sure i was always doing something and i waa quite productive tbh #only to feel exhausted at 10.30pm and think ok. Maybe you can sleep now and get a full sleep then wake up early #i can usually only sleep 6 hours at a time which is enough for me i think #anyways so i fall asleep. only to fucking wake up at 11pm. so i basically just had a nap #and i know what im like. i wont be able to sleep for at least a couple hours now so basically my sleep was fucked #i tried so hard to just force myself to lie back down and try to sleep again but i couldnt do it #i know its not that big a deal but im just so. fucking tired. and i guess i just kinda hate how hard i tried to sort my sleep just for it #to fail so miserably. like its usually not great. hasnt been for years but this is honestly on some other level. #anyways idk why im here complaining about it. will probably delete this later. time to go do whatever awake ppl do i guess #le text post