#and im trying to be productive before it starts

[jakes3resin]

im an advocate for bucky's curls™!! they're a very important character. it does mean i think about what if when they met and for the rest of the canon bucky has a military cut (or anything short) and that's how gale has known him. those curls don't make an appearance until they're in the camp and bucky's hair grows. gale already is "spacing out" when he sees bucky's longer hair but it's still matted with blood and dirt so he doesn't really get to see it properly. he doesn't get the full force of it until after the war when bucky has let it grow out more since and no dirt and grime can hide them. gale feels like he might lose his mind because he didn't think bucky could be any more prettier than he is but he nearly loses it when bucky mentions he might get a cut soon.

Anon you're so right about his curls being an important character. In my opinion and heart, they are the Main Character, and even thinking about them not being there hurts me. But I do like this scenario you've brought up!

Bucky with a shorter hairstyle during the war would be interesting. Maybe he lost a bet the first few days of training where he had to cut them short and decided he liked the shorter cut since he doesn't have time to take care of his curls during flight school. Gale never sees his curls at full power thus develops his obsession with them late.

Imagining the boys making it through the war without Bucky's Emotional Support Curls because Bucky just cuts them when he thinks they've grown out too much, its wild. But it compels me.

I think he'd look like the picture below.

(I'm adding this photo because I found it when I went on a wild internet journey this morning looking for pics of Callum. Enjoy)

After the war, Bucky decides to grow his hair out again, maybe to reclaim his Old Self, maybe because now he has time to take care of them which in turn is calming for him. The routine of haircare would potentially be very therapeutic for him I think. Maybe he even decides to grow them out to cover the scars on the back of his head. The reasons are endless, but very importantly, Gale does not factor into them (outside of Bucky potentially being into Gale pulling his hair during sex) because Gale's never expressed an interest in Bucky's hair. This will soon change.

His hair once grown out would look closer to these pictures.

Gale barely notices how Bucky's hair has been growing longer. It's one of those you see it every single day and don't really catalog the minute changes until it hits you like a frying pan to the head. The pair are both still trying to transition back into civilian life, and he's too focused on Bucky's health and his own nightmares to notice Bucky's hair, which he's never had to focus on before. Outside of battling for bathroom space now that Bucky's hair products take up most of the counter space (there are so many products, I lived with a curly haired girl for a few years trust me) Gale is oblivious to what is about to happen to him.

A while after he starts growing out his hair, Bucky goes back home to Wisconsin to see his mother for a few weeks. His hair grows more before the pair are reunited, so he definitely resembles the above photos. Bucky shows back up on their doorstep with a cheerful "Honey, I'm home!" that goes unanswered because Gale is frozen solid staring at him. Eyes wide, mouth open in shock, Gale experiences his first real look at The Curls.

Gale gets hit full force with the reality of Bucky's Curls, something he'd been vaguely aware of but didn't think about, and he wonders why he was denied such a sight until this moment.

With the sun setting just behind Bucky's frame, his curls are lit up. The rays showing off the highlights in his chestnut curls. The curls aren't tight and springy but loose and wavey. Bucky runs a hand through them, and Gale nearly falls to his knees.

It's official. Gale is enamoured. He's obsessed. He's running his hand over the soft curls (and pulling them just so), and Bucky melts into the touch. Gale will take any opportunity to touch Bucky's hair now. Walking by Bucky asleep on the couch? Perfect opportunity to run a gentle hand over his curls. A curl refuses to stay put and falls onto Bucky's face while he's reading? Gale's there to tuck it back into the style Bucky prefers. Bucky hurts his shoulder on accident and can't really lift his arm while it heals? Gale will gladly help Bucky wash his hair whenever he wants.

After a while, Bucky's hair grows too long, nearly hitting his shoulders, and he's starting to remember why he kept his hair cut short all those years. Maybe he offhandedly mentions over breakfast how he's gonna cut his hair, cut his curls off. Maybe he asks Gale to help him. Maybe he even mentions shaving them all off.

Gale would have preferred Bucky to shoot him.

Listen, those Curls are the 2nd most important thing in his life at this point (the first being Bucky himself of course). Gale won't admit to how much he relies on them to calm down on his bad days, but he will admit that he doesn't want them cut short, lost to him once more after he's just seen them. Gale begs Bucky not to, desperate to save Bucky's hair.

So the pair compromise. Gale will help Bucky cut his hair to whatever length he wants. He just won't help Bucky shave his hair off. Gale gets to run his hands through Bucky's hair, and Bucky gets to make Gale smile. A win-win if you ask them!

Bucky's Curls- keeping your flyboys sane since 1940!

#mota #masters of the air #asks #buck x bucky #john bucky egan #gale buck cleven #clegan #anon i recommend my curls fic if you haven't already read it #every fic i write includes me waxing poetic about bucky's curls but 'run my fingers through your hair' is my baby

[merverelli]

"im a magician, i just dont bang on about it"

missing marvin the magnificent hours </3

#jacksepticeye #marvin the magnificent #septicart #just like art #fun fact: this pose (???) and inspiration to draw marv again came from a comedy panel show my parents have gotten super into recently #hence the caption: its just a line from the bit this is from lmfao #also hello! im still waiting for uni to start up again #and im trying to be productive before it starts #so im going for my licence sometime soon (april lol) #and im currently hemorrhaging money from seeing doctors about this long term pain ive had for YEARS #going into the city to see one and its gonna be $300 bc life is nothing but agony and suffering #so im thinking about opening commissions???? its still super up in the air #ive only done commissions from people i know lmfao and even then it was stressful tbh #either that or i get another job lmfao #but besides that: ive been good! and i wish the same for you! good night!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

It's dead af at work. We got through our four reservations and have had no walk ins, and my manager won't cut me because he hates doing my job (and we're friends and he knows I need the money) and tbh I don't want to be cut (can't really afford to be) but I'm actually going insane from sitting on my stool, going through Tumblr, Insta, Kindle, then standing up and going through those apps again, then sitting down and going through those apps again, etc. it's nice to get paid to do nothing, because tbh if I was cut then I'd just be doing this but in my bed, but I'm getting so fucking restless.

#truly im unneeded rn #my other manager gave me the option to be cut before my shift even started but again. I'm broke af #so i came in. and im getting paid $15 an hour to scroll through all of my apps #and im trying to be mildly productive #trying to do some resding because i didnt resd as much as i wanted this month #to make up for it i finished three books in the last two days and im going for a fourth #one of them i had already started. one was pretty short. and one was so good that i tore through it fast #this is a more difficult story. about a school shooting. not super fun but a good story nonetheless #you ever read a book and then want to forget it so you can read it for the first time again? #i just read jumper by Melanie Crowder and it was so good. although apparently the diabetes information isnt accurate #but the story was very very good and kept me interested the whole way #the problem with this school shooting story is that its good. it draws my attention. but its understandably very hard to read #fourteen ish minutes until my paycheck goes through and then i find out if i can pay rent this month #that's part of why im restless too. nervous about paying rent. my job hours are unpredictable and so are the paychecks #i think ill be okay but as always im terrified that it wont #anyway im in a bit of a reading rut. if you hsve any book recs (not a big fan of fantasy. generally like realistic fiction. ya. lgbt) #that type of stuff. like jumper. the Miseducation of Cameron Post. message not found. stuff like that #open to recommendations #love yall. i hope you all have more thsn enough money to pay rent

[munamania]

trying not to be unjustifably angry that my professor is still in this room when i was waiting to project the rest of bottoms on the screen in the dark by myself. king...

#abby talks #it's fine... im being forced to do something productive i guess and trying to strategically work on this shit #but also. i did start my period today im just having a time and im so on edge i just wanna finish hanging out with my friends.. #ruby cruzs big ol doe eyes have been paused on my screen for the last like 24 hours. please let me watch her shit get busted come on man #i think he's just still here in case the kids in class practicing for their shoot have questions bc he was really abt to go up #before he checked on them. but like clocks tickin buddy! jk. well maybe if i get done with my assignment ill just ask him if he minds #if i put it on. lol

[coweggomelet]

every retail customer die challenge

#hot tip! when an employee of a store tells you they close in 2 minutes #that means to go buy your shit and get out #frankly it means you should've bought your shit and got out like ten minutes ago #but at the bare minimum #it does NOT mean #CONTINUE SHOPPING AT YOUR LEISURE AND SLOWLY WALK TO THE FRONT WHILE STILL LOOKING AT PRODUCTS SEVERAL MINUTES AFTER THE STORE HAS CLOSED #OR WAIT IN A LINE OF PEOPLE WAITING SEVERAL MINUTES AFTER CLOSE WITH ABOUT 30 FUCKING ITEMS #maim kill kill murder kill maim maim kill kill murder #one couple bought $300 worth of fake flowers and fall decorations that took me 20 minutes to ring up and they talked about me as if i wasnt #standing right fucking in front of me #another lady grabbed a pickup order and then when she realized some of her items weren't in stock #she asked me to double check and then 2 minutes before close started wandering around trying to find other options #four whole people formed a line at 9:01 and waited in line until i rang them all up #i want to hunt retail customers for sport #just as a little treat #im getting paid $10 to deal with pleasant people who think theyre so nice but clearly do not value other people's time #word vomit #keep

[quirkle2]

OBSESSED with how you draw sans,,, he's so lovely and shaped!!!! and the expressions are beautiful, and that art has the Quirkle Thing where it's all soft and warm and like a visual hug. and the details are beautiful, you've converted me to the "sans has reading glasses" agenda and I'm stoked about it. anyway I love you, I love your art, I hope 2023 is gentle to you!

CRIES???? oh mgygod thank you,,, it's rly fun seein what aspects of sans meld w my style and which ones dont. the more cartoony facial structure lets me play around w it a lil bit and i can mess w clothing hanging off thin bones instead of muscles n skin ! so so glad u like it im always worried abt people not likin non-lu art of mine GVEYIAV

#qktalks #anon #CAN I JUST . im so sorry i never shut up but like #i now see the fun in trying new things in my art instead of cornering myself in a box being afraid of branching out #when i was younger all i did was draw wolves and dogs. never humans. if i had never branched out i wouldn't be here ! #and for a while i refused to use color in my art cuz it would ''ruin'' it. now i can't seem to post smth colorless at all #when i started drawing ledge and wars and Nobody else i was afraid to try the other boys #and before that initial sans post from the other day i was afraid to try n draw sans again in case i messed it up and it sucked #but it ended up being one of my fav pieces of this year #and also sans' face in the sketch of that piece ?? it's Completely different from the final product #i messed around for quite a while until i found out what worked w my style and what didn't #when i was younger i wouldve gotten discouraged and quit by the second attempt #but i guess i've learned to have patience and trust the process ?? #sorry im talkin sm abt Myself that's gross but like . im just giddy abt Getting Better yaknow #the improvement is there!!!! i can see it!!! that'sso fucking wild #if only 14-year-old me could know . she gave up drawing for a whole year #if she knew what she could do in a couple of years she never woulda quit #anyway enough of that SANS WITH READING GLASSES WOOOOOOOOO #adore the idea of it #his glasses don't have the temples on them bc there's . no ear to rest them on #they just stay there with a lil sprinkle of magic #i hope 2023 is gentle to u as well anon!!! tysm ur so so sweet

[sharkieboi]

everyone’s talking all these sophisticated points about Glass Onion but i personally cannot get over the lingering camera shot on the ass of the statue Benoit hides behind to eavesdrop on Miles and Peg

#shhh sharkie #i s2g they spent longer focusing on the ass than on Benoit’s reaction #trying to finish watching this tonight! i started yesterday but then K called and we were on the phone for like an hour and a half #fun convo very good to talk but at the end i was like ‘welp i just used up the energy and attention span i had been devoting to this movie’ #and went to bed. so finishing it today hopefully #idk how like adhd motivated i am to watch it but im tired of seeing gifsets and posts about it and not being able to interact #i think i ended up seeing the first Knives Out in theaters but i had waited long enough that i was almost fully spoilered at that point #which like to be clear: i don’t care THAT much about spoilers #cause usually all the important details for the spoilers aren’t in the actual spoilers #it’s like I got the beginning and the end of the puzzle but all the steps to make that puzzle make sense are missing #but with the OG I waited long enough that I did end up getting spoiled for those middle details #and I spent more of the movie looking for those subtle clues instead of just letting myself experience them #anyway! i also took my adhd meds today cause i had work so we’re still in the timeframe for a slightly more neurotypical attention span #did not take my meds over my weekend cause i wasn’t sure i was going to be able to get them refilled before work #so this weekend was kinda a total write-off wrt actual productivity. #i did fun stuff but not important stuff #*stares at the giant pile of clean laundry that has not been put away*

[partyinthemysterymachine]

me @ me "you're supposed to be editing and making it shorter and more concise and not adding a bunch of new paragraphs and words to the damn thing so shut the fuck UUUUUUPPPPPPP" while working on writing the next chapter of goomt challenge

#ches writes #goomt #:3c dontcha guys just LOVE me when i do this :3cccccccc????????????? #yeah. i sure do love me too <3 i'm having a blast :) (no i'm not. omg me shut uUUPPPPPPPPP LMAOOO) #(ME @ ME UR WORSE THAN H A R R Y SOMETIMES STFUUUUUUUUUUUUU) #im sorry gang. i just like to want to be able to tell a story 😔 gomen nasai minna-sans 😔😔😔😔😔🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 #yet this is my Curse to Bear; so SUCK IT (@ me @ me @ u @ me) #(no rly i pwomis i'm working on it LOL) #(i unfortunately just have to Write Out A Bunch Of Words before i can Start To Cut Them All Out (Again™️)) #THAT'S ALL #lmao maybe One Day i'll try to keep and release The Writing Process #and show what the original states of a previous chapter of GOOMT looks like before the Final Product goes out lol #idk would u guys like that?? would u like to see it?? Asking Honestly ngl #and no harm done if not <3 For Real tho my feelings won't be hurt it's just a Curiosity of mine :3c #anyway BYE i gotta go grab me some more Energy Dranks 😩😔 #(i subside mostly on Adderall; frozen pizzas from Target; and Lots of Energy Drinks. idk does it show?? LOL #(don't answer that it's rhetorical i know that it does <333 I'M AN ARTIST AND A GEMINI OK. LIFE IS MY CHAOS)) #and u all just get to Observe It <3 Lucky U LOL #ok byyyeeeee~~~

[maraschinotopped]

sorry. i put the blorbo in the oven and i burnt him :(

#[boom! crash! bang!] #i am starting to realize that we do not know how to use this oven yet #(<- has either burnt or undercooked everything that they've put in said oven) #anyways ahhshdhshdhfhdf hes been burnt. im so sorry bomberman i didnt mean to #yes this is the result of me trying to bake aka solidify the figure ive been working on for the past few weeks #my attempt as this has resulted in is his left side being burnt/slightly melted and his arm has now wrapped around #to the back of his head #he is also leaning backwards on the stand (but he is still able to stand upright :) ) #this is the culmination of about 6 hours of work baby!!!!! #spread across. a month actually #hfdsjghjhds #also yeah i do have better pictures of the finished (burnt) product #but i think its funnier if its just this blurry picture #i think ill just reblog this with better pictures + how he looked before baking him

[mrbingley]

firmly in my loser era and trying to be okay with it but remarkably failing even at that.

#how... do people... get a job... that pays enough to pay rent. #ive been jobless for two years (not that my job before the pandemic even paid enough to afford rent). #i barely leave the house or talk to ppl in person in ‘real’ life. i feel...... like a loser. #i see ppl sad and mad about getting an entry level job that pays $30000 #(and yes i agree you should get paid more) and i feel so bitter and jealous. #i wish i /wish/ i could make that much money. that much money is a dream to me. #im tearing up just thinking about it. #idk what im doing with my life. idk how to get a job. and be a productive functioning person. #i dont think id mind feeling like a loser if that didnt also make me feel like an embarrassing burden to my family. #all im ever thinking about at all times is what i should be doing: #i should be applying to more jobs or i should be writing on a schedule #and publishing my online novel to try to make money off of it #or i should start knitting for profit and sell what i make or i should set up a fiver #and try to sell my graphic making abilities or i should try to make and post graphics consistently #to build up a social media presence so i can profit off that or etc etc etc. #it’s so exhausting thinking like this. i cant stop. because i need to make money. it’s all im ever thinking about it #and it makes it so hard to create genuinely and freely and happily. im so exhausted thinking like this. #i wish i had a job so i could stop thinking like this. it’s unrelenting. incessant. it invades every moment. #even the moments im trying to give myself a break. they dont feel like a break. because ill be watching a video #but thinking ‘you dont have a job you should be trying to do something about that you should be trying to make money #you should be trying to become a more functional person why are you so unproductive why cant you just sit down and work’. #i wish i knew how to sit down and work! to make myself be productive! #i wish i did! i wish i could! but i don’t know how! i don’t think im capable of doing it on my own. or maybe even at all. #J: text #J: life #im sorry this is my monthly making a sad post about this same topic post. that i then delete a day later. #im sorry. i wish i wasnt making this post too.

[horanghey]

sometimes im grateful that i basically wasnt allowed to wear makeup growing up but other times (like now) I'm so annoyed that i never went against my mom and just experimented with products

#like for graduation im going bare faced because I have literally no products and I'm not about to go and buy some and experiment with stuff #for such an important event ygm #and the grateful part is mainly because Im so susceptible to hating my appearance that makeup would just make things worse for me #like filters made me believe i looked like someone i don't and when i would see my actual face and i didn't like what i saw #......still trying to fix that tbh but i have a loooong way to go #and i know w makeup i would start to prefer my face with it to the point where id find my bare face ugly.......... #but anyway....these eye bags aren't going anywhere and i look sickly (bc anemia and stress hahahahaha) and the only way to look even a litt #decent would be to do makeup but IM NOT GONNA DO THAT #literally tried practicing eyeliner last week and i did so bad that i knew there was no way #i could practice and get good before next week LDKSAFJLDKJSAFKD #damn thats a lot of tags.... #sorry i had coffee when i didnt need the caffeine and I'm avoiding starting this paper #so here i am yapping about something stupid #tastalks

[zipstick]

when you want to learn how to act but the drama a level is only designed to teach you how to pass the exam

#TWENTY MARKS #TWENTY MARKS ON THE ENTIRE TWO YEAR COURSE IS WHAT YOU GET FOR YOUR ACTUAL PERFORMANCE #everything else is just fucking essays. i wanted to take a drama class not just glorified english. i mean i like english dont get me wrong #but its just not what i signed up for. this is why i maintain that courses based around standardised exames are useless #if youre trying to teach the arts. physics and maths and chemistry and all that are fine cause its FACT but art is SUBJECTIVE #all my classmates and even some of my friends who didnt even take the a level are in like drama clubs and theatre productions and stuff #and here i am having never acted on stage or on camera once in my whole life and god i just. dont even know where to start looking #theyre always talking about this weekend drama club they go to and its the first ive ever heard of it #except theyre at the age where it's their last year before they have to stop going to it cause they're too old for it and im just like #what am i supposed to do? yknow? and i just feel really hopeless about everything #how am i supposed to carpe the diem in an environment like this. tldr i hate the british education system and i am in need of mental help #my ramblings

[immamapletreekid]

once again impressed at just how quickly a new piece of media can take over my waking hours

#so the ppl were right...hannibal really is brain chemistry altering. in fact its scary how powerful it is #ive read through..;;;all the wikipedia pages for all 36 episodes in an evening instead of doing anything productive #before i realized it. the whole afternoon was gone. fuck #no regrets (will have many regrets come tomorrow morning) #ok but back to the topic at hand. all wikipedia articles. several other character wiki pages #SEVERAL SEVERAL VERY VERY VERY WELL WRITTEN TUMBLR ANALYSES ON THE SHOW #a good few made me have to put my phone down punch my bed a few times then walk several circles around my room flailing my arms about #bc of the shivers they gave me #god some of u ppl out there are so cool so incredibly skilled with an eye for these things #also went down deep dives on youtube for interviews.. the actors breaking down their characters. fan made compilations #again im particularly a big fan of the video compiling nearly every single cannibal pun made in the show #i feel like a new person again. a persona 3 obsession followed right after by this?!?!?!!!! ive never felt as alive as #when theres a piece of media that consumes all my thoughts. every minute im awake. nothing except the world and the story and the characters #and just how fucking incredible these pieces of media are at weaving the theme so deeply into every fibre of the series #actuslly if i try very hard. ims ure i csn find similarities between persona and hannibal that appealed to me #lately persona 3 has still got an iron grip on me. but that grip has been strengthened furthermore by persona 4 and 5....;;; truly this #this may be the end for me I JUST WANNA SPEND MT DAYS CURLED UP IN MY ROOM OBSESSING OVER THESE THINGS #no stress coming from school or job searching or money or social obligations or just. idk being a person is hard sometimes #passion is so important. like actuslly im going to start crying its so good to be passionate about something #ppl who are passionate about their stuff their thing their knowledge are so cool #im tired now and am going to sleep maybe. after rbing a few more things i keep seeing that cause thst little jolt of #excitement happiness goosebumps and shivers and i need to save tjem for times when it feels i have no passion left to absorb from the world #rambling about stuff

[mrfoox]

Ok i think im getting a crush on my work colleague and I am tired

The suprise is that the one I'm crushing on ISN'T the giant, kind older brother type that is super considerate

#miranda talking shit #Hes so much my type its hilarious but its not him im .... Yeah. #One reason as to why is probably bc we dont spend much time during work togheter so we don't talk much #Its usually before work starts we talk for 20m or so #But no... The one that i feel myself falling for is an girl 7 yrs older than me... #Its probably bc she seem to actually listen to me talk? She asks me questions... Im used to being that person #So i naturally talk more easy with her since she shows interest #She's very calm and evenly tempered and im just 😳 #Doesnt help she told ME first about an thing/idea she camr up with to make production better #She came up with it the day before when i wasnt there. But instead of telling our boss or the others #She excitedly told me the next day as soon as she saw me. Her face was so intense and excited i ♥️ #I have a thing for anyone whos rather calm collected and even with their expression. #Showing extra emotion. When i saw that face of hers last week i was like. Shit. Ok. This is making my chest stirr uh oh #Shes probably straight tho and I'd like to try to find out before i actually am in too deep

[bi-writes]

hmm im thinking about it being the first night simon stays over, and you show him how to take off his makeup. (18+)

he looks tired. you stand in the kitchen, loading the dishwasher with the remnants from dinner. you don't want to spend time washing the full sink, you just want to sit next to him and soak up the warmth of him--you had missed him, and all you want to do is curl up next to him and nuzzle your face into his mask and finally get him into your bed, under your covers.

he's never slept over. he's always been adamant about that. always lacing up his boots after the movie, kissing you through the mask after a warm date, tucking you in when you get too tipsy and leaving water by the bedside table. he always goes, and even if he comes back in the morning, he always makes sure he does not stay over.

even when he fucked you the first time--he waited until you fell asleep, and then he left, and he came back in the morning with breakfast, but you knew he went home because he smelled fresh and he was wearing different clothes.

but tonight, he's staying. because you finally asked, and how could he say no to those pretty eyes? to that sweet little pout?

the distance, he was always trying to maintain it. but it was useless. you are not temporary. there is no end date. he can't keep letting you linger at arm's length.

you're soft and sweet, and your cunt is the same, and when he isn't thinking about being cock-deep in you, he's dreaming of your soft voice and your pretty smile and the tender way you kiss him and the way you hug. the all-encompassing, enveloping way you put him at ease. his rage builds, and one look at you, and it is gone.

as if it never mattered in the first place. as if it was never there at all.

so he agreed to stay. his bag sits heavy in your bedroom, clean clothes inside, and his toothbrush is in the same holder as yours in the bathroom. he lingered on it when he had put it there; two versus one. he never wants to see his toothbrush alone ever again.

he blinks awake when he feels a warm hand on his shoulder. he's still wearing his army fatigues, black cargo pants and his windbreaker, the skull balaclava tucked under his long sleeve to hide any skin. his holsters are still around his thighs, but they are empty, and his vest is on the floor by the door, where his boots are. he feels your warmth even through the layers, and he leans towards it without thinking.

you kiss the side of his head, cupping under his chin gently.

"tired, simon?" you coo softly. "'s alright. we should get you in bed. been a long day."

"mm...olright," he murmurs, and you look up at him as he stands, and he towers over you, making you feel small, but safe. he's a bear, and he's yours, and he's staying.

you take his hand gently, and he follows you. you stand side-by-side in the bathroom, and you smile at him in the mirror as he unzips his windbreaker, revealing the hoodie underneath. his eyes meet yours, and he winks, and you smile wider, especially when his hand falls, smacking your ass nice and firm.

"wot, luv? somethin' funny, yeah?"

you shake your head and laugh, and then you reach for the headband in the drawer, slipping it over you as you prepare to wash your face. you slip a few products out onto the counter, and your mouth goes dry when simon grips his mask from the back of his head and pulls it completely off.

he is so handsome. his nose is crooked; he's broken it a few times, that's for sure. there's a scar deep across his face, jagged over his lips, and you've felt it when you've kissed him before, but it's jarring to see it. there's a few more across his other cheek, along his forehead, and you break out into nervous giggles as you meet his dark eyes. the eye-black around his eyes has shifted with the fabric of the mask and with sweat, but he still looks hot.

really hot.

you swallow hard and turn the sink on, wetting your hands. simon reaches to do the same, and you watch as he brings his wet hands up and starts to wash his face. immediately, the eye-black just smears, and he has to move more over the sink as he continues to wash.

"simon?"

"'s olright. just takes a few minutes for it to come off."

you smile, "here, i...let me help."

he turns the water off, wiping his face on his sleeve, and you giggle when he looks into the mirror and realizes all he's done is smear the black across his cheeks. he laughs with you, deep and gravelly, and you reach into the drawer and pull out two bracelets made of absorbent fabric.

"give me your hands," you say softly, and he does, and you slip the bracelets over his wrists. "keeps the water from running down your arms."

"fuckin' annoyin' when it does that," he grumbles, and you smile. you reach across the counter, opening a small jar.

"it's called double cleansing. you take this balm--" you get a dime-sized amount onto your finger and you put it into his hand, "--and then you rub it into your hands until it becomes...kinda oily. it'll take off all of...that--" you motion to the black streaks along his face.

"oi, are y'on the piss?" he laughs, "it'll take it oll'off?"

you giggle and nod, "yeah. try it."

he rubs his hands together, warming up the balm, and then he reaches up and massages it into his face. you watch, biting back more laughs, when he realizes how much easier the eye-black moves, coming off onto his hands. when he washes it off, it's nearly gone, and then you give him a dollop of face wash to help rinse the rest away. he dries his face on a towel, grinning in the mirror, and you hug his arm gently as he takes the bracelets off.

your eyes meet again in the mirror, and he smooths his hands down your waist, moving you in front of him, leaning over your and putting his face into your neck. he warms the skin there with soft kisses, and you laugh, buzzing with delight.

"you're so beautiful, luv," he growls in your ear, and you close your eyes.

"you're...y-you're beautiful, too, simon."

"yeah? come off it."

never. you'll never come off whatever high you're on now. you reach up and hold onto him, as much as you can grab, and you close your eyes as you kiss, his lips on yours, something hot in your chest and something soft in your insides.

you hold onto him tighter. you will not let go.

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