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meanbossart · 2 months

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Asks about VaM, art advice, and miscellaneous stuffs

HI! Real quick please refrain from referring to Sad Sack as S/S for the uh... Obviously reasons LOL We call it "sads" for short!

If what you're asking for are recommendations for a website to host that kind of thing, Neocities, Twitter, Itchio and as you mentioned AO3 are all perfectly good options! Patreon too (depending on how gnarly you're planning on getting) but I'd suggest keeping that as a secondary host option because I don't think it lends itself super well for getting your work circulating. I believe Bluesky allows that kind of thing too, but I'm not too sure since I don't use it.

Now, If you're asking about public reaction rather than guidelines, anywhere you go you might find people that don't jive with the work you do 🤷 just be upfront about the type of content you're making right off the bat to avoid having anyone stumble upon it by accident to the best of your abilities, otherwise, I wouldn't worry too much. I know we're constantly exposed to examples of overwhelming harassment and "dogpilling" happening to others but... Truth be told, most of us won't ever get to the size/internet level of fame where we experience that. I think the threat is a little bit... Overstated, nowadays. Not to mention that most of the time people are getting harassment for things that have nothing to do with their work, and rather relating to their behavior and attitudes. Play smart, be responsible, and be honest! Whatever comes next is in god's hands LOL

Thank you for the ask! Not sure I was of much help 😅 but frankly when you're just starting out it's best to focus on getting the work done first and just throwing it out there, wherever it may be. You can worry about technicalities like that later!

I GOT YOU MAN the full sketch is now up on my patreon!

YES AND YES WHETHER IT BE STORIES OR ART OF DU DROW AND YOUR CHARACTERS SLAMMING PINTS TOGETHER BE MY GUEST PLEASE

I love seeing everyone's take on my weirdo so much, anything is honestly welcomed!

AW DUDE thank you so much! Especially for suffering through the mammoth of a story that ANE turned into - writing has never been my strongest point so I'm always shocked to hear from people that enjoy it 🥲

About the booze question, honestly I'm not picky at all, I usually go by price and by that I mean whatever is cheapest LOL but I prefer a dry white as far as types go.

You only have to pay for it once! You get a code that unlocks the software and all of it's features and you're free to cancel your subscription after that. At some point the code might change or there might be an update that requires subscribing again - but that seems like a very rare occurrence so I wouldn't worry about it.

OH NO I HAVE DEFINITELY TRACED MY OWN REFERENCE BEFORE, but not entire poses! When something is challenging I'll make a point of drawing it out the usual way.

I can remember a couple of instances from Nick and mine's comic where I traced pictures I took of myself, just as a time saving measure. Again like I said in the post, there are several ways to employ tracing your own material that is perfectly acceptable. I have also traced bare-bones 3D backgrounds that I made for the same reasons.

I know you specifically asked about tracing when something's complicated, but I still wanted to be upfront to demystify the practice under different circumstances. The rule of thumb is to never use it when you know it would be inhibiting your skill development!

Happy to hear you wanted to pick up the skill! I definitely understand the urge too LOL since playing BG3 and becoming so invested in the stories and characters my art has improved a ton, simply from forcing me out of my usual style and making me want to capture different moods and scenarios - finding something you're passionate to draw is, frankly a great damn start.

I replied to a bunch of asks asking for pointers and advice a while back, one of the questions was very similar to yours and I still stand behind the advice I gave then. Hopefully you can find something helpful here! https://meanbossart.tumblr.com/post/740543514692173824/some-art-advice-asks-ive-been-meaning-to-reply

HMMM I don't usually think of myself as the best teacher/tutorial guy, but funnily enough I can think of a few things about this topic that I could elaborate on lol. If I do that in the near future, I'll put it up on my patreon (for free as with everything else.)

If there are any specific things about it that you (and anyone else who would be interested in it, for that matter) find challenging and would like for me to focus on, let me know!

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That's all for now folks, and as usual thank you so much to everyone who's left a nice compliment, word of encouragement or funny tidbit in my inbox as well! I can't reply to you all individually, but I see and read all the messages I get c:

HAVE A LOVELY REST OF YOUR WEEK

#lore asks coming either later today or tomorrow!#I might reply to a few right now/space them out rather than do another compilation #we'll see how I feel about it!#ask compilation

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sil3ntfr34k · 4 days

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Postal 4 boyfriend Headcanons

(Guess who found about how to do a buillted list insides of manually putting dots :D)

Mans is probably in his early 40’s and feeling every second of it.

He’s not much a romantic, but he knows how to love. Like he knows he’s supposed to give you gifts, listen to you rant, support you in anything, hug you, give affection and words of encouragement, the whole sha-bang. Is he good at it tho? Kinda,,,

You probably met him during his ‘job hunting’, when he was running around this a sign that said something along the lines of “Willing to do something strange for a bit of change”. Caught your attention IMMEDIATELY

You thought he wasn’t too bad looking, something of a roughed up silver fox. He was pretty toned for someone his age, forearms are pretty big and that’s just what you needed. You ended up taking him up on his offer and made him clean out your gutters. You just sat there and watched as he worked himself throwing out heaps of wet leaves and random junk from your gutters.

He came out obvious dirty so you gifted him $40 and a shower. It’s like heavens light shined upon him when he heard the words “You can take a shower here if you’d like?” fall from your mouth was enough for him to marry you in that moment.

Postal Dude has been raw dogging it homeless style for a couple months up to this point, so any kind of reward he came across was a fortune to him. Gladly accepting this kind gesture, he was still thrown out for the rest of the day. You both came upon an agreement that he could stay the nights on your couch, but he still had to go ‘job hunting’ during the days. Didn’t matter to him, he still accepted it. As long as he had a safe place to sleep with Champ.

Side note, you loathe Champ being around during the day since he digs holes everywhere in your front AND back yard, so you make Dude take Champ with him everyday. Dude doesn't mind since Champ is kinda like an attack dog so homie very useful when Dude's walking around

Once your relationship with Dude has reached it's peak (dating), he becomes very attentive and energetic. Where he was once tired and reclused, he's now got some energy in him and filled with affection

Dude loves to be around you and touching you. Biggest love languages are quality time and physical touch, sometimes words of affirmation if he's feeling extra sappy. He's probably been through the works of brutal relationships, so he really wants to settle down, which leads me to my next thought

Mans is getting old and creaky. Sure he's still got muscle and all, but they're honestly just for show. He couldn't hold back Champ from attacking someone he isn't supposed to even if his life depended on it. So, he's staring to wear down and just wants to find someone to relax with.

Red flag time, he's talking about marriage about 2 months into the relationship and tries to move his scrap in without you noticing, which usually fails. It's not that he's using you for your home, Dude just wants to feel like he's finally in a normal relationship. No bitchy attitudes being thrown around, no constant nagging for something stupid, no arguing over small things, no constant threats, just y’all being in love together

Eventually your gonna have to let Champ wonder the house and train him to be a guard dog rather than just an attack dog. You’re definitely the one to look up dog training classes and making Dude go with you to these said classes.

Even with how much he loves to be around you, there are still times when his mental and physical illnesses make him ill 😔 but he still tries to snap out of it

His main problems are most likely his chronic muscle pains and his auditory schizophrenia. (I think all the dudes are some sort of schizo, it’s just that p1 and p2 are the strongest showing ones)

Being older means his body is slowly deteriorating. Sure he’s not that old, but with how he lived in his golden age, he should really be dead. Constantly on the run from the government, having to stay sharp to kill, and fucking his way through Paradise and Edensin, he’s ready to just lay down and let the earth reclaim him

Having a long history of schizophrenia in the family and his own lifetime, it’s thankfully dwindled down to just hearing voices randomly. Since he can only hear these voices it doesn’t scare him as bad as it used to. All he can really hear is a distant conversation that he can’t make out the words to, it’s sort of like a mumbling between a woman and a man. Many times you’ve found him franticly wondering the house with a confused look on his face saying “I thought there was people in here?”

Overall, he’s an old man who’s been through enough and would just like to relax. Give him kisses, give him cuddles, feed him, and talk to him, and he’ll love you for eternity (so gay)

#postal #p1 dude #running with scissors #postal 4 #postal headcanons #postal dude x reader #postal game #postal 3 dude #postal x male reader #postal x reader #x reader

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eds6ngel · 9 months

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beth!!! I saw your post about Robin finding out that the reader is bisexual, do you think you could do the same except put Eddie in Robin's place??? sorry if i misspell a word, english is not my language 😅

of course i can honey!! and by the way, your english is great <33

warnings: fem!reader. pre-established relationship. pet names. swearing. mentions of homophobia. eddie being an ally. coming out. one mention of sex. comfort. fluff. both r and eddie are 20 [0.9k].

You and Eddie had been together since your junior year. You were both pathetically in love with each other, extremely open and no conversation was ever off the table. Which meant you allowed Eddie to talk about girls he found attractive, whether that be out in public or through the form of a celebrity. You trusted him with your life that he would never leave you, and coming up to three years going strong, it seemed that you were correct to make that assumption.

Eddie was on his third attempt of senior year, him afraid that his inability to grasp the education system would encourage you to leave him, but you did the exact opposite. You loved him to pieces, no amount of the flawed academic structure would change your mind about that. Even you didn’t take the formal route of college, your dream of becoming a writer meaning that no amount of student debt would improve the skills you had built up in your life. And Eddie supported your career choice, you spending your free time working on your latest book whilst working at a local bakery to help the Munsons pay their bills, you moving in with them shortly after you graduated high school.

However, there’s one topic that never got brought up, because in all honesty, you never thought it needed to be. You had been struggling to grasp your sexuality since you were a child, constantly flicking back and forth between men and women, society pressuring you to choose one, even if one of the options got you berated.

Luckily one day, you came across the term bisexuality, liking men and women, and everything fell into place. But, when Eddie would point out the hot women on the TV screen, you couldn’t help but shrivel up in your seat, knowing that you too found them attractive in the same way he did, not just in an admirable way like he assumed.

The constant agreements of “Mhmm, she’s pretty,” whenever Eddie would focus on Phoebe Cates would rip you apart, when on the inside you were screaming, “She’s the most gorgeous woman I’ve ever seen in my life.”

So, when Eddie decided to rent out a movie called “Desert Hearts,” a story about a female New York professor who falls for another woman whilst staying on a ranch, your heart couldn’t help but flutter. You had an idea he was accepting, Eddie not making any fuss when two boys got outed as gay at Hawkins High, but this was your full confirmation that he had the same attitude towards gay men and gay women.

“I can’t believe this is what people have a problem with,” Eddie complains, “I mean, Back to the Future had Marty find his own mom hot, but suddenly two women falling in love is the worst thing in the world.”

“You don’t mind?” you ask, curled up to Eddie’s chest as he strokes your hair.

“Not only do I not mind sweetheart, I really don’t care,” he admits, “Like, why in the hell would I care if two women are kissing, or cuddling, or even sleeping together for that matter? It’s not my life, and personally… I get it. Like, women are hot, I understand.”

You slightly laugh, nibbling at your fingernails in nervousness as Eddie looks down at you, “Why? Do you have a problem with it?”

“No, not at all… The complete opposite actually,” you purse your lips and frown, “Baby, can I tell you something?”

“Of course princess, anything you want.”

You sigh out, sitting up as you admit your deepest secret that you’ve ever kept hidden from him, “I like women too…”

He remains silent for a minute, letting out a quiet “Oh,” as you don’t look at each other, the both of you afraid of what the other will think. There’s one thing saying it, but when you are faced with it in reality, you can change your mind. You trusted Eddie with your life, but there was something inside of you afraid that, that could happen.

“Well… I’m proud of you for telling me sweetheart,” he says softly, “I can’t lie that after all these years, it does sting a little, but I hope you find the girl for you.”

You brows furrow in confusion, before you click on what you said, “Wait, baby, baby,” you shake your head, chuckling at your own words, a sense of embarrassment flooding your head, “I meant I like women too, as in, as well as men.”

“Oh,” he exclaims, breathing out and letting his head fall into your shoulder, wrapping his arms around your middle as he laughs, yours playing with the hairs at the back of his head. “Jesus fucking Christ sweetheart, are you trying to give me a heart attack?”

He lifts his head up, you placing your hands on his cheeks, “I’m sorry,” you quietly say, “But, yeah… That’s not a problem… is it?”

He lifts his eyebrows and snorts, “You still like men, you still like me, so… I think we’re okay,” he smiles, chuckling and leaning in to press a soft kiss to your lips, one that you gladly return.

“But…” he starts, “You know… if you really are just exclusively into women, you can tell me. Will it hurt like a bitch? Yes. But, in all honesty babe, it’s probably the best way to get broken up with,” he softly laughs.

“I promise you, I find both men and women extremely attractive. And out of everyone in the world, you rank the top of that list,” you flirt, Eddie slightly blushing as he presses a kiss to your neck, hugging you once again, the pair of you separating to shift into your previous comfy position.

“Okay, but now I have to ask,” he says, “Phoebe Cates is hot, right?”

You grin up at him, biting your lip, “So fucking hot.”

this was a lil short one, but i hope you enjoyed regardless!! <33

#eds6ngel #eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson fluff #eddie munson x fem!reader #eddie munson x you #eddie munson comfort #eddie munson fanfic #eddie munson fic #eddie munson blurb #eddie munson boyfriend #eddie munson x bisexual!reader #eddie munson x y/n #eddie munson x female reader #eddie munson imagine #eddie munson x bisexual reader #stranger things

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orange-orchard-system · 1 month

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I do enjoy being able to make a difference in people's lives, whether that's helping them with a big discovery, reassuring them that they're not the only ones with a particular experience, sharing a tip they find helpful, or just letting them know that, hey, plurality exists! Here are some basic terms for it! Here is how it applies to what you were talking about and why I think you might like to know about it! ... All of that fills me with pride.

But... sometimes I really hate that being myself like this is a radical act. That a lot of the work I do is really nothing more than unabashedly being myself for others to see, and the implications that has on how little plurality is known, how unsure and afraid so many of us are, how many misconceptions and assumptions are made about being more-than-one. That who I am is something I have to educate others on, something I have to be cautious about opening up to others about, and not something I can just casually mention. I'm happy that people can learn about plurality and themselves through my actions, but... it's bittersweet, because it reminds me of how unknown we are; that we have a long way to go in terms of awareness and acceptance of even the most clear-cut, well-known, easy-to-understand presentations of plurality.

I'm not new to this conundrum. Long before we started working with the plural community, we've been hanging out in queer communities, especially aspec communities. If I had a cupcake for every time I heard a "bringing out the PowerPoint to explain my sexuality/gender identity" joke, I'd have enough cupcakes to fill up the entire dessert table at a potluck, and probably have some spill over the edges onto the floor.

It's just... sometimes I fantasize about laws for plural rights and protections being passed. The work it will take to reach that point* is so daunting, and while I am hopeful about reaching it in my lifetime, it doesn't change that I am currently a tired uni student who is still trying to figure out what to do with my career. I am writing analyses on medical texts that mention DID in-between my assignments for class. I am posting jokes about my system when my fatigue leaves me lying at the top of the stairs, unable to do anything but scroll on my phone. There is so, so much to do and I am so, so limited in what I can do.

* to me, this point in plural activism and progress is half symbolic and half a literal goal I hope we achieve together. Symbolic, because at that point, we will have made such significant strides in awareness in acceptance that even politicians and government authorities cannot ignore us any longer. Literal, because pluralphobia and its parent bigotries are still serious problems, and I'd like to hope legal protection would improve at least some systems' lives.

My system is so important to me. I don't hate them. But sometimes I hate that the world is at odds with us. Sometimes I hate that I can't just be.

[I'm not giving up any of the work I'm currently doing, if that was a concern any of you had while reading this. I've just been thinking about how] the plural community is one that never really feels quiet in the way other communities I've been in feel quiet. There's always this underlying feeling, this go-go-go attitude, this sense that one of the main reasons we stick together is because no one else gets it, and we're constantly fighting against the tide for a moment to breathe. We're not constantly drowning – I see many stories of acceptance and support out there. But we're a community very aware of the water snapping at our heels, I'd say.

Goodness, I love the work we are all doing. I love each and every story of success. But sometimes I wish we could all have a quiet night in.

#plurality #pluralgang #actuallyplural #plural system #actuallydid #front soup.txt

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good-beans · 8 months

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hi i'd like to know about your transfem fuuta thoughts please. if that's ok

"if that's ok" as if I haven't been rotating transfem fuuta in my mind for a long time and dying for an excuse to post something 👀👀👀 Thank you so much Ah!! I was able to format my little ideas and headcanons into an actual write-up, I just love this concept so much! All the big murderous twists in the series and I’ll never get over it is what it is...

So, as much as I enjoy headcanons about some big revelation moment, I think that Fuuta Terminally Online Kajiyama has been very aware of his identity for a while. He just never really got the motivation to do anything about it. He knows he's not completely satisfied with his gender, but isn't constantly suffering over it, so he thinks telling people/transitioning would be way too much of a hassle at that point in his life. He also struggles with people taking him seriously given his height, attitude, etc -- unconsciously he's also worried it will only make matters worse in that area.

He wouldn't dare say anything to his parents, and wants to avoid hassle with his friends. People paint them as judgy incels sometimes, but if they were really calling out ‘bad guys’ online, I always got the vibe they were those annoying type of progressives who will harass people for not being accepting in the perfect correct way, you know? They'd be outwardly supportive but there's still a level of high expectations and performance that comes with it, and so deep down Fuuta understands there'd be a "hassle," but can't really define why.

I mentioned in another hc post that Fuuta and his sister have a silent supportive relationship. I feel like she's the one person in his life who knows everything and is super accepting -- this is understood even though neither have said anything out loud. (When he was younger, she definitely forced him into skirts, dresses, and accessories "to check something for her beautician work.") She's noticed all the times he's picked a female avatar in games, or cosplayed in ambiguous outfits.

Then, Milgram. Thinking his life will be over soon anyway, he opens up to a few of the prisoners about himself. Their unexpected openness keeps it on his mind more often than before. Still, nothing changes. Through some rocky verdicts, he's declared innocent and released.

Back in the real world, he's pretty fucked up from the whole ordeal, and starts off extremely isolated. He's in touch with his family, but distant. He maintains contact with some of the other released prisoners, but it starts off only over the phone. He changes schools or maybe drops out completely. Having deleted all online accounts after the incident, he gets to work setting up a new online presence. He was planning on using an alias anyways, and goes with something gender neutral. "To be extra safe that no one guesses it's me," he tells himself.

Letting his hair grow out begins as an accident -- just a side effect of never going out or minding his appearance. One day he realizes how long he's let it go and grabs some scissors to cut it. He makes a comment in his chat, and someone begs him to send a picture first. He goes to take it, but is suddenly disgusted and ashamed of his self-neglect. He's forced to make himself selfie presentable first: brushing his hair and throwing on something clean real quick. When he goes to take the picture, he realizes it looks good. It feels good. He puts the scissors away.

Soon, the prisoners/some new online friends coax Fuuta to hang out more. That's when she decides to reintroduce herself into society as someone new. She ventures out with the name of a favorite video game character. (I'm going to continue saying Fuuta because I genuinely can't name a single popular character from games she'd play, but just picture the most painfully obvious one you can. The kind you hear and go "oh okay. You play X too much, huh." And please send me your thoughts so I can work them into my own personal canon 👀)

She doesn't have any hatred towards her deadname, it's more the pain of association: she remembers it said accusingly from the mouths of ex-friends. She remembers that name being called a murderer. She's not trying to deny/run from that past, she just wants to be someone better. Well, some days it is her way of running away, but most of the time it's a healthy separation from the past.

Encouraged by the positive reception and abundance of privacy in her isolation, she finally starts to explore her appearance more. Mikoto left behind some earrings during a visit -- she pierces her ears herself and tries them on. (If she doesn't like them, the holes will just heal, right? She's not weak, she can take a little pain...) Yuno/Mahiru stayed over once, and left a bit of makeup in the bathroom. She tries that on too. With a beautician in the family, this self-styling comes very easily. Fuuta's cowardly tendencies have her torn between embarrassment and her typical 'fuck you' attitude that she can do whatever she wants.

You know when you solve a tiny problem and suddenly you're smacked with how much of a huge problem it actually was? Fuuta never believed she had any issues before, but all of the sudden she's happier. Every day is easier. She has more friends. True friends. She does better with school/work. Her personality is still fiery, but it's more passion than irritability now. Self-hatred she didn't recognize starts melting away. She smiles more. She laughs more. She has plans for her future. She's excited about her future.

(Shameless art plug hehe, before I had the timeline nailed down I did a little drawing of that selfie Fuuta takes when she realizes she's satisfied with this appearance, and now has newfound motivation to move forward in life.)

Over time she experiments with other elements of transitioning, and maybe changes her name to something a bit more subtle lol.

Unfortunately, I don't think it would go over well with her parents, but she never much cared for their opinions, anyway. One day a bit in the future, she bumps into her old friends in the street. Once recovering from panic, she's pleasantly surprised that they don't recognize her. Fuuta thought her appearance/fashion wasn't that different, but to fair, the friends figured they'd remember a stunning redhead with a very noticeable eye injury if they'd met before...

And just a few quick prisoner reactions (because in my heart they're all making it out ;--;):

Yuno has similar relationship as Fuuta's sister, offering immense help without unnecessary words. She's Fuuta’s go-to contact for trying new things and asking questions.

When Mahiru first finds out, she goes a bit overboard with a makeover attempt. She and Muu provide their most frilly, glimmering outfits. They paint her nails and do makeup. They style her hair. This obviously turns out to be way too much, earning them a Fuuta-typical rant. Still, she's secretly moved by their enthusiasm and kindness.

After that, designer Mikoto tries his hand at helping. Fuuta had been really worried the two of them would lose their guys nights out and relaxed friendship, but their relationship never changes.

Shidou is very accepting and very awkward. He's trying!! He gets excited, sending her all this information and help for medically transitioning.

Fuuta invites Kazui to their first pride parade <3

Though there's no return address on the package, Fuuta receives a gift of miscellaneous earrings and piercings in the mail with a note that they'd suit her well…

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #and the others briefly #(i never know how to write pre and post transition pronouns so i just switch when she does)#thank youuuuu ive literally wanted to post something but wasnt sure if it was silly or anyone would care ;-; so this made me sooo excited #fuuta my beloved!!#it is what it is my beloved!!#i just want that for her so bad!!#its funny because i know thats not what yamanaka intended and still it fits So Well:#theres so much attention on her self perception - fear of how others perceive her - the self hatred - the layered clothes #OUGH #haruka amane and es are supportive as well i just couldnt think of specifics #jackalope isnt -_-#i say fuuta and kazui went to pride together but i mean practically all the other prisoners are there too sadfds #its just the biggest deal to them #another art mention -- @sequoiareachesforthesky drew her the other day and ive been Looking Hoo Boy 👁️👁️#im a little obsessed with it asdfsdfd #i was supposed to finish my next drabble before formatting all this but shhh i wont tell if you dont #im just stuck on some simple dialogue but this was flowin lol #i dont know other peoples thoughts on her but i hope you enjoy :3 #and yeah i live under a rock and know 0 gamer names -- please tell me lol #rose posts

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itsahotminuteinbetween · 8 months

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mmm i have idea but I can never actually use it cuz i'd have to set it up and also it sounds weird but im puttin it here with all my other weird thoughts

so like what if in a 'you bring the boys home dynamic' we have a y/n who they discover is not nearly as energetic as they are at work. Like, this y/n is usually upbeat in the daycare, constantly talking and laughing and messin around with the kids. And now the boys are just tryna fit that picture into the tired, mentally drained, accidentally put milk in the pantry person in front of them.

And sometimes they do, they do see that old excitement on your face, they notice your short bursts of energy where you talk enthusiastically about something with them. But the tiredness is just as instantaneous: you could be laughing and making jokes with them one minute, and the next you've gone quiet with that thousand yard stare in your eyes.

The boys find this sudden shift in attitude...unnerving. It's not like you, you don't act like this. You're always bubbly and cheerful and full of life! Seeing you like this just feels wrong to them, like they're watching something they're not really supposed to be seeing.

So they try to figure it out. They drag you out of the house more, try to steer you away from using your phone. They start insisting on going to the store with you, and then try to make the trip more fun. Peeking through clothing aisles and surprising you, grabbing something you need off the shelf..the little things. And it does lift your spirits a little, but you still revert to that sad little shell eventually.

They learn to accept is as simply a part of you that they cannot change. They do try to help in any way they can, except for Moon who masks his care as messing around with you because he can't deal with emotions and 'pshh no i didn't make breakfast with you because it was fun i just got tired of the smoke filling up the house cuz you don't know how to turn on the airhood don't start getting ideas'. But they'll do their part in their own little way. Sun might join you on the couch and fish the remote out of your hands to switch the the kids channel. Moon challenges you to a game of Monopoly at night and you win (he let you but he'd never admit it). And when you're feeling down, they're there with you, draping a blanket over your shoulders or pressing a cup of tea into your hands or letting you slump against them when it's inevitably too much and you have to drown out the noise in your head in their hoodie as they run their fingers through your hair silently.

They don't tell you it's going to be okay. They don't like to make promises they know they can't keep. So they just stick around until your mood brightens and you decide to get off the couch because you need to do something with your hands so that you don't go insane. They'll suggest that batch of cookies that you tried to make last week, because those didn't turn out too bad even if you did add a bit too many chocolate chips and then you'll shoot them that incredulous look they love so much and reply with much more confidence that no you added the perfect amount you can never have too many chocolate chips and they'll let you have it because they enjoy the back-and forth banter just as much as you do, they're just as relieved for the company as you are, and so the three of you can be heard bickering about proportional amounts of chocolate for a little while until you're feeling much better.

So no, it's not okay. But you're all getting there.

#sorry to bother #don't mind me #fnaf dca #fnaf sun x reader #fnaf moon x reader #this was mainly for me i needed this very much #not feelin too great

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noivoom · 9 months

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AAAAA couldn’t stop thinking about yesterday’s episode. There was a lot to unpack and others went over the Big Main Things better than I can so I just wanted to share some of my thoughts on a couple of other things

incoherent ramble time

First of all, I think we all noticed the Computer’s sudden change of attitude. What it said to Sun at the end about the Old Moon being gone and needing to accept that was SO INTERESTING. Just… the WAY it spoke, slowly and almost hesitantly, as if it was just coming to those realisations itself. It’s constantly been comparing Moon to his old self, behaving like they’re still the same, treating him with more and more snark as if actively trying to get him to act “correctly”. Forcing him to work under pressure, treating taking Sun off the “subject list” like a joke, ramping up its attitude... surely it’ll work eventually, right? He’ll start acting like his old self in no time, they just have to keep pushing. It almost seemed frustrated that Moon constantly refused to. Because Moon isn’t the same person anymore. He hasn’t been the same person since the day he woke up.

All of the Old Moon’s actions, his anger and distance and defensiveness, it all stemmed from the fear and trauma of spending most of his life trapped in someone else’s body while also dealing with the kill code (has anyone else ever thought about how terrifying the first moments of his existence would’ve been?? Stuck helplessly in the head of someone who doesn’t even know he’s there, he doesn’t know why and all he can do is lash out in anger because it’s not fair and I have A LOT of feelings about this but that’s for a different post entirely).

New Moon didn’t have that. Sure things were far from perfect with Eclipse and everything, but he had a family. Sun was there to tell him what’s going on, and Earth to teach him good habits. Sure, he has a similar personality, same sense of humour, similar reactions when mad (meeting Banban in VRchat and that one Roblox maze, anyone?), but his base personality only goes so far. He hasn’t learned the same behaviours. He’s a different person now.

(… where was I going with this? RIGHT THE COMPUTER.)

I always thought that maybe the Computer was suddenly being an ass because it didn’t know how to deal with Moon’s reset. It wasn’t really created with that kind of emotional range in mind, and it’s never had to deal with something like this before. This whole time the Computer’s been clinging to the Old Moon, whether in some kind of grief or denial it’s been refusing to process. But I think what Moon said to Sun, “you refuse to think I can be different,” made it FINALLY realise that Old Moon and New Moon aren’t the same, and only when talking to Sun did it start to actually accept the fact. Again, the way it spoke then... it really felt like just as significant a moment character-wise for the Computer as it was for Moon.

Maybe it’s going to be more empathetic from now on. OR I’m completely wrong about all this and it goes back to it’s regularly scheduled dickishness in a few episodes, that’s possible too lol—

I can’t help but wonder how long Moon’s been sitting on this, though? He cares about Sun so much, he’s been trying so hard to help and prove he’s different, but it must still hurt that he’s receiving the fallout of actions he doesn’t even remember. He only knows what happened second-hand through what little Sun tells him and a freaking youtube channel of all things; he doesn’t understand why the Old Moon did the things he did. They’re quite literally different people at this point. And he knows Sun’s struggling, knows Sun has every right to feel this way, but he can’t help if Sun doesn’t let him. He’s been trying so hard to prove that he won’t treat Sun like the Old Moon did, he doesn’t WANT to hurt him like that, ever, but after finding out Sun lied to him, it must feel like he’s been making no progress at all. How long has this been festering in his mind? An outburst like that doesn’t just happen. It wouldn’t help that Earth is the only one who never knew the Old Moon, and thus doesn’t have any expectations of how he should act outside of how he is now. Not to mention the Star still affecting the rest of the Pizzaplex. How long has he felt trapped by the shadow of his predecessor?

Another thing I’ve noticed is the whole… “giving more attention to Moon’s problems” thing. For most of the show, Sun’s issues have been largely ignored, brushed off, or relegated to a “one-time issue that’s been resolved”. Because this is Sun, he’s the happy one, he always bounces back, he’s always fine in the end! Right? I’m so glad he’s been having the spotlight recently, he absolutely deserves it and needs to have his issues addressed. But something that occurred to me after this episode is that that same issue has been threatening to repeat itself, just in the opposite direction. Because Moon’s fine now, he doesn’t remember any of his trauma, he’s all relaxed and goofy so there’s no need to worry! Something that’s been rather prevalent in this show is cycles. Moon hurting Sun and apologising, only to slowly start falling back into the same behaviours that caused the issue in the first place. Sun screws up, Moon fixes it, Sun wants to be useful and does something else that results in more problems. One brother starts spiralling, the other spirals because of it. THE TRUCK LOAD OF MISCOMMUNICATION. Sun’s mental issues certainly are more immediately concerning (for obvious reasons), but the last thing we need is yet another cycle of one brother’s issues overshadowing the others. If anything, this is actually the perfect opportunity for them to break out of this particular cycle before it can even get started, as well as the communication issues everyone’s been talking about. They both have their own issues, and sometimes they clash in the worst ways (as we saw frequently in the past), but neither of them should invalidate the other. This is their chance for both of them to start putting things right.

#tsams #The Sun And Moon Show #wow I'm surprised I actually had the energy for this #hell yeah take that executive dysfunction #did I separate the paragraphs differently for each segment?#yesitsram #yes I did #don't worry it annoys me too #no I'm not fixing it #I have THOUGHTS and I wanna get in the habit of sharing them #tsams computer #tsams moon #tsams sun

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misscrawfords · 3 months

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Recently I made a new friend who I just instantly clicked with - proper "friendship at first sight" and I had her over for tea because I was so firm that I "needed to be friends with this person" and, y'know, making friends in your thirties is HARD. Anyway, I baked scones and brownies and she stayed over 5 hours and we had the BEST conversations.

Clearly we are kindred spirits because we talked mostly about relationships and it turns out we are very, very similar in our attitudes towards men and dating and, frankly, our bad habits in this area. It was like having a mirror thrown up. And you react differently to hearing someone else express your experiences (or similar ones) than how you react to your own experiences. It was very illuminating.

I'm really, really trying to change my patterns of pointlessly wasting literally years of my life pining over men who, for whatever reason, are unwilling to express any actual interest in me despite occasionally throwing me a crumb of something that might be platonic friendship (and often not even a very satisfactory version of that!) and might be romantic interest. It's hard in the modern world, where platonic friendships between men and women are possible. But I'm trying to change my behaviour and seeing what this lovely new friend was saying just absolutely reinforced this feeling that I absolutely cannot go through another non-relationship like this again. She's pining over a guy I know that she's very close friends with and, oh... who can say? It's just like the situations I've got myself into on multiple occasions. Right down to being in multiple group chats with him and constantly over-analysing how he texts and what he's saying to other women and wondering if she's special or whether he's also like this to others while he makes her feel so special because he confides in her. And like, SERIOUSLY. When you hear it coming from someone else, it sounds bonkers. I'm not saying I don't feel for her and see the way it's difficult to interpret... because I do, I empathise completely. But also, it is bonkers. A relationship shouldn't be this hard. I don't mean that you don't work at it, but it shouldn't take this much second guessing of people's actions and motivations. Two people who want to be together should... be together. It is so complicated. So, so complicated. But at the same time, as my A Level Greek teacher said to me back when I was 17, "If it's going to happen, it will happen" and if neither party makes a move and just continues with acceptance of a close platonic relationship that could be something else but never is, well, it's probably not going to happen. A man who truly wants to be with a woman and is mature enough to have an adult relationship (and I mean in every sense not necessarily sex because immature people can have sex) surely is going to make some kind of effort? Am I talking to her or me? I don't know.

Anyway, it was an illuminating afternoon! And I'm so glad I have a new friend!

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donnerpartyofone · 1 year

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so i'm reading The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up, a development i never saw coming, because of two things i recently heard about it:

1. that one of its main points is that keeping your space clutter-free is actually a specific skill you need to acquire and not, as is popularly thought, something that you either naturally do because you're a good person, or that you refuse to do because you're a jerk or a failure. 2. that marie kondo found her calling in this area after suffering from some sort of cleaning-related nervous breakdown.

i've had problems with being clean and organized my entire life, and for the most part i just accepted the criticism that this is a matter of personal failing. as a more informed adult, it has become much easier for me to see my disorganization as one symptom among many of a bigger problem that is probably cognitive in nature. as a kid i was depressed and sort of oblivious to the "real world", which could make it easy for adults to assume that i just needed an attitude adjustment. (i don't even blame them, my parents were not psychologists, but anyway) as an adult i'm still depressed and instead of being oblivious, i care profoundly about being more functional, but just wanting to change, and trying as hard as i can, still don't seem to make a difference.

the first time it occurred to me that my problems may be more neurological than intent-related was when a sympathetic listener referred me to this helpful article:

but while i'm reading the kondo book, it also occurs to me that there's this whole ethos around being organized that's really oppressive. there's a feeling that being untidy is sort of a moral failure: that you are being a mess, on purpose or out of willful negligence, because you are disrespectful, inconsiderate, LAZY (is the big one), shortsighted, apathetic, or any number of other indicators of a human being with poor character. my messy room was one of the main points of friction between myself and my family until i left for college. never mind that i was also sleeping all the time, swinging constantly between sadness and outrage, and expressing suicidal ideation out loud from when i was in single digits; my apparent refusal to clean my room was seen as a separate issue, either a bratty behavior that i designed to piss off my parents, or at best, just a failure to learn to follow the rules.

i haven't finished kondo's book yet (because i'm still working on the exercise i'm about to describe), but it starts to become clear that there are important psychological underpinnings of one's hygiene-related behavior. kondo doesn't come right out and describe her own personal problems (not yet anyway! don't spoil it for me if she does!), but you start to realize a few things from her snippets of biographical information: for instance, she makes it clear that she was alone a lot as a child. she seems to have lived a very separate existence from her siblings, and instead of socializing with schoolmates, she spent all of her time researching and implementing new ways of cleaning and organizing both her home and her school rooms. she describes this as an all-consuming compulsion that had a deleterious effect on her grades, and something is surely implied by her revelation that when a person switches from a pressing task, like studying for an exam, over to compulsively cleaning their space, they're being overtaken by a subconscious drive to Put In Order something that is bothering them deep inside. (when i was trying to get through my final year of college i started taking several showers a day, but ANYWAY) and then of course, there is what i read elsewhere about how she was eventually so overwhelmed by her sisyphean struggle with clutter that she had some sort of collapse, after which she gained clarity on why disorder happens and what to do about it...

kondo reiterates the old pop psychology truism that for a person to change, they have to really want to change, and she has a smart way of getting the reader to access their own obscure but potentially powerful motivations for wanting to get organized. she gets you to ask yourself why you want to "tidy up", but you're not supposed to stop at pat answers like "i want more space" or "i want to entertain at home" or whatever. you're supposed to then ask yourself what you want that cleanliness and space FOR, and as you keep asking yourself "why?" for every answer you come up with, you eventually start producing really detailed personal information about what kind of life you actually want to be leading. i suppose it's true that you could do this for any aspect of your existence, e.g. "why do you dress like that" or whatever, but there is something about starting with the basic issue of how and where you live that seems especially liable to make you face yourself. the whole "clean your room" thing is so loaded with psychic material related to family friction, intimacy issues, social prejudices that assign a moral quality to neatness/messiness, etc, that something deep is bound to come up. like when i start trying to answer marie kondo's question about why i'm even reading her book, two things come up: one answer relates to my sunniest aspirations about what kind of life i want to lead, to have the kind of future i want. the other answer is something more like, "i want to tidy up because once upon a time, grownups made me feel like i was actually a bad person for having a messy room/desk/locker/etc."

so my point is that even though The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up is mainly aimed at practical, cosmetic changes to your lifestyle, under the surface there's this really deep psychological thing going on that's as potent to me as any of the more spiritual, personal, new age-y type of self-help material that i've encountered. like, you could pay thousands of dollars to let tony robbins put you up on a stage in front of screaming crying strangers so you can give them incredibly intimate details about the worst thing that ever happened to you...or you can do some basic exercises from this book about how to clean your room, and you might wind up with the same kind of startling clarity about yourself without even realizing that that's what you were about to do.

#executive dysfunction

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endlessnine09 · 10 months

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Never stop learning, improvement in every role he plays. His hardwork , persistence and sincerity is what made him today.

Excellent actor Luo Yunxi !

2015-2023 interview record: full 48 minutes video by 木偶不说谎 here:

https://weibo.com/1797547203/4917346084325235

When I got the script, I started to take notes. From the first episode to all the story lines that happened to him, I recorded them in a notebook and organized them carefully. (2018)

Runyu era 😭

I will watch and follow the drama I performed. The first is to see if there are any deficiencies in my performance. The second is to appreciate a work purely from the perspective of the audience. I think this is a way to improve myself. (2019)

Actors are like this, they have no choice but to empty themselves. If you can't infect yourself, how can you infect the audience. Maybe with the increase of acting experience, I can use more skills and reduce some damage to myself, but I can't. (2020)

In fact, I don’t want to set any goals for myself, I just hope that I can have a clear conscience, take every step well, be worthy of every work, let everyone feel the sincerity of my efforts, and hope that everyone can gain some happiness from my works. (2021)

I don't care so much what I look like, but what I act like. Because you have to be worthy of each of your roles, and then use each role to make yourself grow and improve. (2022)

I really feel that it is not that I have achieved the role, but that the role has allowed me to grow. My original intention is to treat each character with heart and be responsible for each role, this is the responsibility to the audience, and also to myself. (2023)

“Trying out of one's own safety zone is a breakthrough that an actor should make.”

“Every role I have played has more or less my shadow, or a certain characteristic of myself.”

“The most important thing for an actor is to do his job well. There are too many other things, such as the choice of the market, the choice of the audience, etc, that you cannot choose.

All you can choose is to play your own role well.”

“As an actor, I put myself into the role. Although the expression of art comes from life, it is higher than life. You have to jump out of the character itself and then you can know what the artistic creation of this scene is like outside the camera.”

“I feel that every role is like a dream. Even it has been finished, I wake up in another city and suddenly felt that something was missing. This maybe is the feeling of saying goodbye. But the things left by the characters and what they taught me will never disappear.”

“In life, you must constantly adjust your mentality, handle changes with ease and see through it while maintaining your original intention. Don’t think you are too great, don’t look down on everyone around you, give back to each other. This is my growth.”

“You have to fall in love and be able to find the charm of this character. What are his advantages and disadvantages? You have to appreciate him, see his good, but also see his bad. After falling in love with him, accept him, and become him.”

He is unwilling to exaggerate “pain” and more willing to emphasize “persistence”.

“My advantage is that I have a strong sense of rhythm, follow principles, do what I think is right, and don't pay too much attention to the pressure from the outside world.”

“Because I'm a public figure, I will definitely attract more attention. I hope that I can try my best to use this kind of influence to pass on some optimistic attitudes and concepts to others. If I can make everyone feel positive thoughts, then it is enough for me.”

“A large part of my growth comes from the characters I have played. I have been nourished from the stories of the characters themselves and gained perceptions about life.

If you can get inspiration from the character played by Luo Yunxi , I will be very satisfied.”

“It doesn't matter whether you remember #LuoYunxi or not, as long as you can remember the roles he played.”

“There is no shortcut. You have to admit your shortcomings, then learn and persevere.” He knew that he needed to learn more.

“Some people say that he has a “face that can be substituted into the hero of a novel”, but for Luo Yunxi, acting skills are more important than appearance.

“I don't really care what I look like, but how I act like.”

No matter how big or small, he will take every role seriously. Every role will have great challenges.

“You have to be worthy of each of your roles, and then use each role to make yourself grow and improve.”

“What I care about is not how the traffic is after the broadcast of this drama, how is its data, but everyone’s serious attitude towards the work.

Is this a work with heart? Have you felt the sincerity of all our creative staff? Have you felt the connotation of this work and the energy it wants to convey? As long as everyone feels it, it is very satisfying to me.”

“Every role has brought me growth. No matter what kind of role it is, it is a kind of freshness to me. Every role is something I treasure. He brought me growth and taught me some principles of life. I hope that the character and I can intertwine, that we grow and learn from each other. Not only did I play him, he also influenced me.”

“I hope I can spread my warmth to everyone.”

Luo Yunxi ‘s skills and personality is what will make you really fall for him. In their industry controlled by capital, you can find an actor like him, who breakthroughs with his own strength and hard work.

#罗云熙 #luo yunxi

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ivy-0629 · 1 year

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What is Dance?

What is dance? That's an interesting question. I guess everyone's answer is different, right? Just like a thousand readers have a thousand Hamlets, right? The art of dance, as we all know, must be about the movement of the body. It should be composed of a series of body movements. So, what do you think is dance? I think everyone knows dance differently at different stages! For example, I used to think that dance must be a perfect blend of technique and art. Now, I seem to have a more open and tolerant attitude towards dance. I think as long as it belongs to the movement of the human body is considered dance. Dance should not be confined to a small area, but should allow more people to participate and dance together happily. But it is possible that this is just what I think now, and maybe it will not be long before I think dance is some other state again.

What exactly is dance? I think the concept of dance itself is a cyclical process, from simple to complex and back to simple again, constantly deconstructing, structuring and restructuring. But no matter what, the art of dance never leaves the movement of the body.

I am from China and have been trained professionally in dance since I was a child. During my previous dance study in China, I had studied Chinese classical dance, Chinese folk dance, ballet, modern dance, etc. I was considered to have a relatively comprehensive exposure to each dance genre. Later, I joined the workforce and worked at the Shaanxi Provincial Opera and Dance Theatre. Because of the local cultural characteristics, most of our troupe danced some Chinese classical dances and some local folk dances in Shaanxi. I also took part in some modern dance workshops myself. In the past ten years of my career, I have been doing dance-related things every day. Either teaching dance, performing dance myself, or creating dance works. Sometimes I don't even know whether I love dance or whether I am used to it. Of course, before I came to England, I thought that dance was a physical art, and that dance needed to express your thoughts and emotions through your body. However, after I came to England, my thinking started to change a bit.

I used to know that dance, like other art forms, is a social ideology that reflects the social life of human beings. Dance is a performing art, dance is composed of a sequence of movements called dance. And dance is a type of art. "Art is all from life and above life." Therefore, I am well aware of the relationship between dance and life. In addition, I know that there are different theories of the origin of dance, such as "labor theory", "game theory", "witchcraft theory", "expression theory" and "sex theory". "Sexuality theory", "Labor synthesis theory”(Peng, 2006). These are all things that I learned in the course of my previous studies. I never seemed to have the spontaneity to go back to my roots and think about "what is dance”?

I remember the first choreography class I took when I came to England. I can't remember what the topic of that class was. Because I arrived in the UK late last year, the first class was still inexplicable at the time. I vaguely remember the homework that some students returned. With my perception at that time, it was somewhat irritating to me. Because they did not dance up, just some life movement demonstration. After that class, I started to think, what is dance? Is it a copy of everyday life? Or is it something that needs to be refined through artistic processing? At that time, this question troubled me a lot. I can even say that I could not accept the reproduction of the movements of life.

I arrived in the UK in November last year, which is quite late. I hadn't yet fully adapted to the teaching style in the UK. But I vaguely remember the assignments that some of my classmates returned during my first choreography class. It confuses me a bit，given my perception at the time. Because they didn't dance, they just showed some life movements. After that class, I started to think, what is dance? Is it a copy of everyday life? In my traditional perception, I thought dance should be a perfect combination of technique and art.（ Laws, 2002） I reflected that if it is a reproduction of life movements, is there a need to learn dance? Any natural person should be able to do that, and how can we need to go through such a long learning process?

But, by this semester. I noticed that my thinking started to change. I was able to accept the reproduction of life actions as they were. There were even times when I would choose to express myself in this way. I would feel that this way was more natural, more real, more like a living person dancing. Now, in turn, I ask myself "what is dance"? I would say that everything is dance. Everything in life, not only people, but also all the objects that exist in this world. The swaying of a tree in the wind is also the dance of a tree. The process of rain falling when it rains, when it falls to the ground, all of this should be considered a dance! I think my mind has opened up and I can accept everything and enjoy life and the joy that dance brings me. More focused on the feeling of self. And this feeling, now I think that people who work in the arts must have a kind of ability. They must have a keen sense of feeling. So, back to the essence of the question, what is dance?

Nature's Dance

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Combination of life movement and dance movement

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French philosopher Nancy, "dance stands on the edge of discourse, the original dance is the dance of cells in the embryo, dance is ambiguous and vague, but it is all related to the body, or rather the movement of the body, the expansion of the soul outward is related to dance”(3). In the history of modern dance, it is the process of continuous innovation and reconstruction of artistic style by generations of dancers. So each dance artist has his or her own unique way of movement.

In 1930, the American dance scholar John Martin established the artistic manifesto of dance ontology "dance is movement”(4), following the modernist thinking that dance can be a subject of movement and can exist independently without being attached to other arts such as music and drama. In addition, Martha Graham's technical approach, the Limon technique, etc., is focused on the technical expression of the body and the pursuit of the truth, freedom and power of the body itself from the emotional point of view. And to find the expression of the personality. This is why the people of this period thought that dance was an artistic expression through a continuous combination of movements and rehearsals and designs. This pursuit led to the creation of many sets of reproducible movement languages. These movements could be used over and over again in different works. The aesthetic form of the time was one of connection, reproducibility, completeness, and other key words of modernity.

The development of modern dance into the 1950s saw some solidification. As a result, postmodern dance artists of the 1960s began to question again what dance really was, and the negative manifestoes of the 1962 Jadson Theatre in New York(5), Trisha Brown, David Gordon, Steve Paxton, and Yvonne Raina: "Say no to virtuosity; no to transformative models and fictions; no to the glamour and transcendence of the star image. Say no to sound; say no to the anti-hero; ban performers and audience participation; reject performers invoking trickery to seduce the audience; say no to eccentricity, etc." It is to express that one does not have any style. Each of these dancers used their own practices to adjust the solidified ideas of the period. Breaking the solidified system developed by the founders of modern dance. Later on, they also organized the Grand Alliance movement to explore the experimental ones. But in the end, the style of this generation of artists did not escape to the stage of forming a solidification.

Later in the mid-1990s non-dance forms emerged in France(6). Maybe the dancers on stage were not getting up and dancing or not dancing as they were traditionally perceived! They started to discuss and perform on stage doing certain acts. Many people couldn't accept this approach at first. Famous representatives include Jerome Bell, Xavier Le Roy, Boris Charmatz, etc. This way was created so that dance could happen to all people. But they themselves did not consider it a non-dance form. They wanted dance to bring them liberation.

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Choreography/Dance：Yoann Bourgeois

This work is also known as Dance Art

What is dance and what is it? I think dance is all movement related to the body.

This question may always have a different answer as society evolves. But, go dance! As Pina Bausch said, "I don't care how you move, but why you move". Enjoy and perceive the process of your dance! It doesn't matter how you move, just be aware that you are there.

Let's dance! As the philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche said, "Every day you don't dance is a day you don't live.

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Copeland, R. and Cohen, M. (1983). What is Dance?: Readings in Theory and Criticism. [online] Google Books. Oxford University Press. Available at: https://books.google.co.uk/books?id=_xytUIuaxloC&pg=PA22&dq=John+Martin+dance+is+movement&hl=zh-CN&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwiGxIHTod77AhV3hv0HHbAHBRkQ6AF6BAgBEAI#v=onepage&q=John [Accessed 4 Dec. 2022].

Jones, A. and Heathfield, A. (2012). Perform, Repeat, Record: Live Art in History. [online] Google Books. Intellect Books. Available at: https://books.google.co.uk/books?id=6izkAwAAQBAJ&pg=PA595&dq=French+philosopher+Nancy+about+dance&hl=zh-CN&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwivrcGyod77AhUy87sIHT6VBccQ6AF6BAgCEAI#v=onepage&q=French [Accessed 4 Dec. 2022].

Kapsetaki, M.E. and Easmon, C. (2017). Eating Disorders in Non-Dance Performing Artists: A Systematic Literature Review. Medical Problems of Performing Artists, 32(4), pp.227–234. doi:10.21091/mppa.2017.4039.

Laws, K. (2002). Physics and the Art of Dance: Understanding Movement. [online] Google Books. Oxford University Press. Available at: https://books.google.co.uk/books?hl=zh-CN&lr=&id=9xDyOo9DY_EC&oi=fnd&pg=PR5&dq=Dance+is+the+body+A+perfect+combination+of+technique+and+art&ots=spjC9K5q_y&sig=5Cb26PPQBHmj8QEXZT_7mJTkoqM&redir_esc=y#v=onepage&q&f=false [Accessed 4 Dec. 2022].

Peng Jixiang (2006). 艺术学概论（Introduction to Art）. [online] Google Books. Beijing Book Co. Inc. Available at: https://books.google.co.uk/books?hl=zh-CN&lr=&id=JCpXEAAAQBAJ&oi=fnd&pg=PT111&dq= [Accessed 4 Dec. 2022].

Warren, J. (2017). Creating worlds - how to make immersive theatre. Nick Hern Books.

#Youtube #Spotify

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My Journey To My Dreams: The Autobiography of Jerick Legaspi

The name I go by is Jerick Legaspi. On April 27, 2004, Caloocan City welcomed me into the world. I am the youngest of six siblings, five of whom are women. Maria Glocilda Legaspi and Gualberto Legaspi were my parents. But on November 29 of last year, my mother passed away at the age of 59 from a number of health issues. In his drunken state, my father—who is still alive—was an alcoholic who would never change.

When I was younger, I spent all of my time indoors since my elder sister didn't want to let me go outside to play. I'll have to tidy the home, go to bed, and learn to read throughout the day. I was allowed to do the rambling, play outdoors all day, and even skip class when she moved out of the house to attend school in the province with my auntie. I didn't like my teacher at the time since she slurred me in class, so I didn't want to go to school during that time. I was being watched over by my second sister, who naturally reprimanded me when she spotted me. In Grades 1-3, I also had three years of being a kid with my pals, so I didn't really feel like I was studying at all. I didn't really pay attention as long as I brought food to school that would keep me full for the day. But finally, I became content with my wandering; I'm not even sure why. I made a commitment to myself that I would stop letting not paying attention to what we were studying lead me to fall behind my peers. So, ever since I started attending school in grade 4, I've done all I was told to do, passed everything that needed to be passed, and joined the class. I frequently only have five pesos in my pocket, so in order to feed myself, I will buy ham for five pesos per slice and bring a lot of rice, which I will save for when the rice runs out. I always reminded myself, "I'm not going to school to eat and come home with nothing, I'm going to school to learn something," and that's how I made it through recess. Perhaps my attitude was that way because I want to reach my ambition, and that is one of my personal mantras when it comes to school. I received my first award as a result of that being my personal motto, and I kept it until I graduated elementary school.

On my first day of high school, I was eager to attend. Since my classmates were excellent students as well, I worked harder to study. However, I did not lose, and I received the medal. I am grateful for this since it had been one of my wishes to see my mother decorate the medal on my head, and I was able to realize that desire. Because there was a pandemic and I didn't have my own cellphone at the time, I had to borrow one from my second sister, and I felt ashamed to borrow a phone every day because she claimed she couldn't hold it anymore. As a result, I was unable to improve my grades in Grade 10. I continued to receive honors up until Grade 9, though. Because of my frequent absences from the online class, I've given up on maintaining my good grades. A loaned tablet was finally given in the second semester after a lengthy delay. I was sorry about it because they had not yet been tied to the points I needed to proceed with honor. Dad even agreed to my mental anguish. My mother passed away as a result of his excessive chaos; orders here, orders there, even when they should be sleeping at night, he still wants problems. Every time he drinks, the house is constantly in a bustle from him losing his mind and chattering all night until dawn. He doesn't sleep when he's drunk, he didn't even love and take care of my mother as his wife, and we are also affected and disturbed by his chaoticness There are times when we are full of schoolwork and he is drunk when he sees us still awake he will turn off the circuit breaker, I'm agonizing, enraged of him but I can't do anything because he is still our father. My eldest sister always said, "even if the world turns upside down, he's still our father and there's nothing we can do but accept the truth, and we won't be together forever". It's a good thing to get away from this situation since, even if mom is no longer there, dad is still like that: dirty, boisterous, and out of his mind when he's drunk. He can only express his emotions there when he is drunk, but when he isn't drunk, he is quiet and easy to talk to, but the only thing we dislike is the pride that is out of place because he always said he is a college graduate, why is his life like that, and many other things he regrets in his life that he took her to the point of having a family, so we sympathize, instead of correcting his mistake and pursuing his dream even for his children but he didn't think like that, so, my two sisters didn’t finish their college degree because of him which I was frustrated. There are only four of us studying, two in college and two in high school, and the one in college is graduating this year while also working. We cope and endure the dream, even if it is difficult to bear, simply to make it come true.

I now reside with my oldest sister since the actual estate we mortgaged to pay for my mother's funeral is no longer available. It's so difficult since the problems pile up one after the other; at school, at home, in my life, with dad and mum that I was so depressed and still can't believe we're not with her. In exchange for continuing my studies, I will assist with housework and care for the children, who are my nieces and nephews. I'm still having trouble managing my time because my most free time is at night, and when I'm sleepy, I wake up late, which irritates my sister, and what else can I say I've already been heard and I just want to go away and don't see each other even once in a blue moon so we can miss each other because when we're together it's messy. I want tranquility, nature's view, and neighbors who are far away, and I don't care about anybody except myself, but I can't do anything since I don't have the money yet, and I also don't have a job, so I'm working really hard to achieve all of my goals so that I may go to my dream spot. I won't imitate my father's habit of regretting everything and letting time run its course and time pass.

I believed when you succeed in something everyone around you cares but in the process of how you managed to achieve the success they don't care in other words "No one cares about your effort, Only the result" so whoever after reading this don't lose hope and pursue what you want in life because as long as there is life there is hope and that is what you will remember.

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And as for why Harumi didn’t become a Ultimate was probably due to dirty dealings involving someone else who really hated her. Butttt we don’t have to worry about that narcissistic bitch because a KPD Agent killed her! Why? We Anons aren’t telling because that’s a can of worms we aren’t tackling until probably YEARS later down the line.

Exactly. Don't beat yourself up over something that you can't control or change. After all, there are always ways to solve the situation at hand without constantly trying to let it complicate your life. After all, I'm dealing with schizophrenia yet I don't let it complicate my life. Do you know why? Because I have a positive and easy-going attitude in life.

If I didn't have an easy-going and mindful attitude during that period of self-loathing and paranoia, I honestly wouldn't be where I am today. I wouldn't even be part of the Reserve Course with that type of mindset, as there's a reason why I managed to last through months of physical and mental torture, preparing for the test.

But you shouldn't worry about things that won't necessarily be playing a big part in what we're currently facing at the moment. Sometimes, you gotta have an open mind in life, accept things as they are, and rather than constantly worry and fear about the worst possible reality, try to work towards preventing that from ever becoming a reality in the first place and make steps in order to change that path.

Don't get me wrong, I think that everything we've heard so far is insanely fucked up and needs to be rightfully revealed to the whole world at some point, but that isn't what matters right now. What matters is saving both Komaeda and Hinata from themselves, and preventing another murder from happening among one of us.

So instead of focusing on the past and worrying about it too much, focus on the options and actions you can do now. After all, you said it's a complicated can of worms, right? So let's not dwell on that fact right now, as we don't have enough evidence or proof that these accusations are actually true, and focus on what we can prevent and what events can we change for the better in this world.

She's right, y'know? After all, I didn't manage to be successful by constantly worrying about things that honestly don't matter to me at the moment. You have a right to be worried about what happened to Chiaki's family, as well as to yours, but that doesn't matter at the moment. What matters is saving our friends. Both of them.

R-right! It's completely understandable as to why you feel this way since this situation involves our own families. But you shouldn't have to worry about situations in the past, as they don't matter overall at the moment.

S-So let's stop focusing on a situation that probably won't matter untill we eventually know the full truth of the matter, and focus on something that does matter to us, which is trying to save not only Hajime's life but also Komaeda's. After all, you're not doing this alone, right? You're with your friends to support you and guide you along the way in order to prevent that reality from ever becoming true.

I concur. Every situation we resolve will simply lessen the greater threats and fears of every problematic issue we come across as a team. After all, you are not in this dilemma alone Mahiru, so rather than ponder and constantly think about what could result from such a tragic and complicated situation such as this, let us focus on solutions to the issues that lay forward ahead of us, and cease wasting time on trivial matters when the safety and well-being of our friends are at risk.

So you see, Mahiru. You don't have to feel so worried and afraid about what's going to occur in the future if you take this opportunity to learn about what happened in the future and focus on correcting these mistakes, one small step at a time. And just remember that you're not alone in this situation. Me, Hinata, Mioda, Tsumiki, we're all in this together. So let's stop worrying about what situations happened in the past and try to take advantage of the knowledge we possess in order to prevent those decisions from ever happening.

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Thanks, girls. I really appreciate your advice.

My pleasure.

After all, you taught me not to worry too much about what others think of me, and to not dwell on the worst possibilities, right? So I figured I could repay the favor that you did for me all those years back in middle school by standing up to Natsumi when she made fun of my schizophrenia.

Yeah! I really appreciate that favor, honestly. Perhaps I do need to stop worrying about stuff that isn't going to be relevant for about a few more years. Besides, we have both the knowledge and the amount of time to prepare and plan how we're going to resolve those events beforehand, so I can take solstice in the fact that we're not going into this blind.

Maybe I'll try to not stress out that much when it comes to situations like this, considering that we have the ability to prepare for the coming event beforehand. So I guess I'll try to start being more of a positive force for this class because we all honestly need it.

That's a start. I'm just glad you're feeling a lot better, Mahiru. Your parents would be incredibly proud of the talented and inspirational young woman you've become, wouldn't they?

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You know what? I like to imagine they would be proud of what I became and the type of person I've turned into. So I can appreciate the fact that no matter what happens, I'll always have my parent's unconditional support and love whenever a situation or obstacle comes my way! And that's to me worth more than anything else in the world.

#danganronpa #sdr2 #super danganronpa another 2 #danganronpa 3 #honami sato #mahiru koizumi #sonia nevermind #ibuki mioda #mikan tsumiki #a tale never told #dr #twlight syndrome arc

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kingballer22 · 6 months

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Canche Imagine

Y/n had always been intrigued by Canche, biker and local legend in their small town. He had a reputation for being dangerous and wild, but there was also something about him that drew y/n in. Perhaps it was his intensity or his calculating nature; whatever it was, it captivated her in a way no other man ever had.

One night, a chance meeting led to of them talking, and when she looked into his dark eyes, something inside of her shifted. That night, Canche asked her out and, though she was scared, she accepted. Little did she know that one date would turn into a whirlwind romance as their love only seemed to grow deeper and stronger with each passing day.

The couple soon became inseparable, and Canche proposed after only six months of being together. Even though everyone around them cautioned against marrying so young and so quickly, y/n denied them all as Canche was the only person who made her feel safe and wanted.

Though things seemed perfect on the outside, there was a darkness within their marriage that was almost too much to bear. It seemed as though Canche was almost constantly sad, and he began to take all of his melancholy out on y/n. He loved her, sure, but he had a cruel and sadistic side that came out when he was feeling down. But in spite of all this, y/n stayed by Canche's side even through the hardest of times.

But then something changed. The couple welcomed a newborn baby into their lives, and Canche's attitude towards his family began to shift. He was no longer brooding and depressed, and he showered them both with love and attention. Through the power of his love and devotion, he seemed to have found a way to keep his dark side at bay and truly cherish the life he had built for himself.

Y/n had always loved and admired Canche, but she never could have imagined just how much he loved her and their child in return. Despite her initial reservations, y/n found herself overwhelmed with a love for her husband that was even greater than before, and she was thankful that after all their struggles they had found a way to make it work.

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I’m going to be honest… I wasn’t a big fan of Canche. However… 😌I HAVE to write about him. I still liked him more than Emily. Don’t hesitate to ask for a request or anything. If I don’t know about what you want me to write I will try my best. Anyway have a great night lovelies!!❤️

#canche imagine #canche #mayans mc #imagine

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