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lxdymoon0357 · 5 months

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Hii Can I request A part 2 Of the where the reader Treats rashta like a human being rather than a slave ?

Pls take ur time

-Sincerely,📻😈 anon

(Heyyy 📻😈 anon! How have you been thank you again for requesting this and hopefully you enjoy your time here! Also don't know if you wanted it romantic or platonic, so made it neutral... Part 1 also I'm changing the fact that she didn't have any kids to that she only had Ian and she isn't pregnant Gloryem!)

Rashta, their companion Pt.2

◈ Rashta is always at your beck and call and always helps you in your work, she's waiting for you to call her when you need help while she is either doing something for her wedding clothes shops or dress shop and clothing shops (she sells everything a woman needs).

◈ Or when she is doing some resin art, she is sometimes hoping that you will call her because you missed her...She is very attached to you, emotionally and physically :))

◈ Whenever she is eating foods, you and all the servants together, she thinks of you all like a family and wonders if you all think of her as one too? Hopefully, cause she can now never bear to think about all of you not being with her!

◈ She is always happy to enjoy time with kids, even though her PTSD sometimes causes her to have panic attacks and push kids away, cause she gets scared and it always scares the kids as well, sadly...

◈ But their parents understand her situation and they are always happy to help her calm down, the kids don't mind either, cause their parents explained how Miss. Rashta has a bad past and an illness which causes her to be very scared around kids and so they try their best to not scare her.. :(((((

◈ She will always dedicate many of her works to you, designing them on your favourite colours, patterns you like, things you like, etc. She is always happy to see, how you enjoy her art, cause it means the world to her!

◈ She is so grateful for you, every season of her clothing shops, she will first and foremost release a season for you! and only after your season will she put out the other season! She is a trendsetter and many people like her works!

◈ She loves animals and love to care for them, she also loves spending ties with the kids in the manor, it's honestly makes her inner child heal and makes her feel better and refreshed! She will go to any length, she will be a princess or a dragon or a knight or a witch, she is just happy to be around the kid! And she loves to feed animals, groom them, brush their fur or simply stroke them.

◈ She will always have you take breaks by helping her in designing or doing resin art or something relaxing in general or talking a walk around the manor! She doesn't want you to overwork!

◈ She would always go picnics with you whenever she and you get the time, she always has the best treats and acquires the cheapest yet the healthiest foods! She sometimes even brings everyone in the manor, including the kids and servants and maybe even pets!!

◈ She is friendly and makes friends easily, and she can also easily test people unless they're her friend..then she can never know who is her fake friend and so she trust your judgement and hopefully your judgement is good, cause if not, then well....she doesn't care how many friend she loses, as long as you're with her...

◈ Rashta eagerly misses Ian and is always having nightmares about him, his birth and his killing...She can't ever forget about him, so you got her a HUGE portrait of her with Ian in her arms, and another where she said she wanted you to get one where Ian is all grown and head of your manor and he looks like a mixture of you and her!

◈ She got you to get a trainer for her so she could learn sword-fighting or hand-to-hand combat because she wants to be strong and it is quite of her interest! and she enjoys it and you can't say no to your girlfriend and so she's good at that as well, surprisingly!

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gabessquishytum · 5 months

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Okay, divorce lawyer Hob has been rattling in my brain since you posted the original prompt. Gotta say I think he would make the best family lawyer. He's fiercely protective, worldly and street smart, and definitely has done terrible things for money.

I'm thinking he met Dream in college after the other kinda laughed at him getting his juris doctor at a mixer. Which lead to a highly competitive relationship of anything you can do I can do better when it came to grades and extracurriculars. Dream even joined the rowing team when Hob joined the swim team.

They've remained friends since. Hob is used to girlfriends and wives come and go. It was his idea to protect the Endless family money, which is most of Dream's wealth, behind a prenup. He's the one who drafts letters and notarizes things that need notarizing. He was also the one who set up a trust for Orpheus when he was born.

He comes over every summer to the annual family barbeque and has definitely helped keep Desire out of legal trouble when they've screwed the pooch. He also helped Destruction change his name and keep his portion of the inheritance when he left the family. He's just a damn fine lawyer and friend.

But he's not just a friend. What people don't know is that himself and Dream keep a relatively low key affair going on. It started in college when Hob came home drunk and interrupted a date between Dream and a girl from his art class. He scared her away with his gross manners and then started fighting with Dream. Things escalated from screaming to making out. They fucked that night with Hob being the one bent over the coffee table.

Every month since then they make their excuses and spend an extended weekend together. They go far for their little weekend getaways, so nobody sees them or knows them. They fuck all weekend long and then head back to live their boring, everyday lives.

That's not the only secret. Hob is also the one behind every break-up and divorce. It used to be just running the girls out of the college dorm. Then he had to use more indirect methods. Planting fake evidence of cheating, hiring men to seduce his friend's wife, playing mind games with Dream and telling him that he doesn't really love his wife/girlfriend. After all, why does he need them when he's got Hob?

Dream will never see his best friend, his other half, the smartest man he knows as he truly is and that's fine with Hob. Just as long as Dream keeps coming to him with messes to clean up. After all, he just loves his favourite client!

- 🤜 anon

Oh, Hob. You bastard. I love EVERYTHING about this. Law is the perfect profession for Hob (especially when he's breaking it).

The thing is, you can't feel too bad for Dream. The red flags are RIGHT THERE. Hob covers his tracks well in front of other people but with Dream, he doesn't even bother! So Dream knows every slimy, underhanded, down right nasty thing that Hob has ever done to him/for him, and he just... he's blinded ok. By platonic affection for his friend, or by sexual desire for the most fulfilling lover he's ever had, or maybe just dirty ole romantic love. He simply chooses not to see.

Its a weird, almost sadistic little game at this point. Dream finds a new obsession, a woman who is FAR too good for him but is unfortunately charmed by his passion. But even though the obsession never lasts, Dream insists on following through. This time the marriage will work, he insists. Hob doesn't even bother to hide the smirk. Sometimes he shows up at the wedding (they have absolutely fucked on Dream’s wedding day, more than once), sometimes he waits for Dream to come to him after a few weeks of wedded bliss.

Then comes the inevitable collapse of Dream’s relationship and Hob’s favourite part, the divorce. He's had Dream sign the papers while Hob is balls deep inside him. And he always likes to take a picture. Another one for his collection. And so the cycle begins anew.

They're awful. The only hope for decent society is that they'll eventually marry each other. But that wont happen for a bit - not before they've had their fun...

#🤜 anon #the sandman #dreamling #nsft #cw infidelity #cw manipulation

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laundrybiscuits · 2 months

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I've recently been tagged in a few WIP/"last thing you've written" type games, and…to be completely candid, I haven't been writing any kind of fic lately because I've become a little bit obsessed with analyzing the Broadway revival of Merrily We Roll Along.

Not for any particular purpose, I just saw it at the Hudson a little while back and have a lot of feelings about it! In my tiny scraps of spare time, I've been working on an essay about Merrily and inevitability that will probably end up rotting in my google docs*, because that's how I approach writing as a hobby.

There's just so much there, holy shit. I'm focusing particularly on "Franklin Shepard, Inc." because Radcliffe's Charley brings a frenetic, desperate vulnerability to the performance that reads so, so differently from earlier productions. Throughout the show, I was consistently blown away by the heavy lifting Radcliffe, Mendez, and Groff do in shifting the core tension from "art vs commerce" (fine but basic, and difficult to keep modern) to "how people prioritize different types of relationships in their lives."

In an effort to make this slightly less wildly off-topic for this blog: this has gotten me thinking about the way that platonic relationships are treated in narratives, particularly but not exclusively in fandom.

"Found family" is and has always been a popular trope, but I do think its current incarnation trades a lot on the underlying fantasy of relationship permanence. When we recategorize friendships as familial relationships, we're making a claim—whether or not it's justified—about the indelibility of those relationships.

That's not inherently bad (or, god forbid, problematic). I think it's very very natural, especially for those who don't necessarily have a lot of experience with the way adult friendships change over time. Why wouldn't you want something as precious and unique and amazing as a good friendship to stay with you forever?

Certain people can feel like pillars of your world, and it's fucking terrifying to think about that being yanked out from under you—or even worse, to think about your lives slowly shifting like geologic plates until suddenly you realize it's been weeks, then months, then years since you last really talked.

CHARLEY: We're not that kind of close any more, the way we used to be. And a friendship's like a garden. You have to water it and tend it and care about it. And you know what? I want it back.

It's a peculiar, particular kind of grief when it happens, because even though it's a fairly common human experience, it doesn't get socially acknowledged in the same way as e.g. a romantic breakup.

So yeah, it makes a lot of sense that found family is a popular trope in all kinds of media, not just fandom.

However...at this point, I've developed a knee-jerk wariness to the phrase "found family," because I've found it often correlates with a really flat, simplistic depiction of human relationships. In extreme cases, it simply recontextualizes a relationship within the socially acknowledged/acceptable framework of a stereotypical family unit.

This does a disservice to familial and nonfamilial relationships alike. Every family is different, so why do so many found families in media look the same?

(I was monologuing about this to my very patient girlfriend, and she pointed out that this also sets up a success/failure binary condition in relationships, where permanence is the arbiter of success in both romantic and nonromantic contexts. She is of course both beautiful and correct!)

I have friends with whom I can sometimes share a glance and know exactly what they're thinking. I even have a running joke with one friend about the sheer number of times we've said the same thing in unison over the last 15 years. I still need to be intentional about building those relationships, extending empathy when we differ, and carving out time to reconnect. Truly intimate long-term relationships of any kind involve disagreements, conflicting priorities, and negotiating and renegotiating boundaries.

Being "basically the same person" or "sharing a braincell" actually sounds super fucking lonely to me, personally, and it handily elides the difficult, essential process of keeping people in your life.

FRANK: Old friends let you go your own way. CHARLEY: Help you find your own way. MARY: Let you off when you're wrong. F: If you're wrong. C: When you're wrong. M: Right or wrong, the point is, old friends shouldn't care if you're wrong. F: Should, but not for too long. C: What's too long?

That's a more complicated and much more mature narrative to tell than "friendship will save the day!" Because it's not that common and there's not a deep bank of references to draw from, it takes a lot of effort and skill to depict well, and I don't blame creators for not wanting to let it suck up all the air in the room. However, I think it's important to acknowledge that platonic relationships can also be flanderised and flattened.

In the context of fandom, which has always traded heavily in Romance genre conventions, I would really like to see more thoughtful explorations of complicated nonromantic relationships. I'm not even talking about genfic here! I've actually been thinking about Stobin specifically because that relationship (rightly & understandably) tends to show up in any Steve-centric fic, including the vast ocean of Steddie fics, so it makes the issue slightly more visible than I've seen in other fandoms.

I'm not saying I want to see them fight, or not be friends, or not love each other fiercely and near-obsessively in the way that lonely teenagers can. I'm just saying I want them to be distinct individuals who view the world in very different ways, and choose each other anyway. They already have a complicated past; I know from personal experience that it's possible as a lesbian to be best friends with a guy who once made a little speech about how into you he was, but that little layer of history never quite goes away.

I don't want frictionless relationships in my life. I want people who will challenge me and whom I can challenge, in the context of love and trust. I want people in my life whom I have to work to understand, because my life is richer when I do. And sometimes, I want narratives that will reflect the grief of friendships that are no longer part of my life, despite the best efforts of everyone involved.

In Merrily, Charley sings, "Friendship's something you don't really lose—" but Radcliffe's thready, pleading delivery makes it all too clear: Charley already knows he's lying. The audience just needs to catch up.

*Other essays in that particular graveyard: understanding the cast of Peanuts through the lens of anomie, humor and subversive linguistic nationalism in 00s Singaporean TV, how to fix Miss Saigon. WHY am I this way.

#side note: how fucking good was Radcliffe in that role? what a glow-up from HTSIBWRT #all the casting was brilliant but (Tony winner!) Mendez and (Tony nominated) Groff were less of a dark horse #anyway I think...I might start to get a little less rigid about letting myself dump nonfandom or fandom-adjacent posts here #we'll see if I have more time to post and/or write once this busy period at work dies down #recently is a relative term btw. I have been tagged more recently than the cambrian explosion. so that counts.#I appreciate the tags and it's very nice of y'all to think of me though!

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dark-elf-writes · 1 month

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Teddy growing up chasing after a whole cast of uncles and aunts and Zizis or whatever they wish. Who learns how to mimic engines first so that Papa cries tears of joy. Teddy who grows up with a smile on his face and loved (so loved).

Izuku, Ochako and Ginny speaking out about 'mis matched' marks, who speak of their soulmates and think of the children they had been before society broke them. The three slowly finding love among others, able to be more.

Minerva and Nezu being a terrifying duo, both teaching and helping children. Minerva happily becoming a vice principal in a situation where she is not led by her nose and is an equal. Who stares down All Might and sees a fun mirror twisted. A boy mad to fight a monster, who broke years ago. All Might is on the edge of being the man she once saw as mentor and friend. Perhaps offering a hand to help will stop him from becoming the next Dumbledore, help him realize where he is going wrong.

The Weasleys taking in the Todoroki family. Touya with a snug sweater that is comfortable on his scars, Shouto with a dual tone because he's loved it for his mother's soft smiles, Fuyumi with one that is some gaudy shade she never got to wear, Natsuo with one made just as good as the others (not worthless, not a freak for being Quirkless).

Tenya and Harry worried the first time they go out without Teddy, the boy taken care of by Hizashi and Shouta (never together, Shouta who is engaged to someone else but they're Shouta and Hizashi who are together as platonically as possible). Harry who gets to laugh and go on a date with a boy like any other teenager.

Teddy who grows up loved and protected. Who gets to have a childhood with his father laughing in the kitchen and his Papa fussing over his bentos to make sure they’re just right. Who doesn’t have to wonder like his parents did what it’s like to be loved because he feels it every day in a million ways from a million sources. Who knows both his Dad and Papa and his birth parents through stories and pictures from the people who loved them.

The three of the and Rei starting a nonprofit to help victims of domestic violence because no one wants to get in the middle of a “soulmate dispute” no matter how bad it might get. All of them advocating that having a mark doesn’t mean you have to be with that person. That choosing to walk away doesn’t make you weak or broken. That even fate can get it wrong sometimes.

Minerva taking All Might under her wing the minute she sees his interest in Izuku and nipping any ideas of molding them for the greater good in the bud. Who steps in to protect a child like she should have done years ago. Like she should have done for so many children. She had loved Albus like she would have a brother or sometimes as one would love a God. She will die before she allows someone else like him around her cubs.

The Todorokis being reunited and enveloped in a massive family unlike anything they have ever known. So open and loving with no one walking in eggshells or afraid. No one sneers at Shouto when he flinches away from the floo, unable to stop the reaction to the feeling of heat even now, Luna only pulls him towards the back of the room as Percy conjures a cool breeze to go through the room. There is only good natured ribbing when Touya slips out of the room for a smoke and fond eye rolls when Fuyumi joins him in her burningly bright yellow sweater that looks like looking into the very sun. George joins them a little later, taking the cigarette and soaking in the familiarity of being around twins even if it still makes him ache to not have his own. Natsuo and Ron playfully griping about their siblings and getting playfully ribbed back. A part of them. Not two overlooked and forgotten middle children but two equal parts of something bigger.

Hizashi and Shouta who have always been two halves of the same soul even if their marks don’t reflect it. Even if there isn’t the smallest hint of romantic feelings between them. Shouta who is as much of a part of Harry and Teddy’s family as Hizashi is. Who is called Uncle with a smile. Who Harry and Tenya trust enough to leave him and Hizashi babysitting while they go out on a date even if both of them call a dozen times to “just check in”. Shouta whose mark is dark and angry on his skin and has been for the last couple of years. A mark that Harry had taken one look at before trying to offer Shouta a familiar leather jacket that smelled of smoke and oddly enough dog. He didn’t take it. His nephew needed the memory of Shouta’s soul mate more than he ever would. Besides he is happy in his own relationship soulmates or not. He does listen to Harry’s stories however and thinks he would have loved and been infuriated by Sirius Black in equal parts.

#the elf talks #mha #bnha #harry potter

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writingforaliens · 5 months

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I don't really subscribe to the "Mystra groomed Gale" fan theory (we know Larian is playing fast and loose with official Faerun timelines, but she only reappeared in 1487). Their relationship was more along the lines of a PhD candidate and their department chair is one of the top researchers in the field and their advisor, who initiates the relationship. (Or maybe he's among the top researchers, but she's the one who controls funding and grants and publishing and conferences.) He walked into that relationship flattered and thrilled and proud, only to realize after a while that Mystra is holding his metaphorical grades and thesis and future research opportunities hostage. And what is he if not his genius intellect?

Mystra's attention was flattering, but she could just as easily move on to the next hot young genius with the Weave. So he has to do the only thing he knows he is good for: be a genius with it. He wants knowledge (don't we all), she's rightfully gatekeeping it, and he knows that if he pushes, she'll toss him aside, frustrated with him. We get the impression that she only told him to stop wanting, but didn't give any reason why. Maybe Gale, in hubris, didn't listen. But no matter. Gale is convinced he's only good for his Magic, and Mystra is only with him for it, so he tries to do what any of us would do: impress her.

Why does Gale believe that he's only good for his Magic? Because society groomed him. Society viewed him as the genius wizard. Teachers only praised his abilities. He gets attention not for his other skills or personality traits, but because he's an eight year old who can cast Fireball with ease at at time when Mystra has barely started reconstituting herself. Society taught him the only thing people noticed was his skill. Look around at how many former gifted kids hit walls doing undergrad or grad school, don't understand how to take notes or how to study because it's always been innate, and burn out. Being able to read collegiate materials is no longer impressive when everyone is reading collegiate materials. A huge part of the identity of gifted kids, praised since childhood on their academic talents, gets lost when they hit this wall or realize they're no longer special. (Trust me, being teachers' pet and doing top-notch academically gives you an ego. Doubly so if your family are academics, which we have some evidence that Gale's family is at least moderately wealthy and/or connected with other mages.)

Is Mystra's relationship with ANY of her Chosen a good thing? I'd still say no, unless they both can keep it platonic and mentoring. (I had a great professor in college who did just that: mentored me. My high school physics teacher is still a friend. He was a guest at my wedding.) As soon as romance or sex enters that relationship, it's gonna be a bad time, even if the romance is one-sided on the part of the mortal. It's inherently difficult, shaky ground for a relationship, because of the power dynamics. If you piss her off enough, she can take your connection to the Weave away, and the closer you are to the situation, the more likely you are to think someone deserves punishment. And if she does punish you, it feels like not just a fall from grace but also like you are particularly a problem. There are evil mages all over, and Mystra hasn't taken their powers (the Weave is True Neutral, but still...you think every mortal mage is going to understand that if you eliminate the evil users it actually destabilizes the Weave?). She's the only god who can't really punish those that dramatically deviate from her alignment, because of what she is the god of. Think about that. Every other god can say "you are not following my rules, get out". She can only say that to her clerics and paladins (5e can kiss my ass, paladins need a patron to hear their promise), maybe to her Chosen, but certainly not to anyone who uses her power.

I love Gale, but this really puts things in a different light.

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #i have opinions as the kid who was groomed into perfectionism and achievement related self-esteem more by teachers than by my parents #my parents gave me a whole other ball of trauma to deal with #but seriously who puts the label 'gifted' on a three year old (me)?#be civil in the comments or else

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altschmerzes · 6 months

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any more details on jamie settling in living with ted + adjusting to that everything you’ve posted is so good

YES ABSOLUTELY here is, in no particular order, an assortment of details about the process of jamie settling into living with ted and adjusting to that new reality:

(cw for non-detailed references to abuse and ptsd symptoms stemming from abuse trauma)

- when ted first takes jamie home from the hospital, roy goes with them. he sleeps on the couch in ted's flat for over a week before he's finally willing to spend the night in his own house (away from jamie) and that is far from the last time he stays at ted's just because neither of them can stand to be away from the kid overnight. eventually, bc it is murder on his back, roy starts sleeping in ted's room with him when he stays over on those nights, bc their dynamic is evolving too as all this is happening and they get a lot closer as they're like, really in the thick of basically co-parenting this kid together. (i am EARNING my platonic co-parenting tag on this fic okay sdlsk) this part isn't so much about jamie but it's a detail about those early days that i think about a lot.

- in the early days jamie really tries to like- he wants it to be Clear that look i'm not asking for anything i'm not entitled to, this is a Business Arrangement or whatever, you're too good a guy to let me go back to my dad after what happened or keep bouncing around my friends' couches like i've been doing while in london, but i know what this is and what it isn't. and ted's just like. respectfully. i do not think you do.

- (bc obviously ted is like. i did not take in an abused sixteen year old to be my roommate. when he talked to michelle on the phone about what he wanted to do, how he wanted to take action not only to get jamie away from james but to bring him home as well, and he wanted to make sure it wasn't going to be a bad decision for henry's sake, michelle told him to go get his kid. that's what this is. as far as ted's concerned, this was his official step into the role of being this boy's father, and he's going to live up to that.)

- even though ted's never raised a hand to him, it's hard for jamie to believe, really internalize and believe that he's safe there. sometimes, something will trigger him and he'll be pretty sure for at least a brief period of time that ted's going to snap and things are going to get bad. one time when this happens and jamie has a particularly bad panic attack as a result, once he gets calmed down and settled a bit, ted decides to try something new to see if it'll help. he first explains that jamie is never, ever going to be hit here, because this is not a hitting family, and ted is not going to scream and holler at him either. he'll make mistakes, and might raise his voice every so often, but he'll do his best not to and he'll always apologize if it happens, because that's not okay here.

and then after that, after making that extremely clear, ted goes on with his new plan for something that might help:

"Until you can believe me, or any time you’re just not sure, that’s the real nice thing about this community we got here, is you’ve got plenty of real good people around you that you can go to. So if I ever do anything that hurts you or scares you, you can call one of them, and they’ll help you and keep you safe. I’m not ever gonna give you a reason to need to make that call, but it’s important you know that it’s a call you can make. So we’re gonna make a list, okay?"

"A list?"

"A list of people you can call, if I ever hurt you or make you think I’m gonna hurt you. So that you can look at it and know you have choices."

so they make a list. (roy is the first name that goes on it. but they add a lot of others too - beard. higgins. julie. sarah kent. rebecca. mae the pub owner, which gets a laugh out of ted.) (it's a big list, and it's a little overwhelming for jamie to look at. he spent a long time suffering and scared on his own, and now he's only got the memory of that, the way living like that has made him afraid even when he's safe, and he has this whole list of people who'd drop anything to get him out of a bad situation if he just made a phone call.) (ted DOESN'T ever give him reason to use it, but while he's working on believing that ted isn't going to hurt him, even now that jamie lives with him even now that ted is becoming, has become his dad it makes him feel just that much safer to know that even if it did happen, he wouldn't be alone again)

- the first time that jamie's friends come over to hang out is a really, really big deal. not just to jamie (who did not bring friends over to his dad's place) and to ted (who knows it's a big step for him to do this, to take up space like that) but to the kidgang too (they've never seen him like this, without the looming threat of what he went home to hanging over him).

#gav gab #gav answers #fic: wriggle up on dry land #i could say one million things about these early days #the process of learning how to be in this new normal together #it is Everything 2 me #writing liveblog #abuse ref

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teetlestansecond · 2 years

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HEAR ME OUT. rottmnt x gn reader (separate-romantic/platonic) whos part of the foot!! i kinda wanna see how they meet, and after getting to know each other, he starts having a crush (or feels a very close friendship) on them? does he hide this from his brothers? and what abt reader? how are they going to hide this from the foot?? anyways, hope youll do this, i dont see a lot of foot! reader, so yeah 😭🙏

nonnie bb i'm obsessed with ur mind for this one i love u

also sticking this under a readmore because i got carried away

rise!turtles x foot!reader

raph! ❤️

Raph met you on a solo mission retrieving a piece of Shredder's armour.

it was an important mission for you, as you were trying to prove yourself to be worthy of a promotion within the foot clan.

unfortunately, you quickly realized the piece wasn't there after all, it was a trap set by Big Mama

Raph didn't see you as a friend, but it was clear you both held a distrust for the spider and so he put his feelings for the foot aside and worked with you to get away. you made a pretty amazing pair to be honest, but neither of you would admit that.

you two end up on a roof blocks away, and as the relief wears off you're left with the frustration of missing out on this promotion. you don't really know why you spill your guts to the turtle but you do, telling him how frustrated you are over the whole thing.

and Raph doesn't know why he listens, but he does. he goes so far as to try and comfort you, telling you that from what he saw during your fight you were an amazing fighter, and that if the foot clan didn't recognize that then it was their problem.

sitting on that roof, you began to realize that you actually really liked Raph's company, and instead of parting ways right there you asked if he'd join you for a trip to your favorite diner.

this becomes a habit for the two of you and both of you know it's a bad idea to befriend the enemy, but neither of you can help it!

Raph is careful with certain details, never telling you where he and his brothers live or what they're up to, but he's very vulnerable in just about every other area. it's nice to have someone to talk to about his worries and his hopes, and it's even nicer knowing that you're actually listening, not just pretending.

as friends, he feels like he can handle hiding things pretty well. his brothers don't need to know that he's accidentally befriended the enemy. but as things get more serious with the threat of the Shredder, it becomes harder for Raph to constantly face you in fights - especially knowing that the Shredder's armor is getting closer and closer to being finished. the Shredder may have been the head of the foot clan once upon a time, but Raph worries that once it's released, the Shredder won't hold any true alliance to the foot clan, which means there's no guarantee you won't get hurt.

he starts asking you to leave the foot whenever you guys meet up, making it clear that while he'll always be your friend, he fears he won't be able to protect you once the shredder is unleashed. you don't think there's anything to worry about, and every time Raph tries to get you to leave you turn him down.

you genuinely love Raph's presence in your life, but you're loyal to the foot and you can't imagine leaving it for anyone. sometimes though, the worry in his face gets to you, and for the first time in your life you can't help but wonder if you're doing the right thing being with the foot

you want advice, but you don't exactly have anyone to turn to. the people you trust most are even more loyal to the foot than even you, you know that if you ask they'll tell you to stay. but even if they were capable of being objective, no one in the clan knows that you've befriended Raph, and for good reason.

you can't imagine that your friendship would be accepted in the eyes of the foot, and you don't want to find out what could happen if you told them. in the same way Raph's kept your friendship secret from his family, you're keeping the secret from yours.

it isn't easy, though. questions arise whenever you head out on your own, and you can only use the patrol excuse so many times before eyebrows start getting raised.

it's even worse if there's romantic feelings involved. it's a mutual crush that neither of you are willing to acknowledge because you both know that will just make things harder. it's easier to ignore the romance budding between you guys and act like everything's fine.

on Raph's side of things, Leo picks up pretty quickly on the fact that his big brother is into someone and starts snooping, but you and Raph manage to avoid his prying eyes.

your friendship becomes strained as your crushes grow with the threat of the Shredder looming over you, and it results in the two of you spending less and less time together.

until the Shredder is finally unleashed, that is. and much to your horror, you realized that maybe Raph had been right to worry about it.

the armor is even darker and more dangerous than you'd expected, and you can't help but worry that you and the foot have really made a mistake bringing the Shredder back.

things really come to a head when Draxum and Splinter are caught by the Shredder, and when Splinter gets used for his Hamato nimpō. you know how much Raph loves his family and you realize that you love him too much to just watch this all take place.

you and Cassandra are put in charge of guarding Splinter, and against your better judgement you confess to them both that you've been hanging out with Raph and that it's complicated your feelings for the clan.

surprisingly, Cassandra tells you that your first loyalty should be to your heart. and that really is enough to help you make your decision.

when the turtles arrive to defeat the Shredder, you decide to help them, severing your ties to the foot for good. Raph couldn't be happier by your choice, and Leo is relieved to finally have an answer to who his brother's been sneaking around seeing.

you all win the final battle, and you take this as your chance to start a new life, this time with an alliance to the Hamato clan instead of the foot.

and you and Raph can finally hang out without feeling the need to hide, which is a really good feeling for you both.

if you're crushing on each other, i hate to tell you this but Leo is constantly teasing you both about it. he tells Donnie and Mikey that you and Raph have a thing for each other and the three of them are relentless trying to get you two together.

Raph, naturally, is annoyed with their antics. but the three of them do set up a very sweet date night and Raph does confess his feelings, so the teasing works out in the end.

Leo! 💙

you meet the turtles during an unexpected run-in while you and other foot soldiers are training, and you can't really explain how you became friends with Leo.

because he was so annoying, okay? he's cocky and he's arrogant and you want to knock him down a peg but that's hard to do when he can walk the walk and talk the talk.

Leo knows you're annoyed by him and that's why he focuses in on you. you're hit with the one-liners every time you guys square off and your utter frustration with his cheesy words always makes Leo giggle.

you guys go on like this for a few months, but the vibes change one day when you stumble across the turtle alone in the afternoon.

you were just out clearing your mind and decided that hiding out on a rooftop would get you the peace and quiet you were looking for.

but you get up there and you'll never guess who also happens to be on the roof, of all the roofs in new york city.

you're not sure if you want to leave or scream or strange the turtle upon first spotting him, but you decide against all three when you realize that Leo is injured.

he insists that the cut is worse than it looks, and that sometimes even after all these years, training with a blade can get you pretty ugly injuries.

you don't know why you offer to help him, but he doesn't accept. turns out, he's a pretty good medic and patches himself up with a practiced ease.

he does, however, ask you to stay on the roof with him. he doesn't want to worry his brothers with his cut but he doesn't exactly want to be alone either. and you should say no, but you don't.

it's a weird time. you guys talk and Leo is still sort of a dork with his stupid jokes but it's different. he's different, a more genuine, more vulnerable version of your personal worst enemy, and you don't exactly hate it.

but you guys are not friends, okay? you're not, you insist. it doesn't matter that you and Leo start bumping into each other more and more on rooftops. it doesn't matter that you let him help patch up your wounds whenever you get hurt. it doesn't matter if you guys start hanging out on the ground as well as on roofs.

it matters a little bit, actually. but you're sworn to the foot clan and you're not about to let people know that you're hanging out with a member of the Hamato clan, no thank you.

Leo, on the other hand, has no problem telling people that you two are most definitely besties.

he sees you in fights and is all "omg hey bestie!!!! what's up!!!!!!!" and you contemplate murder every time.

you would never though, because unfortunately for you you've grown attached to this absolute clown.

yes he's insufferable and a fool but he's understanding and makes you happy. and even though Leo's let approximately every single living thing in new york know that you're hanging out, you haven't been punished or kicked out of the foot, so slowly you start to be more open about the friendship too.

Foot Lieutenant and Foot Brute do sit you down and make sure that your loyalty to the clan hasn't been affected, and when they're satisfied with your responses they let it go.

you're relieved honestly, because when you're not training these days all you want to do is hang out with your best friend and it's so much easier now that you're not hiding all the time.

if we're taking the platonic route, things continue on like this. Leo doesn't push you to leave the foot and you don't feel the need to. if the turtles get caught up with other villains in the mystic city, you sometimes help them out. it's a strange and surprising friendship to everyone watching from the outside looking in, but you and Leo are fine with the system you've worked out.

things are a little different if romantic feelings get involved, though.

you're very aware of your crush, admittedly, but you struggled confessing to be friends, confessing to this would be so much worse.

and it doesn't help that Leo is absolutely blind to his own crushes. that guy can clock anyone with a crush in a ten-mile radius but when it comes to himself? he's oblivious for the longest time.

but then one day he just realizes out of the blue, and it makes him panic a little. befriending the enemy is one thing, but falling in love??? what is he supposed to do with that???????

you two never really talk about it, but you both know there's something there. and it makes everything weird for a while.

your crush pushes you away from the foot a little. you're still affiliated with them, and are still very much a foot soldier, but you drop in a lot less often in an effort to avoid facing the turtles in any fights.

you and Leo are a little like Batman and Catwoman and i could elaborate but then we'd be here forever.

the years pass and you two are just in this fun little flirtationship and you both act like you're fine with it but you're also both definitely pining over each other.

Mikey, Donnie, Raph, and Cass have a running bet over whether or not the two of you will ever take the next step. Donnie and Cass are convinced you won't.

Donnie! 💜

you were in the junkyard looking for an old artifact Foot Lieutenant asked for. Donnie was in the junkyard looking for some bits and pieces for a new project. it's the first time you've ever seen one of the turtles outside of a fight and all you can think is that this one is such a fucking dork.

he's over there muttering excitedly to himself and you're simply too fascinated to worry about artifacts so you slide your way over and ask him what he's doing.

initially Donnie doesn't want to tell you anything because you're the enemy, but you flat out tell him you're on a wild goose chase for some old piece of junk and that you're a little convinced this thing isn't even real. you've searched so many different locations for it, several other soldiers have, and every time you each come back empty-handed.

you already know you're not going to find it tonight, so you tell the turtle you're more interested in bothering him.

he's still suspicious, but he slowly starts telling you about some top-secret project he's trying to finish and how he's looking for some pieces to help bring the project together.

do you know what half of the words he's saying mean? no. but you listen intently and he seems happy to have an extra pair of ears to listen to him because within half an hour he's full-on rambling about his plans and thoughts and you're genuinely loving every minute of it.

by the time Donnie calls it a night, he's accepted you as an unexpected new friend, even if you're a foot soldier. he asks if you'd like to meet up in the dump the next week and look for more stuff together, and you happily agree.

it becomes a thing between you two. you'll pick through dumps and junkyards looking for old tech or scrap bits. sometimes Donnie rants about his struggles with his family, sometimes you rant about feeling lost in the foot clan. it's strange to feel like you have so much in common with someone you're supposed to consider an enemy, but Donnie makes you feel seen and heard, and you do the same to him. in spite of everything, you both are bonded in a way you don't have words for.

Donnie doesn't intend to tell anyone, worried that his family wouldn't understand, but one night after hanging out with you he returns to the lair and finds April waiting for him. she'd come to ask him for homework help earlier in the night and was told he was in the junkyard, and ended up catching the two of you together.

naturally she demands to know everything about you, and asks Donnie if he's aware you're in the foot clan. he tells her that he doesn't care, because you're his friend and even if your clans are at war it doesn't mean he and you have to be at war too.

if he's crushing on you, April clocks it immediately.

regardless of romantic feelings, she demands to meet you and when she does she interrogates you for the longest before deciding that you're okay. you and April end up becoming friends too, and the three of you hang out whenever possible.

you keep it a secret from the foot because you already struggle with feeling like you belong there and fear that your friendship with Donnie will finally give the foot a reason to get rid of you.

you guys live like this for the next couple of years, it's not the most ideal thing ever but you make it work and it's fine.

remember that artifact though?? because after a couple of years it finally gets found.

you don't remember a lot about the krang invasion. they possessed you right off the bat with the rest of the foot clan and infected your brain.

the entire invasion was traumatizing to Donnie, but the aftermath was even worse in some ways - especially when he found you.

regardless of whether there's romantic feelings involved, Donnie is determined to save you, and brings you to the lair to work on an antidote.

of course, he's able to get it worked out after a few days of trial and error, and you’re the first person he administers the antidote.

if we’re going the romantic route, the moment you regain consciousness he celebrates by wrapping you up in his arms and telling you that he loves you.

it’s maybe not the most romantic setup, but he’s almost lost way too many people and time’s too valuable to waste. and he’s been harboring these feelings for a long time, he’s just never found the right moment to share those feelings.

Donnie’s learned after the whole invasion thing that right moments don’t mean shit, and he’s not willing to let another moment pass.

in the platonic version, you wake up and get pulled into a long, crushing hug by Donnie. he’s relieved to know his best friend is back, and whether you like it or not you’re kept in the lab for a few days so Donnie can monitor your condition.

once you’re feeling better, you make the decision to leave the foot clan. it’s tainted for you now, you don’t want anything to do with them anymore.

these days, you run with the hamato clan, training with them and making a new life with yourself.

and of course, you still make time for those weekly junkyard trips with Donnie.

Mikey! 🧡

you bump into Mikey while the turtle was topside painting a mural. you’re just going on a one-person mission to pick up lunch for some of the other members of the foot clan, so it doesn’t seem like a bad idea to stay and watch him work.

Mikey doesn’t even notice you until he happens to turn around by chance and catches you.

after a brief but intense questioning, he deems you harmless and lets you watch while the two of you chat. you tell him what you’re supposed to be doing and confess that you’re less than thrilled to be handling so many orders on your own.

it doesn’t sound right to Mikey, so he goes along with you and helps you pick up the orders. normally he wouldn’t try and help the enemy, but he figures this can be the exception. it’s not like he’s helping you do something bad, you know? it’s just lunch!

and after you deliver it all, you spot Mikey hiding nearby gesturing to you to come over so you two could eat lunch together.

and that’s where it all starts with you two. you start seeking Mikey out to watch him paint, and you’ll usually grab a bite to eat before parting ways again. it’s nothing much, but you guys fall into a nice little routine there.

for a long time, it’s not really a friendship. you two are more friendly acquaintances, neither of you certain how to become friends considering the rivalry between the foot and hamato clans.

it takes a few months for you two to become friends, but it’s inevitable really - you two spend so much time together, and you get along surprisingly well despite everything. it takes you both by surprise but you welcome the friendship.

Mikey welcomes it too, it’s nice to make a new friend and he really loves spending time with you.

the both of you decide to keep the friendship a secret, not wanting to complicate things with input from your friends and family.

anytime the two of you find yourself in a fight, you both just avoid each other. it works well enough, but you have to admit that you don’t feel particularly great fighting your best friend’s brothers either.

it’s even harder if you’re crushing on him. you just love Mikey, how can you love him and then turn around and attack his brothers? it’s not right, but you don’t want to leave the foot clan.

and Mikey doesn’t love seeing his crush fighting his family either. he doesn’t want to ask you to leave the foot, because he’s worried you’ll come to resent him for it, but he doesn’t know what to do.

your friendship becomes strained under the pressure of your combined worries, but things snap when Foot Lieutenant and Foot Brute catch you and Mikey hanging out.

they’re absolutely enraged, and question you for hours about how long you’ve been hanging out and what you’ve shared with him.

you insist that you haven’t shared anything to ruin the integrity of the foot, but it’s ultimately not enough to convince your higher-ups, and you’re kicked out of the foot clan.

upset, you lash out at Mikey and stop talking to him for a little while. you decide to forget all about the turtles and the foot, and move on with your life.

do you miss your best friend? absolutely. but after calming down you feel absolutely terrible over the way you lashed out at him and you don’t really know how to go and apologize.

you don’t think you’ll ever speak to Mikey again, but it’s just your luck that you happen to come across him again, painting a mural the same way he’d been when you first met him.

when he realizes you’re watching him, you decide to just bite the bullet and apologize. your life has been better since leaving the clan, and if anything you feel like you should thank him for helping you get out.

really, Mikey’s just happy to know you’re doing okay. and he’s missed having you around, so he happily forgives you on the spot.

the two of you decide to try again, staring over and rebuilding your friendship in the open. it’s nice to get to know Mikey’s friends and family members this time around, and you can’t help but feel like your friendship is a lot stronger this time around.

maybe those crushes are still there, maybe you’re both more open about that too.

#now excuse me while i go think about this forever #zennie answers!#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rottmnt x reader #rottmnt headcanons #save rottmnt

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teabiscs · 8 months

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Borg Headcanons (w. a small side of Yubo)

Sergei

While, yes, Sergei is the team dad, that doesn’t take away from Yuriy being the team leader. Yuriy can lead this group of idiots (lovingly said) from point a to point b. Yes, he’s impulsive and he’s calculating, but he isnt what holds the four(five) of them together.

The team would fall apart without Sergei. He does the cooking, the cleaning, laundry etc. he is domestic aF. He enjoys every little part of it.

1. Because it means he has a home

2. It's for his family.

3. Being able to do all this means he’s safe and has shelter and his boys are safe with him. Being able to make dinner means they won’t go hungry. Laundry means they have clothes and they won’t be cold or dirty.

He takes care of them. He’s their rock. He’s who they go to vent to. He’s the one who cleans up their wounds and bandages them up. Boris will say that his hugs are medicine. He will also joke with Sergei that he needs to kiss his “booboos” to make them better and then gets all red faced when SERGEI TAKES HIM SERIOUSLY AND KISSES THE BANDAGE. (Platonic bUT EMBARRASSING)

Sergei has the best Japanese out of all of them. He also speaks fluent French, there is no reason he decided to learn French just that it seemed fun (it was definitely because he’s a big softie and thought it sounded romantic)

Is tall and intimidating and has resting mean face, BUT IS A HUGE SOFTIE.

Ivan

Ivan is the most intellectually gifted. He is able to mask his genius by being lazy. No one expects much of him based on how he behaves. His teachers think he’s cheating or plagiarizing his work, because he just gives off major slacker doesn’t care energy.

He is the most street smart and people Smart

Ivan also reads people really well and picks up on micro expressions like no one else. He can tell when Yuriy and Boris are fighting even though everyone else, Sergei included, would say they’re acting normal. He’s highly perceptive

Ivan is really into photography. Whether it’s with a real camera or with his cell phone. He likes street photography which he does a lot around Moscow. And then he loves taking photos of everyone else. 90% of the time they are awful and purposely trying to make someone look bad (Boris and Kai). His pictures of sergei and yuriy are more dignified. (He lives for pictures he takes of any of the guys that end up looking like a new meme)

He’s also really good with his hands, THERE IS NOTHING he cannot put together, nothing he can’t take apart and figure out. The best at doing things on the computer and could definitely become a hacker but thinks it’s only fun because he’s not supposed to do it. (He changes Boris’ contacts and settings ALL the time, as well as Kai’s because it’s funny. He changes Kai’s lock screen all the time to some couple photo he has hidden deep in his phone storage. Couple photos of him with a person he swears is just a friend. And then watches as Kai gets bug eyed unlocking his phone and changing it back)

IVAN IS A MENACE. IVAN IS A BRAT

Which gets into: Ivan and Boris love memes. They will drive the whole house insane repeating the same dumb phrase over and over again. (WHAT ARE THOSE??)

Ivan and Boris are the closest, they're thick as thieves. Even though to ME Yubo is a thing. They are always up to something, especially if Hiwatari is involved.

Mini YuBo:

Yuriy feels insecure in his relationship with Boris at times. Boris is Yuriy’s rock. His sanity. Yuriy is unhealthily codependent on Boris. And sometimes it eats at him at night that he doesn’t bring anything to the relationship. That Boris is the one doing all these things to make yuriy happy. And when Yuriy’s asks Boris what he can do, Boris says that being together is enough. And that making Yuriy happy makes him happy.

And to Yuriy that’s not enough.

Just thinking about Boris confessing to Yuriy that he's been in love with the red head since Yuriy gave him that jacket. And Yuriy getting all red faced and stuttering out,

My whole Yubo ship dynamic is:

Boris is a Menace to Yuriy in at least two ways.

1. Doing stupid things that makes yuriy question why he’s in love with Boris

2. Saying insanely sappy shit that turns yuriy into a complete tsundere.

I know I’ve written this in a fic, not sure if the chapter is posted, but yuriy blushes bright obnoxious red. While if Boris blushes, which is VERY rare, its a very subtle and soft pink. And Yuriy hates him for it.

Yuriy

Also this might be a controversial take but I Hc Yuriy as someone who does not take care of himself well. He prides himself in being clean and is a clean freak. But I see him as someone who has to be reminded to eat and sleep and just be nice to himself. In his mind as long as he has slept for a bit or eaten in the last 24 hours he is fine.

While Boris is the complete opposite. He takes care of himself, he indulges. He deserves nice things. After living in the streets scrounging for food, sleeping in shifts, and then the abbey, Boris makes sure to eat wherever he’s hungry and take naps. (includes dragging yuriy with him for said naps.)

Boris

Kai buys Boris a dumb shirt as a joke. But then he wears it unironically so it backfires. (It’s a shirt that says good boy) but then Ivan and Sergei start buying dumb shirts. His newest addition a hoodie that boldly says HOUSEWIFE. Also has a gym shirt that says “Fuck me, or Fight Me” (Sergei avoids being seen with him when he’s wearing it.

HE CAN NOT COOK. DO NOT EAT. NOT SAFE FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION. A BIOHAZARD

#yuriy and boris kind of short but ive said a lot about them in the past #beyblade headcanons

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lemonsbakery · 1 year

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Random roguefort hc time!! :3

wooh menhera chan divider gotta love that mentally ill and emotionally unstable magical girl!! anyways

Roguefort HATES cold weather. They wear relatively lightweight clothing so it is insanely hard for them to do heists in cold temperatures WITHOUT getting hypothermia (they still do heists despite the consequences)

Roguefort's sleep schedule is so fucked up because they work on heist plans for WEEKS STRAIGHT without rest. They in fact do have eyebags but they cover them up with makeup since they're a bit insecure abt them

Roguefort spoils the shit out of Lord Crumbles

Roguefort gets flustered at basic human empathy or simple compliments. They have no idea that it isn't normal to get blushy over someone saying 'hey you're rlly nice' or smth along the lines of that (only applies when the compliment is directed at THEM and not the phantom bleu)

Roguefort doesn't rlly hate their parents, but they dont love them either. In the end, they WERE raised by them and they DID keep a roof over their head (sometimes)..so they cant really hate them even if they were god awful to them for simply existing (they really should hate them)

Roguefort doesn't have many friends thanks to the fact that they struggle with social situations outside of their thief job AND because they cant keep friends for long thanks to the thief thing taking up their entire life. They cherish the few (like. 2) friends they have with their entire being and they would burn the entire world to ashes just to ensure that they are happy.

Roguefort wouldnt DARE move while lord crumbles is asleep on them even if they have something to do

Roguefort literally. doesn't have a stable job and they usually cannot sell the things they steal so they're middle class

Roguefort only steals from snobby rich people because they know what greed can do to a cookie so they want to provide a sense of loss to these cookies in hopes to somewhat untaint their hearts

Roguefort will pull a heist in any weather BESIDES rain. They are absolutely terrified of rain.

Roguefort absolutely hates love. They're terrified of it. They haven't had one good experience with love whether it be familial, platonic, or romantic

Roguefort is amazing at poker

Rogueforts room is an absolute mess. The rest of their house is clean but their ROOM..YIKES.

Roguefort keeps themself on a strict diet and very rarely gives themself break days

Roguefort has scars all over their body. They're from a LOT of different things, like falling off buildings, getting into bad situations mid-heist, getting chained up and escaping the chains seconds later, Lord Crumbles, etc!

Roguefort is an insanely good makeup artist, they can hide just about any imperfection on their face with ease.

Roguefort is a sucker for sour flavors

Roguefort cannot swim or ride a bike

Roguefort doesn't swear very often.

Roguefort has Almonds entire schedule memorized. They know the time he brushes his teeth, the time he makes breakfast, the time he goes to work, his entire coffee order, how often his shoelaces untie, etc.

Roguefort is often mistaken for a 17-18 year old, they are older than almond.

Roguefort is EXTREMELY androgynous. There's been occasions where people have fought over what they think Rogueforts gender is. Both sides are always wrong.

Roguefort can alter their voice with ease. One moment they could be sounding like a frail and gentle young lady and then they could sound like the fucking hulk.

Rogueforts eyes have been described as hypnotizing. Some people stare into their eyes and instantly are head over heels over a complete stranger.

Roguefort is not as heavy as they look, they're relatively lightweight.

Roguefort is someone who is easily scared, despite this they find enjoyment in spooking almond every now and then even though his yelps tend to scare the shit out of roguefort.

Roguefort sometimes passes by old friends while in disguise. It's so painfully hard for them to advert their eyes and not strike up conversation just to see how they're doing without roguefort by their side.

Roguefort cherishes simple conversations with their entire being because usually their conversations consist of trying to get a stranger to stop being a fucking weirdo to them or the police trying to talk them out of pulling a heist.

Roguefort gets the most horrific fan mail known to man. They don't even know how these people have their address because not even the police can find out where they live.

ROGUEFORT LOVES MAKING FUN OF HORROR MOVIE CHARACTERS SM

And finally, Roguefort always keeps a pocket knife or a dagger on them just in case something goes wrong.

That's all I got! Yippie!!! ^o^ apologies for any spelling mistakes

#tw scars #tw blades #<- THEYRE MENTIONED. THERES NO IMAGERY OF BLADES OR SCARS #lem stfu abt roguefort #lem rambles #guys. im tonna do. the unbelievable.#roguefort #roguefort cookie #TAGGED THE ROGUEFORT TAGS. WORLD EXPLODES.#giggle a hehe a haha #roguefort headcanons

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tumblasha · 4 months

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why was i like that (tl;dr in tags)

today i clicked on sgc's ig profile and saw that they use they/them pronouns now. and it makes me want to cry.

bc even tho we Literally went to high school together-ish (they were 3yrs after me?) we had such different experiences.

i was a Girl who hung out with guys who didn't respect me, went out with a boyfriend who was nice to me, and was too shy / awkward / busy being that shy nerd stereotype [1] that i had no "deep friendship". you could ask anyone anything about me and they wouldn't know the answer! and i wouldn't know anything about them!! [2] bc we were a small class (169) and everyone in town was a mix of neighbor and cousin, i got my invites to parties and dances, but i overall felt like i was on autopilot. i don't remember my life until i was ~16 [3]!! why!!!

i think a lot about how dr uju anya had a whole husband and child but over time realized she was a lesbian. not to parasocialize too much with this academic weapon, but i feel like i also had this experience (to a much smaller / younger degree). and i feel so sad thinking about how i could've saved so much pain in high school if i had just known i wasn't wired to like guys like that [4].

and i remember lindie [5], someone who's ~30 now and has been with her now-husband since she was ~13. one day we had a good phone call (post-hs-graduation) and she told me that for literally everyone else she could possibly see romantically / sexually, she's a lesbian. but she and her husband have literally Grown Up together. her love for him is something that goes beyond platonic / romantic / sexual attraction. it's a life partnership in every sense of the term.

this phone conversation lit a lightbulb in my summer 2019 brain. i knew that this high school bf of mine could be a life partner. we started dating when i was 11 or 12 and !!! we both saw each other grow up (at least to some degree). but something in the pit of my stomach told me i couldn't live a lie like that. it wouldn't be fair to him for me to have this self-discovery and just .. continue as if it didn't happen?

and so when someone said that dr. uju's pre-lesbian marriage was "sad" bc she didn't know she was a lesbian, i got (in my head) defensive. bc "it's totally possible to be happy and ignore this part of yourself!" (it's not).

for the longest time i told myself that being bisexual was the easiest sexuality to have bc i knew i liked women and i could always just end up with a guy to make my family happy, if i had to, ya know? i got mentally defensive when ppl online said that "invisibility is not a privilege" and "biphobia is real" bc i was subconsciously using this label as a way to hide the fact that the mere thought of a life with a man made me anxious / nauseous / scared.

and boy did that fear kick into overdrive anytime i was around a guy. if he even smiled at me, i'd go a little silly. it didn't even matter if he was straight, bi, ace, gay, or anything, i'd just latch onto the fact that it was a Man talking to me and i couldn't stop thinking about them and any comment they made that made them seem bored / annoyed at me made me spiral about my self-worth. but if there was ever a case that i Thought they even Maybe had an interest in me, i'd get nauseous again. to this day i feel like i still put guys up on a pedestal so i just have ... no guy friends [6].

this novel is a silly way of saying the following things.

the label "lesbian" is a vibe rn

heartstopper is a painful show for me to watch

sorry if ur a guy i met before i turned 20 that i was weird around : ( /nbh

sgc looks so happy. they're out and they look so happy. why couldn't that be me.

why was i like that.

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[1] i had a goofy jock bf tho so was it really so bad?

[2] and to a certain degree this continues today? i don't know how to hold a conversation, i don't know how to ask questions, i don't have good memory of the conversations i Do manage to hold, my #1 fear is playing the newlyweds game with literally anybody. i once described making friends as 'learning a person's scripts / common conversation topics' and the other person in the room just kinda said 'haha yeah...' and i continued to pset :skull:

[3] and 16-17 was my sad era where i cried basically any time my bf and i were alone together. that man was so patient w me lmao

[4] why do i always say no? why can't i just calm down? why is it weird to describe us as 'friends but we also make out'?

[5] one of the coolest ppl i know. (death + suicide mentioned in this footnote) she was the french teacher that replaced my old french teacher after she died, and lindie really suffered for us. bc it was a catholic school, she was forced to cover up her tattoos, and she had to wear longer clothes (admin always told her to cover up even when she was wearing Long Clothes). she went through so much (miscarriage, lost here sense of self, etc.) and was literally suicidal but she still showed up for us. one of my fav teachers and an inspiration to this day.

[6] except for the two dudes (that might be) reading this, y'all are cool and literally the best. afaik i've been Normal around y'all so yay! growth!!

#tl;dr: if it wasn't obvious i used to be a pick-me LMAO but now i'm better (nonbinary lesbian? that seems good for now)#/nbh = nobody here (tone tag)#this is a jumbled mess #pls don't feel pressured to read this #just hit that like button and keep scrolling wahfioejwa #dash rambles #coming out #sorta

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BNHA Fic Recs: Family/Friendship Feels

make this feel like home by carolinaa

The Todoroki siblings all come together for Christmas for the first time in years when they hear that Endeavor will be out of town during the break. Very painful, but also the most realistic depiction of estranged siblings that clearly love each other, but don't know how to act around each other. Fantastically written, and it's told from Natsuo's perspective, which is a refreshing take on this genre of Todoroki family recovery fics.

Tickets to the Todoroki Trauma Drama Are Buy 1 Get 1 Free by miniongrin

Touya and Fuyumi are twins and get body-swapped and learn about the lives they've developed since being separated and grow closer as a result. Fucking hysterical, great characterization of Fuyumi specifically, and surprisingly sweet and sad when it wants to be.

journey to the past by aloneintherain

When Izuku's classmates are pro heroes, they time travel back to when Izuku was little and save him from villain attacks repeatedly over the course of his life. This is heartbreakingly sweet. It shows all of Izuku's baggage and loneliness while simultaneously giving us the best friend bonding that is Pro Hero Class A playing with baby Deku. It's like getting an ice cream after getting decked in the nose.

Confusion by bortzy

Todoroki and Kirishima bonding over being gay. That's kind of it, but it's cute. I like Kirishima and Todoroki being friends. It's just uncomplicated friend stuff.

Movin' Out by momojirounation

Todoroki and Yaoyorozu not knowing how to function so they ask their partners for help. Very cute and funny, I love platonic Todomomo, and also they're both autistic, which is just--yes.

i. shaky hands by rexcorvidae

Izuku has chronic pain on account of being the human embodiment of poor impulse control, so Dadzawa steps in and helps him deal with it. It's just nice. It's just nice seeing people treating Izuku well. It's vicarious catharsis.

If We're Being Honest by thequeenofwhump

Class 1A is hit with a truth quirk that causes them to spout "fucking word vomit" for almost a month, and because no one can lie, all the couples get together in, like, the first chapter, and it's great. It's hilarious, especially the internal narration of the characters, and there's a lot of really good friendship moments between everyone involved, and I do mean everyone. It's not just the usual angst-ridden characters like Todoroki and Bakugou. I have a whole review typed up for this bad boy, but I'd say it's worth a read.

Imperceptible by lunarecrypt

A Hagakure-centric fic was something I did not know I needed, but now I'm glad I have it. Hagakure needs stealth advice from Todoroki, and she finds out the barest bones of his backstory and why he is the way he is. I always love fics about less popular characters, and I especially love them when they're told from the perspective of an underappreciated character. I really like Hagakure, and I wish there was more available content about her.

Terrible Twos by PotterheadAvengerDemigod

Midoriya is hit with a Quirk that de-ages him back to when he's four years old, and since Bakugou is the only person he knows and remembers, Bakugou has to babysit him. Tooth-rottingly adorable and features Bakugou struggling not to swear in the presence of innocent baby Deku, lest his friends hit him over the head with a rolled up newspaper. It's great, fucking love it.

all according to keikaku................. by carolinaa

Kirishima gets sick of Midoriya and Todoroki's pining, so he decides to flirt with Todoroki in an attempt to not-so-subtly force Midoriya to confess by taking advantage of Midoriya's competitive streak. The characterization is really solid and features teenagers being teenagers, with all the hell that is high school put on full display. I just love it when class 1A is depicted as just the most Gen Z kids to ever exist. This fic is almost literally every conversation I've overheard or been apart of in homework group study sessions. It's great.

(Honestly, just go read everything by this author).

bff (brother friend forever) by carolinaa

A collection of snapshots showing Iida and Uraraka's friendship, where they're really just bratty siblings that love each other just so much. As always with this author, great writing style, fantastic characterization, and hit me in the fucking feels.

(Seriously. Read everything by this author. Especially if you want good Erasermic and Todo-family fics).

#bnha #bnha fanfic recs #bnha fanfiction #boku no hero academia #mha #mha fanfic recs #mha fanfiction #my hero academia #class 1a

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