#it’s not that deep but still bugs me

[phleb0tomist]

i keep seeing this idea that Real wheelchair users all have custom active chairs, and that transport/standard chairs are just an embarrassing stereotype. “no one really uses those!” “stop drawing disabled characters in standard chairs!!”

well, plenty of us are a stereotype. sorry. custom chairs require MONEY and good medical support. meanwhile active chairs are unusable for some people. i used an uncomfy transport chair (the kind with tiny wheels and no way to self propel) for a year, and a standard chair for 7yrs. until i got my powerchair i was only ever pushed by a carer. a lot of disabled people will never use an active or custom chair. don’t pretend we don’t exist just because we don’t fit some cool independent ideal.

shoutout to people who use transport chairs and adaptive strollers and other chairs that need to be pushed by a carer

shoutout to people who use standard chairs that don’t fit their body

shoutout to people who use secondhand or makeshift wheelchairs

in my teens i literally felt invalid as a disabled person because i didnt have the ‘real actual’ type of wheelchair everyone talks about online. just my garbage transport chair that my mom had to push. ​but people with shitty wheelchairs exist and are extremely common actually

#very specific rant here lol im sorry #it’s not that deep but still bugs me #disabled #wheelchairs #txt #negative #1000

[thranduel]

i don’t understand why people hate gale.

“he’s annoying” or “he talks too much” or “he’s too clingy and got offended when i was in a relationship” (which was a BUG, it takes two seconds to do some research before jumping to conclusions) are the most stupid reasons to actually hate a character.

he’s the one that has the warmest personality when you first meet him as well, so i just don’t get it?? i’m not saying you’re not allowed to dislike him, and this doesn’t apply to everyone, but SOMETIMES it feels like people just hop on a “hate bandwagon” because i see so many comments (especially on tiktok… where most of the people only started playing because it’s “trendy” now) about him that are the exact same as each other and it’s like people have lost the ability to think for themselves and form their own opinions after actually playing the game properly and learning about the characters.

so many people even go on about how it’s a turn off that he “doesn’t shut up about his ex”… like maybe actually continue playing the story to understand why it’s a significant conversation to have and why it’s a huge part of his character arc, and stop being weirdly bitter/jealous/annoyed when the man is also a VICTIM that has been manipulated and abused in a relationship with a massive power imbalance.

#gale #gale dekarios #baldur’s gate 3 #bg3 #the amount of people that have the audacity to pick up an extremely intense fantasy roleplaying game with -> #extremely deep and complex well-written characters but then don’t even bother TRYING to get to know them and -> #instead just reduce them to things they’re not is SO unbelievably frustrating #like if you’re going to be lazy why pick up the game #if you lack basic media literacy and don’t understand a single thing about character analysis why are you even bothering -> #to talk about the characters #sorry if that’s harsh but it’s exhausting #and fyi i’m specifically talking about toxic people who constantly hate on characters without understanding them #people are obviously allowed to dislike characters but when you’re spreading things that aren’t even true it’s wild #like how can you talk when you DO NOT UNDERSTAND #don’t even get me started on the literal BUG #people are out here saying gale is an obsessed creep that won’t leave you alone and it wasn’t even supposed to happen #and it’s not even just people who hate characters it’s also ones who are weirdly obsessed but still lack reading comprehension #cough those astarion fans that sexualise him and treat him like an object #do you even know how much his character would despise hearing you talk about him that way #like come on now #my posts

[archduke-enver-gortash]

mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again. #sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all. #imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs! #so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately. #but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when. #like. imagine that. jesus dude. #like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here. #but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

[spicyicymeloncat]

Nightcord Kaito is actually my favourite virtual singer from project sekai. He’s so angry I love him. (I changed his hair to kinda resemble the character from the original Samsa mv)

#pulling myself from the depths of despair to finish this #i was working on an alternative sketch but I couldn't line it and it made me feel bad for days #but I'm glad this turned out okay #gahjsjskskskks #anyways I totally hyperfixated on the commissioned song from the immiscible discord event #Samsa #the name comes from the last name of the main character of the novel: Metamorphosis #which is a story of a man who becomes a bug and starves to death when he feels like he’s become a burden to his family #fucked up #i have so many thoughts about niigo Kaito #about how he’s probably the one vocaloid Mafuyu doesn’t like - because he’s a manifestation of the harsh reality she lives in #and maybe she sees him as an angry monstrous being (like in the song) and she’s afraid of being like him - or that she already is like him #and he’s not only angry at her mother but also angry at Mafuyu for her treatment and reflection of him #essentially he’s like a projection of her own self hatred in a way #he’s got a right to be angry but his anger is directed at himself/Mafuyu but in terms of him and Kanade he’s still a positive and #necessary force to acknowledge the truth of Mafuyu’s treatment #the event hasn’t even come out in English yet and I’m reading way to deep in between the lines lol #project sekai #Kaito #vocaloid Kaito #project sekai Kaito #niigo kaito #art #fanart #digital art #vocaloid

[blujayonthewing]

'lemme just do a little preliminary research before bed for that trip I wanna do, nothing too deep I don't wanna stay up too late' but the research involves SEVERAL OVERLAPPING AND LONG-DORMANT SPECIAL INTERESTS AT THE SAME TIME

#FORAGING BUSHCRAFT COOKING CAMPING ENTOMOPHAGY INSECT COLLECTION AND PINNING WAAAUUGHHH #I haven't even THOUGHT about bug collecting or pinning in like. fifteen YEARS #after I stopped dating a naturalist I also stopped collecting (for my own reasons) but this interest goes back to like... age eight #as does MY WANTING TO SEE PERIODICAL CICADAS. WHICH I STILL NEVER HAVE FOR VARIOUS REASONS #I'm making a fucking PILGRIMAGE for this #but researching and planning is unlocking SUCH deep and dormant parts of my heart #and also is sucking me in and keeping me WAY up gkjhdfjkgf ahhh #about me #cicada journey

[trashbaget]

#wrote a fucking poem #because a bitch is fucking feeling things #cue venting in the tags because this is where i'm feeling comfortable to do it right now #a while back i caught the love bug for a friend and tbFCKNh it was the very second time i'd ever actually fallen In Love with someone and.. #the first time it didn't end well. long story short: i asked him out and he turned me down but we stayed friends and it actually made us.. #grow closer regardless. a little while later i'd realized my feelings were Different and it just came out one night when we were having a.. #really deep conversation. and i'm glad i told him because it helped me get over him and we got better and things weren't weird at all. we.. #stayed really good fucking friends. now i didn't get to see him for a summer and i definitely don't have feelings for him anymore and i'm.. #sincerely happy for him and his now partner. i consider him (and always have) my best friend. (among others but he's definitely Up There.. #like no. 2 probably) but way too soon after Talking was summer and we were both farthest from everybody and are both the kind of ppl who.. #pretty much don't text anyone except like 2 ppl and we are not one of each's 2. today i got to see him and a bunch of our friends for the.. #first time since fucking april and god have i missed them all. but seeing him again kinda fucked me up a second. threw me for a massive loop #i got Weird (neg) and i was NERVOUS as HELL at the start and for a few minutes i couldn't figure out what it even WAS because i hadn't felt. #that way in a long time. and i am not about to catch those feelings for him again because No. i chilled out after like 3 minutes bc i got.. #reacclimated to being around ppl My Damn Age again and things weren't Weird (neg) anymore. we talked we joked we sincerely said our I Miss.. #Yous and we hung out. with everyone and alone for a bit because ppl had gone out and come back and it was FINE it was NORMAL () and we.. #were GOOD. we ARE good. and i don't love him in that way anymore. i love him as a friend. and that love is definitely more intense than with #other friends because we have a deeper bond and yes because i Loved him. but the fact is i don't and it's ANNOYING to react like i still do. #and getting nervous like i still do. and i kept worrying that something i'd do might make it seem like i do and i don't and just UGH having. #feelings is annoying. i've never been able to stay friends with someone after having feelings for them at all let alone INTENSE IN LOVE FEEL #INGS!! like wtf!!! and this is sincerely one of the best friendships i've ever had and i don't want to and Won't. lose him especially for.. #this but god DAMN am i not having it right now. and my head's been spinning like a fucking tornado in the 5min ride home and i accidentally. #wrote it out in a poem because the words wouldn't go anywhere when i just tried to brain dump about it because Of Course They Did. because i #can't think about this man in anyway except poetically and i can't write a poem unless it's about love in some degree and just UGH love is #and i'm gonna leave it there because i'm running risk of repeatin myself. #if you read all this i positively adore you and also you need to touch some grass bc reading the vents of internet dwellers is for suckers #i am just kidding i really do sincerely appreciate you and love you very very much thank you for caring #please ignore the following organizational tags: #writing #poetry

[bugtistic]

These itty bitty guys show up on our walls

Idk what they are but they're very silly :}

I’m going to be honest this photo invokes so much fear in me LMAO because I have no clue what that is? My brain wants to say it’s a type of cockroach due to the shape of it and segmentation. But a lot (not all!) of cockroaches have wings- and that also looks like it has a ton of legs. So my next thought is some type of centipede but I’ve never seen a centipede that THICK before, and TinEye reverse img search came up with nothing. And honestly either a cockroach OR a centipede are both bugs I wouldn’t want in my home LMAO

My other thought is potentially a cockroach with babies on its stomach and those aren’t legs, those are baby antennae. Which. Shudder… I really hope it’s not that. Not because roaches are Bad Bugs but there’s just some species that are dangerous to have in home and best to admire from a respectful distance.

Either way, I am so scared and fascinated, if anyone has a clue what this is please tell me.

#answered #cockroach #centipede #fr this image invokes deep unsettled fear in me… just because I love all bugs doesn’t mean some aren’t scary #I’d still look at it If it was in my house tho I’d be putting it in my critter keeper asap

[happy10thousandyears]

Decluttering my cubicle by throwing out a whole ass chair that my friend spilled matcha latte on bc I physically cannot stand the thought of a spilled drink soaking into the chair fabric, but I can’t sleep in my cube anymore bc one of the chairs I use as my makeshift bed is gone.

#like I was joking but I’m actually like really mad bc I freak out super easily when there’s like . sticky liquid on my shit #it’s a sensory thing #even the thought bugs me so much #I just put the chair downstairs in the common area like . okay . I can’t have this in my cube anymore if there’s no way to deep clean it #even if my cube is super cluttered I still mind very much!! about this!!

[barry2018-2023]

gonna have a hard time sleeping bc I'm feeling like wired and anxious after watching the barbie movie which is stupid but I can't help it im the most anxious person alive.....is it bad that I wish it had just been a fun romp instead of like....doing all that?

#it bugs me that it did so much to represent every kind of woman and i still did not feel represented #like...its surprisingly isolating. idk its not that deep its just weird idk where im at with it #i need to watch it again with wiped expectations i think.

[thehappiestgolucky]

hit hardcore over the head with Vigilante Tiso brainrot again. not a single person is surprised

more specifically thinking about Xero and Tiso because god dammit those two make me so emotional

#happy screms #imagining the situation from both povs is just so…sad #one one hand: a father falling prey to an infection whilst still trying to protect- #-citizens and his family. his awareness fading as he fully succumbs to it. but knowing deep deep down he failed- #-lost in a mind no longer his own. aware in his last moments before the world becomes just light. that he attacked his family- #-waking up years later. the world has gone cold. the place is empty. you’re locked up- #-you’re weak. you can’t move or really think straight. you later realise your own children had to take up- #-protecting. they had to take up *your* role. awful feeling. you’re scared of lose yourself again. to hurt them again #THEN on the other hand: your world is falling apart #your friends are gone. your family is nearly gone. and you promised yourself you’d protect the place- #-you don’t even believe in some way that it’ll be ok. but youre stubborn. you won’t let your fathers sacrifices be in vain. you fight- #-because that’s all you know. then you find another kid. one abandoned. you had promised hornets mother you’d protect her. but this one- #-feels different. this one didn’t have anyone to make sure they’re ok. and you get what your dad was doing this whole time- #-knowing things weren’t ok. but still trying. even if it meant he wouldn’t be ok. and you do it too. #*sobbing in my hands the parallels of xero and tiso and then tiso and ghost. i didn’t even realise the dynamics until now* #don’t perceive me. or do. i’m being sad about bugs again. i need to doodle them

[roylustang]

The number of bugs that touch my face on a day to day basis is truly terrifying. Exposure therapy is a lie.

#cant wait to go back to america PURELY so I can run in the summer without bugs hitting me in the face it’s terrifying #most things I’m afraid of r bc of that fact that they startle me #so bugs doing anything is a big one #it’s why I used to b afraid of thunderstorms #and why I’m still afraid of the toaster #but seriously the bugs NEED to stop I am so afraid they jumpscare me literally every few minutes #they hit my ears #my nose #my forehead #my cheeks #my HAND #taking a deep inhale is a giant risk the amount of bugs I’ve almost inhaled is way too many #im serious I hate this places bugs so bad #sometimes they just fucking orbit me like little planets that r trying to kill me and im not fucking joking #they streak in front of my eyes like little bullets #and hit me in the face at high velocities #I want them all to die #japan

[beetolbugs]

Omg I think I remember u from Deviantart from like 2016- your art has improved so much!!!! I didn't even recognize your style at first, but it looks fantastic!! Was really cool to stumble upon your stuff again randomly :]

ah the terrifying ordeal of being known /j

BUT WAA THANK YOU I APPRECIATE IT ;;

#i dont know how many people following me here or twitter actually knew me prior to. whatever the fuck #but good lord its almost like a jumpscare #what do you mean youve been following my content since i was deep in the mcyt trenches (is still in the mcyt trenches) #(never actually could Leave the mcyt trenches) #bugs asks #what was my ask tag i dont remember

[fma03envy]

My mind is. Empty

#urggg. writing fma03 essay 4 class #it's already at 15 pages bc I'm autistic but it's still unfinished. #it's 1 am so maybe I should just go to bed since I've already missed the midnight deadline #but I feel like if I turn it in by like 2 my teacher will be nice and not mark it late #what rlly bugs me is I think my analysis of Envy kind of sucks but Im trying to compensate 4 the fact that they're literally Not That Deep #but it just feels like I'm doing my fave a disservice #adrien says stuff

[blujayonthewing]

I think it’s really funny that I keep catching myself thinking ‘is it kind of weird to have Felix be grossed out by seafood if he grew up eating bugs? 🤔’ as if the exact inverse isn’t already true for almost everyone in the modern west including myself

#we just ordered a big-- basically a seafood boil but takeout (it comes in a literal bag so you get the seasoning and juices lol) #and talking about which of our DnD characters might be into that because we're nerds #anyway I'm fascinated by entomophagy in theory but in practice I am still a product of my cultural upbringing #and have not yet had very much opportunity to eat bugs #and get past that deep ingrained gut 'yuck' response even though I KNOW it's cultural and essentially baseless! #and have seen photos of deep fried tarantulas and they look too horrible to even consider #but at the end of the day that's just a dry crab ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #shrimp is just a wet cockroach ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ that's grosser than the actual bugs people do eat tbqh #anyway one time I was kind of musing on here I think about 'what are foods WE think are normal that other cultures think are gross' #and one of them was fish/ seafood and like... yeah dude! I love fish and seafood but even given that I get it #slimey! stinky! any shellfish or mollusc especially is like 'wtf are you EATING' #about me #my OCs #felix insp

[achilleslyre]

i see these ppl sometimes going on these massive rants about how ppl who ship xyz have zero reading comprehension or no critical analysis and i’m always just staring at those posts like 😑😑 cause it’s literally always just a silly little gay ship. like don’t get me wrong if u dislike it idgaf and u have every right not to like it. mass majority of the time *i* don’t like it or simply don’t care but. just block the tag bro? like if it seriously bugs u THAT much that ur saying u get genuinely pissed off every time u see it. just…. use the filters. i get not everyone tags their shit but lots do. block ppl that make that content a lot. idk what to tell you. like i get complaining about it if it was an actually problematic ship but mass majority of the time it’s literally two guys who are friends and also frankly look gay. yes blah blah blah friendships matter but also it’s rlly not that deep as long as the ship isn’t causing harm. some of y’all are simply just haters. sincerely signed, a hater.

#this isnt about ppl that are like ‘i dont like x ship’ btw #its about the ppl that let the fact they dont like that ship genuinely impact their emotions to the point they feel so angry and negative #anytime they see it #its also not about ppl that are upset about genuinely disgusting and problematic ships. ur anger is valid. it’s literally just about #ppl getting upset about two friends being shipped together #and yea i get the point somewhat of like ‘read critically’ but some ppl still do they just. enjoy shipping #i think reading critically is a lot more important about. reading the story. and what the underlying criticism of society the story is #trying to tell. and the impact that certain things have. and ways of forming ur life as a person. rather than just ‘nooo u can’t ship those #2 characters bc i know that they wouldnt’ #u just sound silly to me #(says the person sounding silly by making this post. its ok) #this doesnt even matter but ive seen like 3 posts about in in the past little bit #and im just… its rlly not that deep #u have every right to complain about it but i also have every right to complain about u complaining #so thats what im doing #and dont get me wrong there are a lot of ships where i look at it and im like ‘are yall fr? is that rlly what yall are doin?’ #but to genuinely let a silly little ship bug u thattttt much that u get angry everytime u see it #like whats u pr issue then? i dont get why u dont block it #remove sources from ur feed like #its NOT that deep #this is frankly coming from someone who rarelyyy has strong opinions on ships but #it’s literally *just* a ship man #it’s not that deep but also their complaining isnt so deep that i need to make this post complaining but #if theyre a hater im a hater too

[marklikely]

a while ago you said you hated the movie the eternals so I was wondering what you didn’t like about it? just bc I’m vindictive about marvel lol

god they just literally didnt do even a single thing right.

the acting was really bad from just about everyone (except maybe kumail nanjiani who was the only person who decided he would try to play an actual character), like everyone was just phoning it in. im going to chalk it up to bad directing because people also seemed like they had no idea what they were supposed to be doing on set, plus some of these people are decorated actors that have proven they were good at their job in other movies.

it could also be because the writing was just a mess on every level. like, how good could the acting be when no characters were given any solid motivations or personality traits (any motivations or traits that they DID bother to put in the movie were either told with 0 evidence, or just changed whenever it suited a plot twist to try and create some tepid and meaningless conflict within the team). the lore was tedious and nonsensical, there were no stakes because absolutely nothing felt earned or consequential at all, the overall goal of the plot changed like 8 different times as well as constantly being interrupted by flashbacks with no rhyme or reason as to when we would see a flashback or what we would flash back to, which led to a pacing nightmare.

and the tone was too dour and serious to be able to ignore any of this for the camp or fun either!! because there was absolutely no fun!!!!! it's like they wanted to make a Prestige Drama out of a movie that's 75% exposition dumps and half-assed sci fi lore and 0% actual character moments that make dramas work.

ok im typing too much so let's just rapid fire the rest: the color pallet was atrocious, just concrete and mud. the costumes looked like absolute garbage, cheaply made and extremely bland even just on a design level (i'm talking specifically about the hero uniforms here. the civilian clothes for every character were also boring and pointless, though). the effects were literally laughably bad, the object designs (like for the spaceship and other alien stuff, i'm not sure what to call this category) were ridiculous and never fully came together into something interesting or otherworldly. the score was trash and the needledrops were distracting. the diversity was shallow and insulting, you can't just constantly brag about diversity when you couldn't be bothered write those diverse characters to be actual, yknow, characters.

anyway if you want a well-made superhero movie about ancient heroes who have a deep love for humanity, that has diverse characters who are actually fleshed out and treated like characters instead of an Inclusivity Checklist, that has serious moments with emotional impact but is also capable of being fun, that has clear intra-team conflicts and morally grey characters that you can actually understand, that doesn't look like total garbage, then literally just watch The Old Guard. just watch The Old Guard im literally begging you. if you liked eternals just watch The Old Guard and see what it looks like when a movie actually does what eternals pretends it's doing.

#sorry anyway i decided a while ago that eternals is the new number one worst movie ive ever seen xoxo #if i could say one nice thing about it uh. again kumail nanjiani hard carried and he wasn't even that good. #its just that the bar was literally so low that him deciding to actually try and play a character was still leagues above everyone else. #uh. the opening song was by pink floyd and i like those guys. #although the song they chose was time which is like. completely antithetical to the entire movie so idk. #i guess they were just like oh its about time and these guys are eternal it must be perfect *does not actually listen to the song* #asks #the diversity thing really fucking bugged me too like they wont shut up about diversity but #then when we watched the making-of documentary to try and see what we missed that would make this movie make sense #like there was this one section where they all listed a bunch of personality traits for each of the characters #(and for most of the characters they either listed things that are not actually a personality or were things that were NOT in the movie) #and for one girl literally all they could come up with was that shes fast and Deaf and she taught them asl. #which is like. so fucking insulting. you couldnt think of a single personality trait? shes just fast?? #shes just fast and she taught the hearing people some asl because as we all know thats the only role a Deaf person can have right? #we dont need to give her an actual character we just need someone to fill the Deaf Marvel Character quota. #idk. if it were me and i realized that i couldnt name a trait for this character besides 'knows asl' and 'has super speed' id like #stop patting myself on the back for my Great Deaf Representation. because thats not good representation at all its just pathetic. #and the other characters were all similarly shallow but she's just. the best example of it bc they couldnt even PRETEND that she was deep. #movie diary #and again if the movie was even slightly able to have fun id be a lot less hard on it but it took itself so fucking seriously #and patted itself on the back so much for being like this Highbrow Next Level version of a marvel movie #and like. no. this is the worst marvel movie by a nautical mile even if youre judging by really strict standards of Art.