#it’s also been a while since I’ve actively listened to a musical ??? I’ll need to fix that I miss this shit. y’all ever tried theatre?

[canisonicscrewyou]

Listening to Company and feeling Gay

#it’s also been a while since I’ve actively listened to a musical ??? I’ll need to fix that I miss this shit. y’all ever tried theatre? #yknow musicals???? #if anyone wants to watch a bootleg of company specifically if I can find it hit me upppp (after I move abshdjfkgkglg) #might even dare I say. take a nap. hopefully don’t wake up at like 1 PM though. #quick lil nap #anyways listening to being alive and being like ‘I can’t imagine myself like. being on the other side of this song’ #if there’s one thing I related to in that song it’s the painfully desperate desire in it #love that I tell my partner to make a tumblr all the time but if they did where would I be able to be gay in PEACE #bc if there’s anyone who makes me feel like I’m like. being alive. it is absolutely daemon.

[corvidpaws]

🪻🦋 GENESIS. 🔮📋

kirby oc tournament entry.

“Lucky is she, who lives unaware, who doesn’t get bothered by all that’s unfair…”

PERSONALITY.

Genesis is a kind, caring figure haunted by a past only they remember- and it doesn’t matter too much in the grand scheme of things, anyway. They have taken on the role of a therapist, and their personality generally fits the stereotypical view of a therapist. Of course, they aren’t without their flaws- often trying too hard to reach a goal or blaming everything on themselves.

BACKSTORY.

Genesis is from the Forgotten Land. Or, as the residents prefer to call it, the New World.

Their origins are mostly hidden. I mean, you don’t really want to tell people that- well. I’m not going to tell you their secrets. That’s just rude. They’ll tell you when they’re ready.

Hopefully.

All I can tell you is that they have a strange connection to Fecto Forgo.

Oh, well, I’ll tell you a bit more.

Let’s see… I’m sure it was written down somewhere around here.

“Since it’s capture, ID-F85 has only shown activity once- it’s brain patterns seem to suggest that it is dreaming. But that is a fanciful observation, and we are not fanciful people. A monster cannot dream.” — Retired Lab Discovera Tour, Year Unknown

The creature known as Fecto Elfilis had split into two- Fecto Forgo and Elfilin. The Ancients had long abandoned the planet, taking off to Shiver Star. Imprisoned, alone, unable to move and lost in a world without any creatures capable of thought- yet, they drifted. They dreamed. And in their dreams surfaced memories.

A land of dust and fire. A trickster magician.

A world of flora. A sorrowful spindler.

And their own great form, lost to the cruel experiments of the people who lived here, so desperate to leave.

From those dreams, came Genesis. A creation of stardust and love. They wandered throughout the abandoned land, watching as the beasts gained intelligence, and talking with them. When trapped in a collapsing tunnel, they met Elfilin, who saved them. The two then became friends.

They also met Gamma Knight, who landed in the forgotten land after [REDACTED]. Genesis helped them flee to [REDACTED].

When the Beast Pack was formed, Genesis stayed out of the way, recognising the work of their progenitor. But when Elfilin was captured, they followed Kirby from a distance, leaving behind Maxim Tomatoes and vanishing without a trace.

When Elfilis was defeated, Elfilin and Genesis reunited, and the former took the latter to Dreamland, where they both settled.

And they decided to settle on a rather successful career.

It had been a solid five hours since Kirby had started telling Genesis about the 'monsters' they'd fought, with Dedede and Meta Knight himself chipping in when needed; sometimes to explain their actions while the puffball had been defeating the newest threat to Popstar, sometimes to correct him or add a detail. But instead of getting frustrated or tired, Genesis had only listened politely, nodding as they talked. […] "Those monsters you fought... I'd be terrified, honestly. But you've survived all of it, and you're still here, ready to face the next battle, and that means you're exceptionally resilient. But life isn't all about battles." Genesis continued. "It's pretty late, so I'll end the session here, but think about it. Come back if you need to." — Chapter Two, Session One, These Creatures I’ve Seen

Well, that wasn’t a bit more, that was a lot more. But there are still some mysteries. Will you uncover them? Let’s find out.

OTHER.

Themes:

The Dream Discoveries Tour Juliet - Cavetown Blow My Brains Out - Tikkle Me Gilded Lily - Cults Meteor Shower - Cavetown Treehouse - Alex G

Toyhou.se Page: https://toyhou.se/22030569.genesis Ginjka Design: Here

“Unlucky me, who knows way too much, and fights to make changes through music and such, unlucky me, aware of the pain, all ‘cause I happen to have some brain…”

@kirbyoctournament sorry about the lore dump! It will happen again

#genesis #kirby #kirby oc #kirby oc tournament #lore #oc lore #kirby oc lore #kirby and the forgotten land spoilers #for the banners lol #so excited for this!! did a poll in a discord server and the result was a resounding yes #so here i am #let’s see how this goes

[alwaysxlarrie]

i never thought i’d say it’s been a while since i’ve posted a snippet but i also never thought i’d write a cult leader louis fic, so. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ but here it is !!

“The moment he’d heard about the event, he signed up. Harry loved his college, but unfortunately they didn’t prioritize the music department the way he wished they would, which made being a music major a slightly more lonely experience than he would’ve liked. So, while he’d never heard of Louis Tomlinson or his organization before this, that was okay. Those were just mere details. What mattered was that there was an event. For music. In all his nineteen years, he’s never been so excited for a school event.

“Harmonic Haven is my most important life mission. Bringing people in, instilling confidence in them, encouraging them to be their best, always readily available lessons, improving your skills — all of it is essential to the heart of this organization.” Louis saunters around the stage, confident and raspy voice booming smoothly from his microphone.

Harry watches raptly as Louis makes eye contact with people in the crowd and sends an alluring grin their way, enticing them to continue listening. His eyes are hypnotizingly sparkly; a unique blue that Harry could spend days writing songs about. They draw you in and make you constantly want their undivided attention; Harry has had them on him twice now and has been actively fighting the urge to do something ridiculous to get his attention again. He can tell that even just having a single conversation with Louis about their passion for music would reignite the spark in him.

His fingers are itching to take notes, but he doesn’t dare to look away for too long — it’s too much of an risk to miss anything Louis' saying, let alone miss the chance of Louis' eyes on him again.

But Harry knows he needs to do something memorable before Louis' presentation is over, needs Louis to recognize him when Harry goes down to talk to him afterward. There will be tens — likely hundreds, really — of students lined up to talk to Louis and Harry can’t risk not getting a chance. He needs to do something now that will make Louis remember him. And quickly.”

i am nothing if not consistent with long-ish snippets, no matter how long it's been lol. anyway i've edited this to absolute smithereens so hopefully it's decent!! not entirely sure who’s working on a fic at the moment so i’ll just tag a few people lol @loveislarryislove @allwaswell16 @lululawrence @londonfoginacup @jacaranda-bloom @kingonafiftymetreroad @crinkle-eyed-boo @greenblueish @beelou @disgruntledkittenface

#snippet saturday #saturday snippets #my fic snippets #cult leader louis #after seeing how louis and the crowd interacted at my concert #i just couldn’t NOT write this #y’all feel me #mans could lead a whole ass cult if he wanted to if we're being honest lol #i am ALSO in the midst of making gifs from my concert #i took videos of every song i'm so proud of myself #and of my phone tbh lol

[alister312]

Do you have any Gregstophe headcanons that you haven't shared yet?

most certainly! I’ll be honest I forget very often what headcanons I have about them that I’ve shared and what I just feel like I have simply bc it’s something I have always understood to be inherent to Them. also, very often I think of headcanons that aren’t set in stone? they’re more little concepts I like to play around with for a while. they’ll either stick around in my head as “canon to me” or just become things I think are neat but feel no real attachment to or desire to explore further. this is why I tend to really like ask games bc it can give me prompts to think of new ones that might be good enough to stick around.

however I feel like u perhaps came here wanting a more concrete answer, anon, so a concept I have been pushing around my head lately is roadtrip headcanons 👀

for starters, this would be in the mercenary sort of phase of their life if they go down that path. while they for sure have many little safe houses and contacts all over the world (or, worst case scenario, last minute book a hotel), I think they’re more often than not on the road

if they have the ability, Gregory would much rather take a train so that they can both be involved with the mission planning process along the way, but a car is usually much more convenient (especially in the US)

they both drive (with how long of trips they take it’s impossible not to switch off). they both prefer when Gregory is the one driving though bc Christophe can be easily distracted since he finds long stretches of highway so tedious and he’s a much more active person than Gregory.

driver picks what they’re listening to though so Christophe knows the full soundtracks of many musicals entirely against his will

Gregory refuses to ever stop at roadside rest stops for food (too gross and too public for their line of work) so they go to a lot of interesting local cafes and diners. sometimes if it’s a place with really good food they’ll put it on their map so they can go back another time.

they also have actual physical maps for different countries. don’t wanna be easily tracked by a gps signal. Christophe also likes the feel of physically mapping out a route and Gregory likes to be a little pompous about like “I know how to find my way without technology 😏”

they’ve got various cars depending on where they’re at in the world but all of them are customized to have hollowed out seats (to store less than legal things) that fold down (in case they need to sleep in the car. Gregory hates when they do this bc it’s so cramped and uncomfortable but Christophe doesn’t mind bc they are forced to cuddle and it’s a good excuse for his touch starved but in denial about that self)

the biggest argument they always inevitably get into on the road is about having the windows down. Gregory hates having them down bc the wind messes with his hair but when they’re down is the only time Christophe is allowed to smoke in the car. they usually get into a battle of putting them down and back up again. Christophe installed an old handcrank window in one of their cars just so he could roll down the window without Gregory having the ability to put it back up and it was one of their bigger petty fights to date

#thank u for the ask anon!! 🥰 I realize that I haven’t been so vocal about Them as of late… hope this is what u we’re looking for <3 #honestly it’s a lot of combination of I’m busy+I don’t wanna get burned out+many smaller things I just dm friends about directly #south park #sp headcanons #gregstophe #gregory of yardale #christophe delorne

[kendrixtermina]

So, the accusations against Flake

Source.

Guys, I know we’re all exasperated by the previous bullshit, don't blindly jump in defense mode. This is very, very different from the previous stuff with Till. Also coming with an oath, being well-attested (with proof that she told family members at the time & got help from victim councelling associations), and the affected person themselves describing it, not those crazy hearsay stories. That definitely happened. That’s more or less the same standard of proof with which they convicted trump recently. 

Flake was probably drunk out of his mind as well and who knows what he was thinking or intending, but this one I would definitely consider to be rape since the women were fully unconscious or nearly so, & there was definitely no asking.

With the second one you can say that she just doesn’t remember & no one can say what happemned (I definitely wouldn’t say that all drunken sex is automatically) but the first one is clear as crystal. She was so drunk that she lay down due to being zonked out/feeling unwell, she didn’t want it at all not even at the time, she tried to turn away but was unable to resist, he just grabbed her & then went into freeze mode. 

He should have asked/checked in, especially given how young she was, this could have been her first time, that should require talking, not just grabbing & starting to fuck. 

I mean, I'll still listen to the music & I don't believe in one-dimensional instant black & white labelling of people as monsters unless they're actively unrepetant & continuing or like promoting acting like this, as we don't do that for any other crime, but there is no defending this or dilluting this or construing that he wasn't the one resposible, and I'm way less sure if I’m going to be proudly displaying paraphernalia/posters/cds etc after this.

I’ve always been for labelling actions, not people, or going by arbitrary catergory lines, but even if we look only at the action itself, he did do the crime.

The action was not defensible & had an harmful impact on the victim at very least through gross negligence or callous disregard. 

It's a crime where no one seems capable of distinguishing nuances of severity & this case doesn't require the same level of depravity as, say, actively holding someone down while they're screaming, but at very least in the first case due dilligence to acertain consent was definitely not done, especially given how young she was.

Plus, it fits with what he said in many earlier interviews about having done things in poor judgement while drunk, and to his credit he has long stopped drinking. 

Still, you wouldn't want this done to you or your sisters or daughters, or for this to be held as socially acceptable. It should be called out as an unacceptable act. People have freeze responses, which there needs to be more awareness off, but, we're talking about someone who was totally zonked out of her mind & there was zero communication. 

Kinda dissapointed to see so many ppl in the subreddit resorting to the “she must be making it up” canard - I understand they’re jaded from the previous crying wolf & sensationalistic media storm, but this is not like the hearsay or distorted reporting of still clearly consensual stories about Till. 

#rammstein scandal #rammstein #flake lorenz #till lindemann

[awalkthroughiris]

U2’s The Joshua Tree

hi people! i have no idea what i'm doing but i wanted to post this before i forgot to hehe, i wrote this a little bit ago, but i wanted to share, i fully don't expect anyone to read this but if you do, let me know what you think! i'm so sorry if the formatting is weird, i've never used tumblr LOL.

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Listening to U2’s The Joshua Tree for the first time,

randomly 1-2am on a Friday night.

I’m actively finishing the first track, Where the Streets Have No Name, as I’m writing this. I’m not sure why I’m here, or why I’m awake even, but here I am listening to my first U2 album. I’ve of course heard of U2 before, my parents have played their music throughout my childhood, but the only song I could name is With or Without You, and I honestly don’t even know 90% of that song. Recently, I’ve been listening to the band Inhaler, who’s frontman is Bono’s son, Elijah Hewson, and my parents heard me listening and nonstop talking about them, which in turn has become them telling me to listen to a U2 album. I don’t know why I’m deciding to listen now, but I feel like maybe I’ll have some cinematic existential revelation by listening to this album, but that’s the romantic in me talking.

Okay, about to start track 2 now, but I love track 1, it made me want to drive, somewhere where there’s an arch of trees with arms of sunlight reaching my face. Now that I’m thinking about it, that makes complete sense in terms of the lyrics lol. I guess the same message was conveyed musically as well.

The production of the second track, “I Still Haven’t Found What I’m Looking For” is very pleasing to my ears. This song is distantly familiar to me, I can think of driving to Oregon in the summertime, venturing back roads and this song playing, maybe after Lovers in Japan by Coldplay played. As someone who believes in God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit, I can’t help but feel emotional while listening, but this could also be my nostalgic ties.

With this gentle emotional twist in my stomach, and the building of tears in my eyes, With or Without You has begun. My dad said recently how “emotionally evocative” this song is for him, and to be honest I didn’t and probably still don’t understand the way he meant it, but with the placement of this track in the album, I certainly can’t help but feel emotional. It’s giving me a similar feeling to the song A Real Hero in the context of the movie Drive did for me the first time I watched it. The lyrics are so simple yet I find there’s so many ideas and situations I can attach to them. I almost feel as if any interpretation I have would be invalid since I’m just a teenage girl, and a teenage girl who’s never even fallen in love or honestly had any remotely intense romantic feelings.

A switch in pace, Bullet the Blue Sky is playing. It’s easy to feel the angst in the lyrics, with the repetition in the drums and bass, it weirdly feels like slam poetry. This isn’t something I would typically listen to, but I definitely don’t mind it, the guitar break provided a nice amount of time to just, think.

Running to Stand Still’s intro reminded me of a Jeff Buckley cover, Lost Highway. It also makes me think of folk music. The way thoughts in folk music are expressed seemed to be some factor in the way the song is structured, honestly no idea whether that is intentional or not.

Red Hill Mining Town, took a turn I wasn’t expecting at all, I’m kinda grooving out though right now. “You I can’t live without”, since this is a first listen I don’t know the tie, but an allusion to With or Without You?? Oh my goodness, I totally recognize this song as well, the “I’m hanging on” that kicked in around 1:25 is something I recall. It’s weird how my brain hAnGs On to specific parts of these songs. I need to revisit this song after doing some research though because I have no idea what the commentary on this song is for.

There’s so much energy in In God’s Country, it’s refreshing. One of the things I notice with my music taste is that there’s a lack of creative percussion. Which I certainly don’t mind, but listening to music like this helps me understand how, for lack of better words, bland, the other songs can be percussion wise. I don’t have any context to who Bono is really, besides that he’s seemingly been painted as some sort of insufferable humanitarian, but the religion driven metaphors in the lyrics are very interesting.

Trip Through Your Wires might be my least favorite song sonically honestly. I don’t want to be mean, but it just isn’t my favorite. I’m not entirely sure what it’s reminding me of, but it gives me the feeling of an old western setting, which I find, not bland or empty, just not my cup of tea I guess. A complete sidenote though, I am DEFINITELY getting tired as it has hit 2am now.

I’m really liking One Tree Hill so far. One thing I’m really liking about this album, is the places it literally takes my mind to. I think I’m a very visual thinker, these songs evoke blurry pictures that are grounded in nature, images like running through tall grass or driving in some of my favorite places that remind me of my childhood. It feels pretentious to say “my childhood” when I’m 17, but I think it’s easy to understand what I mean. On another more relevant note, this song feels like its painting out an image of what absorbing life feels like: ambedo.

Although it might be the “weirdest” song on the album thus far, I’m enjoying the sonics of Exit. I like how bass heavy it is. Upon further inspection, because I had zero understanding to make of the lyrics, this song was made from the perspective of a serial killer, due to Bono’s reading of a novel. What I found creepily interesting however, was the fact that Robert Bardo used this song as part of his defense for stalking and murdering Rebecca Schaeffer. What I find especially creepy about this, is that I listened to a podcast about this case. An unsettling coincidence.

Continuing on in this unsettling feeling, Mothers of the Disappeared is a heart-wrenching tribute. I don’t think I have much to say about this one, because I have just learned the context to the song’s making and it’s just heartbreaking, I can’t even imagine what families went through. It’s a needed not-so-gentle reminder of what reality can be, and what it is for a lot of people. Its easy to forget that the horrors we hear of are actually real, at least this is the case for me, a girl who has lived in the same city her whole life and generally stays blissfully ignorant. A great finish to the album.

#music #80s rock #alternative #80s bands #aesthetic #grunge #lyrics #song lyrics #u2 band #blog #musician #jeff buckley #inhaler #inhaler dublin #elijah hewson #bono

[ciaossu-imagines]

(day 1) fandom prompt #18 for khr please? ^^

Ah, thank you so much for sending in an ask for the event! This made me so, so happy!! Anyway, because KHR has a huge cast of characters and I only tend to write for a handful of them and because I got so few requests for this first day of the event, I really wanted to go above and beyond for this ask! So I challenged myself! Instead of going with just the first knee-jerk reactions and using the same characters over and over, I made myself a rule that I couldn’t repeat a character while answering this, which made it super fun and interesting to do! I hope you’ll enjoy!

Send me a Fandom and I’ll Tell What I Associate With Each Character:

Likes their music loud

I think a large part of why you see Irie with headphones is exactly this. He loves music and he tends to like to play it really loud and it really annoys his family and his neighbours, who complain to his mother, who then lectures Shoichi…I think it was his sister who bought him his first really good pair of headphones so that he could listen to his music without her having to hear it, because she thinks his taste in music is trash and vice versa.

Would poison someone if given the chance

So, I feel like I’m kind of cheating here, but I’m giving the really obvious answer. This is Bianchi’s shtick. Yes, it’s her main weapon of choice but she’s also been shown several times, especially in the Daily Life Arc, to do so just very casually and with no hesitancy.

Always happy

I feel like the overly obvious answer is Yamamoto here, but I actually don’t think he fits. So, my final answer on this one is a character a lot of people hated or wanted to forget about, Longchamp Naito! I feel like Longchamp, outside of the times he gets hit with the Desolation Bullet, is just very naïvely optimistic about everything and tries to be as positive as he can so that he can enjoy his life to it’s fullest, especially since I’ve always headcanoned him as someone who expects to die young, like most of his Family’s bosses do.

Afraid of spiders

Okay, so this is actually a really long-held, cute but meaningless headcanon I have for Iemitsu. I’ve always headcanoned him as really hating spiders or any kind of bug. They just gross him out and he’s low-key afraid of them. I think that, while Iemitsu tries to be the ‘man around the house’ whenever him and Nana are together, she’s the one having to kill all the bugs. He’ll be in the shower or puttering around and then there’s a spider right in front of his face and he starts yelling for Nana to come kill this itty-bitty bug.

Would jump out of a plane

While boxing will always be his true-blue love, I feel like Ryohei is interested in and later actively gets involved in extreme sports and he’d take up sky-diving as a hobby.

Calls people ‘Dude’

In a headcanon I have for a character nobody ever remembers exists, Bono. From Dino’s family? Anyone remember him? I don’t know why but I definitely headcanon him as saying dude a lot and just kind of sounding like an 80’s-90’s movie stoner.

Wants to just lay down and not move

For the most part, this is Rasiel. While he’s happy to get up and do murder the things he’s interested in, he’s really, really fucking lazy and he’d have no problem just spending the day in bed or sitting in his chair all day not doing anything at all. If things need to be done or if he’s in one of those moods and he needs something, he expects people to do everything for him and cater to his needs.

Has the perfect come backs

It’s Fran because he’s a perfect, sassy little bitch and I love him so much.

Can punch someone and the person they punched would thank them

I think there’s a lot of evidence in canon of just how revered Reborn is within the mafia world and even outside of it in one of his many alternate personas. He’s been shown to be this almost larger than life, greatly admired person for a lot of unnamed characters and I really think he could get away with this and the person would thank him for injuring them because, oh my god, the Reborn touched me and acknowledged me in some way, like this is a story I can tell my boys and they’ll think it’s so cool.

Listens to everything but common sense

Lambo does this because he is so young; he’s very naïve and very gullible. And, on top of that, he’s got this childish arrogance, no matter how old he gets, that he’s almost invincible and that he kind of knows everything and nothing bad could happen to him, leading him to disregard a lot of common-sense advice people try to give him.

Gives nicknames to others

While there’s a couple examples that do this somewhat canonically, I want to go a little off-board here and give a headcanon I have for one of the lesser known characters! I really feel like this is something that Ganauche does. He’s learned through the years not to use them at public family events, though he sometimes slips, but he has nicknames he uses for his boss and all of Timoteo’s Guardians and he tends to give nicknames to people he meets pretty quickly. He remembers the nicknames he gives people way easier than he remembers their actual names, which is why he does it.

Likes to talk to code

I really don’t get what this means…but Byakuran likes to talk and, in something I don’t think a lot of people think about, considering the hints of his school past with Irie, he’s actually quite the brilliant coder. I actually think that writing and reading code comes easily to him and that, if he wanted or had the time to, he’d be a tech genius on par with characters like Shoichi and Spanner.

Doesn’t open up to others very easily

Hibari. Not only does he not have much need for companionship and a misanthropic viewpoint at times, but he is such a very private person that even those who he does allow in his presence know very little about him. I don’t think even Kusakabe, who is arguably the closest to him, knew Kyoya’s home address until three years after meeting him because Hibari is so crazily private.

Is painfully obvious on who they like

Haru lives so very openly. She doesn’t hide who she is, what she’s interested in, her hopes and dreams…is it no wonder that she doesn’t try to hide it when she has a crush on someone? She just doesn’t get the point of hiding away any of that kind of stuff or why it would be considered embarrassing and I envy her confidence.

Would get a tattoo on a whim

I don’t know if this is cheating as he has at least one tattoo canonically but it’s Skull. I have such a strong headcanon that Skull has multiple tattoos and constantly wants to add to them, so strong that I don’t think even canon stating otherwise would make me accept it. And some of his tattoos are well-thought out and he’s met with the artists and put the design together and spent hours putting the thought into it. But others are just spur of the moment or predesigned tattoos that he gets just to scratch that itch of needing a new one or because he thought it looked cool.

Has a strong eyebrow game

FUCKING GENKISHI. Oh my god, it was the first thing that popped into my head reading the question because those are a choice.

Would jump off a building

I don’t know why but I kind of feel like Wonomichi would be strangely skilled in parkour and, just a strange headcanon, but I believe he’s pretty close to being as long-lived and robust as Kawahira is…almost immortal. So, I feel like this fits him best in my personal headcanons.

Likes to travel

I actually think that Nana had always wanted to travel, had wanted to see the world and it was something that Iemitsu promised her that the two of them would do. But life happened and they started a family and settled into Namimori and she puts aside a lot of her desire to go explore the world until after Tsuna is out of the house and I do feel like, when Iemitsu is able to turn CEDEF over to its successor or even just take an extended break, him and Nana do get to finally live that promise he made her.

Likes roses

Pantera really likes roses and though he’s largely oblivious to everything, Longchamp actually does make sure she always has fresh roses in her room because he’s gotta take care of his family!

Talks in song lyrics

Nosaru does this sometimes. A lot of the time, when he does it, it’s because he thinks it makes him look cool while other times it’s just force of habit.

Is tol

I know this is a cheat but he is technically a character! Gola Mosca…I think a lot of the time, people really don’t appreciate just how absolutely humungous and imposing and powerful those machines are (except for Mini-Mosca, of course). So the fact that Hibari pretty much single-handedly is just really a badass moment.

Is smol

So, all the Arcobaleno are small in their cursed forms but going a step further to a former Arcobaleno…I feel like, even in his grown-up form, Bermuda was a very short man, absolutely no more than 5’5 and probably closer, in my own headcanons, to being around 5’2.

Would murder someone if given the opportunity

Bel actually canonically does this. It’s mentioned that, whenever he’s in a new area, he goes out of his way to straight up murder the local killers in the area. It’s not out of any sense of justice or anything; Bel’s just looking for a good fight and some fun slicing and dicing of people who the police and townspeople won’t be too upset to find dead.

Had a sad childhood

Okay, I could go with any of the Kokuyo Gang. I could go with Xanxus or Gokudera...but I feel like these points have been discussed quite a bit more in fandom than the one I want to answer with. Because can we all just talk about Tsuna’s childhood for a second? Like, he’s bullied throughout his entire school career, doesn’t really have any friends to speak of, his father straight up abandons his family, and while Nana does try hard, she ends up being innocently insensitive and actively calls him no-good at times and destroys his self-confidence even more and doesn’t really help him with the bullying issues he faces or with dealing with Iemitsu’s leaving or any of it. And then a baby just shows up one day and starts telling him he’s going to put him through hellish training to become a Mafia Boss, even if Tsuna refuses. Yes, Tsuna grows and his life improves throughout the manga but can we please just all agree that the boy has been through some serious shit?

Loves their parents

Now here’s my Yamamoto answer!!! I really, really, REALLY love the obvious bond, trust, and love there is in Tsuyoshi and Takeshi’s relationship with each other.

Hates fish

I think Basil doesn’t really like fish if they still have the head on. He likes the taste of fish but absolutely can’t eat it in that case because it’s looking at him and now he feels horrifically guilty about every fish related food he has ever had in his whole entire life.

Questions everything

I think Ken was a really curious child that learned to shut up during his childhood with the Estraneo’s…but that, once the Kokuyo Gang settles into each other and once Ken realizes that he’s safe to show that curiosity again, that he asks so many questions. Some of them are really, really dumb or mindless or nonsensical but no matter how many he asks, Chikusa never gets too annoyed with him and Mukuro always seems to have some retort, even if he gets annoyed a bit easier.

Would keep up with celebrity gossip

I don’t know why but I can’t get rid of this headcanon that it would be Julie. He’s up on all the gossip about his favourite celebrities, along with all the gossip going on in town. He always seems to have some dirt or dish on everyone, whether he personally knows them or not.

Would make it rain in the club

It’s Aoba because he is the worst person for managing money. He’s always fucking broke because he does stuff like this. He can’t seem to hold onto his cash because it’s almost an impulse for him – if he has money, the money absolutely must be spent.

Likes hugs

Everyone please, please give Timoteo hugs. All the hugs. He doesn’t care if he doesn’t know you well, he’ll still hug you. I just really do headcanon him as being physically affectionate to those around him, especially as he ages and he becomes that cuddly grandpa-esque type of figure where he’s always going to be up for a hug and will probably give you a mint he keeps in his pockets.

Kisses their partner good night

Okay, but when he has a lover and they’re living together, this is definitely a Spanner thing. It’s very much a thing he does so much that it becomes just a part of the routine for him and his partner at night and he won’t be able to sleep well at all without that good-night kiss.

Likes to give piggybacks

I think Lancia really likes children and he gets along with them better than he does most adults. He doesn’t mind them crawling all over him and will happily piggyback them…he’s not above piggybacking a grown adult either, if the situation calls for it. He’s really strong and most people won’t seem to weigh much at all to him.

Likes to sing in the vehicle

Lussuria absolutely jams out to whatever’s on the radio, though he tends to carry around a lot of CDs to listen to in the car as well, all of his favourites. Xanxus refuses to ride in the same vehicle as him for this very reason and all the Varia members threaten to kill him, but he just gets louder every time they do.

Would join the circus

I actually think a big childhood dream of Shitt P.’s was running away and joining the circus to become an acrobat or a tight-rope walker. I feel like she would probably do that too, when she’s a little older and ready to get some distance from the family.

Could be a stand-up comedian

I actually think, despite his imposing looks, that Coyote can tell one hell of a joke. He’s more about situational comedy, telling people funny stories of all the crazy shit he’s seen in his life or all the insane situations he’s gotten himself into.

Has bad luck

Poor Levi. He faces bad luck in universe and in fandom because everyone, including Lady Luck, seems to hate him.

Likes pretzels

I think I-Pin likes the big, soft, fresh-baked pretzels you can get from stalls and such, with extra salt. It’s not something she gets to eat a lot but it’s a huge treat and she likes mixing it up with the dipping sauces they give you for the pretzels, though she doesn’t try the different flavoured pretzels.

Loves the rain

I think I have mentioned this before, but Squalo really loves the rain. It energizes him, provides trickier ground for training, and also soothes and relaxes him depending on the type of rain it is (like a thunderstorm, light mist, downpour, etc.)

Can knock out someone’s tooth in one punch

If Xanxus seriously resorts to throwing hands against you instead of using his weapons or just throwing whatever’s close at hand, you’re walking away with a broken jaw at the very least.

Will kiss someone to steal their wallet

It’s mostly just an AU I have for a universe where the girls get to actually be bad-ass and part of the Mafia world, but that’s actually something Kyoko does in that AU! of mine because she learns to take advantage of that cute, innocent feminine charm of hers to manipulate others.

#event ask #katekyo hitman reborn #khr #khr headcanons #yay! thank you so much for sending in something!

[tired-old-men]

So, Iris, what’s your relationship with all the oldies here? ;p feel free to go into detail.

Iris: My relationship with the Brotherhood can be a bit complex at times. I have dedicated myself in service to their family for the time being but that doesn’t make interacting with them any easier. They tend to be a bit of a reclusive bunch and for good reason, so having someone around who isn’t even a part of the family has been quite the adjustment to say the least. I mean, I get it, I have trust issues too so I don’t take their initial distrust too personally.  

However I will say that the more time I spend with them the more I cultivate my personal relationships with them even at an arm’s reach which is nice. 

I’ve gotten quite close to Thunderhawk or Thundy as I call him, he’s such a dad *chuckles* or um more of a family man really, he loves to cook and spend quality time with others. So whenever he tends to have downtime from work we can spend hours just chitchatting or playing card games around the kitchen, enjoying the simple things together. Even though the rest of the Brotherhood felt at odds with me being in their home, Thundy welcomed me with open arms, there’s just something in him that cares deeply for others.

Sojourner is a bit… complicated. He’s not the biggest fan of me initially, probably because his father distrusted me when I arrived here…and then even more when ended up staying. But he comes around every once in a while, he’s a solitary person in general, if he’s not working he’s spending his time enjoying himself mostly outdoors or working on machinery. Not particularly my cup of tea, but I admire his resilience and find his raunchy humor entertaining. Every once in a while we’ll share a cigar and just bullshit about whatever, and he seems to have a good time even if he won’t admit to it. 

Sabre and Locke I’m not very close with admittedly. Most of the time Sabre just wants to be left alone, he’s not a very sociable person unless he needs to be. I try to give him some space while still trying to be there for him, can’t help but feel for him at times. Sometimes I’ll make him some tea and well sit and chat for a bit, helps me understand him a bit more, and he seems to be appreciative to have someone besides his family to talk with.  

Locke on the other hand… he’s in his head a lot, I’m unsure if its due to the pressure of the position he’s in within his family or if he just has other things going on in his personal life but he always seems to be preoccupied by something and not spending nearly enough time on himself. He does have a big interest in studying ancient echidna cultures and history which get me excited, when he has the time he’ll talk on and on about what he’s learned, he can be longwinded at times and it ends up feeling like a lecture, but I enjoy learning about his interests at least. 

And then there’s him…Spectre… I don’t think I can find the words to describe how I felt seeing this living legend for the first time, out off all the Guardians I never thought I would get to meet him in particular, but boy I’m glad I did! He’s just so awesome… But he’s also a very cautious man, very reserved, and of very few words, especially to me. His life is quite the mystery to me, the only thing I know for certain is that he takes the title of Guardian quite seriously, he’s always aware of his surroundings, quietly watching in the shadows. When he’s not preoccupied with work I found that he enjoys a lot of quiet activities, such as reading, and completing puzzles of all kinds. I tend to be quite the introvert so in my spare time I find myself in the library drawing and listening to music, a space that he also tends to occupy. While at first I could feel his cautious glare behind a book, I think he’s grown comfortable with me sharing his space since I’m quiet for the most part. Recently I’ve caught him standing behind me watching me draw, sometimes he asks questions about my process, sometimes he just gives me an approving nod, and sometimes I wake up from nodding off at my desk with a blanket on me. I take that as a good start in my book! *smiles*

#Iris.txt #Charleecat-bat #Brotherhood of Guardians #Iris the Hedgehog

[funkymbtifiction]

hey charity :) congrats on your retirement. it’s been great checking in from time to time. if anyone ever doubts an se-dom’s ability to tackle difficult subjects, just wanted to share that i’ve stuck with my low-ni career plans and am currently halfway done with veterinary school. well on my way to being the wildlife vet i envisioned myself to be, even on the bad days. even at 30, but i’m certainly an oddball in this program. i’m the one of very few people i’ve met that doesn’t seem to care about grades at all, and i’ve been coping with the miserable lifestyle through lots of skateboarding, music, and rock climbing. just staying as physically active and engaged with the present as possible, and cutting class to visit wildlife vets in the region to remind myself why i’m here.

i tend to not think about mbti/enneagram much these days, but i had a couple lingering questions. please redact anything if you think it’s too personal.

i’m not sure i’ll ever settle on my enneagram type; really i’ve been between 6 or 7 for years, what with the massive fear of commitment, which has always felt very 7-ish, to the point of abandoning people/relationships etc, massive fear of being trapped. but i seem to lack optimism; and then there’s the growing fear of living in my mentor’s shadow when i’m through with school, but also knowing that i need to learn from her in this field - this push/pull approach feels very 6-ish and wanted to confirm it. i have a protective streak that i’ve always associated with 8 in my tritype, and an intense sense of being ‘different’ that my mom says i’ve clung to since toddlerhood which i associate with 4. and i was about ready to say, okay, 684 so/sp and close that chapter for good.

but earlier today - i had a reaction to something that struck me as almost 1-ish, and i wanted to get your thoughts on it. [...] so, i spent some time reading your enneagram page today, and the more i read about 1, the more i cringed. i’m attributing it to a cornered fi-te, but i’m also wondering if maybe i’m wrong about the 8-fix and if that could be a 1-fix? i would not say i suppress my anger at all. but, most of my anger is directed at justice. like when i was a scrappy little kid, i usually would only fight if i was cornered and needed to stand up for myself, or to protect another person. though i would challenge the boys, i guess, to fight if i felt like i needed to prove myself about something. and while i no longer physically get into fights, i verbally do, if i have to. ie, i believe in being confrontational and direct to solve problems; and while i complain a lot about systems that i perceive as broken, i also do what i can to try and change them. 

a suppressed inner critic? yes. and it’s true that nothing ever is quite perfect to me - i see flaws in most things. but i also wouldn’t want things to be perfect. there’s beauty in the mess. but. i’m my own moral authority. and if i don’t listen to my conscience - i pay the price. can’t sleep. nightmares, etc. i certainly resent myself for holding myself to those standards. it’s exhausting. the rest of the world doesn’t have to follow my code though (unless i’m wrapped into a situation, like this morning). and i wouldn’t even necessarily want them to - it’s just me.

so then i don’t know that 1 makes sense for esfp. or if what i’m seeing really isn’t 1 at all. which brings me back here once again. given the rigor of any medical program, i suspect i’ve been looping se-te a lot lately, and i guess fi popping up could’ve just startled me.

any thoughts?

thanks in advance for your insights, and all the best!

If you’re still confused about your core type, at this point I would forget about tritype altogether and spend time digging into your core fears, motivations, studying the Enneagram more deeply, and seeing what explains most of your personality (core, wing, stacking). 6 and 7 are quite different; there is some overlap, but 6s are core super-ego types, and 7s are core assertive types, and that distinction is HUGE. 7w6s are self-confident second-guessers, and 6w7s are insecure second-guessers. 7w6s are positive leading into reactivity, and 6s are core reactives striving for positive thinking. Super-ego comes with guilt-trip inducing “should” thinking; assertive types comes with re-framing and justifications for their actions. (6: I don’t deserve that, I’ve been horrible vs 7: I deserve to get what I want, I’ve done enough!). 6s have to justify what they want to themselves and others, 7s just go get it. Finally, under stress, 6 moves to 3 and hides away from their anxiety through ‘doing’ (working). 7s move to 1 and become more critical of themselves and others. 6s have to learn to grow toward 9 and develop a peaceful mind; 7s have to learn to move toward 5 and become more objective and know that they don’t ‘need’ everything they want.

That being said… I don’t know how useful this will be, because I’m double super-ego (possibly triple, I still consider a 2 fix often), but having a 1 fix is a constant chronic frustration with the world and everything in it not being good, or right, or proper enough These things make me angry. People being selfish makes me angry, junk in people’s front yard makes me angry, seeing that a series’ title texts on my bookshelf is not in alignment makes me angry, boredom makes me angry. I run a constant “judge” machine in my head, evaluating everyone and everything and how they ‘ought’ to be. (Why was that person so rude; that’s wrong. Withholding forgiveness—also wrong; someone claiming to be moral while cheating on their wife is a hypocrite; why must everyone swear so much?, it’s so crass and vulgar.) It extends to self-judgment: I’m a lousy person for not being a better friend, not doing the dishes every night and leaving them piled up (what a mess!), I should not have lost my temper, I should stop arguing with my dad, etc. If I fight with a friend, I used to (not as much anymore, I’ve learned to cope with this) go over everything they said, and everything I said, and self-reproach for anything that was unfair, mean, or selfish. 1 fixes in other people, I see as – critical, judgmental, frustration (everything isn’t quite perfect and everyone ‘should’ be better people than they are), self-righteous anger. Etc. It’s very different from my father’s 8 fix, which is all about power dynamics. Don’t give people an inch, they’ll walk all over you. YOU set the agenda! Be strong! Good/bad is what I say it is, and what’s smart. Not as much self-reproach, self-judgment, or recrimination. Other people are the problem, in many cases, because there’s less ruthless inner critic / nitpicking of self. Short fuse, non-apologetic for blow-ups. “Sometimes force is necessary.” Completely understanding 8 cores/fixers and seeing them as fine/relatable.

Heart fixes are tricky and when last, hard to figure out since it’s a non-issue – just present in conjunction with the other two. 7s are pretty much always heart-last, 6s can be either gut or heart last. But image/heart relates to how you want to be seen and what you show other people. Do you want to be seen as good and think of yourself as better than others because they are less generous and selfless than you? 2. Do you want to be more successful than others and impress them, so you re-frame things to sound good? 3. Do you want everyone to know you’re different, unique, broken, and can’t be fixed, but that’s fine because at least it makes you not like most normies? 4. Etc. Finding a heart center for a head type is hard, because we don’t “do” feelings, we avoid/ignore them/suppress them.

Avoidance of commitment is very much a core 7 trait, and how energetic you seem in staying active, cutting class (no thought of “will this affect my grade?”), and staying not-bored would suggest 7. A 6 would be more fearful of the consequences of those things, and feel duty-obligated to force themselves to do them. But the real test is how good your attention span is. 7s have less attentiveness than 6s, who are linear thinkers.

Regarding your situation with your roommate, you did recoil in a 1ish way, but 7s also have a line to 1 and often, strong feelings about right/wrong in specific areas that hit them wrong, especially as a Fi user. Are you moralistic in this way ALL the time, or just some of the time?

#question #tritype #enneagram #enneagrma 7 #enneagram 6

[clone-medic-patch]

Patch thoughts:

It’s been a while since I’ve posted here, but I’ve been writing a fic with Patch in it, and I’ve had a lot of thoughts on his character development recently, so I thought I’d share! When I post the next chapter, I’ll probably post a link here as well!

Patch is an original 104th member (pre-Malevolence); he was in the escape pod with Wolffe (in his medic grays) when the Malevolence attacked, and has some related trauma 

Appearance: has a sole patch on his chin (like Waxer’s, but rounder), hair slightly longer than regulation (just a bit of grey); he’s slightly less active than his brothers, so he’s not a stick like most clones; (his metabolism is also starting to slow down, being one of the older clones). His armor has a grey stripe on the chin like his sole patch, and his paint is wolfpack grey, except for one of his gloves, which has a stripe of red paint.

Patch is very warm and affectionate around his brothers (great bedside manner), but can lash out in anger a little bit when he’s triggered; has dealt with depression in the past, but is doing a lot better nowadays

Has aviophobia (fear of flying/dying in something that flies), and definitely had a panic attack the last time he tried going on a Jedi cruiser

Was struggling mentally after the Malevolence, but it came to a head at the Battle of Khorm, when he lost his last batchmate, Blunt, and developed depression. During this time, his aviophobia got bad to the point that he had to be sedated anytime he went on a gunship.

Through some finagling, General Plo managed to get him reassigned to Coruscant, where he was stationed at the Coruscant Medical facility, and took classes to be a rehab specialist (although he’s still officially listed as a member of the 104th). The 104th, being a rescue battalion, is on-planet more often than most, so he still gets to see them fairly often.

Saw mindhealers at the jedi temple for a while, where he learned multiple grounding techniques to combat his aviophobia, including eating a mint, listening to music, and the occasional fidget toy (he likes the textured ones). He’s more than happy to share his coping strategies with his vode, and can use CBT strategies as part of his training as a rehab specialist (although isn’t certified as a mental health specialist).

After the Umbara campaign, multiple 501st troopers are needing PT/OT services, so when Rex sends out the temporary assignment request, Patch accepts (he’s doing better mentally now, and has been wanting to face his fears and hopefully join the 104th full-time soon, now that his rehab specialist training is done)

Doesn’t like taking off his armor because of Malevolence-related trauma, and only really does so to sleep; sleeps with a weighted blanket gifted to him by General Plo (bunks near Tup and Dogma when with the 501st)

Is on temporary assignment with the 501st (in my fic); hopes to rejoin the 104th afterwards, assuming he can handle living on a Jedi cruiser again

has a lot of old-man habits, and constantly acts like he’s 50-years old instead of barely 26 standards

#clone medic patch #this blog is only slightly dead #rehab specialists would be similar to physical therapy or occupational therapy #aviophobia #I promise patch isn't just bones from star trek #but i've already written one scene heavily inspired by him and it makes me happy #clone trooper oc #clone oc #OC Character Development

[mikelogan]

Is it bad that like—if she doubles down on all this and tries to justify it I’ll quit listening to her music; of course I will.

But I don’t want to have to do that. I’ve been listening to her since elementary school, and up until this point she’s been the only artist I grew up with who hadn’t done/condoned anything horrible. (I’m still shocked by what Demi confessed to a few years back and the way that was played off.)

I want Taylor to dump him and address this because it’d be the right thing to do. But it’s also because I just want one artist I liked growing up to not be terrible.

to put it plainly, this fucking sucks. i don't want to stop listening to her music either. i relate to a lot of it and i also grew up listening to her. i think im especially disappointed by all this bc of her seeming so dedicated to speaking out against injustice and it makes all of her "activism" seem performative. ive seen a lot of different posts floating around since this has all come to light, but the one that resonates with me the most is that she can't not know about all the shit he's said and done. she's obviously active online -- she knows about people thinking she hates evermore and the whole "mother is mothering" stuff, etc -- and while i think it's plausible that she's sent some of these things by members of her team, i find it so hard to believe that she's just totally unaware of all m*tty's bullshit. i literally never listened to the 1975 until i just saw them on snl maybe a few weeks ago and i liked a couple of the songs, but i remember hearing things over the years (I used to be suuuuper active in bandom #rip) about him just. not being a good person. i don't think i knew specifics, but it's why all of this coming out about him doesn't particularly surprise me, though it does disgust/horrify me. like i get her needing a rebound bc like. after 6 years with someone, that has to hurt?? and we have literally no idea what even happened between her and joe bc they were so private to begin with. so i understand that she's hurting and probably not in the best mental place, and while she's entitled to do what (and who) she wants, that doesn't mean im gonna just. sit by and not say anything about it? and this is so incredibly unlike 2016 when people were cancelling her left and right just bc theyd been foaming at the mouth for excuses to do so. im not even advocating to cancel her (still holding out hope that she addresses this somehow), but i am in favor of holding her accountable. i also understand the whole "separate the art from the artist" thing to an extent. who immediately comes to mind on that topic though is jk r*wling, who turned out to be essentially rhe biggest disappointment of my life. her views and beliefs have stained what she created, to the point where i don't even want to associate myself with hp despite having grown up with it and having it be a big part of my life. Im not to that point with Taylor's music (though I will say this has made me a lot less excited for my show next month), but I COMPLETELY understand what you're saying. Like why is it so much to ask for artists/celebrities in general to not be terrible people? Like even if she's not the one saying the things he's said, she's still with him and has said nothing about any of his statements. As a white person, I know that I'll never fully understand what it's like to be part of a victim of racism and that I cannot speak to what that's like. I have privilege in that regard. I have the ability to shrug my shoulders and say "That's not my problem" and move on. But I don't want to. I want to hold taylor accountable for all she's said and done to make us think she loves and supports her fans. But this has to feel so alienating for members of the groups m*tty's said shit about. We love Taylor and a lot of us look up to her and we want her to be happy. But this ain't it, not by a longshot.

#answered #anonymous #taylor swift #im sorry not sorry for the novel #i just have a lot of thoughts on this #and fair warning that i dont tolerate any kind of hate in my inbox #i delete that shit so dont bother if you feel so inclined

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IS HE FINALLY DEAD?! DID HE SERIOUSLY DELETE HIS ACCOUNTS?! OH MY FUCKING GOD! No this isn’t true! @duran301 just informed me!

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Please tell me this is true folks! That redmix is gone!!!

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Well @duran301 and I are a couple. Love this dorky kirin :3 pssst don’t tell nox or chroma oh shit too late

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Coming out of music retirement????

Yes I know. 7 years! I have been not been making music under this name since my denature from making music under this name and yes it’s been a long one. But under my new name Cyberhound I’ve mature in a big way when it comes to producing and making music. But as of recent I miss making music under this name, well ever since @oroichonno asked me how life has been after I left and it’s been fun. Been able to get my life sort of back together as some of you saw that one post of me falling off the wagon yet again. But I’m fine now.  But even talking about it in Discord with @nox-lunarwing . It makes me miss it even more but I have to let everyone new that I’ve met only for the past couple years....My music had a short life. 2 Years. No budget. Half the time I was drunk or bored making the music I made under this name. But Now under my plan for my distributor, DistroKid. I can release music for Two artists name so I don’t know. Is it time? Will anyone actually listen?  If I do choose to upload my old music I want to let you all know right off the back so I don’t need to as Nox put, ‘Let them beforehand, so you don’t have to tap the sign’. I will not be releasing new music under this name. This is just my whole Discography for everyone to listen to on every platform.  I will be also remastering all the songs so you can hear it as I wanted you to hear it. I did have an idea for one last heavy metal/hard rock album (The only genre I make now) that revolved around old MLP horror blogs (i.e. Lil Miss Rarity ((Yes, i know that blog is still active)), Ask Murdershy, Ask Pinkamena, you know the blogs MindlessGonzo did dubs for 10 years ago on his channel when I was a teenager and we were all obsessed with lol) called ‘The Equestrian Nightmares’. (Yes a parody of the Ice Nine Kills Song, ‘The American Nightmare’ but with all MLP). But I don’t know. Even if @lil-mizz-jay (sorry for the tag jay, you can ignored this if you want) or anyone would think about it I might not do it and scrap it unless I got backed for it. It sounds too cringe right now and tbh it’s best to keep Flare retired but it’s a constant dilemma for me. The ‘What If’s. If you would like to see me return let me know. 

23 notes - Posted August 7, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

So It’s HAPPENING!!!!!

Yep I am coming out of retirement! (Thank you @lil-mizz-jay & everyone for the kind words ^^) I know very exciting!

I have already started the process of re-mastering & distributing all my old music through my new distributor, ‘DistroKid’ Once I have all the links set up I’ll make another post to all of them :). This has been a dream ever since I started making music with this name but never had money to make it come true and it’s finally coming true for me so excuse while I grab a tissue for this. 

Do Be Warned! My older stuff will sound off and like a bunch of noise but look at the release date before you judge me. I was a drunk idiot back then in 2014, but some of them have their moments but you have the right to your opinion just giving you all some warning.

Before you ask @a-spoonful-of-generosity & @diamond-tiara-4-serving-spoon Yes all the DiamondSpoon albums (Including the dark sides) will be released out there as well.

Well Flare Flare, Where Will All Your Music Be Released?

Why I’m glad you ask. They will be released to the following services: Spotify iTunes Apple Music YouTube Music Amazon Music Soundtrack For Twitch & if you have a service you’d like for me to add it too (If available), then I’ll add it. I already have my Discography available on my Bandcamp & my Soundcloud (Some tracks are missing and the person I made it for would like for to not be released anywhere else and I am respecting their decision).   What About This ‘New Album’? Well.....I have done some thinking on it and I have decided to make it cause I wanted to make something like that before but couldn’t cause of no budget. It will be Heavy Metal (Like Very Heavy Jay, Prepare LMR for that lol. So much heavy metal screaming coming for this). I don’t think you guys know how heavy. So let me provide you this song to give you a hint on how heavy it will be. It will be covering some the horror ponies: Lil Miss Rarity (majority of the album is about), Murdershy, Pinkamenia. Also, if anyone has my doubts of my screaming abilities, Here is an example of my screaming (I come in at timestamp 1:40). Here is another example of my screaming. So I will be brining my A game to this. Plus, I’ve matured very much when it comes to making music so this album will be LIT! The album will be name, ‘The Equestrian Night Mares’ and I want a seasonal release date but I don’t know when (definitely not this year. Too many projects going on). But It’s so good to be finally be back. Welcome new followers from Jay’s. To my current followers....Flare Flare is BACK! Let’s headbang!

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[bohemian-rhapsody-in-blue]

For the ask game: 🥳 🎤

I hope you'll feel better soon 🙃

I do feel a lot better now, thank you!! I so appreciate your concern and your ask—thank you for sending 💖

🥳: What always cheers you up when you’re in a bad mood?

- Writing out all my feelings in an angry or anxious Notes-app rant. Usually, it helps me to put words to what I’m feeling and get the buzzing, swirling thoughts out of my head and onto my screen.

- Listening to music. Especially if it’s really loud. Sometimes I listen to the same song on repeat, especially if it’s been known to comfort me (more on this below), but it also really helps if the music is a playlist I’ve curated to have all the songs in the same or similar key signatures that flow into each other cohesively. In fact, the process of making that kind of playlist also makes me feel better! Which brings me to:

- Doing an activity to distract myself. If I’m just sad and need a pick-me-up, reading or watching Netflix—generally silly and fluffy sitcoms, romcoms, or anime—works well. But if I’m angry or anxious and the thoughts are swirling around and my brain is going mmmmmmmmmm like an anxious little microwave, I need to do something that fully immerses me and leaves no room for my mind to wander back to “oh god I’m gonna ruin my life and flunk out of everything and everyone will hate me”. What works well for this is drawing, making playlists, or writing a string-quartet arrangement of a song I really like (maybe one I have on repeat to comfort myself!). If I come up with more things, I’ll add them here.

- Sorry to get all “blorbo from my shows” on you, but—watching Cowboy Bebop. Since I’m so obsessed with it, watching it is generally an immersive enough experience that it can successfully take my mind off the Anxiety™️. (The tags have a list of my favorite episodes to watch when I’m sad—I originally had them written here, but they were taking up too much room.) I swear to God, once I was really sad and my roommate walked in to see me watching Cowboy Bebop, while wearing a Cowboy Bebop shirt, with my Cowboy Bebop toys. That was a hard day. But honestly, when I’m sad, just immersing myself in my current obsession/special interest—whether it be Cowboy Bebop, Avatar: The Last Airbender, The Great Gatsby, or Star Trek—usually does wonders to make me feel better. Just being in the presence of The Thing will bring me joy.

- Being with my friends. Usually I like to be alone when I’m upset, but sometimes I need them as a sounding board for my problems/feelings or just to hug them. Just asking my friends for hugs, and the fact that I have friends who are happy to give me hugs upon request, feels amazing. 10/10, highly recommend. (Unfortunately I can no longer do this since I’ve come home from college and my friends are across the country…and Internet hugs just aren’t the same.)

🎤: What album or song is currently on repeat for you right now?

I already answered this in this ask from @wheredotheducksgo, but I don’t mind answering it again—especially since I mentioned listening to songs on repeat as a thing I do to make myself feel better! The two songs that generally really help with this are Roaring 20s by Panic! at the Disco and Everybody Talks by Neon Trees. I dunno what it is about either song, I just really vibe with both.

And I may as well take this opportunity to dump some other songs I’ve recently been listening to on repeat, as Spotify’s “On Repeat” playlist helpfully tells me: What Planet Is This?! by SEATBELTS (my all-time favorite song in the entire Cowboy Bebop soundtrack), Dance Macabre by Ghost, Shape Of My Heart by Sting, Period by CHEMISTRY (yes I’m a weeb shut up), Last of the American Girls by Green Day (there was a time when my entire “On Repeat” playlist was Green Day’s album 21st Century Breakdown with the occasional Cowboy Bebop piece sprinkled in), Good Life by OneRepublic.

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#thank you so much for the ask! #this was fun to think about and i am feeling better now :) #if you do play any of these song recs ​i highly recommend playing ‘roaring 20s’ followed immediately by ‘what planet is this?!’ #i did that once in a dj session and the effect was MAGICAL #also don’t @ me about period—i know citing an anime opening is cringey but it legitimately SLAPS and i will defend it to the death #ask #answered #shakespearestolemyurl #more random cute asks #okay as promised my favorite cowboy bebop episodes to watch when i’m sad: #IF I NEED TO LAUGH #session 11—toys in the attic #session 17—mushroom samba #session 22—cowboy funk #IF I NEED A DISTRACTION FROM MY FEELINGS™️ #session 5—ballad of fallen angels #(it’s not a happy episode at ALL but dissecting all the symbolism and foreshadowing is an excellent distraction!) #session 7—heavy metal queen #session 9—jamming with edward #session 14—bohemian rhapsody #the first three quarters of session 18—speak like a child #session 19—wild horses #most of these are lowish-stakes bounty-of-the-week episodes that i know will end well in a non-fucked-up way #(with the significant exception of the ending of ‘speak like a child’) #(which never fails to rip out my freaking heart)

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Beautiful Things Benson Boone Rhythm Karaoke Original Traffic (World Music)  Aykut ilter Ritim Karaoke Kanalıma Abone Olun Beğenip Paylaşın Aboneler İstek Şarkı İsteyebilirler. Şarkının Orijinal Versiyonunu Linkten Dinleyip Ritim Karaokesiyle Çalışabilirsiniz. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oa_RSwwpPaA Lise Üniversite Koroları Müzisyenler Solistler Vokalistler Yorumlara isteklerini Yazabilirler. STRUMMING EditAre these strumming patterns correct? 1 & 2 & 3 & 4 & 1 2 1 2 [Intro] G D A [Verse 1]        G                 D For a while there it was rough            A                 Bm But lately, I've been doin' better         G                 D             A Than the last four cold Decembers I recall             G              D And I see my family every month          A                Bm I found a girl my parents love                G                    D                          A She'll come and stay the night, and I   think I might have it all         G            D And I thank God every day        A       Bbdim7  Bm For the girl he sent my way      G                 D                       A But I know the things he gives me, he can take away      G                D And I hold you every night              Bm         A       G And that's a feeling I wanna get used to               Em                      A                          G D But there's no man as terrified as the man who stands to lose you [Pre-Chorus]                   A        Bm Oh, I hope I don't losе you  G        D     A Mm   please   stay  Bm                       G I want you, I need you, oh God      D      A Don't    take                                 G Thеse beautiful things that I've got [Chorus]       D     Bm Please   stay  A                        G I want you, I need you, oh God      D      Bm Don't    take      A                          G Thеse beautiful things that I've got [Post-Chorus]         D      Bm  A     G Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh, oh, oh-oh-oh       D       A Please    don't take [Verse 2]           G                D I found my mind, I'm feelin' sane            A                         Bm It's been a while, but I'm finding my faith                G                          D                       A If everything's good and it's great, why do I sit and wait 'til it's gone?                    G              D Oh, I'll tell ya, I know I've got enough         A         Bbdim7   Bm I've got peace and I've got love        G                   D                   A But I'm up at night thinkin' I just might lose it all [Chorus] G        D      Bm   Please    stay  A                        G I want you, I need you, oh God      D      Bm Don't    take      A                          G Thеse beautiful things that I've got [Post-Chorus]         D      Bm  A     G Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh, oh, oh-oh-oh [Outro]       D      A Please    stay                           G I want you, I need you, oh God  D      A I    need Benson Boone Article Talk Read Edit View history Tools From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Benson Boone Boone performing in 2023 Background information Birth name Benson James Boone[1] Born June 25, 2002 (age 21)[1] Origin Monroe, Washington, U.S.[2] Genres Pop rock[3] Occupation(s) Musiciansingersongwriter Instrument(s) Vocalspianoguitardrums Years active 2021–present Labels WarnerNight Street Website bensonboone.com Benson James Boone (born June 25, 2002) is an American singer-songwriter and multi-instrumentalist.[4] He was born and raised in Monroe, Washington. Boone's career began when he started sharing his music on the social media platform, TikTok, subsequently auditioning for American Idol. He later withdrew from the competition, but continued to gain popularity on TikTok. He was recognized and signed by Dan Reynolds, frontman of American pop rock band Imagine Dragons, to his Night Street Records label. Boone's debut single, "Ghost Town", was released in October 2021, charting in 16 countries. He has since released multiple successful singles, including "In the Stars" and "Beautiful Things", the latter of which peaked at the top of the UK Singles Chart, his first number one single on a major music chart.[5] It also became his first song to reach the top five on the Billboard Hot 100.[6] As of April 2024, Boone has amassed 6.8 million followers on TikTok, as well as garnering over 60 million monthly listeners on Spotify. His debut album, Fireworks & Rollerblades, was released on April 5, 2024. Early life Benson Boone grew up with four sisters in Monroe, Washington.[7][2] He attended Monroe High School and competed on the diving team.[8] He first discovered his musical talent when a friend asked him to play the piano and sing in their high school's battle of the bands his junior year even though he had no experience singing.[9][8] Boone briefly attended Brigham Young University–Idaho before leaving after a semester to focus on singing.[9]

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March 18th, 2024 - What am I doing?

Many times I’ve attempted to write a blog like this, and every time I gave up because it genuinely felt like I was essentially just talking to a wall. I don’t have a lot of friends, never have. My social circles have always been so small and I’ve always felt so lonely, so occasionally I think about just venting online in the hopes that someone will hear me. I really wonder how so many people are okay with being alone, spending time with themselves and never getting bored. If I don’t reach out to a friend for over an hour, I feel like I might go insane.

We sometimes associate “being alone” with “being lonely,” and it is important to realize that there is a difference between those two. Being “alone” is a physical state where you are physically by yourself. Being “lonely” is an emotional state where you are feeling alone or disconnected from others – even when they’re right next to you. Sometimes we are happy to be by ourselves, and sometimes we wish for the company of others. –Sharon Melin, MA, Outpatient Therapist.

Hell, I like being alone sometimes. To just be able to listen to my music and do whatever I feel like doing. But soon enough I get bored of my own company and need someone to bounce off of in a conversation, or to simply have another presence in the room with me. So I tend to reach out to a friend in the hopes for a nice, entertaining, and active conversation about whatever. But being an adult with adult friends, not everyone has time to immediately respond. That’s when loneliness kicks in.

I never blamed my friends for prioritising their life, in fact, I want them to prioritise their own life the same way I want to prioritise mine. But what I struggle with the most is that in loneliness, my priority is to find a connection with someone close to me. I’ve never been close to my family, so sitting down in the living room and telling my parents about what triggered my depression, or my opinions on a TV-show I recently watched, is a genuine struggle. They don’t understand, it’s simply a matter of being born and raised in a different generation. I’ve yet to fully accept that.

So naturally, I try to reach out to my best friends, or one of the three. And then more struggles arise:

N says, “Sorry, I’m already hanging out with my boyfriend,” which has turned into her standard reply for everything. It’s gotten to a point where I feel like asking her to hang out is pointless, so I stopped doing it. And it genuinely upsets me that she prioritises her boyfriend over her best friend whom she has known since 2012.

T has recently been broken up with. I never liked his girlfriend anyway, but I want him to take the time and space he needs to recover from that. But even before the breakup, he and I struggled to spend time together because his now ex-girlfriend was always jealous of me. (It’s a long story.)

J lives on the other side of the globe and works night shifts. Plus, he’s very active in helping his family with running errands, and he’s studying to chase his dream career. A good person all-in-all, but always busy and preoccupied. Besides, it doesn’t help that I am madly in love with him and I feel like if I double-texted him, I’ll come across as clingy and annoying. (Though he has always told me to reach out to him if I need him, I can’t shake this fear of abandonment if I text him one time too often.)

Of course, I have other connections who you could consider to be in the realm of “friends” as well, but spending time with them often feels emotionally draining (unlike the people mentioned above.) Rarely I have the energy to just hop into a Discord voice chat and deal with the chaos of 4-5 other people joining and talking over one another. Can you tell that I’m the wallflower at parties?

Also, I should probably mention that while writing these paragraphs, I am also doing my research on these topics and maybe I can come to a realisation or find a solution to my problems.

For example, while reading a piece on Nystrom Associates/Nystrom Counseling, I am learning that loneliness is, more often than not, simply the result of a bad relationship with myself. I am very critical of myself, I am a perfectionist, I substitute the lack of social connections with listening to a podcast or having Supernatural play idly on my second monitor, while I stare at my wallpaper on my primary monitor and overthink about whether or not J only keeps me around for his own benefit, or if N just stopped caring about me.

And what about professional help?

Well, considering I am a 26-year-old college student with no steady income, and my health insurance not covering psychological help, I find myself at a fork in the road. Either I go into debt to speak to a psychologist to try and rekindle the love for myself, or I do my own research and spend all of my free time trying to figure it out all by my little self.

Both sound incredibly exhausting, right? Like, nobody is excited about owing anyone money, and if my attempts at self-care fail, how will I ever find time to have fun before I go to sleep?

One of the things that Hannah Hippe on Nystrom mentions is that I need to recognize my internal critic, and replace those negative thoughts with a positive alternative. Easier said than done, of course, but it’s something that gets easier the more you do it.

For example, since two weeks ago I have been feeling like my lack of focus for my internship only means that I am nothing but dead weight to the company. I felt immense guilt for even sitting there, at my desk, trying so hard to work on a project but not being able to get where I want to be by the end of the day. And asking for help suddenly became so incredibly difficult. I felt like if I tapped my boss on the shoulder one more time, he’d scold me for not being at the level of proactivity I should be.

But in reality, only five minutes earlier, my boss told me that after my two-week sick leave (arranged by my college because of how stressed and depressed I was,) he was incredibly happy to have me back. And confirming that I am good at what I do. My other colleagues expressed something similar, by waving and smiling really excitedly to see me back at my desk.

So the thoughts I had two weeks ago, “I’m only in the way of this company moving forward. I’m not doing my job right. I’m not experienced enough for this,” are far from the truth.

Keeping what Hannah wrote in mind, I can also apply this to my doubts about friendship with J. (Ignoring the fact that I am head over heels for him just for this theory.) J is a genuine person, he has shown me on and on that he values honesty, respect, and effort. If those are out of balance, he does not hesitate to address it, and if necessary, he cuts off connections if the other party doesn’t want to fix it with him.

So if I really were a burden to J, would he have bothered spending time with me at all? Would he send me TikToks and say, “This is us,” or would he even ask what’s on my mind when he notices I sound a little upset?

The answer is no, if I was a burden to him, he wouldn’t even talk to me at all. And I may not be religious, but thank God or whatever deity sent this man to me because I honestly don’t know where I would be without him making me laugh more in the past 3 months, than I have in 2023.

I need to get better at catching myself thinking negatively. I need to be able to be like, “Hey, stop that. It’s not true. You’re doing okay,” whenever I feel myself spiral. I know I can do it, it’s just a matter of practice. And even if I fail keeping myself afloat, at least I can say that I’ve tried and that tomorrow is another opportunity to try again.

So, why am I writing this? Why am I here when I’ve mentioned before that I give up on writing blogs like this very easily? Maybe Tumblr isn’t even the right place to be, but it’s a platform I’m familiar with, and maybe my inner teenager still dreams of owning a frequently visited blog by hundreds of people. (Though my chances are small, a girl can still dream, right?)

Honestly, I’m just writing this to once again reach out. Maybe someone I can connect with, maybe not on a daily basis, but someone to check up on every other day or week with, “Hey, how have you been? Did you pass your exam? Or did you get that promotion? And how’s it going with that art project?”

And perhaps this blog can help someone else. Someone who is dealing with the same existential dread I wake up with every day, for them to see that they’re not alone and that there’s someone willing to listen.

I’m terrible at giving advice, therefore, I won’t. Besides, sometimes all we need is someone to listen and acknowledge, without trying to help and fix the problem. I sure as hell can’t stand it when all I want is to be heard, and instead I get a huge list of things to try to feel better. (I know their intentions are good, but sometimes you just gotta let me figure it out on my own.)

My inbox is open (anonymously as well) for you to vent to me and pretend for a couple of minutes that I am that friend you need. You know, a friend who won’t sugarcoat anything and won’t just agree with every idea or plan you have, but still have a hand reached out in case you’ve fallen. I mean, if you want to get back together with your ex, I’ll say it’s a bad idea, but the decision is up to you in the end.

#☆•° a diary of some sorts °•☆ #Mental Health #Therapy #Coping #Friendships #Relationships #Self-help #Self-love #Self-care #Family #Vent #Rant #Personal #Life Update #Life Lessons #Life #Thought #Thoughts #Reality #Meaning

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I gotta send this in before I overthink it too much lol. Even now in this ask box I’m adding shit.

•What are your interests/hobbies?

I like making genetically accurate family trees for a specific book series. Ngl though, I’ve started it, stopped several books in, restarted it completely, and repeat the cycle. I still have not finished that project. I am interested in psychology too because I’m curious as to the reason/why people do the things they do. I also enjoy listening to music and collecting random tiny objects. If I ever get the chance, I like building things too. Could be anything from legos to model houses/rooms, or an object made from stuff I found in nature or on the ground.

•How do you see yourself?

I’m polite but I usually don’t really care about people most of the time. I’m a bit detached too in that sense, because people close to me will be having problems and I don’t really care too much. I have a short temper, but I actively try to tone down my general emotions, or act like I’m fine if I’m getting upset because I feel like afterwards I didn’t deserve to feel mad lmao—doesn’t always work. When I’m not chilling and I’m in fact very upset, I tend to go for destructive answers. I would say I’m very loyal to my friends though. I’m very detail-oriented and like to do things a certain way, to the point where I’m itching to take the lead from someone because I feel like I could do it right. Sometimes I can get a little bit pushy when I want certain information out of someone. Also, I have awful time management. I know I’ll have a task to do but I’ll actively ignore it to do something else, and then I’m left to do the task 3 hours before it’s due. I’m sensitive, but I don’t like being seen as sensitive. Can you tell that I contemplate myself a lot haha

•How do you think others see you?

I like to keep track of what people describe me as because I’m curious as to how people perceive me. I’ve been described as mellow, diligent, naïve, smart, and extremely quiet verbally and physically. I don’t talk to a lot of people so I’m probably seen as a loner occasionally. I’ve also been called innocent and gullible. While I’ve never heard anyone say it, I’m pretty sure a lot of people think I’m sheltered as hell. A hard worker too maybe. They probably see me as very creative and artistic too. Maybe a bit of a know-it-all, since I have a tendency to correct people without thinking. I just want them to have the right information.

•How do you interact with your friends?

I guess I’m more chill and responsible, I don’t respond much. I give advice when it’s implied or asked for but other than that I’m kinda uninvolved. I’ve been called boring (as a joke) because there’s literally no drama worth talking about going on in my life while my friends have relationship drama every 3 hours. She once straight up told me to just lie about drama happening to me so I would have something to talk about lol. Once I feel I’m allowed to act like it, I can be a little chaotic with friends, and even be a bit of an instigator.

•What’s important to you? (Specific people, ideas, morals, objects, etc.)

It’s important to me that people are fair and honest. Like if two of my friends are fighting and I think one of them is being treated unfairly, idc if they’re both my friends, I will absolutely fight the one being unfair. I like honesty because I admit I’m kinda gullible and I do not like being lied to. I also like keeping whatever trinkets I find, I’m both sentimental and paranoid that I’ll need them in the future for whatever reason. It’s also important that I have headphones or any music player because I listen to music a lot, especially my repeated songs.

•Describe the ideal you, what kind of person do you strive to be?

I don’t really have a type of person I want to be necessarily, I just want to be happy with my choices and my life. I guess I want to be seen as smart and logical, and not sensitive and over-emotional. I don’t want to be held on a pedestal though, I just wanna be seen as some guy and that’s it.

Hi!

Aspects: Time, Space, Mind

Classes: Bard, Page, Prince

Try out Bard of Time and Page of Space first, I think one of those two will feel right.

Hope this helps!

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