#it made my day when i got this ask <3

[takearisk-x]

Hey Hannah, could we get some headcanons of Hinny in TPFY and AG? I just want to see how they differentiate between the two stories.

it's so funny to me that this time last year i was asking myself this exact question. but i haven't done this little thought experiment for quite a while because pretty quickly the two ginnys solidified into very different versions her and they definitely take up very different headspaces throughout the stories. honestly even in my own planning and perceptions of them.. they are two very separate people. that sounds so weird because in theory they ARE the same character, but at the same time i did have to find some differences to make the fics unique, and for the prose and narration to sound fresh.

with that being said, this is going to be so disorganized and disjointed. i already know half of it isn't going to make sense to anyone but me, but life is nuts, it's where my head's at right now, and i can't change it.

here goes nothing

i guess i can start with how they are similar? in both stories, the seven books are canon. they are a great foundation and framework for me to work in, i know each book like the back of my hand and i really had no desire to try to tweak or change anything in the original text.

HOWEVER, the main difference between the two, is the path from you is not epilogue compliant. and that was born from several questions that haunted me for about a decade before i even had the idea or the inclination to write hp fanfiction. but the main two i wanted to explore and answer were 1) did ginny really know it was harry that walked past her on his way to the forest? i'm pretty sure she did. so how does she react to something like that? how does that fit into their relationship arc and how does him not stopping parallel other things in their relationship? and 2) what happened to her at hogwarts in her 6th year? how did that affect her in the weeks, months, years afterward?

so why do those questions need to be explored and answered in an canon (read: epilogue) divergent setting? mostly because i didn't really like the epilogue (🤷) but also because it seemed like a two birds one stone situation. i needed time and space between 'the end' (chap 1, which really exists as a prologue?) and 'the beginning' (chap 2, which is when we pick up after the time jump). for maximum angst, tension, and storytelling potential.

so in short, tpfy!ginny is defined by her reaction to harry's march to death/faked death, and her reaction to her own experiences (trauma) during the occupied year at hogwarts.

once i had that story/plot idea in mind. i really started to try and shape ginny into a coherent personality. i mean we have the framework, right? we know what she's like at school, we know what her family and what her classmates say about her, and we know how she acts and interacts when she is in scenes with harry. but how does that become a person. i settled on five (ish) defining character traits (which are basically just a textbook enneagram 8)

Ginny is self-reliant and self-confident. she want's to prove her strength and resist any weakness, she wants to be important in the world, she wants to be a decision maker in her own life/situation, and she wants to be in control of those situations.

the main conflict then became, the way tpfy!ginny feels about harry makes her feel out of control, or another way of putting it, is she can't control how she feels about him. it's instinctual, overwhelming, and it scares her a bit because she doesn't feel like she is in control of her decisions when it comes to him. loving him, caring about him, putting his needs before hers, are all things that she does that don't feel like conscious decisions. this is directly at war with her base personality.

which i've got to say, has been so fun to write. i just torture her, i know i do.

moving on

already gone was born from a place of curiosity and literally took on three or even four different forms before it was an amenesia fic. i had spent nearly a year working on the path from you and was trying to find ways to piece harry and ginny back together again in this altered timeline, and one night i was just like.. 'how the fuck did they do this right away??' i really honestly just wanted to figure it out, for my own peace of mind. how did they get back together within a canon (read: epilogue) compliant timeline.

so i started brainstorming, and i wrote a really angsty post-war oneshot for @hinnyfied's birthday and i thought... this might be something. i might have something here.

but then i was like HOW is she different from tpfy!ginny? because she has to be... but she also still has to be ginny!? but for all the wonderful characteristics she possesses, those same traits can be her own worst enemy (which in tpfy they are)

so in already gone, what is the catalyst that sends her down a different path? i decided it was mostly pretty simple... ag!ginny, didn't make the connection, or at least didn't know for sure that harry walked by her on his way into the forest. the rustle she heard was just that, a rustle. i also decided that the events during her 6th year maybe weren't as horrifying(?), trauma inducing (?), specific to just her(?), as they are in tpfy.

but these were all decisions i made when i was just attempting to write a summer '98 a story.

i really didn't settle on the amnesia plot until two or three months later, because as much as i wanted that summer to be an angsty will they/won't they... it just wasn't. harry and ginny took on a completely different relationship arc than what i had planned and it became, not a story of reconciliation, which i so desperately wanted, but a story of mutual dependency, and the idea that home for them isn't a place, but a person. their relationship (and i do mean both of them, this isn't exclusive to just harry) post-war wasn't born out of shared interests, and sense of humor, and similar values, but of a deep understanding that some wounds don't heal, and some grief can't be quantified. but with that understanding, they can still move forward and live with it. as long as they're together.

so then i was a real bitch and i took it away.

whoops.

BUT THEN THE REALLY FUN PART STARTED HAPPENING

because while i like to assume ginny is deeply affected by her experience with the diary, by order of the phoenix she has either buried it so deep in an effort not to process, OR processed it enough that she can hide any lingering thoughts or actions that might still plague her because of it. she is not defined by her trauma. she has outwardly overcome.

she is also in her peak "i am over harry potter" phase.

like c'mon. that's hilarious. because she wakes up married to him.. and she is also thrown back into an (outwardly) well-adjusted mindset. which could possibly (i will neither confirm or deny this at present because spoilers) throw a big wrench into her relationship that is rooted in shared trauma and the understanding of that trauma. cannot stress this enough, already gone harry and ginny were and are co-dependent. but i sort of love that for them?

ANYWAYS

i've rambled enough. i hope this makes at least some sort of sense. and thanks so much for reading both stories!

#this is so fucking long i am so sorry #tl:dr tpfy!ginny is defined by her trauma and ag!ginny is defined by her lack of it #also i just realized your question asked about hinny and i sort of just rambled about ginny so if you want more details about harry hmu #thanks for the question! and for reading!!!! #it made my day when i got this ask <3 #anon #answered

[thecryptidart1st]

*holding a baguette like a microphone* Mr. Cryptid are you aware there's a new Walten Files episode out?

Yes, I saw it ^^ Martin blew me away with his animations

This week alone has given me material for both Soldered Wires and The Graveyard Shift (*especially* The Graveyard Shift), but like a cartoon, they piled on one after another right as I started work on a couple of projects and it's hard choosing what to work on first with my ADHD

Rest assured, content shall come soon!

#answering asks #self doodle #soldered wires #the graveyard shift #walten files #poppy playtime chapter 3 #viva reverie #hazbin hotel #calling me mr. cryptid made my day ngl #i started working on an update to the graveyard shift when poppy playtime dropped chapter 3 #and then martin came in and slapped me with a drop date for wf4 #truth be told i have been working on an in story explanation for this in tgs's story #but damn this week alone got me good #hazbin hotel is here because there are a couple of songs that i cant get out of my head and i'm planning to animate doug & mike to them #or at least make some animatics #idk

[dont-open-dead-inside-25]

*voice of boy who just experienced romantic/sexual attraction for the first time* did you guys see that. that was insane. wdym you live like this

#um????? #i've had “crushes” before but that was just guessing #it wasn't until *checks calendar* two days ago that i discovered what y'all are talking about #that was legit insane #also very proud of my initiative. underneath it all i'm quite bold. got his number (re: asked him if he wanted my number which is much more #fun. also he later told me that it made him blush which is cute) and he danced with me. #and it was such a vibe??? #like. i've been flirted with before #specifically a guy asked to dance with me (we were at a dance) and like. i did but it was really not it. i'm very enthusiastic when dancing #and there to have as much fun as i can and he was doing that awkward shuffle step thing and i could tell he wasn't really into dancing and #it felt he was bringing me down. dampening the vibe. #but with this guy we were vibing like crazy. he liked dancing! there was energy! he twirled me! it was insane you guys #also he has the cutest little southern accent #i didn't notice at first but my friend pointed it out to me and y'all it's adorable #got his spotify and we like a lot of the same music too #unfortunately he lives 2-3 states over (depending how you count) #we've been texting though #i met him at my competition so if we both win again i'll see him next year lol #finn says shit

[mattodore]

hi river !!! 🫶🫶 i may have asked you this already so please disregard this as i have but im thinking about trying to get into the sims for the first time again and was wondering if you knew of any masterposts or blogs to help get someone new to the sims started? either way thank you for your time & wishing you + ur ocs a good evening/day !!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

hi jo <3 i’m so bad at answering stuff like this but thankfullyyyyy there's actually this gameplay guide on google docs i know of that links to some good gameplay mods along with editing resources, tips from other simblrs, and graphic mods! and you can look at resource pages that some simblrs have like nova’s resource page here for links to cc and mods that might make your game more lively.

as for personal recommendations i'd say to follow the “#ts4 gameplay, #ts4 cas, #ts4 story” tags, follow some cc finds blogs, and follow some other simblrs whose posts you like! i’d also say download ratboysims’ ratsave file to play in so the world looks more lively!! alongside getting the @.k-hippie terrain replacements for better world visuals (unless you dig the cartoony look of the sims worlds). also northernsiberiawinds’s better in-game lighting for your sims.

#river dipping #asks #ahaura #i don't think you've asked abt this before or if you did tumblr eviscerated your message before it got to my inbox </3 #i’m assuming you mean like… simblr. #unless you mean you’ve never played the sims and are totally unfamiliar……. in which case i’d say play the sims 3 first instead 😭 #ts4 is notoriously not as good or complete as ts3 #mind you i’ve only played ts4 but i’m more into the game for oc reasons anyway #and can make my own fun even when the game’s uhhh. not very fun without gameplay mods #sorry if this isn’t helpful btw 😭 ik i only made this blog a year ago but i actually have been into ts4 since the demo dropped #so i kinda don’t. really remember what it was like to first try to get into the game… #ummm but there are a TON of videos on youtube about ts4 like there are tutorials and cc recs and mod walkthroughs #like the community is very helpful generally speaking so !! #also pirate the dlc… i’m being serious don’t spend money on a game that’s incomplete by design and to this day still has issues #hopefully this helps……….. 😭 #i’m like half asleep typing this out so idk 🧍

[good-beans]

Went to a really cool Japanese culture festival yesterday -- I wasn't sure if it would lean more towards serious culture or weeb territory, but it ended up a pretty even mix of both 😂

It was a really good time hanging out with some super nice new people and trying out a local event! I even got a little Sayori charm as well as earrings that look a lot like Mappi's ;--;

#bones' coworkers invited us and hermit-me was a little nervous to try something new with new people #but the event was huge and really cool! they had a bunch of booths and performers #and the food was good :3 #they went in full cosplay and there were a bunch of other cosplayers around that interacted #i got a pic with miku ;---; #it was my first event like it and only made me reallllly want to go to a con/cosplay even more #it was such a good experience #and!! sayori!!! #as much as that game Wrecked me itll hold a real special place in my heart because i got to know my pals and had a great time #and now i can carry her around with me :3 #the seller laughed when i ordered her that whenever someone requests a monika shes legally obligated to ask 'just monika?' #and my mappi earrings!!!! #i never get dressed up on my birthday (i always wanna just chill) #but im seriously considering wearing my fancy pink dress with earrings that day.... ill be just like her fr.... #rose rambles

[averlym]

a word to the wise sometimes the only true rest is looking beyond what you thought was success

so true! adamandi is full of wise advice such as this, including: "and you'll never feel better if you - fucking die- you stupid ass!"

#these are all very good reminders. especially during exam season (i am suffering. but at least i'm working on art coursework so it's #suffering i love.) guys i have maybe a bit too many thoughts on ambrose. sculpture. and ceramics. and studio. in my art student 3d era rn #tmr it's black and white 2d so it's vincent vibes instead... anyways. in my breaks i ended up brainstorming more doodles again so.. #anywaysndhfnfjfhf sorry to detract! but like these two quotes are holding my sanity intact i think. #at this point even without listening to the live soundtrack it sounds in my head so. lasting impressions i guess. every time i get anxious #' you'll never get better if you fucking die'' sounds in my head and i go ''ah yes there's a whole life outside'' #continuing this ramble you ever think how vincent went from you'll never get better if you fucking die to '' first i chose my friend #ambrose for my debut :DD'' realll quick. or also how this principle worked for when he was talking to ambrose about it and then. for himself #he didn't want to get better. he wanted quincy to get better and so '' you'll never get better if you die'' held through to the end #it just wasn't a mentality that saved him... god that screws me up. so many thoughts. #anyways anon!!!! thank you for sending this :3 made my day <33 very vibes #going to put the soundtrack on and power through studio again.. :3 adamandi asks are welcomed ngl teehee #ask me stuff??? #on another note sometimes it's so surreal that actors are real people... i guess the magic of theatre is that it makes the characters come #to life.. like i believe actors are real. and deserve to be treated like people. for the record. but also when consuming media and it's the #suspension of disbelief? these are Real Characters i can't believe that someone who isn't them is making these sounds and doing these things #it's so insane. incredible. idk i just have very high admiration for the cast and idk how i got here even... akshdjdhdf #<blinks> they did such a good job akdhdnfhfbgfhff ok bye #first time i swear in the actual post on this blog and not in the tags... of course

[jackleopard]

found a friendship bracelet from my trip that i left in my backpack and now im thinking of the two little boys on the airport who got so excited when I told them I had messi-themed friendship bracelets, I hope they still have them <3

#there was this mom with her 3 kids (a girl and 2 boys all very little like at most the girl who was the oldest must've been like 8) #and she saw us and started talking to us and telling her girl hey look these girls came here to see taylor too just like you etc #and then she told us the girl went to the concert and the two boys went to messi's cirque de soleil thing and I was like 'oh you guys like #messi? wait until I show you my locksreen (photo of messi with the wc) and they got so excited!!!! #so afterwards when we got off the plane and I managed to find them I asked if they wanted messi-themed frienship bracelets #because my friend had given their sister friendships bracelets but the boys didnt want them #but they got so excited that I had friendship bracelets that were messi-themed and they made me so happy bc they loved the bracelets #so yeah i hope they havent lost them and also that they are having a great day #the youngest boy also invited me to play hello kitty with them on the plane but we weren't sitting close to him and he was so sad :(

[cashweasel]

It was hard to pick,,,,, so, fjskdjsksjs it’s so many (only sort of sorry,,ngl) 😂

5,17 for kiyazan

9,25 for daemon nd karima

8,15 for Gideon and valen loll

29 for all of em 💀

Once again I FORGOT ABOUT A BLORBO ASK but I literally had this in the drafts and everything and today I bring you answers FHRHDJKSSJ

Kiyazan:

5. How do they comfort each other when they are sad?

Yazan is a big actions guy so if something is bothering her he’d want to take care of it and fix it immediately also kiki loves cuddles and cuddles she shall receive fjskakdjdk will literally do anything to make it better,, holding her, talking about it, dancing it out, ordering her favorite takeout (yazan talking about it is a mix him being sincere and dissing the shit out of the person/situation and I kinda love it djdjskdjdk) leaving kiki’s part for you because I wanna know 😌💗

17. Their ways of expressing their love.

We talked about yazan putting up the shelves that kiara got that have been sitting around since forever and that pretty much what it’s about 😂 he just does things for her, or does things so she doesn’t have to. Pre relationship or pre living together yazan would just go around her house and fix anything that needed fixing fjdksidjdk,, also a big part of why he doesn’t mind doing the chores. To put it shortly acts of service and quality time!

Daemon and karima:

9. How open are they with their feelings?

I know why you’re asking this 😂💀 karima is…. Unfortunately still not the best at it at least in a serious vulnerable context and she bottles up a lot BUT she would sit down with him and be like “can I tell you something homie to homie 😔” and even then she tries to to keep it from getting too deep even when it comes to expressing love she’s not one to get Too sentimental but will let him know she cares about him. But this is mostly when they’re still in the beginning of their relationship (honestly it might take her 2+ years of being like that 💀) but I will say the first time she lets herself cry in front of him…………..

25. Share any headcanons about their relationship.

FHDKSJSKDJ ok so you know karima will just KO whenever wherever and her sleep is heavyyyyyy lol and I just think daemon doesn’t let her sleep in her makeup that’s all 😌 she’s knocked tf out snoring and all and he’s just 🥰 wiping her makeup off and doing her skincare for her

Valen and Gideon:

8. What are their most prominent memories of each other?

PLEASE 😭 valen’s is that he used to keep a pet rat as a kid, everybody refused to acknowledge it because it wasn’t actually a pet it was some rat he found lurking in their gardens and deemed it his bestie and would check up on it every day fssksjdjdj and when the rat died gideon was the one that buried and held a funeral for it 😔

Gideon’s most prominent memory has to be valen punching his dad in a room full of people loll bc not only was it incredibly humiliating and an act of love towards his bestie but it was also the first time anyone really stood up to this bully of a man and he just got wrecked by a teenager fjskaksjdj it was great seeing him hunched over w a bleeding nose until he made a comment about the company his son keeps and then it was both boys vs the guards trying to tear them off him fjdksksjskdn

15. Does their view of themselves differ from their partner’s view?

Sort of lol,, gideon struggles so much with his self image and thinks he’s broken and has nothing to offer or that letting ppl get to know him is essentially a burden on him and them so he just doesn’t make friends or meaningful relationships easily and valen over here just Fails to fathom it because to him gideon’s the most solid friend he’s ever had and literally nothing like all those things he says about himself and so he always makes it a point to let him know all the things he appreciates about him

Valen on the other hand thinks he’s the most interesting and amazing person anyone has the pleasure of knowing and that he’s worth it and because he’s set that expectation for himself any criticism from others or negative emotions from himself is shoved aside in favor of the facade and while gideon agrees he’s amazing and lowkey idolizes him lol he’s the only one actually capable of giving him a reality check that he’ll listen to and seeing him as just valen

All:

29. What are your favorite moments that happen between them?

WAAHHHH LMAO ok to be completely fair my fave kiyazan moment is them throwing up into the same toilet together and kiki tolerating the bugs yazan collects despite hating them bc if this isn’t love idk what is 😂

My favorite daemon karima moment is him kicking the ball in her face when they first met DJDKSKDJDJFN and also ceramics class

And my fave valengideon moment is them going into the city and buying some lame lizard which turned out to be a large dragon they tried hiding in a barn where hay and fire don’t mix very well SGDHFKSKDJDJ rip

[oc romance asks]

#hope this helps 😂👍 #I think I spent 3 hours writing this 💀 #im obliterated bye #how could you ask me these questions #I’m politely requesting your blorbos pov for this btw I need to know how kiki comforts Yazan and how open daemon is about his feels #karima still acting nonchalant with him for a while and then letting the floor gates open one day is just so emotional to me fjrjskdjdk #that hit me harder than it should’ve negl #Valen was devastated when the rat died #bawled his eyes out the entire funeral rip #you and your bestie beating tf out of his asshole dad can be so romantic actually FJSKAJDKDKDJ #they got into trouble with valen’s dad that night but he thought that going for the nose was a great move for what it’s worth so it wasn’t #a complete loss loll #(typing that made me realize that even tho they were grounded #they all agreed that it was safer to have gideon stay with them a few days than sending him back to his dad) and I hated it #ask #oc asks #thank u for these I had fun answering them 💗💗💗💗💗 #my ocs #kiyazan #daemon x karima #valen x gideon

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#shout out to crying quietly in a bathroom stall before u have to go teach a room full of 18yo children #my face is v splotchy and if anyone asks if im alright i might burst into tears #y bc i got here at 7am. so i woke up at 5.30 and i teach from 3 to 5 normally #but the person who teaches 5 to 7 is sick so someone needs to substitute and i knew as soon as i saw the email it had to b me #bc no one else is prepared to teach on the 1st day of the week. so i get to do a 12hr day with basically zero breaks #and i have SO much that needs to get done. all the other TAs have all their stuff graded or at least made a start #and im gonna be here until its dark outside. and i probably made everyone feel bad bc my voice was shaking when i volunteered myself #and im not mad at them or blame them. im the obvious choice to do it. i also just so happen to b having #some sort of breakdown so ya kno. not ideal but so it goes #itll b fine. its the topic i study so it should b fine #unrelated #thats thr other thing. its beautiful outside and im not gonna b able to run bc itll b too dark when i leave

[emometalhead]

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#having a day full of mixed feelings #I suppose this is how life goes #I'm officially done with my Bachelor's degree as of today #obviously I'm proud of myself for the accomplishment and I was excited to be celebrated today #it was a long and difficult road and there were many times where I didn't think I'd live to see it through but I made it #I'm the first person in my family to get this degree and I was really looking forward to having today be my day #I had a really lovely morning and then things kind of waned #there were a few arguments. someone I spent the day with repeatedly made negative comments about something I care about #it felt awful. I know it was intended as more of a playful jab than anything but I directly asked for the comments to stop and they didn't #it especially hurt that it was a fandom thing and the person is so invested in their own fandoms yet they felt it fair to step on mine #even though I've never done that to them #then people kept talking over me and acted like I was wrong for trying to interject to finish my own sentences #also as I said in the last post I was deeply upset by how my family members spoke of my 12 year old cousin #she's just a kid and some of our close family members have such a nasty opinion of her. she's so young and she's had a rough few years #but it seems like no one except my brother and I are willing to give her any grace #I think everyone else has forgotten what it feels like to be a kid and feel as if the world is against you #on a more positive note. I had a decadent slice of chocolate cake. it was heavenly #unfortunately I was really too in my head to fully enjoy it #literally every day for 3 weeks I've been talking about the lunch I planned to have today #I knew exactly what meal and dessert I wanted from the restaurant. it's my absolute fave and isn't available at any other local restaurant #I was totally starving by time we got to the restaurant. we were out all morning and I ate a tiny breakfast in anticipation of this meal #when we got there we found out they removed what I planned to order from the menu. I was devastated. #I know it's stupid but like this was the one part of my day that I've had planned for MONTHS and I've been thinking about it for weeks #we had a 40 minute car ride where I mentioned my excitement for the food no less than 10 times so this crushed me #also I'm just really picky in general and typically restaurants only have one or two things I'm able to eat #I offered to just eat the dessert while everyone else ordered food because they were all really hungry too but they wouldn't allow it #we left the restaurant and I still feel horrible for walking out. if I had known the item was removed we wouldn't have even gone there #it happened so recently though and I feel dumb for not even thinking to check the menu online beforehand #so we went to another restaurant and I barely ate anything and now I have no appetite for dinner and I feel bad for ruining the afternoon #even though it's my day and my celebration and I feel like I'm entitled to a slight amount of unreasonableness

[bunnihearted]

🌌🗯️

#ughhhh i had a very very unpleasant nightmare and now i just feel awful :< #it was like all dreams super weird and made no sense. like i was in this GIANT obnormous building and was in the elevator #and suddenly i was in a large room where u like went to be accpted to get a job there??? #someone told me to change my outfit so this room could get accepted bc it was too revealing #then a man - the big shot - came in and the leader of the room introduced us one by lne #but when it came to me he asked the two of us to introduce ourselves #but when it got to me he said 'now it's eden's turn' & i was like haha im eden but u already know that ;3 #he just forcefully moved the convo along and asked me (and no one else) 3 questions #the last one was like 'if u werent here (at work) where would u be?' i hesitated for a moment and he said that if i hesitate too long #it doesnt look good. 'i'll give u one last chance. if u werent at work you would still be here in this place. with your family. #'we will be your family now. that's your answer. do you want to be part of this family?' #it all had an eerie tone to it but i just said 'yes i do. i really want to be part of the family' #and whoosh i was accepted and 'hired' to the very mysterious omnious building (the building was like miles long and big. like an entire city #anyway... this was just odd but then the thing that fucked me up for today #i dreamt of my two old 'friends' first there were just many moments where we talked and did things etc #but then came a part where // tw for SA // i was raped and then.... #they both chose to leave me and abandon me after #like they in the middle of the night made sure to bring me home. they werent completely heartless haha.... #and i in the nightmare felt safe. like i thought i could count on them #then the next day they were gone and they had also unfollowed and blocked me on all the apps #hmmm... yeah so both of those two things were just so horrible to dream about #and now i just feel like.. yeah. checks out. that's very similar to reality skskks :')) #i feel so lonely and like.. unworthy of care or love or support. ugh not a nice dream to start the day

[vorerilla]

i think about my ex every day and it haunts me bc i never resolved it/told them all of my feelings of how i loved them but that theyre also an asshole who didnt treat me right and made me feel so insecure and stupid and i wish i could just PUT THE THOUGHTS AWAY FOR NOW

#we were only together for 8 months #but it was the longest relationship id been in #they were 40 i was 26 #i drove across town usually late after working all day to see them all the time #their apartment made my allergies HORRIBLE bc of their cat but i went anyway bc i wanted to see them #but they would constantly tease me or jokingly say my pussy smells #they came to my side of down like 3 or 4 times maybe #they always walked like 8 feet in front of me which i hates #they were very negative and miserable #and would get mad at me for asking them about their work #they got mad at me for calling them babe #it felt like i always was pushing their boundaries and it was just me talking or texting them too much #sigh #i need to move on #but my thoughts are unresolved #i miss them but i put them through a lot of pain when i broke up with them and they guilted me and guilted me for months #and i dont want them back in my life after everything #wtf did this person even do for me #i didnt even feel loved by them #i got so tired of just sitting in their apartment all day watching them play video games #anyways end rant #i just wanted more from them

[inkykeiji]

hello hello good morning!!! i am just stopping by to let u all know that fishie touya nibbled on my finger today and it was literally the cutest thing in the entire universe <333

our pretty rainbow boy <333

also!!! today’s everskies outfit under the cut!! (ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

how cute is this!? i wish i had a pair of black overalls irl :(( i only have blue ones atm 。ﾟ(ﾟﾉД｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡

anyway anyway come add me on this silly app if u wanna!! my username is inkyclari! let’s be friends!! i’m still figuring out how the whole thing works hehe but my gosh does it ever remind me of the hours my best friend n i spent dressing up digital dolls when we were lil kids!!!

#i kind of love the fact that there’s a blog AND a guestbook #i was so so so young when i had myspace (way too young to have myspace but all of my bffs older brothers had them D:) #(so we HAD to have them too duh) #but the guestbook function especially reminds me of myspace SO much!!! #like just early web 2.0 type sites #and msn!!!!!! tbh i miss msn HAHA #i was one of the last kids in fifth grade to get one >.> #because that’s when i FINALLY got internet lmfao #my zia made my account bcoz i didn’t know how to #anyway we used lil pixel dollies like this one as our profile pictures ALL the time #and we’d like;;; gatekeep them so hard LMAO #like we’d search online for hours for the cutest ones and then when someone would ask where we got it or if we could send it we’d be like #“oh sorry idk where it is on my computer i lost it :((” and then we'd all laugh together #terrible we were mean kids man #anyway enough reminiscing #i’m off to go edit ta!haitham!!!!!!!! <333333333 #all +10k words of him!!! #heeeee wish me luck #have a wonderful day friends <3 #clari chatters #pxl.clari

[yohankang]

good morning besties i feel like i'm in a movie

#so we're staying at this spa resort for 3 days #and i'm experiencing rich people's behaviour #backstory: my father has a friend who is filthy rich. he made a reservation for easter for his whole family #but the day before leaving they decided they do not want to go after all lmao but he felt bad for cancelling 7 rooms so he called my father #and ask if we want to go in their place. for free ofc #i looked it up and a 3-day stay for our family costs more than i earn in 6 MONTHS. this is literally insane wtf #i have a screen in my room that activates when i come near and it feels very orwell-ish #anyway. rich people...... yesterday i heard a whole backstory of some divorce #because the ladies got drunk during dinner amd talked way too loudly and were way too comfortable.... #also rude to the staff #the dinner was served until 9pm but when i went on a walk at 10pm they were all still sitting there and bothering the staff #like do they feel like they own this place or what.... #i was supposed to unwind but i'm getting pissed off instead asdhjsfgjs #k.txt #this feels unreal

[wherela]

one of those crying in the shower kind of days

#my 'best friend' stood me up today #and by stood me up i don't mean canceled last minute i mean didn't show up and only responded to my calls and texts after 45 min #why? she was hanging out with some guy (she met him last week. he's not a christian.) and lost track of time #she's also initiated no contact with me over the last few weeks #the explenation was she thought i was busy with my thesis. as if you can't check in on someone when they're busy #she also gosted me for 3 days (like a month ago??) cause she was asked to share at student group and i couldn't go CAUSE I WAS SICK #I'm just so tired of it at this point #but it's also made me realise i dont really have any close friends #i have lots of friends. sure. and i trust them too. but it's not the kind of close where i can write to them when I've got a problem #like maybe I'd tell them live if they asked me? but I wouldn't really write to them it would just be weird #and so who do I tell that I met S's parents yesterday and even though so many things have happened since then already thats the only one #I can think about???? or that he actually CALLED ME afterwards specifically to tell me what they thought of our church #or that his mom apparently asked him if our relationship was still weird and he said 'yes' and I've been overthinking it cause i thought we #were finally okay and normal and genuinely just friends? #or that his mom said my look is that i dress vintage and it made me SO HAPPY!! that's my look!!! that's how I'm recognisable!!! #the answer is nobody. i have no one to tell :( #mine #s #I'm sorry I guess I had to vent this prolly turned out really really long

[readymades2002]

did say to my coworker at work something about how if i got injured at work in a way that left a gnarly and epic scar it would look so cool and she said in a very "well duh" kind of way "oh you WOULD say it would be cool" which is the funniest thing anyone's ever said about me

#its true. i would think getting injured with a boxcutter would be cool and a little badass. she got me #she also once said i give off vegan energy and when i asked what the fuck she meant by that #she said 'caring people just--its just giving vegan you know' which made me laugh so hard i started wheezing #i do like the other people in my department a lot. i dont get to see them or talk to them that often these days #but theyre all cool women and i really enjoy their company #and. you know. not running a solo department all the time teehee i hate running a solo department oh so very much <///////3