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lemmetreatya · 1 year

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Eren’s Insta Spam (pt. 2)

eren x black!fem reader

pt. 1

pt. 3

Back again with these since I’m not making imagines until my uni work is somewhat up to a good standard *chu chu*

OKAy!! so as we know Eren is cautious of putting you on his main/public spam but he genuinely really wants to post more of you so he has a private insta where it’s mostly just his irl friends and family who can follow it

He’s on this account waaaay more but its actually amusing because most of his family dont know that he’s a public figure/internet famous. Not because he’s scared to tell them but simply because they’d just embarrass the hell out of him sudidxkdk so erens tricked them into thinking that his priv spam is his main. the only consequence to that is that they always urge him to treat it like Facebook TM

“Habibti, post that baba picture I sent you the other day on instagram.” Carla directs towards Eren but says as she scrolls on her phone.

“Oh my gosh, Eren’s baby photos?! Let me see!” Hearing part of the conversation, Dina comes from around the table to look over Carla’s shoulder, eager to see her step-son’s adolescent stage.

Rolling his eyes, Eren only slugs his feet towards the fridge to get himself something for the two of you to eat. Don't get him wrong, he was happy his mother and step-mother got along but together they were an insufferable pair.

“Amma, why would I show everyone my baby pictures? That’s too embarrassing. In every picture my hair always looks dodgy. If I didn’t know it was me in them, I’d think the child was neglected.” He joked.

With an expression of shock, Carla looked over at her son.

“What you mean you looked neglected? Your hair always looked right! I always made sure to have it cut and nice on the sides. Not like how you and your Abba have it now, all long and untidy.”

“My hair isn’t untidy.” He’d mumble. Not because he was ashamed in his hair but because he knew saying anything louder would count as backtalk and therefore get him in trouble.

“Hey, darling! Come!” Upon seeing you enter the kitchen, Carla beckoned for you to come to her. Unsuspecting of what conspired before you came in, you glanced in Eren’s direction before walking in to his mother instead.

“Hey Mama.” You’d say as you stood next to her.

Seeing the cheeky expression on her face and the quick look she made in Eren’s direction, you knew she was up to no good.

“Look, look.” She’d say in a hushed tone, gleefully turning her phone in your direction. “This when Eren was a baby.”

In her hand was a picture of a child who sat in the bath tub, face displaying childish tantrum. Clearly the child had a disdain for the bath time activity but what made the picture all the more memorable was the plethora of bubble suds that mounted on top of his head.

“No way. That’s Eren?” You laughed behind your hand.

Unaware of what was going on behind him but hearing his name in conversation, the brunette turned around to witness the commotion.

“What the— Amma, No!”

Even though its mostly embarrassing, Eren genuinely likes when you interact with his family. They were so receptive of you from the first time they met you. To a certain extent he even believes they like you a lot better than him 😭😭 They make this especially clear in his comments section

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ej__jaeger can a guy ever get any sleep around here??? @ynprivnotpriv

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carlaakarjaeg_34 She Can Never Do Wrong!! Eren Make Sure You Be Nice xxxxx

lordhokagetheninth I. find this very amusing because….. i was never allowed to look at girls let alone havr them in my room at ur age. i walked so u could run.

ej__jaeger @lordhokagetheninth zeke can u stop changing ur @ i barely ever recognise u i was about to sb,, + ratio

ej__jaeger @carlaakarjaeg__34 always amma ❤️

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ej__jaeger to my beloved. @ynprivnotpriv

on your special day id like to say thank you for being the most incredible thing to ever happen to me. without you there’d be no improved me. you always push me to higher capabilities but simply because you care and not because you have to. your capacity to love and to be uniquely you will never cease to amaze me. never change, not even for me. ill keep this short because i’ve literally written u 5 different paragraphs elsewhere but know that i appreciate you, way more than u imagine.

every time i will always choose you.

happy birthday baba.

urs always. ej x

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dinafritz_off_fifth Happy Birthday @ynprivnotpriv!! Hope your day is full of love, joy and all things lovely Just Like You!! 💖

annie_leonhart12 Happy Birthday X @ynprivnotpriv

yummir Eren you beyyer sling it on her today and i mean it. she deserves to be d1ck3d down 👽👽

ynprivnotpriv Thank you for all the kind wishes everyone 🥺🥺 I love you all @carlaakarjaeg_34 @arminarletarmin @lordhokagetheninth @dinafritz_off_fitfh @annie_leonhart12 @mikamikamii @grishaj__ @conniethe_conman @sashabear7891 @reiner_braunofficial @jeankirjr @berth_hoovr

ej__jaeger @yummir HELLO??????

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Tags: @quiveringdeer because once again thank you for that reiner camera roll one and bc imma just tag you into these from now on

#eren x reader #eren jeager #eren yeager #eren x black reader #eren fluff #eren aot #eren moodboard #attack on titan #attack on titan eren

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alltimefail-sims · 8 months

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Ciara Baptiste Submission for @oatberrytea's Ofelia🌻

The Basics: -> Human; She/Her -> Pansexual -> Currently lives in Britechester as she just graduated from university! -> Young Adult (irl around 26 y.o.)

Details below the cut! ↓

Ciara's traits are: Cheerful, Clumsy, Bookworm, Socially Awkward, and Genius (two of those are from the "self discovery" feature, but I can't remember which ones!)

-> Her current aspiration is: Eco Innovator! Additionally, she completed the Academic aspiration, gaining the "Higher Education" trait!

-> Education: Has two prestigious degrees with honors from Foxbury Institute (Communications and Computer Science).

-> Her likes include: Spring, pastel color palettes: especially the colors yellow, pink, blue, and purple. She likes romantic, pop, and soul music. She loves engaging in Silly behavior, giving (and receiving) compliments, discussing interests, physical intimacy, flirting, and a little bit of what she calls "harmless" gossiping (specifically about silly stuff like the royal family or pop culture in general). She gravitates toward idealist and funny sims, but more than anything her favorite kind of sims are family-motivated sims. It was really just her and her dad growing up, so she wants to have a family of her own and is looking for a partner who wants a big, beautiful, fun family, as well! Her hobbies include robotics, research and debate, handiness, programming, wellness, baking, and knitting. She also enjoys acting and singing, even though she does both of those things quite poorly (that doesn't stop her, lol).

-> Her dislikes include: The "color" grey - she would argue that grey is definitely not a color, and she sees waaaay too much of it in the math and science field. She likes most genres of music, but Metal music is an absolute no-go and she is kind of a scaredy-cat who prefers the "cute" side of Halloween, so spooky music is also out. She doesn't tend to run in the same spaces as high-energy sims: she was not gifted in the athletics department and hates fitness activities, skiing, rock climbing, and snowboarding. However, she dislikes egotistical and argumentative sims the most! As a cheerful, optimistic sim she doesn't like conversations focused on complaints, pranks, arguments, potty humor, or malicious interactions.

-> Some fun facts include: Ciara was a happy infant and toddler, an only child who grew up in the spice market area of San Myshuno and was raised by a loving, generous single dad who she's still extremely close to. Her dad worked in nonprofits and charity work, always encouraging her to advocate for others, give back to their community, and be compassionate. Her mom passed away when she was only a year old, but her dad has done a solid job at keeping her memory alive. Ciara is half Japanese (her mother's side) and half Trinidadian/Tobagonian (on her father's side).

As soon as she could hold a hammer and power up a computer, she put her natural ingenuity to the test time and time again. Even though her unquenchable curiosity did lead to some small apartment fires, a few broken appliances, and a beaker explosion from time to time, she ultimately completed the Creative Genius aspiration and gained the "Idea Person" trait. That being said, she has always had a strong sense of purpose, wanting to put that perfect combination of smarts and creativity to work: that's why she decided she would dedicate her life to inventing and ultimately helping better the environment when she was around 12 years old.

High School came with a plethora of social challenges for Ciara: even though she was (and still is) extremely bubbly and bafflingly smart, she sometimes had trouble relating to people her age and understanding social expectations. Some kids picked on her for being too nerdy or too involved in class, others found her too talkative and "annoying," assuming her curious nature and positive attitude must be "fake." (Honestly, she was just neuro-divergent and didn't know it yet! She, in my opinion, didn't get evaluated by a profession until she was out of highschool and would ultimately be diagnosed as a combo of autism - toward the "high functioning" end - and ADHD). She found herself hanging out in teacher's classrooms more than not, usually not invited to big parties and doing her best to avoid social events like Prom as much as possible. However, she did have a small group of good friends, fortunately... so it definitely wasn't all bad! (She even went to the same college and was roommates with one of them!) Because she poured most of her free time into extracurriculars and schoolwork, she graduated at the top of her class and was given the honor of valedictorian!

Although she grew up in the city, she's 100% not attached to city living! She would love living somewhere with fresh air and lots of sunshine, especially if that meant she would have extra space to tinker and brainstorm! Plus, as an environmental enthusiast and "Civil Designer," she cares about inventing and finding affordable, healthy, safe innovations that work for all kinds of communities: that's a job she can do from anywhere!

Ciara never backs down from a challenge, but potentially competing for love might be the scariest one she's faced yet. She has never had a serious relationship and has never actually been in love, even though she eagerly puts her heart on her sleeve and has come close before. Could Ofelia be her soulmate? Ciara has crunched the numbers, and the stats say there's a slim chance: a 20% chance of success and an 80% chance at heartbreak, to be exact...

but that's a risk she's just might be willing to take. ❤️

Private DL if chosen!

#I hope you like her! <3 Regardless I'm so excited to see your Bachelorette challenge!!#sunflowerbc #ts4 bachelorette challenge #sim submission #oatberrytea #simblr #ts4 #Ciara Baptiste #oc: Ciara #the sims 4 #the sims community #my ocs #sims 4

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cheolism · 9 months

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if you knew svt irl what do you think your relationship with the members would be - like who would be your mortal enemy, who is bestie, who is the guy that’s always just around, who is bullying you LOL whatever it is lmk I’m curious!

This is such an interesting question and tbh I thought abt it for waaaay too long

seungcheol: i wouldn't know how to approach him out of a group setting. i'd get the fattest crush on him and would try my best to hide it, but he'd do something that gets my heart fluttering and it would be so obvious bc my face turns so red and i just like. freeze up? and from then on he'd 100 percent become my mortal enemy and take advantage of my crush and make me flustered 24/7

jeonghan: my mortal enemy and best friend. We are essentially the same person I fear. I am extremely nurturing and mature, but that doesn’t mean I won’t try and trick you. I act like a second mother, but I will try and convince you of something ridiculous. (example: I am very nurturing to my brother but I also convinced him that if he touched train tracks he would be electrocuted). Jeonghan, Josh and I would be absolute terrors. At the same time, much like how jeonghan and josh can be each others enemies and set the other up, I would fall into the same category. But I can definitely see jeonghan trying to get me to do something I don’t want to do and making me irritated lol

josh: same with jeonghan, my mortal enemy and best friend. but he'd no doubt try and trick me into doing something weird. however. sometimes. i can be just as unhinged? it's rare but. it happens. he's also extremely caring to the people around him and i think he'd make me have a crush on him just by being kind n polite :( but i'm also extremely naive when it comes to most things so he'd 100 percent take advantage

jun: we would bond over our love of cats and being silly. i'd love to introduce him to all my silly little games i play and stuff!! we'd absolutely spam each other with kitty photos.

hoshi: he would make it his mission to make me flustered. i know it. he'd bully me so much. he'd like "DON'T LOOK" and when i look because i'm hella curious he'll have his shirt off and gasp and be like, fake-scandalized, making me flustered.

wonu: now. he's an extreme introvert. but i can make him be my friend. i'm good with getting ppl to come out of their shells (my bff all through elementary and middle school was an extreme introvert who hated talking to pretty much everyone). it'd take a minute, but i'd get him to at least be comfy with me. he'd definitely get me giggling with his little one-liners, but idk if we'd be bffs :( but maybe i'd try to rope him into friendship and make him play minecraft w me

jihoon: i would compliment this man so much that it would be taken to be bullying. i'd praise him constantly. he would get that fondness for me that he does for hoshi, where he's exasperated and fond at the same time. i'd try and rope him into silliness too, try and make him gang up against hoshi with me

dokyeom: the loml. my target. he and chan would be the target of my teasings. i would try and convince him of the stupidest stuff. but i'd also try and protect him and spout knowledge at him. however he'd also be the first person i go to whenever i'm in a huff or want to rant and he'd make me feel better just by smiling and being his sweet self

mingyu: we'd be bullies to each other. mutual bullies. he'd get me flustered on purpose when he chooses to be charming and i'd retaliate by teasing him mercilessly.

minghao: just some guy, but we'd bond over talking about philosophy and morals and stuff!!

seungkwan: i'd go out of my way to tease him. he would be so exasperated by my antics of teasing the others and making things up. we'd have verbal spats with one another where we 100 percent use our teasing and spats as flirting. i'd tease him and then compliment him to get maximum flustered seungkwan.

vernon: some guy who i send cat tiktoks too </3 but also he'd crack me up whenever he makes random comments? i think eventually we'd get close tho because i'm seungkwan-jeonghan adjacent

chan: he'd be one of my other teasing victims. he makes it so easy? and i'd be so endeared by his cuteness. however i'd also inevitably realize he is extremely talented and amazing and get a big ass crush on him and would have to resort to dialing up my teasing to try and get even with him even tho he has no clue why

#katie: talks #ask #anon #this was so interesting to think abt?#but yeah i'm more like seungkwan and jeonghan #i'm extremely passionate and curious and nurturing #but also i love to tease people and be affectionate and love to learn

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wafflebloggies · 1 year

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10. a heap of broken images

back - next “So, Mark, this is Jared…”

Mark, it had to be said, did not look as if a large, near-invisible shadow-creature looming up out of the darkness and regarding him with a trio of eyes like the functional parts of a red-hot gas stove was a welcome addition to the list of concepts he was already struggling to grasp. He stared up at Jared in speechless silence, and when Jared’s eyes gave a friendly tilt, dropped several feet and whipped towards him, he sucked in a breath so sharp that Antonio was concerned he might have inhaled his own tongue.

“Look who it is! Double-M-hockey-sticks! It’s cool, we go waaaay back.”

“Uh?” managed Mark.

“Oh, yeah-yeah-yeah, I’ve been watching you for what, like, a year now?”

Mark made a noise.

“Gotta say, you’re taller IRL,” said Jared, happily. “Probably a perspective thing, right? Also way better res, which, like, no joke, literally every single cam in your house is ANCIENT at this point. Stone age. I kept bugging ya boy to replace them- no hate, ‘Tone- I was like, hey, I’m just your eye in the sky here, it’s not like I can just snap my fingers and your actual hardware gets upgraded with the power of heart or whatever. But he was always like... oh, hey, you good?”

This last, because Mark had just sat down suddenly with a thump, his knees having apparently decided they were even less keen on the way this conversation was going than the rest of him.

“It’s okay, Mark,” said Antonio, coaxingly. “Jared monitors all the hosts, twenty-four-seven. It wasn’t just you.”

When Mark finally found his voice, it was quite a lot shriller than usual. “That’s supposed to make me feel better?”

Antonio thought about it, reaching for Mark’s backpack, which had fallen off his shoulder as they’d scrambled inside the door. “I mean, yeah, it was, but I guess I can see why it doesn’t. Jared, hey, uh… I know this is kind of a big ask, but…”

Popping the inner zip, he upended the backpack over the nearest free desk. With a slithering scuffle of plastic wrappers, a small landslide of bright packages and baggies slid and tumbled over each other into a rough pile on the dusty melamine surface.

“We need a way out.”

Jared’s eyes gleamed. A long slender thing, like a steely finger with far too many joints, snickered indistinctly past Mark’s ear and pinned one of the little packets (a crowded graphic-design abomination, featuring sugegasa-wearing cows somersaulting cheerfully through flames), whipping it up into the shadows.

“Buddy, just call me Healthy Community, because I have got you COVERED.”

–-

Where there was a will- and an entire bodega rack’s worth of premium dried beef products- it turned out there was a way.

Jared called them dead zones. The cameras covered almost everywhere within the HR Department, Jared’s endless ranks of shiny black eyes, in corners, in ceilings, down blind alleys and empty rooms and well-trodden corridors, but with care and a little assistance to even out the odds, a path could be walked between them. The places between were cramped and confusing and nearly as difficult to travel as they would have been to find without Jared’s help. They were not the safest places, even within this hungry, malignant landscape, and they certainly weren’t the easiest to explain.

Here was a well of dank air, some fifty feet across, stirred in a slow, endless spiral by the movement of some enormous fan or turbine, deep enough below that it was far out of sight of any travellers along the narrow path that spanned it, a clanking catwalk of green steel. Condensation dripped from the pale heights, made the metal slimy underfoot.

Mark managed a couple of wobbly steps out over the void, then slid to his knees against the spindly safety rail, a sad arrangement of metal rods and chickenwire which overall came off as less of a barrier than a polite suggestion. Antonio, following with a surer step, resisted the urge to hook a fistful of the back of his sweater, just in case. He didn’t think Mark was likely to actually pitch himself over the railing, but he did appreciate that the last twenty or so minutes had been quite a lot for any human to handle.

“Hang in there, Mark,” he said, brightly. His voice echoed, a thin distant relay pattering back to them through the slow whirlpool of air. “Not much further.”

Mark forced his hands wordlessly through his hair, found a squashed fragment of delicate orange wing stuck somewhere over his ear, and flicked it away from him in disgust.

“Uh, yeah, sorry about the butterflies,” said Antonio. “Honestly, they’re usually pretty chill, I’ve never seen them just go for the eyes like that.”

Words weren’t evading Mark, but the ability to put more than two of them next to each other in a coherent sentence seemed to be. “That- the- why-” A struggle. “Why a horse??”

“It’s just a horse, Mark,” said Antonio, testing the railing before leaning his elbows on it, like a casual sightseer above Niagara Falls.

Mark clearly felt this wasn’t enough information. He made another struggle with his hands, shaping a sort of invisible sculpture on the theme of horror, bewilderment, and indignation, a shape that cut off sharply in the middle, and then squeezed both palms into his eyesockets, speaking indistinctly through his fingers.

“Just a- just- where’s the rest of it??”

“Do you think that’s really an important question right now?” asked Antonio. He meant it as a reasonable, honest query, but Mark only fixed him with a baleful eye through the gap in his hands, and said nothing.

They moved on. Through the empty hallways, through Jared’s dead zones, through a scorched and blackened sector where quite a mess had been made and the cameras still hung obliterated from the walls, Mark stayed silent. To Antonio, there was something puzzling- increasingly worrying- about this measured silence, and he didn’t think it was just the influence of his own quietly screaming nerves. He was good at reading Mark, even when he was at his most impenetrable, and he recognised this feeling of grim, plodding pertinacity that was coming off him in waves. This was Mark doing something he didn’t want to do- something he knew had no good object, no good ending- something he knew had to be done, regardless. He might as well have been making a video reading hate-comments, or cutting up raw liver, or any other uncongenial, unrewarding task demanded of him by the Muse. He looked as sullen and morose as ever, trailing along after Antonio as they travelled slowly through the safer zones of the HR Department. The nearest he got to an energetic reaction to anything on their long walk was a slight flinch and glance back as they heard the dogs pass distantly down a blind turning, the heavy patter of claws, the hungry, cheated howls.

Finally, the Long Egress. Jared had explained, in the vague way in which Jared tended to explain anything, that this seemingly endless grey concrete tunnel had been put in place as a sort of evacuation line, a last-ditch way back to the outside world. Walking it, Antonio wondered if the original architect might have planned on using it themselves, since it was quite clear that nobody else ever had. Whoever had designed the vast building that housed HR, if they had been human, it was a fairly safe assumption to make that they hadn’t done it entirely of their own free will.

It’s best to avoid asking questions or looking at things you aren’t authorised to see.

The bulkhead lights set into the walls every hundred yards or so created pale dim pools of light like so many oases, leading them from one to the next, all the way down the long last straight. Down here, even the lights were caged.

It’s all in my head, and I shouldn’t worry about it.

Antonio felt that they had been walking for years by the time they reached the end. His shoes had run out of moisture and left no prints on the scratchy poured concrete. Every step he took felt leaden, a further pull away from something dragging gently at him, something hooked into his heart-roots, difficult to ignore. They had been walking in silence, the only sounds the scrape and echo of their steps, the thick electric hum of the lights, a quieter low static buzz that seemed to live in the walls, and Mark’s difficult breathing and occasional hitching cough. Antonio didn’t mind these noises, as it made it easy for him to know that Mark was still behind him.

No ceremony, no fanfare, just a flat final wall that grew slowly from a pale dot to a short grey oblong as they walked towards it, a last pool of light, the long hallway terminating in a single pale grey door. Someone with a sense of humour had screwed a sign to it, an ordinary industrial yellow-and-black safety sign that read DANGER – KEEP OUT. Someone else had scrawled underneath; IT’S SCARY OUT THERE.

Antonio put a hand on the door, which had a thick push-bar, wreathed in old cobwebs and cranky with disuse. He looked back, and saw that Mark had stopped a little way back along the hallway and was just standing there in the last-but-one pool of light, looking at him.

“Mark? This is it, buddy, come on.”

Mark coughed, wiped his mouth on his sleeve, and didn’t move.

“Mark?” Antonio stepped away from the door. As he moved towards Mark, Mark stepped back, mirroring him. He put a hand to the strap of his backpack, gripping it like a rosary, and suddenly Antonio felt a cold and eerie twinge of deja vu, of a week ago, of standing in the soft-lit hallway with Be Joyful Always, Pray Continually over his head as Mark begged him in a quiet, frantic monotone, pleaded, promised anything for his freedom.

I've done everything you've asked. You can have my channel, my house... just let me go.

Just now, it looked as if nothing could have been further from Mark’s mind.

“You must think I’m pretty fucking stupid,” he said.

Antonio stopped. The bug in his middle, which had been quiet for a time, stirred restlessly as he looked across the distance between them into Mark’s sharp, careworn face.

“So what is it?” Mark put out a hand and rested it against the concrete wall, either to take some of his weight or to reassure himself it was there. The flat light cast stark double-shadows, Antonio’s own falling across the door at his back and stretching down the hallway towards Mark, Mark’s slanting away as if it was shrinking from his. “What’s the trick? Because this whole ‘super secret escape’ thing is getting really old now. Maybe I’d have fallen for it when I was five but if you think I believe you’re just going to let me walk out of here, that sludge in your head must be way past expiry.”

“Mark, you have to trust me,” said Antonio. “I’m- I’m just trying to help you.”

Mark blinked a couple of times, grinned at him, in the same way skulls grinned, nothing behind it but a vacant stretch of teeth. Whether Antonio had struck a nerve, or Mark had just reached some internal breaking point, he dropped his hand from the wall and started walking forwards.

“Trust you. Trust you? You, and that- that thing in my basement- my muse-”

The sheer amount of pure spitting venom he managed to inject into one syllable was astonishing.

“-you’re the same. You’re the same thing, you’re just a- a part of that fucking blob that can walk around and look like a person. I knew that as soon as you first showed up- you think I’m going to trust you now?” He stopped, almost face to face with Antonio, his fear and aversion and bitter anger struggling with each other in his face, his hands curled around his backpack in front of him as if it was a shield.

“Mark, I- I’ve felt- I’ve been-”

Now it was Antonio’s turn to struggle. His chest was crawling, the heat in his face and hands rising, the difficulty squirming under his skin pushing him not to shut Mark up or stop him being a problem but to explain, to try to dispel the terrible disdain in Mark’s eyes. He stumbled on, aware his voice sounded choked and strange, terribly afraid to keep going but far, far more afraid to stop.

“When you were gone, I… I started to feel... different. I’ve been feeling... really weird. Mark, I have… thoughts that don’t make sense- sometimes I don’t want things to happen even though I know I should, I don’t want to do things I know I have to do- I think there’s something wrong with me. No, I- I know there is.” He held out his hands, open, pleading. “I don’t know what happened, but I- I know somehow, it started because of you.”

He swallowed.

“I’m different, I’m different to how I was, because of you. And I want to- I want to be a good friend, Mark. I’m doing this because I… I want to help you.”

“Bullshit,” said Mark.

Oh, it felt cold, it felt freezing cold in his guts and it hurt, and maybe this was how come humans could hurt each other so easily, that Mark could take every honest, vulnerable word he’d pulled painstakingly out of the core of him, these fragile little things ripped out of their shell new and raw and utterly defenceless, and hurl them so easily right back in his face. Antonio felt them start to shrivel and die in the chasm between them, but he kept quiet and just looked at Mark, who was knotting his fists in the fabric of his backpack, his jaw set hard, mouth slightly open, eyes hot and full of contempt.

“Mark,” he tried, “please, you have to-“

“No, I don’t. I actually fucking don’t, I don’t have to do anything. I don’t have to believe a single word you say. I listened to you for a year. I let you manipulate me, I danced like your fucking puppet, I did everything you wanted, for a year. I let-” He bit the word off.

“Mark, I haven’t even known you for a y-“

“Shut up,” said Mark, his voice deadly and as flat as the lights. “You can’t hurt me anymore. Not with my- my mom, not with-” He stopped himself again, his mouth working. “There’s nothing left, the only thing you have on me is this- this shit inside of me, this-” He let the pack dangle to the bruised fold of his elbow and held out his arms, wordless, the flat bulkhead light ghastly on his darkened veins, the black splatters of the dog’s blood and his own still staining the front of his ruined sweater. “This- this infection, this mold, I- I can feel it, I hear it in my head-” He shuddered, furiously, helplessly. “If- if you wanted to help me you’d get rid of it but you won’t, you won’t because the only thing you want is to keep me, keep stringing me along for whatever sick fucking plan-”

“Okay, but I’d need to touch you.”

“-shut up- whatever sick- whatever-” Mark seemed to hit a kind of a glitch, sticking like a scratched-up record and stopping in place. He blinked a little volley of dazed blinks, a rapid-fire Morse code message of utter confusion. “What?”

“Here,” said Antonio, holding out his hands. “I think I can do it, at least I can try. It’s just, you told me not to touch you.”

Mark stared at him in disbelief, his hands falling to his sides. He looked poleaxed. The backpack slipped gently down his arm, dropping to the ground at his feet, but he made no sign he even noticed.

“And you listened??”

For the first time, Antonio saw with stark clarity the shape of himself as he must have appeared to Mark through the past almost-year. A looming shadow, a threatening, suffocating, hounding, malicious, grinning thing that never rested and never relented, if the deal Mark had made with his Muse was a poisoned spring, Antonio had been the hand forcing him under the rank surface, forcing him to drink until he drowned.

Months too late, without words to even form the idea, he was desperately sorry. The thing in his chest- bug, alien, sickness or mistake- it was his, his guilt, his to fight and deny or accept, and for once, the choice was his own.

“I know I don’t have any right to ask you to trust me.” He kept holding out his hands, palms up, looking into Mark’s face where incredulity was fighting a pitched battle with something else, something Antonio wasn’t sure he’d ever seen there before.

“Please, Mark,” he said, quietly. “Just let me try.”

The lights hummed, the walls buzzed. Mark stood still in silence for so long that Antonio started to wonder if he’d frozen again, but at last he started to move. There was no great change in his expression, no lessening of the fear in his eyes or the clear mistrust in the thin downwards line of his mouth. As he moved, it seemed to be in spite of himself than out of any thinking, reasoning decision.

Slowly, without looking away from Antonio’s face, Mark lifted his hand and reached out.

#muse arg #dftm #don't feed the muse #mark mayhew #antonio geist #alex bale #jared the IT guy #my writing #the cynical critic #this part kicked my ass

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matoitech · 6 months

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i rly do feel like a lot of trans ppl worry waaaay more about how ‘clockable’ stuff like their scars r than is actually like realistic. obviously no one wants to experience violence or have any interactions with transvestigator freaks or be badgered for personal information but i think we get rly used to seeing stuff and understanding what it likely means or represents in our own community and then thinking random cis people know what a rff scar is, and they just don’t. even plenty of other trans ppl don’t recognize stuff like that. how closely are YOU scrutinizing strangers in walmart? there’s not rly as big a reason as u worry about for it to be a MAJOR fear bcuz since the dawn of the internet trans ppl have been worried that more visibility is going to lead to more strangers guessing abt ur personal history but irl cis people tend to be fucking morons who talk big game about how easy it is to recognize the transgenders but obviously they’re actually clueless transphobes. and i’m not saying this to make fun of or put down other trans ppl bcuz fear of transphobia or ppl making assumptions abt ur personal information is legitimate and normal to not want to experience, i just do think sometimes it’s good to point out that while a lot of it is based in fear of bigotry or u being comfortable being stealth being suddenly uprooted, and that’s fair, it’s not necessarily reflective of the reality ur probably going to experience, regardless of what u look like there r certain things that ppl worry about but it’s just very unlikely for ppl to actually recognize them as a ‘trans thing’ (esp when the scars have more explanations than being trans surgery related even if ppl did know). i feel like when u understand that trans ppl have been having the ‘but what if more pictures and art and discussion makes it more likely for ppl to know my business-‘ since the internet kicked into gear and probably even before then, it might help u feel better. like it’s been a fear since forever and it hasn’t rly happened yet even with ppl who dedicate their whole pathetic lives to scrutinizing and hating trans people

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most annoying thing for me about Hopes Claude is the like. narrative confusion surrounding him. ohhh look at him killing innocent people for his greater good, siding with Gardy Wardy, killing Rhea and destroying the Central Church, vying for an expansion of his territory/influence, isn't that interesting since that's so different from what did in 3H? except no because he literally doesn't like. grow at all. if anything he outright degenerates as a character, but it's like the narrative isn't even sure if it wants to acknowledge that's happening. how am i supposed to give a shit about Hopes Claude if the game isn't even completely sure what it wants to do with him or how it wants to portray him lmao

3H Claude had his writing flaws sure but his overall consistency makes him waaaay better than Hopes Claude could ever hope (lol) to be

Yeah, I got that feel from it as well. I’m not surprised though because they did that with CF too. They wrote Edelgard a certain way, couldn’t commit to it and it came out feeling like a half-hearted attempt. They keep trying to use the concept that TWS are the main villains, but there can be more than one villain/villain group. As it is the narrative constantly pushes that Rhea and co are evil and it’s sad how many people in the fandom take that and run with it even though we’re always shown otherwise.

I feel like CF and GW both suffered from the fact that so, so many people do not think for themselves when it comes to what we’re told outright. People hear a narrative, regardless of whether or not it’s accurate, and immediately believe what’s being said without considering the other side of things. This is true irl all the time. People don’t often contest what’s told to them and say what they’ve seen otherwise with their own eyes. Since the game pushes the idea that Rhea is suspicious through Jeralt as early as WC (so even before Edelgard’s reveal as the Flame Emperor), people immediately believed that and when Edelgard and Claude were also suspicious of her, people assumed it had to be true.

Unfortunately this is a case of majority mentality, where when people hear about something that most people believe, they assume it must be correct when that’s not always the case. GW also goes through that, where it pushes the idea that Claude is doing a righteous thing for Fodlan and trying to do good by everyone. Ironically, this mob mentality that people have is exactly the kind of thing Edelgard hates, and yet her stans will just take anything she says at face value simply because it’s her who said it. It’s a case of not caring what the other side’s story is and just saying “this is the person I like more so I’m going to side with them and believe what they say” even when there’s either no proof or the facts are proving themselves to be the opposite of the belief.

It’s like if you said “why do you believe this” and someone said “I don’t know/I have no idea what the truth is but I believe this side more, even though I don’t have any idea why or any proof to take a side”. They’re just taking the side that either benefits their mentality more or they’re siding based on their own feelings, truth be damned.

Sadly GW and CF follow this pattern within the fandom. CF also does in game, but GW at least has many characters who aren’t on board with Claude’s behavior or plans. The game is trying to tell us that what he’s doing isn’t okay, but at the same time it’s pushing the idea that it’s “for a good cause”. Anyone can say anything they do is “for a good cause” whether it is or not. Someone could kill a person for their money and say “I have kids I have to feed so I killed this rich person for my children, and I’m going to donate tons of the money to homeless kids. It’s for a good cause”. Is it though, when you murdered an innocent person just because they had money when they did nothing wrong? GW has a lot of that attitude, where they treat invasion like it’s Just Okay because Claude Only Wants To Talk (with weapons in hand???), and since Rhea is The Cause of Everything, they can excuse killing any number of Faerghus’ people if it means getting to her to kill her.

The worst part of it is that a lot of people just agree with his idea of killing Rhea, so what he does to reach that goal often doesn’t matter to people. Since so many people hate Rhea in the fandom, they cheer him on at the idea of him killing her and want him to, but to get to that point he’s killing hundreds if not thousands more people just to kill one person who he personally deemed not good for Fodlan (which really is none of his business ngl. He lived outside of Fodlan his whole life and all of a sudden walks in and two years later decides he knows what’s best for Fodlan and decides who has to die and who gets to live? Erwin Was Right and that’s really all you need to know to understand that Houses Claude would never have done all that lol. Also, Houses Claude not only didn’t do that but he knew Fodlan a lot longer by the end of VW).

I’m pretty sure you’re not supposed to look at GW and be like “wow, Claude is doing so many good things!”.

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Hope I'm not asking too many, but 🦙, 🌻, 🕰️?

Thanks for the ask :D

🦙 (llama) give us a list of your favourite Minecraft mobs! Why are these ones specifically Your Little Guys? Ironically, love the Llamas but thats probably because I love llamas irl as well. Love how we can put little carpets on them and dress them up and make them into the most fancy of lads! Wish we could dress other mobs like that. Axolotls, again same reason I love them irl as well and I have a small collection of build-a-bear lotties! Warden, big, strong, husband material. He's soooooo mysterious and can kill me by screaming Very Loud which 10/10 would die again. I will forever mourn the loss of the glare. I miss him every day. OH and I actually like the Wandering Trader. He's my buddy, he's my pal, I made him my husband in one world, worst trades on the Overworld.

🌻(sunflower) what are your favourite biomes? Furthermore which biome feels most like home to you (might not even be your fave!). If you could add new biomes to the game what would they be?

OOOOOh. Okay so-

Flower Forests - Theres flowers, there's forest, there's cute bunnies, and it's super super pretty

Meadow - once again, flowers everywhere but meadows just have this detatched feeling seperate from all other biomes thats just so isolating and makes you really think about how vast everything is

Warped Forest - blue/turquoise mushroom trees go brrrrrr

Lush Caves - there's literally magic in these caves I swear to god

Giant Tree Taiga - a new entry but I've really been appreciating spruce lately

Biomes that most feel like home to me are dark oak forests (first ever minecraft world, my little cobblestone shack was in a tiny pond in the middle of the forest) and swamps (mine and my brother's bases are set in a swamp and the amount of time I've spent there is A Lot).

Biomes I would add-

Ice Caves- just c'mon Ice Caves would fuck hard. We have dripstone all you'd need to do is make it look like ice and slap some ice in a cave and be like boom ice cave

Lush Forest - azalea forests that spawn with moss and clay like a surface lush cave almost

Rose/Peony/Lilac Plains - sunflower plains exist why not these?

Mega Deep Ocean - give us fucked up sea life!!! I want the horrors!!!

Crystal Caves - give us some different geodes!!! give me shiny rocks I wish to Eat Them.

🕰 (clock) what version of Minecraft do you remember playing first? What has been your favourite update? If you could make an update what would it be?

I first played uhhhh 1.13 I think it was? Update Aquatic since bedrock was my first chance to own the game on my own console/device since I had to share the old pc we had with my brother. But I remember me and my brother having game night when I'd sit at the desk waaaay back with Alpha when he used to play.

My favourite update is defo Nether Update. A common answer and pretty basic but I am gentle hold the Piglins and the amount of blocks added was astounding! 1.18 is a close second but I miss the old generation a lot more than I enjoy the new sometimes. I fuckin love the caves though!

As for an update hmmm... I'd either love to do an End Update or a Second Update That Changes the World which would update old biomes and add some new interesting ones... like more cave biomes... please Mojang... more cave biomes. I like the three we have but please........... m o r e. Imagine: ice caves, fungal caves, crystal caves, volcanic caves, better mineshafts, proper ocean caves...... imagine the possibilities!!!

#asks #shellsbellslove #long post

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whentherewerebicycles · 2 years

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ok @puckluckie suggested this arrangement and I like that better!! still doesn’t feel complete though so I’m also going to experiment with:

@reveriesofe’s suggestion of playing around with moving some of them up or down to create more of a diamond shape than a rectangle

@greens-your-color’s suggestion of standardizing the frame colors (the issue is that IRL some of the art just looks waaaay better in a white frame than a black frame but maybe I can either get over it or swap out those prints

@dreamsinvenus’s suggestion of maybe incorporating round shapes (though figuring out how to manage another element might defeat me ahaha). I was thinking that shallow floating shelves with small objects or plants on them (like I had in my last place) could be another way to break up the rectangular/grid feel without having to acquire round objects but tbd!! target has a bunch of round woven art things—maybe I could find something I liked in that style somewhere? that would also introduce some texture which might be nice.

I think my main house goals for today are:

listen to these articulate trainings while working on house stuff

prime the dayroom walls

maybe paint two of the upstairs walls in the new color I just acquired

lay out or sketch out the gallery wall trying the new things above

maybe do some Etsy hunting and Pinterest browsing for inspiration

move cabinet to office

#always accepting gallery wall design suggestions btw keep ‘em coming #i have a 30 min meeting at 9:30 and have to give quick feedback on a document but otherwise am on my own today for work #hmm i think my plan will be #7-8 prime walls #8-9 shower get ready browse Pinterest #9-9:30 comments on doc #9:30-10 coaching mtg #10-12 paint dayroom walls #while listening to trainings #and maybe paint stairwell wall though I’m afraid of falling down the stairs might wait for my mom to arrive to spot me#then tbd

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i've started a little series of weekly posts documenting every MoC i made (digitally) over the last few years:

week 2: 2018

my first post on reddit, an effort to document irl MoCs, testing a new renderer, Minecraft cusoo, Lego Movies and Overwatch (ew)

i was obsessed with monocycles as a 17 year old. i made these two specifically to post on my then new reddit account and a lot of the comments under that post were referencing some south park episode. this made me way too upset, because i loathed that show (pretty reasonable, i'd say).

i still kinda like this build even though the wheel doesn't turn, which is like, the main thing that a good wheel should be able to do.

here we've got my oldest ever MoC, a red sewing machine using only three parts, that i made when i was like, four or five.

then there's some micro space ships, including a Bird of Prey and the enterprise.

the last few are semi-minifigure scale, even the ccbs MoC. the last one is still probably one of my favourite MoCs i've made so far. i also like the photo i took of it.

i took these photos with my dslr to document all the Irl MoCs i had on reddit. i think i posted them weekly (kinda like this series).

i think some of the photos look really nice, but a lot of them just don't work.

Stud.io updated their renderer to look more realistic at that time, so i decided to test it by rendering and photgraphing the Cusoo Minecraft Set that i had just bought on amazon. we'll revisit this idea in a later week, where i've tested rendering Lego in Blender

by the way, never buy dicontinued Lego sets on amazon; i payed waaaay to much for this one, especially compared to the prize i would've payed on bricklink.

that Minecraft set inspired me to try out the building style. i still kinda like the way it turned out and we'll see a lot more of this, especially more block-accurate MoCs, in a later week.

the Lego Batman Movie came out around this time and i, being a Doctor who fan, just had to re-make the "british Robots" that appeared in that movie.

this was the first of my MoCs that i made instructions for and i published those to the Bricklink Stud.io Gallery, but it was later deleted becasue it was technically not My own Creation. oh well.

the trailer for The Lego Movie 2 came out later in the year in the year and Apocalypseburg inspired me to build something based on the architecture statue of liberty.

i like both of these almost equally. i think the first one better conveys the look of stacked up containers, but the second one envelopes the statue in a way more convincing way.

i don't really like this Roblox spider.

Lego Overwatch came out around that time, which was really big, because it was the first Theme based on a Video Game after the Minecraft Theme from 2014 (that one doesn't really count though, because it was pretty much inevitable)

i almost immeadly bought the omnic bastion that was exclusive to the Blizzard shop, even though i couldn't care less about Overwatch, because the set was a really cool exclusive that i just needed to have.

i then digitally rebuilt the set and began modding it to have variants based on some of the different skins that were available for Bastion.

2019's going to be a lot, maybe i'll split it into two weeks.

Week 1 next week

#lego moc #lego #lego photography #lego minecraft #lego overwatch #lego batman movie #doctor who #lego movie 2

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mci-writing · 4 years

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What you write for Mineta? Like a more mature, but still Mineta version? Or just as he is now? *titanic meme but about grape boy smut and hcs*

Yes, I would, both over the extreme kinky Mineta and a more mature and respectful Mineta.

#people actually thirst after him and it's not right to just exclude them from fandom #like I get you may not like him but it's not fair #most people tolerate Kaminari bc he looks better aethestically #and there are waaaay worse anime characters that are loved #plus Mineta is an overdramatised self insert anyway #mci answers asks #Ik people in rl worse than Mineta #most of you probably think dirtier than Mineta #plus his reasoning for wanting to be a hero is a little more accurate to what a good portion of people's would be irl

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refrigerator-art · 7 years

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Heeeey, I'm Kacea and I like taking selfies from the same angle and drawing with color pencils once a year lol #drawingwhileblack

#drawingwhileblack #black artists #prismacolour pencils #my face bleghrgkdl lmao #this seemed like a really cool movement to be apart of #and a good excuse to repost some of my color pencil work #lol snapchat filters are so generous #😂😂😂 i look waaaay better in pics than i do irl

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darkpoisonouslove · 3 years

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Would Valtor get along with any of the specialists?

Probably not. But let's break this down.

Sky: I think it's pretty safe to bet that Sky would be the Specialist Valtor despises the most. He's the typical royalty that has zero clue what to actually do with all the power that's been handed to him. Not to mention that he won't vibe with Sky's attitude towards dark magic users and I can also see him hating Sky simply because he's from Eraklyon. The fact that Sky is the prince of Eraklyon... kind of makes it impossible for Valtor to ever consider him anything but an unfortunate incident of nature. Sky would be amping up the self-righteousness around Valtor and he'd also be willing to fight him for what Valtor did to Bloom's planet (even if none of the events of s3 transpired).

Brandon: I have a feeling that Valtor might be a bit of a snob when it comes to Brandon. He'd take him for a dumb jock at first and even if he gets over that impression, he would never see Brandon as an equal even if you consider that both of them are warriors. While Brandon can hold his own in a fight, Valtor would still look down on him because he doesn't have magic (which would be a general problem in his relations with the Specialists). And Brandon would have a major problem with Valtor's treatment of people so I don't see them getting along.

Riven: I feel like Riven and Valtor are waaaay too similar to ever get along. They both have something to prove and anger management issues that would make any conversation between them devolve into a fight pretty quickly. Valtor would probably view Riven as an angsty dumbass that thinks he's the shit when, in fact, all he has is a vile temper and a big mouth. Riven, in turn, would despise Valtor as yet another person that thinks he's better than him just because of a "higher status" (aka Valtor's claim to be the most powerful wizard in the universe). I can't see them acknowledging the more reasonable and strategic side of the other simply because they are stubborn assholes.

Timmy: Valtor would totally think that Timmy is too much of a nerd who'll only get in the way. Even if Timmy proves himself, I can never see Valtor recognizing him as someone who is capable in any irl activities. I can actually see him purposefully speaking over Timmy in order to provoke him and see if Timmy can stand up for himself. Anything he might learn from Timmy, he quickly discards as technological knowledge that can't hold a candle to his vast pool of magical knowledge. Timmy would be really pissed at not being listened to and having his skills being devalued so he'll just back off and communicate with the people that appreciate him.

Helia: Hmm... Maybe if you could get them to actually talk which I don't think would happen. Each of them would be too absorbed in their own thing (art and magic respectively) to pay attention to the other enough to get past the surface level impressions. I can't see Helia vibing with Valtor's aggressiveness and his pursuit of power that is nothing more than a great, big show of ego. Valtor would consider Helia a dull idealist that is scared to get his hands dirty to achieve the world of his ideals and that is why he hides in his art.

Nabu: Nabu might come the closest to being recognized as an equal by Valtor (which would then breed a whole new problem aka a competition between them for who's truly the better wizard) but that wouldn't quite happen. Valtor is firmly set on the fact that no one can rival him (except maybe Bloom's parents and that's a big maybe) despite some similarities he might share with Nabu (prideful, willing to act on his impulses). Nabu has a sense of social consciousness and compassion for others that Valtor is lacking and that would stand in the way of getting along with Valtor.

In short: Valtor can't stand the Specialists because they are magicless brats and the Specialists can't stand him because he doesn't value life.

#winx club #winx valtor #winx sky #winx brandon #winx riven #winx timmy #winx helia #winx nabu #ask #enchantlex #winx headcanons

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antiloreolympus · 3 years

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10 Anti LO Asks

1. The trial happening right now bothers me because we get to see how Thanatos and Echo reacted to this, but Demeter and Persphone don’t know and I know why they don’t know yet. However you think that would tie some more stuff up together

It was Minthe, Thanatos and Thetis who whistle blew on Persphone. Meaning Thanatos would probably be called to trial and would have to face persphone and I would hope say something to her BUT I kinda doubt that’s gonna happen.

But the other thing to this Minthe is a plant who can’t testify. Are hades and Persphone hide the fact she’s a plant and pretend she’s missing or are they gonna say “yeah I still don’t have control over my powers but I’m queen now” HOWEVER I truly believe RS is just gonna not address these two plot points until way later.

FINALLY Eros and Psyche KNOW the last person Daphne was seen with was Apollo, did they chase after her after he got shot by the arrow? We don’t know. We don’t even know what they’re doing about Psyche. Did Eros and Psyche even see the Daphne tree? Are they going to try and sneak in to tell Persphone?

I know the plots gonna focus more on HxP secret marriage at the court trial rather than the actual consequences and the fact people are turning into greenery left and right. (It’s not Persohones Faullt Daphne is the way she is but RS needs to focus on other plot points I feel)

2. like, age gaps, height differences, and power imbalances dont always have to be bad, the issue to me is that the way rachel does it is hyper-focusing on how young, small, and child-like/unexperienced persephone is compared to the old, giant, and all powerful/mature hades is like ... yeah obvs people are going to find it creepy? how would they not?

3. i honestly cant stand the "theyre immortal gods the age gap doesnt matter!!" agreement because like??? ok??? then she could easily be 300 years old then? she shouldnt be so borderline underage then?? like the immortality aspect actually makes the age gap worse, not better??

4. i realize getting nitpicky over unimportant characters in lo having american names is a bit dumb, but it does speak to just how lazy rachel is and how little care she has for greece and its mythology. there are countless english names that are also greek, yet even that's asking too much of her. percy jackson isnt a perfect series, but even the characters (who are in america) have greek influence and meanings put into their names and characterization, something rachel doesn't even attempt to do.

5. ok but thats a good point, because rachel seems to be taking physical wounds to matter more over the mental ones, when thats not how trauma works. her writing on zeus is reflective of her writing minthe, where she confirmed she has a severe untreated mental illness and that's linked to her evilness, and thus what she should be punished for. meanwhile persephone own mental issues can be bastardized as a "yass queen" thing?? somehow?? its just bad writing all around.

6. i kinda wish lo fans would listen to their own logic and give the same leeway to the other characters. theyll scream from the rooftops that hades and persephone and hera can be awful people all they want because thats ~realistic~, meanwhile minthe and zeus and everyone else are held to such extremes they can never meet and are hated and despised for nothing in compared to hxp or hera. either hold your faves accountable or let off on hating characters who do the same as them.

7. i see a lot of lo fans excuse how everything drags as "thats how a slow burn works" and its like ... no? because most of that slow burn isnt even hxp, its rachel forcing in more plots we dont need, and when its hxp, you look at the timeline and how they act and its actually neck-breakingly fast? like if as much time had past in LO as irl time then yeah, four years is a slow burn, but its only been maybe a month in comic? so its not slow for them at all, but it's a drag for the readers.

8. See, the difference between Lo!Hades and Punderworld!Hades is that PW!Hades has so much personality, he and Persephone are literally bustling with life (even though one of them rules over a realm of dead XD) AND their interactions are so cute with their awkward attempts at flirting and failure at doing so. Persephone is still somewhat sweet and “pure” but she’s also a bit of a spitfire, she’s not easy to surrender, she has wants and dreams and that little differences makes her character likable!

We NEVER get to see anything like that with LO!Hades and Persephone, we don’t see them have these sweet interactions, these heart-fluttering moments, because there’s no base or foundation for those sorts of moments! It’s always these very out-of-character unrealistic scenes expected from a married couple, but they just met! It doesn’t feel natural, it feels forced and rushed and so slow at the same time.

Although Punderworld makes Demeter overbearing, i love her characterization i really do, waAAAY more than LO!Demeter, because we actually understand her reasons for her overprotective behavior and we get to see her in a more sympathetic light/manner in the newer chapters, we see her as more than “mean mom hates bf”

9. Daphne and Thanatos were adorable. Like, Daphne was a sweet, caring girl with genuine interest (and power/agency) and Thanatos was a shy, awkward guy who was just doing his best (and not pressuring her). They weren't perfect, but it was something! Why couldn't LO be about them?

10. What I find funny is that Minthe and Thetis have a more defined friendship than Persphone and other female characters.

Minthe and Thetis ARE TOXIC don’t get me wrong but both characters are aware of each other’s motives. Minthe knows not to trust Thetis fully and is straight with her on her opinion of Thetis. But the readers clearly know their relationship as well as the characters.

Persphone is in gray areas with most her female friends. The beginning of the story we are lead to believe Artemis and P are besties with the dress sharing and the way in P’s mind they’re holding hands with Hermès. But clearly now their relationship is a question mark and they’re both more detached than we thought. Artemis was just being nice to P letting her stay with her because they’re both in the TOGeM but they’re probably more like acquaintes at best.

Daphne and P we know they’re friends but P isn’t straight with her. Like Daphne is P’s only named friend, but did P think of her as the other overbearing nymphs? We don’t know because they’re all pink and some of them are dead. Despite being told they grew up together we don’t even know much about their relationship what do they like about each other? Does Daphne agree with Demeters parenting or P’s need to leave? When did Daphne get to move to Olympus? I feel like the plot just says “these two characters are friends “ but doesn’t elaborate much. Why did P let Daphne in her room at Hades mansion and not the other nymphs? P told Daphne that Apollo is dangerous, but it was a little too late. Also why didn’t P have her phone number when she got to Olympus? Wouldn’t she know to contact her on insta or something? P was like “omg I know no one except Hermès “ but that’s not true! Daphne! I could go more but I think we get the picture that Daphne’s plot point is having the readers be told Persphone has friends but she doesn’t but she does.

Were shown that P and Meg are getting along because P was nice to Meg, despite Meg being silently jealous of P, but what about Meg now? Is she ever gonna tell P that she’s jealous of P that she had a mad crush on Hades, even her journal? Or is that all gone now? Does Meg even matter any more or is she now here just to support HXP?

#anti lo #anti lore olympus #lore olympus critical #lo critical

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softgrungeprophet · 2 years

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the batman (and riddler) thoughts

most of my criticisms of the batman def come as criticisms of superhero and action media as a whole ie

evil mental illness, “not ALL cops are evil see?” etc. (tho ofc both of these are baked into batman as a property in a way that is probably actually the genesis of a lot of these tropes in superhero media as a whole, considering the longevity of the character)

but like okay

i found aspects of the riddler to be—to me—very obviously tied to like... american trends of mass violence as perpetrated by usually white dudes who feel wronged by the world and thus, shoot up a school or invade a building of people or whatever. i was thinking about the way he so clearly fit into that role for most of the movie and how obvious it felt to me the whole time i was in the theater. so like to ME personally the ending with the attempted massacre didn’t feel out of left field because for *me* the entire time i was viewing him specifically through the lens of american mass shootings and domestic terrorism as enacted on the small scale by hyper-privileged white men who will literally kill anyone who doesn’t cater directly to their wants and needs

but then! the mask came off and I found myself intensely frustrated by the way they turned this around. the severely obvious autisticly homoerotic coding that is so rampant in media for very specific kinds of obsessive villains, and the weird attempt at a sympathetic backstory—those just didn’t click for me and made me uncomfortable because they didn’t feel like they fit the MO that was actually displayed on-screen, which felt very heavily influenced by certain kinds of far-right online groups, IRL streamings of mass shootings, etc. like i don’t think that can be uncoupled from the depiction because to me as an american it felt extremely deliberate and very clear, but then again everyone is going to have different interpretations so i can’t say this is the correct way to view it, just the way i viewed it and thus the way it influenced my reading of the movie as a whole

like, to me, selina’s stuff felt like it fit pretty well. her struggles specifically, and her hatreds and personal motivations, and the way she and bruce responded to each other in ways obviously informed by their very different socioeconomic backgrounds, and her response when bruce has like zero empathy for her roommate, like that all made sense and fit with this story of this dude whose life does suck in a lot of ways but when compared to her life and her friends’ lives obviously he has waaaay more privilege and is still in the process of learning empathy and learning that other people matter (like alfred) so like THAT stuff worked for me. bruce realizing, oh, i should care about people, and selina trying to give him the hard truth that it sucks that he lost his parents but he had it fucking easy compared to most people in the world. THAT worked for me especially as i’m not looking for a hero who is inherently some paragon of virtue ordained by fate to be a perfect good-hearted soul. like fuck that, yeah he’s an idiot and an asshole sometimes but that doesn’t mean he shouldn’t learn to do and be better.

but the stuff with the riddler felt like a really clumsy attempt to kind of emphasize that role of privilege and socioeconomics (and mental illness) but pasted onto the kind of person who is almost always privileged above their peers socioeconomically or emotionally, who is often catered to, and who feels it’s their right to make choices about the rest of the world, and that other people deserve whatever they get—like he absolutely does feel like he’s meant to be a direct mirror of what bruce could be, of that “she had it coming” attitude, but i don’t think that the poor crazy orphan bit really supports that in a way that feels genuine or interesting to me personally especially because of the way i read him and thus the way shooters and far right trolls were embedded contextually in my mind the entire time i was watching the movie. the way those kinds of people are treated by society at large—which is to often be given a pass that other people (especially black and brown, or mentally ill or disabled people) do not get. to have a platform, and not be removed. to commit a crime, and be detained without being murdered for existing, and so on and so forth.

like to me it genuinely would have made more sense for the riddler himself to be some fucking up-his-own-ass educated middle or upper class shithead who thinks he’s real clever, more than the dude who was raised in a shitty orphanage and is mentally ill and spooky for it, especially with as mentioned the lens that seemed to be present for me—that of the mass shooter.

but like i said my reading is probably different from other readings and is of course informed by my personal status as a poverty-line, neurologically disordered queer living in a country where death has become kind of a constant presence in the form of mass shootings, and racism-driven killings and state-sanctioned ableism and for-profit medicine and limited financial safety nets and domestic terrorism so on and so forth, even though i obviously don’t live in jersey

but also brief aside about the ~spooky craziness~, separate from all of that. the like, idk if it was the director or the actor or both or more than that, but his performance outside of the mask was deeply uncomfortable for me to watch because it feels intensely like, “one of these dudes saw an autistic or schizophrenic or other type of disabled person make weird noises in public once and that’s what this performance is” especially in the form of his aggrieved wailing in the prison cell. like that was SO distinctly familiar to me and it made me very uncomfortable to see that very specific behavior used in this way.

but it’s SO rampant in horror media especially, but also in superhero stuff where either it’s oh the spooky crazy weirdo or else the baby crazy pitiable creature, and it drives me nuts cause it’s so obvious how little understanding or empathy the people making these decisions have for mental illnesses, neurological disorders, learning disabilities, i mean even physical disabilities and birth defects are either treated as a punishment for some sin or else as a physical manifestation of a character’s evilness (dr doom) or even just as a fucking... it’s your fault you’re disfigured/disabled/whatever else (cough spider-man/deadpool cough)

so like, even with the minor plot about bruce’s mother and potentially the implications for bruce himself, as someone with my own disorder that genuinely prevents me from functioning (but not in a way that is “inconvenient” for others, just for myself and my mother) and with a younger sibling who is very visibly and noticeably autistic, having to sit in the theater and watch that performance was incredibly frustrating and uncomfortable for how obviously purposeful it was.

like i genuinely liked this movie a lot and i think it did a lot right especially tonally and stylistically, and there was a lot about its cinematography and script and sense of humor and seriousness that was really refreshing, and paul dano’s actual performance is like, well-done, but even though it was well done from a technical standpoint the notes it hit throughout the film felt deeply frustrating to me for the reasons i mentioned

i liked the other shit though, love the weird slapstick and the cinammontography and the use of darkness as a framing device and so on and so forth

it just, like every other superhero movie on the planet (including my beloved tasm) has a few glaring flaws that don’t inherently make it a movie that isn’t worth watching but that do instill a certain level of frustration in me (or sometimes just eye-rolling lmao)

#this is not sub-posting that other post about the riddler's motivations it just made me want to put into words what i had been mulling over #since i saw the movie #cause i don't disagree with their point but i don't fully agree either—which is fine! that's what media analysis is for lol #sidenote about the riddler's little crush on batman:#i am not even really that concerned with the riddler being basically romantically obsessed with batman cause that's. like.#also kind of inherent to the riddler as a character at least in the adaptations i've seen #and i problematically enjoy homoerotic villains lmfaoo #i would be more disappointed if he was straight coded LMFAO #i can't speak for source comics obviously as a fake batman fan #nadia rambles #also i agree with various other ppl i've seen talking about how it's weirdly uncomfortable the way he's been woobified #cause i don't think he IS the actually he's right or making change villain i think he is literally the school shooter villain #the not so lone wolf etc and idk why so many people seem to miss that cause to me it feels intensely obviosu #*obvious

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