#is this the worst thing i have ever posted? possibly.

[thydungeongal]

I have seen several posts about your dislike for D&D and I wanna know if it's the same for Pathfinder? I love pathfinder but in my eyes it's just a crunchier D&D. (Though admittedly the "canon" worlds for Pathfinder are far more interesting to me)

Obviously that's a very baseline view of the two but I wondered if it's possible to like one and not the other due to their similarities.

P.S. I hope you've had a good week!

Truth be told, I don't dislike D&D! I dislike people treating it as a universal game when it's a very specific type of game! Note: what that specific type of game is also depends heavily on edition! But regardless, D&D will end up sucking big time if you don't play to its strengths!

Now, my opinion on Pathfinder is basically that Pathfinder 1e leaned in on some of the worst designs of D&D 3.5 (a quirky game that still had a lot to love about it): towards the tail end of D&D 3.5 its designers were at the same time getting really nutty with the design and coming up with some really inventive designs (Binders, Tome of Battle, a lot of individual systems in Complete Champion and Complete Scoundrel) but at the same time they were running out of ideas and they came up with the Worst Type of Feats: feats that made a thing that anyone could theoretically do into a thing now gated behind a feat. Player's Handbook 2 for D&D 3.5 had a few of these.

And Pathfinder 1e for some reason decided to really lean in on this type of feat. I will never shut up about the feat that allows gnomes to request their captors to loosen their shackles.

Now Pathfinder 2e is a much better game in my opinion because it seems to have largely rejected that type of design and focused on being a really crunchy D&D clone. It feels like a better successor to D&D 3.5's design ethos instead of Pathfinder 1e, that was ultimately a collection of D&D 3.5 house rules (some of which imo made the game worse than D&D 3.5!) coupled with following some of the worst design trends of D&D 3.5.

Also I refuse to ever shut up about Pathfinder 1e literally having feats that didn't do anything like Monkey Lunge and Prone Shooter. But anyway Pathfinder 2e actually looks like a fun albeit crunchy game instead of just being D&D 3.5 but somehow blander and with worse rules-writing. (now of course D&D 3.5 also kind of sucked in its own ways, but it kind of sucked in a "hey these example characters don't actually qualify for the Prestige Class they're supposed to be representing" type of way instead of a "our FAQ accidentally made it so you could qualify for the Eldritch Knight Prestige Class simply by virtue of being a Tiefling" type of way)

#thydungeongal answers

[nostalgia-tblr]

Okay so going back to this post about whether or not Loki can actually be Lauffey's heir I *did* manage to think up a set of circumstances in which I would believe that a monarchy *might* be willing to infanticide a sole male heir and it was "what if he has no genitalia of any kind?" Because you can handle a useless king as long as he can produce his own male heirs so you'll get a fully-abled king *eventually* but if you take that away then *maybe* the slightly small child has no value. *Maybe.* So I was like okay, sure, perhaps Loki has no genitalia of any kind whatsoever. But then I remembered that whole "CGI Crotch" fiasco and the fact that there's at least one tumblr blog devoted to his... area. Oh no, the theory falls! Damn!

BUT WAIT! The audience has not in fact seen a dick, merely the *suggestion* of one. The implication. Which is easy enough to fake. And fakery is plausible, because vanity and trying to fit in and etc. So I think the options are: either that's a packer OR Loki is not in fact the heir to the kingdom of the Frost Giants. Choose whichever you feel most comfortable with. (I am open to other explanations of course - please! - but I think I may have cracked the mystery here and I am simultaneously proud and deeply ashamed.)

Now all that remains is the question of whether I am foolish enough to actually publish this post to tumblr.

#mcu tag i guess #this is definitely a shitpost of some sort #is this the worst thing i have ever posted? possibly. #no i think i will click on the Post button i need to horrify people again before they start to think well of me #because obviously the 'please die for christopher eccleston' post was in the best possible taste and etc #do we still call this meta? #(i hope they don't in this case) #the fact that i just *know* this can't be the worst loki-related post on this charming website tho

[uncanny-tranny]

I love love love when trans women* give advice to trans men* about """manly""" things and when trans men* return that kindness with advice about """womanly""" things. I love the intracommunity commitment to supporting each other <<3

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #obviously it's better when that advice and guidance is consentual #if you ever want to give that advice do be sure that that person is even seeking that out #i have made advice posts which i try to state as neutrally as possible to ensure that whomever wants the advice can read it #but by no means are those posts intended to force you to change or to do things outside of what you want y'know? #ANYWAY thank you to trans women for unironically teaching me how to shave when i didn't know how #(i read the book Nevada partway and that was how i started to learn how to shave my face) #(and i've gotten a decent-ish close shave though i do admit i'm not that good at it. i'm kinda lazy actually LOL) #chin stubble is genuinely one of the worst sensory things for me and i'm so grateful that i was taught by trans women about it :)!!! #genuinely me when other trans people: 🥰

[velvetshirtnumber3]

Trigger warning: statutory rape, grooming

I haven't yet look at the reactions to the most recent episode on Tumblr, but I feel a little concerned about how there were comments in other places that just didn't acknowledge the fact that Non was taken advantage of by his teacher.

Like, this kid is so alone. He doesn't seem to fully be able to talk to his family, he has a group of kids who continually bully him and want to hurt him and he has no way to really get away from them. The only people he seems to be able to talk to are Phee, who goes to a different school and doesn't necessary see him on a daily basis, and (maybe) Jin, who is friends with the kids who bully him (this is obviously before Jin filmed him). He is in desperate need of money and doesn't know how to get it, he's scared and stressed out AND

a friendly face in the form of his teacher turns up. Someone who is offering kindness to this kid who is in desperate need of some. And then the teacher presents a solution to Non's money problem, saving him. But right after this offer, the teacher initiates a kiss. This is his TEACHER, who is a grown man, while Non is still a teenager. This is his TEACHER, who saw a vulnerable kid and decided to use that to get Non to seek comfort in him, to put Non in a position where he (Mr. Keng) has power over him and uses that to groom him.

It truly upsets me so much for me to see some people call Non a cheater and a terrible person for this when Non is a victim of someone who he should have been protected by.

#from the moment that teacher first interacted with Non I just felt uncomfortable and I was scared this would happen #and don't get me started on the people using this to uplift Jin as a better romantic interest for Phee #because Jin pretty much did the worst thing he could have possibly done in reaction to this #it doesn't matter that he didn't post it (i'm not sure but it doesn't seem like he did) because he still filmed it & somehow it got release #he might be sorry but that's not something you can really ever take back #episode 7 #dff the series #dff #dead friend forever #dead friend forever the series #dff non #dff phee #dff jin #dff episode 7

[lunarrolls]

i’m. a little bit wrecked over ashton in episode 78 y’all. i’m a little sad. just a little . i just. damn.

they hurt themself really fucking badly. and they could have killed their friends chasing something that was never theirs, chasing a reality that never was, that they never actually wanted in the first place. all because he was just fucking wrong about something. they just—they made a mistake. and it was the worst possible mistake they could have made. and i’m just thinking about how awful that is, to realize how little you actually value your own life in the middle of a crater you made with your own body because you just died and reformed and all you can think is how much you would have deserved to stay dead, to hurt forever, for the fact that the people before you were cruel and horrible and you mirrored them without a second thought in a matter of days.

like that’s so fucked dude. how do you rebuild a self esteem you never had after doing something so monumentally wrong. you stop using that false bravado because it won’t do you any good anymore, now that they all know how weak you are. how do you start caring about yourself when there’s so much to loathe, so much to make up for, so much to apologize for. that’s fucking terrible. how is he literally ever gonna trust himself again? trust his own judgement? trust what he wants? the last time he wanted something that badly it killed him and nearly broke his friends. like holy shit. how do you. how. how?

#cr #cr3 #ashton greymoore #like holy shit. holy SHIIIITTTTT #this was like. the worst possible mistake ashton could have made #it makes me so sad. it makes me soooo sad. because i get it. i fully truly do #it’s ever fear i have about being wrong #it wasn’t as calculated as the group seems to think. it wasn’t a grand scheme #nothing ash does is like that #sure he thought it over. and made a poor choice. but honestly? just a mistake #all of them are time bombs and ashton just happened to go off first #they have every right to be mad. every right. it was a shitty thing to do #but i can’t help feeling incredibly sad for them. they’re not used to any of this. #i have many thoughts about this i need to post more about it lmao #roll history

[hexados-on-a-string]

spectragus dont get enough credit for being a sun and moon ship but like. destructive sun and moon ship. sun and moon ship but they're the forces of nature the sun and moon actually are. the sun is harsh and relentless and unpredictable in its evil but also it's kindness, the moon is sharp and cold and cruel, a harsh light that doesn't allow you peace, but can also guide you, a light in the darkness. even on nights with a new moon, with no light in the sky, the moon is always reflecting the sun, and it'll be that way until they come to their end.

#spectragus give me a dopamine high that any sort of drug couldn't even come close to giving me #its the loyalty. its the seeing each other at their worst and still staying. #its the being the only person still around who knows and understands what youve been through #its the being so important to each other's characters that u cant mention one without recognising the impact the other has on them #i dont rlly do shipping unless its funny but also im a huge gus fan so like. yea. plus my view on romance is a bit all over the place anyway #something something my skrunkles deserve complicated relationships that are more than romantic but something else #its the trust thats the most important thing to me. trust and loyalty and devotion and #im sorry but i would have exploded if i like. didn't write down these thoughts #anyways fucked up gay people who are a package deal and that is a threat thats them #ik the majority of my posts are hee hee funnie and i usually dont take things too seriously #but these two have taken up part of my brain permanently since i was 8. like. they just live there. rent free. #i am like rabid rn. i am feral and i am insane and i am crazy and there are so many things wrong with me #i cant even write down all my fuckin thoughts there's so many my brain is going to Explode pray for me #idk if u understand how important it is to me the times they show kindness even while at their worst #they're not good people but they have people they care about and they care abt each other and that matters SO much #i take 0 criticism on my posts i only take cash. however there is no possible criticism to be made bc i am RIGHT #also this all kinda sparked from me getting obsessed with a certain kh character who has a connection to the moon #who is also one of my favourite characters ever #and if u know who it is and u also like him ur very cool #im not tagging this w character tags. im like. very shy. but #i love gus i love spectra i love spectragus #anyways see u next time where i should hopefully have art maybe potentially #i found the brushes i used to use back when i did lineless art so i am rlly happy

[salami-for-cats]

When the ultrakills you or something idk i never fucking played it I have not drawn these guys in forever

#Getting back into ultrakill during art fight has possibly been one of the worst things to ever happen to me #i cannot believe i have to draw peoples ocs when all i can think of is how much i love the gay robots #anyway whatever im uploading to this blog again maybe I'll start posting more idc #ultrakill #ultrakill v1 #salamiart

[rotationalsymmetry]

I don’t know if this is what you are looking for exactly, but I enjoy writing for Postcards to Voters because they focus on non-presidential races. I am currently writing postcards against an anti-choice constitutional amendment proposition in Ohio.

I wish more people would do things like that, instead of making posts that guilt trip people for not being excited enough about voting for the Blue sexual harasser instead of the Red one.

Thank you for your highly sensible response.

I guess there's a thing where "just because someone takes 15 seconds to shoot their mouth off online about something that's annoying them doesn't mean they have the time/energy to do anything actually constructive, even more so for the people who took .5 seconds to hit reblog now on someone else's shooting their mouth of post" but I think it would be strictly better for people to spend that .5 second exerting a smidgen of self control and going "either it's actual GOTV or it's not, and if it's not I'm going to not reblog it."

And as the election is over a year away...I don't think "vote blue no matter who" is actually a Get Out The Vote action at this point in time. It's annoying enough when people do it in person but at least then there's occasionally some chance of having a reasonable discussion about it, but on social media between people who don't really know each other? Ha snowball's chance in hell.

(I haven't done Postcards to Voters the last couple years, but I did around 2019-2020 or so and they are fairly low barrier to entry as long as you have stamp money, super introvert friendly, you can be as creative or non-creative as you want to be, and as you can do it from your home on your own schedule pretty darn spoonie friendly as well. As well as covid-safe. And yes, there's a big focus on local/state campaigns, which warms my participatory democracy loving little heart.) (ughh sounds like an important campaign maybe I should pick this thing up again.)

#I did big posts arguing about this in 2000 but I felt crummy afterwards so I'd really rather not rehash all that #it's theoretically and pragmatically wrong on multiple levels #this is the internet you don't get unity #you get two splinter groups arguing the two most extreme ends of the position possible each side convinced that they are 100% right #someone who's a little bit in favor of voting blue no matter who will get downright dogmatic about it #someone who's a little bit against will end up surrounded by anarchists who think voting is a waste of time #which wouldn't be the worst outcome ever #except that as far as I can tell most of the most vocal anarchists on tumblr don't do shit except tear down democratic politicians #like ok glad you think you're right I don't want to have anything to do with you though #there's like 2-3 anarchist posters on here who actually talk about direct action and organizing and stuff -- about things people can do #I guess with the abundance of time freed up by not spending a couple hours doing research and half an hour filling out a ballot #or much much less time than that if they're voting just for the president #yup congrats you sure saved a lot of time there now you have more time to convince other people to not vote either AWESOME GOOD JOB (sarcas #on an unrelated note I really need to work on a following the local news habit #and finding some way to learn more about oakland's history since I live here now #and I know how annoying it can be when someone's trying to be active in local politics but is missing highly important context

[nausikaaa]

More Than Six Sentence Sunday

hello again! i have some of my original wip to share again this week. thanks for tagging me @letraspal last week and @forabeatofadrum today!

here's some Astyanax POV, more than six sentences today because i didn't want to cut any of this

"Where are you off to in such a hurry?" A voice behind me startles me, and I turn, hand already on my weapon, to find Odysseus leaning against a wall, peeling an orange and looking at me with an expression of mild amusement.

I scramble for a moment, then realise I actually have little to hide.

"I'm taking my sister some food. She isn't feeling well." Only one word of that is a lie, I suppose.

"Hm." He responds, picking at the orange with apparent disinterest. "You know, you're a pretty good liar."

"I'm not-"

"I should know." He interrupts, then looks up and smiles. Again, I'm reminded of a fox. "The only problem is, I'm better."

not too much background feels necessary here, basically: Astyanax is supposed to be dead, Odysseus was supposed to kill him as a baby, they both know he didn't do what he was supposed to do, and now 18 years later Odysseus has to deal with the consequences of not doing his job.

and on that note, here's this snippet's relevant song from my Astyanax playlist

and i tag @ileadacharmedlife @martsonmars @imagineacoolusername @confused-bi-queer @ic3-que3n @forabeatofadrum @tea-brigade @bazzybelle @aroace-genderfluid-sheep @theearlgreymage @aristocratic-otter @facewithoutheart @otherpeoplesheartachept-2 @whogaveyoupermission @shemakesmeforget and @larkral

#i don't even like epic the musical #most of it feels way too polished and makes odysseus put to be way more heroic than he is #like two songs after this- possible the worst thing he ever does- an OC sings a whole song about being happy and having an open mind #HUH?? #the vibes are off that's all i'm saying #that being said this one song is tolerable and fits too well not to include #anyway #six sentence sunday #untitled post troy project #Spotify

[hella1975]

the pill is fucking with my hormones again which naturally brings me to my constant conflict of 'is pursuing my passions more important than appeasing my hometown' and seeing as the big issue here is 'if i publish gay fantasy stories they will think im Weird :((' the conclusion i came to was 'i need to start being a little bit weirder all the time so that they're less surprised by it'. like yes queen start microdosing on weirdness to acclimatise your small town you're so normal about things

#i really wish id let myself be weirder at secondary school and hung out with weirder people #bc then people wouldnt be as surprised by it #but NOOOO i went 'i want to be COOL and go to PARTIES and hang out with the bitchy popular girls <333' #like that is the environment im in rn so imagine i turn around one day like 'anywayyy this is what ive been writing for the past two years' #i think they would all have a stroke. or punch me #possibly both actually #but like honestly on the one hand my brain is screaming like BEING SEEN AS WEIRD BY YOUR HOMETOWN IS THE WORST #POSSIBLE THING THAT COULD EVER HAPPEN TO A GIRL THIS IS SOCIAL SUICIDE #and the other part of my brain is like my dude we have not cared about that kind of thing since before the pandemic what is the issue here #like honestly the worst thing THE WORST THING that can happen is people laugh at me and thing it's a weird hobby #and the kind of people doing that would not be people im spending any extended period of time with either #like that is it #people are dying babe get your head out your ass #idk i really hope this is a mindset i grow out of like im very comforted by the fact it's a very stereotypically teenaged mindset #my hope is in my 20s i gradually stop giving a fuck and find a tight knit group of small weirdos that Get Me #and i just wind up publishing something #AND BECOME AN OVERNIGHT SUCCESS AND EARN MILLIONS AND THROW IT IN MY HOMETOWN'S FACE AND- #anyway thank you im done ranting now. as you were #at ease soldier #you guys must see the word 'hometown' in my posts and go ohhhh fuck here we go #im not sorry btw

[craycraybluejay]

Maybe I can die after this weeks meeting idk but its hard its so so hard to just. Exist. I want to scream i want to scream i want to just grab someone and shake them and ask them why. ask them why the fuck theyre all smiles and shit when everything is so fucking miserable all the time ask them why theyre NOT miserable all the time. hit them stab them shoot them choke them im miserable but theyre doing just fine its NOT FAIR they have it so easy its NOT FAIR why should they get to be happy when theyve done nothing to earn their joy and ive had to do everything to earn it but its still not enough it will never be enough i cant even afford to buy my own life with my blood let alone my happiness let alone comfort or contentment. all of the hard work amounts to nothing. all of the subtle social crimes and complicated plots. it amounts to nothing. theres no point to any of it. i could be the smartest most hard working person on Earth and in the end id still be here with nothing but the quest to at least die in a satisfying way.

#vent post #dont take me seriously #also dont fucking dm me ur condolences about shit #friends can dm me gore or whatever #everyone else ur on thin ice i am happy to block mutuals if they get annoying #i hate the 'oh wahh dont die' crowd like thats the worst possible thing and not a symptom of far worse #and like. dont tell me what to do bitch #but also its genuinely so irritating and rage inducing #'dont die' ok i will fucking kill you instead ok????? hows that??? is that good???? are you happy??? #they only ever care when they fear they cant access “your” body or mind soon #they only ever care about their own 'loss' #people are so selfish why would i feel bad for anything ive done even if it amounted to nothing #they would have and have done worse not even to survive like me but just for kicks #im not sorry i offended you im not sorry you feel entitled to a positive attitude from me you can go take a swan dive for all i care #delete later #sui ideation #tw sui talk

[chimaerakitten]

So it’s definitely on me because my framing of my point wasn’t very neutral but wow are people being really bitter on that post about fandom sizes. like again, I can see how my framing and example comes across as condemnatory but really that post was never intended to be Big Fandoms Bad, People In Big Fandoms DESTROY Good Small Fandoms, not at all. It was more supposed to be about how differences between small and big fandoms (even the ones people understandably dislike and lament as a fandom grows) can come down to demographics and math, not some cabal of ~sinister shippers~ or whatever

#everyone on that post who's into murderbot seems to have gotten this #possibly due to intimately understanding the example #whereas people outside that circle are very mad in the tags #it's totally cool to want things to stay small or be sad when they change #I get that and I experience it too! #but there's several 'new fans are the WORST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED #AND THEY RUINED EVERYTHING FOREVER AND I HATE THEM' comments on that post now #and it's like #that's a lot of vitriol for people who are just having fun they way they know how #in a space that's new to them

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

Had enough items to speedrun and read both parts to Silvio's, then found more items and was able to read the sweet end for both Clavis & Jin.... aw hell yeah, triple epilogues baby 👀

I still feel very torn about how they're running things lately though, Ikepri is starting to feel much more cash cow-y with the high point requirements, the premium ends requiring BOTH readthroughs, and no more bday stories but instead grinding through events... love the characters & the storylines but like.. damn. i'm getting genshin ptsd ngl💀

#aerin.txt #same thing w genshin regarding fomo and requirements and stuff sometimes #im just grateful this isn't one that requires you to have strong cards and grinding up those cards just to progress..im so tired of farming #it's a big chunk of why i don't play obey me as much if at all these days.. and why i dropped mr love to begin with 😢 #tears of themis is lucky I'm still invested but also like that one doesn't always feel as bad #...maybe that's just bc of how behind i am idk. but the gacha rates & 50/50s still suck ass. #at least they allow you to post cards and translations in places so you don't HAVE to catch em all lol #what in hell is had is also on thin ice bc its quite possibly the WORST gacha I've ever seen. rates suck; no pity; no info/breakdowns ;; #you don't even know what characters are available on the standard banners aside from the main characters.. what if i wanted a side hoe 😭 #but anyway i think that's enough of a vent outta me. i really need to get my ass and neck away from gacha games or at least try to aksjdjf #hope everyone's been doing well and hope yall enjoy the event #i really really loved silvio's route bc of how silly they are (and how hot it was). kinda liked clavis' but jin's felt kinda meh imo. #lowkey a ventpost

[everymlmhybrid]

This is awesome just remembered I get to write the frottage scene soon assuming I actually write more than 4 words this week.

#.txt #long tags sorryyyyy #fellas do you ever offer everything you can to a man in a silent beg for forgiveness and let yourself accept that seemingly the only part o #you he's willing to touch now that he knows what you are is your dick but whatever you'll take what you can get. and it's selfish too but #it's also all you can offer short of turning your life upside down for him which you refuse to do. #fellas.......... do you ever fight against yourself for weeks because you want and need to forgive someone but can't figure out how. #you ever get torn between someone you care about and nearly have forgiven but you keep getting caught on the fact it's such an unforgivable #slight in the first place. so you take all that he offers but you can't bring yourself to forgive him until he's in front of you with his #hair sticking to his forehead and his hand shaking where it's gripping your bicep. #and seeing him be so open and vulnerable when he really shouldn't with you and really never should have AT ALL with you. makes it finally #click & makes it possible to wrap your head around ''I love him. he cares about me. he did one of the worst things possible. I forgive him. #OR WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! don't quote me on ANY OF THIS I'm always fucking around with motivations and wants and #needs and desires to make shit work how I think is best for all I know this is all useless #I hate posting my writing ever even when it's just set-up stuff like <- all that. BUUUUUT also I need a copy of all that for tomorrow to #remember . what I'm thinking abt basically. SOOOOOOOO YOU GUYS GET TO SEE THIS :3 hope u like what goes thru my head constantly while I'm #stocking shelves. sorry for long vague tags and endless talking yet again just need it written down #*that he'll touch is your dick. I have no idea how that typo happened what happened there

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

how to ruin jugdral characters and make them into shitty modern tropes: have two teenage girls cat fight over their romantic feelings for a grown ass man and make them aggressive rivals

#DCB Comments #we all knew they'd ruin jugdral as soon as they could but it still hurts to see #i knew they'd add in things that were never there and butcher the characters but... still painful #and ofc it's the females that suffer that treatment when they were actually good characters originally #but modern FE doesn't allow for that anymore alas. can't even say edelgard is free of it #bc she's obsessed and in love with byleth. not even a villain can escape that nonsense #fe12 is the last game i can think of that had decently written women (if boring but not... /this/) #and that was over a decade ago. siiiigh #like yeah lakche is in love with shanan but not as directly as this??? ever??? #she's actually very reserved about it and doesn't behave like a banshee abt it lol #lakche was one of the better female characters overall and ofc since she's one of the most popular #IS uses her as much as possible and puts their little romantic modern spin on her #like they can generally write men just fine but when it comes to women i swear they think all women just #think about nothing but romance and will fight each other over it. worst part might be that i saw this exact issue coming #another reason why i don't want a remake of these games: supports possibly existing #and ruining characters more than they have been already /just from heroes/ #i have a lot of feelings abt this lol i am watching my favorite game of many many years just be #basically ripped to shreds by modern fe bullshit. it's upsetting #and before anyone shouts ''kaga elitist!'' might i remind you that tellius did not have this problem either #hence modern fe and not post kaga fe. micaiah was arguably very bad with her romance for her ''he's my brother!'' love interest #but from memory she was the only rly bad example from tellius #and let's NOT forget that gaiden got a remake and what did they do? #created a brand new female character whose only purpose for existing was to be madly and obsessively in love with a man #like thanks i hate it IS get your nasty modern inability to write women out of jugdral bc i bite and munch #DCB Heroes Stuff

[cherry-shipping]

hrhrrrhhg. wwuz lookin 4 kissing gifs here on tumblr to put on one of eebs posts & one of them was a. s*riel animation ive seen before and i closed my eyes and scrolled past But even just that one look at it made me be like. ok Time 2 b on the verge of tears for a good 30 minutes now 👍 like ok. fucking loser.

#cherry chats #ITS SO EMBARRASSING #youd think the most embarrassing thing abt being in love w sans would be being in love w sans (or‚ like‚ the sex thing) #but no its actually being the stupidest lamest little crybaby about the whole thing #ofc i have every single possible tag or mention of any ships w him esp s*riel blocked #but thats the awful thing. even the fucjing. knowledge that its there makes me sad #like i cant handle any mentions of it whenever is see the ‘this post contains filtered tags’ thing i feel sad #i cant even handle the slightest IMPLICATIONS of anything or even jokes #n the worst is when ppl dont know that. n so they send me stuff or make jokes implying literally any of that stuff. #and i have 2 genuinely ask them to not even joke about it like the worlds weirdest lamest loser ever #its so humiliating. and bein sad abt it makes me feel even stupider. auugrghrg #so anyways. just in case anyone forgot i suck total ass and am lame and embarrassing or something #whimpers and whines im a normal amount of dependent on my f/os 👍