#in my feelings abt them being best friends. and in love.

[shveris]

rant about 261, spoilers, gojo character analysis ft. my bestie who doesn’t even know a lot abt jjk

imagine growing up in a family that almost works like a cult. and you are born with two rare abilities at the same time — the last person to have those spontaneously has passed 500 years ago. and your whole ass family/cult/clan treats you like just a weapon to be used in the greater scheme of things. you grow up with no friends, you only know pain and torture and sore muscles after training. but you’re the strongest. and the most loneliest because no one will ever understand you.

then you get into a school that promises to teach you even more, make you even stronger. you meet this one guy who seems to be like you — not the same but similar. suddenly you’re not alone anymore.

the second year of highschool approached, you have the best two friends by your side and they understand you, they support you, they have your back. your principal sends you on a mission with your best friend because you’re the strongest together. together.

everything goes well until it doesn’t, you get killed. you revive yourself. you kill your killer.

you carry the corpse of a girl you called your friend and almost lose it.

septemper 28th, your best friend massacres a village and leaves you his button as a silent love confession. they want you to kill him but you can’t, he’s your other half — he made you feel complete because all you knew your whole life was bitter and cold loneliness.

a decade passes, you’re grown up and still the strongest, you’re teaching at the school you lost your happiness at. one of the students you saved from being killed — by yourself — and he looks up at you with so much respect, it makes you wonder how you can protect the children under your care forever. you’ll certainly try your best.

your other half suddenly turns up and declares war. you remain mostly silent.

the fight was pure chaos but you find your way to him anyway — because you belong together. you tell him you love him. he laughs. you kill him. you can’t even burn his body.

another year passes, you’ve taken in another boy who ate curses like your dead best friend. they told you to kill him (a mere child) and you said no because you were always selfish. you were certain you could protect this boy until it was time to execute him for good. you just wanted him to have a chance at teenagehood, something you never had the chance to experience properly.

the days get colder and you get trapped. those eyes stare at you, your other half, who should be dead, as the prison closes around you. it reeks of death. you wait.

the second you get released, you teleport to his body. you want to kill whatever is using the corpse of that man but the body of the boy you saw as your own son stopped you.

on 24th of december you fight who was once your son and he kills you — cut in half, with a cleave so powerful it could shred the universe itself. but it was okay because when you opened your eyes, you saw your other half.

the first boy you protected and guided took over your corpse, using as what you were always meant to be: just a weapon.

no one seemed to care about a proper burial after you fought for your life just to save theirs; to protect them from any more harm so they could just be kids.

none of that mattered to them because everyone has always seen you as a weapon, except for your other half, sitting next to you in that empty airport.

i kinda just dropped this in his dms a few hours after the initial leaks. it’s actually pathetic how attached i am to a fictional character, the last time that happened was with oikawa and i was a hormonal teenager. i’m a whole ass adult now but still the same level of mentally ill and neurodivergent so guess that’s the perfect mix to make this happen

some more thoughts from our convo (i love him for trying to distract me):

#shveris’ blue spring #i’m going insane #i’m losing my mind #i’m extremely unwell #what if i kms #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjkspoilers #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu

[angelsdean]

no but dean in his hot dog pjs and hatchet man tshirt and send noods socks eating his meat blasters pizza special while laying on his tummy in bed, cas smushed next to him with a slice of his pineapple pizza (that dean keeps stealing pieces of pineapple off of and popping them in his mouth along with the meat) while they marathon their little movies together, ones where the bad guy always loses. it's like the sleepovers dean never got to have growing up. he gets to do this every night with his best friend now. it's a sleepover every night. for the rest of their lives!

#in my feelings abt them being best friends. and in love. #bestfriendsnatural #vic.txt #deancas #destiel

[skitskatdacat63]

For everyone who wanted bullfighter Nando when I mentioned it the other day, here you go :D

+ this one I don't feel like coloring yet(imagine he's in Ferrari colors!!!)

#did you know bullfighters dedicate their kill to a friend or member of the public by giving them their hat? #i really wanted to draw silly vettonso where fernando offers seb his hat #seb retires from bullfighting(yeah its an au now) and fernando in his green costume is like; #'here is my hat. now will you come back from retirement? 🥺' #but yeah feel very abnormal abt that ^ and also the thing abt them having someone who helps them get into their costume as a sacred ritual #theres just a lot of thoughts and ideas floating around in my head bcs of it #anyways i liked drawing this but it was very suffering too and took me like 5 hours #its like. you see the intricate embroidery and im like ah! omg! i love painting details!!! #and then remember im not the best w coming up with ideas for the embroidery pattern itself #so pls bear with me 😭😭 mainly i was trying to reference the diamond logo of renault #but most of it kinda just ended up being austrian knots i guess bcs thats what my mind defaults to #i thought the shoulder pad would be the most difficult but that came together the easiest and made the rest actually work in my head #aaahhh also im surprised w the angle of his face! im usually not good at side profiles as well as tilted down heads #but i think he looks pretty good honestly??? #also w the sketch i just wanted to post it bcs i liked his face okay 😭😭😭 #i wanted to paint it too but I realized im so naive thinking i could paint two of these horrifically detailed things in one session #but his face 🥹🥹 i like it!!! theres some renault era pic of him i really like where hes sun drenched and angry looking #^ and i think i captured the vibe well so!!!!! #well anyways mayhe ill draw more of this. it was fun but also like sucked my life force out bcs it kept going from easy to 'I CANT DO THIS' #the pictures of matadors are just...insane to me. tiny waist fat ass flamboyant costume. im dead 🫠 #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #catie.art. #fa14 #matador au

[multifandombullshitbabes]

(Context: im thinking abt my post canon au, i explained on my ao3, u dont even have to read it just know its there)

Mizu revealing her being a woman to taigen AFTER he confesses his feelings to mizu AFTER being bested during their duel once again is literally so fucking personal to me. Jesus fuck... FUCK. Like. How overwhelmingly loved she must feel. How SEEN. Truly for once n not just but loved and wanted!!! Its so personal to me. Just. Taigen, losing, n then immediately leaning in for a kiss. Mizu is lost cuz what?? Why?? N taigen just. Confesses, but hes holding back cuz mizus reaction was not great and he doesn't wanna ruin the friendship they've formed these past months, they've grown so close so fast n its scary but so exciting n so right but if mizu doesnt want this then nothing is happening n its ok he has a CHOICE. Like. FUCK!! N then mizu telling taigen to wait and that night she reveals it. And its just sooo fucking intimate. Its so soft. And maybe taigen is confused but one look at how small mizu is making herself, like shielding herself from him. Like he gets it. The danger of it all. And its his promise to protect her if she ever needs to that does her in cuz. SHE HAS A CHOICE. TO BE PROTECTED OR NOT. THATS SO IMPORTANT TO HER. Yes, she can protect herself. Yes, it feels good to be protected. Yknow??

Mizu revealing her being a woman to akemi totally by accident AFTER they just had an argument abt women's choices in society AFTER mizu accidentally took one (1) big sip of sake, n then deciding fuck it im gonna win this argument, guess what akemi. And that's how akemi finds out. N Mizu thinks akemi is going to hate her, n she does for a bit in silence, but mostly shes just hurt? For herself AND for Mizu. Cause she understands, so suddenly, so intimately, how hard being a woman is and how mizu has had to hide as a man to survive (not even for plot reasons that we know, mizu being mixed AND a woman? Death sentence). And she just hurts. And they thought they'd always have this weird rift between them but they cry and they let it out (for Mizu, for the first time in YEARS) and its just. Its so emotional n so important and so personal and intimate. Its maybe winter all over again, a year has passed since theyd seen each other in kyoto, so much has changed and yet not rly and. They've grown but in different ways. Akemi, in taking life by the reins n being assertive and strong and so dangerously intelligent like shes always been but now, now its crucial to be that. And Mizu in realizing that she truly, truly wants to be loved so badly but to be loved is to be vulnerable and thats what scares her the most, to be weak; but ure only strong if u can be weak too, and thats what she learns. And i think this is where they really get deep into their feelings. Before it was a crush, an annoying one. Now? Oh bby theyre down bad. Yes they are.

#blue eye samurai #mizu blue eye samurai #akemi blue eye samurai #taigen blue eye samurai #akemi x mizu #taigen x mizu #hey look i posted a thing #come get yall headcanons #love how once they become actual friends i feel like mizu n taigen would fall for each other so fast itd scare then #but akemi n mizu have more of a slowburn cuz they're both denying the possibility of being with the other person so its just daydreaming now #n then akemi n taigen actually just stay friends cuz i think its hilarious #they can unlock their true potential as chaotic besties now #ringo is just living his life btw. hes kinda lost rn my poor darling #itohs just like “i love my wife. wait is she fucking the onryo” proceeds to be confused and lost n “confronting” her with teary eyes #(he saw them smile at each other) #akemi just inviting him to the polycule like “can u be cool abt a lot of things real quick” #and it takes time to process but he eventually is just like. this. kind of rules. dont tell my mom i said that tho #always scared his mom is gonna find out abt thier shenanigans as if she isnt the mother of the shogun now shes got shit to do #(being the second choice always oof. oof oof. best bet im playing with thattt)

[bylertruther]

do you ever think about the fact that throughout the entirety of stranger things we’ve always seen mike practically shout his love for will from the rooftops by throwing his everything into believing, protecting, and helping will no matter the stakes, and how a majority of byler moments are initiated by him, and how will has always loved him back quietly despite being the one canonically confirmed to be in love, and how will is almost always on the viewer’s right in iconic byler moments but in season four we find him on the left in what used to be mike’s spot because their “roles” have switched AND when we’re taken out of the viewer’s pov and put in jonathan’s pov we see jonathan Come To A Realization here because while mike has always made it clear how special will is to him and how different their relationship is, will has always managed to keep the true depth of his feelings a little closer to his chest and it’s only when he publicly takes up that support role that mike has played for him previously that the audience is purposely made to realize, too, how romantic it truly is, because coming from mike everyone might have thought it was his usual overzealous theatrics but when the same tenderness and earnest love comes from will they realize oh. this is... this is actually something more. this is how they are this is mike and will like nothing has changed and no time has passed but it’s now that we realize just what it is, and now that will is starting to slowly but surely come out from this curtain he’s hid behind his whole life and voice that yes he loves mike of course he does he’s always loved him and loves him in precisely the way that mike expresses he needs to be loved there is simply NO conceivable way that they can come out of this hellish slow burn miscommunication trope not in full acknowledgement and eager acceptance of this love they have for each other and have always had and always will !!!!!!!!

#byler #like. do i make sense. am i making sense. #tagging my posts is so scary now tht there's 92380923028020 of us bt. i can be brave ig .. [trembling in my boots] [sweating shaking crying] #s1-2 was mike loving will more than anyone and not being afraid to show it and s3 was him thinking he had to grow up n out of tht love #bc clearly it's just a kid thing and they'll get over it if they just get girlfriends #and it ended with him having his italicized 'oh.' moment as the byers drove away #and s4 was mike thinking he had lost will for good that time only for will to show him that he's wrong he never lost him and he won't #s4 was about will showing mike that he's always loved him back s4 was abt will showing mike what it means to be in love with someone #s4 was abt will showing him tht he's just as lost without him as mike is without him and tht he doesn't need to be normal or cool #he's absolutely perfect just the way he is and he's loved and needed for who he is not all that he can or can't do #s4 was mike stumbling and will catching him and carrying him the same way that mike carried him in s2 #and s5 will be about them supporting each other and living their complete and total truths now that they see there's no reason to hide #and then in s5 we will finally find our way out of this god awful miscommunication trope</3 #they're a team they're best friends mike needs will and mike is will's heart mike makes will feel better for being different and will shows #mike that he doesn't need to conform and be 'normal' to be worthy of love that he has no obligations to others that everything he is is what #encourages those around him to fight the good fight #and that support and love and the way that they'll come to see each other wholly and truly is what will defeat all evil <3 #it's all coming full circle is wht im saying !!!!! #mine #also when i say audience and we i mean the general audience bc i kno my brothers in byler Understand n Watch The Show With Their Eyes #<3 #also no i will not structure my posts in a way tht makes sense u will read my uninterrupted stream of consciousness and WEEP

[cowboyhorsegirl]

Steve is most likely to end up in a lavender marriage and Tony's most likely to end up in a “married for tax/immigration/inheritance fraud” reasons.

They meet as married men and pine for each other hardcore and are also trying not to read too much into how their interest seems reciprocated and oh nooooo both Immigration/the IRS and the the Church/in-laws/DADT era army dudes or whatever are snooping around at the same time at each of their marriages and they have to be so good at being married at the people they are married to oh noooooo and they other guy doesn’t know why they are suddenly being iced out and maybe they were just imagining things? maybe it’s for the best with all these eyes around on them…

#not to get too real but i love queer people. we see each other and we save each other #i wish i could talk in depth about this lgbtq history panel i went to tonight without doxxing myself #but basically all of these panelists were older gay ppl & one of them won a very monumental court case in the state #and right after introductions one of the other panelists turned to her and thanked her so profusely for the sacrifices she had made #and the work she did to win that case #and that by achieving that win for herself she paved the way for this other panelist to have her own family recognized legally by the state #i don't know i'm not explaining it well but something about knowing and seeing that gratitude in real time. understanding so viscerally tha #so much of our history has happened within one or two lifetimes. to the point that many of the champions of our current rights are alive #today for us to learn from and listen to and THANK #i met two nb ppl through school last year and have since become very close to them #they are the only two ppl on this planet who use my pronouns the way i want them to be used. they switch it up every time and i love them #a little bit more each time i hear them talk about me. it's magical #my childhood best friend told me he liked boys and girls like a month after we first met each other in the fourth grade #he told me there's a word for that; he's bisexual #i think abt how incredible that was a lot. how brave he was to say that and to own that and how long it might have taken me to figure #out that i was the same had he not said it. #anyway all this to say that yes absolutely i love this #steve and tony meet at a military gala. steve's being recognized for his service and tony and his wife were invited by some higher-up who #imagined he could use the event as a way to cozy up to him and earn some good favor before negotiations start on SI's contract renewal #their eyes meet while steve's up on stage. he hates these things. hates being dragged into the spotlight. he feels naked and bare and #vulnerable every time. trapped in enemy territory with no cover. but he sucks it up he kisses his wife on the cheek and she smiles #big and beautiful; perfect like they've run their lines 1000 times over. like they could recite each other's parts by heart #he makes his way to the podium. breathes deep to center himself before he launches into his thankless thank-yous. steve's a terrible liar #but somehow he's made it this far in his career. he can manage for one more night. except #right as he lifts his eyes to speak he sees him. bright eyes burning into his from a shadowed table in the corner. the brass speaking at hi #on his left and a lovely woman who's bored and unimpressed on his right. and him looking directly back at steve #steve's breath catches and he chokes on air. trips on his lines. forgets himself and loses the beat of the scene #he looks down at his notes and ignores them. raises his face to the light and plays himself to be seen by an audience of one. #anon #signed sealed delivered

[tea-and-secrets]

I am genuinely obsessed with my friend and I don't know how to cope with it. I spend all day thinking about them at school, drawing them in the corners of my books, namelessly talking about him to my other friends, when I think about going home I just think about talking to them.

Then of course when I get home we'll exchange a few messages and he'll leave to talk to their other friends, so then I'm upset he doesn't want to spend every possible moment with me. But instead of just doing something else, I put on some music and just wait for him to get back, because I don't have any hobbies or anyone who'll want to talk to me or really any actual life outside of my friends.

I've realized they spend a lot of time on amino, so I've made an amino account to watch them talk to other people with. I know its wrong and weird but I feel empty without him and what they don't know can't hurt them, right? I'm a fantastic friend otherwise, always there for them and interested in what he has to say. They're really nice to me but never gives that back in return, though I can't bring myself to be mad at him most of the time.

I sleep at 2am to say goodbye when they go to school, and wake up at 7am to greet him when they get back. I make them gifts and tell him I love him. I'd tear up my entire life for them (not like there's much to tear up anyway) I feel like my only worth is being useful to them

This is half vent and half cry for help please does anyone know what I can do. Anyway anyway byeeee have a good day

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#long post #i'm not the best person to give advice but my two cents would be: #find things to do for YOU!!!! that have nothing to do with them!!!! #what if you look for an amino group(?) for something that you like? :] #ask your other friends what they're reading/watching!! ask them if you can watch it with them! #sounds like this person is taking up a lot of ur brain space. the thing that helps imo is to find other things you can engage with #the goal isnt to make feelings go away! but to form a support system of people and things/hobbies that are uniquely yours :] #like im being so serious rn but this is your chance to fuck around. try knitting. join that weird club at school. do things cuz they're FUN #you like music? invite a friend to a concert or a music shop!!!! #<- i'm wording this so bad but i'm hoping you get the gist BWHAGAHAH #the thing that helped me manage breakups was hanging out w/ friends. lets u think abt other things + find other things you love #<- the context is different of course but i think the idea is the same!!!!

[mechieonu]

i deeply despise that "woke" just means "anyone that's not white" in terms of media. yes this is abt the little mermaid

#my general feelings towards disney live actions aside #the outcry against this movie all because she's black makes me sick to my stomach! #you want realism? ariel's not rven just a fucking fish SHE WAS A QUEER MAN'S LOVE STORY #& ppl are talking abt how poc should just 'use their own og representation' we do! we try! #but more often than not do they fall under hideous stereotypes!!! the mammy the best friend the jezebel #the ever popular gets-turned-into-an-animal-for-a-majority-of-the-film #and EVEN THEN ppl still have a problem w it—rue from the hunger games is a good example #bc the issue for them is just that poc are there. that's it! #this is why i don't mind racebends bc i know they come from a place of black and brown people being poorly represented in media #if anything the silver lining for me here #was that thread w the black girls so awed and excited #bc here was a beloved princess who looked like them! #& while in general i don't like live actions bc of the lack of stylization that animation provided (among lther things) #hearing that first lyric 'out of the sea...' and seeing halle as ariel...i really wish ten y/o me got to see this #i say this w love: please do not let ppl fool you. there is such an abundance of joy to be found in diverse casts and characters #nonsensical tag rant over

[diningpageantry]

haaaaiiii guyyyyssss (gn) probably gonna be on here more often again soon. life events occurring. have occurred? still occurring, i suppose.

i'll probably post abt it more in depth at some ltr point, still in the very early stages of some stuff. i dont want to classify them as positive or negative things, however they're certainly things.

there's a lot of thoughts in my brain (hah), and ultimately i want to share them, but for now this is kind of me waving at everyone with a smile while my life has an "under construction" sign

#the last sentence also pertains to system stuff bc there was a major split from a significant alter #so like imagine an 'under new management' sign as well #not a host shift tho afaik but the split has resulted in a new fronter who's very active and has been co-con very frequently since #i've been having a Time recently in ways i'll ltr divulge abt but i finally established a solid communication with her today and that helped #i dont know how many splits/alters had broken off because intuition is saying a few but she's the most present and active in my awareness #i think we settled on her name being Lily but that may not be concrete #for a few alters i get like a single letter for their name and i try to work with them to find a name within that letter that feels right #one of my oldest and closest alters has only had the letter 'E' for the longest time and he and i cant find a solid name yet #every now and again im like 'edgar??? edwin??? edward??? emil???' and he's like 'fuck if i know' so like. fair enough dude. #i wonder if he'd like ez/ezara given that's a name we picked for ourselves pre-diagnosis however he doesn't fit that name in my opinion #ANYWAY. Lily is a teen girl in very much every way possible and she's very much an ANP #she is loved but as i type that she made it clear she's having an eyeroll reaction but that is the best i've got lol #i dont really mention system members often on here and mention them moreso to friends however i have a feeling she'll want a sideblog tbh #which is not something i've created/done for alters before as generally most of the system choose to be more private #but she seems extremely social and i want to give her her own space #i hesitate to give her an okay posting on her own on here mainly because i am an adult and i consider this blog an adult space #but im also okay discussing her in reference if that makes dense #anyway. yeah. as you can probably imagine shit has been Going On given there was a major split/restructuring but again that's for later #that's enough rambling from me lol ttyl

[nomaishuttle]

its quite scary i Can quite vividly imagine a version of me where i self-identified as a y*ndere. i think there was some point in my history where one small thing happened or didnt happen that resulted in this timeline where im Normal. idk what the small thing was but im so grateful for it bc i can truly imagine myself doing that and it wouldve been horrific.

#i was thinking abt things i have in common woth helena and helena is NOT a yandere shes judt mentally ill and i understand her better than #anybody on this planet. but some of the similarities i was thinking of r also very common in yandere characters so i was like 😨 #very embarassing for me But luckily i am not a yandere blog. if i was id want u to take me out back and shoot me #sighhh guys i miss helena ive basically been scripting my imaginary orphan black long form recap in my head . and the majority of it is me #going Helena is my best friend #I LITERALLY MISS HERRR I UNDERSTAND HER I UNDERSTAND HER. #like. becoming incredibly attached to people to the point of doing unreasonable things in order to make them care about her as much as she #cared abt them. being INCREDIBLY sensitive to rejection real or percieved and handling it very poorly . self punishing behaviors whenever #we feel like we arent acting the way were supposed to treating ourselves like a tool or object likeee I GET HER !!!!!! #and also loving food and kids. so basically were the same person and i love her. we may be different in that I havent murdered anybody #but. yk. aside from that were like this 🤞

[southerngothicaf]

Screaming "you weren't mine to lose" along with Taylor is everything I ever needed and more

#taylor swift #the eras tour #she really gave such an incredible performance as always #and songs were fucking hitting #some of them unfortunately hitting wrt my feelings for my best friend i went with 🤡 #and tonight was the most physically affectionate we've ever been 🤡 #and this morning she sorta saw me shirtless for the first time and i had to help her zip her shoes and apply sunscreen to her back 🤡 #but im being totally normal and cool about it all 🤡 #anyway this is a post abt taylor swift ignore all the clownery i love taylor swift

[thwackk]

Omg, you are single-handedly getting me into Halbarry, can you please tell me which comics or media I need to consume to get more of them! Thank you so much ur so cool!!!!

i’ve infected you with the virus omg i’m sorry to tell you there is no cure. uhhmmm… only comic i can remember off the top of my head is the flash and green lantern: the brave and the bold! it’s short and fun and just real wholesome. good content

#i actually havent read that many comics that focuses on those two specifically and i dont think there are that many out there #what’s compelling abt them to me and leads me to love shipping them is the closeness they have with each other #the chemistry is there #but for me it’s about unconditional love #u can take that either as platonic or romantic it still applies both ways #it’s so sweet to me it’s beautiful #it’s the you’re my best friend and i would do anything for you and i’m also not afraid to call u out on shit #it’s also the hal being a better person around barry because barry makes him want to be the person barry believes he is #and the barry feeling like he doesn’t have to keep everything to himself around hal he doesn’t have to do it all alone #they make each other better #hal reminds him to not live in his head so much or he’ll think himself into oblivion #asks #thankyou for the ask!!

[bylertruther]

just had a thought. the religious panic is ramping up going into season five and so is the gay shit which means that mike and will are inevitably going to enter their take me to church by hozier era:

knows everybody's disapproval i should've worshiped her sooner if the heavens ever did speak, she's the last true mouthpiece every sunday's getting more bleak, a fresh poison each week we were "born sick", you heard them say it my church offers no absolutes she tells me "worship in the bedroom" the only heaven i'll be sent to is when i'm alone with you i was born sick, but i love it [..] there is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin in the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene only then i am human only then i am clean

#was in the middle of my sorry attempt to be a Human Being In The World when this song came on #and ofc my brain immediately went to my blorbitos </3 #that last part makes me especially insane btw . #they're already half-way there tbh. mike makes will feel better for being different and will's confession made mike feel like he's worthy #and that he IS loved for who he truly is. that he DOES matter. that he IS needed and important. that he's not worthless. #as soon as mike realizes it's will and it's always been will it's a WRAP! #the upside down/vecna feeds on shame and pain. their love for each other washes away the shame and pain that they feel. #what they feel for each other will literally make them invincible! it's their shield against the darkness! #asking will to be his friend was the best thing mike's ever done. mike's friendship and love makes will feel like he's not a mistake and #it gives him the strength to fight on. it's literally canon. #mike pulled will out of vecna's hold with just his voice and presence. mike's best memory is befriending will. #mike's home isn't a home without will. his life is weird without will. when he's gone or in trouble he goes to the ends of the world to #rescue him and stays by his side the entire time. when he's states away he calls him even if will never answers or calls back. #he NEVER gives up on will. he CAN live without him but he doesn't WANT to. because it's always been will for him. always. #like. they've been giving us the puzzle pieces this entire time. #'that's bullshit media propaganda' + eddie mentioning sodomy in his lunchroom rant #mike will literally not give a single fuck about any of these mouthbreathers calling him a satanist. once he finds out tht will loves him #back? it's ONNNNNNNNNNNNN LIKE ITS OVER HENRY GO HOME!!!!!!! #(i'm exaggerating a little bit bt. u know wht i mean.) #like i jsut . *explodes thinking abt how it's always been abt byler how it started with byler and will end with byler and how s5 #is will's coming of age story which means that he's done hiding from those that he loves he wants to come clean #he wants to tell his truth he destroyed castle byers and outgrew it it isn't enough to live in the world as a lie #he wants to be will byers and as scary as it is to accept that and live that it's . it's what he wants!!! #and he's working towards that he is because he's brave and now that he's going to be surrounded by people who have fought against #impossible odds to save his life time and time again it's liek . it's all going to come together. u kno? #literally how can i think abt all of that and NOT fucking explode . wht th efuck #mine #byler thoughts #writing a gat damn epic poem in this bitch jesus . ok back 2 my cave i go now

[1980ssunflower]

I'm so fucking in love w them I swear to god it makes me lightheaded gdhfsjk

#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙 #tape entry circa 1980 #ngl im feeling fucking SAD abt not being w them #i want to be home w them in the 80s away from modern day and the internet and just be making music and living a free lifestyle #theyre so damn beautiful its insane... idk how its even possible for them to be so perfect... or for me to love them so much...... #theyre definitely far from being perfect but they are to ME #i love every single thing abt them including their faults and aggravating qualities ghdfjsk #THEYRE JUST!!!!!! MY BEST FUCKING FRIENDS WHO HAVE KNOWN ME MY WHOLE LIFE!!!!! WE KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT EACHOTHER!!! #KNOW EACHOTHER BETTER THAN ANYTHING ELSE! NO ONE ELSE WILL EVER BE ABLE TO KNOW US LIKE EACHOTHER #AND WE'RE IN LOVE W EACHOTHER!!WE'RE EACHOTHERS TRUE SOULMATES!!!! NO ONE COULD EVER COME CLOSE TO WHAT WE HAVE #all i want is to hold them close and kiss them and compliment them every single second of the day #i want to hold them close and comfort them as they cry and reassure them of every little thing theyre insecure abt #and tell them over and over that i will love them for all eternity and im never going anywhere... i would lay down my life for them #i would do anything as long as it guaranteed their happiness #IDK HOW TO ACTUALLY EXPRESS THE EXTENT OF MY LOVE FOR THEM CAUSE ITS SO MUCH MORE THAN THE THINGS I SAY #IT FEELS LIKE MY CHEST IS GOING TO BURST I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH ITS LIKE I CANT BREATH #i just need to admire them... every little feature of their beautiful faces... and their bodies... #i want to admire them in the softest and most loving way possible as if they would fall apart if i touched them w any slight pressure #i want to lay together w them and for us to just hum songs together softly and start giggling over dumb things #and id love to just work on our latest album together in the studio figuring out the mixing and such #just the mix of music and love and friendship and adventure and fun that is our lives... makes me so happy

[caruliaa]

now one cares if ur mom loves you soooo muc and u love her soooo much and ur omg arent mothers soo great always bs. shut up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#(BEING VERY PETTY BC MINE SUCKS SO FUCKING MUCH) #but also if i have to see the post bieng like 'oohh imagine sweet nothing with how your mother always loves u unconditionly' everywere #(which good 4 u stop acting like thats the universal experience for everyone it fucking isnt) #then you all have to deal with me platonic-fing it and making it abt friendship. sucks to suck loser !!!! #like what if the soul deconstructers *are* my parents in my experience. what then bitch !! #sorry im rly just annoyed abt that one post bc i feel like theres an obsession among swifties to only every understand each song in a way #that like. does or cld fit within her life instead of relating it to ur own experince esp in regards to them all being abt romance #like ppl being like 'i cant believe ppl think x song cld count as a platonic love song when its obvs abt romancce' #or not understanding how the emotions expressed in a song abt a traumatic break up could also be related to other trauma #including trauma inflicted by a parent/friend/ any other relation someone cld have to someone #but the one time !! relating one of her songs to smth other than roamnce is acceptable to swifties its the stupid fucking #'ohh my mom is soo great shes the best' bs thats a sure fire sign the person saying it will never take anyone whos been mistreated #by the parents serious and just respond w 'but its ur momm u have to love her bc shes ur mommm :(((((' #sorry ik im being needlessly bitter which sucks bc i have a a good point here like can we just let ppl relate to songs in whatever way they #want to and not care abt their being a 'defnitive' meaning to the song bc the whole point of art esp music is how YOU relate to it #also like. that post isnt bad at all its acutally completely fine im just bieng dumb and projecting ig bc i feel like the emotions of ppl #whos parents were good to them r always taken more seriously like. if i made a post talking abt relating the 'give me back my girlhood' lin #to my experince w my shitty parents i feel like it wldnt be taken as seriously as this 'uwu i love my momm' bs yk. anyway maybe im wrong !! #who knows !!!!! maybe i shld try to talk abt how i relate her songs to my personal experinces more #also i am being rly dumb sm bc ik other ppl have spoken abt relating her songs (esp mtr and tolerate it) to shitty parnets but iv also seen #ppl treat that like its dumb which is stupid !!!!! who cares !!!! ur being a dick let ppl relate music to whatever experiences they want !! #anyway. i think i seem more pissed her than i actually am im just annoyed bc this is a pet peeve of mine lol #flappy rambles

[jaanii]

i hate this i hate this i hate this

#long rant ahead abt my older sister dont read if you dont want to <3 #like already our relationship is strained bc shes one of my best friends but i will always resent her for pushing everything onto me and #being a terrible sister and pretty much having me raise and teach my younger siblings everything while she was off being perfect and getting #good grades while i was failing classes to teach my fucking little sister how to do fractions and giving them lucnh and prioritizing their #needs over mine both mentally and physically and now she cant let me have one thing she cant let me have one fucking thing #i just wanna sleep im so tired and i wanna sleep and she wont let me and im so tired of her bitchy behaviour where everything i say is #turned against me and makes me feel stupid and invalidates me and makes me never wanna ask for anything for myself ever again god i just. #i just wish she actually cared about me in a non superficial way i wish she wasnt so insecure and so jealous and so mean and so inconsiderat #abt the fact that i gave away almost my whole life for her and my younger siblings i ruined relationships and friendships i drop everything #for her the second she asks i’ll defend her against everyone and i’ll never get that back i will always just end up feeling invalidated and #hurt and fuck i dont understand how she can do that how tf can an older sister who was meant to love me not love me #okay anyways sorry i needed to write that down somewhere #min.txt