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yippieitsarvensart · 7 months

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Tweels hc doodles + notes!

Goodness me, I've not been working on these for very long but here's all of what I've thought of within 2 days of thinking about them!! I basically started writing about them the moment I finished drawing "the fuck you brothers" post (9/24) (and today, 9/26) I totally have been thinking about them more after I wrote all this, so I will be continuing on with my hcs right here, under the cut :3 (keep in mind I have not yet played twst! If I get anything gravely wrong correct me!) (9/28, edit: I downloaded twst y'all...)

Both of the twins are autistic, just being on very different ends of er... intensity? Idk how to word that. I just mean that Floyd is someone who has trouble regulating his emotions and stims a lot. Jade doesn't stim as often, he probably would if he were infodumping about mushrooms/his terrariums or whatever else. I think I mean. That Jade suppressed his autistic tendencies by a lot to seem more like a gentleman, while Floyd doesn't really give much of a shit and probably doesn't even know he's autistic.

on that note they both have ADHD. AuDHD brothers.

Anyways as I way saying abt Floyd stimmies; He stims a LOT. Just, all the damn time. It gets so annoying for a lot of people and everyone knows he can't control it. His clingyness is also stimming, he's very touchy. A lot of stim toys don't actually help him but he does calm down significantly more when he's wearing headphones and listening to loud music. That's what stimulates him the most.

Jade only stims when excited, yeah I mentioned that. But did I mention he also stims a lot when stressed. In front of costumers, if he was stressed he might only fiddle with his fingers behind his back. But as soon as he gets away it's full body stimming time baby. Mans is not okay but he cannot let that mask slip!! (I forgot the word before, but I meant to say in my first dotpoint that jade is better at masking than Floyd!!)

Floyd mcr liker >_< (songs about depression and drugs to think about violence to!) Floyd also likes shit like "41 mins of roblox music" or any spongebob music. skull emoji.

Jade Laufey liker :33 (calm songs to think about violence to!)

Floyd likes dancing around in his room to music. Like really getting into it. Putting one song on loop and doing the same dance moves over and over again. (stimming) (oh my god I'm PROJECTING AGAIN stop....)

Jade likes drawing mushrooms. He's really good at drawing nature and when I say "good" I mean if you looked at it, you'd think it was a picture. Like abnormally good for someone who used to not even have paper available...

I saw this from a moot once on twitter I think, but they both (+ Azul) probably had a hard time adjusting to walking around everywhere instead of swimming when they first came onto land. And I think there was something about holding on to bars on stairs WAYY too tight because they feel so wobbly going up them. Same with like, escalators? and elevators? didn't fucking trust them. And they still don't sometimes... Adding onto this I think that they'd both get really frustrated at first with it. Like genuinely really upset; Floyd dramatically falling to the floor and flailing around on the verge of tears while Jade punches the ground over and over... They obviously got better at land things after a long while but for a bit they were just so. not okay LOL

I think for casual/home clothes they'd both be really into big fluffy jumpers. massive fucking huge fluffy shits. They'd be all over the texture and it would be so so texture /pos drooling emoji

I had a little thing that I thought of where I would give Floyd Heart shaped eye shines PLUS an extra smaller not heart eye shine. And giving Jade a square shaped shine with no extra shines. It just makes so much sense to me. Like I can't explain it very well but if you get it, you get me. Do you get me...

WHICH leads me to say then that when Floyd gets MAD he would have NO eye shines. Do you get me. I totally make sense right/. And Jade getting happy about anything even if it doesn't show on his face it would totally show in his eyes... Which also brings me back to something I wrote in my doodle notes with the pupils being like cats... OUGH I'M GOING INSANE DO I MAKE SENSE

another thing my twt moot said !! Floyd would hate necklaces/rings/other accessories and jewelry! It relates back to my point about Floyd hating the feeling of tight clothes, and things touching his skin too much. I feel like if he had say, a necklace on for like 0.1s he would rip it the fuck off, destroying the necklace in the process

Floyd: :3 (aggressive)

Floyd loving to squeeze people but hurting them is 90% of the time on purpose hurting and 10% accidental hurting and when it IS accidental he gets so upset about it. I like to think Floyd is the more emotional out of the two... just so many emotions in that boy. like he just !! wants to give you love !!! but he's so strong he breaks ur ribs !!!! many of ur ribs!! ur honestly surprised you haven't punctured a lung yet!!!

On that note they BOTH are extremely touch starved. Floyd would fucking LOVE it if someone were to lay down on top of him for hours he would feel so squished!! and warm and nice!! and comfy!

Jade on the other hand, LOVES holding hands. holding ONTO something holding onto someONE.

Jade is a gift giver (love language) I bet you can't guess what Floyd is

His love language is Physical touch. Yeah

Jade getting people way too many gifts when it's a special occasion for them because he thinks they might think it's weird if he gets them a gift on any other day.

Floyd hyperpop liker (just overall really likes loud thrashy music or whatever)

Floyd also really got into those games where you have to beat the shit out of a dummy. He doesn't like ones where you have to TIME a hit to make it work (makes him annoyed bc he can't do it) Games like Pou I think....

While Jade enjoys colour by number or those hue games? just doing it in his free time.

#Please be autistic about them with me #Share your own hcs with me in comments/reblogs and if I like them I might add them #sorry guys I really like spreading the autism illness to all my faves #that's why I keep talking about how tismy they are to me #hope you don't mind #teehee #digital art #art #disney twst #twst fanart #twst hcs #twst #jade leech #floyd leech #leech twins #tweels #hcs #neurodivergent #disney twisted wonderland

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walrus150915 · 7 months

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Since you liked my rambling abt my random Nimona headcanons, here's part 2

- Starting off with the queen (rip), I think her white hair is actually a wig and she has some gorgeous greying tight curls under it

- There was a thingy "the Boldheart project" which was created when Bal got accepted into the Institute's knight program. "The project" followed his progress in training to figure out if commoners were able to train as good as nobles. If he completed the course successfully, the reform would be set (sry I like talking abt fantasy politics- yea, putting responsibility on a literal child to become a figure of "equality" is... Sure a strategy)

Let's stop with the politics amirite

- Ambrosius sings in the shower. First it was like quiet humming n stuff but when him and Bal start living together this guy's shower was akin to opera (hah- soap opera- get it-)

- Ambrosius would be a type of a rich dude who fantasizes about living on his own and providing for himself and having this sweet humble suburban way of life with his husband until he actually starts living this way (he's a literal nepo baby- cmon the habits will be there even if he tries being independent)

Ambrosius: Bal, I don't get why I keep burning my bread! It's the second time I fail!

Ballister: Practice makes perfect, darling

Ambrosius: But these KitKoters make it look so easy😭😭

- He catches up gradually tho. Bal is very understanding, Nimona is having a lot of fun with this

- Does fun include bullying Ambrosius for not knowing how to remove plants to the bigger pots?. Yea kinda

- Nimona's hanging out with the kingdom's kids from time to time. She goes out of her way to make them laugh or make them feel happy in general. It heals her inner child, in a way

- Even though she hangs out with them from a perspective of a cool older shapeshifting punk sibling, she still feels like their peer and can't help but transform into her child form sometimes

- idk I think Nimona shapeshifts into a child pretty often if she feels overwhelmed or emotionally devastated or just wants to be taken care of

- Ballister does take care of her

Wow this got sad fast. Anyway

- Ambrosius is left-handed but was forced to relearn because the perfect descendant of Gloreth cannot be left-handed, it's abnormal🤓

- Ballister can't help but go 😬 when either Ambrosius or Nimona take food with their left hand while eating. Yeah technically eating with his flesh hand would be easier for him. No he won't do that for the life of him (saying hi to all Muslims out there)

- Ballister decides to grow out a real beard and Nimona thinks it's the coolest thing ever to play with during their family quality time. Ambrosius also likes this change in his looks but for rather uh... gay different reasons😁

If we're talking about gay stuff I might just as well talk abt some Goldenheart hcs

- When they've only started dating Ballister had a really difficult time with the eye contact bc Ambrosius's loving gaze was too much to handle for him. He'd see how gentle and soft his eyes are and how they're filled with complete adoration to the top and just look away all blushy and smitten

- I think we as a fandom agree that Ambrosius's love language is arm chopping physical touch. Have you considered how important kisses can be to him in expressing his love tho

- Ambrosius LOVES kissing Ballister. He's probably kissed him everywhere if you think about it-

- But yea. He steals kisses from Bal as often as he can. Boo goes to work? Kiss him goodbye. Boo gets back? Kiss him goodhi - doesn't matter where😉

- His favorite place to kiss is probably Bal's neck bc he just likes nuzzling into it and making him all flustered

- Ballister loves kissing Ambrosius as well. His favorite thing ever is press kisses into Ambrosius's hair while they're lying down on the couch, Ambrosius's head on Ballister's chest n his arms around Ballister's torso. It makes them both feel very soft and warm and safe❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

- (teenage years) You know this type thing when kittens playfully fight each other and jump onto each other and bite and stuff? Yea that's teenage Goldenheart

- (a little older than teenage years) current sparring trend in the writer part of the fandom. That's it. You know damn well what I'm talking about

- At some point their private training sessions became the reason they succeeded in combat and got the highest of marks

Okay gay stuff is over

- Nimona has some pretty dark humor but draws the line at the things that could really trigger her or other people. Joking about burning everything down? Of course. Joking about... Well... The act 3 of the movie? Nope, never

- Nate Knight (do ya remember him?) does drag in his off-duty time haha RuPaul hi

- Ballister snores in his sleep bc he's a dad like that

- Ballister also is a type of dad to sleep on the couch while watching TV, and when you turn it off he wakes up and tells you he's been watching it this whole time

- Both Nimona and Ambrosius encourage Ballister to speak his mother tongue more often bc he used to hide it at the Institute

- Nimona scrunches her nose when she tries to remember things

- Ballister snaps his fingers while remembering stuff, especially in "Huh... What's the word for..." situations (he just like me fr)

- Nimona loves biting pencils and pens but sometimes she bites too hard and they break in half or something

- I feel like her stomach is iron. This punk can eat an eraser or swallow a knife or drink lava-hot water and all she'll do is burp maybe

- After leaving the Institute Ambrosius would have one hell of existential crisis. All he's dedicated his life to for all these years were lies and propaganda, what's the purpose of his life now? He tries out as many new things as he can - baking, painting, singing, playing musical instruments, photography, even science (with Bal's help ofc) my dude has tried it all. He sometimes felt worthless bc his life had no greater purpose but Bal and Nimona would reassure him that living happily with people who love him is more than enough and that you don't have to be the greatest person ever to live the best life. Find joy in the smallest of things n stuff😌

- Ballister has found ways to renovate his arm and made a bunch of new prosthetics for different purposes. I feel like he'd use a hook as well sometimes (as I've heard from the disabled community, hook is a very comfortable aid). No I'm not talking about that one post about his prosthetic's... renovations (😳) from the fan acc I follow

On this quite interesting note I'll end the post😁

Gn!!

#nimona #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister x ambrosius #nimona headcanons #help #this movie is what keeps me sane

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noahtally-famous · 6 months

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I remember how I had a very minor, barely-there jaskaveawn (or whatever tf their ship name is) fic idea that’s like a ‘fresh start’ trope with the absolute slowest of slow burns and it’s these four coming across each other post-tdpi. and it came abt bc I randomly imagined dave in one of those hairstyles where his sides are shaved or one side is, and the hair at the top (and maybe the other side) just flops together on that side. like punk vibes dave who stops giving a shit and is just tired now. this man def had an emo phase, I bet, and I’ve no doubt he would adopt the punk style (at least the general looks) if motivated

but abt the fic idea...

dave was rescued from the island due to lawsuits and his family’s influence, but everyone else assumed he was a goner and that niggling bit of guilt/regret is still there in the rest of the three (bc y’know they’re all good ppl who do have some form of connection with him, despite it all). then sometime later there’s a confrontation at a bar between dave and keith—who fucking hates his guts after the finale—and somehow dave ends up from being in an alley, close to hyperventilating bc of how grimy it is, to waking up with a hangover in jashawn’s apartment/house, and he ends up staying there, temporary at first but it stretches as time passes bc he’s drifting around with no tether; he's lost physically and metaphorically, and while he doesn't want to ever see the three ppl who, in his eyes, took part in making him this way, there is a smaller part (that grows with every interaction) that yearns for it, the touch, the acceptance, the grounding support of normalcy; he craves it but he, too, is filled with regret and shame--especially when he sees sky for the first time since the incident, and finds out that she, jasmine, and shawn still keep in touch. he feels out-of-the-loop, but he also feels he deserves it. what he did went against his believes of normalcy and he hates himself for reacting so 'abnormally extreme'. and then there's sky who doesn't know how she feels anymore so she suppresses it and honestly doesn't want to see dave and that doesn't change drastically until much later; then there's jasmine who takes sky's side more but is partially willing to hear dave out, and shawn, who's more or less the opposite (leans toward dave's side, but also sky's bc he gets both sides) like he's also stuck at the center of all this bc dave did inadvertently try to kill him too in his spite--but with all four of them in the same apartment, things get a little...well, something starts to grow. (plus there are some more keith cameos here and there that bolster that growth, though I'm sure he doesn't mean it to lmao). overall the fic touches upon the idea that every character is capable of growing and redemption, the concept of perception, how they live post-td with former competitors, but also the utter angst and panic and misunderstandings, and yeah. in my head, it’s a rollercoaster and I’ve these random scenes mapped out that I’ve no idea how to connect lmao

#its just...a lot lmao #every now and then I get the urge to bring it back again and actually plan some stuff for it #*stuff meaning nonvague scenes and moments #total drama #noahtally-famous #kit stuff #tdpi #total drama pahkitew island #td dave #td shawn #td jasmine #td sky #idek what their shipname is 😭#jaskaveawn #i guess???#I had (have) a djuncan idea that follows a similar vein too (just not as much of a slow burn as this one)

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myersesque · 1 year

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just cracked open the diagnostic criteria for autism entirely to make a point - here are Direct Quotes that reminded me of the addams family, just for anyone who wasn't already on board w them all being autistic :]

not all of these apply to every addams, these are just things that apply to At Least One imo (and most of these are likely related to wednesday and gomez, bc i personally see it the most with those two) - i included little notes of why i listed each thing, but i've almost definitely missed some notable examples (whilst i've liked them for a while, this fixation is the longest i've ever had and quite new, so i'm no expert yet) - please feel free to add them in reblogs!

Persistent deficits in social communication and social interaction across multiple contexts (abnormal social approach [do i need to explain this one? wednesday is very blunt, gomez greets people by fighting them, etc etc] ... reduced sharing of interests, emotions, or affect [wednesday's flat affect & lack of emotional expression] ... abnormalities in eye contact and body language [most visible in wednesday and fester imo, but i think gomez also tends to stare a bit] ... a total lack of facial expressions and nonverbal communication [wednesday is notoriously deadpan, you could maybe argue this for morticia too] ... Deficits in developing, maintaining, and understanding relationships [a key point of the wednesday tv show being her difficulty making friends and understanding her classmates] ... difficulties adjusting behavior to suit various social contexts [they never make any attempt to change/mask their behaviours to fit in] ... absence of interest in peers [wednesday and pugsley at camp])

Restricted, repetitive patterns of behavior, interests, or activities (Stereotyped or repetitive motor movements, use of objects, or speech [thinking abt gomez's backflipping and fencing when he gets excited] ... fixated interests that are abnormal in intensity or focus [all of their morbid little interests] ... apparent indifference to pain/temperature [they are notoriously hard to injure, and morticia doesn't even flinch at the pain of childbirth])

and from the NHS website, specifically pertaining to autism in adults (so focusing on morticia, gomez, fester, etc):

finding it hard to understand what others are thinking or feeling [their absolute lack of awareness of how uncomfortable they sometimes make people, and why other people feel that way]

taking things very literally [there are other examples, but i'm thinking specifically of the scene in the new wednesday show where gomez thinks the term "head shrinking", in reference to therapy, actually means they shrink heads]

not understanding social "rules" [must i explain this one?]

having a very keen interest in certain subjects or activities [all of their morbidity, gomez w/ fencing, morticia w/ her garden]

autism also can be hereditary/genetic, so, whilst i imagine it sounds a little outlandish, it's not at all unusual for an entire family to be autistic!

so yeah! as an autistic, i really identify with them and very much 500% back this headcanon to the ends of the earth. if you've been wondering why this headcanon exists, hopefully this cleared something up for you :]

(gentle request to please not use functioning/severity labels, or the term "asp*rgers", in the notes of this post, as they are considered ableist, buy into eugenicist ideologies, and make me personally uncomfortable. thank you!)

#please don't tear me apart in the notes for this one fjdbfjf #og #the addams family #actuallyautistic #autistic #autism #asd #asc #gomez addams #morticia addams #wednesday addams #pugsley addams #fester addams #the others too but these r the ones mentioned by name

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red-dyed-sarumane · 1 month

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quastion i think uve talked abt before but i wanna hear u talk abt it again if thats the case. which magu girl do you think would be fun as a sinner a la limbus company. like who do u think would be the best fit...

the only 2 ive talked about are the girlies bc u made the best art of them in the limbus spirte style but why dont i just go thru all of them to amuse no one but myself.

honestly with shoushitsu's perceived emotional distance it might be fun to see her as one. she has her own desires & is willing to act on them Clearly given she's alive in the series but the fact that she can bury that to seemingly deal with the problem unbiased (impossible but shes doing it better than anyone else) would make her an interesting sinner. everyone would see her as the normal one or the slightly annoying one until it would get to her canto & open a whole new perspective on her. she strikes me as being similar to faust, if just a little.

kyuuyaku i dont think would be the best candidate for a sinner. she has the motivation but the whole dying repeatedly & watching everything crumble with her is clearly getting to her. she's a fighter in the fact she wont give up but i dont think she has what it takes to do any abnormality suppression. i also think at some point if not right away the whole dante bringing her back to life thing is going to trigger some sort of panic attack or similar.

touhikou would also make a good sinner. she's willing to fight. she's willing to go off on her own if that's what it takes to get her answers. between kannagi & kyuuyaku being in the same time as her it seems to me she's dealt with both sides, praying & research, and decided neither of them were enough & she'd find her own way. she'd be good at suppression & likely the job in general, with the one problem being she also would end up disagreeing with the other sinners as she works with them, but due to contracts she cant just leave this time. she would be a fun sinner.

tenshi. WORST pick for a sinner. whats she gonna do. cry and make them feel bad????? girl's not saving anyone she's getting smushed by the first abno she meets. she would never be able to handle any ego or corrosion thereof. she's like u said she would be one of the cool npcs that gets killed before the end of the chapter. much like how she does in the series.

apoptosis is my other choice for good sinner. theres something so so wrong with her her ego skills would be So Something & with how she melts down in canon i bet shes prone to ego corrosions. shes also just so fucking awful she would have no problem fighting everyone and anyone like vergilus would have to scare her into behaving shes that bad i think. i dont even think her canto would be that deep i think shes just Like This.

maximizer could go either way. shes full of ..... idk if its whimsy exactly but shes at least pretending to be very lax which could either lead to a very dramatic canto reveal or very lackluster one. she'd see fighting & ego stuff as just part of the job & wouldn't have any real problems with it i think.

kanon could be interesting given shes willing to lie to manipulate others. like yeah she regrets that but its a thing that happened. she did in fact go that far. i think that could be a very interesting reveal if her canto was later; everyone working with her having no real problem with her, shes just there, and then suddenly everyone finds out its because of her influence & direction people got killed permanently & her outward way of handling it was just 'well that wasnt the goal sorry that happened'. like maximizer i dont think shed have any real problem with fighting anything given its in her contract, its probably just inconvenient for her.

ashura would also be a good sinner bc theres a lot going on with her itd be fun to explore in this setting. the whole controlled by external forces theme & all. but bc of that she might not be considered to become a sinner in the first place since she lacks her own motivations or at the very least wont act on them. i think she's bitter enough tho they should let her fight things i want to see her ego corrosions.

laboratory would be a bad choice for sinner too i think. shes a do as shes told oops i forgot to be a person type chara. she'd be one of the branches like research workers that gets killed mid chapter or like shrenne not a sinner. i dont think she has any fight in her anyway.

yamete. realistically i think she'd be in the same company as labo & end up getting killed slightly after her after spending all her energy fighting to keep labo alive & failing. that said in series it seems like she does have a lot of her own motivations and ambitions her downfall was purely buying into the "just do ur job" rhetoric she was pushed. she's bitter & she's biting as she goes down so i think itd be fun to give her a sinner role anyway.

kannagi i think would be a bad sinner on the basis of she's not really willing to fight for want she wants. she IS acting of her own will & has her own desires but she's so non confrontational about it, at least from what i can understand, that she would be like. useless functionally as a sinner. she can be an npc for funsies tho.

#asks #emimin #aru sekai series #limbus #i should catch up on limbus stuff bc lets be honest im NOT beating the spicebush fight anytime soon #so i wont be able to read it first hand which upsets me but i. i want to know whats fuckening in there

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frooploos · 1 year

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Background somg belongs to Ichiko Aoba, somg name is “porcelain” from her album Windswept Adan, it’s very wonderful :D

REEE OK ONTO EVAN AND CLARA

FOR EVAN, he is a mute as a response to the traumas he endured both during and after the bite of 83/87. In my hc, he basically ended up getting trapped in fredbear with Cassidy to which he would proceed to not get tormented but definitely just idk bullied??? By Cassidy, cuz yk, ya, angry soul and such. He was pr much isolated for this entire time and so ofc, he just stops talking all together just so that Cassidy would leave him alone. (Not to vilify Cassidy btw, ik she’s a victim but, come on… she’s a kid :|, and an angry one at that)

A few things abt the mute thing, William input a feature to Evans voice box due to him never using it, where to communicate anything, he has the ability to make that sound lil old bear cubs do when they’re calling for mom n such. He also does that purring thing too when he feels very safe also. Why? Bc why not, his father’s a fucking rotting fursuit ffs lmao.A also Evan is a very very veeery big momma’s boy. He always runs to her for whatever, and she kinda enforces it on accident, but that’s for another time.

UH AND FOR CLARA, due to the absolute lack of lore to her especially, I will tell my hc/ideas of her. Basically, she was the working parent who was hardly ever at home, same applied for William but at least he would come home around like idk let’s say 4pm, and then head straight to his workshop/garage. For Clara, she was a college psychology major (this is important, u will see), and had two jobs. She would typically come home from work after like maybe 11, so she hardly ever rlly spent much time with the kids, or paid attention. This was changed after the bite, she quit her job, dropped out, and at some point, dies of a car crash. (Will obvsly, puts her into ballora, yada yada the rest is known I believe)

After everything, and everyone is united, Clara chooses to be a house mom for a bit, knowing her mistakes and acknowledging this massive opportunity to redeem herself as a mother, to which she actually does. Ofc, she has a hard time adapting due to not being human anymore, missing when her kids were normal and still able to live normal lives, she misses it all and takes it pr hard. She responds to this by pr much being the therapist of the family, not JUST trying to be a mom, but also trying to ignore what happened in the past, and as if this is all normal.

At some point tho, the family is discovered by the J-G.E.M.S. Foundation, yes this is a j-gems reference bc those guys are so cool for what they do. Also this foundation specializes in paranormal/abnormal activity/incidents etc. and being a stepping stool for when I need convenience for the family rehabilitating. You can think of them as the SCP if u want, that’s basically what they are LOL.

BUTT YEAH, these mfs allow and provide support for the rehabilitation, and this includes giving Clara, Will, and maybe even Michael jobs. Clara, is given an online college education in psychology to continue that career, and so u can see where this is going. She becomes an actual therapist for everyone, (especially Evan) and even at some point, becomes a therapist for employees of the J-G.E.M.S.

Uhhh ya, for Will, I have an idea for what his job could be, but I’m still not too sure, I’ll take ideas if anyone has any. Or I just might go with this one, idk. BUTT FOR HIM, he gets a job in studying remnant for the foundation, since he has extensive knowledge in that field. The problem for him tho, is the fact that he has to make a trade with the J-G.E.M.S. If he wants them to keep supporting the family, the deal is Will has to answer a lot of questions from the foundation about EVERYTHING, and this is where he doesn’t know how to react. He is definitely very very cautious abt answering these questions and that’s all I’ve got rn.

Srry for the rlly long post lol idk where to put the jgems thing KEJDKDJDJ BYE BYE

#springtrap #fnaf au #afton family #william afton #clara afton #evan afton #crying child #fnaf recovery au

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wulvert · 1 year

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HACK WHEEZE GOOFNMOR NING. IT IS NOT MORNING FOR ME ACTUALLY I HAV MISSED IT BY A LONGSHOT. ANYWAYS HAPPY BELATED PAPERTEETH DAY YOU WON THROUGH THE ILLNESS!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉

tw for: discussion of suicide (about avery) nd questions about avery's mental state i guess? if ur uncomfortable with answering the questions here for any reason pls for the love of god do NOT answer. or delete the ask nd i can resend it without this part. theres a marker for when i stop talking about it!

i am. so deeply concerned about avery's mental state. the repeated showcases of such severe self hatred to the point of suicidal ideation is so so worrying i want her 2 be happy. i like exploring nd expanding on it when i write her though!!! complex characters my beloved. was avery. always in this mental state before being turned? or was it. becoming a vampire that triggered it. or did becoming a vampire just like. make what she already had worse? i am. very worried for her

(discussion of suicidal topic end)

um. heres a lighter question: WHY DID SCARLET REACT LIKE THAT WHEN AVERY FIRST CALLED HER,,,WHO DID SHE THINK WAS CALLING,,,IS THIS JUST HOW SHE ANSWERS THE PHONE. IS IT RELATED 2 SCARLETS "FEELS ALONE TO THE POINT OF ABNORMALITY" THING ND SHE WAS JUST RLY EXCITED 2 HAVE SOMEONE CALL? IS IT JUST A FOR FUN DETAIL IM OVERTHINKING. I HAVE 2 KNOW,,,

also. how did scarlet know where avery lives. did she like. ask trisha nd trisha asked her dad/rummaged through his files? asked kelly?

GOODMORNING ITS 5PM! I did it,,,

ok yeah tw: implied suicidal ideation pretty much what lesbian_1sm said:

right so she's def never been this low b4- but she's definitely overall throughout her life been pretty empty, she's never had any control of her own life, its all been what her parents want for her & her brothers- becoming a vampire's the worst possible scenario for her, she under 0 circumstances can fulfill her parents wants in any way whatsoever. so that sucks, cuz she's dedicated every waking moment of her life to that. she's raised to think vampires existing is morally wrong- so she feels guilty for not being dead but she also, honestly doesn't want to die, she's never rly got to live 4 herself but it seems like the only thing ethical thing she can do. so she hates herself a lot, but she also hates herself for not hating herself more. rip. she is gonna latch onto any "excuse" for her to not turn herself in, she just needs some outside thing to justify it to herself with. she genuinely thinks kelly would just kill her no questions asked if she told him even though theyve been friends for like. a gazillion years.

she'll be okay though i think becoming a vampires necessary for her to get better in the long run otherwise she'd stick to that murder grindset for the rest of time

ITSA OVER WE CAN TALK ABT SCARLET AND HER LESS OVERT DESPAIR NOW WAHOO

I THINK SHE'S JUST LIKE THAT NOW. shes not used to people anymore. a spam call is a huge event for her- she has to make them stay to talk for a minute.

she probably asked around, i think vampire hunters like to impose so a few people probably know where she lives- & scarlet probably just said she wanted to check up on her after hearing about the disruption - her desperate intensity probably made ppl think they were close friends (not out of character for avery not to let her friends know where she lives, so whatever) so they unquestioningly gave it to her.

#asks

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gimyung · 1 year

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Uno reversing you

answering this while crying btw

my all-time #1 is from Great Teacher Onizuka. like i love the track and love the visuals despite it being an old anime. actually discovered the song before even finding out it was frm an anime and i was surprised tbh. happy to report that gto also became one of my fav animes so !! 🫶

the rest under the cut!

(some of them are kinda essay-ish so it's a long read, but rest assured i get tired of talking at some point)

quick sidenote that i've stopped watching anime for like a good chunk of my life zzz so i might have missed out on a lot of them/forgotten most of them? don't shoot me for having limited selection 😭 tried to make it as diverse since i just have 10 spots but tbh it's so hard cus i clearly have a certain preference for rock/math rock for anime openings so ??

↳ this track + video really just has a chokehold on me. it's the coolest thing in existence imo. i cannot stress enough that it feeds you both in visuals and in audio !! i've alrd talked abt this above so we skipping the essay for her. watch gto!

↳ plz before i get called a cheater, these two tracks kinda sound the same because it's the same vocalist (TK is him as a solo artist, LTS is the band). unravel (tokyo ghoul) beats abnormalize (psycho pass) when it comes to audio, but visual-wise i just dig the art for psycho pass's OP more. like yeah the art for tokyo ghoul opening is much more of a feast to the eyes and the animations slap, but psycho pass as an anime entirely hits different to me.

↳ visuals-wise it's normal (pls it's the type of OP that feels like a spoiler if u watch it wtf 😭 but it really doesn't spoil anything). i'm just in love with this because it works well as an opening song, but also works for fight scenes (kinda like unravel).

whoever is behind bungou stray dogs sure did a great job of inserting the opening song in the middle of the episode. like i rmr getting confused there hasn't been an opening yet few mins into the episode, and then there it is in the fight scene itself. it gets a 10/10 in versatility because it just always fits all throughout the season.

↳ never beating the cheating allegations bc here we are again with a tie. in my defense, asian kung-fu generation anime openings r really fuckinnnn good. visually it's haruka kanata (naruto) for me especially cus of the team 7 snippets, but audio-wise rewrite (fma) is something i'll never get tired of listening to. makes me feel like i'm a main character smoking after i just beat up dozens of guys. (i didn't watch fma though zz but for some reasons i know of this song)

↳ durarara!! is one of my all-time fav animes tbh and this opening just gives the proper vibes for it. drrr's storytelling is very non-linear (rashomon effect/method forgot the literary term) where you get different povs from each character before it culminates into one event, and this song feels like that? it feels like i'm in the middle of tokyo piecing together all the stories i've gotten and then getting sudden clarity.

↳ someone recommended jujutsu kaisen to me way back and ngl i'm a serial anime opening skipper but i was just physically unable to skip this one every time. like? even the visuals go hard. eventful anime opening for such an eventful anime tbh.

↳ proud to be one of the ppl who actually know abt this song from bakemonogatari itself 😭 tbh the anime's opening songs don't really go hard even if it's that kind of genre. i honestly like bakemonogatari though and it was funny to me that all the ops were cutesy despite it being a mystery show.

it's quirky yet still fits the premise of the series, like mc just bickers with some people he meets and then boom suddenly he's covered in blood. shoutout to shaft studio because they're just a master of absurd anime. like yeah there are fight scenes but ?? the way it's not even the main point of the show is fun to me.

↳ plz an iconic opening for an iconic anime (ohshc) 🌸 !! growing up this anime had a grip on me, as well as that "kiss kiss fall in love!" in the beginning. free serotonin tbh, the anime and this op.

↳ used to know this word-for-word... help. this doesn't sound like the type of ops above but it's really catchy. naruto ops slap that's that on that

↳ brooooo the vibes of this song... it makes me feel powerful. and a lot just happening in the entire song, kinda like tokyo revengers fr 😭 like the sound changes in the middle of the song and it confuses me but it's so good (again, kinda like tokyo revengers itself)

anyways, waiting for ur list! <3 thank you for ur interest in the shit i say

oki i finished, my bad if it's super long but i think you signed up for that by asking me. like i just don't ever give a simple answer ever i get too excited, and next thing i know it's too late to regret lmfaooo

wish i can include more but this was already physically hard for me to type bc i know im letting go of my other favs 😭

#jannswers #<3li-li

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Do as many or as few of these as you want!

Band/Artist: Hippo Campus

Song: Simulation Swarm by Big Thief

Album: Ed Buys Houses by Sidney Gish

hey this is ira 4-5 days in the future this is going under a read more you'll see why thanks so much love you

Hippo Campus

Do I know them already?: yes :) and i am so normal about them come closer | no

If I know them:

Favourite Song: Usually Chapstick, Formerly Bambi, Currently Listerine ; okay i've been working on this ask for a few days because busy. i also really like ease up kid an abnormal amount.

Least Favourite Song: uhhh. not necessarily "least favourite" as much as "have listened to it less than 10 times" - baby

Favourite Album: i think landmark is just always going to be a part of my life forever and ever to be honest with you. it's the album that got me into hippo campus and the summer a few years ago now that it was the only album i listened to for 3 months was the lowest place i've ever been in and i think this music + walking aimless and flat broke in a city i had literally run away to on a manic whim for hours because i worked all the time but never made enough money to do anything there + listening to landmark on total flat out loop until i heard the music even when i wasn't listening to anything - is something i don't think i will ever be able to forget. those 3 months were...not ideal? but this one album has attached to it every single small shred of a good thing, a good feeling, a good meal, relief from sitting down after a 12 hour restaurant shift, sunset in the best autumn weather i've ever experienced, riding a bus that wasn't for school for the first time, my first taste of a real, actual city life, boardwalk wandering, the laughter however rare and even the month i spent in the hospital; which, mind you, was easily the best month of the whole three of them. really good album. lp3 is really bomb too :)

Least Favourite Album: mmm. demos I ? but not. all the songs on it i just vibe better with the mesh of how demos II is set up...

Song that got me into them: it has quite literally been. years and years but i think it was halocline, waaay. way back in 2015 on my not-boyfriend's 8tracks. then i forgot about the band when i stopped talking to my not-boyfriend. then found them again a few years later with bambi, which still is very very very dear to me and very important

Seen Live?:

Not. Yet. Soon.

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 100 this is literally my favorite band almost 10 years running babey #hippocampussweep

Song: Simulation Swarm by Big Thief

Oh my g-d the lyrics are so fucking good. yeahyeahyeahyeah yes sing to me about the crooked corpses the empty horses yes yes the river of light yes yesyesyesyes i love when words are so good oh my G-D they say simulation swarm just now. yes. yes. yay. holy shit. i already really loved a few Big Thief songs going into this so i am of course not disappointed; i really love this. you should listen to bloodlust by aeseaes.

Album: Ed Buys Houses by Sidney Gish

wait holy shit i just looked it up i know this album. i did not recognize the artist name or album name at all. what do you want from me tonight is one of my fav songs that i point at and say look its me. hell yes

Opinion on cover design: it's so good it looks like the inside of my brain :]

Favourite song: what do you want from me tonight (before listening to full album) | ...Other than WDYWFMT (bc h. yes) probably either hexagons and other fun materials Or presumably dead arm. :) i also really like homecoming serf for sureeee!!

Least favourite song: midnight jingle sorry or not sorry depending on how you feel abt it

Underrated track: i do not follow a lot of ppl who talk abt gish. but probably buckets of fun

Overrated track: i do not follow a lot of ppl who talk abt gish. pbb wdywfmt because thats the one that came up on my discover weekly like 2 years ago when i foudn that song and proceeded to not listen to any of the rest of it until just now so thank you

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9.5 | 10

Song opinions:

!Ed Buys Houses! -- Cute and poppy absolutely zoned out during it though because I was so floored at the realization that i knew this album and haven't recognized it this almost whole week

Midnight Jingle -- Unfortunately i am extremely nitpicky about speaking voices in my songs and the niche where voices are good in a song and where i start getting bored / annoyed is thin and veneered in judgement. the actual song is good i just almost skipped it entirely because of the phone convo at the beginning

Buckets of Fun -- YES YES YES STATIC DISTORTION IN SONGS <333 YES BABE RUUUUIN THE LEVELS ON YOUR AUDIO FILES!!!!! YES !!!!!!!!!!!!

Homecoming Serf -- oh good the melancholy. hm this is less about the Song and more about the Experience thus far (oh hell yes jesus of suburbia reference <3) but i really love how the songs so far haven't been super jarring to the pace of listening to it straight through, midnight jingle is almost in my mind retroactively justified because i can't imagine the disappointment i'd feel about another I CAN EASILY ACT GAYER THAN FUCK HATE. i love you gish. thanks. i'd feel about another phone call dragging on for a minute before there's any Song. so if it has to exist it does make sense to be a "first song" after the "theme" song that !EBH! is serving as a role. this song though goes so fucking hard i relate so hard <3 i love the atmosphere. it's not a sad song? it's a song that's lowkey and expressionistic--okay, sorry to be...a theatre person but in this song specficially sidney sounds like veronica sawyer from o'keefe's running ?? i think ??

Vaudeville -- aw hey apparently i have vaudeville relatives on my mom's side that's fun. this song does sort of slow down but again the pace is very intentional / consistent still. almost like a heart beat! i don't know how to word it but there's some kind of specific Thing that gish is doing with the music overall that is very funky and i enjoy it very much. the words and phrases and curses placed so Casually throughout the music is very harsh in a very good way. like a scrape at a waterpark. or rope burn on a tire swing.

Friday Night Placebo -- i've been eyeing the title of this song this whole time... it definitely is starting to slow down, but again it's like the entire album is on a curve. okay it ramps up and then down. i also feel like it's possible the album is weaving a specific story but i can't read the lyrics while i type this so i struggle to hear all the words (#hohW) but i do love just this feeling. very hazy? is that the word? i'm trying to find this word that encompasses this feeling. it's not hazy, it's not juvenile. what is the word! sorry i kept getting called by a telemarketer during this song but tbh that added i think to the intended emotion overall. maybe. it feels very ... not rugged. what is the word. oh the song's over--

Hexagons and Other Fun Materials -- funky groovy ass bass line. hell yes. also i love shapes please explain math and shapes to me. oh no i relate to this song already oh g-d oh fuck fuck oh no. fuck. well. what a fun little story about wanting to find something to excel in so that you will seem in some way meshed with those around you, but you are not able to force yourself into it. okay. there's voices in this one but i relate so deeply to the song itself in a way that is a little shocking for some reason that actually i don't even care. i might even Like those voices being there. oh my g-d i need to call my therapist. sorry. hesus christ.

Cokesbury -- back down to the dampened tone... you know those hoodies? with the - like - wool, i think, or maybe hemp...? thick knit and super super rough textured, with the slow diamond patterns. you can get them in stoner shops a lot i think. that's what this sounds like. it smells like incense and a super dark, barely lit, cramped souveneir shop in a college town (not a college city. college Town.) there's like one employee who leans against the cashier counter and ignores you as long as they possibly can (as they should). this album is probably the type of music that would play on those shitty little sony speakers hung up way too far apart in each corner of the store and played at too low a volume to actual build into a song you can hear properly. it's great.

It's Afternoon, I'm Feeling Sick -- this album came out in 2016 which is when-ish i moved across the country to live with my dad i hadn't spoken to in 5+ years out of nowhere and i know this is not true this is a joke here but also i do think if you put this album to a wordless biopic of the last 2 years of high school and first 2 years of my dad having custody of me you would think it had been written for that biopic specifically. good song!

Presumably Dead Arm -- yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes the intro. is nice. yes there's the words. oh i love this alreadyyyy. second to last song on the album yes babe i love it. honey you are nothing to me!!!! i am dying on the sofa and i'm . oh my G-D this one could be the ending of the biopic where i had run away from home and was insane for several years following. i want to have a coffee with gish gonna be honest with you i think we'd have some things to talk about. i love the "i want to go back, i want to know you when i didn't and i want to have what everyone i knew had" ... oh boy this song hits for me. i think this one's going on my "songs that look like me" playlist. btw i genuinely have no idea if any of this Says Anything about my mental state or whatever so like feel free to psychoanalyze me should you ever want to i love being perceived. 10/10 song. oh no we're almost done. i was just starting. where did the time go.

What Do You Want From Me Tonight? -- WELL I TOOK SOMEONES ADVICE WITH A ROLL OF EACH EYE!!!!! SHE TOLD ME TO SIT DOWN TWICE WAHT DO YOU WANT FROM ME TONGITH NOW IM STUCK LOSING MY MIND WHILE EVERYONE ELSE JUST THINKS THAT IM REALLY SHY WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME TONGIHT CUZ IM INVITED BUT IM TERRIFIED TOO AND ILL SIT HERE FOR A MILLION YEARS JUST STARING ACROSS THE ROOM BUT WHAT DO YOU WANT CUZ I WANT IT ALL AND ID REALLY RATHER STEP BACK BUT MY WALLS AGAINST THE WALL WHAT IF IM TOO NICE ITS A PUNCH IN THE FACE TO BE SO OVERPOLITE WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME TONGIHT MY VOICE IS TOO HIGH AND IT MATCHES MY HEAD AND I LOOK LIKE I WANNA DIE WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME TONGIHT? CUZ IM INVITED BUT IM TERRIFIED TOO. AND ILL SIT HERE FOR A MILLION YEARS JUST STARING ACROSS THE ROOM. BUT WHAT DO YOU WANT CUZ I WANT IT ALL AND ID REALLY RATHER STEP BAACK BUT MY BACKS AGAINST THE WALL ADN IM BORN TOO TALL TO CONTORT MY SPINE INTO A BALL AND I WANNA DISAPPEAR BUT IM NOT ADEQUATELY SMALL!!!!! AND IM INVITED BUT IM TERRIFIED TOO AND ILL SIT HERE FOR A MILLION YEARS JUST STARING ACROSS THE ROOM BUT WHAT DO YOU WANT CUZ I WANT IT ALL AND ID REALLY RATHER STEP BACK BUT MY BACKS AGAINST THE WALLLLLLLLLLL.

#asks #l-cereta #was so tempted to post without a read more. look at my music opinions!!!!!!#thank you add this was fun to work on in increments thru the week #for clarity purposes i literally Just Now sat down and listened to the album all the way thru though!!!!!

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*youtuber vc* WHATZ up famerz. i’ve got another SICK character for you to get to know! so SMASH that follow button! MAIM me with that like!

...anyway hi i’m demi, the famed hag, and this is my fourth child (following sung, andy, n jeonghwa) her name is kiana, also goes by ki and kiki, and if that nickname brings to mind anything But kiki’s delivery service u shall b Wrong. she’s fuse’s main dancer and lead vocalist, iconic qwen. here’s her pinterest, bio, public profile, private profile, timeline [wip for links], plots, & social media [wip for insta]. i’ll leave a condensed version under ze cut <3 you can reach me easiest at fmdjoosung or demi#6468 on discord if you’d like to chat abt this girlie!

okay first things first i’m gonna nip this in the bud. if ur like excuse? iu in fuse? ur coocoo for cocoa puffs for that one. u would be right! and i intend to prove to u that she Is fitting. example a-z demonstrates an at home kiki and a fuse ki. thank me later for all this pretty laydee content

background

may 28th, 1994 ya girl is a gemini

from seattle

born to a pediatric surgeon and a software engineer (who specializes in ai bc her mom is Cool) kiana developed a love for science... then tossed it away to be A Star

not immediately though

really it all stems from the desire to be unique in a positive way

with seattle’s large east asian population, she was lumped together with everyone else, and places where she stood out, kids made fun of her for

she felt like an outcast in every sense of the word, which is why when A Boy gave her the genuine time of day, she latched on

they quickly became bad for each other, codependent at its best

kiana’s lil ass rly thought they were romeo and juliet torn apart when her parents made them break up

she kept sneaking out to see him, and eventually it became troublesome enough that her parents decided to move the fam to korea

heartbroken and with the desire to feel desired, she auditioned for gold star

since she was young, she had dance classes, just as her mom did before giving it up for something more stable

dance isn’t what drove her as much as the feeling of a crowd being entertained by her

trained for 3 years, gold star had high hopes for her given her dance background + looks, hence her role in impulse’s a

a couple years after debut, the company manages to snag her an ost, and when that does well, they shove her onto as many osts as possible, but it manages to do basically nothing to help her or fuse’s fame, no matter the impact of the song itself, and they slow down on trying

that *big bad wolf vc* my dears, is what sets up her overall Thing, that no matter what she does, or how many people claim to love her, they don’t show up for her as a solo celebrity

it leaves her a little dejected, fearful, worried, but idol life isn’t something she minds doing anyway. part of her still wants to strive for more attention, and claw her way there, because she aches terribly to feel special and different, and to a degree, idol life will always give that to her

personality

the archetype of the kid in middle school who calls themselves L and only draws in anime style and comes to school in cosplay and naruto runs around and randomly speaks japanese........ yeah, that was kiana as a kid

and really, she’s only let the problematic parts of it go. she’s still a big fat weeb (& has lots of other fandom type interests too)

an internet kid, someone who never got a big following. draws fanart, has written fanfiction, engages on fan forums. stays at home unless she’s dragged out by friends

she’s a very Normal, Everyday type person in most ways, and that bugs her to no end

she’s someone who as a kid thought she had superpowers, like full on believed it, and to this day still thinks well maybe it’s just not kicked in yet

considers herself ~an empath~ because she naturally has very strong emotions, and seeing or “feeling” the emotions of others makes her feel that way too. that includes positive And negative emotions

she can and is wrong about what she “feels” from others, but the emotional effect on herself is still the same

and because that happens so much, kiana retreats into herself

she has a very small inner circle, and isn’t very interested in more than surface level relationships with most people because it’s exhausting to feel so much all of the time

that means usually, most people meeting her will meet someone who can be doin a little doodle, you’ll say hi, she’ll say hi back, then go right back to her doodle

she’s Nice and polite enough, but doesn’t take those first steps. some ppl might view her coldly bc of it

HOWEVA if someone were to bring up one of her ~special interests, she would come off like a completely different person

animated, kinda loud, won’t shut up. that’s more often the type of person her inner circle gets to see

she’s also a reversal of the hard shell soft inside trope, as a lot of her outward self and personality can seem soft, gentle, maybe even naive depending on someone’s view, but there is a core to her affection thats... dangerous

but i’ll leave that for the dms

and finally, here’s a phat list of personality traits that apply to kiana, depending on her relationships with who she’s talking to and how she’s feeling. yes some are complete opposites. see: gemini. if you wanna kno how to get a certain trait from her, i’ll be glad to explain

abnormal, apathetic, artistic, clingy, contradictory, dedicated, demure, disorganized, earnest, effeminate, emotional, empathetic, excitable, fanatical, guarded, hesitant, insecure, introverted, jealous, loyal, mercurial, modest, neat, needy, nervous, numb, obsessive, organized, overthinking, passionate, persevering, protective, quiet, romantic, scatterbrained, silly, stubborn, tactful, temperamental, vigilant, vivacious, volatile, wall flower, withdrawn

fun fax

claims her style inspiration is the 70s but really mixes in influences from ~the 40s to 80s

if she’s dressing herself, heavily prefers skirts and dresses over pants

doesn’t like being touched unless she’s really close with someone, then she likes a lot of it

plant mom. apartment basc a greenhouse

insists one day she will make her own jam but has yet to get around to it so she just has a bunch of jars in her apartment and uses them for plants and paper clip holders and the like

her fictional character romantic Type is the tsundere. is convinced fictional characters are the best dating partners

always wears glasses when at home, and a good amount of the time when not working in general

her mario kart main is link bc nostalgia and valuing a strong stat set that favors zoom zoom

the furthest she goes for environmental impact is always using a hydroflask

prefers having bangs and hair with a wave

always carries bandaids and bandages in her bag because she gets eczema patches when she’s stressed and it’s Embarrassing to her so she covers em up

#fmdintro #'condensed' i say #tbf this muse is well over a year old i just have a lot to say abt her #i luv her v much

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tartagliaxx · 3 years

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i'm late by like 3 days but like,,, you missed me???? 🥺🥺🥺 i'm saddd oh yeah, hello🕯 anon!!! i legitimately can't tell whether i missed an anon, hopefully not lol

and it's more like i just don't like ppl in general? i can talk to ppl online bc well, they're online and there's not rlly a sense of intimacy that's the same as irl. ppl irl either treat me as air (which is good) or bother me a lot (which is not good). i only have a couple ppl i've been comfortable with (like 4) in my entire life but all of them are gone except for my mother. and idk why my mind automatically goes ew whenever i see someone. my mind basically says that nope, that person is gonna hurt you or smth, so don't get too attached. actually, don't even get attached at all. so now even if somebody leaves or gets upset at me, i don't feel anything bc i just don't care. ngl, that's probably abnormal but well lmao

and for once when i actually wanted to lose my 50/50 to someone not diluc, kazuha came home. i have literally nothing for him bc i didn't expect him to come home??? like, i was just grinding for zhongli's artifacts but well. the good thing is that i have abt 50 pulls leftover since i only needed to hit 80 for him and my pity was already at 60. idk whether to be glad or sad that i didn't lose 50/50

— r. anon

of course i missed chu bby!! you’re my og bestie!! you’re up there in my tier list of favorite people! don’t go being sad on me now bc i’m going to cry w you 😭 anw,, hm... i dont think you missed anyone. actually, can i just say that it always makes me smile when you’re the first one to welcome the new anons? at this point you’re the honorary manager of this blog. i love that.

well, i kind of understand your pov? it’s very hard to be trusting nowadays when people are just,, so hard to trust. everyone’s a lil fucked in the head and it’s p hard to read through their actions especially when you’re worried abt their sincerity. i dont... really care for people? like i dont have much opinion on them. they exist the same way i do and i just like leaving them to their own devices. i recognize that social interactions are integral to one’s humanity but well... i’m incredibly lazy and paired w my hideous anxieties? dang, look at the time. it’s avoiding humans in general bc i cant be bothered to deal w the side effects o’clock.

is this what they call mission failed successfully? um idk but still! congrats!! kazuha’s v pretty and i’m sure that he’ll grow on you soon! i also have quite the few pulls left in my alt so i’m considering pulling for ayaka there instead of in my main so that i can stay devoted to my albedo conquest. ah idk anymore. so many first world problems. *head in hands*

hey hey bestie,, if you have the time let’s play together again! we could do that dreadful event together or maybe farm artifacts as well. it’s what i’ve been doing nowadays.

#˗ˋˏ°• letters from cat island •°ˎˊ˗#˗ˋˏ°• from my darling : r •°ˎˊ˗

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vanveronicango · 4 years

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regarding ur tags on the thing abt ‘talking/visualizing’ things in ur head: yea it’s just like a voice talking ur thoughts and stuff I don’t know whose idek if it’s Mine ya know it’s just...a voice. Can you explain how ur like abstract thoughts are bc that’s so interesting to me

i am literally so happy that you guys are just as fascinated by this as me y’all have no idea… ANYWAY

so how i see it is - i don’t think in sentences or words at all, UNLESS i’m actively reading or writing (as i’m writing this, my brain is saying each word as i type it). the only other exception is if i’m thinking of someone physically talking, but that’s obviously different.

i’m talking to dereklei ( @stozierbrak ), who says he thinks opposite from me, with an internal narrative. he says that he doesn’t tell himself to do specific things or stating observations, that his brain is “stringing together sentences" and that’s how he thinks. that the only time he thinks non-verbally is if he’s letting a daydream play out.

i’m on the other end of the spectrum. like i said before, i never NEVER think in words.my thoughts run completely in visuals and concepts, no “internal narrative” at all, as that post said. the word they used - abstract - is actually pretty on point. while sometimes i’ll picture specific things in my head, typically it’s more like a formed, visualized IDEA, but not in a literal way. say i’m thinking of someone sailing… a picture of someone sailing doesn’t come to mind (unless it’s footage or something i’ve seen irl). instead, the idea or concept of the sailing just kind of manifests itself. that’s a really basic and dumb example, but you get the picture (heh). maybe.

actually, this is ridiculously hard to explain.

i guess i can also try to answer the individual questions.

Q: is it silent in your head?

A: yes and no… i can (and do) get songs stuck in my head like anyone else, or if i’m THINKING of something that someone SPECIFICALLY SAID… then (and only then) do i think in THOSE sentences. but i never form any new thoughts as sentences or words… they are all in ideas and “abstract” imagery.

Q: can you explain abstract thoughts?

A: AH this is what’s so difficult!! i feel like after people read this they’ll be like, “oh, she just thinks in pictures and videos” but like… that’s not it. i don’t have pictures and videos shifting through my head all day (unless it’s a memory, obviously). it’s more just… i know it, it’s there. maybe kind of like a picture that you see through ten windows at once, kind of in the dark, but you think that you’re imagining it. god, i’m so bad at wording this…

OH YEAH THAT LEADS TO MY OTHER BIG REVELATION

i think this is why i have an unbelievably and abnormally difficult time putting my thoughts into words. because that’s not how i think…. my brain doesn’t put words to what it processes. so, in between my thoughts and speaking them, i have to put in conscious effort to translate them into words, like my thoughts and my speech are two completely different languages. even writing these words, somewhere between my thoughts and the words, i have to translate them before i can type them.

but like… yeah! i’m equally as fascinated with you guys! so you said it is like a voice??? does it have a distinct tone, or is it kind of a very generic thing? do the sentences play out in your head, and then you speak them? even in quiet moments, do you kind of hear this voice talking to you about what you’re thinking about?

((THE MIND READERS THING that was the cutest thing i’ve ever read… god could you imagine…. the Power))

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rasoir-national · 4 years

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Horror and format use

@ghostplantss I don't know anything abt podcasts or horror and i'm curious what you think?

Right, so it took me a couple of days to figure out how I wanted to answer that, and it turns out I really want to talk about Horror and use of medium so I’m going to ramble about that.

So. I. Love. Horror. Note that I say horror and not “the horror genre” because while you can consider that horror has become a solidified genre, my interests go deeper than that. I think I’ve mentioned my mother is a psychiatrist, and so I grew up hearing the concepts of “ego”, “perversion” and such thrown around, but there’s one in particular that always fascinated me : the Id.

If you don’t know, according to Freud’s theorization of the human psyche, it can be fragmented in 3 parts : the “ego”, that’s to say, the conscious self, the “superego”, the learned (social) restrictions imposed upon one self, and the Id. The Id, or “subconscious self” is sort of the primal self made entirely of pulsions, both “good” and “bad” according to social standards, but absolutely unpoliced by them. There are two essential pulsions, “pulsion of life” and “pulsion of death”, that tug and warp around each other, forming both the basis of our survival instinct, and our primal penchant for annihilation (of the self and others). Unconscious desires, latent fears, dreams and nightmares, “appel du vide” as we say in french for the sudden inexplicable desire you can feel atop a cliff to jump, all these stem from the Id. I know Freud gets a bad rap nowadays, and his own application of his theories have been completely invalidated by modern psychoanalysis, but he was the first person to say that it was okay to have those pulsions, that they didn’t make you “wrong” or a bad person. And what’s more, they didn’t even define you. He was the first to put in theory the idea that there’s a part of us we aren’t entirely in control of, that we don’t entirely understand.

Why am I saying all this ? Well, I think everything we think of as “horror” ultimately comes down to this very idea : there is something within us that we do not understand. And I’m fascinated by that. I’m fascinated by the unknown, the unsaid, the inexplicable, the dark side of the moon, whatever you want to call it. I’m fascinated by both our fear and our desire to understand it. And what good horror does, is allow us to explore this “something” and our relation to it through metaphor, storytelling and catharsis.

From childhood, we are bathed in horrific stories. It’s common knowledge nowadays that fairytales are a way to allow children to confront their deepest fears and desires in a safe, metaphorical manner, and “exorcise” them in order to learn social constructs and become a functioning adult. But I think we never stop craving that feeling, the confrontation with the inexplicable in a manner safe enough for us to enjoy.

That’s why I love horror. More precisely, that’s why I love every form of horror. I think any art medium can be defined by two things : what it can do and what it cannot do. A book can put words onto a feeling, but it cannot picture that feeling. A melody can convey emotions through sound, but not words. We can talk and draw pictures about both, but the medium itself is limited to the very tools that make it what it is. Or, to put it another way : for every medium, there is something it cannot fully express. Does that remind you of anything ?

Horror is, I think, the most interesting way to study the differences between forms of media, precisely because it relies so much on what cannot be explained, what attracts us, what we fear, the very limits of our ability to comprehend the world and ourselves. Take movies, one the most multimedia form of storytelling : what makes a good horror movie ? If you’ve ever seen any, you know the fear doesn’t come from what you can see or describe but from what you cannot. There’s this common wisdom that whatever you can put onscreen, it will never be as scary as what the audience can imagine, or rather, fail to imagine. The unknown is more potent than the known.

So horror movies are great, and if you want I’ll make a list of my favourites on occasion. But what if we now take a medium that’s more constricted than movies are ? Now you have to work with the fact that something you could show, or describe, or put into music, or all three, onscreen, can now only be some of those things. In Art, I think we don’t give enough credit to the creative benefits of limitations : if I can’t draw something, I’m going to have to work extra hard to get you to picture it without images. The more you are not allowed to do things, the more you’re going to invent new ways to convey what you mean.

And that can go for limitations we don’t even think about. Take one of my favourite examples, comics and manga. What makes them different from movies ? They have no sound, but also, instead of an image moving into the next on its own, it’s the reader who’s in control of when or if they turn the page. That factor, the “page turn”, is a limitation, but that’s also something that’s unique to comics ; in written books, the effect is not the same, as we cannot process a page of written text as fast as we can an image on a page. And some artists have used that limitation to enhance the effect they were going for. The master of the horror manga, Junji Ito, is I think best known for his page turners. In horror especially, you have to deal with the fact that some images alone are capable of disturbing and shocking you. In movies, there images come to you, for example in the form of a jump scare. But in comics... You’re the one theoretically in control of the page. You can close the book. You can especially close it if you know, thanks to codes of storytelling, that on the next page is something quite horrific. But if the book is good... ? You’ll have to turn the page, because you have to know. The author puts you in control of the images you’ll see, then puts you in the situation where you willingly choose to scare and shock yourself. That’s taking a limitation, and turning it into a way to enhance the effect you’re going for.

So this brings us to podcasts, and the sort of horror revival they brought. Horror has a long history with the ancestor of the medium, the radio, for obvious reasons. If we again define a podcast via its limitations, what do we get ? This is a medium without pictures, only spoken words and sounds, and it’s an episodic medium. So what you have to work with are voices, music, sound, and, equally important, the fact that you’re in control of how much you give your listeners every time, and how much time there is between what you give. All of these are considerable assets if your goal is horror.

Take Welcome to Night Vale. Its shtick is pretty simple if you break it down, and is two-faced. First, it is, in-universe, a radio program, and second, it cannot be pictured. Let’s start with the second part : the genius of Welcome to Night, and what I think every story should aspire to, is that it couldn’t be told better in another format. The characters and stories in Night Vale cannot be pictured. They can only be described. Sure, you can make fanart, but “the glow cloud” will never be better represented than it can be described. You can draw “the faceless old woman that secretely lives in your home”, but it won’t ever truly be the faceless old woman that truly lives in your home. This is horror that’s entirely reliant on the non-superposition of words and representation : our language can express things that cannot be pictured. And if you think about it, that’s incredibly scary. The second part of the schtick is the magical realism aspect of the podcast, as in, the apparent normality with which all these “abnormal” things are described in the context of a radio program, creating for the listener a warped sense of perception : what are you supposed to fear ? When should you be afraid ? I should make a separate post of magical realism, remind me someday.

As for the Magnus Archives, I’ve now listened to the first season in its entirety so I have more of a grasp on it. I had a bit of a problem with the first season, which was that it had one foot in magical realism, and the other in the fantastical, two genres that are pretty much the opposite of one another, without really seeming to decide where it wanted to stand. It’s got more of a footing now, for reasons I won’t discuss in order not to spoil you. But one of the elements I like about it is its use of multiple layers of storytelling. The shtick of TMA is the fact that statements containing short horror stories are being audiorecorded by a professional archivist for research purposes on some old tapes. As the story develop, we learn more about their place of employment, their colleagues, and what might more largely be going on. Again, we take a limitation of the medium : you can’t tell when what you’re listening to has been recorded or if what has been recorded is all that happened. And you use this element of ignorance to play with your audience : when has the story you’re listening to been written ? When did it happen ? When is it recorded ? What happened in the meantime ? If the person who wrote it and the person who records it have different points of view, how does this come into play ? What else might be recorded onto the tapes ? As I said, I’m only a fourth of the way caught up right now, but I can already see them making use of all those elements.

So yeah, hopefully this gives you an idea of the way I enjoy horror, and gives you more of an appreciation for it yourself. Some actual recs if you want to get started while I’m at it :

- The Night of the Hunter (1955 movie) : not “technically a horror movie”, but absolutely a horrific one in its use of black and white

- The soundtrack to Suspiria (1977 movie) by the band Goblins : I adore the film, but listening to the soundtrack on its own is also an interesting experience

- The Silent Hill game series (especially Silent Hill 2 and 3) : video games is, I think, the most multimedia format, and taking into account the fact the player is in control of the character, makes for some of the most creative horror ever

- The Haunting of Hill House series : tons of things have been said about it, I’d say look at the way it uses framing and editing

- Francis Bacon’s paintings : a huge inspiration for the Silent hill series, probably the best example for horror that can be represented but not described

- Junji Ito’s Uzumaki : the masterpiece of horror mangas ; pay attention to the weight of a page turn

- Emily Carroll’s Through the woods : fantastic horror comic that uses the fairytale format

- Sarah Waters’ Let the right one in : one of my favourite horror novels, pay attention to the use of narration and subjectivity

Aight, I think that’s enough rambling for me. Hope I’ve answered your curiosity !

#horror #tma #wtnv #tw: freud

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sanguinarius-archive · 5 years

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sally face... but warrior cats!

yeah it’s an au anyways if you’re interested look under the read more lollll

okay here’s some basic info abt their descriptions and yaaa i was inspired by some warrior cat generators shfdjfk

Sal: Echopaw is a slim, abnormally small, kind and gentle medicine cat apprentice with a face practically almost gone from scars and tearing, and ruffled pale blue-grey fur and a chipped right ear, with one working ocean blue eye. He is able to communicate with all aspects of life and StarClan, and smells of sweet summer rain. His full medicine cat name is Echomask.

Larry: Pinepaw is a bony yet lithe apprentice with a rather awkwardly long muzzle. His fur is long, a dark-tabby color with markings and a bushy tail, as well as deep hazel eyes. He is occasionally loud yet able to keep himself calm, and shares a close relationship with Echopaw. His warrior name is Pinesmoke.

Ash: Ashenpaw is a heavyset, playful, and friendly apprentice, with lustrous, long deep chocolate calico fur and bright green eyes. She is good at conversation and follows her own way of living. She does not believe in StarClan for the longest time. Ashenpaw's warrior name is Ashentail.

Todd: Quillpaw is an awkward, somewhat-average built ginger tom with darkened, golden eyes. His fur is curly and matted. He is an apprentice who holds a strong and firm belief in StarClan. To his friends, he is a very strategic cat, never willing to act directly on impulse. His warrior name is Quilltuft.

Maple: Maplepaw is a sleek, dark grey she-cat with broad shoulders and patterned fur. Her eyes are dark like the night, yet have a twinkle in them similar to stars. She holds a mysteriously interesting connection to both StarClan and the Dark Forest. Her warrior name is Maplefern, and when she is a queen her mate is Fuzzythroat, her one and only kit being Plumkit.

Chug: Fuzzypaw is a chubby yet strong, calm apprentice with deep swampy-brown fur and green-grey eyes. He enjoys spending time with Maplepaw, and once he has earned his warrior name, Fuzzythroat, he becomes mates with her, now Maplefern, creating their one and only kit, Plumkit. He is kind, and puts his faith in StarClan.

Soda: Plumkit is a chubby kit with bright eyes, green-grey eyes like her father and dark grey fur like her mother. She is witty and fun-loving, and loves to spend time with Echomask and Pinesmoke. She wishes for Echomask to let her playfight with him, yet because of his bad vision and the fact he is a medicine cat, he isn't one for any kind of scrapping.

Megan: Mistykit is a long-legged, yet short-bodied kit who died in a brutal murder many moons ago. She comes to visit Echomask and his friends quite often when they go out to try and summon her. She is oblivious due to her young age, but still hesitant to certain things. Mistykit was murdered by her father Flasheyes who was possibly possessed by Red-Eye. Flasheyes also murdered Mistykit's mother, Stonespirit.

Travis: Slatepaw is a short-tempered apprentice with golden-brown sleek fur and dark eyes that have little flecks of gold in them. He is mainly hateful towards Echopaw and his friends, but only because of the inner turmoil he deals with in himself. His warrior name is Slateburr.

Lisa: Blossomwing is the mother of Pinesmoke. Pinesmoke's father, and Blossomwing's mate, disappeared not too long after Pinesmoke was born. It was Echomask who found out first what truly happened to his friend's father, and had to break the tragic news to Pinesmoke. Blossomwing has fluffy tortoiseshell fur and gold eyes. She is somewhat similar to her son in that they both have awkward-looking muzzles, and friendly eyes. She is very loving of Pinesmoke and Echomask.

Henry: Oakstrike is the father of Echomask. They have a strained relationship because of the traumatic event involving Echomask and his mother many moons ago when he was a kit. Oakstrike has pale blue-grey fur like his son, although it is much more shorter than Echomask's. Oakstrike doesn't show much of a personality, not since the tragedy, but when he wants to be, he is kind and caring.

Diane: Goldenpuddle is a she-cat who looks just like her name. She has long, lovely golden fur with warm blue eyes. She is the mother of Echomask and she resides in StarClan ever since the incident. Unfortunately, Echomask is unable to reach her, which saddens her deeply as she wishes to tell Echomask of the many horrors he has to face later on. She is sweet and caring and if she was still alive, would do anything to protect her son and everyone involved in his life.

Rosenburg: Mistlerose is an medicine cat who mentors Echomask and forms a strangely quick and close relationship with him. She is later revealed to be much, much more older than she is thought to be, somehow living beyond the age limit of any cat. She is later taken into StarClan, but visits Echomask in his dreams. She is bony, with awkwardly matted pale fur and a nasty breath. Her teeth are chipped and two of her whiskers are bent as well.

Red-Eye: Red-Eye is a cat with the eyes similar to that of a snake and viciously sharp teeth. He looks exactly like a shadow, strong-built and neat jet black fur. He comes from the depths of the Dark Forest, yet is able to manifest into the minds of living cats and inhabit their body as a host. Echomask meets him in one of his visions, frightened by what he sees. Red-Eye is named the way he is because if you look long enough, his eyes begin to show flecks of red that paint both his entire eyes red, and they glow ominously.

it is a seperate clan and does not strictly follow the ways the actual warrior cats clans do- however it is called moonclan. feel free to draw up designs or w/e of this au cause honestly i...cannot draw cats lmao. this is pretty much just a concept and feel free to expand on it more if u wish!!!!!

#sally face #sally face au #sal fisher #larry johnson #ashley campbell #todd morrison #red eyed demon #lisa johnson #henry fisher #rosenburg #megan holmes #sf soda #sf maple #sf chug #au #warriors #warrior cats #mine

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Would Ghetsis, in his “oourhg gotta teach this feral child how to be a person” lessons have been,, let’s say ‘not very understanding’ of his son’s behaviors? Or would the “stop fucking flapping your hands, it’s unseemly” thing have been part of the being king lessons? Basically how does he feel abt N in this regard; he’s still the precious golden baby boy, surely, but??? This is not a well phrased question sorry

((Absolutely. Ghetsis, especially before he realized oh that’s a neurological issue, not a Pokémon-upbringing one, had little to no tolerance for N’s neurodivergent behaviors. N was definitely restricted from various stimming behavior, including flapping and verbal tics and noise-making that wasn’t being used for some communicative purpose. Despite his research(study of? maybe Ghetsis has a Doctorate??) of psychology, it didn’t really occur to him that N’s behavior was from his having autism as opposed to, y’know, being a wolf child from the forest.

[As a note, I’m just covering things off the top of my head so, 1) sloppy as usual, 2) probably not well worded or fully correct due to it being 4/5am as I write this and not being in a heavy researching mood to look up more things that should be addressed. So if there’s any other particular behavior or other thing(s) you’d like to know about or suggest, lmk! And feel free to correct me, as I am a sleepy vee who is certain there’re a lot of mistakes in this.]

[obvious warnings for ableism and child abuse behind the cut.]

N would have been discouraged from things like hand-flapping and touching things for texture-based reasons--possibly did that shit where, to discourage him from putting his hands all over the place to analyze his surroundings, pressed his hands against sandpaper, or otherwise would slap at his hands to keep them from being put into uses that were ‘abnormal.’ On a similar note, he wasn’t as accommodating to his needs in terms of clothing choices at first, being annoyed by his pickiness and things like an insistence on wearing one thing over and over even if it wasn’t clean(or, in many cases, not wearing anything at all, which was fine except when he tried ti go into the hallway with his naked little kid ass out) but eventually got his tailors to make all of his clothes to his comfort level and made sure any clothes were of materials/textures/etc he was comfortable in. However, he wouldn’t tolerate old clothes being kept after they were run thin or otherwise at a point where he’d discard them. Ghetsis likely also had no problem holding N down and undressing him if he wanted something off of him and he was resistant.

As he began to understand and find uses for his divergent behaviors, he began to allow the things like touching his surroundings to pass them off as his displeasure and discomfort with many artificial things and human society and the like being a sign of its threat to Pokémon-kind.

He was also resistant in regards to food textures and the like and still often gripes when N doesn’t want to eat something on the basis of not liking how it feels--however, of course, only he’s allowed to do this, and he’ll demand the food be altered or replaced to fit N’s preferences. ‘It’s annoying, but only I can feel that way’ is a constant theme of how Ghetsis handles N’s behavior. N is his King and Hero and golden baby, so he needs to be spoiled and treated how he wants.

Ghetsis would force affection on him or get annoyed if he did things like tried to worm his way out of hugs or other physical contact when Ghetsis decided he wanted them. This actually never changed. At present, he’ll still likely force himself on N affectionately. He does also wait for or demand that N come to him when he wants attention(holds his arm open to tell him to come close enough to hold, air kisses if he wanted to smooch him, etc) as N would have learned to do this to avoid drawing his ire even when he didn’t want the contact himself. And, of course, the guilt tripping of “what I don’t get [affection]?” “come here and [affection] your Father.” and so on, making it something he’s owed. I can kind of see him unlearning forced contact, but he’d still be pretty annoyed and grumpy if he didn’t get what he asked for.

(Occasionally said affection was allowed to extend to inhuman behavior both to and from N, with things like playful/affectionate licking or biting. Is that weird? My dad would do that to me when I was a kid, so I don’t find it weird. It wasn’t anywhere bad, so. I imagine N may have found this slightly more tolerable as it was more of what he was used to in the wild.)

One thing he’d tolerate more out of convenience was that I imagine N’s hair was a matted mess when he first came to live with him, and of course N hates having it loose. To this day he often wears some of his hair in a matted style. Having his hair touched is okay, especially when he’s being bathed or pet, but if you so much as think too hard about brushing or cutting it N will go ballistic in a bad way. As a result, Ghetsis didn’t cut his hair much, just tried to keep the matted, locked mess clean and somewhat orderly as it grew out and did his best to brush and clean his hair as it grew in. The weight and pressure changed when his hair was cleaned and brushed out and allowed to grow loose again, which is where his wearing baseball caps a good amount comes in.

N’s void cube is a comfort object and he can’t imagine having it away from him too long or having it too far away from him in general. This had to be put up with to a certain degree because attempts to remove it or put it far away or take it would make N get violent, biting and hitting and scratching until he felt it was safe again. (This was a problem when the initial chain holding it snapped and Ghetsis took it away to put it back on something stronger so N could wear it again.)

Sensory overload was understood but also not tolerated much. Ghetsis would, of course, scold anybody who was inflicting too much noise or anything on N and making him uncomfortable, but if it was Ghetsis’s fault it was N’s fault instead. Screaming or crying from harsh noises wasn’t well tolerated, and certain noises(such as banging his cane on a hard floor) were used as punishment or ‘alert’ sort of sounds to tell him to pay attention or that he did something wrong. If N would not calm down, he might have been locked away in a dark room(or, like, a closet or something) to calm down(of course, he was mostly just frightened or too suddenly deprived of sensory stimulation and it didn’t help much, but eventually he did quiet down or Ghetsis would let him out otherwise.)

If he was ever especially physically violent with N it was always in private. He was more psychologically and emotionally abusive.

As he understood more that it was Autism and/or other mental issues, he still felt it was something he could remove from him by not tolerating it, but he also increasingly found ‘uses’ for N’s sensitivities--and, of course, the positive aspects were valued and praised and permitted. As time went on he’d learn to ‘combat’ N’s behavior more peacefully(and he’d apologize if he was harsh or violent--of course, it was framed as ‘if you hadn’t done this. . .’ and made to be N’s fault and the actual meaning of the apologies is questionable, but I digress) and discourage it more gently--but ultimately he tried to get rid of what he didn’t like.

Of course, any especially. . .idk how to word it ‘strong’??? Neurodivergent behavior was not tolerated, so anything below “high functioning” would have absolutely been completely untolerated unless a ‘use’ for it was found.

. . .so, yeah, Ghetsis was not very accepting or tolerant of most of N’s behavior until he found worth in it or got accustomed to it, or at least until he understood it as ‘autism, not animalism.’ However, this intolerance would not be tolerated in others. If anyone tried to mistreat or deny N his needs and feelings, they’d be in trouble. ONLY Ghetsis may mistreat N or try and shape who he is and how he acts and feels. And that includes ‘getting rid of’ his autistic symptoms unless he otherwise approves of actions or words.

I can kind of see him getting better, especially with his own mind and body deteriorating and so on, but at the moment he’s still mostly shitty about anything he can’t control or fix or that isn’t up to his standard. He’s the kind of weird guy who managed to study psychology and actually become a doctor on the subject!! but still doesn’t always accept modern understanding or treatment methods lmao. Ghetsis picks and chooses what he decides is true and it can change on a goddamn dime lolol

#ableism cw///#child abuse cw///#ask to tag #long post #Headcanon | The Horror That He Brings The Horror Of His Sting The Unholiest Of Kings #Asks | The Truth Won’t Save You Now #Anonymous | If It Hasn't Learned Your Name You'd Better Kill It Before They See It #((thank you very much for the ask❣))

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