#im still mad he was SO PERFECT

[yellowocaballero]

Not an ask just

Damn chapter 10 of new wave was amazing! I didn’t expect to see who you brought in but just ABDJXOCJDNSJ I have no words, only praise for your work, have a wonderful day

Thank you! Trust me, I spent half the fic going "ugh who the hell is the Rogue" before I hit upon the fucking perfect one and went back and changed a bit in the rest of the fic for foreshadowing. It was just perfect!! He stands at the border! Literally half and half! A man of transition! A man with personal meaning to Bruce and who's important in his own arc! A guy who's grounded enough to fit into the story but zany enough to make everybody go ???. Somebody with a sense of justice and righteousness, just like Bruce, but a bloody reflection of the end outcome of vengeance! Famously Robin's first big Rogue who seriously injured in - I think he shot Dick in Robin Year 1 and was the reason why Bruce fired him the first time. Just! Perfect!!

God I love how this fic turned out so much. I don't even feel responsible for it. I'm just like. Yeah, perfect fic. Lucky to have found it lying on the ground. It's not perfect but also it's perfect. I love loving my own writing, everybody should give it a shot and see how they feel. It's the best part of being a writer. Just loving it.

Thank you for the ask! Next chapter is the penultimate one, and it features my third favorite scene in the story and the one that made me super emo.

#im still mad he was SO PERFECT #also it is very darkly funny for steph to be able to say “guy's too trusting! well that's fixed now” #in so many ways this is an origin story for Bruce too #he's still young in a lot of ways and you see him grow up a bit and find responsibility through managing Steph & Tim #coming of age stories for teens where fucking everybody out here coming of age #get development from a young adult into an adult BITCH #batdad fics never rly give room for the guy to be a literal 20 something #batdad fics dislike giving him room to fuck up in any significant way #we acknowledge often that he doesn't know what he's doing #but irl that results in sig fuckups please let it happen #theres a reason why none of the batfam fanfics feel like a real family smh

[drbtinglecannon]

Remember when Darius taunted a group of teens to try to escape, instead of telling them upfront they weren't being kidnapped, and in response they crashed his ship?

#toh #toh shitpost #darius deamonne #any sport in a storm #still one of my favorite scenes it was soooo funny! darius: try harder lol. emerald entrails: ok *crashes the fucking ship* #then he had the audacity to be mad afterwards lmao! you baited them! you could've just told them 'hey im drivin you home' but you didnt! #anyway i love darius hes my favorite bitch #also i kept time it actually was about 12 seconds later & this is a canon spongebob time card so it was too perfect #ok wait but not only was this scene hilarious it was directly before the him bonding w hunter scene which is v important to me #emerald entrails #toh emerald entrails #tc posts #the owl house

[joskippy]

There is such a big racism and antisemitism problem in the nightvale fandom that its fucking crazy

#jontalks #wtnv #ill main tag this what fucking ever im gonna delete this immediately anyway #stop drawing carlos tan with brown hair stop depicting him as a dead beat lying predatory sex pest #stop fucking demonizing him for his character flaws you wouldnt be calling him some of the shit you people call him if he was white #ive seen the biggest artist in this fandom say they wish cecil got put in a cage and expiremented on in the year 11 arc like that #isnt revolting to say about a jewish character #ive seen the same people dissapointed that did not happen like the two writers arent jewish and would write something as disgusting as that #ive seen an artist draw a white character fantasize about brutalizing a brown character #and no one gives people shit for it and they still fucking do disgusting shit with these characters #ive seen people mad carlos didnt do something awwful to lubelle to give her reason to hate him like #the whole point of that wasnt that lubelle was a privilege white women jealous of a brown gay mans success #you people are so fucking aggravating and disgusting #and you need to start giving people shit when they are fucking weird about these marginalized characters #because some of you do not think when you depict carlos. a dark brown latino gay man as a predatory sex pest who is a dead beat #and treat cecil who people either draw lighter than or white as this perfect angel who has done nothing wrong #you would not be calling carlos a impulsive lier and a piece of shit for just being written as a emotionally closed off character #if he was white or if he was a paler latino man #it just fucking boggles my mind this is still an issue in this space and that it ALWAYS has been #its not surprising to me at all that this is the same fanbase in the early days that were refusing to see carlos as a dark skinned man and #that people who didnt want to depict him as such were fucking defended #this is the same fanbase that started shaking in their boots when people were questioning why everyone defaults to white for cecil its like #some of yall are very racist and you need to revaluate the bs you say about #a cast of majorily marginalized characters #and why you demonize the brown character for the same shit the one that is aracial in podcast and you draw as white as a perfect sweet ange #lol

[dangans-ur-ronpas]

was considering turning this blog into a general fandoms blog but tbh the dungeon meshi fandom is exhibiting some vile behavior after that last ep...

#dungeon meshi #nothing like a not-morally-perfect nonwhite character to really bring out the worst in people!!!! #this is about the shuro/toshiro haters. im sorry he got mad at your autistic whiteguy rep and behaved in an expected way #for a stressed out malnourished exhausted grieving man from a east asian country with a more reserved culture #in a manga/story written by a japanese person for a japanese audience #every single white dunmeshi fan who makes an 'i hate shuro for being mean to laios and marcille' should venmo me 100 dollars #'oh the danganronpa blog is gonna preach to us' YES and so what. if i like the game with a mostly pale stick animeguy cast #and STILL have a better understanding of race and culture dynamics. what excuse do you have #sorry for rantin im. Annoyed. #tried browsing the dunmeshi tag and saw the most rancid takes in there and had to stop immediately

[megamindsupremacy]

I know a common conception of Miles’ Peter Parker is like. If only Peter had survived, he would have understood me. Peter wouldn’t be treating me like these other Spider-men. My Peter would have understood. Which is, of course, an idea I love, because Miles desperately needs more people in his corner after the events of ASTV.

But what if Miles’ Peter wasn’t like that? What if RIPeter came back and he was just like all those other Spider-Men, but different? What if Miles if convinced Peter is going through a “came back but wrong” plotline and Miles just has to find some cure to make Peter magically understand but Peter didn’t come back wrong. He came back exactly where he left off- watching some scared little kid who doesn’t know how to handle his powers get in way over his head. So Peter is handling it exactly like he handles every other problem he faces- confidently, perfectly, because he’s been Spider-Man for the past sixteen years and even though it killed him he’s still good at his job.

What if Peter is also convinced he’s different? He’s not like those other Spider-Men, he’s different, he died and came back, he’s in this kids’ corner even when nobody else is because same-universe Spider-Men have to stick together, right kiddo? And Miles is so desperate for validation and he trusts his Peter implicitly like no other Spider-Man because he’s built him up in his head as a perfect Spider-Man who doesn’t make mistakes. But even if they’re together against the Spider-Society, that doesn’t mean Peter is respecting Miles as Spider-Man in his own right like he needs to. And now Miles can’t acknowledge it either

#mads posts #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #into the spiderverse #peter parker #miles morales #ripeter #spiderman #spider-man #idk im like #we all WISH if peter came back he’d be just as perfect as hes shown to be #hed have miles’ back. he’d do the right thing because this is The Peter Who Does The Right Thing #but like. he’s peter parker. which inherently means he fucks up SO MUCH #he thinks hes doing the right thing but hes stepping all over miles in the process #he still thinks he has to be the leader and mentor for baby newbie Spider-Man to follow #but now miles is LEAGUES ahead of him and he cannot see it because hes blinded by always being right all the time #not maliciously. more like gifted kid syndrome #and this is the ONLY spiderman who can get away with it. because thats MILES’ spiderman #thats miles’ first failure! that’s SPIDERMAN. miles’ spiderman is PERFECT. hes a hero! a role model! he grew up seeing him on TV! #and it throws miles off SO MUCH because this spiderman isnt ever wrong but he is clearly wrong but he cant be wrong #and eventually miles will need to cut him off too. but neither of them know that yet. #im having so many thoughts #i want to write this but i Do Not have time to write this. #if someone sees this and wants to write it Please write this #these tags are so long oml

[chidoroki]

May 16th - Happy Birthday to Vanessa Enoteca

(with one Vanessa from almost every chapter she appears in)

#black clover #vanessa enoteca #rouge #bc manga #my edits #years ago a friend tried to convince me to watch BC & though i refused at the time he predicted that vanessa would be my favorite. fast #forward until last year when i finally decided to watch it and he was 100% correct. & im completely okay with it because DAMN she is #absolutely PERFECT! aaahh she's so gorgeous & i love her magic (& Rouge) and how deeply she cares for her family. her backstory gives me #some TPN vibes too. literally everything about her is wonderful & she's so fun to watch. i cant wait to see her again in the movie next #month. oh & speaking about timing..i almost forgot to post this because for some reason i thought her bday was next week?? i wouldve been #so mad at myself if i missed it. especially since i had this done months ago! literally started this right after i finished nozel's so this #has been chilling in my drafts this entire time. ooohh TotK definitely distracted me but it's still the 16th for me so it counts. huzzah!

[widevibratobitch]

Red Pill Misogyny But Make It Funny: The Opera my beloved <333

#wanted to post the 'dammi un bacio mio tesoro' part but this spotify recording doesnt separate it from the rest of the finale booo #anyway. to me the message of this opera is 'MONOGAMY SUCKS and a little incest in your polycule never hurt nobody' #the racism is the least of this opera's problems cause unlike in zauberflöte this one does it in a very hmmm #michael scott-ish way?? #as in. 'these characters think doing a goofy cosplay of another culture is the funniest shit ever but are also explicitly stupid as fuck' #yes i know. cool motive - still racism. #our local opera house changed the 'valacchi' to 'polacchi' tho and that was the funniest shit ever to me lol #now in my perfect cosi fan tutte production that lives in my head they are dress up as the Polish nobility in the baroque era #cause my god did those mfs look goofy lol #anyway. to me all four of them fuck in the end so its cool. despina pegs don alfonso too. #così fan tutte #the music in this opera is fucking sublime tho #and im so fucking mad mozart died before he managed to go further in this direction and explore a little more #the ensembles. my GOD the ensembles #mozart #opera tag #cosi fan tutte

[teethbomb]

alador blight fan mood board

#Im trying so hard not to engage I feel like a bomb #I know his arc was handled badly but the shortening of the owl house should be the give away #And I personally think that the boards weren’t only cut for time!! #People are really mad he was redeemed at all but I think we forget that this guy was intended to portray a victim of abuse #Abuse shouldn’t have to be physical for it mean something #No I am not excusing what he did what he did was shitty but what I am saying is I don’t think he knew that #He thought what he was doing was in the kids best interest and when amity confronted him his eyes opened #I’ve seen people call him spineless and “woobified” and that is lost on me entirely #He stood up to Odalia and broke everything when he found out about her goals #He still has his temper he’s just not lashing out on his kids #Claims of him being turned soft don’t make sense to me because he’s been chasing butterflies the whole time! He was under Odalia s thumb #Until he learned it was hurting his kids and he stood up. #His arc isn’t perfect it’s far from it but the guy was in an abusive relationship for most of his life #I Can see the disconnect some are having but I think we’re really focusing too hard on some cut scenes #I Can see people getting upset with him especially those who relate to amity but I think it’s ironically pushing blame #Not everything can be pinned on Odalia but I think we should let abuse victims grow no matter their age #I guess it just makes me sad to see a character I see so much of myself in being dragged like this lol #Alador blight

[hecksupremechips]

Don’t you just kinda wanna go insane thinking about how it took years for Shane Dawsons youtube career built on blackface and pedophilia and other “edgy jokes” to get “canceled” but then some hardly semi popular marginalized creator who makes all their money online makes a tweet that’s offensive if you dig deep enough and they get instantly shit on and deemed as irredeemably harmful and no amount of apologies will ever make up for the irreparable damage they have caused to marginalized communities everywhere? Is this really truly how you want to live life and support your community or are you just a dickwad who thinks anger automatically=activism?

#the klock keeps ticking #sarah z is one person that comes to mind thats like why do you people treat her like this i really dont get it #like idk im not a devout fan of her videos but she seems to put in a lot of effort to not offend anyone #like the dashcon vid she made extra sure to say that we shouldnt make fun of the tumblr teens who attended cuz they were just innocent nerds #but ppl still found ways to be mad #shes not the only person obviously but like aaaaaa why do you guys do this #do you think youre perfect and have never committed any crimes #when youve shat on everyone in your highly vulnerable community your ass is gonna be next i hope you know #its just deflection and fear honestly like you think if you lash out at ‘bad’ people that makes you good #and you gotta start really stretching to find problems or just straight up lie about weak people so you can actually win for once #cuz like shane dawson is rich as hell so even though he was ‘canceled’ hes still rich and can do whatever #what can a small marginalized creator do? are you gonna rejoice when they kill themselves??? #do you think that would make you a Good Boy??

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

hate how im now at a point where im legit like kicking my legs and grinning like an idiot over fictional characters SEND HELP

#take One Guess who im talking about. YES ITS KOI BOI #hes so prettyyyyy and cute and lovely and i love looking at him i wanna hear him speak and laugh and sing just AAAAAAAAAAAA #(turns to my own brain) BITCH WE ARE MEANT TO BE AROACE WHY ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH TWO FICTIONAL CRIMINALS WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING????? #my brain: (that fuckin anime girl gif from evangelion (i think??)) #like fuuuuuck man is it self shipping if u use a proxy? like. hes an oc but he's a stand in for me. he is me and i am him but we also arent #he is his own person and i am my own our lives are very very different but i use him to express love for Mad Dog and Koi Boy #cause they could actually love him if i were in their world i wouldnt stand a chance but my boy has one so he loves them for me #its far easier to imagine him kissing them than it is for me to imagine myself kissing them but that might be because im wired weird #idk it *feels* like it counts yknow. my dumbass out here gettin jealous when i see a Certain Ship cause like i disagree with it on #a Fundamental Level. and on TOP of that half the time the art is so CUTE and im like 'motherfucker that should be ME' or i guess my lad but #STILL am i making sense?? doesnt help that i worry im like. misreading what content i have but also fuck you i can do what i want and also #i get him more than yall kgyugkhjhk (jk jk. Unless) basically when i call them my boyfriends i fuckin mean it #look its Real Missing Nishiki Hours i love him i wanna kiss his perfect face someone shoulda shown him love i could save him and he could #make me worse <3 I Want Him #and do not get me wrong i may be focused on him but Majima is still my wifey too!!! hes mine you cant have her <3 #i just have koi boy brainrot i very much desire them Both (YES THAT MIGHT BE WHY I SHIP THEM TOO LOOK I ALSO THINK THEYD WORK WELL TOGETHER #OR AT LEAST HAVE A FUN DYNAMIC TO EXPLORE I SHOULD DATE THEM AND THEY SHOULD DATE EACH OTHER WE ALL HAVE 2 HANDS) #might delete this in the mornin who knows but im feelin silly i wanna talk about them i wanna talk about my boy but idk if ppl would really #GET IT yknow i can think of maybe Two People and that INCLUDES bestie but just aaaa point is i love my koi boy so much hes so lovely <3 <3

[lishenkaaa]

not to point out things that have definitely been pointed out in the twenty year history of this game, but the way miles at first completely bulldozes over the fact he left the country and left ppl thinking he was dead and is like "you can't do this alone, but don't worry phoenix, im here and with teamwork we'll discover the truth" while wearing the smuggest little smile and then only dropping it and reverting to his angsty arm grab when phoenix (rightfully!!!) points out how shitty his behaviour was..... im gonna be sick

#look #i'll admit my characterisation might not be perfect rn bc i still haven't even finished aa2 lol #but ALSO #he didn't think he was gonna be missed!!! #at least not as a person!!! #he comes back and he's sayinglook at how i've changed #look at how i no longer wanna be the demon prosecutor who just fights to win. look at how im ready to find the truth. to help. #but phoenix is still mad at him bc he just LEFT and he even makes digs at him that he STILL is the demon he used to be!!! #bc all he can see is that miles didn't want to stay and just let him think he was dead for a YEAR #im gonna shoot myself in the foot #this is gonna be so funny if im completely off the mark #but honestly idc. i am thinking (threat) #i will return to these thoughts after i finish aa2 dw #omodru talks #ace attorney #narumitsu #im just having so many thoughts on this fucking scene

[comradekatara]

did you hear about danny pudi getting cast as the mechanist in the live action? maybe i will in fact have to watch it

oh god......... out of legal obligation 2 support my king....... i will in fact have to watch at least one (1) episode of natla........... rip -_-

#support group for those of us who wanna see danny pudi get that bag no matter what...... #i still think he should just play sokka and everyone pretends he's a teenager and it's just never brought up #zukkot #asks #ngl for a second i thought u were joking #just bc this is a sick joke someone could play on me specifically #but alas #im still so mad abt sokkas actor being white (and ugly) #if live action sokka isnt hot then there is simply no point to this show whatsoever #like literally every single aspect of the show could be perfect (extremely doubtful) and it still wouldnt matter if sokka was white & ugly. #so. #but whatever. yay danny pudi getting netflix money we love you danny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[queen0fm0nsterz]

Incredibly tempted to write an analysis of each member of the Garuru Platoon both individually, in relation to each other, and in relation to their "counterpart" in the Keroro Platoon

#sgt frog #keroro gunso #over the years those guys have been the only ones which I have always loved consistently. it has been 10 literal years since I found out - #about their existance and I have loved them unconditionally ever since #as i got older my appreciation for them grew expontentially because I developed the ability to appreciate the fact that they are - #surprisingly complex characters in spite of their appearences on the show being so limited #even characters like say... tororo and taruru. which are the members of the platoon who are least used #and its a shame because they both are a delight #especially tororo. i am so angry that tororo never got his own episode... or an episode where he got to act solo #taruru had his little arc of going on earth by himself on a few occasions - zoruru has his whole thing with dororo ( don't get me wrong I - #still think he should have gotten more but considering his character arc it makes sense) - pururu had a whole huge arc on earth - #garuru had his random moments of dropping by casually/we have giroro to tell us about him every once in a while #all of them have these little moments. all except tororo. it makes me mad because tororo is the perfect example of how children on keron - #are exploited by the military at incredibly young ages and its very clear that this fucks them up in the long run. we have adult examples #like dororo. keroro. giroro. zoruru. list goes on. but tororo could have been a look into how a child (even one as smart as him) is - #affected by the whole thing #bc don't get me wrong tororo is a CHILD. he's not a tadpole in a tamama way where he's youthful in appearence but still implied to be a - #young adult. tororo is a straight up child. he can't be older than whatever the equivalent of fourteen is in keron years. #<- i have a reason behind why i say this but im tired rn LMAO #anyway yeah. live laugh love garuru platoon

[todayisafridaynight]

girl help bestie mentioned the ending of Y7 and now im frothing at the mouth

#spoilers #just in case #snap chats #UGHGHH IT STLIL MAKES ME MAD #Y7 and Y3's endings are the ones that mess with me the most but like #Y3 is just funny and melancholy Y7 has me depressed and utterly pissed #THEY REALLY RUINED SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ENDING WITH THE MOST 'FUCK YOU' DEATH EVER #LISTEN AOKI WASN'T A GOOD DUDE. IN THE SLIGHTEST. AT ALL #BUT MY GOD RGG PLEASE JUST LET ONE (1) ANTAG LIVE AND LIVE THROUGH THE CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR ACTIONS #ESP AFTER SUCH A HEARTBREAKING PERFORMANCE FROM ICHI #god fuck me kaiji tang really was perfect for ichi he did SUCh a good job and you felt every word he said #eveyr time ichi said something you just felt the passion and pain in his voice and it fucked me up so bad #IM JUST. UGHLAKJG #y7 you could've been perfect but no rgg had a to-do list and im still going to be mad about it until i die

[quodekash]

i just rewatched the greatest showman for the millionth time and my brain wouldnt shut up so i wrote down all the thoughts i had and expanded on them and stuff and now im sharing them here cos why the flip not 

also a lot of these things probably seem super obvious to most people, but unfortunately i am stupid and slow and it took me ages to realise that races exist and even longer to realise that racism exist and even longer for me to realise that it’s an actual problem. (and its the same thing with all discrimination in general) 

Main Thought #1: Barnum Sucks and Jenny is Amazing 

Jenny is not a bad person. The only thing she did “wrong” was kiss Barnum on stage where there were photographers and stuff, but that was because Barnum led her on and she was hurt and stuff so she might as well ruin his image. Barnum is the problem, he’s always the problem. 

And Barnum’s reaction to her singing wasn’t “wow she’s so talented, look at this gift she has, this is lovely”. You can see it, there’s hunger deep in his eyes, there’s excitement of the potential power he could have over her, there’s shock because she could make me successful. With everyone he meets, he never sees potential, he doesn’t do things for them out of the kindness of his heart, he isn’t helping others. He’s using every single person like tools for his own self gain. 

And Charity sees Barnum’s face there, and she’s not even jealous. She’s scared. She reads her husband’s expression like a book, and immediately knows: this poor woman’s life is going to be ruined. And Charity won’t be able to do anything about it. 

Later on, when they’re on tour, Jenny is flirting with Barnum I think, but he rejects her. But she knows he has a wife, she’s met her and she’s also met his kids. Although Barnum would probably twist the story to make it seem like Jenny forced herself upon him, that it’s her fault he cheated, I don’t believe that one bit. Jenny is a kind person. She wouldn’t have tried to pursue him if he hadn’t been giving her signs or reasons to, if he hadn’t been engaging with her in return. He was leading her on, making her think there could be something between them. But then he realises she’s actually grown attached to him, that she wants to be with him, and he doesn’t want that, he just wanted to use her for fame and money and success.

“I’m just another one of your little acts.” He was using her like a tool, just like he did with everyone else he’s ever seemed to care for.

She kisses him and says “That was goodbye.” I feel like she wouldn’t kiss him randomly for the first time as a goodbye. That’s a jerk move. She wasn’t kissing him for the first time, she was kissing him for the last time, because they’ve been doing things together throughout this entire trip, we the audience just haven’t seen it. But he cut her off, not out of love for his wife, but because he doesn’t want her, he wants her fame. 

“I’m not in love with her!” “Of course, you’re not. Not with her, not with me, not with anyone. Just you and your show.” The one person he only ever cared about was Charity, the only person he made a real personal connection with was Charity, the only person that he was never trying to gain from was Charity. He finally regrets everything he’s done because he realises it was the final straw. It wasn’t him cheating that made Charity leave. It was her realisation that he doesn’t care for others, he only cares for himself. Charity is freaking perfect and lovely and Barnum doesn’t deserve her. 

Main Thought #2: Barnum Sucks and Lettie+TheGang are Amazing 

The reason they all feel so betrayed is because they’re outcasts. People hate them, the only people that talk to them are people who only want to give them hate and pain and misery, and hate and pain and misery is all they have ever known their lives to be. But then they met Barnum. And Barnum introduced them to people like them, other people who are treated badly for reasons beyond their control. Most of them probably didn’t even have a family, they were probably abused, disowned, homeless. But Barnum treated them like people, he talked to them like friends, he gave them a job and a meaning and a reason to be and they were happy and had a family. They finally had a place to belong, could finally feel like human freaking beings, and he closed the door on them. He’d gone up the social hierarchy ladder, one rung at a time, slowly climbing up and up, until he joined the oppressors. 

They take a stand against Barnum, against the people who made their lives hell, against everyone who ever wronged them because they’re human beings who don’t deserve how they’ve been treated, they deserve love

Main Thought #3: Barnum Sucks but Lettie is Freaking Awesome 

“Maybe you are a fraud. Maybe it was just about making a buck. But you gave us a real family.”

That translates to something along the lines of: Yeah, you suck. But you gave us a reason to live.

Lettie’s saying that, yeah, Barnum freaking sucks. He doesn’t really care about anyone other than himself. But, without realising it, he gave them a place to belong, and that’s pretty freaking special. She’s trying to tell him that he’s horrible, but he managed to do some good things. Maybe he can change and manage to do even more good things, but intentionally this time.

And then Barnum kisses Lettie on the cheek, and she makes this face of hope and joy, and I used to think like ‘ew I hope she doesn’t have a crush on him that would make this a lot less meaningful’

But I’ve only just realised (cos im really flipping slow) that her face there was her thinking about how far they’ve come, how he’s becoming a better person, that he’s gonna start turning into the person he appeared to be when they all first met him: a kind, open-minded guy who’s willing to give everyone a chance at love.

Main Thought #4: Anne and Phillip 

“You’ve never had someone look at you the way your parents looked at me” 

I used to think, in rewrite the stars, that Anne is being stupid and hopeless because obviously there’s hope what are you talking about? But I’ve only now realised (cos it took me way too long to become a more open person, and to understand that, hey, sometimes people hate other people, and, hey, racism exists) that her reality, every single freaking day, is terrible comments, people staring, people whispering that she shouldn’t exist, and even after finding a home in these people, there are still the comments, there are still the stares, there are still the whispers. The terrible people will always exist, and there’s no hope trying because she’ll always be hated. Her hands are tied, she can’t change anything in anyone, no matter how much she feels like she might belong.

But Phillip is sure that they can rewrite the stars, that they can change things, if only they’re brave enough. They could leave the room, hand in hand, and there’ll be comments, there’ll be staring, there’ll be whispers. But they’ll go through it together, they won’t stop their love for anyone or anything.

And then Phillip is in hospital. He’s dying. And the moment he wakes up, the moment she knows he’s safe, they kiss. Right there in the hospital, in front of so many people. Because she’s realised that life is too short, too precious, to let it go to waste. They shouldn’t be ashamed of their love, shouldn’t hide it, because either of them could be gone at any given moment, so they might as well shout their love to the freaking heavens.

Main Thought #5: idk what to title this one but it’s short

IT’S SO MEANINGFUL THE WAY THEY HUG (at least at first) INSTEAD OF KISS AT THE END OF THE MOVIE

I love it when couples don’t kiss after making up from a fight. Like you don’t need to display romantic affection. You can just show that you’re there for each other, that you’re sorry, that you love them and you’re gonna try to be better in the future. And that can be communicated with a big long comfortable hug, it can be communicated with your eyes, it can be communicated verbally. I’ve always thought that it’s so much more meaningful when couples don’t kiss after something important for their relationship happens. Somehow it’s so much more personal to be vulnerable with each other, to hug or look into each other’s eyes or to talk or anything else, instead of kissing.  

Random Thoughts That Aren’t Important At All But I Felt Like Sharing Them: 

THIS ENTIRE SOUNDTRACK IS SO BEAUTIFUL 

All the songs are so freaking good. And yeah, This Is Me is a good song, and I like the song. But it’s so overplayed and the rest of the songs in the soundtrack don’t get nearly as much love and respect and appreciation even though every single song is basically perfection 

JENNY IS SO TALENTED HOW 

i am in love with this entire cast 

THE DOPAMINE LEVELS FROM WATCHING THIS MOVIE ARE FREAKING INSANE 

with every single song that came on i said out loud to my family “this is objectively the best song” because they’re all such freaking good songs 

THIS MOVIE IS SO FREAKING GOOD I LOVE IT 

#idk if you can tell but i might hate barnum just a little bit #every single character is perfect and has no flaws except for barnum #(im so mad that my brain is telling me to cut him some slack cos he's a traumatised orphan who had to only care for himself in order to #survive and while that obviously had a huge impact on him he still couldve become a better person a whole lot earlier. #survive. and while that obviously had a huge impact on him and his life he still couldve become a better person a whole lot earlier. #but also i dont think they had therapists or anything like that and even if they did he probably wouldnt have been able to afford it. #why is empathy a thing. why cant i just hate people simply.) #also barnum sucked in the movie but he was even worse in real life #but we're gonna ignore that rn cos we're talking about the movie here #the greatest showman #disney #pt barnum #this is me #zac efron #hugh jackman #zendaya #philip carlyle #what else do i tag this as? #overanalysis? #musical movies #the greatest showman disney

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#i cant wait to get out of this fucking house #still a few years until i can legally move out and even then i probably won’t be able to for a few more years bc of money #my dad gets mad at me for showing any emotion ever or being anything other than the perfect golden child #no one will fucking believe me that im autistic and disabled #i get fatigued from walking out of a fucking restaurant to the parking lot! look me in the eyes and tell me thats normal! #but just because im fat thats the reason for all my issues #thats why i have chronic pain and i just don’t exercise enough when they fucking know IM IN RECOVERY FOR ANOREXIA #and my dad wont stop talking about weight loss in front of me even when i ask him to stop because its triggering for me because im #just a fucking snowflake i guess #one time i asked him to stop talking about his diet or whatever when im around and he said no but i could use it myself! AND HE WONDERS WHY #IM FUCKING RELAPSING AGAIN #literally the past entire week i’ve just been repeating ‘no food is as harmful as an eating disorder’ bc its all that will fucking stop me #and he wont believe that i have tics for some reason so i have to fucking suppress them all around him if i dont want to get screamed at #and mid july of 2022 im still not vaccinated for covid. bc my dad is a conservative that doesnt give enough of a shit about me to get it #the only vaccinated person in my family is my mom and my dad didnt want her to get it either #but she says shes an adult so she has bodily autonomy #do i not fucking deserve that? do i not get bodily autonomy bc im a minor? fuck you #and i’ve told both my parents multiple times that i dont like when people touch me without permission except for my friends #ESPECIALLY ON MY FUCKING HIPS AND THIGHS AND ASS #BUT THEY DO IT ANYWAY BC THEY DONT GIVE A SHIT WHAT I WANT #i dont fucking care how shitty adulthood is i dont care aboyt the stresses it gives me i just want to be fucking out of here #i want to be out of here i want to be with people that fucking respect me like my parents don’t #i don’t want to be abused anymore i just want to feel safe in my own fucking home #and i feel like such a spoiled brat because i have everything i need given to me because im a fucking child but im complaining anyways and #logically i know i have every right to complain bc theyre not giving me privileges theyre givimg me basic human rights and even then only #some of them. i dont have fucjing bodily autonomy from the people i should be able to expect it from and i dont have respect or fucking love #the only thing keeping me fucking alive right now is the promise that one day i’ll get out of here #and its fucking terrifying knowing you’re relapsing into anorexia again but its so fucking hard to stop it #its got a fucking grip on me and its so fucking hard to get out of it #vent