#im sorry things arent going well for you

[imperiuswrecked]

I've only ever asked 2 former online friends to not contact me after I wanted to go our separate ways due to irreconcilable differences and the first one circumvented my blocks at least 3 or 4 times to talk to me including sending me emails from 2 different email addresses after I refused to speak with them on tumblr/twitter/discord and each time I told them to leave me alone, that took place over a period of weeks.

The second one made a burner account to talk to me after I publicly asked them not to. I'm done talking. I'm done listening. I am allowed to restrict access to my person, my time, my emotions, my own mental health.

People need to respect boundaries others set down.

#hex if you're stalking this blog know that I m not a thing to be stolen away #im a fucking person who has their own damn opinions and no lan and i weren't friends #and you are ao focused on yourself that even when I tried to talk about how that made me feel #how neglected i felt our friendship became #you just kept circling back to you to your issues #well im no longer responsible for your emotional state #and I have trans friends who never treated me like you did #so im sorry #im sorry you feel bad #im sorry things arent going well for you #but your own actions and words are your responsibility and no one elses #I'm at my limit and I'm shutting down emotionally because I literally cannot deal with your paragraphs of text #if you day one more fucking time that I didn’t hear your concerns or didnt understanding you then I will fucking scream myself hoarse #we were friends for YEARS #YEARS #I am allowed to have a boundary #I am allowed to have a different opinion than you #Im allowed! #we have talked about the subject EXTENSIVELY #there is nothing left to say #fandom is a shared space so learn to share or don't #I have my own issues and shit going on in my life that I do not put on others bc its not their responsibility #so deal with yours #bc I need to deal with mine

[itissadbutitsmy-artblog]

lemongrab (Starts vibrating so hard i explode)

i do think pb is calm now but i dont think she likes wizards. i dont know. i dont know. and i saw how she treated lemongrab, she didn't really like him either. like. you all saw that. peps didnt want to see that he didnt want to think about it at the time, how they were treating the actual literal heir to the throne and also just how they were treating this man, he didn't realize. he didn't. and now. and . dont .get me talking about lemongrab. or i will talk. for ever

pep: you ate your brother lg: lg: you won't have that problem pep: i could eat you lg: try it

#says shes better but you know. pep can tell theres something going on. theres something Wrong #she insists hes not doing anything wrong and she supports him!! but he can TASTE it. in there. in her words. #lemongrab is not a very gentle person but he is kind. and he is a father. and he wants so badly to be a good sibling. #adventure time #distant lands #lemongrab #peppermint #digital #lemon kids #well one of them. im sorry he looks so much like larry in some ways. #this is the first time lg has called pep his sibling hes like (mid meltdown) IM YOURWHAT..... <3 #long post #its so tall. #i need to stop drawing ppl on benches. until i learn to draw benches. #she always knew peps was a magic user but it was more of a background Hes An Adult He Does What He Wants thing #and now he needs money for schoolbooks. so he has to see that Look in her eyes. im making it weird arent i #sorry pb fans im really mad at her about lemongrab and it poisons every interaction i have with her character #she really is trying. i promise. you just wouldnt know it from talking to lemognrab or pep.

[moenmomentsthemoe-en]

i miss friends

#delete later #its the countdown sorry #i dont really know what to do to have a good new years or like a new years where i dont feel bad.? #maybe ill play minecraft or try to draw. #ghrghrrrr its like. the want to show that somethings changed for the better since today kinda dug in the fact that. things arent great. im #still. #mmm #AHHGGH you know what im going to eat cheesecake and scare myself shitless with a horror game playthrough #i miss friends and company but i cant come up with an activity or hangout with others that. would go well with my presence and how im like #right now #delet later i have food and blanket food and blanket is nice and and video

[andi-o-geyser]

I’m so sorry but I think that the funniest thing they did in Top Gun Maverick was the fact that to try to beat the “Top Gun is really fucking gay” allegations they paired Mav up with a different woman this time but in doing so accidentally validated an entirely new gay ship. It’s like. Hey. Lean in real close. Hey. Mav’s got a new girlfriend this time and they’re exes with a fraught past but over the course of the movie make up and get back together, isn’t that so romantic? And then five feet away from all that shit Rooster and Hangman are just straight up saying they have an history with each other and they hold an intense rivalry before they eventually get over their differences and become friends and all the while Rooster is telling Hangman he looks good for the fiftieth fucking time that day and they keep playing romantic songs to piss each other off. The most hilarious thing is that the writers constantly use Maverick’s romances from both movies and basically parallel the only straight relationships with Rooster and Hangman’s relationship, and it’s like? Is this intentional? Is there something you want to tell us?? Because those two have STRONG hostile ex boyfriend energy if i’ve ever seen it, and if the writers want to convince me they’re straight they have another thing coming. If parallels with the only romance on screen then why no canon ex boyfriends. If parallels with both couples from both movies then why no gay. Hmm. Riddle me that Tom Cruise 

#tom pls take a break from your scientology bullshit the aliens can wait i want to know if this was fucking intentional or not #because the evidence is not super subtle #these naval aviators are fruity as hell #i literally feel like im losing my mind bc like?? if not meant to be romantic then why parallel the other romances?? #im sorry ive been going literally insane over this movie for the past week #also glen powell writing literal fanfiction on twitter.com does not help the case that they arent 10000000% a thing #mr ''yeah miles and i send each other stuff of people wanting rooster and hangman to get together'' #actually. who tf are you fooling #that man did not need to fucking specify who was on the top bunk and who was on the bottom. like #pulling my hair out they fucking know what they were doing. publicly declaring nickname headcanons and top/bottom dynamics?? what the FUCK #sry to all my mutuals who arent neck deep in the top gun movies but ive been having a fantastic time #top gun fucking slaps and everyone should go see it because its a stupid amount of fun #specifically top gun maverick #the first is good but the cinematography and action in tgm is fucking outstanding #the action senes are so well shot and it makes me want to willingly get into a fighter jet for some goddamn reason (plane go vroom) #not in danger of susceptibility to military propaganda but also consider. gay bitches in planes #top gun #top gun maverick #top gun: maverick #pete maverick mitchell #hangman #rooster #jake hangman seresin #bradley rooster bradshaw #hangster #sereshaw #movies #andis thought geyser

[sydmarch]

post: simply acknowledges the realities of canon

dumbasses: SHUT THE FUCK UP!! DO YOU HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE HAVE FUN???

#heres rhe vague post you said you knew was gonna be made calling you a dumbass!!! #im consgantly seeing these stupid fucking replies & gettinf stupid fucking asks & im alwsys nice and giving people the benefit of the doubt #& kindly explaining things when really i have every right to be like hey wtf. well im fucking sick of it this is my arent you #tired of being nice dont you wsnt to go apeshit moment!!! (specific parts of) de fandon grow a brain challenge!!!!! #sorry im like not usually mean on here but im just fucking at my wits end from small stupid thing after small stupid thing rn #texticles

[idunnoausersname]

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#ugh my brain is being so mean to me today. and for what?? #(i know. its because i dont have any long term plans.) #(and my Brain No Work Syndrome is fucking up my ability to do anything about it.) #my whole 'situationship' is the first thing to spring a leak when im anxious/stressed lol #its like a canary. #''hey he only likes you for how you look. also youre ugly and he actually hates you'' #hmm. hmmmm. those arent Good Brain Day thoughts lmfao #and sure enough here i am. feeling needy and not liking myself much. #and i would rather swallow a cactus then contact my friends with this. because im already ugly and stupid (/paraphrasing myself) #i shouldn't be annoying as well #and dw im not going to do anything unsafe or whatever. #last thing i want is people to be worried. #but uh yeah. screaming into the void it is. #god forbid i keep a thought to myself. #god forbid i dont beg people to affirm my self esteem that's made of cardboard lol #ugh. yeah anyway bad brain day. sorry

[molluskzone-moving]

i hate being called male terms or even receiving masculine compliments sometimes (i especially hate the word handsome...) but for some reason getting called boyfriend makes me 😳

#especially if its teasing like... okay... can i take your hand in marriage #wont be ur husband tho im your wife but your boyfriend too. *gerard way voice* and ALSO... ur girl #ive always hated masculine compliments for everyone basically. its why you always see me calling ppl pretty or beautiful here #even when i was a kid and my mom would b asking me about male celebritie id always just go 'that ones pretty i guess' #and then shed say 'omg boys arent pretty' well im NOT calling that thing handsome #also dont like the word gorgeous #if i say pretty it means ur attractive. if i say cute it means im in love w u. if i say beautiful??? i am imagining us getting married #those r the only compliments i will give based on appearance the other ones are just weirddd #well ok hate is a strong word i dont HATE male terms #i just used to rlly distance myself from bein a woman and it was harmful for me in the long run i think #so like ehhh idk i dont like it :/ #plus people irl being super weird about my gender. cannot comprehend that i am in fact a girl #insist on not using she/her for me EVEN WHEN i explicitly tell them that i use those prnouns #like. huh??? #who is that supposed to help... #im so jaded atp id rather get called he than they #just by the amount of people who ignore boundaries and call me they bc theyre. uncomfortable with gnc women i guess??? #sorry if this comes across insensitive but honestly i dont care im so sick of people treating me like that #smells like homophobia 2.0 but from ppl who are supposed to NOT do that #like i always call ppl the pronouns they ask me to but apparently that does not go both ways the minute im gnc

[sege-h]

Its PPRIDE and its the FIRST EVER ARO VISIBILITY DAY, allowing me to unlock my powers to fire godzilla beams from my mouth and evaporate anyone that implies Sonic wouldnt save or try to save Shadow if he wasnt gay for him

WOULD YOU RESERVE LIFE SAVING TO YOUR ROMANTIC PARTNERS ONLY, AND LEAVE "ONLY" A FRIEND TO FALL FROM SPACE? BECAUSE THEYRE "JUST" A FRIEND?

PATHETIC

WEAK

IF I WERE SONIC ID SIMPLY SAVE EVERYONE WITH THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP ALONE--oh wait he already does that

😤

#Personal #Sorry but by your logic Sonic should leave Tails in danger all the time #After all hes 'Just' his best friend/lil bro #He should also not bother to save the world seeing as he isnt dating everyone in it or feeling romantic attraction towards them #This isnt just This fandom this annoys me in every fandom #When people point at a scene of a character saving anothers life or being worried when theyre in danger #And go 'SEE THEY MUST LOVE THEM ROMANTICALLY. ITS PROOF' #Would you not try and save your friends life? Arent you worried for them when things arent okay? #Is concern only reserved for them if you have a crush on them? #What a sad way to live #Sorry i saw someone praise fanart of Sonic saving Shadow at the end of SA2 #And blatantly ignored the canon where Sonic DID try to save Shadow anyway #Just to say 'Sonic tried to save Shadow in this fanart because hes so gay for him' and I went feral #Youre free to your queer headcanons and praise of queer fan works but the moment you do it by throwing #Friendships under the bus i will GET you #I know amatonormativity has rotted all our brains #But im begging yall to think for a minute before you say things like this #I hc Sonic as acearo. Imagine what itd sound like if i said smth like 'well maybe if Sonic actually valued Shadow as a friend he wouldve tr #tried to save him. He didnt try to save him because he ONLY had a crush on him' #Sounds bad innit? #Anyway im done rambling. Happy aro visibility day remember romance and friendship are equal and one is not better than the other

[surpriserose]

I had to rage annotate the edgy slam poetry

#Listen my poetry skills are rusty like most pf my writing analysis skills but like this sucks right? #Like i know almost rhymes are a thing but this shit does not seem intentional so its just kind of nothing and its not like its doing almost #Rhymes to unseat the reader or like idk not to go game of thrones mode but subvert the readers expectations #And its slam poetry so it doesnt need to but still theyre there #And theres the alliteration of sounds for one line and thats it!!!!!!! You arent doing anything fun or interesting with it!!!! #Also how do puddles fly and sheets wither like puddles are known for being...on the ground and sheets are like?????? Girl living things #Wither not sheets like say wrinkled but oh sorry i forgot thats not edgy enough mr puts guts berserks backstory in my slam poetry #Also like i know the sheets are red because ooohh blood colored thats spooky but that doesnt add anything that doesnt make an 'immaculate #Room' less immaculate it just makes it red #Also the break there is the page transition since im reading a digital copy but it might as well be in the texts for how poorly this all #Connects #Like why are you talking about rooms and death and being like oh i cant breathe like??? Even with death youre not describing smell shit #Youre only describing the visuals !!! #The rest of it is just so edgy it turns into pudding for how little substance it has!!!!!!! #Also sorry the it controls line still makes no sense to me like position is the noun right beforehand so its the antecedent or whatever the #Word is but it makes no sense like yeah i guess it does like the position/environment youre in controls your reactions to it but idk its #Just clunky and edgy and stupid #colleen hoover #Hater hours #Sorry for accidentally getting so mad i do poetry analysis but well coho has that effect on me i guess

[4shfur]

not really a vent im just talking about stuff so uhh no one feel obligated to look at this im just talking and its probably going to b extremely long and make no sense (because its late)

2022 is over honestly 2023 feels like its out of a dystopian film 😐 not very cool. i wish it was the 2010s anybody remember that? i loved that. stuff is changing a lot and idk if im ready for it. my new year resolution to do more stuff. like hang out with my friends more and do more things. idk about anything else. i want to do better in track but im not sure if i can. all my cousins are in track/cross country but theyre all better than me. my brother's only done cross country once but even hes better than me. its kind of petty to complain about it, idk i also wanna do better in school but i also hate school. its frustrating, i used to be really good at it but now im just average, it feels like. thats dumb to complain about too though because i know people who really struggle with school and im being sad because my brother got a better grade on the sat than me when he was my age. i think im a weirdo but not in a good way (transitioning topics) that sounds dumb but idk im not sure ive been thinking about it lately and i think maybe im actually really unlikeable. this isnt a weird internalized thing i think i might just be super annoying and idk how to fix it. its not on purpose. and idk how to ask my friends if they like me or not because thats super wierd????? and obv theyd say yes right bcs you cant just tell someone you dont like them. and im worriwd i come off as insensitive or pushy to ppl and they secretly hate but like?????? idk i dont ever know bcs i cant tell with people and i really dont mean to i really do like these people. i really dont wanna be that one annoying kid who keeps hanging out with people even though they clearly dont like them, but its not clear, and idk how to tell. also my new years resolution is to be nicer to people. bcs im kinda judgy about people (usually in my head but sometimes i talk mean about people) and i dont want to do that bcs usually im wrong and i dont have the whole picture and i just want to be nicer. (transitjon again) im actually doing better mentally i think, i guess i was just going through that whole "i hate my parents phase" everyone always talks about but i feel like i should be worrying about things more. idk its hard to explain but i wish i was worse. that sounds super fucked up 🤷 but im nostalgic for when i felt terrible all the time and hated myself, i guess. thats as simply as i can put it and idk whats up. i know people who are struggling and i want to help them but i dont know how and i hate that. ik this makes me sound super gross. but who knows. maybe ill get my wish and this year will be terrible or something. 21 days till for the future comes out though ✌️✌️✌️

#anyways i hope everyone has an amazing year #if things arent going so well for you right now im really sorry and i hope things get better for you (genuinely)

[mrfoox]

people: miranda you shouldnt ask when you go in for a kiss or hug or doing any kind of ‘move’. that’s just weird

me: but what if they don’t want a kiss or a hug? then if i ask them they can actually say no and neither of us will feel bad

#me on any date will ask stuff. is it okay if i come closer/we hug/i kiss you? #my 'normal' friends are all like no thats so awkward and weird.... #like im sorry but first of all... i have severe past trauma and of having people finding me ugly/gross/etc so it's easier for me to take #rejection before i do something than during. second.... i'd never want to make anyone feel bad or do something they don't like especially #when we aren't close.... like sorry people who go on dates and can just go in for a hug after the first date or something #but i will ask for consent for such. i dont know them that well and they not me. maybe they are not into touching or maybe they just #arent that into me so yeah.... i will be awkward and weird and ask bc i am crazy like that #im bad with rejection in general but i've noticed that i take it much better if i get rejected before i actually do something than during #bc then i dont get the guilt part of it. i often feel bad guilt if i make dsomeone feel bad so... if i ask before... i wont #have actually done anything and if they say n o then i know and yeah (: #its also i cant read body language and 'vibes' so having verbal confirmation is important to me #miranda talking shit #autism tag #??? probasbly a big autistic thing idek man

[allylikethecat]

hey ally i’ve had like the worst day ever today and seeing ur update about a new chapter being posted tmrw is the one good thing that’s happened so it really made my night lol

Oh no! I’m so sorry to hear thar you had the worst day ☹️ I am sending you lots of hugs and good vibes! I hope tomorrow is better 🩵 (I am confident it will be!)

I’m happy that I could at least share one positive thing and I hope you enjoy tomorrow’s chapter! Sending you lots of love and well wishes- I hope the rest of your week goes better! It can only go up from here!

My inbox / DMs are always open if you need or want to vent or chat about anything at all, I am always here to listen or provide distraction, whichever you need most! Thank you so much for reading, I hope you have a better rest of your week!

❤️Ally

#allylikethecat #ask ally #anon ask #fanfiction #keep it kind #matty fic #gatty #im so sorry that things arent going well #and i truly mean it im always here to listen or distract if anyone needs it! #i hope you enjoy tomorrows update #even though its an angst fest #sending lots of love your way!!

[aroaceofthesea]

I was in a 18 bday party today and we didnt have a gift for the bday girl💀💀

#luckily we made a pretty good last minute save #im usually the kind of person to sit back and say yes to whatever ppl are saying to get for the persons bday #the problem is that this time there wasnt one big present and every group did their thing #and the four of our group were the same as me so we literally didnt even think of a gift until we were there💀💀 #luckily we know her rlly well (weve been friends since like 3) so we decided to get her a vale for puenting #<-sorry if the last sentence is illegible to you im too lazy to think how to say it in english #and we looked pretty cool and she was rlly happy with the gift so i take that as a win #it was a 25 ppl dinner and we only talked the 4 of us lolll (and with the bday girl obv) #but i had fuun i got to see sides of a couple of them that i had never rlly seen before #bc like the bday girl me and another weve known each other since forever we were bffs at school etc #the other two are from music and i n music theres a group that are kinda intimidating so most ppl outside that group arent rlly completely #themselves at music tho you get to see them after music when we stay talking or on the walk home etc #but theres not as much time so it was nice to get to know better the other two😋😋 #also im rlly happy bc the bday girl and the other one aftr years of barely talking even tho we saw each other every week it feels like #weve been reconnecting lately (we stopped being good friends bc life not any argument or anything) and i love it #like i know it will never be like it used to be in school when we were super close but its nice to have them as friends again #looking back on it our relationship was never very healthy (in any direction tbh) but it was nice while it lasted #i wouldnt want to go back to what we had but i would like to build a new and healthier relationship with them and its finally happening :) #ok that was a long rant lol #mine #life

[n0phalt]

seeing these over and over and over and repeating my mantra of peace and understanding interspersed with my mantra of 'twitters algorithm is trying to make me mad and is showing me takes that seem very antagonistic and personally targeted when in actuality this is a fair assessment of *some* peoples experience and the poster has not evaluated other reasons for the discordance and thus is not dispariging me'

#in my soul i am going 'well no. i dont like it becaus-' #then my brain cuts in with two things! one that 'no. you *do* like it. you dont like the industry #or seeing these posts that come across as very antagonistic and demeaning' #and also another thing that i forgot whilst writing this. sorry im in a hospital room #oh i think i wrote both of the things at onfe. thats so funny #TW! DEATH! we are taking off the life support. sorry tumblr kingdom im not very stable rn excuse me saying that i have to let something know #oh. the other thing is that i also feel negatively towards those who dispariage modern/abstract art in ways that arent regarding the #industry. like i AGREE with this persons intent i just think their wording is unnecessarily accusatory and general #but were all guilty of that. i first typed out 'their wording is dogshit and antagonistic' which was hilarious

[faggy--butch]

sorry to ramble in your inbox but its kinda fucking me up how "trans man with a cishet boyfriend who misgenders him behind his back" is like seen to be a person to make fun of in the general queer tumblr space instead of a person who is in a vulnerable situation. i know that there is trans men who are also women and there are trans men who are genuinely okay with dating a cis man who considers himself straight but people talking about these hypothetical couples arent talking about these situations but rather about "haha stupid trans man doesnt realize hes dating a bigot"

theres this attitude that the hypothetical cishet boyfriend is actually a conservative so it should be obvious to trans man that he doesnt respect his identity but i feel like its less "oh its obvious that this specific man is a bigot" and more "obviously cishet white men are bigots" and its weird how people laugh at this person instead of acknowledging that even if you are dating a bigot its usually not a big win for you personally. like the bigot cishet boyfriend isnt going to be okay with his trans man boyfriend starting testosterone. like we can sympathize with emotional abuse happening towards other groups but when its gay and mspec trans men its like "oh he should have known that would happen" or "its his fault for dating a bigot"?

of course people have the same making fun of the victim narrative with afab nonbinary people who date cishet men who misgender them [and im sure this bleeds over to affecting all nonbinary people if people arbitrarily decide theyre afab if the nonbinary person refuses to tell them personal information about themselves but the larger narrative always specifies that this is an afab person] and its almost like a "this is what you get for being attracted to men" sort of thing.

and also i theres something to be said about warning people for signs their partner or potential partner doesnt respect their identity but considering i imagine its a common anxiety among trans and nonbinary people who are into that sorta thing to wonder "am i ever going to find someone who loves me and is also accepting of me for being [insert gender here]?" its sort of fucked up for it to be common to basically claim "yea if youre dating a cis man who said he was straight before he started dating you but says he respects your identity hes probably just straight up lying to your face" and then laugh at the person getting misgendered for not knowing they were being misgendered.

anyway sorry for this big ramble i cant even remember specific instances of this to reference so i might seem like im making up a guy to be mad at but i swear this is like a general attitude and almost running joke i see around. anyway. have a good day.

I absolutely see that too, and I think it's a mixture of straight up victim blaming, because oh noo how dare you WANT to date *gasp* cis men

but it come with an intense transandrophobia and exorsexism because there's a lot more sympathy when it comes to cis women dating cishet men "poor things uwu" but when it's trans men or in this case non binary people assumed to be women, it's always "see I told you so" smug superiority. (cis women get this too, because of misogyny obviously, but it's different and worse for trans men) People are just waiting for a chance to be misogynistic and trans men are an acceptable target. This is honestly extra fucked up when we remember that trans men experience some of the highest rates of domestic violence and rape in the community though.

being trans is such a vulnerable place to be in, and a lot of people, trans or not are insecure or just want to be loved, that's normal. A lot of people are willing to accept certain behaviors from their partners that are bad, because of those reasons as well, victim blaming, and ESPECIALLy telling trans men to toughen up or "what did you expect" is apart of the toxic expectations that get placed of trans men as well. I could honestly go on for hours about this. good ask,anon

#transandrophobia #asks