#im not getting paid who cares

[comfymoth]

been doodling some jurassic park au stuff, and obviously my first priority was giving all the dino hug scenes to tommy ^_^

#dream smp #dsmp #tommyinnit #fan art #my art #jurassic park au #i hate tagging sm most embarrassing part of posting #designs also subject 2 change we will see #im sorryyyyy i know i have other projects i said i would update but i #i just #ok i have no excuse #hyperfixation just go brrrr and yknow what this is my silly funtime fandom blog i can do whatever i want here #im not getting paid who cares

[pa-pa-plasma]

bro you are on the FANDOM WEBSITE why are you NOT supporting your fandom creators????? do you WANT us to stop??? do you want there to be no more art & fic?? because that’s what happens when you don’t reblog our stuff. this isn’t a threat, this is a reality. if there is no one here wanting to see our stuff we won’t post it. I’m not trying to guilt trip here, none of us are, we’re literally just saying that if there is no motivation to spend 10+ hours making fanart or 5 years writing a multichapter fic for free then we won’t fucking do it

^this shit? ridiculous. I LOVE EVERYONE WHO REBLOGGED & INTERACTED WITH MY ART! I LOVE EVERYONE WHO ASKED QUESTIONS & COMMENTED!! but so many of these people just liked it & left. this has been getting worse over the years, too. the reblogs to likes ratio has been getting crazier. I create because I love it, but if I have no reason to post, I won’t. fandoms dry up because of this. creators quit because of this.

we just need to stop acting like this is instagram, or that anyone cares what your blog looks like. people don’t see your likes, they see your reblogs. you want that favourite content creator to post more art? you want that writer to post the next chapter of your fav fic?? reblog it. share it. show them you care, because otherwise they won’t. this is a hobby we do for free. you consume our stuff for free. you aren’t entitled to it, so please just reblog, it isn’t hard.

#we aren't asking for money we're asking for you to hit a button #stop being a little bitch #this is tumblr. no one gives a shit about your ''aesthetic'' or whatever #no one even looks at who reblogs what on here #i'm sick of seeing people not sharing works out of spite & acting like wanting attention for our labour is bad #I SPEND 15 HOURS DRAWING YOU BETTER FUCKING REBLOG IT. I'M POSTING IT SO I CAN FEEL BETTER #AFTER SPENDING 15 HOURS HUNCHED IN A SHITTY CHAIR WITH MY WRIST ALL FUCKED UP & MY LAPTOP TRYING TO KILL ITSELF & ME #im not asking to be PAID im asking for you to share artist's & writers' works. we are 99% of the fandom's content #you want more content? fucking motivate us to make it. you are getting it for free. stop being an asshole & fucking reblog it #i'm so fucking tired of people with their cold ass takes #if i EVER like anyone's art & don't reblog it THAT WAS A MISTAKE. I MEANT TO REBLOG BUT TUMBLR GLITCHED OR I RAN OUT OF REBLOGS #i KNOW how hard it is to spend hours days YEARS on something & for no one to care #i am literally just asking for everyone to have some sympathy #like imagine if your employer started complaining about how selfish it is you work for free? that's this #you'd quit that job #YOU CAN'T COME TO THE FANDOM WEBSITE & COMPLAIN THAT FANDOM CREATORS WANT ATTENTION FOR THEIR WORK #EVERYONE WANTS ATTENTION YOU STUPID MANTHING IT CAME FREE WITH YOUR FUCKING HUMAN BRAIN

[tboom10]

day 15, another special woooo:

herrah and the greenpath floor looks weird, but aside from that, i love this. it was a pain to make, i've never done anything close to this, i spend like 30-60 minutes on hornets face alone, but it paid of really well. also i feel like i do this kind of shading and lighing a lot, they're like dots but not really. fun fact: i was thinking about making some form of black emptyness in the shape of herrah, but i didn't do that, cuz i had the idea's of the other dreamers already and this worked out better because consistancy. also another fun fact: despite lurien's idea coming first he was the last one i'll do last. he's my favorite dreamer, thats why. im currently actually working on it (and might've finished it when this is posted, i make these in advance). yes its gonna be a day 25 special. yes im that much ahead, i like being ahead, which is something i can very much not say about school. i love the dreamers, maybe i'll make them in a separtate drawing after this series. im currently very much hyperfixating on them, and with them, i mostly mean lurien (with a bit of pale king because yes).

#hk art #hk fanart #hollow knight #hk hornet #hornet #hk herrah #herrah the beast #this was painful to make #but it paid of so who cares #gonna do something simular with someone else maybe #probably not luriens one tho #i've not done the same with monomons one and if i do herrah and lurien i should do the same with monomon #which didnt happen #so maybe if monomons drawing will win the final poll at the end i'll do it in this style #but then again i wont do this for lurien so if his piece doen't also get the dub then what #i've rambled for to long #like what is this #send help #alright im currently working on the one with lurien and imliking the sketch so far and will not have this artstyle

[roadkill-and-rot]

I really wish animal keeper/animal care jobs were more well paid. Like working with animals is great but also it's frustrating when people act as if that alone is rewarding enough, I'd like to be able to afford to live too actually

#vetblr #animal welfare #currently getting into vet nursing and the salaries are kinda depressing #anyone who thinks people go into animal jobs for the money dont know anything #animal care #vet tech #like. is working with animals rewarding? yeah. is it well paid? uh No #also if anyone comes onto this post to tell me vets are well paid then consider a) im not a vet b) vets put up with a lot of shit and #c) vet salaries arent indicative of the entire animal care industry when it comes to salary

[ignorancelive]

landlords PLEASE die horrendous fiery deaths why are they literally doubling our rent and getting past rent control by only starting to document our rent prices after the first half of the increase 😐 kill yourself right now

#we've been here for 10 years and paid rent in cash and now theyre like oh you're paying a lot less rent than others in the area #first of all NO SHIT WHY ELSE WOULD BE STAY HERE but also 1.3k to 2k to 2.7k within 6-7 months is CRAZY YOURE INSANE DIE DIE DIE DIE #and i cant get a job bc my moms getting surgery next week so i have to stay home and take care of her and cook #AND my dads on unemployment :) so thanks #our food stamps are in the process of being approved so hopefully we'll have a semi stable income for food soon #idk. i needed to rant somewhere im so mad #we're considering moving out and getting a new place w the neighbors who theyre also increasing rent for #and who also have their main income source out of a job rn bc thats just how trucking is in january #but they have a daughter in elementary school how do you do that and not feel like a spineless asshole #this isnt even your HOUSE its your moms!!!!! and she was a million times less of an asshole #shes actually the one that kept our rent the same but she moved to latam like! do you think shes fucking proud of you! shes NOT #anyways if you see me post my v mo and p pal soon this is why

[cleaverqueer]

Feeling pretty confident that i can actually do this rn

#sell my patches i mean #ive always wanted to get paid for my art and this seems like a really great opportunity #im really grateful to you guys for talking me into this #and just idk #caring about my art #you guys who care i mean lol

[wmnylander]

the reaction to the NHL bringing 4 teams to sweden has been something that's been bugging me for the last few days like no, you don't need to 'grow the game' in sweden. everyone knows that there's already a steadfast loyalty and enjoyment of hockey there. but have any of the north american old men with (unfortunately) access to the internet thought about how accessible these games are to other european fans?? even some fans from non-european countries?? how it's easier for people not in canada/the us to enjoy literally 2 whole games because they're at a normal/manageable time?? that's how you grow the game. it's how you grow any sport. losers.

#i dont know if im making sense but it's genuinely been annoying me like go awayyyyyy #i do not CARE about the flow of the season they are getting a paid vacation and they get to play hockey for an adoring fanbase #they hire so many people to monitor them and to optimise their time over there to make sure they aren't too messed up coming back #this whole puritan attitude around how it's a Bad Thing that they travel outside of 2 countries is insane to me #in every other NA sport it's celebrated when teams go overseas #but these ugly old men have problems with EVERYTHING but will then turn around and complain about things like the cap and the figures which #can only be expanded if you broaden your reach #grow the game but only if it fits into the archaic structure set out by men who thought playing without helmets was a good idea

[rubiesintherough]

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#(( ooc. )) #venting tw #negativity tw #gonna try to do some writing today but motivation is real low. #i guess that's what happens when you get called stupid useless and lazy to your face by someone who then expects you #to bow and scrape and wait on them hand and foot #and also now im expected to pay the electric bill on top of doing all the housework. literally all of it. in a home of 3 #fucking adults. and bow im also the one having to handle a lot of maintenance work around the place on top of keeping #it spotless bc no one else 'feels like doing it' #and the whole time i get to be insulted and told that im fat. stupid. lazy. while im cleajing up their messes. and fixing stuff for them. #and doing a bunch of cooking bc they get pissy if i dont also feed them on top of doing literally all the housework. and maintenance work. #and also now being expected to pay half the electric bill. again house of 3 people. and im not even allowed to take a hot shower when i need #to in order to get the pain spikes under control from yknow. flaring up my fibro from overworking myself CLEANING AND TAKING CARE OF THE #DAMN HOUSE FOR THEM #bc it takes too much electricity. the electricity i mostly paid for last month #sorry i needed to get that out #suicide tw #abuse tw #not me debating offing myself bc theres no end in sight and no way out and i cant keep going from one abusive situation to another #and just trying to survive. almost 30 yrs old and ive never once felt safe or at home anywhere ive ever lived. not once. in almost 30 #years have i ever felt safe. or like im my own person. or that im valued. or wanted. or listened to. not once in almost 30 years #have i ever felt like im actually loved (wanted) beyond my usefullness. #shit sucks man. anyway sorry for the spam of negativity lately. im not trying to be a downer. #gonna go hang out in my inbox for a while and see if anything pops out that my muses wanna jump on 🤞

[joyridingmp3]

cancelled all future singing lessons 😌

#sweet motherfucking CHRIST that bitch was annoying #i tried soooooo hard to overlook those things and see the good in her #but when she looked at the clock 18 minutes into our 30 minute session and then KEPT. TALKING!!! i was over it #also. very hard for me to sit there #while someone im PAYING MONEY to teach me a skill #tells me aaaaaaaall about their abusive father who used to physically assault them #meanwhile I'm having flashbacks to my OWN trauma when MY abusive father used to do all that #but i have some decorum and tact and sense of context and time and a place #and I also value my privacy #so i never said anything #but i just had to smile and nod and politely say 'wow. that's must have been SOOOO hard for youuuuu :((' #like oh my GOD #can we just fucking SING?? #can we just do the thing I paid you to do?? #I don't fucking CARE!! #mine #sorry I'm so anxious rn it's translating into anger i guess #but I'm glad that's over and I'll never have to deal with that again #I'll just google it and teach myself to sing #that's what I get for relying on others #every time i seek help from another person. or rely on them for something #they ALWAYS let me down. and I have to figure it out for myself #I don't know why I thought this would be any different #I can do it myself. I always have. and I always will. i don't need anyone #also when she said for a whole MONTH that she'd teach me this technique next session. and didn't. #it was sooooo over

[worldsendgirlfriend]

sorry for all the scribbles i just wanted to cross out what i wrote for my own comfort, anyway can we agree this sheet my boss gave me to fill out to see how much i need to sell per week/day just to fucking. survive. Believing in sales for a single second was a mistake

#i get paid 100 for every day of training though ($500 after friday's end) and only after that do i get changed to comm and. #'unlockable' hourly. unlockable by selling 6 products. if you dont make that u get 100% instead of 50% comm but like. #what if u dont sell SHIT!!!!!! u are LITERALLY just getting free labor. which feels illegal does it not. Well who cares after friday im #goin like. Hey u know how u said someone could dip after training if they decide its not for them? So basically-

[snowflakeb0ttles]

my grandma is insane shes spending 125 dollars on amazon for a bunch of random creams or whatever because 'oh its my australian healing creams i want it' when we dont HAVE that kind of money to be SPENDING im going to throttle her

#and like. i get paid 340 a week right. and she demands half my paycheck #because i get paid to take care of her and shes always threatening she'll take me off of it if i dont give her the money #so im basically only getting 170 a week. #and i got paid today and paid internet (60) and lights (110) and put 40 into savings #and she has the audacity to tell me to order chinese food (60 dollars btw) bc she wants it and i cant say no because whatevers left #of myyyyy money isnt 'technically' mine #so now im already broke and i just got paid today. and we still need to buy a vacuum #which uh oh! cant afford bc someone wanted chinese food and guess whos gonna get yelled at about it. meeeeee<3 #im so annoyed apologies for the vent ass post

[slippery-minghus]

hmm. had an actual conversation with nightmare coworker today that seemed mutually productive. she apologized for saying some bullshit that hurt my feelings and i clarified that my intentions are to help not to undermine her, and we both agreed that there's no competition against each other and that it's the lack of growth in our role that's the problem. it was...productive.

and further cementing for me that it is time to begin making my Exit. i will be sending out my resume to a few places this weekend.

i'm still processing the conversation, and am struggling to place myself in where i am responsible to better my behavior. because i genuinely don't want to be an ass, even though i really don't like this lady and will jump for joy the day i never have to see her again. she stated that she knows my intentions aren't to hurt her, and that she thinks i'm very kind. i apologized for if my behavior came off as undermining her, and said that my intentions are only to better my own growth—and that i know she's trying to succeed too. i validated her feelings, and complemented the effort she is putting in.

where i'm struggling with is: am i in the wrong/causing harm and needing to change if the issue is that her feelings are incongruent with what she knows of my intentions? her feelings are her responsibility (WOW i almost typed "her feelings are my responsibility". i feel like that's a freudian slip) and she states that she knows i don't mean to hurt her. i'm going to try to be more clear in wording my intentions with her (she feels like me trying to take work off her plate is to undermine her. when really, i'm caught up and see her getting overwhelmed, and i want to help and also have something to do since i'm bored).

but i'm really struggling to look at my role in this and pass judgement on myself. i can and want to do better, and i don't think i did anything wrong, but i'm always so hesitant to say it's not my fault or i didn't do something bad. like i can't trust my judgement on that. my intentions were good, her bad feelings are ones caused by her insecurities, which she more or less has expressed to be aware that they are not true—the hurtful thing she said to me, she acknowledged was said out of hurt and not what she actually thinks. so, is it fair to say i'm not the bad guy? i'm not in the wrong? i know good intentions that still result in harm don't absolve anyone, but when the things that are clashing are insufficient communication and reactive insecurities... i'm not a monster, am i?

#well. i AM probably a monster for how much i dislike this lady #but i don't ACT on it #and i genuinely couldn't care less about her. i participate in decent human pleasantries because i am a decent human. #and at work we're stuck together #the thing that's irked me so much about this conversation is just.. her self centeredness #that she thinks everyone is out to get her. to undermine her. whatever. #bitch nobody cares about you enough one way or the other to put in that kind of effort. i sure don't #i empathize but i do not sympathize. to feel that pit that makes you feel like the worst kind of center of attention #i get it. but genuinely you are not the main character and no one is going to spend their limited time and energy to slowly attack you #you are not the cat with all the knives pointed at it #it's a terrible feeling to feel like you are! but when it influences your behavior to the point that you are making snide comments #to people who have no option not to interact with you then uh. then you're in the wrong buddy #and the people around you (who cannot easily leave! bc work!) should not have to bend over backwards to assure you #that they're not pointing knives at you. to protect themselves from your feelings making you say mean shit #like yes. i can be more clear with my intentions. i'm generally not the greatest at that. but my baseline that i want to #modify my behavior from is NOT one that a regular well adjusted person would take as anything but kind #and if a regular well adjusted person got a little offput by me volunteering to take work off their hands we would've had a very chill #3 sentence conversation about it MONTHS AGO. #i understand and respect (even if i find it annoying and overbearing) the need for me to announce my intentions like im working in a kitchen #and saying 'hot water' or 'knife' as i move around other people but we shouldn't have reached this conclusion this way #and frankly who's to fucking say me being more clear with my intentions will only feed the flames of her thinking i'm out to get her! #'i caught up on my stuff and your plate looks full. i'm bored. anything i can do to help?' could be a pointed knife for all i know!! #and if it is- and my actions still hurt her in that scenario- am i still responsible for the hurt caused?? #like WHERE DOES IT FUCKING E N D ? #personal #*exhales* okay i feel better now #i just hate talking about my interactions with her bc i just want NOTHING to do with it. i want her out of my head!! #but until i process it i can't let go #and i'm still going to have to go over all of this with my shrink tomorrow #it just makes me mad how much of my time this bitch takes up. i'm not getting paid to think about work right now!!!!

[canongf]

LIV!! Im so proud of you and super excited for you about your acting classes! I really hope you have a blast with them, I know you’re gonna be absolutely amazing!! 🫶🫶🫶

JOCELYN!!! this is so sweet, thank you so much!!! i just keep getting more and more excited!!! i think it's gonna be a lot of fun, the coach seems really cool and i'm so ready to give it a go!!! i can't wait to update you after!!!

#im going in with an open mind and a willingness to do basically anything #i'm rlly over being nervous about being embarrassed or vulnerable i just don't care anymore u know!!! #if i make a fool of myself who cares!!! #i paid for the class and i'm gonna get my money's worth!!! #and i think that'll make it even better :) #I'LL POST ABT IT AFTER I GO I PROMISE!!! :) #ask liv #jocelynships #jocelyn tag #sweetness

[piplupod]

one of the cashiers at the grocery store i go to is so fucking fixated on shoplifters and it drives me crazy any time i check out through him (i try to avoid him but his checkout is often the most open/empty - hm! i wonder why! - and im often on a tight schedule w the bus). he brings up shoplifters every opportunity he gets and he seems so convinced that theyre a huge problem.

BUT WHAT REALLY GETS ME ,,, is that today the customer in front of me was needing a price check on one of the items bc it should've come out to be cheaper, so he was kind of apologetic abt it and saying "ah well, yknow, six dollars is six dollars, especially with how expensive groceries are right now" and i was nodding and agreeing (trying to show that i dont mind the wait and also solidarity my guy good for u for speaking up and getting the price fixed on that) AND THE CASHIER AGREES. FULLY ACKNOWLEDGES AND BEMOANS THE FACT THAT GROCERIES ARE CRAZY RN. AND THEN GOES ON TO COMPLAIN ABOUT SHOPLIFTERS. HUH ??????

so you agree that groceries are unreasonably expensive... and that sometimes ppl can't afford them... and yet ....................

#HE MAKES ME SO FUCKING ANGRY CMONNNN THINK ABOUT IT DUDE.... #i knew him in highschool (small town things lol) and im pretty sure he was one of those kids who thought cops were really cool. so. yknow. #not surprised. just annoyed fdjkl #i would say smth like ''oh does ur paycheque get docked if shoplifters come thru or smth?'' but i dont want to piss him off #i would like to remain civil with the cashiers here bc its the only grocery store i can get to most of the time fdsjkl #but like. i would love to find out why he hates shoplifters so much #when i worked at DQ in highschool and ppl stole dilly bars or FULL CAKES... i did not give a single shit #even though the managers and boss would get kind of angry at us (but they knew we couldnt do anything abt it really lmao) #and then we had to put locks on the customer-facing freezers which was a hassle for us #AND STILL. I NEVER FELT ANGRY AT THE SHOPLIFTERS. BECAUSE WHATEVER DUDE LIFE IS EXPENSIVE GO GET THAT ICE CREAM!!! #also i was not paid enough to care LMFAO and i know for a fact that this cashier isn't paid enough either bc my brother used to work there #I DUNNO DUDE. HONESTLY I HAVE MAD RESPECT FOR SHOPLIFTERS #i've potentially done it a few times and its fucking terrifying esp w the amount of cameras installed now fdsjkl #i dont do it now even though i need to more than ever bc i was making myself sick every time i possibly did it #i'd get home and sit in the bathroom for an hour trying to make sure i wasnt about to throw up from the stress fdsjkl #also it was stupid to do honestly (but . needed. so yknow.) bc again. i dont have any other options for accessible grocery stores really #ANYWAYS. fuck that cashier i hope he realizes what a little narc he's being and gains some class consciousness or smth idk #all for one and one for all etc etc etc we're all in this together my guy #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[arcaneyouth]

"well at least I'll get good sleep tonight" they said, not getting good sleep tonight

#vent post #negative #doing really fucking bad mentally actually #cant turn my brain off about how mad i am about money #about wasting my fucking time meeting people and their dogs they want me to care for #not getting paid for the fucking meetings that have been half the reason i struggle making progress on my personal projects #undercharging myself to hell and back just for the chance to get A Job #only for them to fucking cancel because they dont respect my time #cancel a meet up 3 hours before. cancel the booking less than 24 hours after making it. make me drive an hour for fucking nothing #begging me to lower my prices which are already lower than everyone in the area #i dont want to work anymore i want it to stop #going to do a week of dog sitting for less than 200 fucking dollars because its the only god damn fucking job i can fuckkng get #and it wont even happen for another month! who knows! they could cancel too! #if they cancel I'm deleting my fucking rover account! #i cant earn money. im trying so hard for nothing. #i cant apply to normal jobs because my job anxiety is So Bad i NEED someone to be with me as i apply showing me how it works #i dont know what job i want because i dont want a job i want to go to bed #im so so tired of going 'this could work! i could make this work!' and it just never gets far enough to matter #after 3 years of no progress you know what! maybe i cant fucking make it work! #i dont want to keep trying with this stupid shit anymore #im not even gonna be able to afford christmas presents this year. #anyways. whats a girl gotta do to get some fuckinf sleep around here

[blurrycow]

my life has gotten so much better since I stopped giving a fuck

#toby speaks #like. someone tries to do my job at work? who cares I’m still getting paid #ive just gotten to the point of not caring that it’s either depression or im just amazing at not giving a shit about whatever