#im feeling so overwhelmed

[thatlazybones]

im not readyyy 😭😭

#im feeling so overwhelmed #aftg has been my favorite books for sooo long #i can't believe we're finally getting jean content #all for the game #the sunshine court #will u guys unfollow me if i start drawing aftg fanart again be honest #i prob wont tho TT at least not here

[spideysatan]

i just want peace and quiet and rn im getting nothing of the sorts..... love that for me

#im feeling so overwhelmed #and just now so much work was just... dumped on me #and the pressure of all the things i have to do its starting to quite literally crush me #and on top of that my dumb brain just cant stop saying to just give up on absolutely everything :) #so thats nice :) #my brain be like: yes yes all this important things we need to do yeah sure what about nobody ever loved you and you are literally a #waste of space? hmmnnnnmm ever thought about that banger??? hm what about the person you like absolutely doesnt like you at all? what #about the lonliness? nice huh? hmnhm what if we just gave up that would be nice huh ? #...... #like. how tf do i concentrate when its so loud and all i wanna do is cry and feel nothing for the rest of my life. #i dont thjnk im strong enough for this shit anymore #*y

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

#how im feeling. i know thats why its important to focus on small changes you can make but god. #its so overwhelming sometimes #not a day has gone by since i exited prostitution where i didnt think of the millions of vulnerable people still in it #mine

[mipexch]

comic about v2 and the goal they'll never fully reach alongside a dissatisfying conclusion. intimate rivalry and all (alternative ending comic. V1 dies instead of V2 during 4-4. V2 is narrating. V1 is dead.)

#high of victory drops to an overwhelming crushing feeling of what comes next now that youre done #if it wasnt clear v2 is trying very hard to put v1 back together after it kills them. very very poorly. weight of your actions hits #v2 #v1 #ultrakill #v4v #heavy implied at the very least. see as you will #i realize now that the writing is very disconnected and so are the drawings but bear with me here. do you see my vision #theres something going on between these two that is beautiful but also extremely codependent #at least on v2s end #tried to do those two descriptive pages in a way where it went like. 2 - 3 small details about v1. and then something very specific. some- #-thing theyd only know if they paid close attention to how the other acted or looked #took me a few days to put together and im pretty happy with it i think #feel free to dub or do whatever as long as you gimme credit where credits due #there are many ways to interpret v2 and this is one of them #gen art

[skeletoninthemelonland]

"The Exocannis Ressurection"

#been experiencing (seasonal) difficulties to feel satisfied with my art. especially if it's digital #i can't make fanart of other things i enjoy besides fnaf or listen to new music without feeling 'unknown' to it #everything is too much. new stuff becomes overwhelming and discouraging. people might not like it. (IT KEEPS HAPPENING RAGHHH)) #so im breaking the cycle by trying something that i came up with months ago (AGAIN) #as some people might know. the character i drew here is Hunter. and he's my OC #he's from a story i created during the pandemic. it was originally called 'The Other Side' #i got obsessed and started making art. it truly felt like i was part of a huge community. when it was just me in my room #i feel like i said this before. but after Behind The Codes. this story is probably going to be the next thing i'll be working with #starbsart #original character

[unexpectedbrickattack]

short king and his shorter kings

#pizza tower #pepstavo #peppinoise #i sketched it out WEEKS ago #but w me almost finishing this godawful comm i felt compelled to do something for Me #i cannot wait to finish; i have a couple of forms sitting there collecting dust but im too overwhelmed w this shitty comm- #-to even attempt to tackle those. i need to scrub my brain and start fresh. but after i finish it lmao #anyway hey. hope everyones okay and vibin #dont take this seriously but also. heehee. #in hindsight i feel like i need to bump gustavos head up a lil bit but weh #not too compelled to fix it. #additional context that i think is fun; gus is just a touchy dude and he finds all kinds of reasons to pick peppino up #and every time peppino is like SO flustered and shocked bc itll be in the view of customers #like some sports team wins and its on their tvs and ppl are hootin n hollerin #and like people will notice and keep cheering and its alot hes like oh my GOD u cannot keep doing that im going to explode and then die #noise will do it to prove he can do it and then his back snaps in two bc he weighs like 80 lbs (36kg) #but for like a brief moment of time he is facefirst in tummy and hes ecstatic #theo it is not funny to be rushed to the er bc u broke ur back #also suggestive (but funny i prommy) #but he absolutely would be that like girl who needed a neckbrace from having her gf accidentally sit on her face too hard #hes like ouuuuhhghh....that was worth it. how long will it take to recover doc bc i wanna do it again :) #meanwhile. i think if that happened peppino would literally go into hiding. ur not finding him. #it would literally haunt him that he nearly killed this rat w his fat ass #as if this is not the way both gus and noise would like to go out. it would be peaceful for them i think #anyway #runs away cutely; see u in two weeks maybe

[swamp-cryptids]

to me this line is like, where harry reaches the closest thing to self actualization within the text of the game. he doesn't desire to be a different kind of animal anymore. its such a kind thing to say to himself about a quality that in his line of work could very much be perceived as a flaw. idk i just like it

#im probably gonna put something close to this in my video but i just. yeah #disco elysium spoilers #ANNIE AND FEARGHUS DON'T READ #but like the way the phasmid goes on to say that it empathizes with harry/humanity itself due to its sensitivity #to have that experience which is so accepted and brushed off in day to day life be heard and sympathized with #something something the way disco elysium presents humanity's unique consciousness as something that is often overwhelmig and horrifying #and forgives harry for being overwhelmed by that sensitivity and consciousness and congratulating him for even reaching this point #IDFKKKKK #the noid line thats like consciousness is new to the universe we all have our ways to ease the shock #literally been thinking about it for WEEKS #the way we interface with the world is unique and beautiful but it can also be terrifying and devastating so its ok to be scared #even if it feels like everyone else is fine #getting personal in the tumblr tags ummm #disco elysium #disco elysium meta #harry du bois #insulindian phasmid

[midnight-moth]

A bad time for posting things I guess. But @jesusbutbetterrr I did it and finished the thingy because what you’re doing is important! For Ghoulette Appreciation Weeks - Start of something new with Mistrora my beloved.

#im gonna be real i feel like the colours clash #but I’m fucking tired and maybe I’ll try to adjust later but I done for now #I’ve never completed a drawing with two figures #because it’s always very overwhelming #so I guess yay accomplishment #aurora ghoulette #mist ghoulette #nameless ghoulettes #the band ghost fanart #Ghoulette appreciation weeks #I decided full creature for both but I could have made them more creature #mist still looks like rain and I can’t undo it #let’s pretend they’re twins and that’s why #I mean my rain not other peoples rain

[iknowicanbutwhy]

Oh, so she's kind of trendy? Cool cool

#art #fanart #hi-fi rush #roxanne vandelay #chai hi fi rush #*attempts simple background* it's not working why isn't it WORKING #hi fi rush #hi fi rush spoilers #spoilers #im marking spoilers because well. you dont get to see her colored-in and not made of stone/metal until the end so #I couldn't find any Roxanne pictures on google so i had to scour some cutscenes and make myself a ref #i love her ok? her family makes me think of mine and i just want everything to be okay #I also feel like Chai would be kind of nervous around her to start with. Who wouldn't be a little overwhelmed by a big business lady who #solved a global energy crisis and is also Pep's mom and who is also currently housing Chai more or less for free? #i would. i would be #i left out the thing on her collarbone. looked a little sus. like mind-control sus. i could be wrong #anyways reason 15 why i love peppermint: i love her mom too and i want everything to work out ;-;

[shibuiking]

#twice dead king #oltyx #yenekh #necrons #40k #i finished tdk reign yesterday and i fear if i get into how much i loved those two books ill end up writing an entire essay. so i wont. #loved it tho. cried a little. #also too overwhelmed at the first time im seeing a genuine appreciation and care into writing smth about what its like to be undead and its #in a series with robot skeletons not actual ones #on behalf of undead afficionados everywhere. nate crowley i owe u my unlife. #i wanna draw spoiler stuff too bt i feel like who even is blocking the spoiler tag for this. bt if someone sees and gets spoiled id feel #SO bad. SOOOOOOOOOO bad im am sooooooo glad i didnt get spoiled #AUGH anyway this is getting long #IF U LIKE UNDEAD READ TWICE DEAD KING. I DONT CARE IF UR NOT INTO 40K. GET INTO IT AND THEN READ IT. #SO PROUD TO BE A ZOMBIE RN

[coldlikethestars]

fool's fate by robin hobb is like. you will read about the deepest and most beautiful tragic meaningful heartbreaking soul crushing love story you will ever read in your life and you will feel emotions that you didn't know existed and you'll hurt in ways that you didn't think possible. and then you finish the book and you have to go on with your life and pretend you are Normal when actually your brain chemistry has been altered for the rest of your life

#rote #tawny man trilogy #fool's fate #realm of the elderlings #hey rote fans whats up. how do you even move on from this book like how do you go on. what do i even DO now like? #i spent this last week readind the second half of this book. you Know i just had the worst week of my life #i kept having to stop reading and taking breaks bc it was so incredibly overwhelming. yesterday I finally created #the courage to read the last couple of chapters #and now im on my bed just rotting with my feelings. you guys know how it is 🫶🏼

[crybabychita]

thinking maybe i need a big change again, maybe i need to feel something new

#cause the way im living isn’t going to fly for long #my worth never leaves my mind so i should start actin like it #change is scary and overwhelming but so are these feelings most nights #being alone leaves me 2 much time 2 think #crybabychita

[infamous-if]

Rowan has been burned by love before? Does he hookup a lot or was it one love?

Yeah. The thing about Rowan is that he does do casual hookups but in reality it is never casual for him lol. He can have one night stands and such but he will develop feelings and that actually gets mentioned in the story. Rowan’s affinity for falling in love too hard and too fast is sort of written as a joke amongst MC and the band but there is sad truth to it.

That’s why I’m hesitant to make him a hookup option because if MC and Rowan hookup, I will have to make him fall for MC if I want to stay true to the character I created for him (only if MC willfully hooks up with him of course). I was going to make MC the exception but it just doesn’t sound like him. In fact, MC would def be his “one that got away” lover. But since he’s not an LI he’d just be pining over MC which seems particularly cruel 😭

I mean, I do give you guys the option to break up a marriage and engage in an affair so I have no qualms about emotional cruelty and i cant take the moral high ground 🤣🤣🫵 but the difference is that there’s a pay off with G and Vic. They can still get their happy endings while Rowan has to fuck off somewhere Lmao

BUT honestly it’s kind of fun just keeping him a head canon and a tumblr-exclusive character thing.

Plus, as other anon said, Rowan can find true love somewhere else.

#inbox #Rowan hart #this is old but #i was looking at my drafts and i have so many questions i started to answer and never finish #and then i have 500 asks in my inbox #and i kind of feel like shit #because it feels like im ignoring people #its kind of overwhelming haha

[good-beanswrites]

My thoughts on how the Milgram mv machine works based on the evidence we have:

(I know there’s been discussion about where exactly the interrogations take place, but wherever they are,) the prisoners are made to sit in a specific chair near the wall that houses the machine.

It’s ordinarily hidden, but the wall panels shift aside to reveal it when the mechanical sounds play in the dramas. As well as the walls moving, the chair transforms to restrain the prisoner and attach whatever it takes to access their brain. The fact that none of the more frightened prisoners try to run or break it makes it seem like they physically cannot. This is why Fuuta sounds so panicked, and why Amane is suddenly helpless in front of Es in their T1 vds.

(My mind conjures very classic sci-fi mad scientist machines with wires, pipes, lights, nodes, needles, etc, but I’d love to hear how other people visualize it.)

In some vds (maybe all? I’d need to check,) you can hear Es take some steps right before their iconic line -- it would make sense that for safety reasons, the power mechanism is placed across the room. Once again it could be anything, but the sound effect makes me think of one of those giant wall-mounted levers you have to pull down.

The voice dramas don’t really provide the type of crime details that an actual interrogation would reveal, and it’s odd that they’re placed before the extraction rather than after Es gets to see the new details. This leads me to believe the machine functions with priming. All Es needs to do is get them talking about their murder, so it’s on their mind.

The video produced is much like a (non-lucid) dream. Even if the prisoners figure out that this is how it works, they can’t control it just by thinking really hard about something else. The murders produce the strongest emotional affect, and that’s what it picks up on. If someone else used the machine, it would default to whatever gave them the strongest emotional reaction in the ~15 minutes beforehand, hence why Es’ video focuses on their daunting task ahead. (The Undercover theory is still a bit loose, though, given the private shots that Es wouldn't have known about). It’s why the videos are usually closely linked to the vd topics/beats. I also like to think that the reason their prisoner colors appear so much is because they’re looking at those colors on their uniform 24/7.

The bell rings to inform Es that it’s the optimal time to use the machine -- the prisoner has been thinking about things for long enough that the video will be about their crime, and if the conversation lasts much longer they’ll start thinking of other things. It’s at a different time for each prisoner because it’s based on the specific conversation. I guess Jackalope is listening in to the interrogation, timing it perfectly. (The only one that kind of messes with this theory is Yonah, because they just keep talking afterwards lol, but it could just show that the interrogation is still in Es’ control.)

Their “Sing your sins” is the final priming nudge to get them to think of their actions as a sin, revealing their guilt.

Once activated, the prisoner enters a sort of trance/sleeping state. It’s very much like REM sleep, with the machine forcibly activating neurons and recording the output. The prisoners have asked Es what they saw, meaning they don’t remember the mvs. I like to think the prisoners do experience the mv in real time, acting as the major version of themself that appears, but can’t remember it afterwards. It’s when you experience a dream, but as soon as you wake up you’re just left with fleeting emotions and memories right on the tip of your tongue.

The video plays immediately upon extraction -- whether on a huge projection or little screen depends on which room it’s in. It simultaneously saves the memory so that Es can rewatch it later (on those old TVs in the jailbreak mix). The machine downloads the song and video together, but requires special parts to retrieve them. The technology is pretty new and fragile, so if one is broken, there might be a delay between when Es can hear the extracted song and see it with the video. (That’s my justification for Kotoko’s delays -- after 9 prisoners the parts wear out, or maybe Mikoto himself overheats it with his complex situation.)

Based on the lack of conversation we get afterwards, I picture Es leaving before the prisoner wakes from the trance. The machine adjusts their brain back to normal before they awaken, restraints freed and able to return to the rest of the prison.

It’s very much like a dream, so it’s not harmful despite the amnesia/head injuries the prisoners have. It does, however, exhaust them. Brain activity alone takes a lot of energy, so forced brain activity with added emotional strain would cause them to feel pretty drained the rest of the day.

#milgram #👍👍 #if theres anything contradictory please lmk -- this is how ive been taking the evidence we have so i definitely want to rethink things if #theres a mistake #but also i just wanna hear what people have been picturing 🤔 #i mentioned it before but the jailbreak tvs really did shift my brain from sleek tech to clunky old scifi vibes #im also still partial to an idea mentioned a long time ago about the prisoners waking up to catch the last few moments of their mv #and how heartbreaking that can be for some #but i feel like it would make more sense if there was no direct interaction after the extraction since es is overwhelmed with different #reactions (from us) and the prisoners themselves are raw with emotion and fatigue #i like the thought of interrogations occuring in that big courtroom (seen in undercover and now deep cover) #but that room seems way too echo-y for the vds to take place in #and it seems overkill to build every cell with moving panel walls and access to the machine #so the jurys still out on that one #(also hehe im still so excited that my oc fits very nicely into all of this but i kept this post 100% canon compliant) #analysis/thoughts

[zoroshark]

Have a few rauru doodles I've done these past months.

#my art #fan art #artists on tumblr #doodles #tears of the kingdom #tloz #loz #legend of zelda #zonai #the legend of zelda #totk #totk rauru #rauru #king rauru #sorry ive been inactive #im still on the totk and rauru train #just been overwhelmed by everything thats happened so far #along with feeling mixed on my art #its been rough #not sure when posting will be picked back up

[ganondoodle]

in case of emergency, draw Eadrya going feral

(original art, Eadrya, they/them)

#ganondoodles #art #doodles #artist on tumblr #ocs #original character #this took me hours for some reason #but im feeling a bit too overwhelmed to work on the rewrite rn #i dont know why some of the concepts got so popular #gotta draw my favorite oc blorbo #fightning a bunch of hunters and enjoying every second of it