I really wish life had a reset or pause button. Or if it could just give you a hint for what to do next. It would make life a whole lot easier… because I’m lost and struggling and I fucking hate it.
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i’m happy for Lewis going to Ferrari and that he's leaving a toxic environment and i am so so excited to see him in red, in a team that wants him, but then sometimes i see a sad edit of him leaving and it’s just truly devastating.
how he always said that Mercedes is his family, that it’s the place where he wants to retire from, that he cannot imagine not being a Mercedes driver. he was so loyal, he gave everything he had to that team and somehow, it just still wasn’t good enough. they didn’t listen to him, they excluded him, made him feel unwanted and alienated, didn’t prioritize him at all. it’s been so clear that he wasn’t part of their future plans, which was just heartbreaking.
and when he decided to take back his career and go to a team that clearly appreciates him for all that he’s achieved, they spin this whole narrative around, going completely against him. suddenly everything was an issue and a problem, his age, his attitude, his commitment and determination.
and still, he didn’t say a single bad word about them, always expressing how hard of a decision it was. the hardest he ever had to make. he makes sure they know how grateful he is, how proud he is of their journey and shared history, that he'll miss them tremendously and it just doesn't feel reciprocated at all.
and i can’t imagine how drastically the situation must have worsened for him to decide this over winter break, in such a short period of time. he was always so full of hope regarding the team, no matter how horrible the situation was. something broke his unwavering support and hope.
he built a legacy way bigger than any world champion in the sport, he built a legacy that is bigger than f1. and it still wasn't enough. he felt like he had to leave first, before he got left behind. and that is just gut wrenching. he's the most successful formula 1 driver in history and they just couldn't appreciate him.
Mercedes was his family. until it wasn't.
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I love chilchuck as much as the next guy but why the fuck are so many anime onlys thirsting after him now? Like I don't want to see chilchuck porn I wanna see homoerotic farcille art and the fact that anime onlys are rly destroying the ecosystem of dunmeshi content is annoying
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also your girl is struggling. i'm putting this under a read more i just need to GET IT OUT and then i'm going to get back to writing because i've managed to get so much done today which is a small win
we got therapy tonight. trying to figure out how to be like "ok so there's this character called the riddler you remember i brought him up before YEAH ok so he's autistic, but also annoying. much like me. so i relate. HOWEVER. he has robots though, like he has consistent relationships. i have crippling self-doubt, anxiety, and a churning feeling in my stomach that no one likes me and i'm better off isolated because at least when i don't speak to anyone i don't have to worry about annoying them or wondering if they like me or comparing my relationship with them to every other relationship they have like a completely and totally normally sane person" without sounding like the MOST pathetic bitch ever and truly encapsulating that sad riddler vibe??
maybe i'll dress properly? i think my batman crocs are not the Mentally Well vibe i'm trying to achieve
or maybe the batman crocs/riddler t-shirt combo is exactly what i need. comfort uniform. strength in the blorbo
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In other news car just cost 1600$ when I was expecting 900$ ! Can’t wait to cry on the way home 🤭
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