#if you have strong triggers?

[hexalene]

Looks like you average 175 calls a day! :O

Depending on your shift length that's about 20 calls an hour, dang. I've heard 911 inbound calls are very mentally taxing, sometimes. How do you handle it?

It depends!

There’s kind of a mentality you develop doing this, which is that there is no closure. Once the line has disconnected, it’s over, you’ll never know what happens next.

It gets easier to compartmentalize. There are a good number of calls I think about a lot, but for the most part I let myself forget them.

As for the bad calls, I take breaks. My center has a policy that if you need a break, you take a break, it doesn’t matter how much the phones are ringing, if you need to step away, step away. This helps A LOT. I can go outside or to a private room and breathe, cry, talk it out, whatever I need.

If I’m being really really honest, I can compartmentalize terrible emergency calls a lot better than other difficult calls. With the emergencies, I do whatever I can to help and close the call knowing I’ve done all I can.

The calls I have trouble with are the people who call to verbally abuse us and the mental health frequent fliers, who also call to verbally abuse us in a different flavor. These suck because they’re just on the line to scream, cuss, threaten, and abuse you until you confirm there’s no emergency (and they’ll avoid letting you know if there is one to keep you on the line).

But even those? They’re fine. I might be annoyed with them, but they don’t know who I am and I don’t take the insults personally. It’s just exhausting to see a particular phone number in the queue and be like “oh boy, time to take my headset off because Jane Schizophrenia is about to call and scream as loud as she can into the microphone.” Or worse, to be answering in succession and be shocked when the scream belts out at full blast.

But again, even that? Not that bad.

There’s a LOT of talk about how awful the job can be and how not many people can do it, but honestly?? I think a lot more people could handle this job than they think.

Like bruh have you worked in an abusive retail environment for shit-tier pay and stayed calm while a 45 year old woman with a cropped haircut screams for the manager? Have you gotten into an argument with a coworker and managed to de-escalate it without mediation?

Have you successfully been in behavioral health therapy and have a good regimen of SSRIs, ADHD meds, anxiety pills, or all three (guess who) and can hold off the big emotions until you’re in a safe environment?

You’ll be fine. You can do 911.

#911 shit #my whole family was shocked I could handle 911 #but it’s really not that bad #I will say if you have emotional regulation issues #like anger issues? #don’t do it #you’ve gotta have the internal zen #if you have strong triggers? #don’t do 911 #triggered by bigotry? #this job is not for you #I’ve learned new forms of racism and lgbtqiaphobia I never knew possible #and not from white cishets let me tell you

[s0fter-sin]

sometimes i think about how wild a mw2 movie would be if they just dropped soapghost right in the middle with no warning or marketing. like imagine it being beat for beat the exact same, it’s your typical military action movie, promoted as just another military action movie then after they get to the safe house, ghost has to patch up soap and he’s still out of it, overwhelmed by the betrayal and everything he’s seen and ghost needs to ground him and keep him in the present, to remind him that he’s alive and safe so he kisses him and they have sex. the tantrums and the rants and the “ReAl sOLdiErS aRen’t liKe ThAt”, god i can taste it and it’s delicious

#theres never any talk of a relationship or sexuality crisis its just this moment of humanity and comfort to bring soap back to himself #real any time you need me by thirteenbullets vibes #theyre not the type of men to have something as normal as a relationship #theyre just everything to each other they know that and its enough #ghost can be such a complex character if you let him #this guy whos rejected his humanity has buried himself and become a ghost #willingly digging himself out of the grave to stop soap from digging his own #like how are there not more explicitly homoerotic military movies that actually pull the trigger (heh) on the homo part of the eroticism #you know how if movies have even a hint of queerness they wring it out for every drop of respresentation they can get #theres a hundred articles and its mentioned in every interview and it all journalists ask those actors #imagine it being a complete secret and everyone expects just a typical action movie #then boom battle buddy gay sex #like if it were a male and fenale character you would see that scene coming a mile away so why cant it happen with two guys #just doing it is the only way of normalising it #i still see men saying they act like brothers which is denial so strong even egypt is impressed #but imagine the general public expecting this manly man military movie then getting hit with the alone mission flirting and denying it #then getting smacked in the face with tender wound care and grounding love making initiated by the edgelord they were using as a self inser #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #cod mw2 #we’re a team. ghost team

[oatmealcrisp-freak]

i just can't see kuboyasu as a yandere, i've failed

#yanderes i'm so sorry #it's like #yeah he's loyal yeah he'd kill for his partner yeah his partner getting hurt is deffo a rage trigger but yanderes are so obsessed with thei #partner that they can't realize if they're hurting their partner or scaring them and yeah kuboyasu has a hair trigger on his rage #but he's trying so hard to move past it and he has a strong code of ethics he'll beat you up if you're trash and his partner isn't trash an #i just can't see him going so overboard that he'd lose sight of his partner's needs in that way #which basically means i have to rethink the breakup fic anyways

[jankwritten]

Jasico Bingo Challenge: injury

“I thought I was supposed to be the idiot who doesn’t know when to stop?” Nico snaps, dragging a heavily battered and bleeding Jason Grace through camp by the (likely broken) wrist. “You’re supposed to be the one telling me to knock it off, you’re supposed to be the one babysitting me, why would you make me be in your shoes, huh? Are you trying to teach me a lesson, Grace? Because fuck you, it’s working.” 

Jason has the audacity to huff out laughter as if there isn’t a concerning amount of blood staining the back of his shirt. As if his temple isn’t swelling into a lime sized lump, as if his bones aren’t fractured under his skin, Nico can feel how displaced they are, he’s going to be sick about it later. Probably. Maybe. 

“I hate you so much,” Nico says. This is what he gets for thinking Annabeth and Percy would be enough to keep an eye on Jason. What was he thinking? Leaving Jason in the hands of a woman who fell off two cliffs and a man who Nico had to shove in the River Styx so he wouldn’t get himself killed. Of fucking course neither of them thought Jason looking this bad was anything to worry about - they probably look worse. 

Nico cannot think about that right now. He can only drag one stupid self-sacrificial hero across camp at a time. 

“It’s really not that bad,” Jason says, still like he’s laughing, laughing, Nico’s going to shove ambrosia down his throat until he’s better and then kill him. “Nico, relax?” 

A rageful heat Nico hasn’t felt in years sparks up his spine. Relax? Relax? “I’ll relax when you’re not bleeding out,” he says sharply, rounding the volleyball courts. The grass crunches beneath his feet. He can feel, far below, skeletons creaking, moving about in their graves. Responding to him. 

He breathes deeply, but oxygen only fuels the fire. 

“I’m sorry,” Jason says, this time like he almost means it. His wrist goes slack in Nico’s hold, as he finally stops resisting and instead lets Nico’s yank become a guiding line instead. “I’m sorry.” 

The one thing Nico never did, when he was self destructing, was apologize for it. The fact that Jason feels the need to, with him, makes his rage boil over into a sick, sticky slop in his stomach. 

“Apologize to me when you can promise you won’t do this again,” Nico says as he shoves open the Big House door. 

Jason stays quiet all the way up to the infirmary. 

As the Apollo kids flit around him on the cot, Nico looms, arms crossed, eyes narrowed to watch every movement, to make sure Jason doesn’t let them miss anything. 

#jasicobingochallenge2024 #injury #fanfiction #i'm not sure how to trigger warning this ngl #tw injury #tw blood #tw nico thinks jason might have gotten himself hurt on purpose #nico di angelo #jason grace #jasico #pjo #hoo #listen i just think that Jason throws himself into the front lines because he's the leader and if anyone else gets hrut it's his fault #he needs to be the one taking all the damage #and then he needs to be the strong one afterward and strong leaders don't go whining to the infirmary #nico who is only just starting to see his own behavior in a more clear light: what the fuck is wrong with you #nico 'IF I HAVE TO GET BETTER YOU DO TOO ASSHOLE' #>:) GOODNIGHT

[pepprs]

i literally need there to stop being situations circumstances events developments complications and happenstances. for the fucking love of god

#purrs #but there will never stop being any of those things so actually what i literally need is to learn HARD AND FAST how to stop getting so #fucking triggered over a situation i know is NOTHING so bad that im anxious for the entire rest of the day and can’t even get any work done. #like (jade from tesco voice) girls… im not gonna lie to you. i think therapy is not working. i think i am not mentally or emotionally strong #enough to work in this job and i think i am never going to get mentally or emotionally stronger. ive been stuck in the quicksand too long #and now im atrophying. i cannot develop the situational awareness and motor skills or awakeness (and i mean AWAKEness.) to safely and #consistently drive a car. i cannot develop the intellect and drive and courage to get an advanced degree or be in a leadership position that #everyone actually sees as a leadership position lmfao. and i cannot develop the emotional intelligence and inner peace to not get triggered #out of my fucking mind at work to the point where im having anxiety heart palpitations and fighting back tears. i am just stuck as i am #forever. and you know how i know that? BECAUSE IVE WORKED AT THE NATIONALLY RENOWNED CENTER FOR YOU-ARE-NOT-STUCK-AS-YOU-ARE-FOREVER FOR #FIVE FUCKING YEARS SINCE ITS LITERAL FOUNDING AND HELPED TO FOUND IT AND IM STILL LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! i go back to square one EVERY #FUCKING DAY!!!!!!!! how am i supposed to tell other people who they are is what they bring and the world can change and whatever when i am #the fucking antithesis of that. when i don’t even believe my own words. like the way i want to punch out every window in this building rn i #HATE BEING LIKe this i hate being in the psychic prison of scared little girl mode all the time forever no matter what and being beyond help #and disappointing and burdening the people around me because i can’t be fucking normal about like. hierarchy and institutional politics LOL #delete later

[death-limes]

>our pitbull got rowdy at me during present exchange

>thinking its a dominance thing, briefly consider barking back & establishing that im not below him in the social pecking order

>remember the breed im talking about

>want to snap myself back into reality by looking up cases of pitbull attacks

>end up on anti-pitbull websites full of fearmongering, misinformation, and ppl advocating for killing them

>can i please just find photos of gnarly bite wounds to remind myself how strong these dogs are without having to read the cruel ramblings of ppl who think an entire category of dog is just inherently evil

#lime rants #believe it or not it is possible to believe both at once: #1) that pitbulls are misunderstood and can make lovely pets in the hands of a good strong loving trainer #2) that pitbulls are still very powerful animals that do have aggressive tendencies because humans bred them to be that way #and you need to be careful! train them well! #and yes today scared me but i know its not his fault!! #we know he was abused. its possible something about goodies on the floor triggers him #or some other instinct idk #i would like to Escape The Dichotomy

[revvethasmythh]

I think there is also something interesting about Ashton and Laudna getting labeled as "besties" when canonically they both actually have literal besties already. Imogen and FCG. Those are their actual, canon besties. Though I'm not sure how I feel about the "besties" label in general because 80% of the time I see it on the internet, it's meant passive aggressively and tbh sets off my fight or flight. Can we please just call them friends, like normal people, for once

#not siblings not besties but a secret third thing (normal goddamn friends) #okay but I also haven't seen the bestie-ification of any other pair and I have no idea why it's caught on so strong with these two #when I say that phrase triggers my fight or flight you guys I MEAN it like it reads as an insult before it reads as ''best friends'' #ashton greymoore #laudna

[caffeinatedopossum]

I'm so emotionally exhausted

#being highly empathetic is so romanticized but it actually sucks so much #not just for me btw. like for everyone around me too #im great at supporting people short term but anytime you need me to reliably be there i just cant #because i feel so strongly anytime im around other people experiencing strong emotions that i burn through my emotional battery #in a matter of minutes #its also almost definitely a result of my trauma. so yeah definitely over-hyped #PLUS i hate being that person thats like 'sorry YOUR emotions are too painful for ME' like wtf #makes me sound like an ass #i think it cam definitely be phrased better while still saying the same thing (like 'sorry i dont really have the energy now. is that okay?) #but it still sucks. i want to be there for people. i dont know what to do with all these emotions that arent mine #like theres always 'work through the trauma' but how?? im emotionally exhausted! #plus i dont actually see any way to reassure what im scared about cause its not like a fear of being punished triggered by others emotions #its like. I was exposed to this thing a lot as a kid and now my brain responds to it really strongly #the thing itself wouldnt have been wrong in a different context but i was a child and couldnt process the things that i experienced #and i still dont know how to

[sandinthepipes]

Does the flag REALLY means death once again? Can’t it mean something else for just once? Why is the flag denied a fairytale ending even this time?

#I’m grieving guys #I mean today my mental health wasn’t strong to begin with #this was the nail in the coffin #bye I’m gonna go drown myself in herbal tea and no comfort show because I don’t have one anymore #I’m not coping well friends #I come from 10 days of high where nothing bad was happening and all the while I was dreading the happiness #becasue well you’re all as mentally ill as I am you know the dread of feeling happy #here we are folks depression’s holidays are over she’s back at work and she takes it very seriously #also my trust issues are being triggered by a stupid fucking show #I need a break and I’d like it to last longer than 10 days every 5 years #I digressed into a monologue of self pity brb I need to call my therapist #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #our flag means death s2

[cinnamon-notes]

crying at work bye.

#can i just have a hug FOR GODS SAKE??? #enough of this already. #why do they have to keep bullying me??? #why do they have to keep triggering my social anxiety and neurodivergent struggles??? #you guys have no idea how hard it is for me to even bring myself to get out of bed and walk to work every damn morning #why do you have to make it all much more difficult??? #you have no idea how many times in a day i would very much rather jump off the fucking bridge on the way home. you really don't. so stop. #cuz i dont deserve this #and if i do then i just cant do it anymore #i cant bear your bullying anymore #im not that strong #cinnamon darkness #cinnamon at work

[tastycitrus]

who knew all horus had to do to become strong was put on a swimsuit

#granblue fantasy #me back when i was farming ennead: lol horus is so easy...whose idea was it to make all her triggers CA based in the CA spam element #me now to horus: i owe you an apology...i was not familiar with your game #what are they going to do with regular horus though if summer horus is already light and this strong #i think it would be weird for her to be a different element when she's the light ennead raid #but like. it would be problematic if her base form was in the same element as her summer variant #as you know. you can't have two of one character in one team #either she powercreeps her summer alt or she's worse and the latter is like. lol. lmao even

[romanceyourdemons]

a scanner darkly (2006), an adaptation of the philip k. dick novel of the same title, is a fascinating and at times convoluted but ultimately deeply impactful film. its most striking element is of course its medium: the film was shot digitally and then animated with rotoscope in a way that deliberately hovers between the cartoon and the real. there are even some elements of the film—bob arctor’s face in particular—that appear more stylized in some situations and more realistic in others, and the disorienting, shifting nature of this style is shown off in the iconic “blur suits” worn by undercover narcotics agents. although many have expressed a dislike of this animation style, and i myself do not deny that it is not visually pleasing like some animation styles are, it is certainly effective in producing an affect of hallucinogenic uncertainty. the film’s central character spends the story’s entire run descending deeper and deeper into brain damage caused by addiction to the personally and societally debilitating drug substance d. like minority report (2002), another adaptation of dick’s work, this film depicts a world that has seen one of dick’s contemporary cultural vices expand along the lines fearmongerers predict until america willingly hands itself over to the control of a highly invasive and ultimately useless police state. even more so than minority report (2002), this film deals with the paranoia of a world in which society is fractured by the inundation of society with both undercover cops and rhetorically dehumanized addicts, in which addicts’ psyches are fractured by the effects of substance d, in which the line between curing a societal ill and inducing it is blurred many times over. substance d induces paranoiac hallucinations, which this film’s unreal style renders indistinguishable from ordinary reality, but the narrative informs us that a fair deal of paranoia is justified by the extreme surveillance state. this film replicates the tone of a dick novel better than any other adaptation i’ve seen, and the final title card repeating dick’s memorial to the fallen leaves the film with a heavy punch. although a scanner darkly (2006) is not easy to watch, it is highly effective and incredibly memorable, and i would recommend giving it a try

#as usual i would recommend giving doesthedogdie.com a scroll before watching if you have any triggers or strong aversions #this film obviously deals with heavy material so i would not recommend going into it blind #ryddles

[tea-earl-grey]

every time I get an asthma attack from existing in an indoor public place because someone is smoking they should have to pay for the $75 of asthma meds I take every month.

(disclaimer – I fully support the decriminalization and legalization of marijuana. i just also support the right for people with respiratory disabilities and sensitivities to exist)

#personal #vent #im on a FUCKING TRAIN. while im WEARING A MASK #its so easy to NOT SMOKE ON A TRAIN #im fine but my lungs are just gonna be uncomfy for the next two and a half hours. #if its outside its fine i can just move even if im annoyed #but whyyyyyy do so many people think its okay to smoke inside all of a sudden???? #if you need to smoke weed for anxiety i get it bro. but there are options that dont involve putting people at actual medical risk #i had someone tell me it wasnt a big deal once and i got to pull the “i have medically recorded lung damage from covid” card #anyways if youre a smoker cool but please be nice to people with respiratory disabilities. having asthma attacks suck. #i like being in cities but ive learned with how bad my asthma is i just usually have to leave my mask on while im walking around #which is a good practice regardless #i just wish i didnt HAVE to just because of The Smoke and Smells #and btw YES weed smell and smoke can trigger asthma attacks just as much as cigarette smoke!!!!! if not more so for me #same with strong perfumes and stuff #my posts

[dan-crimes]

Where is the Candy Queen love? I mean maybe I'm just a sucker for her design and voice work and just general demeanor but I can't be the only one

#also I kinda wanna get to thinking abt what specifically the Winter King transferred over to PB #cuz like we know the crown causes madness but Ice King's specific madness is different from the OG madness when it was first created #Ice King's madness is specific to his own characteristics so if Winter King transferred his obsessive love over to PB #then maybe that's why he was so chill about the mention of Betty? I know there's the whole memory thing goin on there too #like I dunno I really dig the implications of what specifically plagues Simon abt the crown like the kidnapping and obsession is obvious #the memory loss is anothet aspect but Winter King seemed to keep the confidence and self love from the crown #ooo I wonder if we had more of a chance to see Candy Queen if we would have saw the depression and self destructive behaviour #or if Ice King's madness while having aspects of his own madness goes ahead and mixes with PB's personality and psychology #causing for a slightly different effect to it all so while her madness was similar it still had aspects of herself in it just mixed together #anywayy I could totally get into this but again I'd have to rewatch like all of Adventure Time which I am not gonna do #I would pay heavy attention to everything Ice King related tho #I wonder how Winter King even managed to do all that... cuz he was Ice King so how did he become aware enough to do that to PB? #interesting interesting maybe a strong emotional trigger of some sort... #also I wonder if the madness was building up bcuz Winter King said this was an escalation... like was it a steady stream? #Just him beaming his madness into PB's head and the more he slipped away the worse she got until eventually the blender lmao #as you can see I think people should be talking about Candy Queen more

[leixinyus]

"I have something to announce to you all: One student broke the rules and will be punished. That person broke the rules by being irresponsible, by being careless, by not taking care of and paying attention to what was assigned."

#spoilers #home school spoilers #jane ramida #chimon wachirawit #home school #home school the series #thai drama #manydramagifs #tdramaedit #the masters exploiting pennhung's trauma was the absolute worst #being fully aware of someone's trauma or bad memories and putting them in situations that OBVIOUSLY have strong trigger elements #is one of the shittiest things you can do to someone #is my humble opinion #like i absolutely believe in helping people overcome their traumas and fears and whatnot #but when people completely disregard just how deep they can run #it makes me so upset #and i will never forgive the masters for this

[deer-with-a-stick]

oh hey Patch 1 went live a few hours ago

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate three #over 22000 years of gameplay so far wow #oh apparently there was an astarion accidental breakup bug rip #“Art Cullagh and Fist J'ehlar no longer get so scared of bears and spiders that their quest breaks” lkajhdflkjasfdk #nooooo they fixed the halsin-minthara recruitment thing :( #oh yep they're fixing the overtly trigger happy gale romance options #lmao friendship option that falls between “i love you” and “i hate you” added to the weave scene #bards get more spells eyy #they fixed the earrings on the strong feminine tiefling body type nice #partial ceremorphosis will now rot your teeth?? #“Skeletons around the Selûnite Outpost no longer have fresh food in their inventory” w h a t #dragonborn breath weapons scale now #“Fixed Raphael T-posing upon death” lkajhfdlkajshfdlkjashdf that's hilarious #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate three spoilers