#idk. anyways. maybe im crazy

[sunnnfish]

Maybe I’m okay with it if Hirano never traditionally “loves” Kagi. Or anyone. Maybe it never will turn into the same kind of love Kagi feels. Kagi is nevertheless such a source of inspiration and strength and comfort to Hirano. Even if he never feels a desire to touch or get married or whatever. Maybe he does it because Kagi asks and he loves making Kagi happy most of all. He wouldn’t seek it if not asked. But Kagi is always asking. And he knows it makes Kagi happy. Does anyone see the vision. Do you understand. Maybe kagi will be okay with it if Hirano never “loves” him the same way Kagi loves him. Because he knows how Hirano works and he knows how Hirano cares. And he knows he is unique to Hirano. He knows Hirano wouldn’t do these things with anyone else. And that’s still love in its own way.

#every day I convince myself more and more of aroace-spec Hirano #or maybe the perceived slow-burn is getting to me #it’s like. I kind of keep forgetting that there is still going to be more relationship and character development #but also. At this point in time at least they are so queerplatonic to me #AND it all wraps back around to the theme of different kinds of love #we do not love each other in the same ways. but that’s what makes it special #also a queerplatonic relationship answers all the weird limbo relationship stuff they have goin on in future ssmy chapters #idk. anyways. maybe im crazy #also all comes back to How do you quantify being someone’s most important person #Kagi WILL be the most important person to Kagi. it’s just a question of how that manifests #at this point I can’t imagine it manifesting in Hirano necessarily wanting to touch Kagi or saying things like I love you #it’s simply. laughter and happiness and comfort #they are already old together. do you get it #I never feel like I’m properly able to explain the feelings I have. whatever #surely someone gets it #sunnfish.kghr #Hirano to kagiura #Hirano and kagiura

[newttxt]

/more/ toxic doomed retainer yaoi, from @rhaegar-targayryen’s fic, count your lashes (and you beg for more) (mind the tags and rating~)

#one piece #kin’emon #kanjuro #i need to settle on a ship tag #kin’juro #or maybe #kinkan #idk yet #ANYWAY. crazy fic. im in love with it. the portrayal of head empty kin’emon #and dramatic thespian kanjuro?? #and OTSURU!!! #also happy bday to me. i love these two 🥰 #wano spoilers #SORRY I HOPE THIS DOESNT SPOIL ANYONE

[lemongogo]

< 2023 trgnz

#not to get all sentimental or whatever #but im really happy w how trigun has developed / influenced my art these last few months #its jst made me feel overall more confident in what ive drawn #and that i can connect w my art in a way that i never have before ?? #LIKE THATS SOOO CHEESY BUT ITS SOOO TRUEEE #before trgn i was feeling soo dejected and unmotivated and like .. generally unsure if id ever really find my footing #and even tho idk maybe not much has changed frkm an outside perspective #but i just feel so happy w it . at least rn . SO IM ENJOYING IT RN☝️☝️☝️☝️☝️ #theres still so much i want to work on ykwim but its such a crazy feelign to like .. #actually using my art in pfps (not tmblr sryHAHAGA) or like . printing physical copies of my stuff bc i genuinely want to decorate my walls #w it or like .. Wanting to put in more effort in a way i never rly have before #its still so hard 4 me smtimes and like frustrating😭 when im artblocked or not sure how to progress w something #but its made me feel like i can Know that i will figure it out in time . and thats SOO crazy tew experienxe IDKKFFFKK #and its soo silly that trgns whats made me want to like ..push tht aspect pf my hobbies . SOO SILLYYYYY #anyways i wanted to see some of these side by side #its so jarring 2 me that i have all of these .. and that they r generally pretty consistent style wise . compared to before at least 😭 #ANYWYSSTYY #trigun #my art

[izzypaw]

after i made the undertale ones i knew i couldn't NOT make matching icons of these 2 aswell...

#mother 3 #lucas #claus #mother series #even though there are like 15 ppl active in this fandom ❤️ if nobody uses it can just be me and my sideblog fr🔥🔥 #i like these less than the undertale ones maybe bc theyre messierr?? i mean my art is always messy but #idk whenevr i indulge in my special intrrest even literally just drawinf the characters i get this like pain in my chest and like my hands #shake which i knwo is very Not Normal i swear i love it it just makes me feel crazy anxious when i draw with the Intent to post knowing how #so so sensitive i am about it for NO reason im just veruy autistic about this game and have a deep personal connection to it #so anyway the point of that tangent was to say i dont think ill ever make m3 art that ISNT messy bc of thr shaky hands #sorry if you read allat i have a tendency to get too real in the tags #izzy art

[confoodles]

Does anyone else feel like Aylinluna was horribly out of character this episode?? I've heard that apparently some things were cut, so that might be the reason but it still felt weird. Like ur telling me Luna, who has literally been so respectful of Aylin's boundaries literally even last episode, is suddenly forcing her to go out of her comfort zone?? Okay, fine, I understand the concept of wanting ur gf to get along with ur friends, but ur telling me Luna wouldn't stand up for Aylin when someone is clearly getting in her face and making her uncomfortable?? That she would call her an ALIEN??!!!

#look how they massacred my boy #everyone clap that i even spelled that word #god idk today's ep just felt off in general #ongsasun the only saving grace #also let me tell u #u can rlly tell they r lesbians #the only other gmmtv show I've watched was bad buddy #and each step for those boys was like pulling teeth #these two r like doing a speedrun compared to that #they went confess ✅ start dating ✅ kiss ✅ have sex ✅ #am i allowed to say sex on tumblr??? #also that's what happened right dhsh #imagine if the towel just fell #next ep starts and its ongsa like OH FUCK SORRY #anyway back to aylinluna #the fuck is up with ton #i have such mixed feelings abt that man #sometimes he's a himbo and slay and all #but sometimes he acts like he has the brain of a toddler #earlier episodes luna would've slapped him !! #like what do u mean everyone is like U OKAY after he just accosted not one but two girls #ugh idk #i just dont like how they seem to be going the route of: im ur gf so im gonna baby u #come psppss come socialize silly #LEAVE LUNA ALONE SHE WOULDN'T #also am i crazy but like Aylin's interacted with those ppl before #maybe not ton and mawin but everyone is acting as if she hadn't been making strides in social interaction already #23.5 #23.5 the series #aylinluna

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

#crazy that the mindset some people on here have is that theyre the only ones allowed to post their opinions #ive repeated this a lot on this blog but i rlly think people forget that the person on the other side of the screen is in fact a person #if ur harassing people and publicly making fun of them then ur just as bad as any real life bully #that shit isnt as funny or harmless as u like to pretend it is #not once have i ever targetted anyone or went on someones blog to harass them over my opinion #yet people think its fine to do the same to me and treat it as if its like. revenge or something #like ? me saying 'i dont like toxic yaoi' is not equivalent to someone going on someone elses page and going 'how tf do u like toxic yaoi' #I DONT CARE !! all ive ever done is sit in my own little bubble and had opinions and that makes people mad #honestly though the people who will publicly talk and post abt it are significantly meaner #and i want to act like im not bothered by it because i know most of them r just angry that someone has a different opinion #and they want all their followers to bandwagon off of them (idk why maybe for validation or whatever-same reasons anyone would bully) #but seriously if u actually do think that something i said was out of line and crossed thise boundaries- just fucking tell me ? #im a person bro. ur solution to disagreeing with me shouldnt be 'lol im gonna post abt this and make everyone harass them' #have a conversation with me dude i dont bite ? if u cant talk to me like a person then just dont fucking say anything wtf #its so cowardly to be like 'well no i didnt wanna say anything to u cuz i didnt wanna be rude.. so instead i publicly made fun of u!' #LIKE WHATTTT STOPPPPP </3333 #ok anyway this post wasnt supposed to get THAT serious. #MY POINT IS just be considerate of other people and dont base ur hatred off of assumptions #ur deflecting the blame onto someone else because u dont want to admit that ur just a fucking bully lol #being inconsiderate on here is something ive also been guilty of back when i first joined the fandom and was clueless #but grown ass adults who have been on here way longer r still doing that shit which is crazy #and i cant say anything because they have so much leverage over me and idk if its on purpose or if they dont even realize #ok im putting fandom tags cuz i want people to see this sorry. this is my one post thats actually targetted but its at a lot of people #so if u look at this and think 'hey i do that' pls evaluate urself<3 #i mean its also targetted at everyone who does this anonomously so i dont know who it is OKOK IM DONE BYE SORRY HOPE THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE #watch nobody read this fr #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #meows post

[chrisbangs]

i finished thesis, won an award, and have graduated.. hello 👋🥸

#i'm not coming back but :') hello #i forgot i even had tumblr still on my phone djdkdkdkdk #i just opened it for the first time in ??? 5 months or smth i think idk for sure #life is weird :') #remember when i said i wanna drop out every day of my life :') bc i suck at design #welp i won an award for my design thesis :') #jsjdjdkdkdkdj #turns out having friends kinda changes your life 🫂 #having friends at school has actually :') made me a happier more normal person lol #i haven't been miserable?? i haven't wanted to kms ... i have been so happy and yes school was shitty but i wanted to go and try hard bc #my friends motivated me to stay and try and that's crazy :') idk #felt really loved and like i belonged somewhere for the first time in my life 🫨 like woah ppl like me and wanna be my friend? me?? #:') i'm really happy... isn't that weird #i used to want to kms every other day hsjdndkdkdks lol 😭 #now i'm like 😭 every day i look forward to waking up bc i'm happy and i have ppl who love me and i wanna see them again and i wanna spend #time with them again and play games with them again :') #literally stayed up till ??? 4 am yesterday talking to one of them like #😭 #god jm djjdkdkdkd idk :') #my life is good... #???? IM NOT MISERABLE IDK GUYS #wild af #even winning the award was such a shock like 🥲 damn . who ? me? #ppl from like :') this big design thing in toronto we're praising it too like djdjdodjdkdj #:') it's kinda crazy.. i was super ! #man.. i cant believe how 5 months ago i was gonna kms 🥸👆 and now i'm like erm actually maybe we do need to live #:') anyway #i hope ppl on here are doing good 🫨🔨 #it is sad to not be here as much but also 👋😌 i'm happy to be free at the same time so ✨

[welcometoteyvat]

not so live reaction to ga-ming gameplay video leaks

GOD!!!!!!!!!! i swear i dont think they've made a 4* with so much love and thought since like. probably yun jin. i think most ppl are stunned but like MAN. his idles???? the 10 sec of fully animated lion dance? it changes color and instantly reminds me of hong kong neon lights (his burst too tbh)?? THE BACKGROUND DRUMS IN HIS IDLE???? you can see in his normal attack sequence a very short plum blossom pole pops up and he steps on it, and like AAA idk. his animations. :') they really put so much effort into him I wouldn't be surprised if we got an entire yun jin opera animation w him too.

have more to say about how people weren't super happy about the removal of the white elements in his design, from the concept art, but i think the more i look at his design—he has a real/modern style name, is youthful, has neon effects, lively animation, everything matches up to create a very young adult character, a lot more modern than some of the liyue designs, it's nice. it's a cohesive design that actually hints at what his personality is like and what he does and that's a success i think.

there was a bilibili comment wayyy early on (before this leak flood), reacting to the disappointment about his leaked final design, basically saying, "lion dance is still a job, he probably wouldn't wear his uniform all the time even when off duty, and that's why his design seems to have less lion dance elements and looks more casual" etc. looking at ga-ming now that everything's released via leaks, this was def what they were going for. like you can tell that he's a vanguard, that's his full time job, which translates into the primarily black design, but you can also clearly tell he's a lion dancer as a side hustle. idk it's really nice :') i dont have much else to say, besides i think they probably nailed his design as best they could

#now if mihoyo could stop nationalpridemaxxing and put as much thought into other nations 4* as him. maybe theyd be a better game overall #but this is a win regardless #i did not intend to type this much but it just Happened. #last couple comments. he is so canto it's CRAZY. apparently his cn intro has a couple freq used canto phrases that i didn't pick up on #specifically. mighty mythical beasts in cn is 威水舞兽 and the first 2 is v common canto phrasing. and his last intro line talking about #why not enjoy a bit more tea. is somehow a pun or internet meme? unsure about this one but someone commented on it and i was like huh #anyways. those two + his special dish + everything else idk. im going crazy. congrats to all southern chinese people especially diaspora #genshin leaks #ramblings! #ga-ming #gaming genshin #嘉明

[heartscrypt]

i get so mad when ppl say riddle would be ignorant/clueless towards lgbtq+ stuff bc he was raised sheltered. no the fuck he wouldn't. maybe he'd start out that way yeah but as Soon as its implied he doesn't know something hes taking that shit to heart and learning everything he could EVER know about it. hes making a fucking study of it. he knows more than you actually

#twst #txt post #jamie talks #idk maybe this is a delusional take #also shes transfem so jot that down #it just makes me really mad when ppl characterizing riddle as just Not Getting it #''he put she/her pronouns in his magicam bio because he thought he was supposed to put the prns of the gender he was attracted to'' #FIRST OF ALL. THAT'S FUCKING STUPID. #sorry that was a real take i saw on tiktok it made me so mad #anyways riddle literally hates not knowing things and will study relentlessly until he's mastered it #see book 6 gamer riddle + halloween vignette riddle learning how to walk in high heels #and he's not going to disrespect others' identities just because they don't match the norm. what the fuck are you on #in his dorm vignette he was able to process that caters way of retaining information was different from his #and what did he do in response? learned. adapted his approach in order to reach cater in a way the other would understand #it's not so hard to believe that he'd do the same for sexuality+gender identity #anyways im crazy. riddle and her mandatory heartslabyul pronoun pins

[c-kiddo]

what cool decor do yous think ashton would put on crutches ? (asking for a art wip . its him and cad being like . cool mobility aid. at eachother lol)

#ik like spikes. . .. but . i wannae crowdsource ideas . #kiddo say #the thought of them interacting is so funny 2 me but #i like th idea of them being like . oh sore all the time solidarity. but ash is like migraines and irritable and just. ow weird nerve pain #and stuff . and cads like .ow my joints. ow my stomach. anyway..... uh. gets dizzy. passes out . and also he will sleep for 14 hours #AND still be fucking sleepy. #yknow what i realised recently . idk what th deal is but when i get sensory overloaded i think its wha t causes this crazy fatigue + #dizziness .. .... idk if theres something else going on and it jus aligns with blood sugar dropping #but im p sure its connected . #i dont understand my own body ngl so maybe this is just how being low on spoons is .. .....

[oozeandgoo-art]

old drawing I never posted. i like these two freaks, I should draw them more

#rubin #skironir #oc #rukaan #humanization #skironir is fully on board with the murder for the record. She likes rubin because he loves to kill people and she thinks it's cool and fun #someone warned her when she was like human-nineteen (im not sure how to translate caribou ages to humans LMAO could've been #anywhere from 19 to 25ish) that there was a weird loner freak eating out of the garbage and threatening people with knives and she went #'damn thats crazy. hes kinda hot. im gonna be his friend' #rubin (also approximately the same age as her) was like 'ive never had a friend before and im not going to start now. fuck off' #and then failed so hard at not having any friends that he fell in love like an idiot and now he's stuck with her forever and she can't get #rid of him. which works for skironir because she would be very sad if she did get rid of him #im not sure im gonna keep the she/her pronouns for skir. in all the stuff i've written for the deer game with skir i use he/him #but rubin using he/him pronouns in the mg!au also trips me up a bunch because i keep being like this is girl rubin he's a girl i made him #into a girl and now he's a girl. and then i get lost in the pronoun weeds LMAO #you undrestand #anyway i enjoy them a lot #very straightforward characters. they roll into town. they cause problems. they kill someone. they leave #i should make magical girl katjaana straight up just a dude. for balance. a dude who uses she/her and turns into a magical girl also #or maybe i could go full tuxedo mask with her.... idk

[potatoes-tomatoes]

cringe ass older south park headcanons

top is what I personally envision for the boys, bottom is designed following canon designs and colors (down to hair, nose shapes, and types of clothes that appear on show):

Stan was easiest to design, I simply copy pasted Trey's 90s look and the type of casual sweaters he'd wear. If not that, then bomber jackets (bottom) his canon leg shape is weird, but meh, what can ya do. Kyle, I think would keep wearing an ushanka and wear the nicer clothes of the boys-- he'd still wear normal clothes like pants and a jacket, the thing is his jackets are from places like Nordstrom bc he's arguably the richest of the boys (I guess stan's a close second, maybe tie?). With his hat off, it's his crazy Matt 90s hair. I'm very fond of it. So fun to draw hgjfkd

Cartman likes to present himself nicely, but is paradoxically lazy. So he styles his hair neater than the other boys but wears a simple hoodie or jacket and onea those ugly calf-high cargo pants. Bottom design tho is his nicer clothes (also the one that has his full palate on display) Funny enough, he's the only one with a zit free face thanks to a rigorous skincare routine that would put Patrick Bateman to shame. I'd like him to keep those sharp, thin eyebrows his child design has as opposed to the canon designs which are fuller. He looks more evil and frees up space in his face

Kenny I had an absolute blast designing! I loved hawaiian shirt Kenny from PC, and wouldn't ya know it, there's a ton of hawaiian shirts out there adorned with promiscuous women and gore. Very south park. Very Kenny. though, that shirt cost a pretty penny so he'd most likely wear a cheap sweater and a puffer vest (the orange one is literally the cheapest thing you can buy on walmart hgjfkd). I wanted to spice up his pallet and gave him cool orange cargo pants!! No changes to his footwear. Literal genius move on the crew's end.

ummm yeah anyways yeah this was so funnn except for choosing cartman's nose shape bc fuck that. he's got like 3 canon noses to choose from and each nose gives him a new vibe wtf. I can't decide which to choose, I might make that it's own post. anwyays glasses cartman supremacy!!

#south park #cel speaks #eric cartman #stan marsh #kyle broflovski #kenny mccormick #character design #lmao lookit me taggin that as if i know what im doin #I feel it's a sin to not obscure kenny's face or at least his mouth but I couldn't figure anything out :( #I thought of him wearing a scarf but that along with his crazy hair disrupted his silhouette... #idk maybe a teen kenny is his Clarity Era hfgjks #i don't have to point it out but i will anywayyysss I kinndaa changed the boys' body shapes on the top iteration bc I have Thoughts #Stan seems like he has broad shoulders #Kyle's got a rectangular body with long proportions #Cartman's grown out of his hunch (i kinda dont like his canon hunch fhhj) and has a pear shape body #indeed there is truth in his childhood moniker #but the canon complient designs I kept that hunch dont worryyyy #Kenny's twiggy bc of his rancid diet (he gives most of his food to karen anyways) #cels doodles

[evilsartcorner]

#QSMP #qsmp fanart #fanart #tazercraft fanart #qsmp mike #guys idk how to tell you this but I have not watched a single tazercraft stream or nothing #and yet I CANNOT stop drawing mike IDK WHY #idk portuguese I just read about what he gets up to on qsmp on tumblr and go crazy #maybe its the constant cool skins and skin changing maybe its the angst maybe its the green guy w glasses sobbing I DONT KNOW #but anyways ya I want to draw so bad all the time but school is a bitch and I have like zero free time currently so im not dead just yea #miras art

[carcarrot]

scrolling back through my liveblogging of the day of the nyc concert because of recent notifications and its such a fun mixed bag of emotions to relive it all again

#helloooooo pineapple in my notes i do not mind the likes and reblogs <3 #but it was such a crazy day that day of the show. so much happened #i also didn't remember that the day before the concert is when my bus got messed up and was taking me back to ny #and i had to get a car service home and everything #and then there was the concert the next day! #and what i had done was worked monday. took all of tuesday off for the concert. got like maybe 4 hour of sleep if that #and then went back to work wednesday. stupid #it worked out fine lol but i dont think id do it that way again idk #other remembrances of the day: #my biggest regret is getting all worked up abt my stupid letter that never got to them anyway like jeez. obviously i still enjoyed the show #but still. OH and i missed out on getting the latte pinback buttons #not the biggest deal but i did want those. i was just awkwardly standing around before the nyc show #and the merch line was always super long anyway #what else. oh i wish i could have met those of you that were there. but next time! im cooler now so next time. #the show itself was crazyyyy. again so fun and surreal #one of the tags on my original review was something along the lines of me having not been this excited since i was a kid #and it was really like that. like it really was that absolute pure overjoyed excitement that i haven't felt for a long time #i felt the same at the hollywood bowl. just having so much fun (missing it now lol 🥲) #cant remember if i mentioned this before but when i was standing outside the stage door i saw both spike lee and adam driver leave backstage #adam driver is Tall. i didnt even recognize him at first fdhgkgkg #anyway. some thoughts almost a year later wow!

[egoarc4de]

lacho but it's kronberg's david and saul

#this is a very rough wip ... i kind of want to spend forever on this so that the lineart can be like. #chock full of detail #so much fabric is in the original painting so im trying to incorporate that #but i wanted to at least vaguely get the bodies down !!! #i have to get back to uni work but maaaan was it nice to just sit and work on this... #lacho #TURBOwip. even just blocking out the background is going to take forever #might change lalo's shoes to the classic blue moccasins HOWEVER i kind of am obsessed w keeping more of the original sandal vibe #also trying to figure out how to incorporate the gd. harp. thing. Pose #originally i was gonna change it completely so nacho was head down counting money #but i am trying this... #REMINDER TO SELF: put a vase of flowers somewhere. mayhaps in the space behind lalo's foot? #the upper foot #underneath the sill... maybe a chest. or a vault. smthn vaguely sinister #if i was going full crazy mode i would go with memento mori but idk if lalo's crazy enough to erm. #keep a human skull for decoration!!! #anyways

[bericas]

don't blame me, love made me crazy. (twaw2022: october 4 ↣ resurrection)

#twedit #twaw2022 #allydia #allydiaedit #tslyricsedit #LETS GOOOO #idk what this is but its kinda fun i think #maybe ill hate it later bc there is a Lot going on here but im kinda feelin it! #tw #allison argent #lydia martin #* #peter hale #i think dont blame me with the gradient into love made me crazy is so fun bc #dont blame her for peter! she had no say! #and then allison is just <3 <3 <3 <3 beloved! it made her crazy! get over it! #anyway #thank u to merediths floewrs for being yellow that was so helpful for me #and also sorry 2 everyone for running behind again #pain!