#idk why the tags on this r fucked up :(

[marblerose-rue]

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lionkit/hollykit/jaykit

big, big plans

#my art #do not copy trace or steal #lionblaze #hollyleaf #jayfeather #warriors #warrior cats #wc art #MIXED FEELINGS ABT THIS but at the end of the day i like it . i wish i made the stars a little bit whiter but my back is super achey #I ALSO FOUND OUT THE LAST UNICORN IS ON YOUTUBE FREE WITH ADS after i got my autism diagnosis my mom was like #and i was like (TO MYSELF I DIDNT SAY IT TO HER) that #wouldve been nice to know but at the end of the day i dont think it wouldve added much bc my psychiatrist knew off the bat so AKHBFDKJHBDFH #ANYWAY ENOUGH UNICORN SPEAK they r so so small . and so so... baby #i hope the symbolism is like . there and Obvious but not the kind of 'im holding your hand and showing it to you' obvious #OH MY GOD THE TAGS GOT FUCKED UP NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #MY MOM SAID I USED TO MAKE OTHERS WATCH THE LAST UNICORN WITH ME A *LOT* IDK WHY THE TAGS GOT MIXED UP im crying profusely this is such an #expected betrayal from tumblr

[fxreflyes]

thank you so much for the tags @belleandsaintsebastian @somerubberband and @crvida <3333

rules: answer & tag ppl u want to connect w and get to kno better

fav color: dark green! or dark red

last song: got the life - korn (90s / early 2000s rock save me ig)

last film: dune 2!!!

currently reading: need to start book 2 of the poppy war. just got it!

currently watching: attack on titan (thank u katya <3)

currently craving: sleep & coffee idk i am v tired

coffee or tea: both!!!!!

np tagging: @cosmmicdancer @polaroidcats @kaaaaaaarf @shipsnsails @ethercain @malchai @dieonysian @faggylittleleatherboy @hxlda-hxlda @itmeanssungod @sugarsnappeases @sunattacksthemoon @godsofwoes @stillagoodwitch @angelfruittree @fruityindividual @achillesankle @greengrug @magneto-manifesto @moongays @lilyflxwers @wanderingdonut @silkencanis and the world's most open tag :)

#i am so sorry i have been so absent / bad at replying this month #but love u all v much and would love to hear what yall r up to / doing etc. #tag games #idk why the tags on this r fucked up :(

[fungus-no69]

“The term of 'almost deer' is really fitting, not but quite accurate. It was like a deer that someone who had never seen a deer drew, but only after someone else described it to them.” - u/Ampersand_Dotsys

Doodles

#deer but not in a cute or innocent way #in the way that he shows up at the worst times and places #runs away when you approach him #will look you dead in the eye before breaking your windshield #fungus.doodle #fungus.draw #fae oc #fungus.oc #vincenzo maria fontana #crux hertz #but tiny #oc.seth #oc.silver #theyre both my sillies #anyways sorry for spamming reanimated heart is my current hyperfixation (alongside dol) #reanimated heart #tw wound #tw mild blood #maybe #“that guy is not fucking human” - anyone whos seen silver #silver is the white haired guy seth is my main mc #silver is more of an oc than a persona though so yea #silvers not their actual name btw they dont share that shit (their name) #why do i write more in the tags than i do in fucking emails n shit #anyways i love cryptids and fae and mythical creatures they r so cool 2 me #average conversation between seth and vincenzo be like “pensi che-” “sta' zitto.” #idk how to shade multiply and divide layers are my best friends now #also holy shit cuddles ig #my breaks over fuck

[autistic-katara]

i’m sorry i haven’t talked to you in a while, i’m horrible at being a person

#should probably be sending this to him directly but idk if it’d sound right #god why r friendships so complicated #why can’t we just have a psychic connection bcz i care abt u sm but u think i dont bcz i think abt u more than i talk #maybe i should tag u idk #i’m bad at being vulnerable like at all to ppl’s faces #everytime i have ive gone too far #idk #i hope u see this at least #and i hope u know it’s abt u #ryan shut the fuck up

[drewsaturday]

one thing i'm a little scared abt with yellowjackets is how they're going to handle tai's mental stuff. like we're calling it her fugue state but more specifically it seems like DID somewhat triggered by her grandmother's death. i don't think the alter/state we know is necessarily evil, so i kind of trust that it won't be portrayed carelessly. but i do think it's more primal and there's a lot of... unknowns, that make me a little cautious about where the show is going with it.

#yellowjackets tag #then ofc there's lottie's whole thing but i don't think they ever specified her diagnosis #and the point with that is to be unclear over whether it's mental illness or visions and i think it's been handled alright so far #esp bc of that lack of specificity #like no matter what's up with her you can tell the attitudes surrounding her--from her parents or the electroshock treatment etc-- #arent meant to be agreed with #among the girls it's just realistic that people are either 'it's visions' or 'lottie's fucking crazy' #it could go sideways but right now i think it's in a decent area - the potential to go totally fucked up with it is there! #it's rly just tai's thing i'm more worried about and idk why since both DID and psychosis can be handled incredibly poorly #and while i think... idk there are some Tropes TM both characters' mental stuff is following i dont think #right now it's necessarily Bad and that's helped by not having specificity #but i think in tai's case the lack of specificity worries me predominantly for how the fandom will discuss it #because yeah it's a fugue state #but it rly feels like it's DID specifically and i don't think a lot of other people are getting those vibes so #if it turns out to be thattttt i think a lot of those past discussions r gonna feel real uncomfortable in hindsight #anyway i could be wrong #the most recent episode is just rly solidifying this as a possibility more than before

[atla-suki]

goofy ass lookin sokka <<<<<<

pretty boy sokka >>>>>>

#atla #sokka #sorry baby i love u regardless but the animators fuck u up every time #this man is gorgeous #okay? #bro is majestic #stop #makin him #look goofy #idk why those r all separate tags my keyboard is fucken #*fucked #see what i mean #anyways #pretty boy sokka >>>

[merriclo]

just remembered some repressed memories what the actual literal fuck

#i kin wild now ig /lh #i vote memories stop repressing themselves bc if i remembered that i wouldn’t have helped him out a month ago #‘i miss u!! i don’t even rlly know why we all dropped you!’ CLO NO STOP SHUT THE FUCK UP #does this count as vague trauma dumping/venting #am i vague posting abt my issues ahajjdkdka #i’m fine fr i’m just a bit pissed off rn #venting #tagging it just in case #idk tags r a bit issue heavy #not lu

[orcelito]

I love how there r certain kinds of art / fic where u see it and ur like . "Ah. You are Mentally Ill"

#speculation nation #yes im counting my own fic in this. of course im counting my own fic in this. #and i mean ultimately you cant TRULY know bc theres more to ppl than what they put out #but theres just. a certain fascination with the morose that i find is typical for Mentally Ill Creators. #but yes i look at my fics. see the hurt/comfort. and every fic tagged with self harm. #and it's just like. yuuuup. yup yup yup. this sure is a manifestation of Something. #and like yea im just channeling the akechi BUT honestly i feel like majority of goroboys r kinda fucked up like no matter what lmfao #NOT ALWAYS of course. some ppl may just think hes cool or whatever #but it's in the like. recognition through the other. seeing the ugliest parts of yourself reflected in this character. #and feeling the pain. the sympathy. the fascination with it all. #you want to see him given something better because you want something better for yourself too #.....OR you want to see him utterly destroyed bc of Uhhhh totally harmless fascination with destruction obviously. #idk a lot of fandom rly isnt that deep. just people enjoying fiction together. #but when you scrounge around areas of Pain and mental illness like this. it really is kinda a lot. #there's a reason why im still here in this fandom. aside from my dedication to completing discacc and my continued like of p5 #& it's bc i see myself reflected in him. a younger me perhaps. back when i really was as raw and angry and scared as he is #so it's kinda therapeutic. to make him go through hell and then see him come out running. #and thus: this creator is Obviously Mentally Ill. #ive never tried to deny it lol #self harm ment/

[munamania]

i find it really funny when i see people say things like ‘umm there’s an unhealthy power dynamic in bbc merlin’ like. yeah arthur’s a prince and merlin’s a servant. sure. merlin is also the most powerful wizard of all time. their destinies are intertwined their paths lie together they are quite literally two sides of the same coin etc like who cares!

#they’re obsessed with each other theyd both die for each other (😐) like if you’re not having fun… what r u watching for… #also rlly. power dynamic. haha merlin has powers. anyway. we’re really gonna pull that into this show…. hellooooo… #like merlin can get annoyed with arthur for two seconds and make him fuck up in training or feed him rat or whatever he’s fine. #taom liveblog #also. i’m just assuming these people have probsbly seen the finale already. how do you do that and go but merlin’s his servant #he’s never been just his servant. idk why i’m having this conversation with myself rn. #it’s called never let me venture into tags for things because i will Need to complain immediately

[herequeerexitentialfear]

the reason i dont talk as much about jjba cecio is bc he is very strongly a piss take of the 'one good pig' because he is the 'one good cop' but hes actually so much worse. hes using a mask of humor and kindness and relate-ability to help aid in murder blackmail wrongful imprisonment and all manner of massive power abuses, but because he does the bare minimum of pretending to be a 'good' person [in the right way] he gets free license to do all that and is seen as sympathetic. so actually hes not worse, hes just an average fucking pig with slight different motivations it doesn't matter if he answers to the police or criminal organizations, because the fucking pigs are their own gang just under the guise of 'upholding the law' and hes betraying his community and ruining peoples lives over and over for power either way

#thebirdspeaks #cecio #essay in teh tags about crows self doubt about how well they handle mature topic and if ppl will think badly of them if they dont do it per #perfect so they dont post shit bc they r worried about the piss on the poor reading comprehension of the internet or worse #being seen as sympathetic 🤢 to cops 🤮 #in 1... 2... 3... #im not spilling my personal shit #but like. i worry about sharing more of what he does bc im worried people wont understand how im writing him #bc shits subjective but im writing from my own experience with abusers and cops and just authority in general #its why hes hands down the worst of Celia & Co. they are all awful #but him especially so. #ive debated rewriting him cause its hard to write but i like how it affects his character even when its uncomfortable to write and even mor #so to share #idk. maybe i will end up just make him into a mortician or forensics guy #but like. him abusing all the ways the law is corrupt for his own goals and using all the defenses even better than the other pigs #positioning himself as the good one while making sure none else is and being the worst #is my own commentary on the joke that is the justice system. and i find it interesting #idk i think a lot of it is my personal discomfort. and i would hate to be labeled as like. 🤢 supporting pigs. in my writing #idk #this might get deleted idk i think im to sensitive to potential criticism from bad faith reading #but idk if i do handle it well or not #but then again im not a major fucking tv show let me fuck up a lil #i guess i just scrutinize how people write cops a lot #and thinking the internet has bad reading comprehension is not a baseless anxiety #eh fuck it i think i can do my lil fukcing thing #i just dont want people to see it as in poor taste #cause i worry they would be right? but like so many ppl in fandom be wilding maybe i can get a pass for maybe being a lil clumsy?

[ikilledamanforthisurl]

i wonder why Spearmaster has no strong connections with violence or the violence karma despite being only able to feed when impaling other creatures

#ikildaman shut the fuck up #downpour #ugh spoilers tag rant #ok i did a basic sweep of the wiki and it seems SM was designed to try and minimise animalistic tendencies to further encourage its purpose #as yknow a purposed organism #but i still dont get how in The Great Scheme Of Everything this doesnt reflect on them #if Artificer can get traumatised into a violence machine and thus be Damned by the Way The World/Ascension Works #then why is it different for Spearmaster. because they're not angry when they stab shit? because they have no other way to sustain themself #as if it is mere anger that drives Arti mind you. that is an animal. #the sophontness of the slugcats r debatable and i find it weirdly cruel how Arti gets locked out of ascension #even though we have the option to not genocide a bunch of scavs. even though we are Forced to use violence to progress in game #idk man i will always find issues with the logic of ascension and the 'morality' applied to it honestly this shits nonsense #gourmand doesnt get dissolved out of an ascending ending despite his attachment to TWO worldly 'sins' !!!!! #gourmand got a real wank off of an ascension ending literally just a recolour of survivors ending. shake my fuckig head #yknow i really liked the approach to gourmand i had extremely abysmal expectations for him #but the lazy ascension ending really kind of just ruins it a little bit 2 me..... idk........ #at least be consistent in locking slugcats who are anchored to the world via the games five 'sins' out of ascension. please #same with spearmaster i feel like their ascension might be a copout. they have such a nothing story HDSHDSGGHGSHGS #theres lots of good stuff here but in the background. shit we dont get to live thru. SM was a suicide aid at one point. can you believe tha #though i suppose Survivor is kind of inherently tied to one of the anchoring sins yknow. but their whole deal is journeying past that #so. in the end we just hate Arti i guess even though the gameplay does not let us grow past that!! yayyy rainworld !!!! #im literally only ranting about this because im trying to assign each cat a karma symbol lord help me #Survivor can grow past their anchor to the world being survival + Spearmaster can grow past their anchor potentially being violence and #companionship. Gourmand heavily tied with gluttony and companionship but can ascend + who gives a fuck about him am i right guys #Hunter can grow past its tie to the anchor of violence and survival + i dont think Rivulet even has any strong ties beyond companionship #so of course Riv can ascend Riv can do whatever it wants + Saints anchor to the world is existence itself or maybe ascension violence #dont ask me what the fuck is going on with Saint because then it brings Echoes into the process and that further fucks everything up #obviously Monk can follow in Survivor's footsteps but has even less sins anchoring him to the world + Paincat isnt canon #Artificer cannot do any of these things though because ? fuck you is why. i dont know. Artificer cannot have shit #maybe Arti became an echo. i assume she did

[bukuoshin]

I FORGOT TO MAKE BEADS, NOOOOO

#rae rants #im fucked cuz of my caffiene headache i literally had my clay out earlier nooooooo #at least i finished the modelling for the little. plush doll accessories ig. i just need to paint them after they dry now. #might have to cover the glasses frame edge too i didnt do that cuz i figured i can just paint the wires but maybe not so... well see. #but i was supposed to make beads for *qua t*en hung*r force too i forgooooorrrrr #gosh i really hate that the tag system just pulls words from shit. idg why they changed it to this. #i had my clay just dried enough to make beads by the time i finished too oh thats sooooo annoying #cuz i need the clay dry enough to press into cubes. spheres wont do for this one. #im talkative today idk whats up

[karmaphone]

'how to cut the evil narcissist out of your life' 'how to leave someone who doesn't experience empathy' 'why you should NEVER date a borderline' ' how to tell if that schizo on the bus is dangerous' do these people fucking hear themselves

#ask to tag #anyways I hate trying to do research on mobile I'm fucking tired #'why don't u use a laptop' idk maybe because I don't have any r q or d keys shut the fuck up

[jaskiersbard]

Update: being told off on twitter because I’m “kink-shaming” someone who said they had a Nazi kink 😭 “they might have family trauma” - okay, how does that justify having a kink for a group of people who killed MILLIONS of Jewish/gay/Romani/disabled etc people??? Who experimented on literal children, including autistic children/people like myself??? Sorry if it makes me a bad person because that’s where I draw my fucking line 💀 I’m not saying people deserve to be harassed but like why would you openly admit “hell yeah it’s so hot to imagine fucking someone who hates Jews and other minorities”??? Why is that okay???

#get therapy pls #maybe that makes me a bad person idk but Jesus Christ??? #and it’s coming from me.. someone who is openly writing fucking dragon family incest (hotd/Targaryen) #personal #I don’t even know how to tag this #I’m not kink shaming I’m kink asking WHY #at least my fictional dragon family incest doesn’t involve wanting to fuck n*zis 💀 #like I even keep my mouth shut about r*pe kink because the implication is that hopefully it’s pre-discussed beforehand and so it’s not- #-actual r*pe? I don’t understand it but I keep my mouth shut #nazis is where I’m throwing my hands up like what the FUCK

[aranarumei]

head empty except for thinking abt writing hanzawa again so it’s head close to bursting actually…

#this drove a lot of two-tone I think but lately I’ve been rly thinking abt the like portrayal and understanding of the self #as well as how that is. masked. and this does indeed relate to hanzawa bc I feel we are similar in this way #but it’s also about me and I’m projecting a little #but like. hm. thinking abt being so Aware of the world that u can learn how to like market yourself into it #to the point that like even vulnerability can feel like an act at times because showing any kind of True Depth or Feeling #itself requires a layer of expression. which with enough time and practice can begin to feel like artifice #so is anything ever raw and pure and if things are does that make them more meaningful or worth more #the more you understand yourself as an opposition to the self you present. the more you dissect yourself #until you’re all just… mundane parts. and you understand you could make a puppet and tell a special story from this. #but that would feel like fiction. then again disassembled lego blocks don’t feel so authentic either #idk. I just think hanzawa extremely knows what he’s doing in the way he dresses and acts and I wonder if that Understanding of himself #fucks him up a little bit. yknow? #don’t ask me why these r all tags and not in the actual post body. #kiri.txt

[caruliaa]

idc whatever other neunce you LIARS wanna tell me it has turning redis an evil movie bc its abt how YOU have to help your parents heal when they let their trauma (or more like use it as an exuse to) hurt you so im enver ever gonna watch it and i hate it with all my heart. good fucking night !!!

#ik im bieng over dramaitic but can we have one fucking flm ever abt the reaslity of parents tht dont actually change #nd how you dont have to forgive them PLEAE #also just im general idc if they change u dont have to forgive ppl who hurt you !!!!! ever ever ever !! end of story full stop #you *can* if you want to obvs and jsyk i *have* forgiven ppl whove hurt me but you dont fuicking have to!!!! #esp for bullshit reasons like 'theuyre ur parents !!!!!!!!!!@ like i hope u rot. actually. #anyway. society if ppl who can say w full confidnce tht their parents love them wld shut the fuck up for a thousand years #idk why i suddnely got mad abt this. sorry. #flappy rambles #edit: so im just wanna say my dramaticness in the posts is a delibrate me being over dramatic the tags r j venting