#idk someone that actually cares about me

[jokaarija]

end of the year rant

#what i want from the new year is to finally have friends #idk someone that actually cares about me #i’m tired of being alone #but knowing me i’ll eventually isolate myslef again because who in their right mind would want to be my friend #yeah i have avpd 🙃 #i’m already dreading some things that are gonna happen next year #just hope that in between all of that something good will happen to me too #i’m happy i had my fandoms this year otherwise it was pretty meh #feel like i’m standing in one place not rlly going anywhere with my life #which sucks i mean weren’t these supposed to be the best years of your life lol #anyway nye makes me super anxious so i’ll just enjoy esc250 #manifesting my favorites placing well and why not maybe we’ll have a new winner hehe 👀

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him) #But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but) #And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

[sorrelpaws]

>be me >make a friend >hang out with him >he gets hurts due to hanging out with me >mfw my only friend might die because of me

#rick and morty #morty smith #brad #hii cosmic my friend cosmic who asked me to draw this smile #edit omg i had a whole bunch of shit i wanted to say about this actually #me and cosmic bradleyenthusiast were discussing how morty would react in a situation like this #because with his family its like kind of whatever? ish? everyone can stand their own ground and/or have been babyproofed to be invulnerable #vs brad who is mortys only authentic natural friend getting hurt(additionaly due to him) #like this is someone he cares about who cant be guaranteed safety #so hed probably get incredibly anxious and panicky #would try to fill the silence by talking a lot either to brad or himself just to keep his brain occupied and like Sane #i do think morty has a semi decent understanding of first aid but just getting so freaked out that he's shaking running around #IDK! much to think about

[paint-it-dead]

-"Start Here" by Caitlyn Siehl

#berserk #griffith #guts #griffguts #berserk manga #words #my posts #i have soooo many quotes that remind me of them that haunt me im going insane #i post more of them eventually #for now this is all the display of mental illness yall get #idk how to tag lol #guts berserk #griffith berserk #this very obviously is refering to how guts percieves griffith and the immediate change in his stance when he saw him again as the human #that he loved and cared for very deeply to the point that he forgot that this was actually “the monster” he had sought to kill all that time #im not at all implying anything abt griffith's nature changing #just about hoe you can never truly see someone as simply “monstruous” if you love them hard enough #how*** #SPELLING MISTAKES MY MORTAL ENEMY

[can-of-slorgs]

Completed the Shenkuu Stamp collection some time ago, so it was only fair to draw my girl Mirsha

#neopets #neotag #neoart #vin doods #gnorbu #drawing this was actually really fun in a way that when i was looking for references i didn't know she was such a lesbian icon #not surprised but hey lets cheer for the lesbian alpaca! #I'm not as happy with the colors as I thought #I'm a bit rusty in just really warm colors without it looking burnt for some reason HJSD #but looking at pictures of AC teams have made me really fall into my old virtupets fix #i love everyone so much on that team and not really that many ppl play for it #i still remember winning a long long time ago and was completely blown away as it was basically just 5 ppl in a forum going mad #i just really love the designs of most of the players on all groups?? #i don't even like playing in the AC that much i just love the characters LMFAOO #i think i still remember I drew fanart of Sela and the gelert from the darigan team when i was like 8-9 and submitting in onto deviantart #and getting hate comments probably like 8 years later because i missed his wings or i made them too small or sth #that was hilarious thinking about it now but it did made me hate the darigan team for that year SDHFKSD #ok this is too long it always ends up wit me just rambling #I love my boy XL Striker 3.8 and Sela #ok nobodys reading uhhhh #send me an ask with the weirdest emoji out of context if you've read this far tbh nobody cares by this point HJSKSFD #idk if ill draw someone for the AC team everytime i complete a stamp collection but if i'm feeling like it maybe #or if they're requested tecnically #thats it bye

[nevarroes]

can i be honest i never understood artists getting so mad or hurt about breaking mutuals or whatevr. like unfollowing without soft blocking or actually blocking

#its always giving insta mentality to me #not artist insta private one w the “im not ur fan remove me” #most mutual follows happen because i liked someones art nd they liked mine why does it matter so much if one party stops #like maybe smth u draw just makes me uncomfortable. maybe i just dont fw ur current fandom why do we make it SO personal #u couldnt pay me to care that much unless we actually were friends nd talked before and not just mutuals #im not saying that u cant feel hurt about unreasonable things right but the fact that this is the default idk…. idk dawg #maybe someone just doesnt like the art anymore im sorry why do u always assume its max level malicious #i also say artists specifically because i feel like that? should not just be about the person? #if someone doesnt like my art anymore (without straight up hating ME) I still like theirs like why r u guys always so petty

[moeblob]

Demyx (my beloved)

#kingdom hearts #demyx #honestly is there an organization member i dont like? not really tbh #ok i lied maybe one but even then i find him fascinating so even he gets a pass #demyx being such a good boy who doesnt actually care for fighting then having the whole kh3 thing #where he has the yellow eyes but still just helps the good team vaguely then dips out of the entire game #where did he go and why .... what secrets do you hold young man #i should replay kh3 cause there are things i think i remember but idk for sure #like wasnt there actually a scene where hes just... been benched for being bad at being bad or smth #i really remember a scene where either he says or someone else is like oh yeah he got benched lol #like why does he have to be so funny yet get so little screen time im dying squirtle #though for the record him just handing a mannequin to even and saying peace out for the rest of the game WAS hilarious #this is me living the best time line where not only does demyx just dip and never get mentioned from anyone #but also in an otome i played theres a route where my fave guy just also dips early on #and then in the very end some other LI asks another LI what happened to him btw like where did he go #and the another LI was like oh my god i forgot about him idk man #my favorites just making an appearance and leaving is really funny to me #these tags got super long bc im very stressed and now devoting brain power to vgs in order to not cry

[trashhole]

I love umlrbee. also kobd movie date but breakdown is so tiny

#the new earthspark episodes have me conniving about star and bee #they could fight so much while hashtag is like bruh both y’all need therapy #but then they actually really care about eachother through the power of family #also I just think it’s funny when bee tells star to stfu #like someone had to say it #besties who get war ptsd together slay together #also I love kobd idk how to draw KO but I love them #they deserve all the drive in theater dates #bumblebee #transformers bumblebee #tfe bumblebee #earthspark bumblebee #tf earthspark #transformers #earthspark #tfe #maccdam #hanaes scrapheap

[lunar-years]

it's unfortunate that twitter is the most convenient place to find TL news and latest pictures because wow the fandom over there is really a cesspool. I so need them to learn it's not actually funny to make fun of the cast for losing and then TAG the creators in said petty comments all over SHIPS. if you hate the show so deeply to be cheering in joy over its award show demise and echoing the commentary of the people who have always thought ted lasso was trash, just because you think it's appropriate ~revenge~ for a bad season like uhhh. maybe it's time to take a step back and leave the fandom because you clearly aren't enjoying yourself. and then the audacity to get on there every day demanding a season 4?? like what about the way they tweet at them do they think is enticing these creators to want to make more?

#ted lasso #listen i don't care about jason but to actually analyze his reactions when it panned to him just to take pleasure in his disappointment #is soooooooo weird and unkind #and far removed from a normal criticism of the show #especially coming from someone calling themselves a FAN of the show ??? like get a grip #i'm sure we all know which part of the fandom this is but let just say. why is it always the straight ships? #god and it's deeply annoying that every time brett and juno do something (which brings me joy) it's tainted by people being annoying about #lack of a rk endgame #like NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT DAMN ENDGAMES can't we just be happy we get to see them again #like at a certain point your ship didn't happen GET OVER IT idk sorry if that's bitter lol #. #okay i'm logging off for the day hopefully that all was too much for me lmao

[beanghostprincess]

I typed shuggy into tag and noticed you answering some stuff about them so I hope it’s alright to ask!!! I finished Netflix version like yesterday and I loved shuggy vibes and I told this on tw and some people came to me and told me it’s mid and there are better shanks ships, because he doesn’t really care about buggy I tried to look through wiki but it’s so many stuff there and it will take me ages to catch up Does he care about buggy?? I want someone to spoil me!! I actually really want to know this!

Some might prefer other ships and that is alright, but straight-up saying that Shanks doesn't care about Buggy is just... Not true at all. That being the main reason why some people seem to not ship them is just ridiculous. The short answer is: Yes, he does care about Buggy. Quite a lot, actually. The Netflix adaptation skipped their flashback for literally no reason (I am guessing we will see it... Someday?) but it shows Shanks cares a lot for him.

A lot of stuff happens between them but the missing flashback is more than enough to know, I think: They were on a pirate crew together and these two are shown to be always arguing about stupid things from a very young age. Like. Childhood best friends type of thing. And I find it funny how people say Shanks doesn't care about Buggy when he is shown to be the one approaching him all the time instead of Buggy doing so. Shanks actually seems more open to showing his care for Buggy than him. Constantly. Long story short, things™ happen and Buggy finds this map and this devil fruit and he wants to sail on his own to sell it and find the treasure on the map to form his own pirate crew. Again, things™ happen and Shanks appears out of nowhere, making Buggy eat the fruit suddenly and drop the map into the sea. And because Shuggy is desperate for a new life and to make a name for himself, he jumps into the sea to grab the map. Of course, he's drowning, and Shanks doesn't hesitate, not even for a damn second to save him. Idk about you, but that is peak romance to me.

That is one of the reasons why Buggy is resentful toward Shanks. Although I think the map and fruit thing is more of a metaphor/symbology than anything else for, like, the real reason why Buggy resents Shanks. But that's another story--

And, if you don't care about spoilers, I'll just tell you THE Shuggy moment for me that shows how much Shanks cares about Buggy: They were supposed to go to the last island together with their crew but Buggy suddenly got sick and was told not to go despite his begging to let him do so. And Shanks (WITHOUT ANYBODY TELLING HIM TO, BY THE WAY, THIS IS ALL HIM) stayed back with him instead of going with the rest of the crew. He took care of Buggy when he was sick. And stayed back because he clearly didn't want to achieve their dream if Buggy wasn't there too or at least he thought it was unfair to do so without him. He was heavily worried about him, too, like-- (Not to mention the parallelisms of this with the same thing happening between a canon romantic couple in the same episode... Oda you're not subtle about Shuggy).

Most people will say "but that's a thing from the PAST! He used to care about Buggy but not anymore" but they are wrong. You truly, genuinely think that SHANKS is going to stop caring for his old friend??? ??????? ????? SHANKS????????? That man values personal connections and friendships so fucking bad it is. One of the things he teaches Luffy???? Like- There is NO way he doesn't care about Buggy. Also the bubble speech theory... When they meet again at Marineford and he smiles at him so sweetly... Crying sobbing...

I hope this was enough to answer your question! People might like other ships and that is completely alright! But saying Shanks doesn't care about Buggy......................... I am side-eyeing them......

#imagine saying shanks doesn't care about buggy OF ALL THINGS #you gotta be kidding me i- this is actually really funny idk what type of show they've been watching #always found funny the 'shanks has better ships' bc.... i mean he does have great ships but the one with more emotional depth is shuggy #i don't trust people on twitter with opinions never #every time someone says shuggy is mid i start shaking with rage #and also !!!!! you can ask whatever you want anon it's totally alright #i am glad you liked the dynamic in OPLA!!! if you ever watch the show or read the manga i'm sure you'll love them even more #one piece #buggy the clown #red haired shanks #shuggy #ask-bean!

[automatonknight]

id: a digital drawing of a blue engineer and walenty-an original character. walenty is pale, has long, black hair with horns, a tail and claws. he's wearing square glasses, fingerless gloves, a green, floral shirt over a black tank top and black shorts and shoes. kit is holding a fishing rod in kits right hand. engineer is wearing his hardhat and goggles, a blue shirt, dark blue overalls and brown boots. he also has a fishing rod swung over his shoulder. he and walenty are walking next to eachother, with walenty on the left and engie on the right. the background shows a pine forest. end id

#looks around. hi #art #fanart #dst oc #not superrrr happy with it but hey! it's something. or whatever #walenty also looks like that one philosopher image. having a deep conversation about constant's fish #i sketched this like. fucking ages ago when i first played that one REALLY fucking nice engie character mod i love it so much. i really wan #to draw his roseate skin sometimes too..... #actually let me check it out who made it #<goat slice! very nice mod. i'd say for someone more advanced if you wanna build the buildings and stuff but i fucking. suck at this game #and i was doing just fine so idk.+who cares about skill level. looks its my favorite guy from video game in another video game i like! yay! #^incomprehensible fucking tags sorry. bleeehh #ok bye. i might draw something with walenty and scout later though #ALSO. to that one anon who sent me an ask saying that a walenty and engie fishing trip would be cool....i love you forever from my heart

[justsasuke]

There's this thought that's been festering in the back of my head growing independently like an unwanted fungus and it needs to breathe for a second so I'm sharing it.

(This is is another me thinking out loud post so please think of it as an exploration of an idea rather than a presentation.) what if, what if, what if. What if Naruto was Sasuke's first love. What if he liked him. like liked him. And when he realized it it made him frustrated. Because he's supposed to be focused on so many other things but this stupid obnoxious useless team mate of his has forced his way under his skin and won't leave him alone. And it's completely one-sided. Naruto doesn't feel the same way. yes he's obsessed with Sasuke but he really does mean friends. Naruto wants to be the greatest ninja, he wants to be Hokage and somehow he's so focused on those things that he doesn't.notice. that Sasuke is suffering. Meanwhile Sasuke is in agony because everyday it just gets worse. he cares too much. The desire for connection starts overshadowing his entire reason for existence. He's losing grip on the loneliness that was fueling his goals. And his heart is starting to ache with something completely opposite of darkness whenever he sees stupid Naruto connecting with so many people in the way only Naruto knows how. and it begins to not matter anymore if he can avenge his clan or not. All he wants is to be with Naruto in that world. He would die for Naruto. he did once. But Naruto doesn't feel the same way. And the unhealed wound in Sasuke's heart is festering too much and he's hurting in too many ways that can't disappear on their own. And then he starts realizing that Naruto doesn't understand him. That the village they were both born in isn't his home but it is Naruto's. That Naruto loves it and wants to belong to it and is actually starting to. And Sasuke realizes how far he is from this world that Naruto is living in because Naruto was born with nothing but is getting everything and he expects it to be the same for Sasuke too. He expects it to be the same for everyone. That's how it was for him. And he tells Sasuke so. And it ruins Sasuke because he realizes that if he stayed he would be ripped apart entirely by Naruto's world view, that whatever love Naruto was giving him was only burning him and suffocating him.

So he walks away. because the love Naruto can give him is not the love that will heal him or help him. It's the kind of love that will kill him.

#I don't ship Sasuke/Naruto shipper bc I like #the idea that how they cared about each other wasn't what the other wanted/needed #Like Naruto cared about Sasuke but what if it was the wrong kind of love #you know when you fall in love with someone and the love they can give you is not what you actually need #what if it was like that for them #that's what made me start thinking about this #Naruto #Sasuke #Pro Sasuke #but also poor Sasuke agonizing every night #because he feels himself falling in love but also realizes it's poisoning him #Sasuke who suffered with this unrequited love wondering if he would ever have anything like what he used to have again #thinking out loud #Idk if this even captured the nuance of what I was trying to say

[donnydamakkk]

unpopular opinion: there is no point in the show in which jeid would have made sense. jj never seemed interested in him, and his feelings always felt misconstrued and misplaced. they never had that kinda chemistry.

#ro's takes #unpopular opinion #jennifer jj jareau #jennifer jareau #spencer reid #anti jeid #furthermore i didn't even realize they were actually friends until jj made him henry's godfather #even that decision doesn't make sense to me #especially considering she didn't trust him alone w henry until he was like what 5 or 6?? #what episode did they get drunk n hungover? y'all know the one #maybe that doesn't stand out to most ppl but idk #me? im not finna make someone my child's godparent if there's a point in time that i would b worried about them being alone together #like at any point #why would i make u a godparent when im worried bout if u can take care of them without me #the trust is the point n canonically it wasn't there #they always read as older sister/younger brother who love each other #are there for each other during hard dark times #but aren't really close cua they share no commonalities #i genuinely don't understand how ppl see anything but #that said yeah even jeid as best friends doesn't really make sense to me #she's never really interested in him enough for that to ever make sense #she doesn't even ever care to listen to his lil infodumps #which contrary to fandom beliefs she doesn't have to listen to him if she doesn't want to #her not wanting to doesn't make her a bitch either #criminal minds

[superbellsubways]

im gonna be honest gang ive been feeling more and more hopeless as of late and seeing everything thats going on both online and in the real world im just like. wow the misery never fucking ends!!!! we live in an actual hell world and its exhausting!! fuck

#I dont feel safe anywhere as a queer poc even around my family cuz ik if they knew about who i really was id probably be on the streets #im never going to feel safe i dont know what to do #and everyone constantly like to remind me of how useless i am i know i cant do anything ithink im just really sick of everything #can someone invent a way to not exist for a temporary amount of time please #i wanna kms without actually kms u get me #like damn. NOBODY wants me here #whatever ill be normal again tomorrow probably idk #we have no food here barely any money to survive i havent even eaten today ill just wait till something happens idk #who cares #nobody cares

[sepiamestus]

It always rubs me the wrong way when people characterize atsushi as too much of a sweetheart. Like he IS a sweetheart but he's also snarky and sarcastic and most importantly he's very very angry. Do not forget this.

#I think its a product of like. People thinking that being kind and being angry are mutually exclusive #Which they very much are not #Atsushi is an extremely compassionate character who also happens to be angry!! These things do not cancel each other out #Like. He bites and screams and fights when someone hurts him or someone he cares about #He's been hurt so much and he's furious and bitter about it. #He's still a compassionate character. He's so so good. Being angry at people that hurt you is not bad. #He's not someone who just rolls over and takes whats thrown at him. He establishes this very early on #Idk. I just think taking away that part of him that's bitter and angry about the way he was treated #Is a major disservice to his character #Jesus this turned into a tangeant. I love atsushi a lot. #I'm a very angry person myself. I actually like that about myself!! I relate to atsushi a lot just as #Someone whos affected by mental illness in ways that often end up making me someone thats hard to be around #Atsushi is a tiger. He bites. This is important. #Sorry sorry. The atsushi brainrot is strong this morning #ruby speaks #Bsd #Bsd atsushi #Atsushiposting

[gl1tchxr]

new paradox reference because artfight is soon and his old ref desperately needed an update

+ closeup because i'm proud of it

#ghost post #art #digital art #oc #worldbuilding #paradox #ooo you wanna ask me about him so bad oooo #i kinda want to do asks for my ocs again bc my artistic ability is SO much better but ironically i get way less interaction now #than i did then so idk if i would actually get any asks #i dont care about likes or reblogs i just want someone else to be as feral about my ocs as i am