#idk how much this makes sense i have a very specific image in my head and did my best to describe it

[dogtoling]

RE: Question about whether the Deepsea and the Octarian Domes are directly connected to each other. sorry i'm stealing your reply @bucketsquid but i see a chance to talk about this i have to take it. So idk let's try to decode how they might actually be connected.

This is the obvious conclusion. For the record I think it's the RIGHT conclusion after Side Order because they seemed to REALLY imply it this time. I thought for a really long time that the Deepsea and Octarian domes HAVE TO be connected because not only are they both subterranean but also literally how else do you get that many freaking Octolings in there? Since the metro is connected to the Inkopolis subway anyway wouldn't it be WAY EASIER TO JUST GET SQUIDS? (though to be honest i still stand by this.)

Anyway the obvious assumption is that the Deepsea and Octarian domes connect to each other. though it's not so straightforward. How they connect to each other exactly? we don't really know. Anyway let's get back into this in just a second i need to show what absolutely dashed my hopes and made me really mad when it happened

THIS MAP. THEY POSTED THIS MAP. Before this map I was having a great time because this is what the map was in my head:

"why was that the map in your head" idk. the giant stretches of water surrounding both canyons and inkopolis stretching into said body of water gave me the mental image that the canyons were in the ocean by inkopolis' coast. alongside some of the very old concept art that shows some of the domes even being underneath inkopolis if i'm not mistaken!

from the art of splatoon 1. this is an ancient and I MEAN ANCIENT manga depicting what is obviously an early concept of the story so it shouldn't ACTUALLY be taken as fact (almost nothing in this manga holds up anymore). But some of the things WERE kept! I have to assume this is also why you get into Octo Valley through the sewer in the games because the story mode was meant to take place literally straight underneath Inkopolis... it makes a lot less sense in the final result when you supposedly take the sewer like 50 kilometers (i dont know the actual distances but i think they're able to be deciphered) underground to a canyon in the middle of nowhere.

Why is there even continuous sewage all that way. What is happening. Is it even a sewer or a really long underground secret tunnel that Captain Cuttlefish dug because he's been really bored for 100 years.

kind of besides the point. back to the issue of the deepsea and the octarian empire being connected. You know, with the Deepsea Metro being located in Inkopolis Bay and the domes supposedly being all over the Inkopolis underground and the surrounding locations, it didn't seem that far fetched that they could siphon Octolings from the underground (where they live) to another very close-by fork of the underground (the Deepsea). However,

1. the Deepsea is NOT Octarian territory, but its own type of society. which is really weird considering how much Octarian iconography is down there, let alone how many OCTARIANS are down there

2. We have SO LITTLE knowledge about the true scope of the Deepsea that you can't even say for sure whether the Deepsea is *JUST* the Deepsea Metro and the facilities and industrial cities in that exact specific area, or if it's a big underwater and underground empire similar in scope to the Octarian domes, maybe even built in the exact same dome network - or a neighboring one. (This would mean they have a border somewhere undefined, underground.)

3. At face value with only the map, this is the distance for a Single Octarian to travel in order to get from where they live/are stationed, to get to the Deepsea Metro which is cluttered with one billion octarians

HELLO? THAT IS SO FAR. it's even worse than the distance Agents 3 and 4 are swimming through the god damn sewer. This also makes very little sense if we assume all the subterranean domes in all of these locations are exclusively under their surface counterparts... which... well, we don't know.

We know that the Deepsea Metro is connected to the Inkopolis Underground (it even shows this on the map with the little dotted line). I don't really know the significance of that but I've taken it to mean that the Deepsea Metro that is highlighted in the map shows specifically the area covered by the Kamabo Corporation and the tests there, and honestly again, I don't even know if the Deepsea is any bigger than that. Since it's been stated to be an independent society from Inkopolis or the Octarians, you would ASSUME there'd be ample space for people to like, live, and maybe work, and produce stuff you need to like, live. Instead of the test facility being literally the only place that exists plus a city built around only that to sustain everything.

Furthermore, we don't know if Octarians have cities on the surface in their part of the surface world! This is something that really bothers me because I think knowing whether or not this is the case would change SO MUCH (i'm currently under the assumption it is a barren wasteland with Literally Nothing). However given the location of the Salmonid Swim Zone, we can SEE cities in the background of multiple stages, and judging by this map those would be mainly on the Octarian coasts. This could mean that Octarians have surface cities where they coexist with the Salmon, it could mean that they USED TO have surface cities and abandoned them, OR it could mean that Salmonids actually live on Octarian surface turf while the Octarians themselves live underground! Idk! There's a lot of options!

I kind of doubt Octarians have cities on the surface because if they did, then it would feel redundant for the game to keep coming back to "the Octoling world" being this horrible military regime underground that people try to get to the surface from. If it was that easy to get to the surface it feels odd that it would be a big deal. We know that the Octarian domes, at least in Octo Valley, are specifically an underground *secret* military base.

(*Secret* being explicitly stated before and it would imply that they wouldn't necessarily NEED to live underground, but it's just way easier to do Secret Things underground. Plus the surface is a wasteland so honestly not a lot to lose there.)

We still haven't really seen what they have aside from that. We don't know where they get their food, for example. There's got to be farmers in a society. There HAS TO be some kind of surface access or activity, and if you squint, Octo Canyon IS a surface city that they seem to have free access to. So why not have others? It seems only logical to have more. In this case the oppression of the Octoling world and being forced to stay underground feels really case-specific, but it seems to also be an overarching thing that's quite widespread, so... I don't know, I WANT MORE OCTARIAN WORLDBUILDING *PLEASE* i'm working with crumbs here.

Anyway. my current assumption of the subterranean areas of the Deepsea and the Octarian empire goes something like this, all things considered that I've talked about...

(Not exactly that but you get the general picture)

When you put it this way, it suddenly makes a lot more sense that Octarians would be getting into the Deepsea. Generally I tried to keep the locations of Octarian tunnel systems to their turf, and the locations of Deepsea tunnels under the ocean floor, though with Octarian domes explicitly stated to have been dug by humans there's. really no reason they couldn't stretch into Inkling territory. We have no idea how big these tunnel systems are in scope, NO idea.

And that's also the problem with trying to solve this part of worldbuilding, because my concept could easily be right but it could also be COMPLETELY wrong! It's totally possible that the dome networks are actually secluded and tiny and are *just* under the Octarian craters and nowhere else, and it's totally possible that the entirety of the Deepsea is JUST Kamabo Co and the few settlements surrounding it. I'm not that confident that I'm right but I'm not really confident that we'll get answers to these questions either, at least as long as the story modes keep intentionally avoiding expanding on existing game locations and pretending theyre not in the splatoon world at all by making their key locations abstract and closed off bubbles on purpoCOUGH HACK who said that

There is 1 thing I've completely failed to mention in this post and it's that Octo Valley and the Deepsea Metro are like, explicitly connected. Which by the way makes NO SENSE given they're on opposite corners of the map. But between what we know from Side Order and from this Official Snippet from Splatoon Base, the Official Splatoon Story Resource By Nintendo,

Ignoring that none of this makes sense anymore or is intentionally misleading compared to what we know from Agent 8's memory loss now. Anyway. This seems to just imply the Deepsea is *under* Octo Valley. WHICH WOULD LINE UP WITH SIDE ORDER, weirdly enough. It is possible that the Deepsea domes could actually OVERLAP with Octarian Domes, it's just built FAR under sea level, not bound to the actual location of the sea itself.

I want to point out that this segment in the splatoon base and the game itself and dev interviews all tend to contradict each other in some ways when you look at them side by side, which is frustrating, but also serves as a reminder that sometimes the official resources don't know exactly what they're talking about either. so it's often not worthwhile looking them up and trying to conclude something based on it just to find out that it's literally contradicted in the game itself.

anyway, we know One Thing now and it's that there's at least no way that Octarian domes and the Deepsea AREN'T connected to each other in some way. this post doesn't exactly solve the issue of How but there was an attempt. I don't think this is ultimately something you can come to a concrete foolproof conclusion on until there is more information. But in the meantime I guess there's speculation.

#rambles #squidthoughts

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

sorry i have to brainfart this somewhere but mersault chuuya wearing almost damn near similar clothing to his youth got me thinking about dazai and chuuya's fashion choices.

dazai, in all the eras where he was in the mafia....never changes his outfit. it fitting, given his character and such.....so his ada outfit makes him look like a rainbow. dark blue vest, blue gem(?) bolo tie, striped shirt and a tan coat similar to oda's. i think it's cool, to show the stark contrast between his pm days and how he's faring now, aswell to show how much effect oda had on him.

chuuya.....is the complete opposite. boy changes his clothes all the time. but it's so interesting.

his fifteen outfit is very "him" in a sense. street kid, street kid style- red shirt, grey hoodie, green leather jacket, bright blue sheep armband. he fits right in with the rest of the sheep, and hes so...colorful here. almost similar to ada dazai's outfit. and then theres the outfit he wears in the mafia- the first one we saw back in the manga where he seems to be wearing like a..."beta" version of his current outift- but the way it was drawn (disregarding the anime for a second) it looks like its almost ill fitting for him. the vest is too big, the coat looks so heavy, the tie isnt properly tucked, and his pants are baggy. like hes struggling to "fit in".

then theres sb outfit- hes wearing the standard mafia outfit like higuchi, but with his own touches- rolled up sleeves, glasses tucked in his breastpocket, choker, gloves. its not much, but even higuchi doesnt do anything to hers. we kinda see him "getting into" the mafia work, and theres no pop of color here. the dragon head conflict outift is different though- hes wearing clothes that are "his style" again. simple shirt, jacket, choker, gloves. he also has his red petticoat (i think thats what it is? whatever that long cloth underneath his jacket) that, once again, gives him some color. i dunno what spured the outfit change, but i honestly think the red color is his own touch- his own "color"

and then current chuuya. no color at all, maybe safe from the ribbon on his hat. he wears his coat on his shoulders, similar to pm dazai. (also, slight off tangent here- he always loses his coat whenever hes dealing with dazai?? i think?? which is. interesting. given with how glued pm dazai's coat is to his own shoulders. like he actively takes it off/gets it taken off and i SWEAR this only even happens when hes with dazai. idk. ever since asagiri said beast dazai wearing his coat fully to signify him accepting his role as the pm boss ive been. thinking about it. a lot.)

where was i going with this?? oh yeah. why is mersault chuuya wearing his old clothes?? specifically fifteen clothes? like was it his off day or something. bc if you look at chuuyas various outfit as his progression towards the mafia then him wearing his old non mafia clothes either means two things : 1. this is to signify chuuya, under vampire influnce, is well. obviously not loyal to the mafia atm. or 2. something might happen in the future that makes him swear allegiance to someone else which i dont find possible but??? who knows. im overthinking this

Oh my god I opened my asks to find this monster in here and scrolled through it like ?????????

Please feel free to do this anytime this was an absolute joy to read hahaha

"dazai, in all the eras where he was in the mafia....never changes his outfit." His outfit stays pretty similar, you're right, though he does actually change it once during his mafia days. The left image is the outfit he wears in Fifteen and Stormbringer, while the right is what he wears in DHC and Dark Era.

The difference is the blazer jacket he adds under his coat. It's a minimal change but I think it's significant. I mentioned in this post how I believe the change might be related to his change in pronoun from boku to watashi, but really it's more the added layer of distance that makes this significant. Dazai just looks a little... odd, in the first outfit. The coat hangs off him loosely, his shirt is a little baggy. He looks very boyish, and that makes his deceptive tendencies and deeply concerning outlook all the more disturbing to others.

The second outfit makes one change but his clothes now look like they fit him (still with the exception of the coat, which never fit and never will... in this universe anyways. You mentioned Beast so... you know already hehe). In the case of the second outfit, he looks more mature and formal, which lends itself to a person who withdrew further and further away from people (with the exception of the other two at Bar Lupin); who became a terrifying executive in other's eyes, moving away from the "creepy intelligent child" image he had earlier - even though he is still very much a kid. No one knows Dazai - I think the added image of formality and authority here is just one of the many barriers he constructed to keep people from getting too close.

"so his ada outfit makes him look like a rainbow. dark blue vest, blue gem(?) bolo tie, striped shirt and a tan coat similar to oda's."

hjdfvbdjf rainbow - entering his no longer closeted gay era (sorry lol i couldn't resist)

No but you're right about the coat looking a bit like Oda's. He cared for and respected that man like no other and I think when Dazai thinks of "a good person" Oda is the first person who comes to mind. His shirt in the manga is also stripy like Oda's, a little detail that got lost in the anime. :')

"his fifteen outfit is very "him" in a sense. street kid, street kid style- red shirt, grey hoodie, green leather jacket, bright blue sheep armband. he fits right in with the rest of the sheep, and hes so...colorful here."

Yeah. He looks every bit the street kid and blends with the Sheep near perfectly - more than fitting in though, I think it's more than implied that he wants to fit in and changes his look to do so. Chuuya goes to great lengths to give the appearance of fitting in - because he never felt like he truly did (and certainly the Sheep did not treat him like an equal or a friend).

"and then theres the outfit he wears in the mafia- the first one we saw back in the manga where he seems to be wearing like a..."beta" version of his current outfit- but the way it was drawn (disregarding the anime for a second) it looks like its almost ill fitting for him. the vest is too big, the coat looks so heavy, the tie isnt properly tucked, and his pants are baggy. like hes struggling to "fit in"."

YES you get it!! And adding onto that, Chuuya doesn't really have a lot of reason to want to fit in yet. He hasn't found his personal groove yet, because he has little personal attachment to the mafia at this point in time.

Yeah in Stormbringer he's got a few personal touches but is still pretty non-descript (though you're right, it's much more than Higuchi... something to think about for her character too, and how it seems the mafia may be more of a job than an investment to her). By Dead Apple though, Chuuya's outfit is... well, back to his punk vibes, just a little more mafia-classy, I guess. (I don't know fashion I'm sorry, please don't kill me)

"but i honestly think the red color is his own touch- his own "color""

Red makes a lot of sense as a colour for Chuuya. It's energetic, emotional, fierce and aggressive. It's also considered protective, so yeah it suits him for sure. Red clothes, red ability... red camellias...

"and then current chuuya. no color at all, maybe safe from the ribbon on his hat." Ooo ok. So in the anime, this is true but in the manga, I believe his vest is actually a pale red.

Well. Brown with red undertones. Your point still stands though because the colour is very muted. It's not like Fifteen or DHC Chuuya for sure.

"(also, slight off tangent here- he always loses his coat whenever hes dealing with dazai?? i think?? which is. interesting. given with how glued pm dazai's coat is to his own shoulders. like he actively takes it off/gets it taken off and i SWEAR this only even happens when hes with dazai. idk. ever since asagiri said beast dazai wearing his coat fully to signify him accepting his role as the pm boss ive been. thinking about it. a lot.)"

Oh. Thinking on this. Um. Embarrassed to say - I don't think I noticed that actually. Like obviously he loses the coat a lot and that was already something to think on but... only around Dazai, is that right? Hold on, I'm gonna check.

Ok so my check wasn't super thorough (read: I am too tired and drained to go through each and every panel he appears in) but...

By god, I think you're right.

That's. Hm. I'm going to join you on thinking about that for awhile.

I see the coat as a representation of his role and responsibility he takes on, really, so it's interesting that the formality and symbolism of his service to the mafia gets quite literally discarded in the scenes with his foil and equal. Fascinating.

He's also not wearing it in any of these now infamous panels from Chapter 101:

Huh. Well. Thank you anon. You've just given me a whole new thing to whir about.

"why is mersault chuuya wearing his old clothes?? specifically fifteen clothes?"

Honestly, I'm still waiting to figure this out too.

Because of the purplish hue over this piece of new art, I find it hard to tell what the actual colours of his outfit are but it does look awfully similar to his Fifteen outfit. It could just be his "day-off" outfit but I think there's got to be more to it than that. It could have to do with allegiance, like you suggested. May I also suggest the return to a sense of inhumanity?

These are also the clothes he wore when his journey to find answers on himself began. Might he be entering a new arc where he has to "find" himself again?

I still feel we don't have enough information to make a solid judgement. As the meursault pov continues, I think we'll have a better reason as to why he's dressed like this.

#thanks for the ask! #feel free to dump thoughts at any time whoever you are anon this was so fun #also i'm so annoyed with myself that i didn't notice that bit about the coat earlier but also so happy you pointed that out! #things to think about when i am less tired... #bsd #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #soukoku #skk #storyrambles #as always if i screwed up somewhere... just tell me. rip the bandage off lol

[unicornsaures]

talk. about whatever’s on your mind. aaaanything and everything just in case u needed an invitation to yap today 😻😻

taking this as a excuse to have a yap session about my nonhuman aus because there are SO. many things that are included for very specific reasons(mainly elf laurens cause its my main nonhuman au, but the divinity AU isnt exempt from secret meanings either >:3c) but i just never elaborate on any deeper meanings because technically theyre supposed to be up for interpretation but screw that things are included for very. very specific reasons

OKAY STARTING WITH ELF LAURENS !! Im starting off with his design itself because while its not necessarily a secret, his markings are extremely important to the story because obviously its a massive focus with the whole insecurity thing and attempting to scratch them off so!! In his early design it isnt included, but theres two things i added to either foreshadow things or that make more sense because certain things previously didnt have reasoning. For starters, his voice! I make it *very* clear that Laurens absolutely hates his voice - yknow, with that high pitched nonhuman growl? Theres a reason for that! In my AU, elves arent supposed to have markings on their throat; it fucks with their vocal chords. Yknow who does have a marking on their throat? Thats right, John does! So not only does he have 'two' voices, he also has a big reminder of that just straight in the middle of his throat - so rven if he didnt talk people would know why. Then theres the dots on his head. Thats foreshadowing. Cant tell you what its foreshadowing, but take that information how you will.

Also would like to elaborate on his relationship with Kinloch in the fic because no, Kinloch is not evil or bad or abusive. I try and make it clear that their relationship isnt necessarily healthy, but thats also not Kinloch's fault either way. Its Johns own inability to stabilize his emotions surrounding someone he cares about(ex. begging him to run away with him - when rejected, he runs away himself.) This is a massive mischaracterization of Laurens on my part but like I said in the fic itself, its just me projecting for 4k words. Oh, and he gets that scar on his lip when he's 20 in what i call a 'drinking accident.' Dont ask me to elaborate on that either, John is just a reckless drunk.

Obviously theres the whole art thing, but i think its pretty self explanatory on why hes drawing. I think i stated explicitly it was a coping device but if not i think thats obvious but i never elaborated on his medium of choice; graphite :3!! Its messy. Thats it. He uses the powdered graphite, which i think he would find it was a representation of process rather than product. The point of using graphite is the limited choice of color that only leaves an artist with shades. It also just goes with the theme of his art because idk, hes out here drawing the idea and/or image of death itself in a way its gorey but also gorgeous, so take that as you will.

Also I have had many yap sessions on why exactly John draws the gorey and grotesque but ill save you on insane details and simplify it down to; after his mothers death, he was naturally drawn to the beauty found within something so vile and horrifying.

Okay ive talked all too long aboute the elf laurens thing, so now the divinity AU! There isnt much meaning inside of this other than the very very clear toxic relationship between Alex and John; but its toxic for a reason. As dysfunctional as they may be, they are better of together than apart. Like mentioned in the fic itself, Alex was cruel to his devotees and followers before John came along. I wont go into specifics or anything, he was just cruel. John, on the other hand, was also cruel. Thats why hes a fallen angel, obviously. He fell due to others actions but the reason he followed this other person in the first place is because they were holding something he did over his head, threatening to tell higher deity's and whatnot. But instead, John is a fucking idiot and ended up doing what this person wanted which ultimately ended up in him falling and losing everything. Obviously, this leaves someone scarred because ill just say it, in this AU at least, falling from wherever they may be is not a painless experience.

In turn, he hasn't physically fallen anywhere, but there are physical signs and overall, you can tell by how they act. So, upon finding Alexander - a god, basically - the only other purpose he has in life is to peldge devotion to someone. Hes basically shunned from other angels, and so finding a deity to pledge devotion to is the only thing he can do. Their relationship is not at all healthy. Ive described it as a worshiped/worshiper dynamic because thats what it is. No matter if Alex views John as an equal, Laurens will always view alex as a higher being than he is and in short its a massive power imbalance with how willing John is to bend over backwards for him(ex. ripping off his wings ! Never happens, alex wont physically let him, but like i said, John is willing.) The only reason I say that they should stay together is that other deity's wouldnt stop him from doing this kind of thing. 'Offering your wings to prove your devotion? Yeah, hand em over.' is basically what would happen and it would be 10x more of a corrupted relationship than john and alex have. Alex keeps him in line basically, and John worships him like..well, like the god he is i guess.

Again, this AU is me majorly projecting so take it as you will. But Alex is also completely unaware to why John is a fallen angel anyway. Even being a god, he cant just see peoples sins. He only knows when someone has sinned.

"A shame Alexander may not know his transgressions, he’s sure he couldn't have done much wrong with how much of a pleasure he’s been."

Pulling out the quotes for this story because i personally think its just easier to explain things if its been read.

AND THE BIGGEST THING!!

John nods absentmindedly, leaning into the heat of his palms that make his face contort in a painful type of love.

Its mentioned a few times, but being touched by Alex at all brings physical pain. Mostly because he's not supposed to be touched by a higher being while being a fallen angel, but it also has something to do with the fact he 'swore on his ability to love to prove his devotion.' In short, John didnt think he had the ability to love, much less deserve it. So, being touched by one he fell for brings him physical pain because he shouldnt be supposed to! The love he spoke of when he exempted Alex from this was love a devotee has for their god, not love like as romantic love. Obviously, in a way, he broke his own promise. This is also why the pain goes away after alexander admits he loves him because at that point, 'his god' basically just excused the fact he broke his pledge by announcing any feelings he may have are returned. So yeah! Thats fun.

Anyway, that was my yap session. I talked for way too long uhm..oops! Im not normal about nonhumans :(

#alexander hamilton #amrev #john laurens #historical lams #lams #dolirants #asks #divinity au #nonhuman au #amrev au #tw long post #jesus christ #im so sorry for this

[xsdjkl]

Wanna add my input on the convo of how much of Songbird borg opposed to organic. The main question seems to be about her legs. Two reasons I think they’re organic. One, at the end of her path in Fierstarter when she jumps out of the gate, she hits her ankle, cries out in pain, (and comments about it) then limps to the van. So, she can most definitely feel pain there. Second, during the ride to NCX during The Killing Moon, V has to give her a booster and does so via her right leg. It would make sense that they’d have to be organic for the medicine to work because I doubt they would administer it to an area of cyberware. My natural assumption is that any implants in them would be to help support the weight of the chrome. Now about the rest of her body, it’s kinda tricky because some stuff (like her arms and torso) are most definitely cyberware, so her head is my main interest. We can literally see the plastic covering her chest/torso, meaning she has no skin left in the stomach area either. You can also see the plate covering her neck, meaning she likely doesn’t have skin, but notice how it’s the thickest layer of cyberware? I’m thinking maybe because there’s nerves in her neck. Technically, we know she HAS to have a brain because she’s not an ai, but it’s very likely she has some sort of spine left or bone/tissue around that area which is why it’s so heavily protected. Truth be told, I have absolutely no idea what that little metal plate on her chin does, it’s probably irrelevant but maybe you have an idea? Same goes for the metal sternum, idk why it couldn’t be full plated like the rest of her chest area. All I know is it looks badass lol. As for her face, her ears are gone but she can still hear just fine, meaning her eardrums have to be intact, or if not, there’s something else supporting her hearing. I really REALLY hope her face and cheeks are still organic, her neck isn’t because we can see the plate covering the chrome from behind but truly I hope she can still feel things in that area. She does lean her cheek against V’s hand in that one scene so every bone in my body wants to say that’s because she’s touch starved. (But we all know she is regardless lol.) So that really just leaves the question of where liquid goes when she drinks it. Champagne at the party, water at the spaceport. She’s gotta have SOME sort of throat or throat system to be able to swallow but where the hell does it end up? I HIGHLY doubt you could squeeze any internal organs in that chrome but surely it’s gotta go somewhere. I overthink lol. Anyway, that’s all I can pull from it. 🤷🏻‍♂️ (I’d love to include images but the post is so long it won’t let me lol) Not checking for grammar issues on this one

This is how it feels digging even deeper into topic of Songbird's body😭💙 let's gooo

First - legs. I totally forgot to mention the booster scene, but you're so right!! It struck me too that V applies it specifically in her leg. Another confirmation that they have to organic.

Secondly - I really have no idea what these metal pieces on her chin and sternum serve for. I'm gonna stick with my 'protecting from electromagnetic fields' theory for the lack of better alternative. And it does indeed look badass😌

Third - her face. Weird metaphor perhaps, but it kinda seems to be in 'a frame' of all this chrome? Also, girl still has hair so I'd say it was left untouched by the surgeons.

Also, come on! there's a reason why she leans with her cheek when V touches her. If she didn't feel anything at all, why would she do it??

Fourth - her throat has to work somehow. Maybe it's this thicker part that serves as its replacment?

She may be mostly chrome, but she's still human. Water has to be somehow processed and distributed to rest of her organic body. She wouldn't be alive otherwise. IT HAS TO WORK SOMEHOW.

Okay, now put your tinfoil hat on.

So Mi has to have some nervous connections going from her head throughthe upper body, cause how in the hell would she still feel her legs otherwise?? Also, the mechanical parts have to connected somehow to her brain too if she's able to move them. My guess it's the wires I selected with red colour.

This little engine on her back intrigues me though. These are completely different wires going somewhere inside her body. Also, it changes colour when she connects to the Blackwall. Is this some power junction? Or a generator? Maybe that's where energy from food/water is processed and distributed to her organic parts of the body?

One more thing - there's no way Songbird doesn't have a brain (it sounds quite funny tho XD). She wouldn't be alive otherwise. Remember, even an engram stored on a Relic requires an organic brain to function.

#song so mi #songbird #cyberpunk 2077 #phantom liberty

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

Hey Makenzie! Bookblr ask for you - have you ever read any of the books that Bridgerton is based on? Idk if you ever watched that show but the books are... interesting to say the least. They are all trashy romances set in the historical era (regency era England tho iirc the author is American). I've read a couple of them and they're a bit basic, but you mentioning your tolerance for bad shit in romances did make me wonder if you might like them? Deffo do think they have their moments of joy sparking although there's other questionable shit in them too. Anyway if you do ever check them out I'd love to know what you think of them!

hi! fun question!

I actually haven't delved much into historical romance, with the exception of Alexis Hall's A Lady for the Duke (it's EVERYTHING, very swoony and silly in the best. I wish the last chunk of the book had just been about the duke sucking Viola's dick instead of the very goofy plot that actually happened, but no book is perfect) and KJ Charles' Magpie Lord (it's fine, although I commend the use of jizz magic).

I first started the monthly romance reads last year basically because I wanted to study the genre and figure out how it works, but Romance as a category is so huge that I figured it made the most sense to focus in one area - in my case, popular contemporary romances rather than historical or werewolf stuff or romantasy (again, exception for the Magpie Lord) or whatever's going on in those ones that are about romanticizing the Amish. if I remember correctly, I only branched out to A Lady for the Duke last year as a little pride month treat for myself, because I wanted to get at least one trans romance in for the year (this was back when I thought I was only reading romances for 2023) and that book was really well-reviewed.

I haven't explored into historical romance beyond that. I think maybe it feels a little less interesting to me than contemporary romances for reasons I can't quite place - maybe because the image I have in my head of "historical romance" is very Bridgerton-y, and the particular set of tropes I affiliate with that isn't very compelling to me. say what you will about contemporary romances, but at least it's just a given that women can vote, you know? but I don't know, maybe that's exactly why I should give historicals a chance. I didn't know a lot about contemporary romance either when I first dove in, and now I can complain about them in a way that's way more detailed and informed. I need a theme for my July romance poll; maybe I could celebrate the 4th of July by reading a book about shitty dead white people?

if nothing else I have to say that it compels me that you think I might like Bridgerton specifically because of my high level of shit tolerance, that genuinely makes me more interested in the books than anything good you could say about them.

#bookblr

[aquickstart]

idk how much you still think about major grom but if you have any thoughts on the bird i'd love to see your bingo card for him

omg i think about it a lot actually. not all the time anymore but like a lot more than i thought i would. the reason i stopped keeping up with pd is the in my opinion messy arcs and writing and wasted potential. which brings me to the bird SO neatly

so like. im kind of afraid to say it but. he makes the least sense to me out of all and every bubble universe character (i've read all major series except for meteora). like i don't get him. he's such a major part of literally everything that seryozha does yet somehow i still don't understand his essence. it may be just that i'm foggy on the details, and i believe the newest rubinshtain standalone (FUCKING FINALLY??) gets into the specifics of his interations with the bird essentially fronting sergey, and i haven't read that.

but from MY understanding the bird is the alter ego formed due to seryozha's underlying issues with the self, like the personalisation of his repressed fears and desires. but i'm pretty sure this is not canon. i'm pretty sure the bird is supposed to be an actual separate entity, kinda like kutkh, and i assume this because the bird fought kutkh off in the game arc for seryozha in a "he's my playground and mine only" kinda way. so i literally don't know what to make of him, and because i have a very shaky image of him in canon i cannot consume any fanmade bird content and headcanons because i don't know what feels right.

and this brings me to my main point about how i personally have an impression that there's just SO MUCH wasted potential with the bird. SO MUCH. we've had SO much time with sergey, oleg, and supposedly the bird somewhere in seryozha's head all hanging out together, in one way or another, and i still don't understand anything about him. even after sergey's explanations to lera. even after that. i'm like. cool. what. ok.

in short. to me, as it stands, or at least as it were when i stopped keeping up with pd (around the ragnar arc), the bird is best interpreted as part of sergey that oleg doesn't understand, has never fully understood and never will understand but a part that he still accepts and in part learns to love. to me the bird is essentially something that tells me more about oleg than it does about seryozha, which is kinda crazy to think about but makes sense personally. idk. it's tough. bubble comics i demand a standalone or at least an official ph*bs–v*rontsova-authorized infographic on the bird. pls. here's my 100 rubles

#ask #404-505 #thank u actually out of them all i think of the bird the least to be honest #like i just. god. im lowkey frustrated on his behalf and also because of him too #its crazy #bubble comics #serovolk #kinda #mine

[corpus-chorus]

Hi there! I hope its not too random,i was Always curious to hear if you had favorite hcs regarding mark egos ?

so it's been straight up three months since you sent this and i have once again let an ask I really wanted to answer fester in my inbox for way too long.

Gonna put this one under a read more outta courtesy :]

Okay, but headcanons! I actually don't have a huge amount, since I tend to lean towards strictly canon or just exploring different ideas rather than having specific hcs. But for a few:

Illinois is ace or aroace. I don't remember who I first saw say it right after Heist came out, but I mentioned it to my (ace) wife as an example of what a headcanon was 'cause she didn't really understand them. And then she got really invested in it and now I just have an attachment to it lol. But just, I love the suave, sexy, put together stereotypical adventure hero who's very aware of his charm and sex appeal just having . . . zero interest in pursuing it. The whole "married to the work" and especially the line "Sorry if you fell in love with me - they always do". It just makes me happy lol.

Dark isn't anywhere near as strong as he pretends to be. I was such a Dark whore in like 2017/2018, but the more time I spent exploring him as a character, the more he really started to shape into this manipulative posturing thing, and I just really like the idea of him not actually being that strong. So much of his position and "strength" comes from his reputation and image instead of things he's actually done. And even if he is still strong, he'd be disincentivize to show off just how strong, since others being afraid of how strong he might be based off rumor and image is better than someone realizing they might be stronger than him. Idk if that makes any sense, but god I just love the idea of all of Dark being a lie XD

Bim Trimmer is a cannibal. I literally cannot unsee this one. This motherfucker just has teeth filed to points in my head and eats people. Zero idea why, that's just . . . that's just his entire character to me. Markipler-flavored Hannibal Lector.

#ryo rambles #markiplier egos #headcanon #idk man i've never been much of an hc person myself #but there are a few things that just live rent free in my head #headsquatters if you will #ryo's writing rambles

[hella1975]

IM ONE OF YOUR MUTUALS I HOPE YOU RECOGNIZE MY WAY OF TEXT CUZ I WANNA SHARE W YOU HOW TAMS URSA/ZUKO MAKES ME FEEL WITHOUT PUBLICLY EMBARRASSINGLY TALKING ABT MY LIFE. LMAO. BUT ALSO UGHHHH IS THIS PARASOCIAL??? let me know I will back the fuck off. anyways. idk if you have plans to mention Ursa more for tams but like the stuff that was done will HAUNT ME. Like, azulas reactions to her mother remind me of my sibling and zuko was me, sibling was so angry with my mother for what she did to us and their fights got nasty and I guess I reacted like. a child. Idk how else to say it I think I was just a child with a sibling I wanted close even though we'd fight just as bad and a mother I wanted to take care of me. Instead I took care of my mother a lot, it often came to me to convince her to leave her bed. When ursa asked zuko to her room /"my precious boy" scene, I... SOBBED, because my mother did that to me and zukos joy and shyness was literally me. Like my mother's good days were incredibly incredibly few and far between and they were fickle but I always remembered them specifically, I would get giddy with her and it'd feel like change and when it wasn't I became depressed. My sibling became more angry and distrustful from them, they were much smarter like azula while my high hopes kept crashing. I just really want to say that because I resonate SO DEEPLY, with tams ursas story actually soooo so acutely and the only way I can really say that is by explaining how real they feel to me. I left stuff out cuz uhhhhhh this is already really intimate and I feel bad I'm doing this as anon JJDNWKE 😭 SORRYYYYY SORRY. I love tams and actually for real that ursa shits stuck with me ever since I read it <3 im haunted. thank you

YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME AND NOT TELL ME WHICH MUTUAL YOU ARE YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT BY THE LAWS OF MUTUALSHIP YOU COULD LITERALLY UNLOAD YOUR ENTIRE LIFE STORY AND ID BE NODDING ALONG ENRAPTURED HELLO

'idk if you have plans to mention Ursa more for tams' she is literally one of the main characters imo like the impact she has on zuko and azula is topped only by the impact they have on each other. i consciously write the fire sibs around the images of themselves they have in their head CREATED BY URSA. azula sees herself as cold, calculated and inhumane and her entire arc sees her grappling with that image; all things ursa viewed her as. zuko sees himself as the protector to honour his mother's last words to him, but he's haunted by the gentle, scared boy his mother loved so much. it literally punctuates their entire character arcs and becomes huge as tams goes on. reading your ask is just so heartaching, because it really is so so similar to tams (and that's actually going to increase as we go so be wary of that). no child should have the world dumped on their shoulders even by hands trying very hard to be gentle. i hope you can acknowledge that you were a child and your behaviour would have reflected that. if not, at the very least i hope you find ways to make sense of it as tams goes on x

#thank you for this ask <3 it's not too intimate or parasocial dw it's very touching to hear as a writer that i've impacted someone #especially when i write about things that i resonate with emotionally but personally haven't actually experienced #like it's sort of like getting a good grade in writing lol like 'well done you wrote this to feel real despite only being an observer' #so yeah please please dw and if you want to come off anon u know id talk about any facet of tams until the two-headed cows come home ;) #ask #tams asks

[cubedmango]

hi!! i just wanted to let you know that i started reading cherry magic in july last year after seeing the anime announced on toyota-sensei's twitter! i couldn't even rlly translate the announcement myself without the help of google translate LMAO but her illustration of them looked so sweet i had to snoop around. more than half a year later. i am no longer normal and my brain is fully rotted over and i think of those two nearly every waking moment!! your art, along with so many others feeds me and your translations are So Appreciated thank you for doing gods work. i usually don't get super involved in fandom or w/e other than consuming fanart or fics so the fact i find myself actually drawing them is so new to me...idk cherry magic really is so refreshing and it's just nice as an adult to see a mature relationship between two working adults. there are callbacks to childhood or childlike behaviors or interests sprinkled throughout the manga's dialogue and i always appreciated how they weren't seen as embarrassing or immature to embrace or learn from as an adult, but encouraged or seen as a valuable part of balancing work, life, and love. idk it's def one of the more subtle and less expanded upon parts of it but i love how adachi's and kurosawa's love of manga, though seen as a children's activity (from how kurosawa thought people saw it) was actually one of their first mutual hobbies. it's also interesting to see how many things about kurosawa's psyche are remnants of ideas probably for a lack of better wording, were taught to him from an early age. his self-image, how he tries to uphold certain societal standards, etc etc. im glad he found refuge in adachi that way. im sorry for rambling for so long but i've just been thinking about these two so much ldks

anon pls u never have to apologize for rambling abt my fav guys of all time, u should actually talk w me about them more i want to hear ur thoughts !! the eng speaking fandom isnt that big (or at least i dont get to interact w a lot of ppl personally) but its fun making art and doing the translations for my blorbos so im happy other ppl enjoy it too 🥺

and yess everything u said abt the childlike/immature stuff krdc enjoy like the fact that their interest in manga and stuff is never made fun of or anything (which would be ironic anyway since theyre In a manga themselves fdkjskf) but actually one of the things that gets them closer is So good augh?? (also spoilers for the radio drama if u havent seen it yet, but to me one of the best changes they made was changing the port scenes setting to an anime con instead like Yeah!! theyre little nerd guys of course theyd attend a con!!!! that plus how they both like watching animated movies and playing games too like its a very specific thing to Me but that relatability w stuff i do myself makes them both feel a lot more human? if that makes sense)

also w kurosawas whole deal its Definitely a longterm thing hes had for a while, and in canon its mostly been his friendships/relationships that affected him (probs the most clear in ch45 my beloved) but from the way the meeting w his parents went theres for sure a lot of parental/family pressure involved too?? this is going into hc territory but i have like a whole Thing brewing in my head about kurosawas and maris relations w their parents and how that affected their self image and all growing up too and i rlly wanna make stuff for it someday (idk if anyone would be interested but id probably do it regardless so fkdjksjfk)

#the full idea actually is for a whole mari spinoff as like a fic or smth bc i care her immensely . but that is ambitious even for me lol #i have Thoughts about these siblings though like their issues intrigue me so bad. so much wrong w them i need to pick apart #and similarly w adachi being a child of divorce like! thats got to have influenced him right. i Have To Know #i think about these charas a normal amount as u can tell 👍 #my answer

[ghostwriterofthemachine]

I love ur fics! u have great taste in fandoms and I had a question about that bnha fic where aizawa reads school reports on his students? somehow I got really attached to sero hanta of all characters lol, why do u think he has a fear of medical stuff? sorry to bother! <3

omg hi!!!! Please never apologize for coming into my askbox and asking about my fics, it is literally always welcome and makes my day!!!! <3

sero :D In my experience, that genre of really chill kid usually has at least one thing which they are deeply, irrationally, will-panic-punch-someone-in-the-face-not-to-deal-with terrified of, and I made Sero's medical stuff/doctors for a couple of reasons. The first is that I think that particular fear is one a lot people develop without having one great inciting incident of trauma, if that makes sense. A lot of people are terrified of the doctor without being able to point at the exact moment they became terrified of doctors, in a way that is often not true of people who are scared of, say, dogs or drowning.

I also think it would drive Sero crazy that he is so scared of a normal, necessary thing, because he seems to have such a good head on his shoulders. I thought it would be fun to give him something he could be scared about to the point of complete avoidance, also be very annoyed that he's doing that.

However, while I don't think Sero knows why he has such an adverse reaction to medical stuff, on a deeper level, I chose it because I think that bnha (particularly with some recent manga revelations) has set up a world where someone whose Quirk makes their body look different would be constantly Aware of that. You're aware your body is different, you're aware of the space you take up and how it's different from other people, you're aware that people might be looking at you and Aware of these things as well at any given time. And I think that kind of awareness might lead to a fear response towards someone who is definitely very carefully observing you, and drawing conclusions/"judgements" from those observations. It pulls all that latent, subconscious, systematic-stemming fear and puts it right in the forefront in a way that makes his brain go "nope nope nope no nO" and then try to just. avoid the situation altogether.

AND!!! idk the image of Sero specifically going from "reasonably composed" to "shaking crying oh-god-don't-touch-me" when approached by a field medic after a big battle to deal with a concussion or something is. very compellingly angsty to me.

I hope this was a good explanation :D thank you so much for the ask!!! <3

#mha #sero hanta #ask #bi-bim-timmer #headcanon #fic things #my fic #seriously anyone come into my askbox and ask me character things at any time

[dekusleftsock]

This is just a quick train of thought post but I still wanna share it

Either way I’ve seen this phenomenon where people hate the mha fandom because of how shippy it is. People want to act like bc this shonen then that means romance hardly exists. But you’ve got to understand how fandom EVOLVES!

I’ve not been in this fandom for long. Maybe since October of 2021. But I HAVE been in other fandoms before. Fnaf, undertale, and Minecraft come to mind first. (The old and new mc fandom btw, yes I watched dsmp. I don’t like the creators now but the fandom taught me how to analyze storytelling so ??? Idk how to feel about the fandom with my fondness lmao) And after a bit of research, pre-existing knowledge I have of the internet as a whole, and a TON of thinking and mulling it over in my head, I’ve come to my personal conclusion of why THIS FANDOM SPECIFICALLY gets so much hate and is so “shippy”.

The actual reason the fandom itself is so focused on ships and characters is because horikoshi writes characters well. Simple as that. It’s a character driven show, and compared to other shonens that’s a bit out of character for a show of the “genre”.

Anyway, let’s give a bit of background to the general internet. Up until about I wanna say, 2018? The internet was really really bad. The main social platforms running the show were YouTube, instagram, Reddit, and Twitter. Tiktok wasn’t exactly a thing, it was musically or however it’s spelled. 4chan was also still relatively popular as was tumblr. Tumblr is an interesting character during this time but I’ll get into that.

The general ideas of the internet were all relatively “right leaning” and cringe culture was still VERY rampant. This is because when the internet and, more specifically, the gaming community was being born the alt right communities that were pretty small migrated to the internet. This made a trade off: in exchange for organizational power they now had more reach. That’s why nazis and bigots have always been so common on the internet. It’s also why a lot of our amab siblings, children, uncles, etc in their teen years were so far gone into the alt right pipeline. It directly targets young white boys who like video games. YT created a lot of parasocial relationships by letting those people get the platforms they did. (I recommend watching “the alt right play book” by innuendo studios, they voice this better than I did)

The anime community, parts of the art community, 4chan/Reddit, and political spaces online were filled to the brim with nazis due to this phenomena.

And here’s comes tiktok. A platform who just gave themself a brand new face and name ready to start the trend of shorter videos instead of images or longer videos. At first, we still have the remnants of the alt right with the furry vs gamer war specifically, and then comes vsco girls. And you know what’s so weird about this trend? They TRIED to memeify it, they TRIED to shame women into not getting metal straws, into not dressing in the certain style. But it was a turning point in the entire worlds political spectrum. More specifically, gen y and gen z.

This was the start of a “new era” on the internet. And TikTok’s algorithm is probably the best one I’ve ever fucking seen! It was able to completely cut people off from different ideas and parts of the platform, while simultaneously sharing content that would make people argue. This, was tiktok 2020. BLM happened as a trend (blm has been around for a lot longer than tiktok, it was just a trend on the platform itself), trumps rallies happened. For the first time organization on a platform fucking worked. It was what the alt right WANTED to do, but never could.

Now, why am I saying all of this? Because tiktok opened the gate to fandom. For the first time since I’ve been on the app, (and I was on in 2018) fandom has started to pop up more. Toh and some anime communities have gotten more popular there.

But given this context, it starts to make sense why people HATE that it’s so shippy. Tumblr was the weird kid of the internet for a long time, and as that’s shifted to being 4chan, I’ve got to say that shipping and the mha fandom (along with other more known “toxic” fandoms) has gotten to a point where it’s more socially acceptable. And since a show like stranger things can now have a fandom, I can solidly say that fandom has become more mainstream because TIKTOK is mainstream.

So, yeah, people hate fandom and more specifically the mha fandom because of nazis. Cringe culture still exists and it’s kinda hard to not think a fandom that’s already been painted as terrible is actually, not all that bad. It’s like literally every other fandom. Stranger things has the same problems we do, death note has the same problems we do. Mha is not an exception.

#fandom #fandom culture #mha analysis #fandom analysis #mha deku #midoriya izuku #bkdk #bkdk brainrot #bakudeku #bakugou katsuki #bnha deku #deku midoriya #mha bakugou #mha katsuki #togachako #toga himiko #uraraka ochako #izuocha #afo #bnha afo #bnha ochako #first ofa holder #mha spoilers #death note #stranger things #byler

[11x13kyle]

when you picture the characters in your head like aged up or in the mcau or whatever - just I mean as more fully formed adult humans - can you picture real human faces for them? if so, do any of them resemble celebrities to you? I’m just curious like what 30 year old stan looks like to you… idk maybe I’m talking shit lol. do I make sense? I’ll tell you one of mine to get the ball rolling. to me, kenny’s base face is like a late90s/early2000s tom delonge from blink 182 . like I’d add a few freckles and some blonde hair in a different style for sure, but that base face structure is him to me. like a basic, soft, kind looking face. DO I MAKE SENSE HERE 11X13KYLE ? thanks bye 😑

personally i find it really hard to place them to celebrities!!! like i have visions in my head of how they look but they’re so specific that any celebrity who i think they could theoretically look like is never good enough for my impossible standards </3 also re tom delonge my mental image of kenny is different but i VERY much see your vision and where you’re coming from!!

#asks #microceleb au #<- kind of

[lewiscarrolatemybrain]

“I’m going to make an AU that is so Doesn’t Make Sense” but for some reason the idea of a Shadow’s House AU has just reared its head and absolutely consumed my brain

We can give courtesy names to the Dolls and full names to the Shadows, so Lan Zhan is the shadow and Wangji is the Doll.

Wuxian had been pestering Wangji since the moment they met cleaning the great hall, chattering endlessly about pointless empty frivolous things that go against their teachings. A Living Doll Must Not Think Such Worthless Things! Lan Zhan is Not looking forward to meeting the doll that has his Wangji tied in so many knots.

Then of course on the day of their debut, Wei Ying immediately sticks himself to Lan Zhan and is just as much of a pest as his doll!!! Who, it must be mentioned, is hardly a proper doll at all!!! Wuxian is excellent at serving as Wei Ying’s face, at least, but he wanders off!! A face leaving behind its body!! And — more scandalous than words can describe — at one point, Wuxian even tries to SPEAK. In public! While he is actively serving as his shadow’s face!!

And Wei Ying sees nothing wrong with this!!!!!

Lan Zhan and Wangji DESPISE them

(Except that of course they don’t.)

Something something everybody passes their debut, learn about Soot Powers, and suddenly Wei Ying and Wuxian start. Acting strange. They’re asking dangerous questions, saying things that are… very wrong. Shadows House is absolute! Wangji and Lan Zhan both try to talk to them, convince them to stop this, stop fighting, to come back to the side of the Shadows House where they belong.

Somehow, We Ying gets selected to move up to the second floor. Idk why Lan Zhan and doesn’t. Maybe something to do with soot powers? Or maybe they both did, but Wei Ying’s bracket went first?

Idk. But I have this very specific image in my head of — they know, now, how a Shadow becomes an adult. They know how this works, and Wuxian tearfully tells Wei Ying that it’s okay. They need to do this. They have a chance to protect the dolls and shadows coming through behind them. They know what Shadows House is, they know about the horror that lurks here, now, but that doesn’t do them any good if they both die in this box.

It’s okay, Wei Ying. It’s okay. I love you, and one of us needs to survive this. One of us needs to get out of here.

… Wei Ying unifies with Wuxian. He enters the adult wing with intent to destroy Shadows House from the inside.

Something goes wrong? He gets caught, maybe? Something something this AU’s version of the confession-get-lost incident only it’s Lan Zhan and Wangji both watching in horror as shadows roll across Wei Wuxian’s face, realizing that Wuxian is dead and Wei Ying took over his body and Lan Zhan is expected to do the same to Wangji if they enter the Adult Wing.

They ultimately stay in the Children’s Wing (due to 33-lashes-induced injury?) and lead the Star Bearers, taking care of the younger shadows and their dolls. The Junior Quartet lead the revolution.

#mdzs #the untamed #Lan Wangji #Wei Wuxian #Shadows House #I’ll do art for this tomorrow probably

[mallowstep]

hopefully this isn’t a bother, but you say you believe dnis are ableist. can you explain? i’m not very active on here so if you have ive missed it.

I was going to write you up a whole little essay about this I really was

But look dnis suck. Right now my brain keeps misfiring because my shoulder fucking HURTS and it’s either be aware of it or just. Fuck. Keep losing my train of thought and what I was doing and what’s going on. As I keep doing.

Uh. Fuck.

Right okay. Sorry my back hurts.

So a DNI expects me, someone who can string a sentence together but like. Not exactly flawlessly or easily. Expects me to either. Remember who a post is by. And if I’m allowed to reblog or. Ai y’know what lemme. Mentally.

So dni means. Supposed to either remember who it is and if allowed. Or check. Pretend best case it’s a pinned post. Read post. Maybe I know everything on it the it’s easy. Maybe not tho. Maybe has acronyms or issues I don’t know or understand. Or maybe not topic I think important. Or maybe I never talk abt it. But have opinion. Wouldn’t know that.

So read and understand and figure out if I fit. Maybe I don’t use labels the same way. It’s hard. Don’t call myself by labels very often but dnis focus on labels. I only have specific beliefs not fancy word groups. what am I supposed to do. No one ever explains.

I. Fuck. Where am I going. Not great. Okay. Read it have to understand. Maybe I know. If I know ok. Remember what I wanted to do? Maybe? Head hurts. Why bother. Maybe I don’t know how I’m anxious. Hurts bad. Before dnis I assume they block me if they don’t like me. So. Now can’t. All this very time consuming very hard to think about. And just for one post. Just to like one post.

Best case scenario also. Not covering. Uh. Not covering other things. Hard to find links. Inaccessible images. “Standard dni” don’t know what that means no one agrees what it means. Carrds.

And the virtue signaling. If only put fandom issues on dni — does that mean don’t care abt other issues? No but better put all things here. Just in case. Not making a statement isn’t allowed. Doesn’t matter what or why you need to cover it all.

Uh. Right. Uh and anxiety. Some things I have an opinion on. Whole subject banned though. Won’t tell u what. Only talk in private with people I trust. Important to me. But silent. Everything on internet not for sharing. Block people who disagree with me on subject but not on dni.

These parts aren’t ableism as much. Argue bicker etc. point is dnis are work you the user has to do. Not okay. Really. Too much. I need to. It’s taken me. Idk how much time. Lots of time to write this. Should’ve taken less. Want to go on tumblr without this. Want to go on tumblr like reblog not worry about things.

That’s how I use tumblr actually. Don’t worry abt dnis. Other users they block me that’s fine. Can’t remember things. Can’t use tumblr like that. So don’t.

Right hope this makes sense. Maybe someone who can. Maybe someone who is maybe feeling better can add on. Or smthn. Idk I’m. Losing it.

#mine #ask #anon #discourse #maybe #idk

[basuralindo]

✨🎊NEW FIC JUST DROPPED🎉✨

I know I said I was probably gonna have a tiny hiatus, buuut I ended up writing a bunch to cope instead, so here it is!

Yes, I mean the OctaViper pirate au, the one I've been bitching about for like a week or something, the one I told myself "this is a self indulgent, back burner type thing, I'm just gonna have fun and not stress about it" about, and then proceeded to get super invested in research and spent hours of my life tryna make it period accurate. That fic. My beloved, horrible child that has given me nothing but trouble yet I'm still so excited to send it out into the world. Please enjoy this dumbshit pain in my ass.

Gonna be adding some thoughts and ref images under the cut, you're gonna wanna read the chapter first. Here there be spoilers.

First off, their ships.

Jamil's ship, The Scarab (reference to Scarabia), is a Baghlah dhow, a relatively light speedy cargo ship mainly used by people of the Arabian peninsula. Some references for the structure and style:

Azul's ship, The Sea Witch, is a spanish Galleon. They outweigh Baghlahs by several hundred tons, armed to the teeth, and while not as fast as a Baghlah, still surprisingly fast for what is just an overall monstrosity of a ship. There's no examples for the specific color scheme and decor, but here's an idea of the general size and over the top style:

They're just generally Extra™. So is pirate Azul.

Speaking of extra, the outfits!

-Jamil wears mostly traditional Sands clothing, in his signature red black and gold, but more decked out than average in order to display the wealth and status of the family he represents. There's also some western influence to the fashions due to trade and culture sharing. He absolutely takes any excuse to dress fancy because Jamil is not immune to wanting nice things.

-The pirates have clothing accumulated from all over the world, which they mix and match depending on preference. Azul accumulates ridiculous amounts of wealth, and the crew ends up with a lot of extra spending money, so taste and practicality are the only limits. Of which Azul has none.

-Floyd mismatches whatever he likes the look of and finds comfortable. So mostly loose fitting stuff in fun colors, and items he finds impressively well crafted. I just kinda wrote out what he'd probably wear piece by piece and it turned into just, classic Pirate™ aesthetic, but I'm just gonna roll with that. You cannot convince me that, without an enforced dresscode, he and Jade would dress remotely alike.

-Azul goes for wealthy high fashion styles from influential western countries (inspired mainly by french, spanish, and italian fashions), because those give the impression of high status. Basically the era equivalent of a three piece suit with fedora and cummerbund. He's very much in peacock mode in this chapter, and went all out with the fancy. I'm kinda basing the look on his masquerade costume, but with some adjustments for the era, like the cavalier hat instead of a tricorn and a more typical cut of overcoat.

-Jade likes to look quiet and reserved just to fuck with people, kinda following along with whatever fashion kicks Azul goes on. He intentionally stays in Azul's shadow the way an ambush predator stays in a hole in the rocks.

-Jamil having an english last name didn't make sense in context, so I gave him the nearest arabic translation of Viper. Khabith is a more vague concept that implies evil/malicious/venomous/underhanded/etc., and is used as a term for venomous snakes as well. There isn't a more specific word for viper that I know of, besides clarifying "'afea khabith", but the implications of Khabith play into the plot I have in mind. Also I just enjoy how it combines with the name Jamil (beautiful) to mean something like "dangerously beautiful", very fem fatale vibes.

Side characters:

-Idk why with the cousins, it just popped into my head and I went with it. It's fun to explore possible family dynamics with Jamil. Their names mean Wisdom (Hakim), and Bravery (Jasur), because I felt like keeping to the theme of descriptive names.

-I love the idea of a monster pirate crew, and I love coming up with Creatures, especially nonhuman people. So I'm just having a great time making shit up for Azul's crew. The harpy is my favorite. She's not a reference to anything twst related, I just wanted to write about a harpy. I'm obsessed with this side character. I'm also excited to eventually talk more about the Very Ugly Man because there is a backstory to him and it cracks me up a lot.

-I really enjoyed making Azul this punchable. I actually really like enemies to lovers as a trope, but have never gotten around to writing it until now, even in original works for some reason. This is still pretty one sided as far as enemies go, because it's still Azul after all, but I'm having a great time and I hope I can pull it off well

-Idk what else to say here, I'm just really excited about this story. I wanted to let these bastard fish be awful creeps, I wanted to do an enemies to lovers thing, I wanna write about the ocean, I'm having fun, and I hope everyone else can enjoy this as much as I do

#twst fic #ashenviper #octaviper #floyd/jamil #jade/jamil #twst pirate au #twisted wonderland #chapter babble

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sending an ask to engage with what you were saying was a random impulse but im happy to see you respond and give it thought, definitely wouldnt mind sending more since this is an interesting topic :3 glad you dont mind... it can be weird being a detached observer of somebody elses life specifically if they are uncomfortable with the idea of it. i think the reason i jump to using the word "oversharing" is that talking a lot generally has a negative connotation for me because i have negative experiences with talking a lot and being ignored. i guess one of my main insecurities? so maybe i dont have the same type of accidental charisma because im too obviously desperate/curating myself too much, idk. marketing myself as a persona isnt necessarily a good goal to have so maybe sharing myself in more private spaces is for the best (not like i dont compulsively share to anyone who will listen anyway)

also being the way that i am i dont appreciate the observers/audience i DO have enough because im constantly looking for evidence of it. kind of a never enough situation. i definitely think i just have to let it go & if it happens it happens. actually, i do have a decent chance of gaining a following over my art, and when i got more interactions i swear it was when i drew more, so i guess that is part of whats happening with you. art drawing people into somebodys persona or something? i wonder if part of it is just like, when scrolling the dash peoples attention is caught more by images so it makes somebody more likely to get invested. but i think your art has a lot of personality and its what personally made me interested in following your blog so i guess the art is just like, one piece of the whole of a "persona"

diving into the pure psychological sense… going to put the entirety under a read more.

leans back, in the "contemplating therapist" pose and aura. This is a distinct position for anyone familiar.

forgive - me - in the event of bad perspective. entirely: i am not a medical professional, and if these woes are Distorting your life into an unhappiness (ability to function, socialize, that ilk) on a regular basis, either from the 'expected' of bi-weekly to the 'constant' of daily - internet guidance should be an appetizer, at best…!! while a peer's view is quite different from a, "Went to college for half-decade for this particularity" employee, they are both helpful -

but I don't mean. "Go to a therapist," because: i minimized my daily-distortion of BPD (fond Bitch Personality Disorder) thru worksheets, pamphlets, scientific texts. this conversation between us is 'improper' text, ""Uneducated"" but it is not without merit. I just don't want the existence of only two options - "[symptom of mental disorder] reddit" or "therapist that specializes in [mental disorder]" in an analogy. There are a plethora of ways to better yourself - "so maybe sharing myself in more private spaces is for the best" cannot be the single possibility. i believe in you - broaden yourself, and do not hastily imprison yourself to Any distraught for the easy answer, "better in the long run"

what you desire is evident. That is a crucial first step, and your life is measured in the thousands of footprints. Time is here for you - there is no real clock, rather, you know where your satisfaction is in space. Be proud of self-awareness, of identifying desire, these are inch forwards.

now, your path forks - "can i transfigure that want, into something 'healthier," "is there a healthier route to that want," and how exciting is that…! how to min-max pain and pleasure, that is the basis of all species. and if the decision solidifies further into, "i have to go home, i have to let this all go," that is the first option. there is no shame in release.

that is my thought on. "insecurity," and i hope - even if very inaccurate, maybe Inappropriate, your reaction of 'that's wrong!' strengthens what you know to be true.

[head on desk] That's a heaviness…! not on you. This could've been a very simple answer. I'm strange and chattery, for I don't talk IRL and only online. At least, in length…

ART…! art is eye-catching. It is intrinsic. Of course, my artwork pulls people in (but I captured attention b4 I started, as I only began in winter 2020, blah) for any colorful stimuli it kickstarts the brain. Nervous symptom responses.

(i don't think it provokes the sympathetic nervous system SPECIFICALLY, but i'm not abt to rabbit-hole myself into certainty. sensory is prolly also incorrect, just in a 'less wrong' kind. i'm singling out nervous specifically, as the 'colorful'ness of art prolly agitates the body first into, 'is this a toxic plant' survivalism and NOT the visual aesthetics of being 'pleasing to the brain,' i think that's a secondry concern, aaaand i'm rambling abt special interest SORRY)

word-of-mouth, 'reblogs,' or searches is how people notice the un-art. Fanfic writers. Clever meta. Observations. Diary-ing. to 'appeal,' you have to either - as mentioned previously - change yourself, or redirect your goal - but for less extensive… Journaling via pen-and-paper, or a notes app, is easy in THEORY but difficult in PRACTICE. these don't fulfill the, 'exchange,' because journals and notes are private. However. These are good practices. Writing onto yourself sharpens the ability to communicate, your dialect - there's a difference of 'early' ramblings here to current ones. (admittedly, a, 'there's been developments in psychosis,' is a portion rather than True improvement, but it's not a singularity)

review sites i.e letterboxd and backloggd serve similarity, but are dedicated to movies/video games respectively. And, they center around either criticism, or humor - which isn't what you want… you want your natural self to be attractive. I do think you could find enjoyment outside, and it can be good fun or a learning exercise finding out that You Hate Writing Meta.

#i ramble ★ #talk tag