#i've thought about it before this

[felsicveins]

I'm so lonesome all the time

Some sweet day

Gonna take away

This hurting inside

#trolls #trolls 3 #it would have been so dark if floyd wasnt able to sing at the end of the movie #but wouldnt that have been interesting #i almost thought thats what they were doing with lonely people cause i didnt think troye sounded that good ... 👀 #trolls band together #dreamworks trolls #floyd trolls #trolls floyd #Brozone #velvet and veneer #this was originally and idea i had that involved assistant creek au but .. i think its nice on its own #I've never added a song on a post before!!! #i have a lot of thoughts about floyd. none of them coherent and all of them very very sad #Spotify

[nxctrns]

....So uh. Transistor au vashwood anyone?

#trigun #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #vashwood #I've had like one thought about this au and how well it would fit these two and then i forgot about it for a few days #until i was watching a video that used transistor's ost #after that it was a blur and before i knew it #this appeared on my csp canvas

[wistfulwatcher]

#just a knight looking to her queen for approval

#yellowjackets #yellowjacketsedit #mistynatedit #otp: you should be thanking me #otp #mine #edit #* #evidence* #category* #p r o o f #i love parallels #parallel* #2k #1k #me before the finale: i'm fine with no real teen mistynat dynamic tbh #me after the finale: UNFOLLOW ME RN THIS IS ALL I'M GONNA TALK ABOUT FOR A YEAR #literally like...they CAME FOR ME with the knight/queen dynamic #tbh i still don't think knowing this really changes how i've thought about them or their dynamic #(bc esp with the 'first' antler queen thing like i don't see nat being special to misty as BECAUSE she was queen) #but i LOVE that the seed of it was like a literal pledge of loyalty #anyway i wanna write 5000 fics about misty seeking approval from nat #(also this knight/queen dynamic is giving me MAJOR sq vibes and i'm emotional)

[deafening-radio-silence]

I think that Dr. Christina "I was an excellent soldier" Raynor needs to deal with some personal things before she's anyone's therapist, because she strong-armed more of Bucky's autonomy away from him than Zemo did within the series.

#yeah man make amends for the shit that happened when you didn't even have control over your own thoughts #so she was giving him a way to “fix things” but that wasn't on him to do so #all she did was doubly reinforce what he already thinks - which is a justified but false and guilt-laden perception - about the situation #idk much about therapy but i don't think that they're sposed to do that. correct me if i'm wrong and then i'll go fight all therapists #bucky barnes #tfaws #alpine #my art #thank you for putting up with my drawings of a comic book character and his asshole cat lol #i had to put my dog down recently in a bad way and i can't rightfully get another house dog with my current work schedule #so i got a cat since they can handle being inside for the day and the shelter lady said she's super antisocial towards other cats #she's super antisocial towards me sometimes too but she sleeps on me at night and my house has never been cleaner #now that i have to vacuum cat fur and mind what i leave lying on the counter #i've never liked cats before but she's special i guess idk ain't everyone's cat special lol #anyway i'll stop using my tumblr blog as a blog now lol

[itsdefinitely]

um mmm umm umm c can you maybe possibly perhaps draw grace/steph/ruth . like as a ship ,,. ..

"ruth has two hands for a reason!" -ruth, probably

#id in alt text #grace chasity #stephanie lauter #ruth fleming #nerdy prudes must die #hatchetfield #today i learned that grace's last name is chasity and not chastity and all the references to chastity are technically puns #i genuinely thought her name was chastity #and just accepted that #anyway. i realize now that this is the second time i've been asked to draw a ship and i just drew them holding hands #forgive me i swear i can draw them in other ways #but boy jerry and girl jeri are getting to me. hand holding is as far as they get before they start to be SINFUL #sorry for making that about the jeri/rys but you know. #actually im NOT sorry this is a jeri/ry post now

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

Hello may 31th anon! Look at that, another year behind us and a new one to come. Have a nice day! ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡

#may 31th anon #hello friends!! (｡’▽’｡)♡ how are you!! I missed you so much! #I'm sorry that once again i have not been posting but I did that thing again where I got scared of posting #I do not know why but it is the same with physical paper diarys #I have 3 diarys and they all have 1 entry #I think one just says 'I am ten' #what have you been up to!! did you do something fun? is it summer too where you live? c: #my tumblr messages seem to be broken! I'm sorry if you wrote something :C it just says 'no new messages' despite also saying new messages #not a lot has happened here! I got a tomato plant and then I got very invested into the tomato plant and I have eaten three tomatos so far ( #my roses are also doing well!! I just got a new yellow rose and since she got here she only made orange flowers #I do not know the meaning of that #but I am very thankful! ( ˊᵕˋ )♡ I love it when things are orange!! #I've been trying to buy an orange shirt for the past 2 weeks but they always sell out before I get to them #I'm also thinking about buying a jean jacket #I have not worn a jean jacket for at least 15 years because one time in 7th grade tthe girl behind me said #that I was wearing a cool jean jacket and I just assumed that this was bullying for no actual reason #but maybe she just thought that it was an acutal cool jean jacket #we'll soon have out 10 year school reunion #maybe I should ask her #is anyone else going to a secret Sherlock phase again #I just want to see that silly little hat again #would sherlock holmes wear a jean jacket #have a nice day everyone!! #see you soon hopefully!! #♡＾▽＾♡

[laufire]

jason's lazarus pit was golden jason's lazarus pit was golden jasonslazaruspitwasgolden jason's lazarus pit was golden JASON'S LAZARUS PIT WAS GOLDEN

AND PIT MADNESS IS *NOTHING*

#can't you read the TWO universally accepted good jason stories #(utrh and lost days) #they're good jason's there. the pit? gold. the madness? NOT FUCKING REAL #your story? WORSE FOR NOT KNOWING THIS #talking to the void #my thoughts #fandom nonsense #dc comics #jason todd #before someone comes at me about how people can write what they want and canon isn't sacred and blah blah #yeah i know. you'll notice I'm ranting about this in my personal blog! instead of leaving it in someone's inbox! #in my personal blog i can say express my own opinions! #and my own opinion is that the pit madness trope SUCKS and if you use it your jason writing is BAD #and also at this point I've developed a violent pavlovian response to the word ''green'' but that's neither here nor there #bitter lau tag #dc #dc thoughts

[bizarrelovesquare]

Avatar: The Last Airbender

s3 ep 09, Nightmares and Daydreams

#thought about giffing the whole scene but i like the mood of this part right here #being caught up in your own anxieties while your girl is trying to offer you some calming tea #avatar the last airbender #atlaedit #maiko #zuko #mai #gif #evie's gifs #ALSO i've always loved how he apparently stayed the night there...like he was NOT about to go back home and deal with his family's bullshit #(i'm pretty sure he stayed at mai's? this was first thing the next morning and i doubt the servants would have let him go out without his - #hair fixed? considering how the day before they wouldn't even let him walk there instead of taking the palanquin lol)

[naranjapetrificada]

Just a small thing I noticed while being totally normal about the gay pirates:

I've watched The Kiss™ way too many times a normal number of times and my favorite moment is the series of microexpressions Rhys cycles through while Stede is reacting to "what makes Ed happy is...you" because it's just so lovely and masterfully done. While trying to find a good gif of just that moment (no luck so far!) I noticed something that happens while Ed is pulling Stede in.

Stede, darling honey light of my life, clueless useless "oblivious" gay that he is, tilts his head a bit and leans into the kiss too. Before it's even started. On some level he registers that This Is Happening in time to react in a positive way, even before their lips have touched.

Our boy is a creature of instinct, and when he acts on his emotional instincts without thinking too much he knocks so much shit out of the park. Instinct is part of why "you wear fine things well" hits as hard as it does. Instinct is how he can woo Ed as easily as he does. Instinct is how they were able connect so deeply so quickly, because his instinct is to be open and non-judgemental to this beautiful man waiting beside his sickbed and asking about fine fabrics.

Stede's thoughts are still too clouded by his trauma and self-loathing to be useful for him, and he can end up thinking too much about what he "should" do or what other people do. Thinking is part of the reason he's so quick to believe Chauncey in the woods. Thinking means succumbing to beliefs about his perceived worthlessness, which leads to his biggest mistakes. Thinking tells him to adjust what he says about Blackbeard in that tavern of townies, when his instinct was to say how "absolutely lovely" Ed is.

Obviously man cannot live by instinct alone, like he definitely should have thought for a minute about making a deal with Geraldo to fence the hostage. Stede needs to learn to balance the two and when to listen to either/both of them. But I was just so excited to see him leaning in the way he does because it underlines a feeling I've had for a minute, which is that Stede's instincts are those of someone crushing and then falling in love, and that never wavers.

He lacks the context and vocabulary to identify what's going on without outside intervention, but he also deeply gets it in a way that's extremely queer and that I hope starts showing up more in the fanon. I do a little happy dance every time I see this in people's fics and I just need so many more of them! Give me more eager Stede who is Ready To Go once he's given the right context for his feelings about Ed!

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd meta #our flag means death meta #meta #no but for real Eager Stede Bonnet is a fucking delight to encounter #no thoughts detected in that well-coiffed little head of his #and when it comes to emotions at least things work out better for him #gentlebeard #blackbonnet #stede bonnet #I think I've also written meta before about how Stede Bonnet Sex God™ isn't a joke and it's his instincts! #it's why so many fics have him lacking in previous experience but not in creativity or enthusiasm #his relationship to instinct also feels autistic to me for relatable reasons but that's a whole other thing #ofmd spoilers #The Kiss™

[crabsnpersimmons]

I’m curious about the onesie now

also @pizzaplex-stargazer cuz you noticed too!

here's what Moon was rocking before Clip started making clothes:

after their PizzaPlex went under, the DCA bois had to figure out a lot of things, one being: clothes. unfortunately, Moon's really big, so he struggled to find things that fit him and were comfortable. the onesie is the first thing he found that fit him and made him feel really cozy. so he still wears it at home (he prefers comfy clothes at home anyways) when he needs a pick-me-up.

of course, he can't work at the salon in a bunny onesie, so here's what Clip made him (under Sundrop's direction):

Moon does prefer comfy clothes, but he has to admit, sometimes he likes the attention these clothes get him. he's iffy about them though, he feels that they show too much of him and he prefers the specific kind of comfort that comes from being an amorphous bundle of coziness.

#fnaf moon #fnaf sun #fnaf dca #dca fandom #New Do Same You AU #Moon New Do Same You AU #Sun New Do Same You AU #this AU is full of silly and angst i swear #look Moon in a rabbit onesie! (: #he likes it because it hides his body and he can momentarily forget that he was forced into a body that isn't his ): #he can be a silly little gremlin again (: #and not think about what he looks like under the fabric ): #the bunny onesie was honestly just a silly idea i had early on even before i thought of Moon's body upgrades #i just thought it would be in-character for Moon to like comfy clothes and would wear comfy clothes when he's not out in public #but i was worried the bunny onesie would be too silly? #but after chatting with friends about it #i just #i had to keep it in #look at how happy Moon is! #he's a little moon bunny! #let him have some joy #i've wrote a painful backstory for him anyway let him have this #traditional art #crab art #bright colours #ask the crab

[neversetyoufree]

I've been thinking lately about Vanitas and Noé's first "what is salvation" fight at the bal masqué and what it means about their individual definitions of the concept, and I've realized something about Vanitas.

Noé's definition of salvation is the obvious one. It feels natural. To save someone is to keep them from dying. But in a way, his understanding of salvation is also almost selfish. Noé's foundational trauma is the constant loss of his loved ones. He is the eternal sole survivor. So of course he wants to keep people alive—he wants to "save" the people he cares about in the way that keeps them by his side this time.

It's not wrong to want that, of course. I don't mean "selfish" as a condemnation. It's just that the definition of salvation that Noé starts the series with is inarguably the one that best serves his own happiness.

And it's the same with Vanitas.

When Vanitas kills the little girl Catherine by restoring her true name, he tells Noé he doesn't know what salvation is. He might be lying there, or he might be telling the truth in that he's never put his definition of salvation into words or acknowledged it on a conscious level. Either way, though, I do think he has a definition of salvation somewhere in his mind, and it's a very personal one.

Vanitas sees salvation as the preservation or restoration of one's true self. You're saved so long as you can preserve your essential self, uncorrupted by outside forces. Even if the price of that selfness is death.

While Noé's foundational trauma that informs his worldview is the loss of his loved ones, one of Vanitas's foundational traumas is the loss of his bodily autonomy. Through Moreau's experiments and Luna's mark/bite, he has been transformed into something no longer fully human, and he hates it. From the moment Luna told him he was dying, he said he wanted to die as himself rather than live as their kin, and he has been denied that opportunity.

Nothing is more important for Vanitas than being able to dictate the destiny of his own body, and malnomen are the ultimate corruption of bodily autonomy and selfness. Altering one's true name warps not only their physical body, but their very being on a metaphysical level. The curse takes everything a vampire is and changes it, and doing that to an unwilling victim is the ultimate horror for Vanitas.

Given that context, of course Vanitas thinks that killing a child to restore her true name counts as saving her. He's restoring her essential self and un-corrupting her body and being, and even if her self is only returned for an instant before she dies, it's preferable to living on as something warped by an outside force.

Vanitas absolutely starts the series with a definition of salvation, and like Noé, it's the one that best serves his own happiness. He wants to be saved. He wants to be returned to his human self, and failing that (since he knows it's impossible), he wants to wipe out all traces of the force that changed him and then die without going any further down the path of inhumanity.

Vanitas might not be able to admit that definition out loud (or even to himself directly), but it's there, and it guides him early in the series as much as Noé's own definition of salvation guides him in turn.

#and perhaps noé will learn to see death as a form of salvation when life is corruption #and perhaps vanitas will learn to see the value of preserving (his own) life #and perhaps they'll both find a definition of salvation that is neither of these things 👀 #but that's not the point of this post #anyway this is one of those concepts that I've been orbiting around and maybe gestured toward before #but I don't think I ever quite put it in words or thought about this connection so directly #so here we are #vnc #vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #vanitas #vanitas my beloved #english major hours

[rampantram]

Who initiated the relationship between the Lamb, Narinder, and Ewe?

I would say the lamb, initially; after they and Narinder found Ewe, the lamb took her recovery and happiness as their responsibility, wanting to make sure she had the life that she deserved - that they'd BOTH deserved. And while romance wasn't on their mind in the beginning, as she began to emerge from her shell (she was pretty much catatonic and non-verbal at the beginning), they eventually fell head over heels for her~

Narinder wasn't against Ewe's presence, and he couldn't blame the lamb for their enthusiasm in taking responsibility for her, but he did work to keep the lamb grounded throughout the whole ordeal (at first, they wouldn't leave her out of their sight for a moment). Once the lamb returned to crusading, they left Narinder as her watch, and he soon found out why the lamb had become so taken with her, particularly by her eagerness to learn and (albeit reluctant) connection with death.

From Ewe's point of view, once she'd exited survival mode, she soon felt like a burden: encroaching on the lamb and Narinder's established life. It didn't help that the followers in The Flock were at no loss for gossip, filling her ears with even more reasons why she had no place on the cult grounds. She tried avoiding the lamb and Narinder, excusing herself from their conversations and gently refusing their requests to help her with whatever she was busy with.

These tensions came to a head eventually, though, forcing the three to confess their intermingling feelings for one another. They took things slowly after that, wanting each member of their throuple to feel comfortable and seen, eventually creating a rather tight-knit bond.

#I've thought about this a lot because I wanted their relationship to be believable and something someone could invest in.. #also I love angst and drama so there's that as well #should've probably also mentioned that the lamb and Narinder were already married for a bit before finding Ewe #thank you for the ask! #cult of the lamb #the ewe au #art #my art #asks

[mandareeboo]

The unequivocally funniest thing season 3 did was bring in Hilda's dad and then just. Not answer any follow-up questions. Where's he been? Idk, off somewhere. Is he deadbeat? Not really? He clearly cares about Hilda a lot and moved to Trolburg to be closer to her, but it's also implied he ran off from being overwhelmed when she was little. Does Hilda know him? Apparently. What's his deal with Johanna? Good fucking luck figuring it out.

#Hilda the Series #Anders #Hilda #I've thought about this dumpy little man for three days #Bc he's clearly not a bad guy or even inherently a bad parent #He just went poof and came back for some reason #Hilda knew him so he did visit her once or twice before #She just never brought him up #Side note but David saying he thought Anders had died was the funniest shit #Falc talks

[fictionadventurer]

There's something about reading really great writing that's so relaxing. You can just sit back and let the words wash over you, knowing that you can trust the writer.

#random thought of the day #books #part of the reason i'm not getting writing done today was because i spent most of my free time reading from books i've let sit for too long #i haven't been able to sink into good fiction for a while #so elizabeth goudge felt like a spiritual experience #cleansing and uplifting #it always takes me a while to get into her books #there's a learning curve of a couple of chapters to adjust to the style #but once i break through it's bliss #it becomes easy as breathing #there's nothing quite like what she does #i love books that understand that goodness isn't boring or trite #you don't need to have 'darkness' and 'grit' to be complex #like one bit that took my breath away was the talk about sallie and david's marriage struggles #they're both good people who love each other #but they also have their differences because they're human and that causes struggles #not marriage-breaking struggles just nuanced life struggles #and i'm not sure i've seen something like that in a book before #it's a good marriage they married the right people but that doesn't mean life is perfect #goudge uderstands that marriage isn't happily ever after--heaven is #and a good marriage is two people partnering up to help each other reach that goal #it's so much more adult than any 'complex adult' work i've seen

[hoofpeet]

I'd probably have to read the printed version and web version back to back at some point to note all the differences but... ough

#sorry i'm going to be excited about this comic for the next month #nofna #okay having finished this now-- #and sorry if this doesn't make sense to anyone who's completely unfamiliar with this comic in advance- #the 'popcorn ending' (printed version) is nice to see but i think the web version hits harder. if that makes sense #so i'm kinda tied on which ending i 'prefer'- i think both are good though #also considering i've read the web version a good 4-5 times and the printed version only once- i probably can't make that judgement yet #easy answer- i do like Nutsedge :] so it's nice to see the ending where nothing bad happens to her #but also- NT suddenly becoming a greenie-esque villain out of nowhere felt a little jarring #as well as SV suddenly turning a corner and becoming a 'good guy' (arguable)- considering the first three books are about #/him being too stubborn to change or accept any outside worldviews . Him suddenly coming to his senses felt out of place #<- probably biased because i like characters being bitter to the end and ultimately destroyed by their own hubris #the web version is probably‚ objectively‚ a bit better #but - #(spoilers- if you're planning to drop ~70 bucks on getting these books) #the conceit of SV actually perfecting his style‚ using it once‚ and then immediately getting tooth-brained- was pretty cool #assuming it's meant to parallel him spending months tormented by trying to perfect it while something's still missing- #and then dying before he can narrate it to the audience‚ so that we never know what he figured out. #hard to articulate these thoughts but tl;dr- popcorn ending also had a lot to think about

[presiding]

While browsing Vogue magazine, Sébastien Mitton found a photograph of Ruby Aldridge from the Céline Fall 2011 fashion show. He said, “Boom! We have the direction!” Her beauty and her unsettling gaze drove the first concept art for Emily.

#dishonored #emily kaldwin #arkane studios #ruby alridge #i thought this was pretty interesting in terms of backstory #esp compared to some of the earlier sketches #especially given how little they deviated from that silhouette and hair! #even her final character face is barely different #i hope someone's like. thanked ruby alridge for this at least #i've had a pic of me used as art reference for a large public thing before without my consent lmao its like. THE backhanded-est compliment #anyway frustratingly when I try to add proper links in here tumblr has glitched. but the quote is from the bethesda site #Celine pics from Vogue #and the gorgeous pic of aldridge from an article about her band diet choke which I will try to link tomorrow. Tumblr why