#i'm not thinking straight rn

[mpekamitzii]

Tfw your shapeshifter friend forgets how to turn back into a human and has a crisis

#Allergies straight up kicking my ass rn but I'm thinking about them #Death strands #original character #art #drawing #Digital art #Comic #Original story

[inkskinned]

you're grabbing lunch with a nice man and he gives you that strange grimace-smile that's popular right now; an almost sardonic "twist" of his mouth while he looks literally down on you. it looks like he practiced the move as he leans back, arms folded. he just finished reciting the details of NFTs to you and explaining Oppenheimer even though he only watched a youtube about it and hasn't actually seen it. you are at the bottom of your wine glass.

you ask the man across from you if he has siblings, desperately looking for a topic. literally anything else.

he says i don't like small talk. and then he smiles again, watching you.

a few years ago, you probably would have said you're above celebrity gossip, but honestly, you've been kind of enjoying the dumb shit of it these days. with the rest of the earth burning, there's something familiar and banal about dragging ariana grande through the mud. you think about jeanette mccurdy, who has often times gently warned the world she's not as nice as she appears. you liked i'm glad my mom died but it made you cry a lot.

he doesn't like small talk, figure out something to say.

you want to talk about responsibility, and how ariana grande is only like 6 days older than you are - which means she just turned 30 and still dresses and acts like a 13 year old, but like sexy. there's something in there about the whole thing - about insecurity, and never growing up, and being sexualized from a young age.

people have been saying that gay people are groomers. like, that's something that's come back into the public. you have even said yourself that it's just ... easier to date men sometimes. you would identify as whatever the opposite of "heteroflexible" is, but here you are again, across from a man. you like every woman, and 3 people on tv. and not this guy. but you're trying. your mother is worried about you. she thinks it's not okay you're single. and honestly this guy was better before you met, back when you were just texting.

wait, shit. are you doing the same thing as ariana grande? are you looking for male validation in order to appease some internalized promise of heteronormativity? do you conform to the idea that your happiness must result in heterosexuality? do you believe that you can resolve your internal loneliness by being accepted into the patriarchy? is there a reason dating men is easier? why are you so scared of fucking it up with women? why don't you reach out to more of them? you have a good sense of humor and a big ol' brain, you could have done a better job at online dating.

also. jesus christ. why can't you just get a drink with somebody without your internal feminism meter pinging. although - in your favor (and judgement aside) in the case of your ariana grande deposition: you have been in enough therapy you probably wouldn't date anyone who had just broken up with their wife of many years (and who has a young child). you'd be like - maybe take some personal time before you begin this journey. like, grande has been on broadway, you'd think she would have heard of the plot of hamlet.

he leans forward and taps two fingers to the table. "i'm not, like an andrew tate guy," he's saying, "but i do think partnership is about two people knowing their place. i like order."

you knew it was going to be hard. being non-straight in any particular way is like, always hard. these days you kind of like answering the question what's your sexuality? with a shrug and a smile - it's fine - is your most common response. like they asked you how your life is going and not to reveal your identity. you like not being straight. you like kissing girls. some days you know you're into men, and sometimes you're sitting across from a man, and you're thinking about the power of compulsory heterosexuality. are you into men, or are you just into the safety that comes from being seen with them? after all, everyone knows you're failing in life unless you have a husband. it almost feels like a gradebook - people see "straight married" as being "all A's", and anything else even vaguely noncompliant as being ... like you dropped out of the school system. you cannot just ignore years of that kind of conditioning, of course you like attention from men.

"so let's talk boundaries." he orders more wine for you, gesturing with one hand like he's rousing an orchestra. sir, this is a fucking chain restaurant. "I am not gonna date someone who still has male friends. also, i don't care about your little friends, i care about me. whatever stupid girls night things - those are lower priority. if i want you there, you're there."

he wasn't like this over text, right? you wouldn't have been even in the building if he was like this. you squint at him. in another version of yourself, you'd be running. you'd just get up and go. that's what happens on the internet - people get annoyed, and they just leave. you are locked in place, almost frozen. you need to go to the bathroom and text someone to call you so you have an excuse, like it's rude to just-leave. like he already kind of owns you. rudeness implies a power paradigm, though. see, even your social anxiety allows the patriarchy to get to you.

you take a sip of the new glass of wine. maybe this will be a funny story. maybe you can write about it on your blog. maybe you can meet ariana grande and ask her if she just maybe needs to take some time to sit and think about her happiness and how she measures her own success.

is this settling down? is this all that's left in your dating pool? just accepting that someone will eventually love you, and you have to stop being picky about who "makes" you a wife?

you look down to your hand, clutching the knife.

#writeblr #this is a mashup of like 3 dates i accidentally went on lol #by that i mean that i was out with a woman on a date in 2 of these situations #and a man just. joined us. and we were too awkward to say anything while he tried to ''date'' me #& one was a longterm friend that i was like. you what???? #like he's nice he's a doctor and my mom was SO happy she was like raquel think about it #''it's a perfect love story you grew up together and reconnected as adults and like the same things and he's friends with ur brother #and his sister is one of ur close friends!!!'' #yes but alas. he is a boy . she only likes girls. can i make it any more obvious #anyway im tryna write about like the force of male attention being actually incredibly ingrained to women like we are SUPPOSED to like it #it's seen as the only important thing #even if ur gay #and it's a nuanced thing idk #and while rn i i.d. as lesbian #like .... it wouldn't be UNTRUE to say i am probably like ''cusp bisexual'' bc i CAN experience attraction to men bc like . #sexuality is fluid... #don't tell straight ppl tho bc they do not understand the concept that ppl don't necessarily need a solid everlasting label #they're like GET in the BOX #if ur gay & in boston i'm 30 and pretty please come kiss me. #(i usually only date older ppl sorry in advance tho)

[astrolavas]

thinking about the... potential clawthorne woodcarving mentorship.

+ bonus cuz also thinking abt how if hunter ever met dell's palisman and got reminded of flapjack, he'd probably feel bad abt making that association cuz he knows what it's like to be seen only as someone's different version (even though the bird wouldn't mind much so lol)

#eda having that palistrom seed.. hunter saying he wants to learn how to carve palisman... his relation to clawthornes. it HAS to mean STH js #the owl house #toh #hunter toh #toh hunter #hahaa always thinking abt hunter growing a soft spot for palismen and loving creating and bringing them to life #but never being able to replace flapjack no matter how many palismen for other ppl he carves. I'M GONNA- #:((((( :/// #like he's not going to want to replace flapjack just like that rn. cuz he LOVES that bird. it's gonna be so hard for him to just.. Move On #and flapjack's a PART of him.. so very curious where they'll go with this because..... HM. HM like he serves as his disability aid almost #and he can't just REMAKE him. but he cannot also just.... ignore what happened straight away. but it's also important to heal #but whatever he decides to do i feel like he'd love to just............ create. whether it be for himself or others #BUT GAH. ANYWAY XKJSJSK wrote an essay abt this already don't need to write one in the tags TOO. so uh .. yea #little guy.. pls find happiness #my art #fanart #hunter #hunter noceda #hunter wittebane #eda #eda clawthorne #dell #dell clawthorne #dell's palisman #toh art #edalyn clawthorne #also like...... if flapjack and dell's palisman were caleb's and evelyn's palismen...... and knew each other........ #and while flapjack was waiting for his new person at the bat queen's cave dell's palisman was being passed down clawthorne generations #OUUHGHHHHGHHHH they were probably friends..... they Knew each other #what's up with you you mysterious yellow bird with eyebrows...... what's your story

[chronicowboy]

manifesting a s7 bi buck confirmation where the 118 are on a call and the victim/their friend/Random Civilian is getting annoyed makes a comment aimed at buck & eddie about "straight white men" and they both look offended then eddie says "do I look white???" and buck's like "do I look straight???"

how the others react (if at all) is tbc at this stage

i'm a sucker for inappropriate whisper arguments in the Absolute Worst of Situations so now all i'm seeing is eddie whipping around to buck when he says it with the widest doe eyes any human being has ever achieved and oblivious little buck waving the vic/friend/civilian off like "it's fine, could happen to anyone, you know" and then eddie's like "uh, yeah, it did, you're not straight?" and then it's like for the GA oh no are they going to do a kind of internalised homophobia arc for eddie where he re-examines his entire friendship with buck after finding out he likes men and yes he is going to re-examine his entire friendship with buck after finding out he likes men but it'll be the opposite of internalised homophobia (externalised homoeroticism)

#sami answers #very attached to their little whisper argument ive created in my head as hen and chim try to treat the patient #eddie: you're not straight? #buck: no?? #eddie: since when? #buck: since always eddie? i know you know how gay people work #eddie: but. natalia? taylor? ali? abby? oh my god you weren't like punishing yourself for being gay with them were you? #buck: no wtf eddie. you were there when i was explaining bisexuality to chris the other day. when i came out to him u know #eddie: im pretty sure id remember you coming out to my son buck #buck: why are you being so weird about this #eddie: because im your best friend! #buck: what and it's freaking you out that i like men? #eddie: NO! i'm freaked out that i didn't know. did you not think you could tell me 🥺 #buck: I THOUGHT YOU KNEW #and bobby's just live slugging it over in the corner like 'should i intervene or are they going to come to some realisations rn'

[airenyah]

it's fascinating how they're having the conversation about the earth revolving around the sun

all the while sun is the one orbiting "earth"

#has anyone had some thoughts about this yet bc i only just finished the ep and i'm unable to think straight rn #in every sense of the word #23.5 degrees #23.5 #23.5 ep1 #adrm #airenyah plappert #also i'm feeling really sleepy rn bc i had to get up early for an exam and i'm running on like 4.5h of sleep and i've had a long day alread

[sharpth1ng]

Stu:

Billy:

Stu:

Billy:

Stu:

Billy:

Stu:

Billy:

Stu:

Billy:

#idk i think i'm funny #billy is straight up not livin la vida loca rn #scream meme #stuilly #stu x billy #billy loomis x stu matcher #billy x stu #stu macher x billy loomis #scream 1996

[sugarsnappeases]

Where can I put it down?

8/8 chapters | 8.5k words | very minor quillkiller

Dear Bella….

eight letters to bellatrix, from various people at various times in her life, none of which she ever received

#guys i did it!!!!!!!!! i did it!!!!!!!! i posted the letters thing!!!!!!!!!! #very excited about this but also going straight to sleep rn goodnight angels #where can i put it down tag #<- think i'm gonna start doing fic tags like that btw #anyway hope you guys like it <333 #bellatrix black #bellatrix lestrange #kara’s fics

[dudethatsmyundeaduncle]

Y'all heard that song "one of your girls" by Troye Sivan its Pining TimKon coded. Cuz like:

"Give me a call if you ever get lonely I'll be like one of your girls or your homies Say what you want, and I'll keep it a secret You got the key to my heart, and I need it Give me a call if you ever get desperate I'll be like one of your girls"

#LIKE SOZ IS THE COMPULSARY HETEROSEXUALITY IN THE ROOM WITH US RN? #just think about it ok #cuz like up until DC pride event with Bernard Timmy wimmy was “straight” as hell right #and kon is like a play by play 90s ladies man/girl crazy atm too so #so like in any pining situation both the homies are like “oh no he's straight” and like damn! they mooning! Pining! sad! #also just the language used in this song is so like viscerally funny and yet oof ouch my heart cuz like you like this person so much you- #want them to use you and you'll be whoever they need u to be #i'm just thinking ok! #none of the cannon girlies come for me rn this is the sad pining au corner #To be fair I don't think either of them would cry over their feelings for eachother #it's more so that I think this song would reflect like pit of their soul/ never gonna admit this shit to anyone feelz #Tim and Conner are one thing and thats emotionally unavaliable! #but also...the gender convo...“do I wanna be a girl or do I just want him to like me like one....” #food for thought #more like food for the looney tunes am I right lads #TimKon #DC #Batman #Tim Drake #Conner Kent #Kon-el #superboy #red robin #this is not about sad meow meow tim keep ya'll man away from me I don't want him

[skitskatdacat63]

More matador!Fernando! Ferrari this time :D (I can't help myself.....)

- facial hair

+ closeups

I really wanted the vibe of this Nando pic, I think I did pretty well??

#GUYS THE BULL DO YOU NOTICE WHAT BULL DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE SUBTEXT DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY IMPLICATION #lmao tho i mostly put it there cause i saw this rly cool pic w the shadow of a bull on a matador's cape #i dont understand how i ended up making this one more intensive and detailed than the other #but im not mad cause i really like it aaahhhhhh #but i think this one took more than 6 hours and the other one was 5½? #and both i ended up working until an absolutely horrible time. dont ask me what time i wrote this post #okay btw i didnt draw that embroidery. thank you medibang pattern brush now beloved 🙏 #i think it suits him!!!! i was thinking of doing stars anyways so I'm glad it worked out #two people id like to blame: #thank you 005 for accidentally reminding me of the sword!! im glad his other hand is not just idle :) #and thank you suzuki-ecstar for asking me at some point if id ever draw facial hair on nando #^ particularly the 3 Musketeers look. so thanks. i suddenly remembered and i had to draw it 😭 #it kept shocking me how baby faced i drew him every time i took that layer off #also every time i worked on the suit red genuinely ceased being an actual color to me #its bright red right?? like very fluorescent?? but my brain kept going: is this too orange?? this isnt red right???? #anyways happy with this!!!!! there were a lot more roadblocks than the other but it all worked out #but wow wish i had this level of diligence for yknow. schoolwork. #i can spend 6+ hours on a drawing straight but school? nah i give up every 20 mins or less fjfkkfl #also not abandoning my other aus or anything but i have a lot more ideas for this honestly #i think the ref pics are a lot easier and more interesting to find than for my other AUs #<- cause its so much more modern lmao. so i have a lot more inspo than trying to find ultra specific 18th century paintings #i wanna draw 3 things rn: #nando w the ceremonial cape. seb in a matador suit. and of course some silly vett//onso in this AU #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #catie.art. #fa14 #matador au

[d4isywhims]

can i request a stereotypical white boy? 😭 name and looks are up to you but make sure to give them traits like active, bro etc 🤭

HAHA omg anon 😭😭

here's a little sneak peek ;)

#does he look like the stereotypical white boy?? 😭😭 #i went on pinterest and typed tiktok boys #but they were giving 2020 eboy #i couldn't go through it the cringe was unbearable lmao #i got this ask a few days ago i think?? #my sense of time is fucked rn #i've been working on my assignment for two days straight #BUT I FINALLY SUBMITTED IT YESTERDAY AND HAD THE BIGGEST FATTEST NAP EVER #i am now free <33 #gonna work on a few requests #i have one sim request and one build request #NEED TO FIGURE OUT THE FLOORPLAN FOR THE BUILD REQ THO #i'll do it at the airport tomorrow #i'm going homeeeee for the hols!!!! #sim reqs #gem rambles

[guy-girlfriend]

lots of people saying cassian should get a boyfriend, lots of people saying it should be melshi, and i don't disagree, i respect the melshi/cassian hustle, but i think in a different world it could've been brasso. you know, the big guy who was ready to lie for cassian at the drop of a hat just cause the man said "please i need this"? and then put his full pussy into that lie too, taking note of cassian's bruises and going so far as to fabricate a reason for them ("you insulted my choice of beverage [...] i was helping you back into your chair when you fell")? the guy who chained that pre-mor security craft into that hunk of scrap to sabotage their efforts to detain cassian? idk all of that was just incredibly sexy to me and i think big loyal working man brasso could've absolutely obliterated that twink. sorry i didn't mean to say that last part i meant to say obliterated that twink. i meant to say obliterated. obliterated that. fuck

#sorry i can't think straight i'm thinking about brasso ''helping cassian back into his chair'' rn #wish a mf would help ME back into my chair... #andor #cassian andor #brasso

[cgerice]

My take on their Beforan counterparts (and an excuse to draw them as stinky old men but shhh)

These two use their shared adoration of Feferi, and their distaste of the others craft to fuel their kismesissitude

It's magic vs. technology babey (and maybe a little bit of telekinesis but shhhhhh)

#homestuck #erisol #erisolweek2022 #beforan eridan #beforan sollux #prompt: alt universe #i'm so so on their outfits #like i like them but they don't feel super ‟homestuck‟ you know? #i tried to make sollux more visually similar to pre-scratch mituna #because the psiioniic looks more like sollux than his pre-scratch self #if that makes sense #i think eridan was just straight up a wizard on beforus #it directly parallels cronus as a gunslinger #eridan went gun => wand #and it's implied cronus went wand => gun #it's possible they both modeled themselves after their ancestor #which suggests that their weapon is attached to their ‟true identity‟ #or some bullshit like that idk i'm talking out of my ass rn lmao

[capricioussun]

Will probably delete later but genuinely WHY do so many ppl hate uf papyrus. "He’s horrible and a bad brother and abusive >:(((" my guy. YOU made him that way

#always weirds me out when a really bad take becomes popular fanon and ppl treat it like it's an inherent universal take #happens to all characters I feel but it's esp frustrating when it's not just a bad take but just straight making a character a certain way #as a plot device. or to project ur own issues onto. at that point just. make an oc or smth. why mangle a character so severely. what is #the purpose #im not even going to TRY to pretend i have perfect ic flawless interps (I absolutely don't and know this) #but even w/ characters I have minimal interest in (like asgore for ex) it's important to me to at least *try* to keep them in line w/ their #og counterparts. #and you'd think. given how so many ppl infantilized Papyrus. that some of that would've bled thru into au counterparts #but nope. the fanon versions are practically just wholly different characters who just look similar and 'fill the same role' in their au #and it's honestly not like there's a shortage of other characters sans could have a toxic relationship with in uf #(bc let's be honest here that's 90% of the reason uf papyrus got characterized that way. for ppl to project onto and sympathize with sans) #I don't like having strong negative opinions on things and I especially don't like talking abt them publicly but idk if it's just weird #timing or smth I've seen so many bad takes the past couple weeks #to each their own and I'd never like. bash someone for having a diff take than me. I just don't...understand. #idk #I'm really tired and my eyes are sticky so I really shouldn't even be posting rn bc I will see this later and be like #can't BELIEVE that guy posted an opinion on the internet. WHY would he do that

[aprofessionalwithoutstandards]

I CANNOT stop thinking abt Sniper x Glados which is embarrassing bc it makes me feel like a gamer in 2011 who can't stomach gay people and needs to shack Sniper up with a "woman" from a different game and the voice actors being irl married justifying this but also they're playing some 5D gender chess you can't even imagine. I know she's a robot but like we're t4t regardless

#AND glados is a dom. straight people could never #also i do still think sniper tf2 shehim pronounce so yall still get wlw glados don't worry. i'm sooooooo wlw rn #tf2 #team fortress 2 #portal #portal 2 #sniper #sniper tf2 #glados

[why-the-heck-not]

24.08.22, wednesday

finally bought an espresso machine, and rn I’m caffeine overdosing trying to find out the right coffee bean grind setting and dose and all that (it’s some levels of rocket science actually)

#also realized it might just be the beans bc went straight to like very dark roast #should've gone with a medium tbh #but it smelled so goood so im going to make it work with these now first #bc i do like dark roast but after buying those I read that usually medium roast is best for espresso #but also it's all subjective #also im not sure if my coffee grinder's good enough for espresso but i'm not gonna buy a new one anytime soon so it'll have to do #and i am way too many double espressos in rn that I think my taste buds are gone forthe day #study #studyspo #studying #booklr #bookblr #books #dark academia #coffee #espresso #august 2022 #2022

[mattodore]

the reason why i was offline for a day was bc i was in cas editing mattodore and messing with my cas bg, yeah, but also... i found another oc ask game that i liked the questions for so i started drafting theo and matthias's answers for them....... there's 100 questions this time so i've just been like this in google docs

#river dipping #when theo's doc inevitably ends up passing 5k.......... let's not mention it let's simply not mention it #i'm also in spotify playing the respective mattodore playlists while hopping between their answers #i think i've just been listening to their playlists and renaissance and amir and <copingmechanism> for the last month straight #my top tracks and artists of the month rn are definitely a testament to that..... #succession season four soundtrack “action that” is also on there tho <333333333 love you kendall roy <3333333 #anyway i have no idea how long it's gonna take me to finish answering these questionnaires for the both of them #but i really enjoy doing this... i said before that i've reread their last 60 questions posts so much i've started to memorize them #and i can tell it's gonna be the same for these questionnaires when i finish them like i will be pouring over them like a man possessed #whenever i finish them (bc i AM planning to spend all of my free time on them after this) i'll share them with updated character pics #so i'll have to go in game for that. i'll need to update their character pages entirely honestly they've changed so much in the last month #like physically #well not matthias....... kjfdvnkdfgjh but theo looks SO... not different exactly but like... he's evolved. #also their last character page pics are ugly kjfkvjhnkjfgh no offense to past me for trying to be cute and edit differently but lmao. #i'll redo all of the echthroi character pics too so can't wait to have 500 new gshade screenshots of the eight ocs i have for it #jackson and everett are still missing in action but it's fine. Whatever. i don't even care 🙄 #<- me trying to manipulate my brain using reverse psychology so that it finally pops out a solid image of what i want them to look like