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twig-tea · 6 months

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Only Friend Finale Reaction

I want to write this down now because I suspect my feelings on this will change over time. In this moment, immediately post-finale, I am satisfied. I feel happy. I am glad this show got made, and that I watched it.

Only Friends was billed as the messy gays show. I went in expecting something close to Friend Zone but with more gays, and that's what we got. Not a Warped Effect with explicit morals and lessons about sex, consent, sexualities, kinks, etc., not a GayOK Bangkok which is grounded in realism.

And because this was Jojo and Ninew and Den and Best, it's still more realistically queer than any GMMTV BL to date, and there were some absolutely stellar moments that stand alone as moving, and powerful, and beautiful, and genre-changing. And so near the beginning of the show airing, I raised my expectations; maybe this show was going to do more.

But was clear by the penultimate episode that it wasn't. I wrestled a lot on here with my need for this show to be the one that finally broke up the mixed pair expectations, and let sluts be sluts, and finally showed a threesome, and maybe even gave us consensual non-monogamy. It didn't go that far in any of those realms, but it took a step closer on many of them, and considering where BL has been to date that's still pretty huge for GMMTV, and I don't want to lose sight of that or judge it for what I wanted it to be instead of what it ultimately was.

The other thing I wrestled with a lot in this show was what other people were seeing in it, and my frustration that people were taking away moral lessons that the show wasn't giving. I think I was successful in that I watched this finale with satisfaction for what I was getting, even though I know a lot of people won't see what I saw (and btw I'm not even claiming that what I saw was what the creators intended! I am not claiming superiority here, just bias lol). So I watched this finale deciding to take what I wanted from it, rather than what I thought it was actually trying to say, and for that reason I enjoyed the hell out of it.

So. Here are my takeaways from the Only Friends finale:

We got a three-way kiss, even if it didn't lead to a threesome, after teasing us all series that was still satisfying and we got it as part of a branded pair in a GMMTV show. It was fun, and messy, and I loved it. I appreciate that it was also...maybe necessary is too far lol but it was actually in service to the plot--we all knew Sand still had feelings for Boeing, or else he would not have still been so mad at Top that he was willing to use Nick and Ray to get his revenge. Not every emotional loose end needs to be resolved with kissing, but it was kind of fun that they tried (and I also really appreciated that it didn't work lol).

I loved that Mew and Ray talking as friends got them to compare notes on and eventually team up to take down Boeing. Their friendship really is the backbone of this series, and I'm glad it survived everything. Mew is so relieved to have someone else taking care of Ray because he never wanted that role and wasn't good at it, but he does care about his friend's happiness and is more than happy to step in when there's drama. I appreciate that he made really clear to Sand that his feelings for Ray are platonic, in the bar, that's the first time I've really seen him be truly supportive of Ray, and it was nice to see.

The Mew and Top scenes were fascinating. I think this is where I'm going to differ from the bulk of the audience and I've made peace with that. I do not find stories like theirs romantic--where both partners need to be in control and play games to stay in control the whole time--so for me, the fact that these power struggles were still present in all of their scenes satisfied my desire to see them stay together, happy but on edge. So. That scene with Mew and Top in which Mew agrees to live with Top but then asks him to apologize to Sand right afterwards; I read that as pretty manipulative on Mew's part, and Top's uncomfortable face at the end means that he felt it too. Maybe I wasn't supposed to read it that way, but that's why it worked for me. The ring, too, "now or never", it's not a promise of forever, it's a promise of the present [such a strong ephemerality statement]. The conversation in the bath in which they outline their needs and identify that they have contrasting needs, and say "I'll work on it / we'll deal with it when it comes" is exactly what I was expecting of this relationship. They're not perfect for each other, and they're going to continue to push one another. Right now they're agreeing to try, without a guarantee that it will work. Talking about their needs is good, but we don't actually see them trying, so it didn't hit as romantic as it would otherwise for me either. And Mew daring Sand to kiss Top in order to get them to be chill was such a Mew power move I loved it. He asked Top to apologize to Sand, and then forced them to be in close proximity before getting confirmation that Top was ready. Top apologizing to Sand in that last second before they kissed was him clinging for power while Sand was hovering over him, and it was a perfect Top volley. Constant power struggle, that's how I read these two. Mew teasing Top with whether or not he's slept with anyone else was so interesting considering their history around that--I was probably supposed to see it as growth in their relationship that they can joke about it? Or maybe they were trying to undo some of the sexual morality nonsense that made its way into this show by pointing out that actually it doesn't matter if Mew had been with anyone before? But what I saw was Mew still struggling to have a power foothold over Top now that he's moved in. I will admit the fire scene, at first, I was so confused by. Were we supposed to be moved by Top getting past his trauma? What was that scene even about? I think, in the context of Mew's struggle with his place in Top's life, and his power in this relationship, it was about Mew understanding the invisible support he provides for Top, and why he's important to Top. Mew watched Top be competent and collected in the face of a triggering event, and was impressed at how Top had it all together, but Top credits Mew's presence for that. I think it helped Mew start to actually see a future with Top, because he understands his place in it a bit better. Even if he feels like he's not doing enough, Top sees his presence as strength, so maybe he doesn't need to worry quite so much about keeping score. But that's honestly me reaching, I struggled with that scene and think it was the weakest in the finale [and @lurkingshan I read your post and could believe that your read is true, that it was there to prove Top did have trauma].

Can I tell you how much I love how this show ended, with Mix's character smiling at Mew, and Top's nervous look? Because I think we've wrestled with Mew's confidence in this relationship for the whole show, but it's clear Top still feels unsettled/uncertain in this relationship and I love that we ended with him feeling threatened. This for me was the perfect ending for this couple, and what I've wanted as their ending all along--they're happy right now, they know there are potential bumps on the road in their future, and they're not certain they'll make it through, but they're willing to try--but the threats are real, and present, and not going to be easy because this relationship is not solid.

I also really appreciated what was happening with Boston and Nick, even though I wish it would have been more explicit or done better; what we got was still better than I expected from a GMMTV show. I loved Boston dissuading Nick from following him, and finding the romantic asks to be too many/too much, and having a different definition of "boyfriend" (but not different enough to not like to Nick's face about where you were, Boston, I see you). I love that Nick didn't get mad at Boston for "cheating", understood what Boston was offering for what it was; I also really loved Sand's advice to Nick that just because what's on offer is laid out honestly and fairly, that that means he has to accept it if it's not what he wants. I didn't love Boston trying to backtrack when Nick decided not to take him up on it; but I did love Nick's response, telling Boston to own who he is rather than trying to be someone he's not.

I think this is where my attempts the last couple of weeks to let go of what people will take from this show has helped, because yeah, you can see this as the narrative punishing Boston for being a slut, but this has never been a morality play, and so I'm taking from it how I see it. And I see it as Boston getting a clean slate with a bit more perspective going to New York. What I would say to Boston if he were my friend: This friend group was a mess and they always judged Boston for his sex life more than was deserved; they also violated his privacy by passing around his sex audio and never apologized for it. Boston also didn't take their feelings into consideration when he decided who to have sex with, and he messed with their relationships which was not being a good friend either. Does he actually want them back, or is he just feeling lonely? My hope for him is that he takes what he's learned about other people's feelings--that not everyone sees the world he does, and he has to understand that people will be hurt by different things whether or not they would hurt him, if he wants to retain relationships of any kind including friendships, and decide whether or not they're worth making concessions for before hurting them so that he doesn't lose people he doesn't want to--and finds folks who fit better with his worldview and morals, and then is better able to keep them in his life. But also these people are hypocrites, and he should not take their opinion as a statement of fact about his worth. He didn't do anything worse to them than they did to him or each other.

I know a lot of people are going to see this storyline as a punish the slut story. I was wrestling with this two episodes ago, maybe that's why I'm willing to be chill about this now. I was hoping we'd get Boston as a reason to discuss consensual non-monogamy in a GMMTV show, but I am actually ok with Nick saying listen, I need to be honest about what I want and it's not that, and Boston you shouldn't be trying to give me what I want because that's not going to make you happy either. Boston being alone isn't a sad ending; to me it's the ending he was expecting and aiming for this whole time. The only difference is he's surprised by how he feels about it now that he's in it, and he's panicking a bit. Boston was not just a slut, he was a slut who didn't care about who he hurt; it's that latter piece that he's wrestling with in this finale, and I love that Nick told him he didn't have to stop being a slut to stop being an asshole. Honestly, he'll get to New York and be fine, I really think so. And I took the Nick/Boston goodbye conversation as Nick saying "I love you as you are, a slut, and it's ok to be that. Go be a happy slut!" Do I wish he'd said that more explicitly so that people would understand that? Yes. But I've given up on that.

Cheum not going with the group to the fireworks was so interesting in the context of our conversations about Cheum over the past couple of days. I took this to be the show acknowledging explicitly that she's not actually a part of the core friend group; she schemes to keep the group together (unsuccessfully), and we don't ever get a sense of why she cares so much about that--maybe it's guilt for helping push out Boston for something he didn't do, maybe she needs the security of the group she's got, we never get that insight and I'm still a bit sad about that. But she's not there for the big fireworks finale, so we're at least clear that the show never intended her to be a Main Character. And I was so happy we got her saying her plan worked in the pool. Maybe that still won't be enough to convince the audience that she's an unreliable narrator, but it was satisfying for me! Also loved her unwrapping the photo from Boston and the group's uncomfortable reaction to it. Maybe Chuem's going to keep pushing that they reconcile; maybe she's just delusional about how well her plan worked. Either way, the tension was fun. I didn't get the full resolution of her character that I wanted, but the show nodding explicitly to the fact that she keeps herself apart from the main group so I shouldn't expect it was helpful to me getting over that. And we got a kiss! And another tiny insight into their relationship; again not enough to go on, but i did think it really interesting that the two things we know about April and Cheum are: April appreciates Cheum's positive energy, and April has asked Cheum to be more honest and not just positive for the sake of being positive (about her films). So I'm reading this as that these two are just as messy and as likely to continue to have problems as the rest of the group.

Ending in Sand and Ray because I think this is the least ambiguous; I appreciated that Sand started doing what Sand always does and saying "yeah I"ll sacrifice all of my sources of income for you no problem" (WHAT) and Ray waiting until they're alone again to say "actually that's ridiculous don't do that". I appreciated that Sand's new year plans were all about Ray because he hasn't had anything push him into actually being more selfish, and the resolution with Boeing was done for him so he didn't have to set boundaries after all (called that one), so he's had zero character growth, actually. I appreciate that Ray pushes him to try to be a little selfish, that's the best sign that Ray is finally actually caring about Sand's needs, and that their relationship might work, that I've seen the whole series. I'm taking it with a massive grain of salt, because the plan is for Ray to constantly expose himself to alcohol and partying. I think this is set up to be just as tenuous as the Mew/Top relationship, but it reads a bit more lovey-dovey because they're in a less problematic place at the moment (where they have just resolved one of their insecurities so they're more confident in one another--but it's not clear how long that will last, especially with the threat of Sand's self-sacrifice and Ray's fierce boundary-violating in the face of any threat looming in the background unresolved). Sand expressing his uncertainty around his role in the Hostel was also perfect, because he is an outsider in this project and doesn't have a role, and it's a perfect point for tension in the future between them.

Even the way Yo warns the group of friends in the very last scene that they're going to have to be better to one another and less dramatic in the future if they want this hostel to last felt ominous to me rather than preachy; have this group learned enough to make this business work? That definitely remains to be seen.

Nobody should be watching Only Friends with the idea that it's going to give them any kind of lesson about what to do; at best it's a list of what not to do's lol. None of these characters are perfect, they're all incredibly flawed, and young. So their choices, including whether or not to stay together, whether or not to stay friends, whether or not to stay in business, should not be read as a moral judgment by the showrunners. I definitely agree that this could have been more effective as a message if folks weren't happy at the end. But I've given up on it needing to be effective for everyone; they stayed in character to me, and it was effective for me.

I recognized so much of my friends and my youth in this series, and I am so grateful to have gotten to see that portrayed in a show that felt like a rollercoaster while I was watching it; I literally screamed aloud, I cheered, I laughed, I applauded. This show had characters casually snort coke, hook up, flirt with their exes, kiss their friends, make mistakes, forgive one another heinous shit, be mean, kiss outside their branded pairs, and in some cases let one another go.

There are a LOT of ways this show could have been better. It was close, so close in some cases, to being amazing, and it's fallen short in a lot of ways. It could have been a subversive and compelling narrative about slut shaming and the toxicity of fandom branded pairs. Instead, it was just a show about flawed people being flawed. But I had fun, and I'm not taking away from this show that any of these characters were in the right, or that sluts are bad, or need to change--whether it was the intended message, I've given up on that because I legitimately can't tell and if it is the message, I don't want to know. I don't think it overromanticized these flawed characters, but I can see how folks could see it that way. I'm choosing to remember that these characters have all been flawed and shown to be flawed throughout the show, and notice the ways in which they are still flawed, and the hints that things will stay messy. Maybe this is a bit like those experiments in which they found the way people in incarceration watch Die Hard very differently from how other people do or how it was intended LOL maybe I'm working too hard to justify what was just bad writing and gross moral judgments and toxic relationships being portrayed as romantic. But it didn't land that way for me, so I'm going to celebrate that and enjoy the feelings this show gave me.

#only friends the series #only friends meta #ofts meta #only friends #ofts #ephemerality squad #long post #typed so I can stop thinking it #I said it in the post but I'll say it again here: I don't think I'm taking a moral high ground or reflecting the creators most authenticall #I'm just watching the show in a way that lets me enjoy it even though I suspect it's saying things I don't like or morally agree with #that's not always something I'm able to do so I'm enjoying it while it lasts lol

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hiaon · 5 months

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Someone asked for a top! Femboy x bottom! trans masc.. I accidentally posted it so.. I need to restart. If it's you thank you for giving me Ideas! Also you didn't specify how the story should go, so I made my own.

Broken and fixed again.

Disclaimer: cheating(only briefly), sexual intercourse (Not really)

You we're a famous influencer that was followed by millions, but recently your girlfriend for 2 years cheated on you. So you decide to drink in a bar instead of drinking alone in your house.

When you sit came at the bar and then ordered alcohol, you saw a lady pass by and sat down two sits away from you.

And you can clearly see that she is beautiful and very majestic, since you we're two sits away you let the bartender give her a drink and tell her that it was you that gave her the drink.

You we're fidgeting with your hands, because whenever you find someone attractive you kind of just freeze for a moment. You didn't notice because you we're thinking of how beautiful she is, but she was looking at you and smiled she noticed that you we're to shy to make the first move. So she did.

She got up and sat next to you, you finally snapped out of your little nervous moment and noticed the beautiful person next to you.

"Oh! Your the guy that your dumped your girlfriend for cheating!" She said cheerfully, evern her voice is beautiful. You didn't really know what to say, but you worked it through. One thing you hate about your social media career was your fans just like to invade your privacy.

"Yeah.. That's actually why I'm here actually, to forget about her even a little bit.." you said avoiding her eyes.

'That's cute' She thought.

"I'm sorry do you want to change the topic?" She asked you in a calm manner.

"Sure-" Before you could you could continue your conversation with her, someone called you. It was your ex girlfriend, she was telling you to get back whit her again. Of course you said no, but she threatened you that she will ___.

"W-what.! Wait, I'll be there. Don't you dare do it.." You we're getting threats almost everyday it was getting annoying. She was just doing it for attention, she wasn't going to actually do it.

"Sorry but I need to go.." But before you can stand up she grabbed your hand— which was quite strong.

"Can you give me your number first?" She asked you as you happily obliged.

As you we're leaving you felt that her stare was burning you, or more likely your ass.

3 Days later

When you we're just laying around doing nothing, you received a message.

Unknown

Hi, It's the person that you meet at the bar. Wait, we forgot to exchange names.. The name is Ash. What's yours? I'm sorry I totally forgot to ask for your name 😞.

You

Ohh! It's also my fault.. I didn't even though of asking for your name. But my [Y/N].

You renamed "Unknown" into 'Ash'.

Ash

I have nothing to do right now, do you want to hang out? It's okay if you don't wanna.

You

I have nothing to do as well, so it's perfect timing actually.

Ash

Okay then, how about a club?

You

Sure!

Ash

Btw, did you think that I was a women?

You

You aren't?? Huh.. But we can still talk! I was just finding someone I can talk to at a bar.. (LIES)

Ash

That's good then.

*At the Club*

You just arrived at the club and you we're looking for Ash, and somebody touched your ass. It was highly uncomfortable. Ash found you and pulled you away from the man that was touching your ass.

"Ugh, fucking bitch.." Ash mumbled in his breath.

"Huh?" You didn't heard it though.

"Nothing, do you want to have a drink?" His voice completely changed of tone when he was talking shut about that dude.

"Sure!"

40 minutes later..

You forgot that you we're a very weak drinker, and get drunk very easily.

Ash didn't know where you house is and you we're clearly to drunk to tell him. So he made the second best decision, he went to his house instead.

When he was carrying you to his bedroom when he just noticed that you were a very talkative guy when you are drunk. He didn't mind it though, you're very cute when you're like that.

"You know, when I found.. *Hic* out you were a guy.. I didn't really care, I still *Hic* find youu.. reallyyy really attractive.." After you said what you said he was already at his bedroom. He gently put you down.

".... Damn it, I was going to take my time with you to be in a relationship. But this changed my mind." He said as he took your lips swiftly and tasting your acholic taste. You woke up.

"Is this a dream..?" You asked.

"..Yes, yes it is." Ash said

"Ah. Ugh I'm having a wet dream about Ashy again. But since I know *Hic*.. that he is an actual he, this *Hic* might be different.." After you said that you stretched your arms.

"Just do it already.. *Hic*" He was actually just planning to kiss you and sleep besides you, but now that he got the consent that he was waiting for... He can do it with you now.

He immediately took off your shirt pants and underwear — but the underwear was just hanging by on one of your leg.

Part 2 for the actual sexual intercourse?

Also I made this with my friend! — @nosus69

#oc x male reader #x male reader #x you #male reader smut #oneshot #smut #transgender #gay

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jackfrombaskinrobbins · 1 year

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daredevil fam x teen!intern!reader [pt. 2]

CLICK HERE FOR PT. 1

type of writing: headcanons / scenario

word count: 1.5k

request: yes / no

original request: DYING over your matt post– i'm a sucker for casual family hcs with teen readers, it's always the cutest !! could i request something similar like the whole team (nelson, murdock, & page) taking care of an intern? just a teen who usually takes care of filing ends up wandering into the whole found family dynamic they have set up? thanks !

dynamic: daredevil fam (nelson murdock & page) x teen!intern!reader

characters: reader, matt murdock, foggy nelson, karen page

a/n: hiii tysm for this request!!! i love found family hc's too -- especially with daredevil bc i feel like i haven't seen many :( if y'all ever have more daredevil requests like this i would be more than happy to write them!!

taglist: @nutellani @thecloudedmind

(fill out this form if you'd like to be on my taglist!!)

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in fact, you got up the next day actually excited to go

like yk in 500 days of summer when he’s like skipping around and like ppl are dancing and he’s smiling

you felt that level of happy

and then you got a text

“hey y/n it’s foggy 🌫️🌫️lol (LAUGH OUT LOUD) get it? it’s fog!!🌫️🌫️🌫️🌫️ anyways, we (karen and matt and i ofc (OF COURSE) ) have to go out on a case today 🏛️🏛️it’s kind of interesting 🕵🕵 i’ll tell you about it l8r (LATER) ⌚⌚the door should be unlocked 🚪🚪 so you can still get in 👍👍 we shouldn’t be gone for long, have fun & be good 🥳🥳”

(i love writing foggy’s texts in case u can’t tell)

GUYS I JUST REALIZED THAT IF YOU REARRANGE THE LETTERS IN “FOGGY” YOU CAN KIND OF SPELL GOOFY

like “ggofy”

so that’s ur new contact name for him

anyways so you got to the building

and the door was LOCKED

like totally locked

and you tried like five times

so you decided to call karen

but it went to voicemail obvi

bc they were busy w a case

but u actually got a text back pretty quick

“you got locked out?? i KNEW we forgot something… how about you come down to the station? there’s plenty of places to sit.”

so you did!!

karen was waiting for you when you got there, and they even let you sit in on the conversation they were having

it was kinda intense but honestly rly cool to see what being a lawyer was actually like

so that took like an hour or two

but then they were finally done.

“you hungry y/n? we were going to go to lunch. there’s this place right down the street from the firm that’s really good.” matt said.

“sounds great!!” you replied, grateful that he had suggested it

and so that’s how you found yourself at josie’s in the middle of the day, laughing harder than you ever had before and having a chicken wing eating contest with foggy and some random regulars

josie was so nice too, like she seemed to love you from the moment you came in

and the wings she made smelled so good

so then one of the guys who was at the bar (kinda drunk lowkey but like fun drunk???)

he pointed at foggy and he was like

“i bet i could eat more wings than you.”

and you were like “uhhh i kind of doubt that bc i saw him eat his lunch yesterday and he’s like an animal with that stuff”

which was a lie you actually had no idea if he could or not

and matt was literally about to spit out his coke he was laughing so hard

“oh yeah?” he asked

imagine that villan eyebrow raise

“well then. looks like we have ourselves a competition!!”

and so then you got to sit at the bar with foggy, the man (whose name was marv btw) and another guy named brian

idk

and y’all ATE

figuratively AND literally

karen was so proud of you

she was cheering so loud

and again, matt’s coke was gonna go through his nose he was still laughing

long story short you won

ofc

duh

and marv was so funny he was like “well done… you might not beat me next time.”

and josie was like “ok marv”

anyways you were grinning from ear to ear.

you had never been happier

as you were walking back to the office, you decided to tell karen, matt, and foggy about how the people at school made fun of you when they found out where your placement was

and like how it had made u feel really bad at first but that you were so happy it turned out alright

BETTER than alright

“hey, kid. we DO have more fun!!” said foggy, clapping a hand on your shoulder.

“yeah. i know the type that would say stuff like that.” karen replied, making a twisted up face that made you laugh.

“you know you can come here anytime. even when you’re not technically scheduled!!” she said.

“it’s nice to have a fourth person around the office. someone with more sense than these two knuckleheads.” matt grinned. “who knows? maybe one day it’ll be y/l/n, nelson, murdock, and page!!”

“yeah, you can inherit it from us when we’re old!!” foggy said, enthusiastically nodding

“aw, you already are old!” you said, and karen laughed

and that’s when you knew you were right where you belonged :)

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#daredevil #nmcu daredevil #nmcu headcanons #matt murdock x teen!reader #foggy nelson x teen!reader #karen page x teen!reader #nelson murdock and page #nelson and murdock #matt murdock #karen page #foggy nelson #marvel #mcu #marvel headcanons #mcu headcanons

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compassionatereminders · 2 months

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Hi Kat,

I know you have quite a big following so I want to ask you something, just to see if any of your followers or even you experienced something similar. I apologize for a very long message btw.

The topic is: A STRANGER CLAIMS THEY KNOW YOU BUT YOU HAVE ACTUALLY NEVER MET THEM.

Firstly I would just like to say that I don't do drugs or drink. I'm a few years older than you, so while yes I'm 31 I'm still not an old grandma and my memory is pretty good.

I'm a person who still recalls how the voices of my ex-classmates sound (when I read books, or anything else, I read it with a voice in my head... if you know what I mean. I can recall voices I like and read text in that voice), I still know their names and last names. Except I don't know all the last names of my classmates that I went to high school with for 4 months (but I remember how they looked like, sounded like and I know their names, I just don't know last names of some people who had pretty long or complicated last names).

Now to the story. Last year I went to pay a lottery ticket for my dad. He plays a lottery ticket every week. I don't really know what this little store is called in English, we call it "trafika". You can pay lottery tickets there, you can pay bills, they sell magazines, some alcohol, cigarettes, little chocolate bars, chewing gums... and that's pretty much it. It's very small. A woman owns this store and she has 1 employee. One works in the morning, another one in the evening.

Last year, it was during summer break time I saw a new cashier - most likely the owner took some time off.

The new cashier wasn't rude looking or anything, but when I stepped into the store I got such an odd vibe, just a very uncomfortable feeling. This happens a lot to me... it's like an intuition I guess. And I'm usually right because when I get an odd vibe from someone something usually goes wrong.

I wanted to pay the lottery ticket when the woman called me by my name. I was quite surprised since I had never seen this woman in my life. She told me her name and because I was looking at her confused she told me she used to be my classmate.

I went to some high school for 4 months before I changed schools. Her name wasn't common, and I was even more confused because I would 100% remember a unique name. I have never had a classmate with that name.

I'm a loner, a quiet type so she would 100% not know me if she weren't my classmate. But even if I'm a loner I did speak with those classmates, heck I was forced to when we had to do stuff in groups and so on, so I 100% interacted with all my classmates at some point.

She even told me the name of the school I went to. I told her that I don't remember her at all, she seemed kind of disappointed and a bit mad, but since I saw this woman for the first time in my life I didn't feel the need to lie and pretend I did know her. I just felt like it would be more awkward if I lied. I paid for the lottery ticket and I said bye to her and told her I had to go because I was in a hurry (that was a lie but oh well. Her mad stare was kinda making me feel awkward so I just wanted to go asap)

The next week I didn't pay lottery ticket there but I went to the post office instead because this interaction kinda freaked me out a bit. I even crossed the street when I walked by in the next few days. But after a few days, the owner was back (you can see easily inside because it's a glass window and that woman never returned since then). I don't even know how many days that woman worked there because for 3 days I was too freaked out to even look at that direction, I know it sounds silly. And the day I looked there the owner was back. So I guess she was there less than 3 days?

What else gave me the creeps is... she really wanted to convince me that we knew each other. Something about that just felt off to me.

I know like 15 years passed since then but I swear to you on my life I don't remember ever meeting this person. I remember people who take the same bus as me, even if I see them on that bus once every month. And I don't brag I can recognize every person I have ever seen, because I can't. But if I remember a random person I see on the bus once per month, I'm sure I would remember this woman like I remember every single one of my classmates. This is why I feel crazy.

I deleted my facebook ages ago, and when I had facebook I was never sharing personal info like which school I went to or where I worked. So it's not like she was bored, saw me on social media, and decided to prank me.

I listen to yt stories sometimes and some stories are about how people shifted into a different reality. These are just interesting stories to me, nothing more. But that day I felt like this woman met another me in some different parallel universe, I know it seems crazy.

I find the idea of a parallel universe interesting but I don't know if I believe in all this, but it just felt like she is from a different reality where she met me. And in this reality, I never met her.

I lost all touch with ex classmates (they also live far away from me so it's not like I can run into them either) I can't ask anyone else if they remember her.

I usually don't message you on anon, but in this case, I will turn on the anon button... because I feel kinda crazy. Some time passed already but whenever I walk by I always think of this incident. And I was just curious if anyone else experienced something like that?

I agree that it's odd, but I don't believe in reality shifting and I think it's far more likely that you genuinely forgot one classmate after 15 years than that she's from a different reality. Even if your memory is unusually excellent

#chat with kat #reality shifting tw #paranormal tw #unreality tw #parallel realities tw #spirituality tw

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silkflovvers · 1 year

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hiiii hope u get to relax this weekend bud! so about that hot modern au diluc..... tell me why you hc him as aroace and did he have any past relationships before he figured it out? love knowing ppls sexuality hcs! please draw more modern diluc in classy sweaters and cute cardigans too btw... i want to show him off at pedigree show

I started a draft of this response on Friday and wrote a whole dang essay, so I am going to go back and make it less chaotic and a little more clear and concise jhskjdfh But thank you for sending in this ask ;u; I was happily playing with kitties and stuffing my face with good food all weekend, so it was a very nice break!

As for Modern AU Diluc, I've always liked the HC that he's asexual or demisexual. I don't see him as someone with much sexual attraction because I see a lot of aspects of his personality that me and many of the other asexual people I have known throughout my life all have shared. The aromantic headcanon is actually just for this specific AU! I have a 2nd modern AU where he is still asexual, but homoromantic! That AU is deep in my google docs and hasn't seen the light of day on social media yet, though. So it's very top secret shush shush lol

As for my thoughts for this specific AU, I thought he suited the aroace headcanon the most. I thought it made him a more compelling character within the story and modern setting and even made some of his relationships more complex to write and plan out. And I like a complex challenge when it means I get to pick apart a character's brain, even if I'm the one who technically gave them the brain since it's an AU....dissecting my own creation, if you will.

Since you asked more about his backstory, I'll leave some more info under the cut so I'm not clogging up people's dash ＊*♡( ⁎ᵕᴗᵕ⁎ ）

*Quick list of warnings for this AU before you proceed:

Crepus is dead in this AU, so there is technically past character death that is referenced often in regards to Diluc

Crepus died in a car accident and this is mentioned at least once or twice

There is past Diluven! They are not dating during the part of the story I've got the characters set in as of right now, but it is mentioned and integral information to a lot of the character's connections and backstories.

There are little hints that Diluc picked up bad habits after his fathers death and that he did not treat himself kindly. This behavior is comparable to self harm, so if that bothers you in the slightest, please proceed with caution. It is only vaguely referenced and never stated or explained outright. Man was lacking that self preservation mindset in-game when he ran off to avenge his father, so he also lacks it here, just in a different form

Kaeya and Diluc are portrayed as adopted brothers in this AU

Before I get into his back story, I'll give you his basic profile so you've got a little background info for him:

Character Profile:

Age: 29 Gender: Male Pronouns: He/Him Sexuality: Aromantic, Asexual Education: Bachelors of Science Business Management Occupation: Bar Owner, Bartender, Community Garden Volunteer (President) Relationship Status: Single Extra Info: Diagnosed with PTSD and Major Depression, Kaeya's adopted brother (estranged), has a full back piece tattoo done by Xiao.

You get some of that info from This art I posted before, but I actually made some small changes to the AU since I drew that! Sorry for any discrepancies. You should see the chaos that is my spreadsheet of character info for this AU alone. It nearly crashed my phone once just by opening it.

I'll start with the summary/TL;DR and expand a bit further on some parts just because I can!

TL;DR of how he found out he was AroAce:

Diluc dated Venti for convenience in high school, but never felt an attraction to him or anyone else.He only dated Venti to alleviate the pressure Jean felt from the rumors that she and DIluc were dating when they only saw each other as very close friends. He figured he'd eventually develop feelings for either Venti or someone else, but never did. He went through Trauma™ and officially left the main city in Mondstadt to find himself after the death of his father. He later found a trustworthy therapist who introduced him to the possibility of being AroAce.

Expanded Explanation:

In high school, Diluc watched many of his friends develop crushes and date and chase after love interests. He never really understood it. When people would ask him if he had feelings for anyone, he never had an answer. He didn't feel the need to date or flirt. The idea of being romantic with anyone quite frankly felt strange and foreign to him. He cared for his friends deeply and developed strong bonds, but he never considered any of them to be romantic in nature. Many people mistook his friendship with Jean as romantic due to how close they were.

The rumors put pressure on them both to become an item even if they didn’t have romantic feelings for each other. To relieve some of that pressure, Diluc did his best to try to find someone he felt comfortable returning affection, albeit insincere, to. So many people approached him with such sincerity, it felt wrong. So, when a short, bubbly upperclassman approached him with an offhanded flirt, he flirted back. It was a shaky attempt, but he could tell the star of the theater music department wouldn’t take things too seriously and there was nothing to lose. So, he got closer to Venti and asked him out. He wasn’t expecting they’d become the sweethearts of the school, nor that they’d be voted prom kings and cutest couple in the school year book. What was meant to be an unserious relationship to relieve pressure on himself and his dear friend, became a tiresome obligation.

Venti was two years older, and graduated the year after they started dating. Unfortunately, Diluc was still stuck pretending. His last year put more strain on him than he’d like to admit and it became so evident, even Jean began to worry. Before she could ask if he was alright and offer help, tragedy struck.

While driving he and his father to a promotional event for the family business, an SUV lost control on the highway and sent DIluc and his father’s car flying off the road and into the forest at the bottom of the incline beside it. Crepus suffered a severe injury and died before the ambulance or Kaeya arrived. Diluc blamed himself and the SUV that had driven off after the impact.

Tha took a toll on his mental state. The strain of pretending to be like everyone else proved too much on top of the new issues that instantly popped up after the death of his father. As the eldest son, just freshly 18, he was given the reins to the family business. He had to pick up the work in his father’s absence until things could be settled. He also had his finals and college applications to worry about. Venti’s pestering and unwanted advances tested Diluc’s limits and eventually sent him over the edge.

He broke up with Venti at a school dance he had to attend as president of the student council the day before his father’s funeral. Kaeya told him something (I won’t cover in this post) that shattered his hope for the future. In a blind rage he won’t be able to fully remember years later, he kicked Kaeya out and was left alone in a big empty house, save for the handful of staff that still cared for the house. After that, he simply stopped going to class. He did everything in his power to track down the man that killed his father, that the police still had yet to catch.

Within the time he spent obsessively searching for the man, Adelinde and Elzer were doing their best to talk him down and gently guide him towards getting his GED and attending a nearby college in the hopes of helping him back into a stable routine to get his mind off the grief he clearly was not processing in a healthy manner.

At some point, Diluc relented and did as they had asked. His rage simmered out and was replaced with numbness. He would not remember the years of rage or the time spent getting his degree due to his own specific response to the trauma he endured. He took on the family business for a year before he realized it was best to leave it to the people that knew more than he did and the people he knew his father had trusted to keep things running. He stepped down from the company and gave the position to Elzer. Though sad to see him go, the Dawn Winery staff were happy to see him leave to find himself and hopefully work through the grief he’d felt for all these years. He left Mondstadt proper to live in a smaller college town. It was where Jean had gone to pursue her degree and now her Masters. Once there, he opened up a small bar that quickly grew in popularity. He had direct contact with the most well known winery in Mond, so of course he had the highest quality alcohol.

As popularity grew, he was able to hire more staff, leaving him with more and more free time. In the mental state he was in, that free time wasn’t a good thing. Bad habits formed back in college and he still was not coping in healthy ways. As his free time increased, his mental state got worse. He thought getting out and finding something to do would help, so he joined as a volunteer at the community gardens. It was something he could do to distract himself and speak with others in a relatively stress free environment. There he met Zhongli, the person who tended to the beehives in the garden. Zhongli was kind, patient and understanding and very quickly became someone Diluc could call a friend. It helped a lot, the gardens and the new faces, until winter came and there wasn’t much to do when it was too cold for most plants to grow.

It reached a point where Jean was checking in on him frequently. She could tell things were bad. Feeling guilty for worrying his dearest friend so much, he finally reached out for help. With Zhongli and Jean’s assistance, he found a trustworthy therapist who helped guide him towards a healthier path and helped him through his emotions and thoughts. She introduced him to the concept of both Aromantic and Asexual identities. Having that support and direction helped improve his mental state and kept him from dropping back into the worst of his lows. Knowing he wasn’t broken in some way for not searching for romance or intimacy helped quite a bit. It wasn’t so much the label as it was knowing there were other people like him.

He also met Rosaria, who became a regular at his bar. The two later found out they were both Aromantic and bonded quite a bit over the fact. He came to rely on her as a more quiet and subtle source of support and understanding. Zhongli also became much closer to him and revealed they were genderfluid. The concept was somewhat foreign to Diluc, but it opened up his eyes to how diverse humans were in both their identities and presence. Zhongli then introduced him to Xiao, a young man they had taken in after he was in a terrible accident at a young age. Xiao dealt with chronic pain and the heavy guilt of being the only survivor of that accident that killed his closest friends. He and Diluc got along well. Further down the road, Diluc asked Xiao to do his back tattoo, trusting him with a design that symbolized his journey towards healing. Xiao, though he wouldn't admit it outright, was honored to have the bar owner's respect and freedom to design and complete the tattoo.

Now, Diluc is surrounded by and even more diverse community that helps him through the healing and self discovery process.

Thank you for asking me about him and this AU in general :> I have a bunch of google docs with more of his and the other character's stories, but I'll save them for another time, since that wasn't exactly what you asked for ahahaha whoops. Can't wait to draw more of him soon!

Hope you're having a lovely day!

#silkflovversask #txt #mauv1

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1: among the two actual trilogies that have been made, of course.

4: Yes, you can name mandalorians. 😔

6: Marbled or not, it’s open bar today.

7: Mandalorians are not a race, it’s a creed. 😑

9: Go ahead, nerd on.

12: All Media Included.

15: ALL MEDIA INCLUDED.

Hehehehe... 🙃👍

1. movie

Of course. My fave, I'd say, it would be a tie (lol) between The Phantom Menace and The Empire Strikes Back. The first is because it holds a very special place in my heart because of how I saw it the first time (and the 345663213 times after), how my friends and I, we rushed out of school at lunch each saturday of every weeks to grab a burger and a ticket, and sit in the theatre, and then…

We knew the film by heart at some point! But it was the whole point, actually. It was magical for us…✨

As for The Empire Strikes Back, it taught me an important storytelling lesson as a child: that your heroes don't always have the upper hand, sometimes the bad guys are on top of things and put up a real challenge to the main characters, even if they still win at the end of the story.

My least fave though would sadly be Attack of the Clones… while there are some of my favourite characters and moments in it. 🤔

4. character

I better be allowed to name Mandos! Because, obviously, my fave character is Canderous. But I also like Din very much.

Which character is my least fave is a little less easy, though… I could say Jar-Jar, but I don't hate him all that much. He's just an annoying character to me. Characters I don't like usually are from media I don't like and steer clear from, so… I couldn't really say. But from those I like or even love?! Now, I have food for thoughts.

6. planet

Fave planet would be Dantooine and Naboo. I kinda like Corellia (don't say that to Ela) and Onderon (from KotOR, please…) too.

And least fave planet… Hoth. I love the cold and snowy landscapes and all but, it looks like too much there! I like the taun taun, though… I could add Telos post bombing too.

7. species

But Canderous said they were a breed appart!!!! 😲 So, clones then? 🤡… Ok, ok! I can't choose just one fave, anyway. I love Mon Calamari and Nautolan. Even Quarrens! And Bothans. And I know Kal and my babies the clones would hate me for it but… Kaminoans! 😅

Least fave, I'm sorry but Aqualish and Bith are making my skin crawl. They always did! I never watched the cantina scene as a child. Jabba is just disgusting (as a person, lol) but the Bith…?! I'm sorry, I can't. (Same goes with the Ood in Doctor Who, btw.)

9. ship

Fave ships!!! I love the LAAT/i the larty the GAR/clones gunships! 😭 And the Razor Crest definitely grew on me after a while and a few snickers. I have a few classes of freighters I like too. Like a certain Lantilian short hauler. And I know someone who's very proud of his newly acquired Gozanti… and I can understand why.

Least fave ships… Honestly, it may surprise you because how much I speak about them in Lost and Found, but I never liked the TIE fighters all that much.

But my real two least faves are the weird Jedi starship Obi-Wan is piloting in AotC, because of that dubious hyperdrive ring and how claustrophobic it looks, even compared to TIEs ans X-wings. And — unpopular opinion — Jango's Slave I. The way that thing takes off and fly like it's standing up… It hurts something in a corner of my mind, I can't explain! 🤣

12. moment/scene

Fave moment, more like moments, I'd say. Mando checking the Crest's vicinity on Arvala (the use of silences and calm ambient in this season!!!!!! 😭💖✨) Mando against the mudhorn (and almost all of episode 2, actually), Mando rampaging the safehouse to snatch the kid back + the whole scene with Pershing of course, Cara yelling 'Weapons ready!' in episode 4, Peli caring for the child and shoving Mando aside after he shot Toro, Din fist fighting Gideon's TIE… 🤣 Ok, sorry, I also like a lot of scenes in other medias of course! Shmi and Anakin saying goodbye brings tears to my eyes, when Leia hears Luke throught the Force the first time, Luke coming to 'negotiate' to Jabba's palace and when Vader yeets Palps down the shaft… Vader asking Luke to take his mask off too, and the pyre scene while everybody is celebrating. 😭💔

Also, in OG Clone Wars, Fordo and his brothers wrecking Sep forces on Muunilinst in apparent silence like the badasses they are!!! And don't get me started on Republic Commando.

Least fave moment would be in Revenge of the Sith, the whole Mustafar light saber fights between Anakin and Obi-Wan. I always found it awkward and dragging… 😫 Yes, much more than the Utapau chase.

15. line of dialogue

I'm going to stick to the media I like, because if I didn't it would be too easy to quote this and that… 🙄 So, fave line is from A New Hope, when Owen and Luke are fighting over him leaving Tatooine at the beginning.

Aunt Beru: Where are you going?!

Luke: Looks like I'm going nowhere.

This quote gets me everytime. 😔👍

Least fave, I had to think a little longer about it. There are a lot of things the Jedi say that rubs me the wrong way, and the turbo-cringe way Anakin is flirting with Padmé… But I think it would be 'Unlimited Powaaaaah'!!! 🤣 Because it kills the gravitas for me and makes me burst into laughter!!

> Ask me my fave and least fave!

#starwars ask #fave/least fave #hathorik #thank you 💕#starwars #star wars

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izu-lu · 1 year

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Sweet Jesus I went back to wattpad yesterday bc I ran out of Bard fics on here and ao3 (the hobbit, you know the guy I hope, anyways he's fucking attractive although he is another older person who I shouldn't be simping for but I do bc Daddy Issues y'know, the good stuff and all that)

Anyways back ehen I was reading on wattpad THE BAR WAS SO FUCKING LOW OML

Like, bro, I had to scroll through like 10 oneshot books to find one bard fic and it wasn't even good

Same with back when I had my Jiang Cheng phase (btw the dude is still hot) and I tried to hunt down some fics on wattpad a lord help me that was so much better than the shit I just saw (and I was on the english side, like, the hungarian would be so much worse sweet jesus)

Seriously, I didn't opened the app for like 6 months now and holy shit I missed out on so many laughs

So yeah now I want to go back and read trash while roasting 11-year-olds' logic in the comments

Ah the good times back then when we were planning to get holy water together under some hungarian cursed romance story which was written by the 12-year-old form of Satan himself

OMG I JUST REMEMBERED I WAS A HORSEGIRL OML WATTPAD+HORSEGIRL STORIES WHAT WAS INSPIRED BY LIKE 2 GAMES PEOPLE PLAYED (There were star stable online fanfictions about the npcs, trust me)

Seriously, the amount of weird "omg this new guy jake just arrived to my stable and i'm so in love with him, yes I just saw him two minutes ago but i'm planning our wedding and his horse is so cute, he's pretty mysterious tho" stories I saw was hilarious. And I read them. Not seriously tho, just to destroy my braincells (alright, I maybe had some hope in some of them, but just as I said, the bar was on the floor)

I don't know about you guys (yes, the two friends I have here who read my posts, btw idk why I'm writing in english, rip Eszti) but there were like these wolf-pack-alpha-girl stories what I actually read when I just got to wattpad and holy shit those were brutal. I mean, to the reader's braincells. I think now I understand why do I have moments where my brain just crashes (and I'm supposed to be a good student in a good school, not back in my elementary school what was literally a ghetto (but seriously, the smallest classroom what was hardly classifies as a language classroom was actually a classroom, like, they shoved in twenty-something people in there)

I wrote a whole essay for you guys, enjoy lmao

#wattpad rant #writing this was nostalgic lol #wattpad

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I actually saw a comment saying something in the lines of your most recent post about CRWBY having a plan & also ridiculing & mocking everyone that thinks they can do better than MKEK. 🙄

So yeah, first of all, I don't know why it's considered an end-all argument to say that MKEK had a plan from the start. The only ways it impacts the perception of them is in a negative way like I said, and it just isn't believable with the product they churn out. But it's also such a pointless sentiment. If I say "I don't like the way they did James Ironwood's fall to villainy," the argument "well they always wanted him to be bad" doesn't matter at all to the conversation about whether or not it was done well. Most things in RWBY have the problem of execution, the writing is bad, the set up isn't enough, the dialogue is stilted and awkward, things either move at a snails pace or at lightning speed, the writers don't know what to do with their characters, etc. Which, btw, I've heard that there are fans that are complaining that RWDE posters like the concepts of RWBY but not the execution now and that that means we're just angry that the things we wanted didn't happen. Which is hilarious to me, because I thought that the problem was that we were bashing the ideas of RWBY instead of focusing on details like execution and that that was proof of the fact that we were just mad our headcanons didn't happen. So that's just further proof that there's literally nothing critics can do or say to be considered a 'good RWBY critic' and toxic RWBY fans just want to twist everything we say or do into something they can make fun of so they can pretend RWBY is perfect.

But! Back on track, this is gonna be a long post under the keep reading. Lately I can't write anything to be short, sweet, and to the point. XD More RWDE underneath, obviously.

I think first of all that there's this weird thing toxic RWBY fans do, where they take any re-write to be 'a conceited attempt to pretend you're better than the writers,' which often isn't the case. I feel like only fics or stories actually labeled 'fix its' should be even sort of seen under this light. And even then, most people I've seen recognize that they have a lot of time to think things through with no deadlines, have some distance from projects, and are building off of someone else's creation when they make fix-its, and therefore it can't properly be used to compare whether or not someone is a 'better' writer or creator than MKEK.

What people can compare to MKEK in terms of writing/creating are their own works, their own created projects. Whether that's published, professional works, or original stories published on AO3 or FictionPress. But the bar for being 'better than MKEK' in that regard is very low. I myself have never managed to make anything of my own enough to even publish it on AO3, despite my wide variety of concepts and characters that I love. I'm not very good at writing on my own (I mostly write fan fictions with my sisters,) and I've rarely completed a fan fiction, and even then, I get insecure about publishing my work even on AO3. So while I consider myself pretty good at understanding characters and very good at concept creation, I can't know if I would make a better product than MKEK if I had the money, resources, and time right now to make something of my concepts. But that doesn't make me unequipped to spot some ways that MKEK has faltered and gone wrong. To suggest that people who have never *made an animated seires* are unequipped to criticize or point out flaws in one is basically like watching someone eat a hard and moldy cake and then yelling at them when they complain because they're not a trained chef and they've never owned a bakery. It doesn't take a genius to realize that RWBY's writing is flawed and the writers don't know what they're doing. Then when the unsatisfied customer says they're just gonna make the same kind of cake only without the mold and make it soft, it's "oh so now you think you're a better baker, huh? You can't make their cake any better, how dare you remove that mold!" And then if the baker makes a mistake, the person yelling at them promptly ignores that the original cake can be used as a stepstool due to how hard it is and that it's practically green with mold , and laugh about how the unexperienced baker undercooked their cake so now it's too soft in the middle. And once again, this allegory...

Point being 1. Very few people are actually this conceited image of someone pretending to be God's gift to writers because they're making a RWBY re-write. 2. You kind of can't judge whether or not you're actually better than MKEK in writing by comparing a re-write or fix-it to the OG product, holding up your own original works is better. 3. You don't have to be a writer to know that MKEK's writing is bad and does suck, and therefore the bar for 'what's better than MKEK' is very low. Disney Channel's Lemonade Mouth is better writing than MKEK. Sonic Adventure Director's Cut is better writing than MKEK. Wreck It Ralph 2: Ralph Breaks the Internet... Might actually be worse.

However, you can easily know whether or not you're better than MKEK in terms of *not being offensive and writing in an inclusive way.* Which is really not hard to do. "I'm actually going to include confirmed gay characters in the main cast of my story." Congrats, you're better at rep than MKEK is. "I'm going to make sure that my LGBTQ+ inclusion isn't wholly centered around queer women, I'm going to have queer women, queer men, and non-binary rep." Congrats, you're better at rep than MKEK is. "I'm going to not brutalize one of the only two people of color in the main cast, and I'm going to make sure that I don't portray the other as being bad for thinking things that his white friends don't, and needing to change." Congrats, you're better at rep than MKEK is. "I'm going to have a main character become disabled and actually put work into writing her recovery and not have her dismiss her prosthetic as 'just extra' and not a part of her. And I'm not going to depict disabilities in other people as monstrous signs of a loss of humanity that signals their downfall into cruelty." Congrats, you're better at rep than MKEK. Etc. Etc. It really isn't hard at all to beat out MKEK in terms of rep, considering they're behind the curve.

Funnily enough, when I was around eighteen-to-twenty two, I had a concept of a post-apocalyptic anime style cartoon centering a Very Special girl who joins the army/police equivalent program in the world and has adventures with her group of friends including a somewhat-Spirit-Albarn based mentor character and a fantasy-equivalent fake racism plot. This was before I had ever done more than watched and disliked the first two episodes of RWBY, having turned it off because it read like a low-budget attempt at a Disney channel storyline based show. And I was stupid and indoctrinated at the time and I'm so glad that I never did do anything with it, because I would've churned out a horrible and much more offensive than I realized product. But! Do you know what my fake-racism plot plan included? The oppressed people fighting the government for their rights, and the heroes fighting alongside them instead of fighting against them, and taking down the corrupt government officials who resisted that. Even my terrible past ideas that I'm embarrassed of now that I definitely wouldn't do now aren't as bad or as offensive as the product MKEK gave us. So I think it's ridiculous when people say things like 'you guys are making fix-its and re-writes? So you think you're better than MKEK?' In terms of writing, maybe not, but at the same time

But! On that note, I do want to caution people with intent to write re-writes... I wouldn't call them 'fix-its' if you're gonna go too off script with what you do. Admittedly, it's hard to write a RWBY fix-it without going off script specifically when it comes to the Faunus/White Fang stuff, and Adam specifically, because all of that was one big mess. But generally speaking, if you go off script in terms of ships, basic plot points, excluding characters or keeping them around when they weren't in the OG, changing too much in terms of how the world works or how the dynamics are supposed to work, you get into 'this is what I wish happened' territory. That's not a fix it, that's an AU, a re-write, and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. But for instance, say someone is writing a RWBY fix-it and they decide that instead of fixing Bumbleby as a relationship, establishing it earlier on to let the burn simmer, making them healthier or having them work through some of the unhealthy aspects of their relationship... They just scrap it completely and go with BlackSun and Freezerburn. That's not a real fix-it, that does feel like someone who is writing a version of RWBY that suits them better. If it doesn't need to be changed in order to be a good concept, then changing it is a wish fulfillment, not a 'fix.' Things like established ships, character deaths, the characters leaving Beacon, and even Ironwood turning evil are all not bad ideas, they're just very badly done.

#rwde #anti rwby #rwby hate #rwby bashing #rwby criticism #rwby critical #anti crwby #pro ironwood #anti mkek

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butmakeitgayblog · 2 years

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hiiiii! hope you're doing okay. i really love your fics and yours are one of the few that i look forward to reading whenever you have one out. as a baby clexa fic writer, i personally try not to read other fics because i'm afraid that i might unconsciously copy an idea of theirs that i already have in mind, or might just be fitting in the story i try to write. have you had any troubles like this or is it just me being more of an academic writer than one who writes for leisure? which im also having trouble with, btw. i find it hard to write conversational dialogues that are authentic because english isn't my first language and the only time i ever write in it is when i do schoolwork. i might be thinking too much of it, idk. 🤷🏻‍♀️

all in all, really this is just an appreciation ask for you and your works from an anon who devours clexa fanfics, most of which are your works. you write with a flow (idk if that makes sense). so thank you so much for your works, and just want to say (again), you're works are some of the best I've read and keep on rereading again and again. hope you have a great day!!!

Thank you so much, this was such a lovely message and I'm so glad you like them 💕 and if you stories are on ao3 send the link!

Tbh I do think you're being too hard on yourself. Dialogue is seriously so hard to write, and the fact that you're multi/bilingual and doing it is impressive all on its own. My dumbass can't speak two languages and am even shit at just English as it is. So yeah that's something to be proud of.

As for the question, honestly not much. At least not consciously. I haven't really struggled with it myself but also I was a silent reader for years in the fandom before I ever tried my hand at writing. I had no idea what I was doing when I first started (still don't 🥴) and I actually think the fact that I had read so many fics helped me immensely. It helped me see different styles and approaches and techniques that were successful. Listened to criticisms people had and things they liked in others writing. Helped me see how stories were best structured. And then applied all that to my writing when I finally got the guts to try and put my thoughts into words, and slowly over time I've developed my own style just through trial and error. But I absolutely give it up to the other clexa authors for being a bit of a collection of crash course teachers that helped me even if they didn't know it lol

And beyond that, I honestly think reading other's stories can help give you inspiration, rather than looking at it like you're copying. I think reading others work is invaluable actually. Who cares if an idea seems close to another, that's nothing. Heck, my niche in the fandom is literally taking movies and rewriting them as clexa🤷‍♀️. Can't copy more than that. But there's really no such thing as a unique idea anymore, and even still if you had 3 writers all sit down with the exact same prompt, you get 3 completely different stories. Even if the general idea or plot points are similar, your voice and your story will always be it's own thing (obviously barring intentional plagiarism but I know that's not what you mean)

It actually reminds me of a post I saw years back about another writer saying they were afraid that they had no unique ideas for a fic and the person answering them said something like, think of your story as a cake. You see your cake sitting there on the table next to someone else's and all you can think is, "mine isn't as pretty as theirs. Mine's vanilla and their's is chocolate and look at how much taller there's is than mine." You're looking at your cake and seeing all it's flaws, all the ways you think yours is subpar to the other, but the birthday person is just having the time of their life because "HELL YEAH, TWO CAKES!" That's how readers feel. They wanna read your coffee shop au and the 1300 other coffee shop aus because hell yeah, 1301 coffee shop aus 🥳

#anon #writing #nice things

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itsclydebitches · 3 years

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Godddddd I'm so upset that I dislike yen this much, doing main quests in skellige and Freyas ppl were doing stuff and she again disrespected other cultures with Geraly being against, "I may be inhumanly beautiful" I know she's meant to be confident but wowww. She's not confident and worried for Ciri she just comes off arrogant and selfish and vain. Like, fuck.

The ultimate mood, anon. My Witcher fandom life would be so much easier if I enjoyed Yen ... but I just do not lol. Remember how I mentioned that things were going to get even worse than her stealing and using a potentially dangerous artifact? Yeeeaah. She also resurrects Ciri's friend to torture him for information, all while destroying another sacred garden to get the power to do it! It's not even a "She's so evil and I love it 😏" situation for me because the game tries so hard to convince us that she's still The Best. Geralt's sexy soulmate, Ciri's adoring mother, the baddest bitch around who gets things done and does it with an effortless confidence... all while ignoring how horrific her actions and attitude are. Oh sure, other characters speak ill of her at times, but considering how much Geralt is written to adore her, no matter what you choose, that's all undermined. I love morally gray/evil characters, but I've never enjoyed them when the text refuses to appropriately acknowledge that side of them. Nothing is more frustrating to me than a story that frames disliking a character as the unambiguously wrong thing to do, especially when the text is piling up reasons to dislike them and, as a result, ignoring or shrugging them off their actions as not that bad. Yen is a rather extreme example of that for me. Despite her attitude, her choices, and other characters outright going, "Why do you like her?" the story as a whole works under the assumption that it's correct to like her anyway because Geralt loves her. And he loves her for... reasons.

They do meet before the wish, but only just. Major "The Last Wish" spoilers in this paragraph, so feel free to skip. Basically, Geralt and Dandelion run into trouble with a djinn, he goes to Yen for help since she's a sorceress (first time meeting her), he instantly falls for her because she's gorgeous and such (there's an elf there who is also madly in love with Yen. Men just... fall for her, instinctually), she heals Dandelion, Geralt agrees to pay her, but Yen has already decided on the payment she wants. She takes control of Geralt's mind and forces him to attack the town to seek revenge on those who have insulted her, resulting in him waking up in prison awaiting execution for "his" crimes. Meanwhile, Yen has gone after the djinn for herself because power/trying to regain her ability to have a kid. Geralt escapes, finds her failing to master the djinn (an attempt which btw has endangered the whole town) and despite what she's done to him, Geralt tries to get Yen to escape with him. She refuses, set on capturing the djinn even though it's obvious she can't. So as a last resort he uses the final wish to bind their fates together, saving Yen from the djinn in the process. Aaaaaand then they have sex.

So yeah, their rocky relationship is one of the main reasons why I can't enjoy Yen. For some their tumultuous history is evidence of realism, for me it's evidence that they're not actually very compatible and they're only together because a) that's the fantasy trope: protagonist men get together with the hot sorceress and b) because the magic is literally ensuring that they can't escape one another. I mean, canonically their fates are tied together by magic and canonically they spend about 20 years swinging between passionate love and fearsome fights... but there's supposedly no connection between these two things? No chance at all that they keep coming together because magic is drawing them rather than because they actually want/should be together? I wrote a meta a while back about the short story where they meet, which includes a present day scene where Geralt is criticized by another character — Nenneke — for running out on Yen. Thing is, he tries to explain that he left because she was "too possessive" and this is... flat out ignored. By both Nenneke and the fandom. There's a strong trend of ignoring Geralt's words in favor of a pro-Yen interpretation of events. He says he left because she was too possessive and she treated him like ____ — he's not allowed to finish the sentence and say what she treated him like because Nenneke interrupts him, saying she doesn't care about his version of events. Major yikes imo! She turns a claim of being possessive into Geralt not being man enough to stick around. The fandom likewise turns this into a case of Geralt getting cold feet and running out because he's a bastard who hates commitment. Likewise, Nenneke and the fandom claim Geralt is trying to get Yen money as a way of appeasing his guilt for leaving, he claims he's doing it simply because he still cares for her — even if he doesn't want to be with her — and knows she needs it. Geralt's words are frequently dismissed, in the same way others characters' opinions of Yen are dismissed. Any mark against her is treated as either a lie, or a convoluted claim that they don't really know her... never mind that an understanding of why she may act this way doesn't excuse the behavior itself. (Plus, the whole "Yen had a horrible upbringing, so of course she struggles being kind" perspective always fell flat to me when so many, including witchers, had horrendous upbringings too. The whole point is this world is a mess and most everyone suffers). It's supposedly true love, yet if someone came up to me and went, "I magically tied my fate to this woman to keep her from getting herself killed and we've spent the last couple decades having what many would term a rocky relationship, to put it kindly. I left once because she was too controlling. She once cheated on me. I likewise hooked up with others during our frequent breakups. A mutual friend used magic to get me to have sex with her — also while my lover and I were broken up — and though I view it as a dumb decision I'm happy to forgive her for, my lover is ready to commit murder because again: possessive. A lot of the time we're only a family because of our daughter. I once thought she'd horrifically betrayed us both. She didn't, but it says something that I was so ready to believe it, huh? Hmm? Permanently separated? Of course not! I love her. We're destined to be together after all :)" I'd be like, "Uh... you sure about that, dude?"

Not that Geralt doesn't make his fair share of mistakes in the relationship — he absolutely does — but I don't think it helps his case that he's immature in other ways and, frankly, that he's a very strong, badass witcher. It's easy to turn the hints we get about their relationship into a simplistic "emotionally naive man can't give the poor woman the commitment she wants" situation. Given Geralt's status as the badass fighter of the tale, it's likewise easy to dismiss his admissions of her being "possessive" and his general discomfort. He's the man. He's the witcher. If he's making any claims about how Yen isn't treating him well, they must be excuses, or exaggerations, because real men, especially physically powerful men, would do something about that — a something that's not sneaking out in the middle of the night. A lot of people read Geralt leaving as the ultimate proof that he's an immature bastard who doesn't deserve her. I read him leaving and think, "What were you trying to get away from? What was going on that made you think you could only leave by sneaking out without a word?" To me, that doesn't read as someone who felt safe, comfortable, and respected enough to do anything but slip away and try to wash his hands of things. And I'm not just pulling this "Geralt is at least somewhat afraid of Yen and isn't comfortable establishing boundaries with her" reading out of my ass. When Yen wants Geralt to kill the golden dragon for her and he refuses, saying he doesn't care anymore, his thoughts are:

He expected the worst: a cascade of flames, flashes of lightning, blows raining down on his face, insults and curses. There was nothing. He saw, with astonishment, only the subtle trembling of her lips. Yennefer turned around slowly. Geralt regretted his words.

And everyone is like, "See! Yen has improved so much. Geralt nearly made her cry, but she's supposed to be the bad guy here?" Meanwhile, I'm going, "Uh... anyone want to unpack why he expects fire, lightning, insults, curses, and blows to his face for telling her no? Why he's astonished that she wouldn't use her magic against him? Anyone think that Yen refraining from attacking Geralt when he refuses to murder on her command is a pretty low bar? No? Just me?"

Geralt and Yen's relationship makes me uncomfortable and a great deal of that discomfort derives from how much of the Witcher fandom shrugs off the fictional warning signs. I mean, I post primarily about RWBY. We watched a man in that show try to sneak away with his kids when his villainous wife planned to use them for a eugenics plan... and the fandom still blames him for that, refusing to admit that he was in an abusive relationship. Because that doesn't happen to men, right? I'm not saying it's the same for Geralt and Yen, simply because they are written to be soulmates. An abusive relationship was, quite obviously, never the authorial intent. However, I am saying that the a "This isn't a healthy relationship" reading is there, it exists as an interpretation, and both the story and fandom's tendency to dismiss it is something that hasn't helped me enjoy Yen's status as an otherwise well written, complex character. Their equality supposedly stems in part because they're both so flawed, yet each time I see a list of Geralt's supposedly equal faults they're... lacking imo. "Geralt bound himself to Yen without her consent." Yeah, to save her from dying from the djinn she was trying to enslave, after she refused to leave, while her actions threatened a whole town. "Geralt ran off without a word." Mmm hmm, anyone care about why? And my personal favorite is a scene you may not have gotten to yet (or may not get depending on your choices), but suffice to say, Yen is supposedly justified in physically attacking Geralt if he dares to challenge her in any way. That's the main takeaway across the fandom: If Yen is pissed off, you must have done something to deserve it which, in the relationship deliberately written to be "stormy," is something that sets all the alarm bells in my head off. Honestly, it kinda makes my skin crawl to go, "Geralt didn't deserve that" and get responses back of, "Yeah he did because he [insert basic human action here]." The Witcher world is hard and cruel, absolutely, but that doesn't mean I personally enjoy seeing an equally messed up relationship presented as something that's enviable in its flaws. "That's actually true love because the magically bound man who often expresses discomfort with his lover, written by a male author with a very iffy perspective on women, says it's true love." Crazy theory here, but... maybe it's not?

Idk, lots of rambling on my end tonight! For me, Geralt/Yen reads as something rather tragic which, in a canon that unironically upholds the relationship, and in a Yen-adoring fandom, doesn't make enjoying her character any easier. I keep coming back to Witcher 3, the comics, the show, even the books going, "Maybe I'll like her this time?" but nope, still trying lol.

#witcher #mymetas

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chenxhen · 3 years

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Ah yes the Rina shipper was me. Funny how you called me toxic, and now tagged yourself as the villain. 😂 Please stop being a snowflake and just let us live our lives. And btw I'm never in the p0rtwell hashtag. I simply just searched "Ricky gina" in the search bar cuz weird stuff shows up when I search the Rina tag. And what do I see when I scroll through? Someone who was calling out Rina shippers for being toxic. Now I agreed with what the original poster said. Some of us can be very rude on twitter. But I was curious so I looked at the notes and lo what do I see? Someone calling ME out for a joke I made on twitter. Someone who was SO PISSED at something I posted out of context, in which I clearly tagged only Rina and hsmtmts. It had nothing to do with your ship, and I was just upset and venting in what I thought was a safe space. I don't usually call people out, but I have to defend myself. I AM NOT a toxic shipper. I have NEVER interacted in any way with the p0rtwell and rini fandom. I firmly believe in let live/ship. But this just proves my point that everyone else in the fandom is so quick to call rinas toxic, for just about anything.

And for context, my post on twitter was literally just: If Ricky and Gina don't talk to each other in the finale #cancelhsmtmts is on. I WAS UPSET AT HOW THE WRITERS WERE TREATING THEIR STORY. I don't even hate p0rtwell. They're cute. BUT I HATED HOW RICKY AND GINA DIDN'T EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE EACH OTHER. Am I not allowed to have feelings? Am I not allowed to vent in what I thought was a safe space? I always only take my posts #rina and #hsmtmts. And I made it very clear in my other tweets that I would follow the show, but not actually watch it. And I thought the gif I used made it clear I wasn't serious. 🙄 Why are some people such snowflakes?

You don't know me so don't judge me. If you knew anything about me, you'd know that almost 90% of things are say are 100% jokes. I take things very lightly and maybe so should you?

Please stop stereotyping us. You say you believe in let live/ship, but why do you care so much about what we're saying? I don't see us rinas caring that much about p0rtwells and rinis. If you claim to be a non-toxic shipper, do what the non-toxic shippers do, and ignore whatever you don't want to see.

Thank you.

(I'm so sorry for this rant, but it's been on my mind since I saw her post, and I just needed some of my own closure 😂)

#ricky gina #hsm the series #hsmtmts #ricky x gina #rina

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sparklingpax · 3 years

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Hello! Your amazing Batfam art came up on my feed today and Im 🥺🥺🥺!! batfam is one my biggest obsessions!!!!! So I wanted to stop by and say 1) AHDKSHSKSJAJD IM LOVE THE ART YOU DID (also ur Terry McGinnis art is INCREDIBLE)

and 2) I don't know you so I don't know what kind of fanfiction you like, (and it's very possible you've already read it!), so feel free to ignore this!!! But, I wanted to recommend my absolute FAV batfam fic/series!!!! It's one I recommend to basically anyone who even slightly likes batman bc it's just. That. Good. The first work in the series is called Foreign Object, and the series is called Cor et Cerebrum. It's written by AudreyCritter on Ao3!!!

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/7804285/chapters/17807005

The characterization, the story line, the interaction between characters, the writing style,,,, EVERYTHING is just!!! It's all I could ask for in a story. I'm constantly recommending it to my friends (and anyone I come across) and it's basically an unofficial fandom within a fandom bc everyone I've talked to that has read it is also obsessed 😂 (btw, I saw in your blog description not to request nsfw, whether that matters for rec'ing something idk, but this series has no smut, and there is only one short [that isn't part of the main storyline] that is rated M and it's for gore. Everything else is T or G rated.)

Like I said feel free to ignore this! I tend to make a fool of myself when it comes to this bc I get too excited about this story and batfam in general... ^^; i simply see someone who also likes batfam and cannot keep my mouth shut haha

HIIII AAAAAAAA (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

Ok ok so first off, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! >//w//< Like seriously, I'm flattered you like the art!!! I don't get to draw dc stuff much (barring the last three art posts), and I wish I could! The Bruce Timm art style is just so much easier for me to understand ;w; ✨ I know I'm a Transformers blog, but taking a break to draw something easier is nice too! lmao I'm rambling again so I'll just move on now--

(So sorry I didn't respond when this first came to my inbox aa ^^'' as usual, I'm so bad at responding to people sdjdsjsdj I just get nervous about how my response sounds and overthink everything, and then it takes me a while to actually write it out... o//o)

Second, that fic sounds really interesting!! I honestly don't get around to reading much fanfic anymore, since I spend more time writing my own or working on art stuff or binge-watching one of the hundreds of shows on my to-watch list ahah but oh my goodness?? A well-written batfam-centric fic???? *eyes emoji intensifies* aight, I'll definitely check it out!!

And thank you very much for the warning! <3 I mean tbh nsfw and the like doesn't bother me too much, I'm just so terrible at writing/drawing nsfw stuff so....I put that disclaimer in my bio to prevent people from requesting that kinda stuff or sending it in straight-up and without warning o///o And I can live with violent stuff ^^''

So I apologize if I started rambling aimlessly again, but thank you so much! I'm happy my art brought you some joy ^w^ And it's good to know there are more of us out there, who appreciate the batfam hehe 😊😎🦇💖✨

I hope you have a lovely day/evening, and thanks for dropping into my ask box! :D

-Kuni 🥰✨

#asks #things #nice things #kuni talks #kuni answers #<3 #:))

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nightlight-stardust-and-rain · 4 years

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OK so before writing this little scenario I'll just say that my shipping process works like that : I ship my favorite character with litterally everyone (except the characters I dislike) in this case, my favorite character is Lavi and the ship I'm writing about is Cross/Lavi. Which is weird, but why not, right ?

So first of all the headcanons :

I headcanon Cross as very very pan with a mild case of satyriasis (it's masculine Nymphomania btw)

I headcanon Lavi as pan and asexual - he's very sex positive, enjoy sex and all, he just isn't attracted to people (also little headcanon that he's absolutely flustered when someone flirts with him cause he's used to flirting with people but people flirting with him??? He's SO not used to it) and also as genderfluid cause genderfluid Lavi is just awesome but it isn't really relevant to this idea (but seriously genderfluid Lavi is so cool?? Also- you know what I'm gonna do a whole different post about this headcanon, it's just sooo good)

So idk but I was just thinking about Cross and Lavi being friends with benefits.

I just thought of a story like that : Cross and Lavi meet two years before canon (not sure what's the age of consent in D gray man tho) in a bar. Lavi is here to find information for Bookman (who's in another bar, to find other infos) and Cross is here to drink and maybe find someone to spend the night with. Lavi got the information he needed half an hour ago but stayed a bit to finish his drink. Cross sees him and is interested cause really who wouldn't be?? Come on Lavi is cute! Hm. So Cross just flirts with Lavi for a while before asking bluntly if he'd be interested in spending the night with him (no tact, but then again, it's Cross). Lavi is "well. Why not?" I mean he's an hormonal teenager and, as usual, curious. Plus he's pretty sure that if Cross tries something creepy he could take him out (we never saw Lavi fight without his innocence in canon but given how dangerous being a Bookman is I refuse to believe that Bookman didn't train Lavi. Also Lavi is wrong thinking that he could take out Cross, but to be fair Cross doesn't looks like he has magic guns on him).

After that, well. I don't write smut but I'm pretty sure you can imagine the night yourself.

For the next two years, they run into each other quite frequently, as they both travel a lot and weirdly in the same place at the same time (plot magic), and it always ends in bed. Somehow Lavi and Allen never even see each other but I'm also pretty sure that Allen manages to disappear every time his master is sleeping with someone because holy shit he does not wants to hear/see that so... It actually makes sense that he never sees Lavi uh.

By the fourth encounter they figure out that it's gonna be a regular occurrence and begin to talk a bit before and after fucking. They don't have any deep conversations but by the tenth encounter they're kinda friends. Cross knows that Lavi is a bookman (he saw Lavi with Bookman once and I'm pretty sure that Bookman and Cross met at least once so he recognized him?). Lavi knows that Cross is an exorcist cause I'm pretty sure that him and Bookman encountered akumas or akumas victims before (that told them about exorcist who saved them perhaps?) and Lavi isn't stupid. Point is, they both know what the other is but don't say anything about it cause like. It's not important.

(also, on genderfluid Lavi again - Cross totally respects Lavi's pronouns. He doesn't care about that but he sees that Lavi does and he's not that kind of asshole thank you very much)

By the time Lavi and Bookman join the Order, Lavi and Cross are definitely friends even if they spend most of their time together fucking. They have a weird closeness that comes with knowing each other's body by heart lmao. Cross calls Lavi "Red" cause honestly he isn't gonna use a different name every time they meet, it's tiring. Lavi calls Cross "Marian" because every time he calls him that Cross does a weird face and it amuses Lavi to no end.

When Lavi and Bookman join the Order, they learn everything there is to know about it (of course). When Lavi stumble across a list of the generals, je almost chokes because he's laughing too hard. Marian, a general ?? He never would have guessed that! (and really, who would have. Cross is just so irresponsible, I'm pretty sure the only reason he's still a general is because he's super powerful). He's still snickering three days later, and will giggle every time he thinks about it for a solid month.

Also just because it would be funny I want a scene where Cross comes at the headquarters (in between all the drama, you know like slice of life?) most likely to check on his apprentice because he wants to see if Allen became stronger (also because he might be A BIT worried about him shut up).

So I see them all (them all being Lenalee, Allen, Lavi and Kanda) in the (wait fuck I lose the word) refectory ? Eating place ? I can't remember but you see. They all finished eating except Allen and are talking (and by that I mean Kanda is silently glaring at Allen, he's still here only because Lenalee forced him to, and Lavi and Lenalee are gossiping (they're gossip buddies, change my mind)).

And then Cross kicks the door open cause he's dramatic like that and instantly shoots Allen (but like, it's a weak shoot, he doesn't wants to destroy the refectory (?)). Allen, because he's fucking used to it (sigh) dodges before attacking Cross by instinct. Two seconds later Allen is on the floor when it finally clicks : his personal nightmare is here.

"master what the FUCK are you doing here"

"came to check if you've gotten stronger. And fuck, kid, i'm disappointed" (cause of course he'd be like that)

The other were already up as soon as Cross kicked the door open (innocence ready). Lenalee is kinda "????" cause she never met Cross and the first encounter with Cross can be a bit traumatic i guess, he's weird. Kanda is suspicious of course, but inclined to like Cross cause he just shoot Allen, which is pretty cool for Kanda so. Lavi's like "this is interesting" (recording everything of course).

The moment Cross sees Lavi, he smiles this predator smile, it's genuinely a bit scary and maybe a bit hot and Allen is perfectly aware of what that smiles means and he really doesn't wants Cross seducing one of his friends (right now he assumes it's Lenalee Cross is looking at cause well she's a pretty girl). And then Cross purrs something like "hey, Red" (I'm shit at dialogues okay don't judge me) with this very seductive voice you know the one (or you don't. It's fine, I don't know either I'm just picturing(?) it). Allen and Lenalee (and even Kanda but he isn't showing it) are surprised, Lenalee because Lavi knows General Cross? Allen because Lavi knows his master ? And Cross is trying to seduce Lavi ?? What the fuck. Kanda is... I don't know he's unreadable I can't write him!! And Lavi answer with a sly smile and a low "hello, Marian..." (I suck so much at writing dialogue... *vague need to throw myself into the sun* I don't know how people flirt ok, flirting is weird how the fuck does it works I'm too aromantic to write that). More surprise from the public (lmao I love outside pov SO MUCH you have no idea omg yeah it's Allen's pov and he has no idea what's happening but he begins to understand and he's horrified oh this is so good outside pov is the best). While Lenalee and Allen are too stunned to react (and Kanda doesn't cares I guess) Cross just tells Lavi which room he's in before leaving, they both smile and it's vaguely disturbing and kinda horny. Again, more surprise. Two minutes of Allen and Lenalee looking at Lavi, who's looking at Cross leaving for his room (he's gonna follow him in 10min). Then Allen becomes awfully red, the realisation hits :

"LAVI YOU'RE SLEEPING WITH MY MASTER????"

"uh yeah have been for two years actually"

"What"

"you know it's actually funny that we never met each other before, considering that Marian and I met quite regularly-"

"why are you calling him Marian?? That's weird"

"yeah it is you should see his face when I call him that, also he calls me Red I have all the rights to call him Marian"

"What the fuck. Lavi. You're really sleeping with my master"

"uh yeah?? Didn't we establish that five minutes ago?? Also bye I'm going"

"wait are you going to-"

"-join your master in his room and possibly not leave this room until tomorrow? Yeah" *wink*

"oh my god"

So yeah that's idea. I just like the idea of Cross and Lavi being friends with benefits, no real attachment here, they're friends but like. Wouldn't be too sad if the other died, you see. I also ship it for real romantically but this idea is funny too and I like it.

#lavi bookman #lavi dgm #cross marian #d gray man #d. gray man headcanon #d. gray man #d. gray man au #Lavi #Dripping stardust #dgm

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arethereanyoriginalusernames · 4 years

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Babbling about a random oc x oc ship

Mainly doing this for @eclecticcoyote , but also, I usually neglect these two, so I'm basically taking someone's passing interest as an excuse to talk about them XD.

Both characters belong to me, btw.

So, in a recent reblog, I made mention of Chess being the closest Chronos has ever gotten to being in a romantic relationship. However, if I were to expand on what that meant, we'd need some context. You may recall a post where I outlined all of Chronos' backstory. If you haven't seen it, or you've forgotten, you may want to read through it. You may also want to read through the information given on my recent Chess artwork post thing.

Before Chess became a mercenary, as you can probably guess, she was in the jewel stealing business. Something that should be noted is that this was a hereditary business. Chess is a member of an unnamed family of criminals who uphold their reputation by breeding some of the most notorious law breakers out there. Chess had dedicated most of her life to perfecting her craft and building her reputation.

She and Chronos met back when he was still setting up a mercenary group with Persephone. During a trip, Chronos received an anonymous tip off that the Bandit Queen herself would be interested in joining. The tip off also included instructions on where to find her, and a deal. If Chronos could keep Chess from stealing anything from him for an hour, she'd join.

After some deliberation, he finally ends up going, and meeting Chess at a bar. At first, he engages in conversation with her, Chess playing ignorant to the things he's talking about. Chronos ends up explaining why he's here, as well as the deal. However, no sooner had he finished talking than he realized that he had been robbed blind. He reverses time and tries again, and fails again. After a couple more attempts, he realizes that Chess is purposefully trying to distract him by playing dumb and getting him to explain.

This process goes on, with Chronos being outsmarted, and having to figure out what Chess is doing. Eventually, he manages to get through the hour without being robbed. Chess asks him why she'd become a mercenary, which Chronos figures out by deciphering something she said at the beginning of the conversation. She was bored, and wanted something new. Having lost, Chess agrees to join.

Then unbeknownst to Chronos, this encounter had won him Chess' respect. He did come to realize this by observing her behavior to similar situations. He saw this as an opportunity, as Chess was quickly becoming aggravating to him. She was someone whose actions he could never predict, and even after it became clear that her slutty and dumb personality was fake, she still continued to use it, never showing a trace of her actual personality.

They started to have lengthy interactions that were basically them trying to outsmart the other. For instance, during a trip to a restaurant, both claim to have no money. They both then tried to get the other person to admit that they're lying. The loser would pay for a meal. It seemed undoubtedly outrageous, but still entertaining to everyone else.

As these interactions went on, both had a mutual growing respect for the other, Chronos even starting to look up to Chess. They started to have more philosophical discussions with each other, where Chronos would bring up a topic just to see how Chess would argue it. She ended up changing his perspective on various topics.

Also, remember how Chronos nowadays is the negotiator of the group, and has a charismatic personality that encourages people to trust him? He learned all of these skills from Chess, although he'll never admit it.

As the "kinda friendship " continued, Chess did something unexpected. She started to act like herself. Behind her intentionally distracting front, Chess is actually quite miserable. The biggest aspect of her personality, the one which motivates her actions most, is that she's an absolute adrenaline junkie. She does things purely for the thrill, and boredom would make her go insane. However, due to her upbringing, she didn't have any interests or hobbies that didn't contribute to her thieving lifestyle. As time went on, her heists became increasingly repetitive and formulaic. The lack of motivation caused Chess to experience what she recognized as the first stages of depression, and she abandoned the lifestyle.

After getting to know Chronos, she realized that he had a similar problem. His goal of improving people's lives consumed his life, and he didn't have much outside of it. Seeing this commonality, Chess decided to drop any social barriers she had, simply to see what it'd be like. She started looking for more interesting things to do, more things to get involved with, and she encouraged Chronos to join her. While Chronos would never admit that she was right about the issue they shared, the "dates" they ended up having were genuinely some of the best moments in his life.

But then the incident with Flaga happened. And Chronos became obsessed with micromanaging everyone's lives since he lost trust in any of them in making correct decisions. Chess was no exception. And what both of them came to learn the hard way was that Chess' life had caused her to develop a heart of glass. Chronos was the first person to truly know her, and not only had he always treated her with respect and decency, she had basically taught him most of what he knows.

So when Chronos not only deletes most of his memories of Chess, but also starts to talk down to her and treat her ideas and issues as "trivial " and "unimportant "?

Yeah....

Chess has tried to get through to Chronos what his issues are, and has tried to help him, but has been brushed off every time. The bridge finally burned for good when Chess announced that she'd be retiring from mercenary work in a few months. When this happened, Chronos and Chess had one of their little showdowns of trying to outsmart each other, Chronos trying to convince Chess to explain her motivations and stay. In the end, he lost. In response, Chess chastised him, saying that if Chronos was the same man he was when they first met, he would have won.

Nowadays, Chronos avoids talking about Chess. It's implied that he does feel some level of guilt that he refuses to admit to. Meanwhile, Chess does feel disappointed in him, and wishes that things worked out differently. However, this relationship has inspired her to be more open and honest to more people. She continues to live her life on the edge, currently aiding in taking down Dawnsview's corrupt government.

She still never passes up the chance to make some passive aggressive comment about Chronos.

Finally, not to get to spoilery, but Chess fakes her death early in the story. While this news hasn't reached him yet, I wonder how Chronos would react to hearing that Chess is dead~

I hope you enjoyed XD

I apologize for wasting your time

- Spooky S Skeletons

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thanks! and na i aint angry. opinions are opinions after all. but i am intrigued by how you worded it, since it sounded a bit like 'i love the start of P5 but it goes downhill from there'. is that true or am I misinterpreting it? (i say i'm intrigued because of how much praise and popularity P5 has already; its like that meme 'friendship ended with P4 P5 is my new bud' or however it goes, and I know how much ya love P4)

Np!

Ahhhhh yeah………. you aren’t misinterpreting anything….. anyways under the cut cause it gets long. 8U And also negative (but no spoilers promise)

Ok so…..first off this isn’t because I’m “blinded by my love for P4,” I actually thought I’d love this even more than P4 (tbh it’s like tied right now, but because I like it for different reasons), it’s something I noticed while playing the game. Ok so some of you may know that sometime when P5 first came out and I finished it….I felt like there was something off about it. And at the time all I could come up with is that it….just didn’t “flow well,” and that it had “three distinct arcs and the middle one doesn’t really match the first and third.” I just……I didn’t know how to describe it. Someone tried to point out to me “Maybe it’s cause of the Omnibus format” and haha let me tell you, I forgot this was suppose to be “omnibus” when I was playing it. Tbh it’s as omnibus and P3 and P4. I can see where each mini arc begins in P3/4/5 and when it ends and the next one begins, if that’s what they are calling “omnibus” (maybe that’s why Atlus described as “kinda like omnibus” but not completely, would’ve been hard considering the format, I think Sly Cooper and it’s chapters in each game are more like an omnibus format if you need something to compare). Anyways, yeah so it wasn’t that, it was the actual substance in the story. Of course I still couldn’t put my freaking finger on it so like a dork I’m just kept describing it as “flow” 8U And then I found someone who pointed out the flaws they saw in P5 and oh my god that was it, they put into words that I couldn’t describe. And it was actually after reading a few Japanese reviews (which they agreed with since they couldn’t put into words what they were thinking either, and decided to go to Japanese review websites to see if they could find someone who thought the same thing), they finally figured out what was bothering them.

Summarizing (well the beginning middle, I’ll just post the ending to their argument after the summary) in the most non-spoiler way possible (things in parentheses are my comments btw): “P5 peaked after the first two dungeons, and then crashed and burned in the latter half of the game (basically 3rd arc). All the antagonists after the 2nd boss are cartoon caricatures (I wouldn’t say all but yeah most of them). A very important and very thought provoking ethical question is raised after the 2nd dungeon and NOTHING IS DONE WITH IT (actually there are a few ethical questions raised and nothing is done with them, but this specific one takes the cake). Lastly, by the time you get to the last chapter I (the writer) had lost whatever grasp he had on an actual theme or message of the game (they describe P3’s theme, and even P4’s multiple themes and man P4 really juggled a lot of themes).”

Actually here’s what more they have to say on the P5 theme thing, I’ll edit out the spoilers but really I can’t summarize it: “When I look at the the ending of P5, what is it really trying ot say? The guiding idea is "Push back against the status quo, the corruptions and the powers that be, don’t give up”. *something spoilerish in game happens that kind of supports this buuuuut* But unlike P3/P4 there was no real soul searching to get there. At one point in the story, they were merely acting, or reacting as the stakes got higher and higher. By the time they got to *insert this antagonist*, it’s clear that they put their personal interest ahead of justice and the justification for going after them (the antagonist) was iffy at best. Without really exploring the ethical ramification consequence of what they did, all I could get out of it was basically “all’s well that ends well”.And this is the problem I also saw in Social links, because the fact that the thieves can just make everyone’s problems go away just trivialized the struggles of each characters. They were entertaining but lacked the emotional weight of something like the Sun Arcana in P3, where the characters had to deal with actual consequences of his action and his life with no easy answers for them.So I guess in summary, the plot of P5 was top notch as light hearted, feel good story. It was entertaining and kept me on my toes in a way that movies like Star Wars did. But when it comes to substance and themes I found it lacking compared to P3/P4. It’s not that it needed to have tragic ending, and I think triumphant heroic ending would have worked, if it treaded deeper waters to get there.“

Wow sorry for my mess of copying that over (I put it in italics to make it easier to read but yeah sorry ;w;), but I wanted to keep it spoiler-free as possible but here’s the link if you wanna read it in all it’s endgame spoilerishness. But yeah…..what they said. The whole "peaks after first two dungeons” might account for why I don’t really like anyone beyond the 2nd dungeon (bar Haru, but tbh they didn’t do anything with her, and also bar Yusuke cause I know while he’s on my list for characters I don’t like but slkfndsl;afs;a I would never remove him from the game so that’s saying something). In arc 3’s defense I think it could’ve delivered better if arc 2 was actually up to snuff but it’s just screws the plot/story/theme/message so much that you’re wondering if you’re still playing the same game you did in the first two dungeons. A lot of people who hate P4’s plot might actually get a headache over how convoluted P5’s is, it’s almost like they wanted to take P3’s plot but make it bigger but they didn’t know how and were juggling too many things. Also after reading this review I actually started drawing story parallels between P5 and Ultimax (and I know how much y'all hate Ultimax’s writing so haha that’s not a good sign when I find parallels between the two). The difference between P5 and Ultimax is that while Ultimax got screwed in the writing department, I could still see what the plot was actually going for. I knew what they were trying to convey, but with P5? I think I did, I think we all have a grasp of what they were going for, but by the time I got to the end it felt really muddled and lost that…..it turns out I don’t know what they were trying to say. I woke up, I got up, and I got out there but now….I’m kind of lost tbh.

#persona 5 #p5 #anon #silly asks #silly answers #please no hate my anxiety levels are already threw the roof for publishing this already

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