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argreion · 4 months

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Tummy cuddles with Leon!

Tummy cuddles with Leon like... All Leons got a little tummy. I'm here to give it kisses, squishes, and probably fall asleep on it. Sometimes we all just need tummy. 😌

Btw so sorry for clogging the tags a bit last post for Leon today :3 I got to balance the dark with the fluff! Let both sides eat some food!

RE2R - Imma say it, probably the most giddy out of them all. Why are you squishing his little belly? Now you're nuzzling it? You're making him stutter and blush! He can't handle the cuteness with you hugging him! Falls asleep with you falling asleep on him. Would do it to you too, he's gonna squish and love you so much for it. Kiss your stretch marks too! 100000/10 on my tummy cuddler scale.

RE4R - Ok, maybe he got a smaller belly cause this is like... The most muscular Leon if we go off of RE4R. If not, then probably DI, ngl. Stiff, he's gonna tense up a little. He doesn't even exactly have a belly. Pets your head and he's gonna ask why? Why, sir? Just let me cuddle you, c'mon! Still cuddles your tummy a lot. Rubs his face in it because he loves the softness. Will pick you up and bury his face in it. Imagine a face palm, but instead he picks you up and slaps his face into your tummy. :3 1000/10 for my tummy cuddler scale.

ID - Ok, maybe he ain't so much tummy cuddler during this period. Might push you off a little cause ngl, he seems like he wants beauty sleep. No, stop cuddling him! Gets fussy, but he doesn't actually really mind it. Just don't get too annoying with it, he has work in the morning and he at least wants a few hours of decent sleep. Doesn't do much tummy cuddling to you, it isn't in his system anymore. Asides from coming home after a mission, then he's going to that couch and collapsing on top of you. He does blow a little bit of raspberries, he would. Admit it, most Leon's would. It's in his blood! Feels like more of a thigh rest person then a tummy rest person. 7/10 tummy cuddler scale rating.

Damnation - Er, he's got the spirit. Kinda. Doesn't honestly want tummy cuddles, nor wants to do them. Sadly... He's just a little ass for it. He's out of it, don't judge him for it. Ok, maybe he does want one but he's in his emo angry era. 3/10, he's an ass in this emo era compared to Vendetta. Just likes holding hands y'all... :( (Maybe some ass cheek holding too, but honestly all Leon's love ass in my head.)

RE6 - Ok, now he'll do tummy cuddles all the time. He understands it, he mastered it, and now you won't escape. He hugs and cuddles hard when drunk. Bud is a clingy drunk in RE6, and you can't tell me otherwise. Strokes your hair so you fall asleep on his stomach. Falls asleep like a old goober and wakes up. Calls it a five star resort just because it's you. Has low-key started to hold your waist and hips because of it. Blows raspberries on it cause he can and WILL. 10000000/10

Vendetta - Low-key loves it and hates it. Mixed relationship like with Ada. Prefers that he does it to you then you to him. It comforts him, like a cat kneading biscuits! Arms wrapped around you, and falls asleep like a baby! Then proceeds to push you away in his sleep because ew, his 'pillow' isn't cold! If you do it to him, lucky ass man. Probably when he's watching a shitty show and doesn't care in the moment. Likes hearing your heartbeat, and knowing you're alive and here with him! 6.2/10, he just doesn't want the tummy cuddles to happen to him.

DI - You can tell my fav, can't you? He's got belly, and he ain't afraid to use it. Jokes about it, too. If you ever drop to his knees and do belly smush, he's gonna stand there with crossed arms with a shit eating smirk. He loves it, he's old, and honestly likes affection from you. Like the cat you started feeding in Vendetta that would hiss, then starts wanting your attention every second. Throws himself on you in bed all the time to give your tummy kisses and raspberries. He'll nap, but he won't sleep. His neck will hurt, and so will his back! Poor guy is just happy ngl. ∞/10

#leon kennedy #leon kennedy x reader #resident evil x reader

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starberry-cupcake · 1 month

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I'm back! Thank you kindly for your patience, we're done with Act III! It was probably a terrible idea to wait because this is so long, I'm so sorry.

previously, in harrowhark! a vagrant the ninth:

this happened

also a couple previews that will show up in this but are in the tag

currently, chapters 24-31 (END OF ACT III!!!):

harrow wakes up after sleeping a sensible amount of hours in yandere twin's room

yandere twin, who's into chomping cavaliers, complains about having had some harrow soup

they have a sort of tender moment, I guess

they have a complicated dynamic

harrow falls asleep again

she's in the bed and yandere twin is sleeping on the floor

and harrow is woken by the sound of self inflicted pain and torture

harrow gets tired of this and decides to just rip yandere twin's arm off

@lady-harrowhark reminded me that I called this (!!!) in this recap

I had absolutely 100000% forgot I said that but congrats past me!!!

so, there's this scene in which harrow rips yandere twin's arm off and puts a new bone-y one in there, remade with her own parts

like this

some people have told me in the replies that it's a sessual sort of scene, and I get that, I suppose it was the vibe it was going for

total respect to that

but I'm gonna be honest here

it felt like I was witnessing a birth and harrow was the midwife

so harrow lets yandere twin know that she's been improving her necro powers via studying and practicing to try to make up for her being "lyctor lite"

harrow and alleged gideon aka ortus are the only people here that seem to be getting any work done tbh

so now, with the new arm, inner chad can use the sword again

and yandere twin is happy because she's now a proper lyctor and has senior chad aka augustine's approval

harrow is proud of herself for doing nice necro things like chopping and reconstructing arms

as a thanks, yandere twin agrees to help harrow to kill alleged gideon the first aka ortus

nobody asked you, but ok

I actually have no qualms with alleged gideon aka ortus

because he's at least direct and honest about it

everyone here has an agenda, at least this guy's like directly trying to physically kill harrow

at this point, I respect the direct approach

augustine and emperor reverend professor john can go fu—

WELL, ACTUALLY, WE'LL GET THERE LATER

CHAPTER 28

we're back at gideon-less canaan house

canaan house isn't safe in any universe, all the trails lead to death

everyone who's alive or accounted for is having a sleepover

there's a bunch of people unaccounted for, actually

the kiddos from the fourth are allegedly hidden elsewhere

who knows, at this point

I don't trust anyone

there's a fog and rain and water rising still

which reminds me of the movie identity, in which they all were trapped in that motel because it wasn't actually a motel and they weren't actually alive per-se

magnus and abby say that protozoa should have decked mayonnaise uncle

which is one of the reasons why the gideon universe is superior

aside from the presence of gideon and camilla

I miss them so much I'm gonna start biting cavaliers

anyway, where in the hell is duracell bunny nephew???

he wasn't with mayonnaise uncle when he yeeted himself

his soul, which got detached from his body in the gideon universe, is still flying like a balloon across universes and dimensions, I guess

abby didn't expect regina george twin to die, apparently, and says "if she's gone, then perhaps that means..." but doesn't elaborate

nobody ever elaborates

abby also makes harrowbean read another one of the "harrow texts"

I can't keep adding them all together in recaps because this will end up being super long but here goes the new one

"I will remember the first time you kissed me —you apologized— you said, I am sorry, destroy me as I am, but I want to kiss you before I am killed, and I said to you why, and you said, because I have only once met someone so utterly willing to burn for what they believed in, and I loved him on sight, and the first time I died I asked of him what I now ask of you. I kissed you and later I would kiss him too before I understood what you were, and all three of us lived to regret it—but when I am in heaven I will remember your mouth, and when you roast down in hell I think you will remember mine"

so yeah, we've got a triangular situation, I suppose

I need to put all of them together to continue to draw connections

my though was that this could be ice cube barbie aka annabel lee, because of the long-lost sun, but I'm unsure still

I don't think the timing fits the other side of the 3d model that's the gideon's mom and rebel leader situation

inconclusive still

abby suggests harrowbean she might be haunted

which might also fit with ice cube barbie??? maybe??? idk

CHAPTER 29

harrow says she doesn't remember shit about chad

get perpetually owned, chad

mercygirl asks harrow things about her necro process for the arm reconstructing and the last thing she asks is "what is the name of the saint of duty?" to which harrow says "ortus the first" and mercygirl goes

me and my "alleged gideon" theory are very happy about this

the hill I will die on

mercygirl continues to use onomatopoeias to express herself

I do not want to think about what that would imply in a later situation I don't want to dig into

"you read unholy omens in the way people say good morning" that's what these recaps are, thank you very much harrow

that's our tagline over here, that's our brand

"how you loathed any sentence beginning with augustine says" SAME, BESTIE

I HATE THAT MAN

he can go fu— ANYWAY

harrow and yandere twin are having sleepovers so that harrow isn't murdered in her sleep

apparently the nudes are cyrus and his cavalier and yandere twin likes that energy

they gifted them to others as souvenirs too

it's like if you had a university classmate who sent nudes to the groupchat every birthday

yandere twin says augustine the asshole has agreed to help kill alleged gideon aka ortus the first

I don't trust any of these lyctors if they're willing to kill each other this easily

how do I know they've got my back in combat if they don't have each other's backs—

I CAN'T EVEN ARTICULATE MY THOUGHTS AND NOT SOUND TERRIBLE NOW THAT I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS LATER IN THE PARTY

ANYWAY

yandere twin reminisces about not having been apart from regina george twin much in their lives and hoping she's sleeping well wherever she is

I also don't know where she is

yandere twin tells harrow that she was more farsighted than her

which I'm sure she was, but she doesn't seem to remember shit about it, and the letters remain unopened

harrow thinks it's kinda gross that the cyrus lyctor murdered his cavalier to become a lyctor and then took all of their nudes to the emperor's bolthole

none of these lyctors are operating from a place of common sense, harrow

"you were lucky that the memory of your own cavalier did not hurt you—except sometimes in the form of a sick headache in your temples, or in words stuck on repeat in your head"

so, augustine's plan involves dinner

harrow, hearing that, is like this

they look for clothes in the cavalier's things

yandere twin says "valancy trinit was my height, weighed more than both of us put together, and —judging by her portraits— had a body that did not quit"

I sure hope she's a thick girl, because I've had enough disappointment with the gideon cover not letting her have the arms she deserves

I hope valancy trinit looks kinda like this

ANYWAY, here's the makeover vibes, as previously shared

apparently chad could embroider, which I have to admit is a good quality

hate giving him any props, but I must be fair

harrow painted the less cute skull in her repertoire and we respect that

they went to augustine's room and he's still an asshat

I don't like how he treats yandere twin tbh

I feel like yandere twin has a thing with validation because of how her life has been and he uses that

augustine justifies his betrayal to his fellow lyctor saying that he "caused more pain over these last scant forty years than I dare to admit"

mercygirl is also here for the party, all dressed up

SO HERE'S THE THING

I am so embarrassed I didn't pick it up on the fly and it took me the whole chapter to put it together

augustine tells her "dios apate, minor"

at the time, I didn't remember what it meant, and when I finished reading the thing, I was like "oh, it's exactly like the deception of zeus"

I forgot that's what it was called

I mean, I got the "dios" part, obviously, but forgot the "apate"

my ancient greek professor is going to come back into my life to shoot me at my doorstep

to be fair to myself, it was a long while ago that I took ancient greek

AT LEAST I PICKED THE REFERENCE UP AFTER, OK????

god, I'm so embarrassed

palmolive, I'm so sorry, I promise I figured it out eventually

mercygirl punches augustine in the face, which is great

he insists on it being "minor", which idk where the line is there and I'm not gonna ask

idk which things are or aren't...involved in a minor form of zeus's deception

mercygirl says she's not wearing the right dress, I don't think it matters, it worked just fine

CHAPTER 30

everyone gets drunk except for alleged gideon aka ortus and harrow, because they're the only people in this group project who are doing the work

augustine and mercygirl start fighting about something their cavaliers did back in the day

they start toasting for cavaliers and talking about how "hot pyrrha was"

there is no respect for the dead in the emperor's bolthole

there's about to be something else in the emperor's bolthole in a minute though

I was excited about them drinking, though, because that's when people start spilling some truths

the lost commander of BOE is a "she", her name is/was Commander Wake, she almost killed alleged gideon aka ortus

I'm still spinning with the gideon's mom theory

and the background telenovela I've got going on

BOE found a Herald, killed it and turned it into weapons against these clowns

good for them, tbh, kill these drunk irresponsible bastards

emperor reverend professor doctor john thinks it's narcissistic of him to toast to himself

I want to murder him in cold blood

I hate this man so viscerally I want to rip him apart with my hands

the twist in this book is that I'm gonna reach to his murder and it's gonna be me

it's like bastian reading the neverending story but it's me killing this man

his full name is john gaius but I had been spoiled of his name by people not tagging their posts

he also does a "your mama" joke because he's my villain origin story

"part of your brain temporarily calcified into atheism" I'M GLAD, HARROW

so, they start to make out, all three of them

I finally caught up about zeus's deception and all about here

emperor awful is sandwiched between mercygirl on a table and augustine behind him and they forget there are children in the room

well, not children, but same difference, they're a million years old

harrow and yandere twin get the hell out of that display

CHAPTER 31

yandere twin wants to kiss harrowbean before she leaves to kill alleged gideon aka ortus, but harrow doesn't let her

harrow says "my affections lie buried in the Locked Tomb" to which yandere twin responds "Somebody might even exhume them for you"

when harrow mentioned not wanting to be touched while sleeping beside yandere twin, I remembered the pool hug and all that, that was a nice time

people were being killed left and right but it was a nice time

ANYWAY

harrow has a whole plan and has it all figured out, it's a really good plan, it works very nicely, but alleged gideon aka ortus isn't where they told her he was

sometimes, life works that way

the man you plan to kill isn't in the training room and all

she goes to look for him in not!dulcinea's crypt or whatever

and she sees this

and the spear

she follows the children's hospital trail of blood to the incinerator

alleged gideon aka ortus is inside the fire thingy and not!dulcinea is operating the controls

I wonder who could have predicted that this woman could still be an issue even after death

me, it was me

anyway, no time for I-told-you-so's because harrowbean decides to help him out of there

I'm very happy because I need him alive

he knows things and he's less bad than everyone else around here

because he's upfront about the killing

he tells her some things while he's kind of out of it

like to use blood wards instead of bone ones

that it will make her safe from "us"

"I know you're there. Kill me all you like. I would know you in the blindness of my eyes" he says and, among other things "Just tell me—back then—why you brought along the ba—"

WAS HE GONNA SAY BABY???? WHAT IF HE WANTED TO SAY BABY???

I'm still on my gideon agenda, sorry if it's embarrassing to read

of course emperor dickhead stops him before he can finish it

alleged gideon aka ortus says he doesn't remember shit afterwards and harrow sees her own mental state reflected in his

they can't find not!dulcinea, apparently

she's probably operating heavy machinery elsewhere

harrow is putting up her blood wards when she hears augustine and mercygirl argue about the whole zeus situation

the incinerator alarm apparently interrupted their plan of letting this happen

whether or not they had a hand on the not!dulcinea thing idk

mercygirl says she didn't move her

we end this act with ice cube barbie maybe annabel lee saying "The water is risen. So is the sun. We will endure."

obligatory yearning for camilla moment

That is the end of Act III and of my commentary because this was way too long and I need to make less chapters at a time istg

#luly reacts to tlt #harrow the ninth spoilers #harrow the ninth #tlt #the locked tomb #long post #gif cw

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alexibeeart · 1 year

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apropos of current events here are my top picks for a Prince song in Our Flag Means Death:

Nothing Compares 2 U "it's been 7 hours and 13 days / since you took your love away"

Diamonds And Pearls "if I could I would give you the world / but all I can do is just offer you my love"

The Most Beautiful Girl In The World "when the day turns into the last day of all time / I can say I hope you are in these arms of mine"

Mountains "but I say it's only mountains and the sea / love will conquer if you just believe"

Erotic City "we can fuck until the dawn / makin love til cherry's gone"

I Wanna Be Your Lover "I ain't got no money / I ain't like those other guys you hang around"

Purple Rain "I never meant to cause you any sorrow / I never meant to cause you any pain"

some more thoughts under the cut to save your dashboard from a long(er) post 💜💜💜💜💜

Nothing Compares 2 U "it's been 7 hours and 13 days / since you took your love away / I go out every night and sleep all day / since you took your love away / since you've been gone I can do whatever I want / I can see whomever I choose / I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant / but nothing, I said nothing can take away these blues" yes surprise if you didn't know this is a Prince song, anyways I could just copy + paste the entire lyrics trust me, cut to Ed in the captain's cabin having his daily cry sesh

Diamonds And Pearls "this will be the day / that you will hear me say / that I will never run away / I am here for you / love is meant for two / now tell me what you're gonna do / if I gave you diamonds and pearls / would you be a happy boy or a girl / if I could I would give you the world / but all I can do is just offer you my love" again? perfection. Stede pledging his love and loyalty to Edward, THE PEARLS, they both need it, it's happening

The Most Beautiful Girl In The World "when the day turns into the last day of all time / I can say I hope you are in these arms of mine / and when the night falls before that day I will cry / I will cry tears of joy cuz after you all one can do is die" not ironically i need this used in 100000% sincerity and it is absolutely being sung about Edward Teach no i will not be taking questions at this time

Mountains "once upon a time in a land called Fantasy / 17 mountains stood so high / the sea surrounded them and together they would be / the only thing that ever made u cry / you said the devil told you that another mountain would appear / everytime somebody broke your heart / he said the sea would one day overflow with all your tears / and love will always leave you lonely / but I say it's only mountains and the sea / love will conquer if you just believe / it's only mountains and the sea / there's nothing greater you and me" this song just makes me so happy it's very joyful and I can picture them sailing out over the horizon together hand-in-hand it's beautiful! could be a fun callback to The Jam Room gag with the whole crew playing together as Frenchie leads, Roach on ye olde pirate trumpet, Lucius on tambourine

Erotic City "we can fuck until the dawn / makin love til cherry's gone / erotic city can't you see / fuck so pretty you and me" CMON LIKE you can't tell me this would not be hilarious and very sexy at the same time which is the correct tone for Our Flag Means Death, the thumping beat could be used for like quick cuts of clothes hitting the floor, hands gripping bedsheets, fullbody silhouettes behind the curtains of [redacted] ... also it could easily be like a montage cutting between things happening around the ship with say a certain Lucius and Pete, Oluwande and Jim, Edward and Stede, etc etc

I Wanna Be Your Lover "I ain't got no money / I ain't like those other guys you hang around / and it's kinda funny / but they always seem to let you down / and I get discouraged / cause I never see you anymore / and I need your love babe yeah / that's all I'm living for yeah" this one's just fun classic early Prince singing about wanting to be your lover! a certified toe-tapper!

Purple Rain "I never meant to cause you any sorrow / I never meant to cause you any pain / I only wanted one time to see you laughing / I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain" THE emotional climax power ballad, PURPLE as the color of Ed's love blossoming, the potential to get the most over-the-top dramatic and romantic scene ever filmed in a rain storm? under a purple fucking sky? hello? it's got a lot going for it but I will be extremely surprised if they manage to both a) get the Estate's permission, and b) be able to pay the $$$ royalties for this one

#our flag means death #ofmd #ofmd s2 wishlist #Prince #purple rain will be expensive as hell like more than the chain do you understand #they all will but hes worth it #long post #im floating on cloud nine right now about this please understand #Prince Rogers Nelson #prince and the revolution #prince and the new power generation

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elspethdekarios · 3 months

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For the "20 Tav QOTDs" Post <3

2, 4, 6, 12, 16, and 17 ^_^

Yay, thanks friend!!!

2. what would their blood taste like to vampires?

Probably something sophisticated and slightly sweet. Like a floral tea that tastes expensive and leaves a lingering sweetness on your tongue.

4. how do they sleep with their LI (what position, does one steal the blankets, is one too hot/cold, etc)?

Omg I love this question. I think they often fall asleep in each others arms. Like, both facing each other, usually El snuggled into Gale's chest and his arms around her. But I think they also alternate being the big and little spoon. Gale is a blanket hog, he gets cold easily (I mean look at his velvet pajamas… if I slept in that I'd overheat so fast).

Okay now I'm thinking about what each of them would wear to bed and I honestly imagine Gale sleeping shirtless with some very luxurious lounge pants. Elspeth is a fancy lingerie girl through and through so I imagine she sleeps in some short, silky nightgowns or button up top with matching shorts. I also like to imagine her in Gale's camp tunic when it's chilly.

6. if they had a set of dnd dice, what would they look like?

Light pink with the swirly sparkles in the resin! The numbers would be gold.

12. their companions are gossiping about them behind their back! who is it and what are they saying?

So El has a heart of gold but also has a SERIOUS case of resting bitch face. Because of this and her being from a noble family, I think she comes off a bit stuck up before you really get to know her. I can 100000% see Shadowheart talking shit to Astarion about how El thinks she has some moral high ground (she's a cleric of Corellon - her and Sharran Shadowheart don't always see eye to eye on moral issues). Astarion totally sees El as thinking she's better than everyone else because she often disapproves of his actions (and he often disapproves of hers). This would mainly be at the beginning of the game. I think Act 2 and beyond they realize they were wrong about her. She genuinely cares about each of their companions and goes out of her way to show them that.

16. what’s the description of their underwear in the inventory menu?

“Delicate lace may not be practical for adventuring, but at least it’s pretty."

17. how do they celebrate their birthday?

Before game: El was totally a party girl. Her family are nobility, but she’s always been the black sheep. I like to imagine she was a bit of a Baldur’s Gate socialite, always out partying, sometimes doing stupid things (like gambling away her family’s heirloom jewels) that would land her in the Gazette. I do think she’s settled down a bit before the events of the game, but her wild side would probably come back out on her birthday–going out with friends, drinking, dancing.

After game: Gale goes ALL OUT for her birthday. He takes off work, makes sure she takes off work, wakes her up with an extravagant breakfast in bed including a vase of fresh roses on the tray. He takes her out shopping at her favorite places, brings her to their favorite park–it’s huge with lots of green space and a sculpture garden. He just absolutely spoils her in every way possible (and this extends to the bedroom, duh–he has several hours of…activities in mind).

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ontrackmind · 2 years

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I am one month into residency. Here are a few things I've learned (mostly about myself):

1) I am, indeed, a textbook person. I always thought I was an uptodate person, but it's just not always the best resource for peds. I have looked things up in Red Book, Lange Neonatology, Bright Futures, and AAP Peds in Review multiple times this month already. They just seem to work better for me when I have the time. Uptodate is my second choice for on-the-go reading (like when walking to morning conference)

2) organization is key. I'm not sure what system works best for me on rounds since the handoff sheet we get is completely different from what we used at my med school. (Same info, just formatted differently on the page). But, I have found having a succinct cover sheet with all of my patients only and their to-do items for the day to be way more efficient than flipping back and forth in a big packet. I'm still working out how to make the handoff page work best for me during rounds though. One thing is clear though, if you're not organized, something will be forgotten. For me, keeping lists and check boxes is key.

3) if I don't write it down, it doesn't exist. How do people remember *everything*?? If I don't write it down within 5 minutes of doing it/hearing about it/being told to do it, it's forgotten in the abyss.

4) good sleep hygiene is my BFF. I probably have co-residents with wacky schedules, but I like my routine and I have noticed I do better when I'm well rested. I typically get 6-8 hours, but in order to ensure that happens, I have a pretty consistent routine in the evenings after work and the mornings before work (especially since I don't have a yard and have to walk my dog both times). I also like feeling well rested in the morning. I'm in a better mood, less stressed, and make fewer mistakes. (Maybe this one matters more since I don't drink coffee or soda so I don't get an extra boost from the caffeine?? I've debated energy shots, but I get heart palpitations with anxiety and they freak me out. I can only imagine what extra caffeine would do)

5) I 100000% prefer to work as a team than work alone. My last block was very team oriented and I felt like I thrived. We were always asking each other how we could help and getting lunch or snacks for each other when we couldn't go together as a group. It was very much a "we all lift each other up" kind of environment. I hope that carries into my other blocks, too. I'm going to do my best to continue to be a team player and help everyone with their workload.

6) I still feel pretty dumb and unsure of myself, but the imposter syndrome is WAY less than before. Idk if it's the new environment or what, but I just don't feel that same fear of being too dumb and undeserving and being the weak link like I did during med school. Sure, I have a lot to learn and I do sometimes forget things or freeze up (for instance, I completely forgot what DI was today during rounds. Literally could not have even told my fellow my name if she had asked.lol) and while I fell a little embarrassed, it's not the same as it was before. Maybe I'm in a better mental place for now?

7) Im somehow less stressed. Like, I work hard at work and sometimes I get frustrated or get stuck, but it's not the same as being a student. I read articles and do practice questions at home but it's much more leisurely. Despite the long hours, I find this WAY more enjoyable than med school. I don't feel guilty for taking time off or enjoying my hobbies and I actually enjoy studying and looking up stuff about my patients. Residency is hard, but I am so much happier than I was before. I hope it stays this way.

8) my dog is still one of the absolutely best part of my day. She's happy when we get up in the morning and happy when I get home in the evening. She will forever be the bright, sunny spot in my day. Its a lot of work having a dog while living alone, but holy crap is she worth it❤

#residency #resident #doctor #md #md/mph #pgy1 #intern #internship #intern year #medical #medicine #physician #studyblr #study blog #medical blog #medblr

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roboromantic · 1 year

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5 6 7 am thoughts

why do I keep seeing posts on this website insist that evangelicals try to convert prople just to have a larger "number of souls savef" count than others. like maybe that's a thing in some groups but like................I've never heard of any kind of reward for converting more people or anything.

also I gotta say it's a tad frustrating seeing people talk about how Mormonism is a cult and these kids are brainwashed into believing the world's against them etc. and being sympathetic and sharing resources on how to leave, but posts on evangelicals just paint them as cartoonishly evil. sometimes I'll see something that says it's a cult but there's never anything on how to leave (though admitedly it's gonna generally be less legally complicated than it is for mormons) or talk about how evangelicals are also made to believe that the world is against them or how evangelicals try to convert you because they truely believe it would save you from eternal torture.

like now that I'm out I see how infuriating it is to be proselytized to, but growing up in it? I was a super lonely kid who tried to make people more christian according to CoC values bc I was terrified of losing the few friends I had. also there was literal animal abuse involved where we were told we were bad people if we were more likely to rush to help the goldfish they fucking threw on the pavement than to try and save people from hell

like. when you're fundamentalist there's really no room to respect other people's beliefs, because respecting their beliefs (and boundaries) would mean condemning them to eternal torture

so again I get why people hate it and I definitely understand now how it's used to eradicate cultures etc. but I find it hard to hate the individual who from their perspective is just trying to help me

ironically though the insistence on isolating me and saying that anyone who isn't CoC was probably one of the biggest reasons I ended up leaving. how could heaven be this perfect place if my friends weren't there

there was this post in r/judaism linking to an article talking abt svara's upcoming teshuvot for lgbt halacha and it's something I've been keeping an eye on for a while for obvious reasons, but while I don't want to make any judgements until the whole thing is actually released, I will say from the phrasing in the article it sounds like they're approaching it from a different angle than I would. like it seems to be "how can I affirm my gender in a Jewish way" and while I can 100000% understand that, I'm more interested in "what are the issues that arise when someone is (in my case) halachically female but looks male and is it possible to resolve these issues in a way that's respectful to everyone and if so, how?"

like. there was another post by a trans man wanting to figure out how to respectfully interact w/Chabad and someone else (I think) brought up this same idea of one's halachic gender vs I think they called it sociological gender and it was kinda weird to me seeing so many people talk about how that's not a thing, can never be a thing, halachic gender is the only important factor, etc. bc like. I highly doubt anyone would say my halachic gender is all that matters if my bearded, flat-chested, (sorta) deep-voiced ass went to sit on the women's side of a mechitza. hell, I KNOW that'd cause a problem, I've seen it happen.

like personally I'd be fine with a trichitza, I ain't trying to sit with men (though again I can understand why being able to sit with one's gender can be affirming for binary cis people) and I don't particularly want to sit with women either even if marit ayin wasn't an issue.

where was i going with this. idk it's like 2 hours after i started writing this and im tired and still don't have adhd meds, this was never gonna be coherent im gonna try to go back to sleep

#religious stuff

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geesenoises · 1 year

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1, 25, and 38, if it isn’t too late :) Also, different anon but I really liked your answer to the magic question. I think that’s the best kind of magic 💖

it's not too late! i think the questions are fun, so maybe i'll just keep it going until the end of the year :)

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

i tried to use the spotify stats thing but my results were so skewed by the playlist i use for the fic that was supposed to be for hd wireless this year and also the album sleep by max richter, which is an 8 hour album he composed for a night of sleep and i play all the time to get to sleep 😂 so this list is just based off thoughts, vibes, and recency bias because my memory is trash:

daylight - taylor swift

that's where i am - maggie rogers

i breathe the air of mountains and their unapproachable heights - sufjan stevens (is this the actual name of the song? idk. this is from a ballet he composed music for and only exists online as a bootleg. this is how this track/section is labeled on the bootleg and it's my favorite part musically.)

always be my baby - rosie thomas, the shins, sufjan stevens, josh ottum (a cover of the mariah carey song! puts a totally different mood on it)

boyfriend - ariana grade, social house (the only song on my spotify stats that is on there legitimately. i listened to this 100000 times in 2021 when i was getting into drarry because it's a very drarry song)

welcome to mountport - jess mckenna, zach reino, zeke nicholson, scott passarella (a very silly song that was inprovised and has no right being as good as it is, but i love it so much)

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

this is surprisingly hard? as an anxious people pleaser, i love getting as much context as possible so video really helps me with that. but as someone who spent hours every day on my landline phone talking to my friends in middle school, i think i have to go with talking on the phone!

38: What’s the weather like right now?

it's cold and clear, the clouds are just wisps in the sky. and it's just starting to get dark.

and anon, tumblr won't let me add a video to this post, but i'm going to post one of my favorite moments of everyday magic in a second. just for you 💖

ask me things!

#ask game

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I'm a bit over halfway through it now. I just normally only have enough time to play on the weekend. I hate starting it getting really into something then oh shit it's 7am and I have to get up in like 6hr lol. But should be through it by the weekend I hope lol.

Multi player is cool and you could always do some private games with your friends till you get the hang of it. But I will say I think it would be entertaining as hell if you started doing like a twitch stream with the antics you go through in any of your games. Hell you could probably start a whole series on Sims outfits 🤣🤣

oh~! well you’re still a huge chunk of the way through which is more than i would be 😅!! but i totally get that~! definitely don’t recommend my model of having the worst sleep schedule ever but it does leave way for primo gaming…even if im dead 99% of my days 😅 but i know you’ll be able to get it finished~! i pray you do t get stuck where i did though cuz it was an absolute freaking nightmare 😂

ahahaha absolutely cannot do private games with him unless he’s gonna be like showing me the ropes cuz he will 100000% kick my ass 😂 but honestly i am excited to eventually try multis out properly~! i played one game when 4 came out and was dead more often than i wasn’t and just never tried again because i was too upset 😂

you know ive been asked about starting to stream quite a lot 😅 honestly I feel like it could be a lot of fun too~! if I could afford to get a proper capture card a and whatever else I may need i would honestly be so down to give it a try~! I could totally spend hours on stream making sims and building houses though like that would a dream stream 😂

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deluliya · 9 months

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shutident again

Last year I was studying as an end-vascular surgeon. After my lovely and fucking university knowledge was on the level -100000, physical activity on level 10000 I was feeling dead inside and left the place.

I was sleeping 2 month for 16 hours straight, didn't go outside and feeling myself like a brick that've been thrown to the Bottom of the mountain and then to the bottom of the sea. I didn't know why I decided to make my childhood dream about being surgeon true even if last 2 years I decided that I will study CT, because I understood that medicine sucks a lot. Especially in Russia, where everything sucks.

After this I stayed at the bed for 6 month in total and didn't do anything for my inner child or for my others dreams. I don't know why. If another type of depression feels like this I wanna be dead not only mentally but also physically.

I understood also how many people can just have time like me, that they are struggling on workplaces and trying their best every fucking day. That fact and the fact my mom will not become younger and my father alive made me understand that without another diploma I will still be a sucker from fucking nowhere. Of course than I will become a sucker with diploma from fucking nowhere. But also the fact that I didn't like at all right now what I will do in my life kills me a lot still. Even if people of my age already got 2 jobs, 3 children, bank shit and etc.

When people really becoming grown up and why still somebody could get everything easier?

Im trying my best not to think about it but still when Im dreaming and I dreaming a lot cause I need just some kind of hope in this world im imagining situations like im suddenly will become super rich person ahahahahaha or whatever.

Of course I've got much more possibilities but why still I can't use them I don't know. And where is the border between feeling tired, anxious, bad as person and just feeling fine begins?

So I hope that this time everything will be better than last year. I need to buy Zoloft I think ahahahaha.

God please help me and my family and bring peace in our broken minds and also give us more power and money to continue this journey. Also give my uncle a nice wife. And help me get out from money and Russian hell and strength for every new step even its super hard. thanks for everything also.

Im not such a believer but sometimes thoughts like this helps me like Zoloft ahahahahahaha

so I'm a student again, I'm in a better city, I can do everything.

Especially I need to lose weight, learn new language and how to draw. I need a lot of money as everybody else ahahahah

#thoughts #depressing shit

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marcholasmoth · 11 months

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OSRR: 3258

work was alright and i managed to successfully worm my way out of going on ops training for ANOTHER day by mentioning i have a bunch of computer training to do that i wanted to get out of the way. like there's like eight things i need to do on one website and more on another and it's silly tbh but i want to get it all done and checked through and everything before starting.

the visit to the doctor went well. my eye is healing well, even though my vision is distorted like it would be looking through water glass or at an impressionist painting of your current surroundings. but also good news, i can (1) drive, (2) sleep on my left, and (3) exist peacefully now that the STITCH IS GONE. the gritty thing that's hurting was a STITCH. it was supposed to be smaller but i'm really sensitive so i could feel it regardless. so she took it out.

also it was wicked hot today and the AC wasn't on at the house (joel's) so when i got back i put in my dinner order and immediately went downstairs and watched tv. i watched both charming (cute) and nimona (METAL). nimona was SO GOOD. easily like, too 15 favorite films of all time. i cried so hard that i had to keep the credits rolling to calm down. charming was sweet and had an all-star cast??? (to me, anyway.) fucking,,, AVRIL LAVIGNE????? WAS SNOW WHITE????? AND ONE OF THE GUYS FROM NCIS WAS THE PRINCE????????? fucking iconic.

excellent movies.

joel came down after his games were done and played some video games while i watched charming. i had a rough time with the volume because it wasn't really consistent, but the movie was so goddamn cute and the TWISTS were SILLY and SWEET and it was GREAT.

but nimona? did i see some spoilers? yep. did they go past the first like, ten minutes of the movie?? NOPE. i had NO IDEA what to expect. i cried SO HARD. i gasped SO LOUD and i had SO MANY FEELINGS. 100% queer, 100000% favorite. honestly, if you haven't watched it, go watch it. kidnap someone's netflix if you must. just watch it.

anyway, it's bedtime. it was bedtime two hours ago.

#molly rambles #operation srr #osrr #3000s #3200s #sunshine boy

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#282: Wright hcs - 1?

Because I'm stupid and cringe and it's also too warm for me to sleep soundly, MC HEADCANONS.

In for certified dad jokes;

Free give-aways of Helene Fisher ptsd;

Allergic to Boom Berries;

Hates transfigured wine, wants to distill everything into spirits, low-key on her way to the invention of an ultimate hangover potion;

"Purely for academics, sir, but what one should do with a honobobel?"

"It is a berry, grows in swamps and quagmires. What? No, I am not turning it into a berry-flavoured cider! How can I, a 15 years old, do that without a brewery of my very own!"

Has a brewery under Cladwell&Brewster;

Goes for a pun every now and then;

"Poppy, could you go for another Bombarda? I mean… When you cast it… It sparkles… Yes. Wonderfully so! We need another. Just in case."

collecting goodies "And that's for me! Well thank you, goodness I'm such a magpie!" -> "Professor Fig, I was called a magpie by him, I am absolutely not!" -> "Alright, I am, but -- I am employed for a good record. Thus for nothing but a couple of jokes and the-always-free potion stand in class should I need it during hours and away from the Room. No spooky stories for first years though."

brewed another perfect Draught of Peace "I am dreadfully incompetent and should loose all my rights to sell these things…" "What'll become of your shop when after you're left, Wright?" "I will— I hear what you did here. I am too harsh on myself again, am I." "Now, that's the spirit." "I beg to differ— Stop." "Then beg." atm hates it here but chuckles

Likes to draw;

Has an awful story for each muggle drug and 'potion' and technique she'd ever came across; once scared first years with a story about an unfortunate cut with a knife after a mushroom was cut with it;

Acquired taste for pumpkin pastries;

Belongs in r/DramaticPlants;

Stole a sword from the First Trial, had been lectured by Sharp on its ineffectiveness and crude bluntness, later discovered he has zweihänder the size of him if not longer hanged on the wall, ??? ;

"But sir, I can get you that varnish pre-mixed, I know people that— yes, I need to pay rent, but I am willing to help! I wish there would be Muggle studies professor, I have no idea how to mix the varnish, sir! Alright, I will get everything! Some of it! No, I will not take your galleons. I insist that I will not, just the sickles. No such thing as friendship sale!.. It's my store! My rules. Do treat yourself, good sir, allow that poor single proprietor to enjoy her humble earnings!" 100000 hrs later "I appreciate it. The talk, that is. Financial support isn't on you, though. Wouldn't think of you as of big spender, too." ends up getting the full price anyway "UNBEARABLE."

When at dorms or in ROR, wears a Ravenclaw-coloured tartan shawl;

"Sleep? Alright, what's the day tomorrow? Monday? Do we have Potions at Mondays, no? Goodnight, I'm in for the books then, reading club assignments. Very important." proceeds into moste potente until dawn breaks

"Oh, and what's Fig's awful joke was you ask me, Imelda. Ever heard of the one about pregnant lich?" all dead quiet in the three broomsticks "She forgot her prophylactery."

#днявочка #днявочка: hlegacy #eng tag

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ecoamerica · 2 months

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andthebeanstalk · 2 years

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Late night autistic art ramblings.

IT STANDS TO REASON that if I can create character sheets for future reference, knowing that some of these sheets have to be useful to me quite possibly years down the line, then I could theoretically create future reference sheets that are not for human characters but for building styles.

And, theoretically, I should be able to learn how to draw different styles of architecture in the same way that I can learn how to draw in different art styles and then apply that style to different shapes and sizes of subject. There will be some shapes that each style prefers, but ultimately, it seems a similar concept.

And since the architecture in my graphic novel is usually me combining two or more specific city's architecture designs, I would indeed need a reference sheet made specifically for me by me.

It may make sense to seek out or else build reference sheets for each town/country and THEN work on the combinations from there.

Some combos featured in season 1 of my graphic novel, which is a road trip arc so I have to (or well, really really want to) make each place feel rich and unique!

New Orleans, USA + 1980s Liverpool, England

Guatapé, Colombia + Havana, Cuba + San Juan, Puerto Rico (main question: how would Colombian architecture change on a small tropical island community?)

What if Frankenstein and Reanimator had a baby and that baby was a town in a medieval fantasy?? (Answer: it sure wouldn't be a fun place to get stuck for like a month and a half! Undead creatures notwithstanding.)

Christmas Town from Nightmare Before Christmas, that one town from the movie Klaus, plus what if fucking ANY people of color were there?? (Otherwise great movies but GAWDS it is like, literally so easy ffs)

This one sleep podcast on the headspace app + Howl's Moving Castle

Jessica Fletcher's hometown but make it fall-themed because this is the 'autumn vibes' episode

A totally normal village + a mountain + a mountain god + a woman who fucks that mountain god + her demigod son + a recently developed problem involving a mop and a demonic poltergeist

oops all horrors (on a train!)

A capital city that I'm just now realizing is going to need a lot more fleshing out! All I got so far is "big" and "class divide," but I have no doubt I'll manage to make it harder for myself don't you worry

A pirate ship + but put that shit in the sky

Okay so maybe only two settings so far are super solid but I have been awake for 100000 hours so

Hey you I hope you're doing well, reader. I'm okay. I will make every place they go in my graphic novel so very beautiful.

Or at least cool as fuck.

Eat shit, Violet Evergarden. My backgrounds will be... not nearly as good as yours! But they will be so beautiful for the work of one person rather than a team! And MY character isn't going to fuck off and marry her [REDACTED] in the last episode and taint all the beautiful backgrounds forever! YOU FUCKING DIPS.

I suppose I ought to go looking for other beautiful and interesting places to inspire my work. With the exception of a couple places that need to be unappealing but should nevertheless be interesting, I mostly choose settings based on what is prettiest because when I draw stuff, I feel like I'm there, and I only want to spend time in nice places when I can.

Life is hard enough without stomping down on my saturated colors for the sake of realism.

Anyway this whole thing has been brought to you by me spending most of my life learning to draw and only recently realizing I don't know how to draw backgrounds, edibles, autism, and of course the MVP insomnia

If you've read this far, you've fallen right into my trap! and now you have to try and think something neutral or good about yourself. Unless you don't want to. But otherwise, I'm afraid you must. I think you are doing your best. I think you are trying your hardest. I believe that. I am too. Your body is taking in oxygen and keeping you alive and that is enough for now. Goodnight, neighbor, goodnight

#original #diary #i am so sleeeepy .#but my brain is like but noooooo #baah

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molkolsdal · 2 years

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Dude I 100000% feel the same way as your latest post about the old days of going to university in autumn mornings. It's scary how you've managed to nail every detail. The 4 hour sleep, the motivation to wake up and dress well and do makeup, toronto air at 9am on an october morning, spending hours talking to tumblr friends. I live a a pretty nice life now and I'm grateful for that, but those days were full of so much passion and a constant stream if incoming knowledge from school and online

STOP the fact that you were in Toronto as well 😩 so you know EXACTLY how I feel. It's too much. My mental health is much better now and I've had so many more amazing experiences, but there was still something special about that time that I'll never get back. It hurts my heart whenever I think about it.

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These cats are stressing me the fuck out. I need to rant.

Nothing I do makes them happy. Sol wants to beat up Luna EVERY time she comes out from hiding. He doesn't respond to punishment (time outs) he doesn't care about treats when he is being good. I put him on a harness to go outside cuz he wants to be outside. Day one without a harness he jumped the fence. Now that he has a harness he is scared and tries to run and gets out of it. He will play for a few minutes inside then loose interest. There is no middle ground.

Luna hides all day and wants to play all night and I can not spend 24 hours of my life playing these shitty games. I love animals. But there has to be some compromise. I need sleep. I want them to be happy. But I have NO idea how to get to that point with them.

Dude pissed on my moms air mattress for what? If he starts pissing all over the place he is going to have to be re-homed and Alex gets SUPER mad when I say things like that. But here's the thing. I will not live in a house that reeks of piss. Luna is an angel but she is so absolutely passive she won't stand up for herself and she's also dramatic to the point I can't tell if he is actually hurting her or if she's just being loud?? She deserves to be happy. Not too scared to take a shit because bullybutt is going to fight her in the box. Dude needs to chill. But beyond giving us all drugs IDK what to do anymore.

We have an appointment with a vet/behaviorist but I bet you 100000 dollars in gold bricks that they are going to say the same shit. "Play with him more. Take him outside. Try this oil that doesn't actually DO anything and costs $50.00 a refill. Give them these seizure drugs that we feed cats to deal with anxiety because pet medication is a joke???"

I'm tired. We're both tired. I can't have a cat that hurts my other cat. I can't have a cat that pisses on things. Couch, wall, air mattress, if he pisses on a rug what then? Yeah, come over to my house that smells terrible and I can't tell cuz I live in it. Fucking kill me. I'm just SO frustrated. If they would just PLAY TOGETHER without going from 0-100000 in five seconds it would work out. But Luna is afraid of him and he doesn't make it easy for her to trust him when 9/10 times he is stalking and tackling her to the ground and bighting the shit out of her neck to the point of her SCREAMING bloody murder.

#rant

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Hello! I am sorry to bother you but I am a senior getting ready for college this year. I am in the US and I wanted to major in the same thing you did, do you have any possible tips for me? I still haven't even looked for colleges that would be best for animation majors so I figured if you were up to giving out any tips/saying any basic ideas if you wanted to/if you had the time to then maybe I'll have a better idea! I apologise for if I sound weird! I'm tried to word it correctly but I can't 😿

hi!! i’m totally down to share my experiences! someone else also had some questions so i’m going to put them all together in this post haha, hopefully this helps! it’ll get pretty long so apologies ahead of time but art school is a lot to think about so i wanna be as helpful as i can around it, its a lot of time and money. I’m gonna put it all under a read more cus it is really really long!

i wanna start off with the fact that I had the privilege of attending school in a financially stable environment, my parents were/are really supportive so w merit scholarship i only came out with around 20-30k in debt and i also had housing support my entire time in school. they were ok with me focusing on academics so i didn’t hold a retail job unless i was out of school like summer/winter break. Ofc though i regularly take commissions/do merch/cons to try and pay for all bills that arent rent cus i did want to be financially independent where it was possible. I also did try and work during the semester but everytime i did my body would deff start to breakdown from the fact that i didnt wanna compromise schoolwork with jobs.. so just read ahead know this experience is from a student who was able to attend focusing only on school work for most of the time!

the biggest thing is knowing art school is not required to become a professional in either freelancing or industry! there are a huuuge amount of online tools and classes these days that provide the exact same education and for cheaper too. i think it depends on what experience you prefer/can handle/want but it’s definitely possible to make art/animation art your living without higher education. the thing that college will for sure give you though is the ability to meet deadlines, work even when you dont want to, and connections with peers+teachers. i think the connections part is invaluable because you’re basically coming out with a network of people you already know and who know you!

also its good to know if you want to attend/can handle art school! it’s a lot of time and energy and students get burned out really fast. the best piece of advice i got before going was ‘if you draw every single day, even if its for only like 5-10 minutes or a doodle for a whole year you should be fine’ consistency is super key because you’re attending school to draw, and you’ll have to create work for stuff you aren’t excited for at some point or another. burnout is extremely real and the only reason i didn’t experience it was probably because i got super into drawing naruto fanart again inbetween sophomore and junior year! it helped give me something to draw seperated from school which is the only thing i was drawing for since i had entered rip. a heads up id also consider myself a workaholic so i fit in ok with the ‘art school’ environment but it is suuper unhealthy. if you are fantastic at managing your schedule then it’s definitely possible to take care of yourself! freshman year i got 8 hours a sleep a night and only pulled all nighters for some second semester finals at the end. sophomore year + up though i ended up prioritizing hw over sleep and like for sure, definitely shortened my life span. there’s another q down below where i’ll go more into detail but ya, be careful w ur work balance!

another tip especially for animation is knowing for a fact what type of animation you’re looking to go into, and what the school is offering. I didn’t think i’d get into art school at the time so i only applied to two places + decided if i didnt get into either id attend community to get credits out of the way while building portfolio. honestly? i did not do a lot of research LOL but like i did end up having the chance to tour and stuff! just know that each school will have a very different curriculum. The main differences are schools that prioritize 3D (cg animation, cg modeling, ect) and 2D/traditional (hand drawn, ‘oldschool’, digital or traditional based) this is a huge difference so make sure you do research for it! in most cases a 2D/traditional program will also offer 3D since it’s at the forefront of the industry animation wise rn. My school taught 2D but like hand drawn on physical paper 2D, frame by frame. while it was a good experience it’s super outdated because digital tools make it way faster + easier! i’d recommend looking for a program that is digital 2D over traditional 2D.

if after your senior year covid is still affecting campuses in the US to keep them shut down i’d recommend attending a community college to get credits and then transferring into school. one of the negatives is paying money for gened classes when ur not there for them; if you can get them out of the way sooner and cheaper there is absolutely no negative + you could graduate earlier or use the extra time for better work or to work a job!

these are all the general tips i think i’d give on like a broad basis of attending or not to think about? let me know if u have more q’s! someone asked q’s im answering below that go more into personal experiences + work culture so heres those:

- how many hours a week do u spend studying, in class, otherwise making art? like how much of ur life does it consume?

I was basically working on art.... 24/7! since i wasnt working a job at the same time i crammed as many credits as possible into my schedule so on avg i did 18 credit semesters (around 6 classes) art classes go for 6 hours and non art go for 3, so i’d spent around 30-35 hours in class a week! hw wise it varied on the class but combined it would be around 35-50 hours a week... im guessing? on average studio classes would have 8-10 hours of hw, maybe 5 for a light week, and gened classes 5 hours w them all combined. or this was probably how things were before junior year? junior+senior year i had thesis + everything else ontop.. i’d spend around 30-40 hours on thesis a week with other classes ontop of that bc my film was super long cus im a dummy!

- is it hard going to art school n realising that altho u were probably quite talented… so is everyone else? Like. all of a sudden. ur not special and everyone seems as good as u, you know? More generally, how do u deal with comparison?

kinda?? i think instead of the idea of like you vs others it feels more of like a competition at first to be the best. this varies hugely on school culture though; my animation year was really friendly with each other and get along extremely well, so my answer to this is v different than some others who attended different schools. i think that the idea of ‘comparison’ only lasts a portion of the first year because at some point you realize that it’s not a who’s better as much as its a ‘these are my coworkers’ type thing? like healthy competition 100% because we’re all working to improve but i think most of us learned pretty early on that viewing each other as peers going into the same workforce helped a lot. also at some point everyone develops their own style/starts to develop their artistic preferences so there isn’t a way to compare whos 'better’ anymore? i dont think there ever is tbh because style is appealing based off of an individuals preferences. If anything realizing everyone else is also amazing makes you wanna work harder ig? or thats how i felt! it’s inspiring to be surrounded by so many people who create such amazing work.

- is there a lot of workaholic culture? all nighter culture?

100000% there can be a workaholic and all nighter culture. i know people who avoided it and thats honestly fantastic because i fall super easily into that pit. sometimes i’ll pull all nighters on a personal project just because i really want to finish it... i am definitely considered a workaholic all the way through and its not healthy rip... i’d estimate at the worst i was pulling 2-3 all nighters a week and only 4-5 hours of sleep on the nights i didn’t? that was only for one year tho, after that i was like yeah ok this is really bad for my health in the long run LOL so i tried to cut it down to one all nighter a week and around 5-6 hours of sleep the rest of the week! by senior year my decision to cram in full semesters paid off and i was able to consistently get around 7 hours of sleep a night + no all nighters minus finals since my schedule was lighter despite thesis 😭 while there is that culture i don’t think people view it as like a badge of honor or something to be proud of anymore which is good, we mostly view it as a flaw of the art school system and something that needs to be fixed!!

- are you glad u did it? how did u know it was what u wanted?

i am glad i did it! i’m definitely in a limbo right now of if it was worth both my time, money, and my parents money rip but i think with what i got out of it i definitely wouldn’t be as far skill wise or knowledge wise when it comes to the art industry. i would say it was only worth it for be because i had so much support going in though so i was able to focus so much on improving. if i had only been able to put in part of the effort and not make full use of the resources provided i would honestly have a different answer..

i knew it was what i wanted when i realized i really couldn’t see myself pursuing a different profession happily! despite all the bumps and stuff im fully in love with drawing still and feel honored that it’s a field that can provide a living. my second profession choice was to go into culinary school? and third option i think going was into music cus i was also a band kid hehe.

- how do u cope with ur hobby becoming ur job? how do u deal with art going from something u do for fun to something u do on command constantly?

i think seperating work art from personal art is important! in my case im doubling naruto into being personal work so i have something to fall back onto that isn’t work related. its been a hyperfixation for 12+ years? so drawing it at this point is just like personal art imo. some people have hobbies outside of art and only draw for their job! i think after attending classes for so long the idea of hobby turning into job feels extremely natural? also i enjoy doing it so thats a huge plus!

sorry this is SO long but i hope i answered your guys’ questions! if you have more just lmk!

#anon #ask #long post #im so so sorry this is like long as shit #ill literally tell you guys everything though art school should not feel like a mystery esp if ur planning to go into it!#Anonymous

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