#i’m sitting at five. so

[goldensunset]

screw it let’s make a new poll

*that you at least intend to finish eventually, even if not right now. aka not outright abandoned unfinished works

#peach rambles #if this ends up being another ‘op of a poll gets their world rocked’ post i’ll see you all down a pit #i’m sitting at five. so

[daylighteclipsed]

killing mnyseld

#oh the forbidden expressions !!!! I’m gonna puke !!!! #‘riku I’m scared ! what if a shooting star hits the islands?’ #’if a shooting star comes this way I’ll knock it right back into outer space ! I’ll protect you i promise’ !!!! #kingdom hearts #soriku #sora’s expression oh my go d oh my god #weakly raising his hand a silent plea that is so loud #he has to be so fu cked up from this #this specifically but also watching all of his friends die in less than five minutes #all the people he was supposed to protect. everybody was counting on him to be their hero #and he couldn’t stop any of them from being killed. rapidly. right in front of him #he barely had time to react like oh. my god what a horrible horrible horrible feeling #andd then the last friend left - riku - dies for him. and sora can only sit there paralyzed #ohhhhh. oh. god. i know this fucked him up good

[keelifallen]

Just your average Tuesday 

#the umbrella academy #five hargreeves #his coffee is 98% liquor #feral five #number five #aiden gallagher #five umbrella academy #tua #tua fanart #season 2 #illustration #artists on tumblr #tw blood #keelidraws #guys I’ve had so much caffeine #I’m so jittery #actually it wasn’t that much #but I haven’t had caffeine in so long #I have so much energy and it’s so weird being able to sit down for hours and finish this #well I obviously finished which feels great #but now I have nothing to do #so much extra energy #hahahhahaha

[bisexualpercyjacksons]

no wait wait wait hear me out about how the four beads is a truly devious and smart addition

so starting off with four beads from the dryad establishes a few things:

1. getting out of the underworld wasn’t something they really thought about yet (too many steps ahead, I also have ADHD I get it)

2. poseidon HAS thought of that problem and has made the beads in preparation to protect them

3. poseiden thought about rescuing sally when planning how to get everyone back safely, not just percy and his friends

2 & 3 plant the seeds (a long with the dryad’s words and hermes’ comments) that poseiden really does care about percy (and sally!). yes I know I know, bare minimum to care about your kid etc. but considering this is a show and we don’t get percy’s internal monologue it kinda makes sense to have a little more details that make poseiden seem better to the audience

[read more break to not clog up the tag. I promise I get into the angst shortly]

all these little bits that imply poseiden really does want to be there for him but can’t, that he’s been watching from afar because he didn’t want zeus to find out he broke the pact and take his anger out on his son and former love (yes, love! this is the man/god that wanted sally to be his queen with him in his underwater kingdom!!!). I actually really like the idea of those posts about how he has been helping out in little ways over the years because. let’s be real for a second. NO WAY does sally afford that apartment AND have the ability to send percy to specialized boarding schools with the salary of a CANDY SHOP EMPLOYEE. I get it I get it, the gods are deadbeats, but I’ll admit I kind of like the idea that he’s been doing what he feasibly could without getting caught by making extra money appear in sally’s bank account or sm

making him seem (and possibly be) more sympathetic is another reason that fuels percy to change the system rather than join luke to tear it all down. he knows the system is bad but he sees hope and truly believes it can be changed for the better. that is something that can be saved, not destroyed

4. this is kinda irrelevant but I like that it is the dryad that agrees to give percy the pearls after poseiden says for him and his friends to go back to camp because she wants him to have a chance to change things. gives her a little bit more agency. (also y’all she’s SO pretty in gay but moving in)

so. four beads.

if we want to keep the dilemma and character growth that comes with there only being three beads and someone having to make a sacrifice, something needs to happen: one of the beads breaks or someone loses it

is it percy? who has realized they need four beads for EVERYONE to come back and is horrified that they now only have three, meaning either he himself or one of the most important people to him has to be left behind in actual hell in order for the world to be saved? think about the dread and self-loathing that would come from that

or is it annabeth or grover? where the horrifying realization is the same but now there is a gut reaction from percy to be upset with the person who loses/breaks it. he loves his friends and can’t stay mad at them but now they are in this impossible dilemma to choose who stays behind and it’s killing all of them. the impossibly guilt of the person who breaks/loses it knowing that it’s their fault someone doesn’t get to go home, someone has to stay behind in the underworld

and when does this happen? early on, and we spend the episode watching them all try to figure out the dreadful problem of who gets left behind. looking at each other thinking, I can’t leave them behind, I can’t. they’re my family. but we can’t leave percy’s mom behind either.

or does it happen right before they have the chance to go, and they all think everyone is going to make it and sally is in percy’s grasp only for everything to fall apart and now everyone is looking at each other thinking, who is going to have to be left behind? who has to be the sacrifice?

anyways, I think there is something truly devious about them KNOWING there NEEDS to be four beads and HAVING THEM only to have something happen and the option of everyone going home safe being ripped from their grasps

#I let my English muffin sit in the toaster oven for like five extra minutes after it dinged to finish this post #everyone being like FOUR BEADS IM WORRIED and I’m like NO THINK OF THE POTENTIAL #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo #pjo tv #pjo tv spoilers #pjo 1x06 #pjo speculation #grover underwood #annabeth chase #sally jackson #not sure how else to tag this #mine #I haven’t read the books in a decade so I’m slightly rusty on lore but like guys this is how we can still win #yes I know deadbeat parent gods yes but have you considered this makes things more spicy #adds more flavor #also yall this man wanted to make sally his queen you gotta admit that on some level he cares

[lesbiansanemi]

Checking the mail and @tobytoon absolutely made my day will these!!!! They are getting refrigerator privileges 😌 (—> will eventually lead to me trying to explain the plot of wind-blown lilies to my roommate who still doesn’t fully understand the concept of fanfiction lmao)

Anyways! If any of y’all here haven’t checked out their art, fic, and AUs, highly, highly recommend! They are SO good omg

#very excited for Thursday when I have no work/no responsibilities other than laundry so I can hopefully binge read a good chunk #of its fic Kizuki eye. cannot wait #but omg yeah will be staring at these for Five Billion Hours I’m so FJFJDJDKSKSKSKS #fuck I also need to actually finish up the next chapter of wind blown lilies which is sitting half finished in the drafts #hopefully sometime in the next week or two! #kimetsu no yaiba #sanemi shinazugawa #fic fanart #kaz rambles

[flowercrowngods]

when the 1975 said “till then we’ll knock around and see if you’re all i need” and when they said “you look so alive do you fancy sitting down with me and see if you’re all i need?” and when they said “don’t you see me? i. i think i’m falling. i’m falling for you” and when they said “don’t you need me? i. i think i’m falling. i’m falling for you.” and when they said “on this night and in this life, i think im falling”. and when they said “according to your heart my place is not deliberate” and when they said “i don’t wanna be your friend. i wanna kiss your neck.”

#when you rock climb and beat that route you’ve been trying five times now you look so alive. and i get that little oh moment #where you get so pretty. and your eyes sparkle. and your neck. i wanna kiss it. and bite it #and hold you and hug you and sit with you forever. will you let me? would you? would you allow me to tell you what i see? #would you let me yearn and ache and long? my hand itching for your touch? your neck so enticing for me to bury my head there? #would you? or would you be wise would you be smart would you see there’s nothing here. would you smile and say i’m sorry #would you fuck me up a little more. i think i’d let you. i think i would. i think you should. bc there’s nothing here but thoughts of you #and that’s painfully little for an adult human person. but it’s all i have. it’s all there is. it’s you. i wish you knew how much that is #i wish you knew about the potential for you to be everything. i wish i could tell you. maybe one day i will. but you shouldn’t listen #you should look away. i scare easily. i’m only half a person anyway. and still i wanna bite your neck #dio.txt #the 1975 #fallingforyou

[skyward-floored]

Eeeeeugh why does saying no to things have to feel so yucky

#rambles from the floor #my sister (FIVE MINUTES before she was going to leave) was like ‘hey the other lady I watch kids with is sick and I need somebody else’ #and my finger has been in more pain today then it has like all week. and I said no. #and my sister was obviously like. miffed. so my other sister went with her #and I’m sitting here feeling guilty because I didn’t go #and I’m SURE my sister thought I was just being lazy #but I really just. didn’t want to go. #because my STUPID FINGER hurts #and she sprung it on me right beforehand and I don’t do well with that!!! #but I feel like a jerk anyway!!! UGH

[mellaithwen]

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#I struggled with what to talk about in therapy this week so of course my chronic illness said cHALLENGE ACCEPTED. #but here’s the kicker — I know the second I open that box that it is going to fuck me up so I’ve been drifting past it #but. idk. #I want to sit on the floor in therapy but I can’t even say it cause it sounds stupid but I really want to sit on the fucking floor #I know if I’m not ready to dive in then I’ll undo progress #but equally I’ll never be ready cause the medical trauma bullshit runs so deep and is so prevalent in all aspects because the fucking #disease is prevalent everywhere and #I don’t have the resilience for any of it #I have one dose of victoza left and that’s it - the pharmacy have giving me 5 IOU’s so far #and I was finally seeing my numbers steadying out #and it makes me so angry because it’s too much #it’s too much to advocate for yourself and research and manage and try and you ask for help and you get shit in return #and I’m so burnt out with it but you can’t even BE fully burnt out because that would mean death #so all you can do is be a bad student #and then the endocrinologist tuts #in your five minute appointment that you waited 18 months for #it’s too fucking much I WANT A FUCKING BREAK #will delete this later #just needed to rant and get it out of me so it doesn’t fester like always #I’m tired #t1dlookslikeme #type 1 diabetes

[howldean]

i’m so fucking pissed rn

#my dad was supposed to pick me up at a club where a fundraiser concert was held for the strike group i’m with #and then he said oh yeah i have my own concert that night and i’ll just leave early #which made ME feel bad even though HE forgot so i said oh i can stay for the afterparty #show ends at 10:30 afterparty goes to 11. easy. #well his concert goes long so at 11 he texts me and says the encore just happened. okay. what the fuck whatever #but the other folks on my team are still there so i say alright what’s your eta? #and he says 30-35 minutes. MIND YOU when he mentioned his concert it ‘wasn’t a problem’ because it was close. that’s not close even in la #AND THEN. he says stuck in traffic. like. okay?? #at this point the other folks in my org are leaving but one of our partners is still there so i’m sitting by their table and my dad says ok #12:05 is when i’ll get there. which mind you is an hour and five minutes AFTER the RESCHEDULED pickup time #you will notice it is past 12:05 now and he is still not here and i am stick at this outdoor club with #too loud music and so many cigarettes and vapes and he’s still not here yet. and i’m so. so fucking annoyed #and when he first offered to pick me up from stuff in general i thought that was nice. but boom whaddayaknow #this bullshit. #AND I CANT GET AN UBER BECAUSE THEYRE 70 FUCKING DOLLARS #and public transit is a) dangerous at night b) shut down at midnight and c) would have taken an hour and a half #if you read all this i’m smoochin u sorry

[fastasyoucan1999]

what has kendall roy done that gob bluth hasnt already given his whole pussy to 😔🙏

#arrested development is to me what succession is to the mutuals #breaking my silence xx SORRY if i wanted to watch the downward spiral of a rich and eccentric family it would be the Bluths who are my #little special princesses :^)<3 they r so silly and sweet to Me gob u are the prettiest girl at the party i swear #arrested development #watching this show is the only thing i’ve been doing. i wake up go to class sit in the library for upwards of five hours and then am #rewarded with arrested development like a workforce dog catching a break by getting to thrash around with a stuffed toy for a bit. i put gob #between my teeth and snap his neck and ragdoll him with tenderness and love anyway i’m gone again !! see at the end of five weeks when this #hell term is over <33 you** :)

[anotherdescentintomadness]

If you think CQL is the only reason Wang YiBo’s star is on the rise, please check yourself. He’s been grinding since day one to get where he is. There are roles he landed that people think he only got because of CQL, but they’re wrong.

People have been underestimating Wang YiBo for his entire career, because he’s pretty, because he’s young, and because he entered the industry on the idol track. And as evidenced by the fact that so many are upset that he removed CQL from his bio — saying he’s ungrateful, that he would be nothing without it — even these fans underestimate him.

Sure, CQL helped his trajectory to move faster, but he was grinding every day there too, on set. Because he gives 110% to everything he does. Every time. Without fail. In spite of fatigue, illness, injury, harassment, fabricated scandals or anything else. He’s not a success because of CQL. He’s a success because he’s Wang YiBo.

This video collects some of the work Wang YiBo has done, along with quotes from directors and other industry colleagues, and does a great job showing that Wang YiBo’s success is due to his insane work ethic, his passion, and his unflagging vision for the career he’s building for himself. And all of this before the age of 26.

#y’all need to chill #he’s allowed to update his CV #he kept CQL in his bio for FIVE FUCKING YEARS #even after doing drama after drama #CQL was there in the bio #so take a breath and sit down #becuase our boy is just getting started #one and only #hidden blade #born to fly #wang yibo #cql #the untamed #Wang YiBo changes his bio #I’m honestly much more concerned about him not doing SDC 💀 #Youtube

[canarydarity]

Who else up overanalyzying the tone of voice of one gtws in third life

#I’m just thinking too much about what being a constant performance costs #the price of playing up your silly mistakes and weaponizing your incompetence #who knows ! maybe later I’ll think about what happens to the guy who gets away with things by hiding behind the fact that people #think hes incapable after he wins !!!! #there’s only five victors and you are one of them. how will you be able to pull off the act now :))) !!!! #oh well. I’m sure you’ll come up with something. the show must go on after all. #worm says #so birdie and I watched 3L in one sitting today #if you couldn’t tell

[tempestclerics]

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#am I tired bc being around my family for four straight days or am I tired bc travel or am I tired bc one (1) past midnight call or #am I tired bc end of summer or am I tired bc accumulated burnout from entire past year #like idk man I’m just. so tired of being tired all the time. please something is wrong and I can’t even identify it much less fix it #I just want to. make it through a workday without feeling like I want to hibernate. to walk to campus and back or stay up late so I can #talk to my friends. without feeling like I’m gonna be punished for it later. to sit down and focus and read a book I know I’m enjoying #for longer than a five minute snatch of time. #to do work I’m proud of or make any progress at all on the projects hanging over my head. #sola said #delete later

[imaginarypasta]

i finished the first chapter of my fic 😵‍💫🤧😭

#personal #it’s only been 18 months 😵‍💫😵‍💫 #it’s five chapters total and i’ve reorganized it for the tenth time but i’m super confident about it this time #which yes i did say the last nine times but fr this time #i’ve written 3k words in the last two days :3 #all on my phone bc my computer is still broken :( which i will say makes it horribly difficult for me #but i’m very happy!! hoping to work on it more this weekend! #it’s sitting at 11k words rn. aiming for…. 15k or so

[nooomagnus]

Help I need to go to bed but my dog is resting his chin on my leg what do I do

#wrong answers only #it’s so WARM and SOFT and he PUT IT THERE because he TRUSTS ME #every time he swallows I can feel it it’s so cute #his side is also pressed up against my other leg #I’m about to move away for five months I don’t know what I’ll do without him #not to be a total stereotype but like. the bond I have with my gf’s dog is crazy #(the aforementioned dog who is also kind of mine) #we are both sitting here looking out the window waiting for our person to be home #for both of us ​our number one priority is making sure she’s safe #we would both kill and die for her. and #(i am such an annoying dog lesbian for this but I don’t even care) #I think he knows it #son boy tag #also yes I am on west coast time yes I need to go to bed what about it #m #lifeposting

[allylikethecat]

Just a little PSA- I didn’t have time to edit tomorrow’s All the King’s Horses chapter tonight and I have fifty thousand things do to tomorrow, I’m going to try really hard to get it edited and posted tomorrow, but if not I will have it up on Saturday! I’m so sorry!!

#allylikethecat #ally’s thoughts #ally’s creative process #or lack there of #ally status update #that no one asked for or cares about #but i care and its my blog so im sharing lol #all the king’s horses #equestrian au #not gonna lie i kinda forgot that i didnt edit it/finalize it #and i went to save the draft and was like oh… oh no #and i dont have time to like sit and fix it all tonight #and tomorrow i am SWAMPED #i’m going to try and get it done #but i’m really sorry it will probably be up on Saturday instead #i know like there is only like what five of us that care about this one lol #but equestrian fictional!matty and fictional!george are my current favorites #and i feel bad i didnt get them finished properly this week