#i’m numb

[peterparkersnose]

let’s chat

#peterparkersnose #the last of us #the last of us season finale #i’m numb #pedro pascal #oscar’s

[xo-zizi]

I don’t care how much I clown Billy. Billy was supposed to watch and witness Spencer become an NFL great. He shaped him. He was supposed to walk Olivia down the fucking aisle. It could’ve been literally ANYBODY else

#all american #spencer james #billy baker #i’m numb #olivia baker

[problematic-shipper19]

Really glad I trekked to Columbus and saw them together. 12/31/22

#jonathan toews #patrick kane #sam lafferty #jake mccabe #i’m numb #my photo

[arsenicisaddictive]

I find myself feeling this perpetual numb indifference; sure I can laugh and I don’t know if I can cry, but it’s like there’s nothing out there that can bother me.

And it’s not the hollow cold of depression, it’s just continually flat emotions where nothing really matters, but not in an unhappy way, just an inability to care way.

I don’t know how I feel about it, but all I know is I barely feel at all, and it’s weird because it bothers me but also doesn’t because there’s nothing that matters to me anymore.

Honestly, depression might’ve been better than this flat indifference, because at least then I knew I was missing something. Now I’m just a low static hum of non-existent emotion.

#i’m so numb #i’m numb #numb #i feel empty #I feel flat #no emotion #I don’t care #about anything #and I have all these issues with my health and they Suck by my brain is just kinda *shrug* about the whole thing #emotionless #emptiness #im so tired #fuck this #chronic fatigue #depersonalisation and derealisation #chronic illness #i just want to sleep

[pontiaccbandit]

Did some writing rn and I’m happy that I’m getting my mojo back, even if it’s not up to my usual standards.

#personal #struggling to feel like myself these days #I’m numb #I’m shopping online more frequently just for the momentary thrill of anticipating the arrival of a package #and having a new plaything to distract myself with

[neckdeep--in--realfriends]

I was so close to giving up in the beginning of this year. I’ve never been there before, but I was on the edge.

Right now I’m sitting at work wondering if it’s been worth it. Lately I’ve been getting worse and with winter coming in Washington. I’m worried I won’t make it out the other side.

#me #personal #I’m sorry #I’m tired #i’m numb #I just don’t know how to shake it #just keep busy I guess

[rexigirl047]

having one aesthetic kills the soul i tried so hard to be so many different things instead of just bringing but and pieces of them all together to make the ultimate version myself

#am i doing it right? #i don’t know who i am #i’m numb #i’m so exhausted #how do i get better? #i’m so tired

[venusenvvvy]

Spoilers for The Last of Us S1E3

The close up on Frank’s hand/ring finger over his gunshot wound - the wound itself out of focus - from Bill’s perspective when he’s shot, sure he’s going to die protecting the man he loves. This silly, demanding, bossy, beautiful, soft man who trades guns for strawberry seeds during an apocalypse and wants to clean up the shops and the neighbourhood so that he can host garden parties. Who follows his (probably ex military) badass gun-expert husband into a raid on their home. Into OPEN FIRE, with nothing but a handgun, to pull Bill to safety. Frank insisting he’ll live. The thought whispering in your head while you watch, just as it whispers to Bill, “There should be a ring there.”

The moment when Bill realizes that he is content - missing only the sight of a ring on his husband’s finger. As long as Frank is taken care of, he’s satisfied. It’s his purpose. He already knew would spend forever with Frank and die by his side. They are married already, in his mind.

#i’m numb #the last of us #the last of us spoilers #spoilers

[saetoru]

i’m slitting my throat

UPDATE WE GOT YAE MIKO

#i’ve lost all my 50/50s to qiqi now 🥲 #well there’s only been 2 but 🥲 #i’m numb #i’m logging off goodbye #tee plays genshin

[stormxpadme]

On this fine Friday let’s play “Did that dude offer me his metro seat because I’m fat or look twice my age?”.

#personal #eating disorder #i’m numb #upside: stomach still dutifully closed up #probably switching to two meals a day for the moment #to see how my migraines deal with the next starving phase #meds are expensive too #also good thing on finances falling to shit #don’t want to spend buck on scales rn #september probably #after birthday with no horse riding etc #the self loathing will be big enough

[thesungod]

can someone help me feeling excited about something again?

#i’m numb #i just feel like the future is so so so so so so bleak and that there is nothing to live for

[kindleln]

I spent 6 hours hacking my way through After Alterna… and then the game crashed

#splatoon #I’m numb

[ultimate9810]

#existential crisis #crystal castles #i’m lost #heavy metal #summertime #senioritis #i’m numb #Spotify

[dontkysur2sexy]

guess who survived the first depressive episode of the season 🪩🕺

#i’m numb #wtf is wrong with me #i’m scared #i’m screwed #kinda depressing #tw self destructive behavior #actually mentally ill

[summerlinenss]

david jenkins only ever wanted 3 seasons.

3 seasons to tell their story.

and even after slashing their budget nearly in half, making them cut the amount of episodes and their runtimes, and having to cut out and rewrite entire storylines, that still wasn’t enough.

fuck you, david zaslav.

#i don’t even know how to explain what i’m feeling #it’s numbness and fury and heartbreak all at once #ofmd #david jenkins #david zaslav

[sleepy-exhausted-alive]

Here’s the current emotion pipeline I’m going through.

There is Immense Anger

Immense Anger becomes Big Sad

Big Sad becomes Vast Numbness.

#emotions #i'm angry #i’m sad #i’m numb #america is a hellscape #what the hell #mental health