#i’m exhausted all the time

[skinreflectsthesun]

I feel like people don’t tell you exactly how much your life will change after you have kids. I think they assume that you know this but I honestly thought that my relationships, friendships, my personality, my self in general would all stay the same and I’d just have this little guy with me too, but that’s really just not the case? And I was not ready for that. Not at all.

#personal #and not to be that person who just had negative things to say #but if anyone were to ask me like genuinely ask me and want my honest answer about this then I’d be 100% blunt #it’s incredibly rewarding and I love my kid so much I’ve never felt a love like this before #but I’ve lost myself entirely #my marriage isn’t the same #my relationship with my family isn’t the same #my friendships aren’t the same #I’m exhausted all the time #I’m a dick to those closest to me because I’m exhausted all the time #I feel like I have no help or support #I feel like I don’t want any help or support either because fuck it I will do it all myself I don’t need anyone #I’m misunderstood always #I’m not seen. #no one sees me anymore. #anyways today is not a good day plz disregard this #i’ll probably delete this later

[elishamanning]

i have literally never hated anything as much as i hate this apartment building

#before moving here i would cry maybe 5-6 times a year #i literally cry multiple times a day #i hate it so much #if i get more than 3 hours of sleep a night that’s a win now #i’m exhausted all the time

[vacantgodling]

ngl i get that people hype up hating writing for the bit but like. idk. yall i Do actually really like writing. it is so satisfying and fun and rewarding and i get to look back what i made over and over again and get joy every single time.

yes writing is hard but if you hate it more than you love it im kinda like. idk. find another hobby?

#also the planning parts and the daydreaming is part of the process so idk #yall it is getting exhausting seeing all the quirky see how little i’m writing shit #like what if for once i am writing and im having a grand time!! #what if not being able to write isn’t a fun joke it is honestly detrimental to my brain!!! #what if writing has been my friend when i never had any and it is the love of my life and love language and i love actually doing it perhap #talking #ren hot cakes

[turtleblogatlast]

We were robbed of a Hueso Jr. episode because good god I need he and Leo to interact.

I can just imagine an episode where a very busy Hueso has no choice but to ask Leo to babysit, and Leo’s like heck yeah I’d rock at that.

And of course Hueso is constantly like oh god what if something goes wrong that’s PEPINO he left with his CHILD.

So continuously throughout the episode he imagines the worst case scenarios for what could possibly be happening.

Every time Hueso imagines another catastrophic scenario the scene cuts back to Leo and Hueso Jr just calmly watching a movie or playing a game or something else equally as innocuous.

Eventually the worry gets to Hueso so much that he cuts his business short and races back home to see -

A peacefully sleeping Hueso Jr smiling as he lays snuggled up next to a shockingly quiet Leonardo.

He’s pleasantly surprised, and agrees to ask for Leo again next time he needs a babysitter.

Or, as it seems he may need to, when Hueso Jr. wants Leo to visit.

#rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rottmnt hueso #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #you can also imagine this story as a two parter where the first is Hueso’s perspective where all he thinks will go wrong actually don’t #meanwhile the second part is Leo’s perspective where an accidental portal mishap (not Leo’s fault this time!) #(Jr may or may not have snuck into his father’s office and grabbed a portal stone) #thus begins a chase where Leo pulls out all stops to make sure this shockingly slippery child is safe #at the end they’re both exhausted but on the top of a skyscraper and Hueso Jr is just like wow #so Leo is like you know what…I can do you one better #so he shows off the view from the Empire State Building that Jr never got the opportunity to experience #obviously the kid passes out when they get back but it’s the most fun he’s ever had #anyway I’m in my all Leo’s are good with kids agenda

[redversaillesrose]

*taking a sip of grapefruit soda* actually louis and lestat are both the trophy wife,

#Being right all the time is exhausting. #That’s why I’m always sleepy btw. #the vampire chronicles #vampire chronicles #vc #tvc #lestat de lioncourt #the vampire lestat #lestat #louis de pointe du lac #loustat #iwtv #interview with the vampire #amc iwtv #iwtv amc

[shokupanko]

First Fukase Friday of 2024! This one took 5hrs lol I wanna to be so extra (─‿─)

#vocaloid #art #fanart #vocaart #fukase #procreate #fukase friday #FIVE HOURS OF MY LIFE #But actually I was working on it for a week on then off so the total time was 5 hours and 11 minutes of insanity #I love creating new outfits so much like designing clothes is sm fun #I was trying to make it steampunk but then it started looking harajuku now I have no idea what it is lol #I feel bad that I had nothing for his birthday but I’m always late for VocalSynth birthdays anyway sooooi #ALSO I SAW THAT SOMEONE SAID MY ART INSPIRES THEM AND OMG I’VE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPH #I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH I MISSED YOUUUUUUUU #I tried to make this extra extra detailed which is why it took so long #usually I finished artworks in like an hour hour and a half #but I wanted this one to be ✨special✨ #ALSO can I just say January was like the hardest month of my life? it was so mentally draining and exhausting #I started spending more time with my siblings and now I can’t get away from them lol I love them with my whole soul #no like fr they keep me going and I’ve never been happier #maybe isolating yourself when you’re sad ISNT a good idea and you SHOULD socialize? #I’m big dumb okay #anyway happy Fukase Friday and belated birthday to my special boy #ALSO I REALIZED THAT I’VE NEVER DRAWN HIM WITH HIS MARK???? WHY????

[teawiththegods]

I think we have enough feminist Medusa retellings thank you very much.

How about instead we explore how Perseus risks his life to save his Mama?

#between the constant Medusa retellings and Hades&Persphone retellings I’m exhausted #like if you’re not going to take the time to learn the original mythology at least tell a different story #it’s just been all the same over and over again #like how many Medusa and Persephone stories do we really need?? #there’s so much material out there waiting to be explored #mythology #greek mythology #mythology retellings #medusa #persephone #hellenic polytheism #hellenic paganism

[sciderman]

You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.

But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?

because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)

#I don’t know. I don’t think peter is good boyfriend material. I think his insecurities would get exhausting. #Wade has bottomless patience. me… I don’t know. I don’t think I could. I’ve got my own stuff going on. I don’t want a Project. #peter is definitely a project. and he needs someone with shed loads of patience and perseverance. #me I just. I wanna have a good time. so. come to me my big beautiful time traveller. whisk me away. #take me to the beach. you can disappear after I don’t mind I’m not needy. just spend a beautiful romantic week with me. #sci speaks #I don’t really know what kind of person I’m compatible with really actually. #all my relationships have been. pretty short. #and I don’t think it’s any fault of my own really. and I don’t feel any loss over them at all. like at all. I wish I did. but I don’t. #a sci has so very thankfully never felt heartbreak. #but it makes me kind of question what kind of person I am when it comes to this sort of thing. #because I really don’t know. #I don’t know if I want commitment. I don’t even know if I want sex these days. #I … weirdly… am so devoid of yearning these days. like I feel content right now on my own. I don’t even feel lonely. #I used to yearn but I think I’ve moved past it. and I kind of just want to have a good time. #and that doesn’t even . involve a relationship or anything anymore. like I don’t think I want one actually. it feels like I’m Over it. #it’s kind of great because I’ve never felt so calm in a long time. all because I decided that I don’t. actually Need anything. #I don’t need anything more than what I have. and that’s brought me rest after So Long being restless. #but if a massive time traveller came and whisked me away on sexy adventures how could I say no

[goldfyshie927]

We need more rep for trans characters who don’t have top or bottom dysphoria so trans people can stop feeling like there’s something wrong with themselves or invalidating themselves when they don’t struggle with those feelings!!! Please let’s stop pretending that everyone must be dysphoric to be trans!!! Let everyone see themselves in art and fiction!

#I’m here for all the rep but spending so much time in spaces where people mainly experience dysphoria #and then gatekeeper those feelings as The True Trans Experience #makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me #it’s exhausting #also I know this is a very simplified take and lacks a lot of nuance #so sue me! #I’m not going to write a dissertation on this at 8 am #I’m talking about My Experience #every trans experience is real and valid and important #including the ones where they’re perfectly fine with their bodies as they are! #you can fuck right off if you disagree

[xskyll]

Page 15, for the second time! Apologies to those that saw the version I posted last night with the typo. My days lately have been busy, so sometimes I feel a bit brain foggy. A couple of people left comments on either here or Twitter and it killed me to delete everything. ;_;

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#skylldraws #i’m still counting this as part of my holiday streak #i posted on Mother’s Day and the day before Memorial Day #then I posted this originally on father’s day only to take it down and post on Juneteenth #The holidays might be part of why I’m feeling so exhausted lately #i end up having to visit family which is draining because i have to be on guard the whole time #but!! #next week i have some days off #hubby and i are going away and I’m hoping I’ll be able to rejuvenate #cause right now my motivation is low #some nights i get to the point where i can finally sit down and relax and all i have the energy to do is stare at the wall lolol #or watch tv #i recently started watching Nana for the first time #anyway I’ve babbled enough #we bought a new mattress and it’s tall so i need to go set up a ramp so my tiny dog can get into bed on his own #happy pride everyone #I watched To Wong Foo for the first time the other week and adored it #also went to a drag show Saturday and it was great #okay I’ll shut up now #here are the obligatory tags #tododeku #tddk #tdiz #todoizu #bnha #bnha comic #tddk comic #tddk fanart #todoroki x midoriya #todoroki x deku

[ihearnocomplaints]

me if uhhhh me if you uh if you reblog my art and give me love and attention

#hi welcome to chilis #Im like drunk-tired or something #im feckin exhausted m8 #i need to slep #but my brain hates me sigh #(me who desperately wants to do something creative but doesn’t have the time or energy) #anyway uhhhhh points tho my art tag -> #complaintsconcepts #might delete later because i am a sad little creature who just really likes when people like my things #i wish i made better art that people would think is cool like all these cool amazing artists that can actually draw good things #(says the guy with the lowest self confidence on the planet) #anyway I’m drawing an updated persona because i finally figured out what I want the design to be #yes it is the halloween clown version of my slimesona #because i love it #(unfortunately what colours to use— i do not know)

[mikodaiyo]

Back to BUSINESS. wip

#Sesskag wip #I’ve been done with this for a minute but I was too tired from work and refreshing myself on other interests #now that I finally had a decent rest and can see straight it’s all good!! ALL GOOD !!! #work was DUMB and LONG ugh. it’s almost spring :D!!! that means good weather and work being more exhausting bc everybody wanna be outside #also y’all I met a new guy lol the last one sucked I like this new guy so much. matter fact I’m seeing a man now the last one was #just some dude yknow lol I gave 5 months of my time to just some dude just to get broken up with before vday🤡🤡 #but now I’m back to baseline! just in time

[raytm]

I know I don’t technically owe anyone and explanation but I want to put out there what’s going on and why I may have distanced myself or ended up losing mutuals because of cut contact.

on October eleventh my cat of eighteen years got put to sleep, which, has left me feeling empty and without reason to really do anything ? I was still working for a while and managing things but it progressed to a point where I was pacing any minute I was not doing anything and couldn’t sleep, spent the nights pacing the length of our property sometimes for hours at a time. my mum took me to the ER and they gave me sedatives which while acted to soothe it for a little bit didn’t solve the issue. when I returned home and was still exhibiting the symptoms she confronted me saying my cat was dead and I needed to get over it which ? was the last straw for me, she was screaming I was cowering it wasn’t fun. since then I’ve been staying with a friend who has taken me in and I’ve made progress but sleeping at night is still panic inducing for me and even with medication sometimes the insomnia still wins, I’ve been to the ER a few more times over the past two months and thankfully the pacing has stopped but the sleeping issues haven’t improved to the point where I’m able to sleep normally ? I still don’t know when it’s going to happen. I’m getting my PC from my mums house on the 28th so hopefully I’ll be able to write again but with how exhausted I am it can be difficult to even do the things I need to function day to day. I’ve had to give up my jobs as well so it’s just ? An on going ordeal. It’s been a rough two months but tbh I didn’t think I was going to make it to Christmas and I have so I’m just quietly hoping it improves even if it is slowly.

#animal death / #parental abuse / #I don’t consider it abuse per se but she chased me out of my home but showing not an ounce of sympathy #and the screaming in my face just made me need to leave #I don’t know when I’ll be recovered and I can only take a day at a time but #any mutual I’ve had throughout the year who has plotted or chatted with me I love you #but I’m so exhausted ALOT of the time just from showering and eating #and I feel so much guilt for it too #here’s to hoping next year is a recovery year and that things do improve further than this #but I’m not a walking zombie all the time like I was at the start of November when I left home #ooc

[glovehearts]

auston talking about his friendship with biebs @ nhl all star fanfest q&a

#auston matthews #justin bieber #toronto maple leafs #k’s stuff #all star girls trip #legit i love their friendship #i have a lot of thoughts about it and how special it is to have people you can just be normal around when you’re super famous #because it is exhausting and you never know who is gonna be using you #and especially after all biebs went through as a kid and young adult #like he’s so often talked about how he reaches out to young singers to help them and give them a person to talk to #and knowing how auston reaches out to the leafs rookies and spends time talking to new guys on the team and making them feel welcome #they’re just like very similar humans and it’s really fucking sweet how close they are #okay i’m done probably

[detentiontrack]

Being fat has never negatively affected my health nearly as much as restricting my food and counting calories for years did. No matter what diet culture and fatphobia tells you, fueling your body and allowing your body to be at its comfortable set point weight is always a good thing.

#when I had my ED I would be in bed by 4pm because I was so exhausted from lack of food #I was constantly exhausted and with a migraine and gave up a lot of things that used to make me happy #my grades suffered I stopped hanging out with friends and I stayed in my room all day instead of spending time with my family #I’m 60lbs heavier than I was 3 years ago but I’m happy and enjoying life #tw ed #tw weight #tw fatphobia #ok to rb

[thatsonehellofahabit]

wampwomp.. some more SCP sketches tehehe

#I’m so exhausted all the time now because of work but hey ho more time for drawing now at least #trying to animate too but I just don’t have the attention span for it #shout out to fundie Fridays for the background noise during most of these drawings I love them so much #omg enjoy my scp doctor OC in the corner too lmao #scp foundation #scp foundation fanart #dr alto clef #scp #scp alto clef #scp dr bright #scp dr kondraki #scp 166 #Scp 5000 #scp tales #thatsonehellofanart