#i’ll be okay in a week or so

[rachthechaosbi]

i actually want to rip out my heart and replace it with music sometimes

#rotating between listening to the record by boygenius and hold the girl by rina sawayama #me when i’m definitely late to the train but hopping on now #feeling shrimp feelings during midterms #will loop leonard cohen (song) until i cry myself to sleep tonight #sometimes music musics really hard and i cant function about it #i’ll be okay in a week or so #want to start listening to muna too but i’ll get there after i can functionally listen to anything else #paper to write and midterm to study for but instead spacing out at the wall #it’s fiiiiine #tumblr tags or therapy quick guess which #rant

[saetoru]

the first night al-haitham spends with you, he’s unsure what to do with his arms.

“just wrap this one around me here,” you giggle, maneuvering his arm to curl under you. he does so stiffly, laying on his side like a log as you press close against his body. “now lay the other one over me.”

he does—and by that, he simply plops his other arm to lay flat over your torso.

“this is a rather awkward arrangement, don’t you think?” he raises a brow.

“it’s because you’re laying like a robot. loosen your limbs,” you huff, “you might as well eat nuts and bolts for breakfast.”

he’s not good at these kinds of things. he wants to tell you that—that if you’re looking for a boyfriend to hold hands and cuddle with, he’s probably not the best candidate. or the second best. or even the twentieth. he’s probably the last person on the list that you could get intimate with.

yet here you are, curling his arm around you like there’s any hope of him getting this right.

“are you sure this is—”

“here, i have a better idea,” you interrupt. suddenly, you’re hands are shoving him away, making him blink as you roll him around to turn and face away from you.

“what are you—” your arms wrap around him, and your chin rests on his shoulder as you press a gentle kiss to his skin. it’s warm, feeling you pressed against him like this. it’s nice and comforting and it feels like home.

and sure, maybe he lays a little stiff, maybe he’s unsure what do with his arms as he awkwardly lays there on his side, but you wrap yourself around him tightly, pressing a few kisses to the side of his head as you smile against his hair. he can feel you—he can count the beats of your heart and if he tries hard enough, he can feel the way the rhythmic pounding is just as quick as his.

“there,” you murmur, satisfied with yourself. a part of him feels he should turn back around and get it right—that he should be holding you and not the other way around.

but then you pull him closer against your chest, and he can’t help but melt into you. “this will get uncomfortable for your arms rather quickly,” he points out.

“shh. just sleep,” you click your teeth.

he thinks it’ll be harder to sleep with someone here, someone breathing and moving against him and keeping him locked in place. but oddly enough, he falls asleep quicker than usual that night—and every night after too.

#heyyyy guys it’s been a few days #do u miss me #i’ll be back in a week or 2 #✰ — al haitham. #another old ass draft that was collecting cobwebs that #i’m too shy to tag #and it’s also a bit too short to rly be a drabble #so #here u go #look away #i just wanna be the big spoon and hold al-haitham is that too much to ask #little spoon al-haitham is real to me okay #he’s touch starved

[crybaby-bkg]

a slight continuation of this

no caller ID pops on your screen, pulling your attention away from your previous task at hand: not fucking up your eyeliner. you typically wouldn’t care if it was a little uneven, but you’re going on a date tonight, for the first time in so long, and you want everything to go as smoothly as possible.

which is why you groan when you end the call, and that same no caller ID pops right back up seconds later. you know who it is—who else would it be? you figured he’s already seen your story of being excited for going on your first date in a while, on the only app you hadn’t blocked him on. petty? perhaps, but it’s on him to be keeping up with you despite you cursing him out for wasting your time and then blocking him right after.

you watch it ring though, contemplating for a while longer than you should. you blocked him for a reason. no need to entertain his same shit that he always spews to you when he realizes that he might be losing you once more?

….but it doesn’t hurt to hear the hero beg for you.

“What do you want, Bakugou?” You sigh irritably as you finally answer his call, putting him on speaker as you go back to even out your eyeliner. You hear him huff on the other side of the phone at the use of his surname, but he doesn’t say anything about it, instead, quickly telling you what he’s been bothering you for.

“Who’s the fuckin’ loser that’s gonna drool over how good your tits look in that stupid green dress you love so much?” Bakugou grunts, and you instantly feel your face heating at his crude words. You glance over with a frown at that same green dress that makes your tits look good, where it hangs on your closet.

“None of your damn business, Bakugou.” You snap at him, wondering if it’s too late to find something else to wear. “Not like you ever took me out in my stupid green dress.” Your voice holds a level of bitterness that only he can bring out of you, and you hear his sigh through the speakers.

“I told you this before, I’m always—”

“Busy.” You cut him off, voice suddenly thick as you think back on the countless rejections he’s splattered at your feet every time you tried to further your relationship with him. “You reminded me of how busy you’ve been since you first started this whole situationship.”

“Situation—? Huh? We were dating!” Bakugou protests with a huff, and you can hear how he paces the floor quickly. You glare at your phone, setting down your liner to instead pick of your (his) favorite lipgloss.

“You’d have to ask me out to be dating, Bakugou. You’d have to court me to be dating, Bakugou. You’d have to make time for me and take me out on dates and not hide me to fucking date me, Bakugou.” You spit at him, venom dripping off of your lips in waves. You don’t know why you answered, why you even entertained him. You shake your head with a huff when the line goes quiet, eyebrows quirking up when your date sends you a text to make sure you’re still on for tonight.

“I’m sorry.” Bakugou mutters pathetically, his voice suddenly soft. You hesitate, for some reason, when it comes to texting your date back. Why do you always hesitate when Bakugou is around?

“Let me make it up to you, court you, and shit. I can take you to one of my favorite places, you can wear that pretty green dress and that gloss you know I love.” His voice is pleading, thickening and sweet and suffocating. You shouldn’t respond, should reply back a yes to your date.

“Please? You know how much you mean to me.” Bakugou mumbles, and you can hear the earnestness in his voice. Why haven’t you said yes to your date yet?

“I’ll do better this time. Just one more chance, sweetheart.” Bakugou’s voice is so soft, you’ve never heard him this vulnerable before. You sigh with a shake of your head, slumping back into your seat in defeat.

…

Sorry, I can’t make it tonight. Something came up. Maybe we can reschedule for another time?

#sorry this is kinda angsty lol #but I saw this tt earlier where this girl was so giddy bc ‘no caller id’ called LOL #and it just reminded me of the first part to this #at first he’s all ‘no we can’t date bc of xyz bullshit reason’ #but the moment you’re like ‘I’m done w this toxic back n forth we’re not even a couple’ #he’s like WE WERE TOGETHER THE WHOLE TIME!!!!! #delusion is what I like to call it #also he definitely takes you out to a place that’s very secluded and exclusive #to shut you up for the time being #the whole ‘at least I took you out!’ shtick #I hate him actually #but the toxic hate sex goes crazy ☝🏻 #okay gn I’m sleepy and I felt so shitty today #or yesterday #so I’m hoping today will be better #maybe I’ll mediate before I start on my work #I wanna go on a walk sometime this week bc it’s gonna be great weather but my anxiety keeps telling me #that one of the stray cats or foxes is gonna attack me AKSJDKDJDJD #omg does anyone remember me talking about that calico kitty in my backyard at one point??? #I haven’t seen her since and I hope she’s okay :( we miss her :( #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬

[phoenixmetaphor]

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@serennedyweek Day 2 - Western

super late but i made the end of the week at least! the event snuck up on me but when i saw the prompt list i couldn’t help but do more cowboy!au. though this one is mostly about luis being thirsty and leon being testy. just. in the 1800s. a bit rushed but hopefully it’s mostly clear.

details below.

#my fanart #serennedyweek #serennedyweek2024 #serennedy week 2024 #leon kennedy #luis serra #serennedy #resident evil #re4 remake #fan comic #cowboy au #blood #leon’s cheeky little tongue poke brings all the boys to the yard #luis is also hot for competence #ugh why did i do so many panels #and more importantly #why did i make that damned jacket embroidered #rip me #though i guess the trade off is in this part of the au i’ve avoided hats #sorry cowboy hat enthusiasts #maybe i’ll get you next time #okay off to play stardew~

[zytes]

odds n’ ends

#it’s like.. the b-sides that didn’t fit with anything else and aren’t strong enough alone to warrant me wasting space on anyone else’s dash #these were taken between Sep 23’ and Feb 24’; they’re not sorted chronologically #they’re sorted by temperature. sorta #I can start putting more time into art again soon - easing into it bc I’ve not adjusted to the changes yet #now that the move is over and I don’t have the shitty helljob that had me doing 70 hrs p/week. I made a bank in OT hours tho. #which is good! bc my job fell through on this end and I’m now trying to find new work so I don’t die :) #so my heftier-than-usual savings are keeping me afloat for the moment #ah well! cest la vie; and I’ll be okay! #my art #aesthetic #art #artwork #webcore #internetcore #abstract #artists on tumblr #photography #flash photography #weirdcore #nature photography #mountains

[lucywucy126]

Day 3 - injured after a fight

#blue beetle #jaime reyes #khaji da #dc comics #jaime reyes week 1 #dc fanart #poor guy someone help him he’s going through it #no tienes nada Jaime it’s literally just a broken leg and a dislocated shoulder. estás bien -_- #it’s okay khaji da numbed him so he doesn’t actually feel all the pain #I swear I’ll get Jaime week done eventually

[q1ngqve]

I DESPERATELY NEED TO HEAR YOUR THOUGHTS/TAKE ON YINGXING..!! im starving for more fics with him.... need him to manhandle and make me sob i just know he's a little mean like that

have you seen what the hsr wiki wrote about his personality? "he became more confident as he grew up, and was described to be an arrogant man by many" LIKE HELLO???

he’s so big and tall and strong and if he wanted to, he can send you flying at 100 km/h easily :(

and you are so right!!!! he’s very, very mean and would coo at you when you’re sobbing and squirming under him 🙁 i just know he loves edging and making you cry, begging and cursing at him softly for not letting you cum

i think he’d be into gentle ‘degrading’, says things like “c’mon baby, just one more for me.” and he’d pull you back by your ankle when you move away from him, his fingers digging into your inner thigh and looks up at you threateningly, “where do you think you’re going? I’m not done with you yet.”

i also think he would tie you up either at your wrists or your ankles and manhandles you into any position he wants!!!!!!!!!!!! flips and drags you around like a rag doll, probably even calls you “doll”, or when he’s angry, he’d tighten the bindings on your wrist and call you his “little fuck toy” <3

#maybe i’ll write a fic for him next time hehe #first week of uni is fucking me up rn #SO THE LACK OF WRITING ON MY BLOG IS SAD #BUT PLEASE BEAR WITH ME OKAY EVERYONE #anyway thanks for sharing your brain rot anon <3 #🀥 lan’s writings! #☃︎ anons! #hsr #honkai star rail #yingxing #blade #hsr yingxing #yingxing x reader

[xskyll]

Page 15, for the second time! Apologies to those that saw the version I posted last night with the typo. My days lately have been busy, so sometimes I feel a bit brain foggy. A couple of people left comments on either here or Twitter and it killed me to delete everything. ;_;

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#skylldraws #i’m still counting this as part of my holiday streak #i posted on Mother’s Day and the day before Memorial Day #then I posted this originally on father’s day only to take it down and post on Juneteenth #The holidays might be part of why I’m feeling so exhausted lately #i end up having to visit family which is draining because i have to be on guard the whole time #but!! #next week i have some days off #hubby and i are going away and I’m hoping I’ll be able to rejuvenate #cause right now my motivation is low #some nights i get to the point where i can finally sit down and relax and all i have the energy to do is stare at the wall lolol #or watch tv #i recently started watching Nana for the first time #anyway I’ve babbled enough #we bought a new mattress and it’s tall so i need to go set up a ramp so my tiny dog can get into bed on his own #happy pride everyone #I watched To Wong Foo for the first time the other week and adored it #also went to a drag show Saturday and it was great #okay I’ll shut up now #here are the obligatory tags #tododeku #tddk #tdiz #todoizu #bnha #bnha comic #tddk comic #tddk fanart #todoroki x midoriya #todoroki x deku

[anna-scribbles]

nothing more rewarding in this life than saying the word “marichat” out loud and watching someone you don’t know very well stiffen and then slowly turn and make deliberate eye contact with you

#it’s happened to me like. several times #i love talking about miraculous ladybug out loud in real life because SO MANY PEOPLE watch it and just won’t mention it first #it’s okay. i will mention it first. i’m always mentioning it #i found out 2 different people i sort of know watch miraculous ladybug via this method in the last week alone #okay okay i’ll do my homework now. okay i will #anna rambles #ml

[rainymoodlet]

… coming this week! 🌸

[ I unfortunately "lost the footage" (aka gshade didn't take my screenshots) of the extra challenge I ran to determine the two winners I initially forgot, so they will be surprise reveals throughout the week! The order for the upcoming dates have been randomized! ]

#ts4 #ts4 screenshots #ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #ts4 bachelor challenge #;kmik #|| #i hope you all have had a wonderful weekend!! 🥰 #this is a queued post - sunday’s my only day off after working a 6-day week so i’ll be around later tonight but!! we have a whole plan #in place for this next batch of episodes okay!! #we have some clips of everyone enjoying some loose gameplay while i made sure the time was correct for pictures to start (dhshd) #and then we’ll get into the upcoming eight dates! #i am Struggling with some gameplay shots but otherwise they’ve come out wonderfully crisp omg! #i’m so excited to get into the next phase of this challenge with you all! #let’s see how dan acts when its undeniable that he’s on a Date 👀 #🌸🌹🌸🌹🌸🌹🌸

[kuroosdarling]

hello friendz !! i am packing my bags and moving to @tetzoro !!! please come join me if ya want ^_^

back to navi.

#i’ve been so annoying about this all week to my buddies but i have made the decision to archive this blog ! #i’ve had so many good memories here and have met so many amazing people that i get to call my friends 🥹 #i’ll forever be thankful for this blog for giving me a safe space to be myself and fully indulge (aka go delulu) in anime men #a large part of me does not want to make the move but tbh it comes down to organization #when i made this blog i never thought i’d meet mutuals and find a community here #if i knew then what i knew now i would’ve just made a new blog from the start #but managing a main blog and side blog sucks !!! (for me) bc i view this as my main blog #and tbh a fresh start sounds really nice #so !! if u read all this im giving you a pat on the head and a freshly baked cookie #i hope to see u guys at my new blog !!! #i am going to try to follow a lot of u from it but also !!! #no pressure to become moots again if ya don’t wanna <33 #love y’all sm #ALSO ! i will be keeping this blog up #forever my shrine to kuroo tetsuro #(my new blog is still v kuroo - centric .. don’t get me wrong. he is still the man™️) #okay im nervous !! laterz !!! <3 #⁺. ʚ aims lore ɞ ⋆˙

[kingdom-dance]

Oh, and these colors fade for you only Hold me, carry me slowly, my sunlight x

#Im seeing Hozier next week so I HAD TO #Sunlight is an extremely ChasexNiamh coded song okay #it plays on repeat in my head when I write anything emotionally charge between them #I’ll never be over them #sunshine and moonlight 🥹 #shepherds of haven #Niamh Valendil #Chase Trinaste #I dont know the first fucking thing about lighting and it shows #b draws things sometimes

[housewifebuck]

Anyone else accidentally form an extremely buddie coded relationship with their best friend or am I just gay

#the only part we don’t got is the being in love part. not that I wouldn’t hit but she’s straight and married unfortunately #work together ✅ #legally bound to me ✅ #the emergency guardian of my kids (my cats) and vice versa ✅ #people think we’re married when we go out together ✅ #her kids are obsessed with me ✅ #literally the youngest one has imprinted on me fr #last week she called me mommy by accident and today she called me daddy on purpose 😭 I was like yeah sure okay I’ll take that #sorry I’m literally always on here gushing about my best friend but I just love her soo much like that’s my second family bitch …. #and everybody gonna fucking hear about it #bc I have soooo much love for my friends but this one is particularly emotionally constipated so I can’t love bomb her like my other friends #and I need to let it out somehow or I’ll go fucking crazy sorry #personal

[bratkook]

manifested a tattoo appointment from my favorite artist in the whole world & now im getting my shoulder absolutely blasted in two weeks lmaoooooo

#shes had her books closed forever #i have her notifs on and was gonna book a fucking flight to england just to get something done #and a random shop i follow posted that shes guest spotting in two weeks and it had like ten likes and she hadnt advertized it #so i swooped in and managed to snag a spot 😭😭 #giving her complete creative freedom to do what she wants as big as she wants #i’ll be sitting there for six/seven hours living my teenage dream hehehe #like ive been following her since i was 17 okay i might cry #im also getting my other arm blasted a week later so february is gonna be so sick with both my arms itchy af 😭

[mayasdeluca]

Me seeing that People Mag confirmed Ashlyn and Sophia are dating

#“A few weeks ago” yeah okay sure I’ll play along lmao #wow… #so anyways can’t believe I have to hate Sophia bush now but here we are

[edge-oftheworld]

gotta love how quickly I cycle from ‘so proud of them for sharing that what a time to be a 5sos fan!’ to ‘suddenly worried and concerned my chest aches seeing all this WHY CAN’T THEY JUST BE COMPLETELY HAPPY AND AT PEACE ALL THE TIME IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK??’

#it was the bloodshot eyes luke that got me I think #and michael content. all of that just has me feeling a mix of things #5sos #5 seconds of summer #luke hemmings #michael clifford #calum hood #ashton irwin #so yeah just don’t mind me I’ll be here with my emotions #but I got some good news about a friend ive been praying for for a literal decade this week. and hoping for more good news at the vet tmoz #so like things are okay I hope. I just hate being parasocial and the fact that I can’t just be like ‘hey man you alright’ to celebs etc #but it’s taught me a few things about people irl and that I’m capable of having boundaries and just accepting where they’re at