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fanttasttica · 7 months

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Finding you

Rhysand x reader

High lord of the Night court visits Court of Nightmares once again. You know what purpose of his visit is - to find a wife. But how will it go?

warnings: smut

words: 2551

High lord of the Night court, Rhysand, was once again visiting Court of Nightmars, your home. His visitations were quite rare, it was known, that he practitally hated this part of Night court. And you did too. Honestly you were jealous of the High lord, because he could come and go as he pleased.. but you were trapped here. It was your prison. Well, your situation was way worst than prisoners, you were feeling like a prisoner here, and yet.. they knew what destiny awaited them. They knew, if they will be released in ten or hundred years or if they will die, rot in their cell. But you? You didn't know anything and there was a little you could do to change your situation. Only thing you could do was to wait, get married and to hope that your husband will hate this place, as much as you do, so you would leave together. Your views on future were lots of things, but they werent nice.

Maids were helping you to prepare for tonight's ball. It was really important ball and not only becauce High lord was visiting. More important was purpose of his visit and tonight, he hoped to find a wife. Already for a few years a lot of people were talking about an heir, important thing your High lord didn't have yet and he definitely should. This was a hard time. Friendship between many courts was on the edge and anything could happen. Really dangerous times and maybe purpose of this was even more important. Court of Nightmares didn't like Rhysand and in response, he hated this place, not that you could blame him. Searching for his wife here, between ladies from noble families could help him form alliance. Definitely not with Keir, but there were other important families, just like yours. And that was the reason why tonight was so important for your family. In hope that you will catch High lords eyes, your family paid quite lot for your dress, which fitted you perfectly. They were black, hugging your whole body tightly and flattering your curves. Maybe you hated purpose of this dress, but you couldn't bring yourself into hating that dress directly. You felt like a dark princess, elegant, cruel, but fair. After a while of thinking, you were rather optimistic. What could happen bad? Your life was already a nightmare, if the High lord notices you, maybe it would mean a new and especially better start. At worst, transfer from one prison to another. And if he didn't notice you? You can enjoy yourself, dance, chat with the few friends you have and have a good drink. It will be good. You promised yourself to try enjoy this ball and went to the hall.

The hall, where was the ball held was dark, like always. It was representing Court of Nightmares perfectly. In the center of the room, an ensemble played dark but soft songs that only added to the atmosphere. It was frightening and yet.. beautiful in its own way. Maybe you were just imagining it, but something in you was really telling you, that in the end, tonight will be good night. "Lost in your thoughts? I shouldn't be surprised." voice of your friend came to you unexpectedly. "I was just thinking," you shrugged, facing her with a small smile. "About what?" she raised her eyebrown, she did it everytime, when she was curious. "Anything and everything. I have many thoughts in my head, but I am not sure, if they are even worth of thinking." you replied honestly, not sure if you put it good enough so it would make sense. Y/F/N took your hand and grinned at you. "I am sure they are. Why wouldnt they?" you didn't want to answer, it was clear that it would destroy atmosphere even more and in addition, your friend was one of the kindest and happiest person you knew and you didn't want to bring her down, so you were happy, when you didn't have to answer. Big doors to the hall opened and relieved High lord himself with his companions - Cassian, Azriel, Morrigan and Amren. You were surprised to see her here. It was maybe for the second or third time in your life? Well, you weren't that old, nearly thirty, but still, it was surprise probably for everyone. As everyone else, sou bowed to your High lord and remained in that position until he greeted everyone. It wasn't a warm greeting, he was measuring you all with stone expression and his power? You could feel it very well and that was something he wanted, it was silent threat and remark, that he was High lord here and anyone who would want to test him.. would end up badly. Maybe you should be scared or feel uncorfomotable like others, but you couldn't bring yourself to it. You were looking at High lords face with interest and your friend noticed it. She pushed you softly and provocatively. "You should stop staring like that." that woke you up out of trance. "Like what?" you asked, turning again to face her. "Like you want to have him for dessert.. Hmm.. but I can't blame you. He is sexy, High lord of naughty dreams." you rolled your eyes and gigled and the same time. "You are unbelievable."

You didn't have time to chat more with your friend, because your mother came as it was time for you to be represent before the High lord. "Don't forget to smile, bow and stand straight.. And don't say a word if you are not asked a question. Until then, me and your father will do all the talking." she said to you for the third time from this morning, not a little kindess in her voice. You gritted your teeth s oyou wouldn't say anything bat to her. She was your mother. Maybe you didn't love her, but you still tried to respect her. Although her words made you feel like a sale cow, waiting to be sold by their owners. But now it wasn't a time to argue, nor it was time to seemed hurt. If the Court of Nightmares has taught you anything, it was to recognize a time when it's better to shut your mouth and put a mask on your face. And you did that right now, so no one could see what you truly think. Then, before you even knew it, you were standing before the High lord and his purple eyes, your mates purple eyes, were scaning you with interest. You bowed deeply, as you were taught, straightened up and looked at the High lord, just for a second, before you turned your gaze to his companions. First was Azriel, or sometimes called Shadowsinger, you met his eyes and you could swear that you saw a glimpse of surprise and happiness. Cassian wasn't even trying to hide something, as he grinned at you. Saying that you were surprised was not enough. Do they recognize this bond? Did the High lord recognize it and told them? You knew he was daemati. Your heart was beating slightly faster than usually and because of that, you didn't look at Morrigan or Amren. You were afraid to see what expression they have on their faces. Finally, you started to pay attention and looked on your father, who was now speaking." .. and that's why our daughter is perfect for you, my High lord." You weren't sure if you should be mad at yourself, because you haven't heard what your father was saying, because you were lost in your thoughts, or if you should be glad. Hearing how elegantly he said that you will surely be fertile and obedient wife wasn't something you necessarily needed. You looked at High lord, hoping that he would send you away, praying that he wouldn't say anything about the bond, if he felt it of course. He was looking directly at you, trying to find your eyes, which you were avoiding, but now, you allowed your eyes to meet. It was probably the biggest mistake of your life, because from that moment, you couldn't look anywhere else, your throat was dry and what was worst, no one said anything for what seemed like eternity. High lord stood up, walking towards you, so now he stood only a few centimeters before you. You could feel the heat coming from his chest and his smell.. his smell was incredible. You heard that after mates find each other, they could feel really strong attraction towards other, but it was still weird. You felt like a school girl, who was having a huge crush on new student in class. "Before I give you my answer, I need to talk to your daughter." Rhysand's words gave you goose bumps, but it felt really pleasantly. "Of course, Lenka would like to spea-" before you could hear your father finish his sentence, you were winnowed away.

The hall had dissapeard and now you were standing in the middle of luxurious chambers. "Pardon me. I know this isn't the best place to have a first conversation, but it's the only place in this Court no one should be able to listen to us." you only now understood, that these are not just any chambers, these are your mates chambers. To your displeasure, you felt yourself blush. "Ehm.. I think everywhere is better than in that hall," before eyes of hundreds people. At least now you had your privacy. "You feel it too, right?" you asked quietly. If he hadn't you wouldn't probably be standing here, but you wanted to be sure. "I did,! he sighed and then smiled at you "it's just hard to believe. After many years of hoping and trying to find my mate.. After I lose my hope and start looking for a wife.. I finally find you." You smile at him, in response. "Yeah.. I wasn't even hoping to find my mate ever." you always thought that you will marry just out of obligation. That you will marry someone because your family will pick them. Of course having a mate didn't have to end happily, but now you had a better chance of happiness than ever. "I know this isn't ideal, it is very fast and I am asking too much from you, but please give me a chance." you shook your head, not believeing he would think that you would say no to him. "I am not going to reject this.. you.. if that's what are you thinking. I wasn't hoping to find my mate because of my family. I always thought that I will have arranged marriage with someone just for political advantage." you shrugged as you answered him. He seemed a little bit angry at what you said. "Yes.. It was clear what your father almost from the beggining." he stepped closer to you, raised his hand and after you gave him little nod, brushed his fingers across your cheek in loving way. "I don't know you properly, but I already feel more happy with you, that I ever did with my family.." it was nice, saying something without worrying that someone who shouldn't would hear. "Although I don't like hearing that.. I intend to keep you happy for the rest of our long life together." his fingers brushed against your lips, which caused that you opened them little and looked on his. As you leaned closer to him, you blamed this need for him on your bond, cursing it in your head.

"Y/N.." he said your name with the same need you were feeling. You never kissed anyone. Even in your family it was rare. You could count on one hand how many times your mother or father kissed you on your birthdays or anytime at all. And because of that, you were really glad, that he did the next step and kissed you. And this kiss? It was everything you could wish for. At first, his lips brushed softly against yours, he didn't want to rush you, although you wanted this as much as he did. He still gave you the opportunity to pull away. Your heart sang at his care. After a while, he had a courage to kiss you more passionately as you moaned his name quietly. "This was worth waiting for." you couldn't agree more, but for now, you didn't want to talk. You will have enough of time to do that later. You were filled with need, need for him, for his touch, for his lips. And obviously, he was too. His hands travelled to your back, he pulled you closer to him as his mouth find your neck. He started kissing your neck, not leaving one spot without his mark. You were sure that tomorrow morning you would have a lot of marks from him, that would need be cover by makeup. But it felt so good, that you didn't mind at all. You didn't mind telling your family what exactly happend. They could go to hell. Now you were lost in Rhysand and you couldn't be happy more. "We probably should stop. Because if I will take you to my bed, I will not let you leave again tonight and tomorrow probably not either." it didn't matter to you. "Don't stop.. please," if he would stop kissing you right now, you would be mad at him, maybe a little bit emarassed, but mostly angry. He listened to you, picked you up and laid gently at his big bed. You put your hand on his chest and stroked her. You looked at his eyes and he recognized what you wanted to stay. His clothes dissapeard, leaving him only in his underwear. Now, your hand was resting against his naked chest and you were absolutely amazed. You were probably more lucky with this male as mate than you thought. "Do you like what you see, Darling?" His cocky smile was telling you, that you didn't had to answer at all. Your expression told him everything. "You know that I do.. But now I think it's my turn." you point at your dress, which were beautiful, but right now you wanted to get rid of them as fast as possible. Rhysand smile widely as he leaned over you. "That is problem that can be easily solved.. Normally I would take my time with undressing you, but tonight I will go straight to the tasting." and with wave of his hand, you were in front of him naked. At this point, your shyness was hiding somewhere in the shadows, horrified of this scene. As Rhysnad promised, he started tasting you, slowly. His mouth was on your neck, on your breast.. it was everywhere. And finally, it was between your legs. His mouth found your sweet center and he was driving you mad. You were squeezing sheets as you were closer to your release. "Come for me my darling.. now.." you obeyed him and moaned his name after you climaxed. You were breathing heavily, feeling a little bit dizzy, but you still felt amazing. "Catch your breath my darling." Rhysand whispered in your ear and his lips brushed against yours. "I am not planning on stopping here.."

#rhysand x reader #rhys x reader #rhysand imagine #rhysand fanfic #acotar #acotar fanfiction #acotar imagine #acotar series

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stevie-petey · 8 days

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what about a fun silly little mindless blurb w steve robin and bug at scoops before ch 1? like what was the first time bug stopped in to visit steve like ? did robin instantly take to her ? i need to see my precious babies bond

we technically already see bugs first time meeting robin in chapter 9 of season 2, buuuuut i love em and will extend the scene a bit <3

enjoy !

"slow down! youre running so fast and i just biked here!" you try your best to keep with robin as she drags you through the newly built mall.

"keep up, slowpoke!" robin only tugs at your hand and all you can do is follow.

youve known the girl for all of five minutes and already shes become your new favorite person.

robin drags you to an area close to the entrance where theres a fancy fountain. seemingly content with where shes dragged you to, she finally drops your hand and sits against the fountains ledge. scrunching her face, she looks disapprovingly at the statue. "how come hawkins had enough money for this crap but not for new uniforms for the band kids?"

"youre in band?" you ask the girl as you sit next to her.

"yup," robin nods at you, curious to see what your reaction will be. shes heard a lot about you, everyone in hawkins has. youre the towns sweetheart, and robin knows at least three people in her band group that you helped one way or another throughout the years.

you gasp. "dude, i wouldve done band, but jonathan wanted to do choir instead."

"why didnt you just do what you wanted?" robin asks you, though she knows the answer already.

"band wouldnt have been fun without him, and i do like to sing." you shrug, not really regretful over the decision.

robin stares at you, a slight frown on her face. she seems to almost study you. "youre fascinating, you know that?"

"what do you mean?" you wrap your arms around yourself, suddenly feeling very small.

seeing this, robin is quick to correct herself. shes always been horrible talking to other people; shes the worst at making new friends, and she really, really wants to be your friend. "no! i didnt, uh, mean it in a bad way! i just-well, i mean. shit."

robins panic only makes you forget your anxiety and you nudge your shoulder against hers. "hey, breathe. im not going to like, dunk you into the fountain water."

"thank god," robin exhales, relieved that you dont seem too angry with her. taking a deep breath, she tries again to explain herself. "what i meant was: you took choir for jonathan byers, and yet youre here now with steve harrington. the douchebag."

you frown at robins words. you forget sometimes that so few people see steve how you do. hes far from the boy he used to be, but you know that sometimes its harder to heal wounds from cruel words said during your youth. "i know you dont believe me, but steve isnt so bad."

"hes a dick."

"he used to be, but now he isnt."

robin huffs. "and im just expected to believe you?"

"no," you shrug. "while i understand that steve has changed since you last saw him, i also understand that this change isnt mine to force you to accept."

your words leave robin speechless. its almost annoying how rational youre being about this. how you can balance both steves feelings and hers without making either of them feel lesser for it.

youre a goddamn saint and robin truly has no idea how jonathan or steve have managed to snag you for themselves.

its unfair.

"i..." robin tries to think of something to retaliate with, but she cant. youre right and she hates it. "thats a very frustratingly mature way to look at things."

you shrug again. "it sucks being so mature, i'll admit."

then steve runs up to the two of you and hes panting with exhaustion. "christ," he wheezes out, clutching at his knees as he bends down to try an catch his breath. "you two are fast."

"youre an athlete, harrington." you tug at steves hair and cause him to topple onto the ground, which robin cant help but giggle at. "keep up."

"why do i always end up on the ground when youre around?" steve doesnt even bother to get up.

"because im clearly bigger and stronger than you."

robin pokes your cheek, mollified by your conversation from earlier and by the fact that you just knocked steve harrington to the ground for fun. "dont forget more mature, y/n."

"oh, so much more mature." you agree, smiling at her.

steve sighs from the ground. "this is gonna be a long summer."

"get used to it, dingus," robin nudges the boy with her sneaker and he flinches away, displeased, but this only makes you and robin giggle even more together.

#ask #anon #m speaks #set in between seasons 2 and 3 !#come home blurb #m's writing #robin u are so loved #had to address robins hatred for steve yet need to be bugs friend #hope this came across right

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sneezemonster15 · 11 months

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If sakura and hinata were redeemed in naruto, would anyone even care? I feel as if I wouldn't care much, especially for sakura, cuz they've done too much. I think I would still hate them and some others wouldnt buy it.

I mean, say like Sakura was redeemed all of a sudden in boruto, would that be enough to overcome how she she treated other's throughout all the story? Especially Sasuke. Would redeeming her be enough to overcome how she harasses him all the time? Would it be enough to overcome how she chased sasuke and gave him a child he never wanted? Like she gets redeemed and goes "oops, I know you never wanted this but I'm sorry now and I'm a changed person, won't happen again." Like the damage is done, she's harassed him and chased him till he gave in, how can you better yourself after you've gotten what you wanted? redeeming can't reverse that damage. Or how she treated Naruto "sorry for being a bully and hitting you for no reason but I'm changed now, won't do it again." Apart from narusaku audience, which audience is gonna buy that? Like it's unconvincing she would get redeemed and then would apologize to naruto as it just so happens to be when he's hokage and she's got her prize Sasuke. Or for ino she gets redeemed and apologises for how she treated her, but it unconvincing because sakura has won Sasuke, so she and ino aren't fighting over him anymore.

Or for Hinata,"S..so...sorry n.nn....naruto-kun for guilt tripping you to marry me, I.. I.. I won't do it again, I'm better and changed." Like, he's already married to her and started a family. It's not going to mean much?

Based of the ask someone sent abt if it's possible Sakura and hinata could get redeemed. Like you've said in your reply, anyone can get redeemed, but I feel like it would be unconvincing or at the least, take a lot of work to redeem these two. This is just my opinion I could be wrong.

But that's the thing. If Sakura and Hinata were redeemed in Naruto, it would have meant something significant, and it would have contributed to the narrative and plot, because if the plan were to redeem them, then logically Naruto and Sasuke would be made to get together at the end. Look at what Sakura and Hinata represent. Two heteronormative selfish, entitled, unsympathetic, boy crazy girls who would potentially make into women who would force gay men to marry them to keep their illusions of love afloat. They don't give a shit as long as they get what they want, even at the expense of their spouses' well being or their own long term happiness. It was necessary for them to be written that way to facilitate the Brokeback Mountainesque situation in Boruto, no? What with the whole story being a love story and Sakura and Hinata as tools that were used to keep Naruto and Sasuke prisoners to their miserable lives, life of a shinobi who is supposed to live in the darkness, enduring all the misery silently. It's not the kind of world that will accept them, certainly not Naruto, someone who was systematically and institutionally ostracized, an orphaned, homosexual boy who is fated to be THE person in the world that will change it for the better. And this was the only way to resolve this story, in order for it to justify the new gen story, hence becoming the tragic ending that we hate. So the antipathy towards these ladies never got resolved. However, in order for their redemption to happen in the manga, a lot of things would need changing. Like the state of the shinobi world. A lot of things would need changing if Sasuke and Naruto were written to finally get together. Yes, the ending as it is now feels contrived. It is contrived. But it is not meaningless. The shinobi world has been established as a cruel world, where people don't get what they deserve. Look at Haku, look at Madara, look at Kisame, look at Neji, Sasuke, Naruto, Uchiha clan. And those who get it, don't deserve it. Look at Sakura, look at Hinata, look at Sarutobi, look at Tobirama, look at Danzo, look at village elders.

I agree with you that it won't matter if they were redeemed in Boruto. Boruto is not about the boys, they are supporting characters in it. Their story was Naruto and Shippuden. Which is over. And obviously, Kishi made it a point post Shippuden to keep Hinata and Sakura's the same as before, so it doesn't look like he is planning to redeem them. Looks like status quo would persist in the distant future.

However, it could have been done in Shippuden. And like I said in the other post you mentioned, anyone can be redeemed in a show and it is all believable as long as the writer justifies it within the story itself. I used the example of Orange is the new black, because it shows a whole host of complex characters, deeply flawed and yet realistic characters who were written to justly finish their redemption arc. Take Maria's character, a secondary antagonist in the story. Maria is quiet and shy as a kid but given her circumstances, she transforms into a take charge dynamo of a person, very impressive and self assured, she takes after her religious leader/drug trafficker father, who can charm the masses and lead them. She steals from her place of work, she cheats on her husband, she doesn't feel any regret about it. She gets caught and is sentenced for fraud. She works her way in the prison, but navigating the prison life brings out the worst in her, she eventually becomes the leader of the prison riot. She becomes a full fledged bully, a sadist, she has no ethical compass anymore. This leads to her stint in the max security prison, where she is made to eat the humble pie, she learns that life could get even harder, and the choices she has been making has been leading her into even deeper shit, away from her daughter that she loves so much, away from her friends that were her family in the prison. She joins the church, she makes amends to people she has harmed. Her redemption arc is shown throughout the last two seasons, by the end of which, she makes the least destructive of all choices, she apologizes to Gloria, her close friend whom she betrayed, and lets her loving and kind husband to marry the woman he loves, her husband whom she treated very unkindly in the past, despite him being so devoted to her. She agrees to let her husband marry another woman, a woman he loves genuinely, because for once, she thinks about her husband, and not herself. She commits a selfless act.

There were many instances where Sakura was written with a possibility to demonstrate maturity. The reason why Kishi wrote those scenes that way was that, when a character does something decidedly immature at a place or time where the opportunity was so damn ripe to do something mature, and doesn't do it despite everything that has happened before in the plot which had led to the current situation, the character loses credibility in the eyes of the audience. Audiences aren't foolish. Any good writer knows this. The way Kishi wrote Sakura's scenes, stresses even more on the fact that her character simply didn't evolve. Remained the same. That's what narrative motifs are about. This way, the reader is able to glean the meaning out of the scene, as intended by the author easily. It makes the impression the author wants his writing to make. Kishi made it quite clear that the reason why Naruto followed Sasuke was to save him and help him, to relieve his loneliness, to protect him. To be there for him, because he loves Sasuke and he KNOWS Sasuke reciprocates his feelings, even if he makes excuses to hide them, actions speak louder than words. As is evidenced in vote one especially. Sakura was written to chase after Sasuke for her own selfish reasons, where she simply ignores the need to know the truth about Uchiha massacre or any wish to actually know or understand Sasuke. Which Sasuke is clearly shown to understand about her. That's why he keeps telling her that she is annoying, just casually, an off the cuff remark lol. But when Naruto follows him, he gets very reactive, very disturbed, very distracted. Because he knows why Naruto is doing it, he suspects it. He keeps asking Naruto why because he wants to get confirmation from Naruto. Which he gets at the end. Point is, Sakura was shown to be selfish till the end, starting with part one, and then in the kage arc, war arc, just before vote two, at the end when she responds to Sasuke's apology as if she deserved it all along, and then asks if Sasuke would take her on his redemption journey. And then in Boruto and Gaiden.

Naruto on the other hand is shown as the one who is ready to share Sasuke's burdens and die with him in the same scene where Sakura tried to stab Sasuke in the back.

If you truly have conviction in your love, if you know that you love for the right reasons and if you truly care about your object of love, you would do things very differently from what Sakura did to Sasuke consistently in the manga. And all of it was shown to be done by Naruto. Who knows he loves for the right reasons, he would be a fool in love but not leave Sasuke's side because that's how much he believes, they resonated with each other even when they didn't know how to articulate it, they were both lonely. Naruto believes in his love for Sasuke and he knows Sasuke loves him, because he showed it to Naruto, with actions more than words. Naruto changes, he evolves in the course of the manga, he becomes better in every aspect, because he is constantly inspired by the memory of Sasuke, because of the motivation of protecting him and being his rock.

True love is courageous. True love doesn't hide behind empty words and excuses. True love justifies the words that have been said by the lovers. True love doesn't say the words and then take them back in the face of adversities. True love makes it happen despite the odds. That's the glory of true love. That's why it inspires us. That's why Sasuke was convinced by Naruto and not anyone else at the end. Sakura was given all the chances and suggestive realisations but still no redemptive action. Same with Hinata. She realises she is being selfish when jumping in the fight against Pein but she does it anyway because she couldn't help being attracted to Naruto and needed to make an impression on him at the expense of the whole village and Naruto's life, followed by getting trolled by Kishi when Sakura hugs Naruto in front of her. Still no redemptive action. Not even in the war arc when Neji died.

If you can make it believable, anyone can be redeemed, just need to justify it properly. And of course, it won't be an isolated event, it would influence the plot and characters that are connected with them.

Like for example, think about a character such as Oro. He was written to be dreaded, reviled, to cause shivers down the spine, and nervousness, to create a feeling of unease and anticipation, right? Because he is cruel and an evil genius, he is always a step ahead of his opponent, he is clever as a fox. But even he was redeemed. And no, the idea of his redemption was not just at the end when he supported the war efforts. The feeling of antipathy towards him went once he confronts the dead kages in the war arc and supports Sasuke. All through Shippuden, the audience is made to see how none of the adults in their world even attempts to understand Sasuke's predicament and given the amount of focus Kishi spent on making the readers understand Sasuke's tragic past, it makes you feel frustrated to see how no one in the plot tries to even understand Sasuke's side.

This was Kakashi.

Even though Kakashi is shown to acknowledge that Sasuke has truly suffered given his past, he still doesn't understand him. And Sasuke's attitude towards him doesn't improve till the end. At best, he becomes close to indifferent to Kakashi at the end. It's all understandable because it makes sense, because Kakashi has already been established as a complacent and unquestioning tool of the shinobi system. He is emotionally inept and doesn't understand his own team members. And he thinks Naruto and Sasuke are just rivals while Sakura's love for Sasuke has matured, she really loves Sasuke, a girl who is kind and gentle. Lol.

This was Itachi, but who's surprised? Itachi is the definition of tool of the system.

With Itachi, Sasuke tries his best to express his frustration with the system that was evidently so deeply unfair, he tried to explain where his anger came from, which is all very justified. He appeals to Itachi's love for him, and Itachi admits he was wrong to treat Sasuke as a blank canvas, as a kid who didn't understand the world. We again get to see yet another adult, someone who is this close to Sasuke, not understand Sasuke's predicament. Despite Sasuke's desperate attempts. Even Sasuke gets it at the end that there's no point explaining anything further to Itachi, he is brainwashed to the hilt. But he was still Sasuke's brother, and he did take the blame for being the reason why Sasuke was the way he was. But the audience is left frustrated nevertheless. After all this build up to show how cruel Danzo was and how the elders and Sarutobi were complicit in the massacre, we still see them regarding it lightly, as if it is an everyday event. And it compounds our frustration.

No cost is big enough for the apparent safety of Konoha, as per Danzo, but we all know Danzo did it for personal gain, his megalomania, the power hungry despot in him who traded power for hate and destroyed a whole clan like so many stray animals. Danzo was basically a hypocrite. A lot of characters were, in the name of Konoha.

This was Sakura.

After which she promptly made a plan to go kill Sasuke and attempted it.

And then there were others.

No one really cared. Except Naruto of course, shown in kage arc.

Oro is the only adult who supports Sasuke and says something that all the sane audiences have been wanting for someone to say. Someone reliable, someone who would make sense of it, someone who would reassure us that we weren't crazy, that whatever we are feeling is justified. Kishi is not blind to it either, but he needed to set up this world as deeply unfair, and he was going for eternity apparently, lol, which is why nothing really changed much even after Shippuden. None of these characters were redeemed, the ones that never understood Sasuke.

We are clearly shown by Kishi why it was that Oro changed his decision, he was not interested in participating in the war at all, his objectives were in no way benefited from the war. He was interested in Sasuke and even when he is reincarnated by Sasuke, he is still after Sasuke's body. But Sasuke had his own reasons to have brought back Oro and he tells him, Oro is intrigued. He is concerned so he tells Sasuke to not get embroiled, but Sasuke lets him know he can handle it and that he isn't a child. Sasuke shows agency. He is determined, there's a mature look to him, a certain calm strength of will. He realized what Sasuke has been through, he who understands Sasuke's motivation very well. He knew Sasuke went through hell, to be able to kill Itachi, and then he was told the truth about him, he was manipulated even by him, as he himself admits, but he can see that Sasuke has changed, grown. And this convinces Oro to help him, who is now invested in Sasuke's future, even if he doesn't particularly benefit from it. In the scene when all the dead kages are brought back, we are waiting to see what will happen with baited breath, it's a big deal. The crescendo is building and building, big credit to Oro who kept goading and goading, putting all those thoughts in words that we were thinking all along.

"It's really not that complex a jutsu....". He tells it like it is with such dry wit and sharp sarcasm, he trolls Tobirama and how. Hahahah. He calls him out left and right and it is then reiterated by Hashirama. Full entertainment guaranteed. He unequivocally takes Sasuke's side and he doesn't have a hidden agenda anymore. He threatens to destroy Konoha himself lol. He threatens all the kages, all the leaders of Konoha, people who made very bad decisions. He genuinely wants to see the way Sasuke's wind would blow. And when he feels Sasuke's life is being threatened by Tobirama, he positions himself for retaliation and is ready to protect Sasuke.

Sasuke resonates with Oro. Even though Oro was portrayed as a ruthless, mad genius, cruel and manipulative villain, whose past (childhood) was suggested to be equally unfair, but who has been hunting our favourite characters, harming them, torturing them, of course he was reviled by readers. But then, he is made to do the one thing no other adult could do. And it suits him very well. He is one who wanted to get all the victims of this unfair world together and make his own village, he was a non conformist, he was the outlier, someone who understands the ways of this world very well and takes advantage of it for his own benefit without regret, he refused to pander to the shinobi world's ways, he decided to make his own. It suited him to go his own way, being disinterested in war and to root for something/someone he was interested in. Sasuke. He puts his hand where his mouth is. Unlike others, he is not a hypocrite. He has seen wars too closely and he knows what it does to people. All the collateral damage. Sasuke is able to relate with Oro. This is what redeemed Oro, to whatever extent he has been redeemed to. Of course it doesn't make all his other actions alright, but it does soften our impression of him and we lose the edge of antipathy towards him.

And this was done properly. It was made to look believable. You are right, it takes work. The ladies' redemption doesn't mean anything now, in Boruto. It could have meant something back then, but Kishi wasn't going for it in any case.

#ask #vanilacatchocalatecat #sasuke #orochimaru #itachi #danzo #naruto #haruno sakura #anti ss #sns #uzumaki naruto #uchiha sasuke #kakashi #sasunaru #narusasu #anti nh #hyuuga hinata

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stardustmf444 · 4 months

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can i kiss you? | nate doe

a.n: I don't like writing with y/n, also feel free to send anything to my inbox

summary: Truth or dare at a party exposes Avery for never kissing anyone and her best friend Nate changes that

warnings: use of she/her pronouns, suggestive (hehe no smut) NOT PROOFREAD

Avery hated parties. She would rather be home, in her bed, sleeping. But Nate, he loved parties. He lived for them. The music in full blast, meeting new people and having new experiences.

She only came for him. He practically begged her to come with him. "Please Avery, I don't want to go by myself.. I'll make it up to you, I promise." He looked into her eyes. She caved, like always. His smile grew as the walked into the noisy house. She took a big breath in. He turned to her. He smiled softly and gave her hand a squeeze. She felt better knowing he wasn't going to leave her.

Every party they've been to together, Nate never left her side. He promised her he wouldnt leave her. Avery always told him he could, but he never did.

~ one hour later ~

Nate has probably talked to every person in this huge crowded party. Avery just followed him like a little kid. The party was still going hard. Definitely not ending anytime soon.

"Hey! Nathan!" Someone shouted from behind the two. They both turned around and saw Johnny waving him over. Nate started walking over, so Avery grabbed their drinks and walked over to Johnny too.

"Hey man, wassup?" Nate pulled him into a hig patting him on the back. Avery smiled at the interaction. Nate had always been a big people person. It warmed her heart how much kindness he had.

"Nothing much, just was wondering if you and Avery wanted to play truth or dare with us?" Johnny looked over to Avery and smiled. She mirrored his actions. Nate looked back at Avery, asking her if she wanted to play, with a look. She nodded, slightly nervous about the silly game.

The three of them headed over to the living room where the rest of the group sat around the table talking. Nate sat down next to Matt and patted the seat next to him for Avery. She sat down setting their drinks on the table. She waved at Matt, who waved back with a small smile.

"Ok! Who wants to go first!?" Chris slightly yelled. No one responded to him. "You guys are lame, guess I'm going first. Nate," He looked up at the sound of his name being said, "truth or dare?" Chris smiled.

Nate rolled his eyes."Truth." Nate smiled as he leaned back and brought his cup to his lips. Avery bit her lips slightly as she looked at him. He looked over at her and smirked. She gasped a little in shock as she reached for her cup to take a drink.

"Who do you think is the best kisser in the group?" Chris smiled like a kid in a candy shop. He loved these games. Nick rolled his eyes at him. He hated these games. Nate looked over the whole group before landing on his best friend next to him.

"Avery." He said while looking in her eyes. Avery stopped breathing for a sec and she felt her cheeks warm up. "Avery, truth or dare?" Nate smiled at her. She fiddled with empty solo cup nervously.

"Truth." She said in a whisper.

"WHAT?" Chris yelled at her. She looked at him with wide eyes. Nick hit him upside the head. Matt laughed and caused the whole group to start laughing.

"I said truth." She said more loudly towards Chris. She rolled her eyes. Nate smiled at her.

"Who's the person who kissed you the best?" Nate looked into her eyes with something she couldn't figure out. She licked her lips and looked around the group.

"I've never kissed anyone." She mumbled.

"Ok, I can't be the only one who can't hear her, right?" Chris complained. Matt and Nick rolled their eyes at their brother. He just looked at them with shock and waved his hands in the air. Nate furrowed his eyebrows together. Confused, he put his hand on her thigh to comfort her.

"What was that babe?" He asked her softly. His nickname for her going straight to her stomach. She looked in his eyes again.

"I've never kissed anyone." Avery said more clearly. Her cheeks heated up in embarrassment. His eyes widened in shock. Everyone's eyes went wide. They were all shocked. How could Avery never have kissed anyone? Especially when she went to parties with Nate all the time.

She laughed awkwardly "Ok, well, Johnny, truth or dare?" Everyone moved on from her confession. except Nate. He stared at her with confusion and wonder.

~ 20 minutes later ~

The game ended with Chris stripping down to his boxers and dancing like stripper on the table. Everyone was laughing, but agreed to end the game since it was getting pretty boring.

Avery got up to go get another drink and Nate followed her. She was about to grab a soda when he grabbed her wrist. Avery turned around to look at him. Her expression said 'What?'

"Have you actually never kissed anyone?" He asked her. She rolled her eyes at him and shook her wrist from his grasp. She grabbed the soda and walked away from him. She didn't want to further her embarrassment.

He reached her quickly and grabbed her by the waist. turning her around. "Jesus, Nate."

"I asked you a question Ree." He smirked at her, knowing she's getting embarrassed. She took a breath in and sighed.

"No, I've never kissed anyone." She again. got out of his grasp, "happy?"

He smiled at her. He grabbed the soda from her hand and set it on a near by counter. Nate grabbed her hands and look her in the eyes.

"Why?" He asked her with such a genuine tone, it threw her off.

"I don't know," she looked away from him, feeling her embarrassment coming back. "I just get to nervous and then I leave." She looked back into his eyes and saw him looking at her with an emotion she couldn't quite place.

"Why?" He asked her again. She rolled her eyes.

"Nate, I'm not in the mood for you to be messing with me right now." She turned around again and started to walk away from him. He obviously followed her.

"Ok, ok. I'm sorry." His apology made her turn around. She quicker an eyebrow, not believing him. "I just can't believe no one has ever kissed you. You have to be lying." He laughed gently.

"Well I'm not, it's embarrassing, so if you could stop bringing it up, that would be great. Thank you."

"I'll stop bringing it up," He started to smile at her, slowly, "if you kiss me."

Her jaw went to the floor. He's crazy, she thought. He looked at her with his smile still on his face and his big eyes looking to hers and grabbed her elbows. "Please."

She looked around the room, no one was really paying attention to anything going on around them. She looked back at Nate.

"Are you being for real?" She asked. He nodded his head. Avery took a breath in before telling him fine. Nate smile widened even more and his hands dropped from her shoulders to her hands.

He dragged her to the bathroom. "What are you doing?" She was out of breath, he made her run up the stairs and then down the hall, just to go into the bathroom.

"I don't want anyone to interrupt." She rolled her eyes, but felt her hands start to get clammy. This can't be happening. She's had a crush on Nate for so long and he's always flirted with her, but she never thought they would actually do anything.

Her thoughts were stopped when he grabbed her waist. Her breath got caught in her throat. Their bodies flushed together like two puzzle pieces. Nate looked into to her eyes once again. His left hand left her hip to place it on her cheek.

"Can I kiss you, Avery?" She nodded and leaned in slightly. "I need words babe." Said while leaning away from her face a little.

"Yes, Nate, you can kiss me." She said quietly. Scared if she talked to loud, she would wake up from her dream.

He smiled while leaning back in and ghosting his lips over hers. She could feel her heart beating put of her chest. She was pretty sure Nate could feel too. He pulled her into his lips by the back of her neck. His lips were soft and melted into hers perfectly.

Avery let go anything of her overthinking and kissed him back. Their lips molded together. She started rolling her body onto his, causing him to groan in response. The sound vibrated in her mouth, making her to release a moan back.

"Fuck." He groaned. pulling away from the kiss. Avery was breathing heavy and her eyes were still closed. Nate moved both of his hands to her hips, admiring how beautiful her swollen lips looked.

She opened her eyes and saw him staring at her. "Was it bad? I'm so sorry. I genuinely am so-" Nate kissed her again to shut her up.

"Don't apologize, that was amazing babe." She looked away from him and bit her lip. "Guess I was telling the truth when Chris asked me who was the best kisser." He smiled at her embarrassed smile and pecked her on the lips again.

a.n: Thanks for reading! lmk how you feel about it please lol!!

#nate doe imagines #Nate doe #nathan doe #sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #Spotify

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gamblersdoll · 22 days

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Hello~ I was wondering if I could maybe get something (headcanons, fic, anything, you can choose) where Guts and reader are a lot alike and they end up comforting each other? like maybe they aren’t together yet, but there’s a lot of chemistry there. And if possible I think it would be nice if it started out fluffy and then maybe got a little smutty? If it’s too complicated I understand. Thank you for reading and have a good day!

hi sweetheart, yes you can. thanks for your submission!🩶

cw: oral(f receiving) and fluff. pre eclipse and post eclipse, mention of death

when you and guts met, it wasn’t necessarily a good nor bad start, it was just, you both were there.

you were like each other, more to yourself. of course a great helping hand to the band, and of course you would go at each others throats, with the separation caused by griffith.

so at first you weren’t necessarily buddy buddy. but he respected you, although a woman– you could hold your own. and it led to small talks, talks of his past, never really about yours. (which, he kind of hated.) but, he would never miss the curve of your hands, or the heat radiating from your waist. he wouldnt miss the lingering glances on each other.

hes also amazed when are able so slightly to lift his sword– compared to others. yet you still were able to remain ‘soft.’

unfortunately for you, his heart was set on something else. or someone, you could never tell with that brute. and unfortunately that caused him to believe you weren’t interested, so he did end up having his heart set on something(one) else.

the nights you had to sleep next to each other, hes somewhat needy. but its a ‘i need warmth’.

and when the eclipse happened, everything changed within him. you, casca, guts, and ricket were the only standing survivors— minus casca losing her memory. and guts losing some parts of him.

“im coming with you.” you said, folding your arms in a stand.

“no, youre not.” he gruffed out, trying his hardest to move past you. you were quick, he would always give you that. “if you werent a woman-“

“-youd push me the fuck out the way, i know. but would you rather just die out there or have someone come save your ass?”

and you bet he needed you–what?

and you both are around a campfire, remembering the death of your friends, almost yourself. but he held you, trying your best to stay warm. this time, his and your hearts were somewhat pounding. remembering when you were much younger, going at each others throats because of how shut off you were from each other. you would mistake him as a brute, a careless person. and he mistaken you for a callous woman, someone who was only ready to snap back or look up with soft eyes.. yet in a battle field.

so how you ended up in this mans arms? you didnt know. currently on some hill under a tree while his and your weapon are dug into the soil of the earth. he only wishes that things were different between you and him, somewhat. and you were on the same page. you wouldnt be able to see how happy you were to opening up, (hence, causing him to open up more, and why he had an arm around your waist.)

so what was stopping you? fear. but guts was a ‘damned if i do damned if i dont’, and thats how you shared a kiss.

for a strong man, he was delicate with your lips, pepper kisses first, then he would put a hand on your cheek and kissing you softly. his skin would get goosebumps from the way your delicate hands would slide against his skin, crawl through his hair. and putting a hand on his arms.

and where were you now? on your back, with a large hand pinching your nipple and a mouth on your clit. your legs somewhat ached, being pried open by his arm and desperately lapping away at your folds. he had been wanting- no, needing this. he needed to know what you tasted like three damn years ago! but he had you now. he missed out on this?

and hes the one desperately needing you to cum, curling his tongue in your walls and making your delectable moans louder. he didnt care for himself being able to climax, but you? he was demanding that you did. and after you did, he was all over you.

he vowed himself to protect you, protect you from the enemy, especially griffith. and you vowed yourself to him, of course, you both did it silently. but that did not stop you both from waking up in each others arms and feeling each other’s breaths.

“dont leave, ‘kay?” he said, holding you in an arm and feeling the vibrations of his vocal cords on your head.

“im not, i promise.” you said, and thats how you both made promises— pinky promises.

#guts x reader #guts berserk #berserk #berserk guts #guts

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natsmagi · 1 year

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tbh maybe this is a hot take but i really dont get why people insist on having one person in natsumugi be this Super Toxic one and the other a victim. the easiest conclusion to draw is natsume being the bad guy and tsumugi the victim due to natsume getting physical and berating him at times but far too commonly do i see people insist that its the other way around and that tsumugi is actually the super toxic one and natsume just lets tsumugi emotionally manipulate him and thats ?? so weird to me ??? both of these are so weird to me ???

i can ofc see where theyre coming from. both natsume and tsumugi have plenty of issues going on in their heads. i feel like natsumes situation is more commonly understood as him simply just being difficult though and not being the best at managing his emotions, and with tsumugi i get it because he doesnt really have much of a moral compass. he doesnt quite understand peoples feelings and it results in him doing pretty fucked up things at times, but to then frame him as someone who would be abusive?? that doesnt sit right with me

tsumugi may not understand peoples emotions and be apathetic to the struggles people are going through, but its clear to anyone that that man has good intentions at the end of the day. at WORST he may get overbearingly controlling, but its never in a "you cant do x y z" way, its in a "i signed us up for this job opportunity because i thought it sounded nice and didnt speak it through with you beforehand and now we have to do it" way. had this been 2nd year tsumugi maybe he wouldve been far more desperate and even manipulative to an extent because he was in such a dark place, but current day tsumugi is actively trying to understand people better. hes trying to learn how to feel. in wonder game he even outright said that natsume taught him pain and everything else. his growth is clear

i cannot see tsumugi taking advantage of natsume in a genuinely destructive way with modern day ntmg. again, maybe during the earlier !-era stuff he could be more destructive, but natsume also does a relatively good job keeping tsumugi in his place during that time too, with him getting physical and all. its only in !!-era where tsumugi doesnt really mind it and can even make playful jokes about it because theyve Had this development in their relationship. theyve moved Past many of their toxic attributes, and theyve finally grown to understand one another. this is also when tsumugi can have a more "dominating" role in their relationship, since natsume has come to trust him to this extent, but tsumugi wouldnt take advantage of that. again; theyve now grown very close and understanding of one another. theyll have banters such as tsumugi wanting natsume to do something like idk. wear a dress. to which natsume will reply with kys but again. in !!-era this is banter and tsumugi wouldnt actually force natsume to do something he doesnt want to. theyre just very comfortable with each other now

i also really hate the position natsume gets put in with all of this. so often he is already hyperfeminized by the fandom for no reason whatsoever (which is especially fucked up considering how much he canonically hates being seen as a girl), and by making tsumugi this manipulative and abusive partner youre stripping natsume of even more autonomy and framing him as powerless. naively in love with a man thats hurting him. and that doesnt sit right with me either!! natsume does have a big heart and he has endured more than he probably should, but to think natsume would just take it ??? natsume has BACKBONE. if tsumugi upsets him he will either 1. get really mad at him or 2. start ignoring tsumugi alltogether. hes not just gonna put up with it. and tsumugi will notice this change in demeanor. ask if hes done something wrong. he may not understand what it was he did but he never intends on hurting natsume and would genuinely want to resolve it. tsumugi isnt stubborn in this regard, if he fucks up he wants to fix it. and natsume isnt a damsel in distress, why do you want him to be a helpless maiden so bad ??

theres alot of nuance to all of this and im obviously not gonna tackle every single element of their relationship and this is just an overview but TL;DR ntmg are both awful and have many faults and their relationship has gotten incredibly unhealthy at times but the point is theyre growing PAST that. maybe sometimes these toxic traits of theirs will resurface, but that does not make one the abuser and the other the victim. theyre just two fucked up people in love, standing as equals and learning to understand one another. stop framing one as evil

#i hope this is coherent again sorry if i like. forgot something crucial. this is a heat of the moment ramble #i also feel like in general this fandom is obsessed with making things edgier than they actually are #but i guess thats what we get for hyping enstars up as this Super Fucked Up Idol Media #when its like. no guys the characters are just complex and act like human beings would #both natsume and ESPECIALLY tsumugi have suffered alot #so to make one of them #ESPECIALLY tsumugi #out to be an abuser when if you read the text you can see him actively try to better himself #is quite insulting to me. idk #again this isnt me saying neither natsume or tsumugi cant do incredibly fucked up things #but goddamn this fandom is addicted to reducing charas to singular traits #nat rambles #MAYBE ILL DELETE THIS LATER I GOT A LIL HEATED BUT #BROAD HAND GESTURES #nats enst posting

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mashiee · 6 months

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what's your rei au?

AHAJDD OMFG. OKDY FIRSG OF ALL I LOVE YOH AND TY FOR LEAVING THE ASK. SCEOND O OF ALL

(tw, dark/angst, death, kidnapping, human labor trafficking, extreme mental instability, mental and moral decline, developed delusions, etc)

basically, i took rei and put him in the most horrible situations ever °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

the idea is basically a very dark 'what-if' of if rei had survived

im a whore for plots that have a character survive, but everyone still thinks theyre dead, so thats the route here. rei does survive, but at a great cost, and to the knowledge of no one.

and by great cost i mean, he would have been better off if he had just died. which is why the au had previously been named 'better off dead.' i have since changed the name bc i hated it.

the new au name is pontibus incensis (burned bridges in latin). this is both bc rei's bridges were forcibly burned by volcan and byron (both figuratively and literally in relation to the fire claws) and bc i think being able to say its my pi/π au is really funny.

the whole thought process behind the au stems from the thought that the government wouldnt use their money on ember. they would use something else as a source for its funds. so i basically combined that with wanting rei to be alive and go thru angst.

the story is give or take as goes:

the au starts as soon as rei "dies." ember finds a way to fake his body, etc. rei wakes up in a cell chained to the wall, he doesnt know where he is. eventually he pulled out to some kind of "arena" people are calling "the colosseum"

(i am aware colosseum is the term for the specific famous building, and coliseum is the proper term for any large stadium. the place rei's in being called colosseum as opposed to coliseum is important to later on in the story)

theres a little girl about 8-10 there too. hes given a brief set of rules basically saying he needs to fight to the death within a certain time period. obviously rei is not going to kill a little girl and shes scared shitless so neither of them do anything. theres a warning bell signaling the time is up and the little girl, who has long light pink hair and a blue ribbon in it, is shot and killed. rei attacks the person shooting out of rage and survival and accidentally kills them. rei's allowed to pass bc hes found interesting by the colosseum head(?) and its the first and last time any match in the colosseum ends in a draw. as reis leaving he turns around and sees the girls lifeless body and for a brief moment she looks like remi.

so reis dilemma there is that he just killed someone and the little girl who looks like remi dying. his thoughts spiral from here but theyre cut off. hes later brought out again and fights a guy who comes at him instantly. reis forced to kill him. when rei gets back to his cell he finds the barcode branded on the back of his neck reading 1010 (XX in roman numerals, allude to the X in X-Static). he has the horrifying realization this place has already had at least 1000 prisoners.

this pattern of killing to survive continues. due to the constant stress, reis ability steadily climbs as well as his survival instincts. he develops a literal skill to survive. meanwhile, his mental health and morals are rapidly dropping and becoming tangled and confusing--even incomprehensible. eventually he'll develop the delusion that the little girl actually was remi, and that hes the one who killed her. as its a delusion, the knowledge of remi being 4 yrs younger than him and what she looks like now doesnt matter.

im thinking of giving him psychotic depression in order to explain the delusion, but im unsure. i will need to do more research. i could possibly also give him more delusions, such as hallucinations of his body rotting and the delusion he deserves it, or maybe the hallucination of remis decaying corpse, etc. another symptom of psychotic depression is psychomotor impairment which causes issues with speech and muscle activity, which i may be able to use as well?

(all of that is very surface level research btw, if i got anything wrong or am using the disorder in an inappropriate or disrespectful way please tell me. im very open to criticism and correction)

anyway, rei figures out that hes being used as entertainment for higher ups in the authorities to have monetary gain for ember funding. hes also become the fav of the place bc he just wont die, hes seen as some kind of impossible to kill entity. he gives ember massive monetary gain. he manages to survive for a long time (i think i want the colosseum arc to be maybe 4 months long?) which is unheard of. at most people have only survived for a month.

at the end of the colosseum arc, rei obviously escapes. hes very briefly helped by an oc of mine, who ends up being important later on.

i wont go into detail abt the rest of it unless u want bc this arc is the main point of the au.

something i should mention though that rei only finds out in the next arc is that ember doesnt ever actually kill the vigilantes. theyre always taken to a coliseum. and they end up dying in there. reis the only one whos survived so far.

#rei unordinary #unordinary rei #unordinary #webtoon #unordinary webtoon #webtoon unordinary #dark #angst #long post #my post #fic #rambles

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Oooh, now I wanna hear more about your interpretation of Potter. (I don’t like him in comparison to Henry, tbh. It’s like you said: they were trying to soften the anti-military stuff, bringing him in.)

alright ok so let me preface this by saying Potter is definitely not meant to be read this way but this is how I personally interpret him. gonna put it under a cut cause its gonna get long maybe

Potter is an old warhorse who's been in the military since he was 15 years old. so when im reading his character, im reading him as someone who's been living and breathing military propaganda for so long that at this point in his life- his third war- he just doesnt know any other way to be and to an extent he isnt willing to be any other way

what I mean by that is Potter is firmly anti-war, but he is not anti-military. does he think the military is a perfect system? no, he's aware its flawed, but he still aligns himself with it. he still respects it, and expects others to respect it, and will get upset when they dont. he lets other characters- namely Hawkeye- get away with a lot of anti-military sentiment and definitely picks his battles (sometimes, not always), but he still clearly has a problem with anti-military sentiment. this is often narratively framed as him teaching other characters lessons, and bringing in the feeling of "well, not everyone in the military is bad" which is just. not the vibe

I dont think Potter knows any other way to be. he's been in this system for decades, since he was 15 years old. he's been living and breathing military life that entire time, through three different wars. this has been the vast majority of his life. im not calling this, like, brainwashing, but I dont think its a stretch to say his stance on and attitude towards the military is the result of having literally grown up in it during a time where military propaganda was being shoved down everyone's throats. in this way he's a victim of it. does that excuse his actions and behaviour? no, not at all. its a reason, but not an excuse. at the end of the day he's a grown man and made his decisions

I also think Potter doesnt want to be any other way. he doesnt want to change his stance on the military, and I think that lines up with what the reading of him is supposed to be, but with my interpretation its less like. in the way the show softens its anti-military stance, where youre supposed to see through Potter that not everyone in the military is all bad and therefore he shouldn't want to change, and its more about how Potter just wouldnt want to face that this system he's been raised in is in fact horrible, and that he has been complicit in it

Potter as he's presented in the show is supposed to represent that not everybody in the military is all bad. this is where he fails as a character, and where I take massive issue with the choices made in his writing. my interpretation of him still keeps true to his stance on the military, because I think its important to do so, but I definitely do read into it in an anti-military way which was definitely not the point. it really boils down to how they made him anti-war but pro-military, when I dont think there's really. a difference. to be anti-war is to be anti-military, and to be anti-military is to be anti-war. you cant have one without the other, so you cant hate one but not the other. I wouldnt usually read so much into a character in a way that clearly wasn't the intention, but with Potter is really just cant help it, for the reasons listened above

I want to really stress here that when I say I love Potter, im not saying I think he's free of flaws. I think he's a deeply flawed character and thats what I love about him. my issues with him come from how the narrative treats him, and how his introduction ushered in a softening of the anti-military stance I loved so much in MASH. had the show approached him from the angle my interpretation is coming from, I think it would've been fascinating. I think there could've been a deeply devastating arc involving Potter having to face that it isnt just the war, its that the system he's based his beliefs and morals on is horrible and corrupt. I think it would've been fascinating to watch him struggle through that, and see where he ended up. I think it would've made him more sympathetic, and could've provided really interesting commentary on military propaganda and its effect on Potter's generation, and the generations after that continued to grow up in war

this got long but yeah. im well aware this isnt how Potter is meant to be read, its just how I read him. I completely get why people dont like him, especially compared to Henry. even as someone who really really loves him, I still dont like the narratives that often surround him. still, its important to me in my readings that he's not absolved of his flaws or any less responsible for his own negative traits, which is why while my interpretation does place him as a victim of military propaganda and the military system, he is still responsible for his own behaviours and actions without a doubt, and why I make a point to say that I dont think he actually wants to change. part of what makes Potter so interesting to me are these flaws, I just. really wish the show had treated them as flaws

#mash #sherman potter #yeah this is going in his tag #I have a lot of thoughts about Potter #just confounds me how he's so anti-war but not anti-military #this is really my best way of explaining that #if it weren't for him being so anti-war I dont think I'd read into him this deeply #but its a paradox! it doesnt make sense!#so I have to make it make sense in my head #hope this is the explanation you were looking for anon #I kinda just started rambling

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cajunfoxnight · 2 years

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Where to go from here?

OH HEY ITS BEEN A REAL HOT MINUTE SINCE I TALKED ON HERE. And oh boy do I have... thoughts. :T Mostly regarding my blog, Ask October Fox. There is a lot to read here..

Wow ok so.. this is a post that I have been putting off pretty much all year long. It was one of those “I will cross that bridge when I get there” and oh boy, wouldnt you know it.. there’s the bridge. I had wanted to make this sooner but for some reason my brain just wouldnt let me. Im posting this here first since I think about 90% of people who follow October, follow me here too, so this seems like where I might reach the most people but I will also reblog this on her blog as well. I have just been trying to gather my thoughts, but it feels like every time I do, I just end up with a scattered mess trying to explain myself. Id like to keep this short but.. well thats not going to happen, i’ll try tho So... to be upfront with a somewhat TLDR, I dont know how much more I will be running my ask blog. This doesnt mean October herself is going anywhere, she’ll still be around, I just dont know if it will be here. Its a bit of a complicated matter, and one that I have been struggling with since the beginning of the year. My main problem is that I dont know if I can physically keep doing it. I know I had mentioned last year about the amount of pain I was in with my old tablet and how hard it was getting to draw. But on the plus side, since getting a monitor tablet, a new desk and set up, those problems have gotten significantly better. Every so often they might flare up, but with regular breaks, slightly more structured schedule, and daily exercising, its few and far between. So on that front im good! I still dont want to risk getting hurt again, which is why im just unsure if I can put that kind of strain on myself again.. and it doesnt help that I feel like im drawing slower than I used to, tho that could just be me. Secondly, is.. is there anyone here anymore? I used to check Tumblr every day, multiple times a day, and then I just... left for like 3 months bc it felt like hardly anyone was here anymore (another reason why I didnt make this post sooner. I have avoidance issues.). I feel like I might have joined Tumblr around its peak, just before The Ban™️ came down and most people- rightfully- left. October’s story is finally starting to come to light and while it was something I have been planning for a while now, the big story isnt something that I want to do to an empty audience, if that makes any sense. And thats on me, really. I waited too long. Thirdly, there were/are certain things that needed to happen before I could tell that story- and sadly I feel as tho I am missing a big key factor that is needed to link the story to the next part. But without that key factor...I feel like Id to have to retcon the entire story. Not that that in itself is a terrible thing, the story has been ever changing for a while now, but this had been one of the main things I had planned for a long time now. Not to mention I still want to tell stories of some of the other characters. There are a few more personal reasons, but these are just the main ones. Im just.. not sure what to do anymore. I would still like October to continue to interact with people, that is something that I have greatly enjoyed in the past couple of years with the quick replies, and thats what she was meant to be all about for the most part. Im planning on having October doing stuff outside of this blog this year- lots of ideas planned, like streaming art and maybe some games- but as far as the nightly comics.. eehh... So I guess my question is this.. would people rather I just tell them the rest of the story, or would people rather I still try and draw it out, tho more like a graphic novel style and not in a full comic form? Tho again going back to the the third section, I still have to figure out how that would play out anyway. I hate to say how much this has been stressing me out, and how much I am upset with myself over how things have played out. Many things I probably should have done differently but now im just going to have to roll with it. As mentioned the story, October, and the characters arent going anywhere. There are still stories and characters to be talked about, I just dont know how or where that will be. There is a lot more than I could go on about but for now I think its best to end this rambling here. Once I get some input or answers then I will move onto the next step. I apologize for the massive wall of text here, and for anyone who read all of it, I cant thank you enough for that. For now I will continue to work on the planned projects, as I still have a little time to finish those things up, but wow.. September is sure moving a lot faster than I would like :T

#night rambles #vent?#night talks #Ask-October-fox #october #text post

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lighthousegod · 2 years

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Something abt being on the aro-spectrum that I havent seen a lot is talk about feelings of jealousy.

I am a jealous person, and I'm only figuring that out as an adult. I was jealous as a kid, too, but I never thought of it in a way besides platonic. Eventually I stopped having best friends so I stopped being as jealous and bitter when my friends hung out with other people more than me.

Even though I knew I had a tendency to get jealous of others when I had a "best friendship," I never considered myself fo be jealous in a romantic context. Any time anyone would get angry when their partners talked to someone, especially straight couples who's members talked to the opposite gender, I would get confused. Like, you're officially in a relationship, right? Why would your partner agree to that if they wanted to be with some other person?

But as I got older, I understood more. I had one "crush" in my highschool years, and when he flirted with or dated other people I HATED MY LIFE it felt so gross. I always felt like I needed to change, or that I wasnt as desirable, and I needed to try harder. He did end up liking me back, but nothing ever came of it. The euphoria of him liking me back lasted maybe a night, and then it was gone. And it left a pit in my stomach. The worst feeling in the world, feeling disgust toward a thing that had made me feel alive for the first time in my life.

But, nonetheless, in all that drama I discovered that I WOULD probably get jealous if I had a partner, just because of how much I overthink. And i think that's where i sort of differ from a lot of arospec people? See, i dont want a romantic relationship necessarily. I dont need to do all the sappy shit like buying flowers and calling each other babe, or even going on dates really. But I do want something adjacent to that. I dont hate the idea of touching, even though I sort of have a phobia to that, but I DO hate it if I think about it romantically. I love the idea of holding hands in this sort of nostalgic way, like how I used to with my parents when I was a kid. I dont mind the idea of someone playing with my hair the way people used to when it was long, like they admired it so much they had to run their fingers through it. Hugging doesnt sound so bad when it's done in that protective, grounded way. Like hugging someone after a long day, or early in the morning. Just standing there like that. Even kissing sounds okay sometimes, if I dont think about it too hard. I'm sure it feels good. I'm sure being that close, that intimate with someone, would make me feel good. A combination of being comfortable and still feeling that rush of emotion. That sounds like a dream. That sounds fake. It makes me sad to think I may never experience that.

But then, I can think about the same things in a romantic way and I immediately want to turn and run. Holding hands in the way couples hold hands is so weird. I've never held a boys hand before. When I hold my friends hands, it feels awkward. I can hold my father's hand, I guess, but his hands are so calloused that they barely feel like hands. When I hold my father's hand now, I feel almost nothing at all. Thinking of someone playing with my hair like, say, a husband would do for his wife, or vice versa, or wife for wife or husband for husband or partner for partner, any combination-- it feels wrong. It's too sweet. Like, sickly sweet. The way they smile up at each other. It just feels so empty. Like whatever they're feeling just doesnt exist for me. Theres a void there, I think, where that feeling is supposed to be in my head. Hugs and kisses dont feel right from the couples in the movies. I much prefer the ones between close friends that I WANT to be the main couple, i guess. Like, take stranger things for an example. I love steve and eddie, and if they hugged, even platonically, I think I'd lose my shit. I wouldnt care much for a romantic hug between steve and nancy, but I dont really feel much for the platonic ones between steve and robin either. So, for some reason I like this weird in between? But that's not the point. Back to the matter at hand.

All that stuff I mentioned before, about how I can like all this stuff in a weird, alterous way as opposed to platonic or romantic or familial, one thing stays constant: I dont want whoever's doing it to do the same with other people. I DO want to be Their Person, and I want them to be Mine. Not in a possessive way, that's weird, but yknow. I want to want to be around them. I want them to want to be around me, too. And I want to like each other the most.

Lots of aromantic people talk about how they dont understand why friendships arent held to the same standard as romantic relationships, and trust me, I have been there, but I definitely am not exempt from that sort of "ranking." I have people that claim we are best friends, or really close, but I just dont bond with them the same way they do to me. It doesnt click. I like them platonically, I like to be around them, but I'm not attracted to them. Not like I was to my "crush" in high school, or like I am to all the pretty boy characters i think about in my head, or even my best friends from elementary school. Nothing my friends and I do is special to us. We arent exclusive to each other. And to some people, that doesnt matter one bit, but not me. I guess I'm selfish, but man, I wanna be someone's favorite. I want someone to like me the most. Even though I dont know how to kiss and might not even want to, and my personalities not that big, and sometimes I dont have much to say at all, and sometimes more than anything I just need someone to make me feel like I'm not floating through life without making a connection at all.

But that's such a big job. I worry I'm not worth the work. I'm not sure I would be able to work that much for someone else, so it wouldn't be fair. It would be so imbalanced, like I was taking advantage of them or something. I can't do that.

Nonetheless, the best analogy I can think of is beds. Not having sex in beds, just literally sleeping in them. Some aro people want their own bed in their own house. Some want to share a house AND a bed, with one person or with a whole group. But me? I'd like to live with friends AND my person. The best friend, or the partner, or whatever they are to me. And I want my own bed, but if I ever have any troubles sleeping, or they do, I want each others rooms to be the first we go to. I want to love someone so much that I choose them to ground me every time. How amazing would that be? To not have each other, but still be connected. To have some in between, "other" sort of love that does is not just built on trust, but IS trust. Trust that you are wanted, you are welcome, and you are special. Being something more than friends, more than lovers. Helping each other be whole on their own. Knowing they love you not because you're friends, not because you're partners, not because you're family, not because of anything. They just do.

I do want love. I really, really do. I want love the way I love the ocean, and the way I love music. I want to be loved that way. The attraction to the beach that humans have had for centuries. The tendency to make tunes out of nothing, to hum just to hear the sounds. Even if the ocean is dangerous. Even if the song is off-key. I want love that is instinctual, that is unexplainable. I want love that has no reason. No words to explain it. I want the love that existed before we had the word for it. Before there were friends and lovers, there were just companions. Two people who chose each other. And they may have not been able to speak the word love, but I'm sure it was stronger than what we have now. I'm sure, if you sit still, you can still hear it.

#aromantic Achillean #oriented aroace #bi oriented aroace #aromantic #asexual #alterous attraction

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queenie-blackthorn · 1 year

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theories for chain of thorns

i had these posted on my gr from like december, im just posting them here

- lucie will now be an antagonist lets be honest we all know it. necromancers are NOT good people and thats the path lucie chose for herself by wanting to save jesse

- someone major will die idk who it is yet, but my instincts tell me its matthew or alistair. the second wouldnt make sense tho – if alistair dies, how would the carstairs line continue down to emma??? hopefully itll be tatiana that bitch

- jamie x daisy its inevitable guys, have you seen the snippets? im rooting for them theyre perfect

- thomas and alistair are NOT gonna end up together this was a gut feeling when i wrote it but as of jan 5 i have a legible reason as to why they would not be happy and its the next theory

- IM SCARED THOMAS IS GONNA DIE the “found family tree” says that thomas died TWO YEARS before barbara. i understand cassie has repeatedly stated that its been manipulated (she hinted that it was changed by the silent brothers) and isnt reliable. but isnt that disturbing?? esp considering theres at least part of it thats reliable, and thats the fact that alistair will 100% go on to marry a woman despite being gay. if alistair doesnt have kids, and cordelias children are all herondales, then the carstairs family would die out and emma would not be related to jem (even tho its been stated that they are related by blood). “oH bUt SoNa iS pReGnAnT mAyBe ShEs GoNnA GiVe BiRtH tO a bOy” first of all, theres a chance the baby is born a girl second of all, the baby might die third of all, where is the son on the family tree? fourth of all, SONA IS, ACCORDING TO THE TREE, DEAD BEFORE THOMAS. PLEASE.

- grace x christopher i despise grace but she acts like a different person around kit… maybe he can fix her

- anna x ariadne she cant fuck up ALL the gay relationships, now can she?

- the merry thieves are gonna forgive alistair (specifically matthew) bro he literally made out with one of them TWICE. if matthew doesnt think “well shits gonna get awkward if i dont forgive the sorry bastard” istg~ 💀

- this is more of a hope than a theory MATTHEW FAIRCHILD SHALL ACHIEVE THE HAPPINESS HE DESERVES smth tells me he wont get a happy ending tho… i mean, if my above theory abt thomas is correct~

- SO DOES ALISTAIR I MEAN CMON GUYS #justiceforalistair he regrets the shit hes pulled and therefore your hate against him for it is invalid PLUS HE GOT BULLIED BY RACIST PIECES OF SHIT HE DID WHAT HE COULD TO MAKE IT STOP

- matthew will open up abt his secret its like a routine at this point, in every shadowhunters series. a character has a secret that nearly kills them outta despair, they open up to friends, theyre met with love and support. jace loving his “sister”. wills “curse”. emma and jules’ relationship. ty bringing back livvy. alec being gay. you get used to it lol

- either lucie or matthew would have their marks stripped lucie for attempting/committing necromancy, and matthew because sobh said he doesnt have a specified death date (also i think cassie just hates him)

- jesse will be evil bro wouldnt that be cruel… like imagine after lucie brings him back hes like “haha i manipulated you to bring me back i never loved you” and then sHe GETS HER RUNES STRIPPED FOR NECROMANCY and its worse bc the shadowhunters are already out to get the herondales bc they refuse to accept tessa as anything but a warlock no but in that case she would prolly go to live with wills parents OKAY BUT IMAGINE HOW HEARTBROKEN CHARLOTTE WOULD BE WHILE DOING IT WHILE JAMIE IS CRYING AND MATTHEW SCREAMING AT HER NOT TO AND WILL TELLS HIM TO STOP WHILE TEARS ARE GOING DOWN HIS FACE

- a “seven husbands of evelyn hugo” thing with anna x ariadne and thomas x alistair (credit to my good friend wiz/nisha for saying this) maybe cassie is going to have thomas marry ariadne and anna marry alistair so that they could have a good old switcheroo, so they can swap lovers?? obviously it cant be anna and thomas lmao theyre cousins but thomas and ARIADNE…

- matthew and cordelia ARE going to kiss at one point HOL’ UP I DONT SHIP EM, i think its gonna be a climon kinda thing where they kiss and dont like it as much as they thought they would, and end up deciding to stay friends i think thats the best way cassie could deal with matthews crush on her without breaking anyones heart, i hope to god it wont be like him confessing and her rejecting him plz oml

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weirdlizard26 · 5 months

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ok hello hi in honour of me finishing season 6 of dr who i will write out my impression of it before starting s7! that there WILL be spoilers so im putting it under the cut!

first things first, it was definitely a HUGE improvement from s5 in my opinion. like it was in general just a lot more enjoyable for me, though still not quite satisfactory. i think matt smith finally got properly into the role too which is nice.

still. this season was deeply unsatisfying. there were so many interesting threads that i feel just didnt go anywhere or didnt get nearly enough development.

1) i thought the "youre my best friend" scene btwn amy and the doctor was very very sweet but i felt it just came out of nowhere? she spent the entire s5 having to "choose" between him and rory and i do appreciate their friendship but i wish they had more time to really develop that kind of relationship

2) i was honestly so happy to see 2 companions throughout this whole season! i think it makes up for a really fun dynamic :]

3) i love rory with all my heart hes such a sweetheart but i feel a little weird about his character development? it definitely makes a lot of sense seeing as how hes 2k years old at this point but it just feels to me like that was done at amy's expense? it feels like shes denied the same development time and time again and i dont like that. i will be honest i don't like her as a person and that in part is due to her behaviour in s5 (i will never fucking forgive them for that scene where she confessed to the doctor it was so dumb and so deeply unpleasant but i digress) BUT i think shes an interesting character and wasnt done justice. like!!! the way i see it, she is contrasted with all the previous companions by the fact that shes not that great of a person. which isnt a bad thing! she had such a huge potential for growth but it felt like every time she learned a lesson she forgot it the very next episode or it just felt like it just didnt matter in the grand scheme of things. which i blame on the writing, in case that wasnt clear. great potential, terrible performance

4) and now for the loose threads.

4a) madame kovarian was such an intriguing villain and the sneak peaks we got of her only hyped it up but then i feel that just went nowhere? she served cunt for one whole episode where she wasnt even the main focus and then died. and im assuming she didnt REALLY die given this is doctor who after all but her participation in this season specifically was deeply disappointing to me.

4b) in the same vein, i really wish we could see more of melody and more specifically her upbringing and training. all that teasing of "the woman who murders the doctor" only for her to try to kill him for half an episode and suddenly become "one of the good guys" as soon as he makes sad wet puppy eyes at her?

4c) in the same vein (again) all the teasing of how river and the doctor meet and fall in love and then when she meets him for the first time they dont even get to spend any time together to bond and actually develop any real feeling for each other? and then they just get married for no reason other than it was teased? "i love you more than any living being in the universe" bold statement for a girl who met him ~twice~! it was all so intriguing but it just fell flat in the end.

4d) now dont get me wrong. i fucking hated the ending scene of mid season finale. "um actually all of this horror is your fault because you did too good of a job saving people so now people who want to do fucked up shit are scared of you and want to kill you. if only you didnt save all those people so good we wouldnt be in this situation!" like do you realize how ridiculous that is. even so! that literally didnt fucking go anywhere. was it just supposed to be a one-off guilt trip that never gets addressed again and doesnt change anything other than anger me? what was the purpose of that. it was said as if it was leading up to some huge character discovery moment for the doctor but then it just. didnt. he just left to look for melody.

4e) "i didnt want you to die without making you see how much people love you" yeah and. yeah? go on? oh? we're just leaving it at that? no old friends coming together to save his ass and yell at him abt how much they care about him? other than the justice whatever that we saw in ONE episode and who didnt even get any help from the doctor lending him their robot suit? ok.

4f) all that build-up to accepting your fate and being at peace with death (which like. we've already done all that with ten and i loved that arc but whatever ok lets do it again i guess) only for him to not die was. a little disappointing? i mean dont get me wrong im glad hes ok but it just felt empty bc it didnt lead to anything. and like again i LOVED the solution to that particular puzzle! of course the doctor lies and of course he'll find a way to cheat death again thats what he DOES but its just upsetting that that whole build-up was virtually for nothing

ok thats all for now. in conclusion, s6 was much better than s5 for me but still disappointing. hoping s7 will pick up!

as always i welcome any and all comments and discussion just be niceys to me

#wl26 #watch log #dw log

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morphogenetic · 10 months

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Mediaposting 2023, #35: Banana Fish (anime)

[said while vibrating very quickly and typing out like 20 different bullet points] i like this series a normal amount

okay so. non-spoiler thoughts:

step 1 YOU SHOULD READ/WATCH THIS. it does have content warnings for literally everything you can possibly think of as needing a common content warning (drug abuse, sexual assault, racism, and thats absolutely just the tip of the iceberg) but my fucking god. no wonder it's been such an influential piece of media on literally every jp anime/manga crime story (especially the BL ones) written since

for a series that is literally one of the early genesis points of BL as a genre i was ABSOLUTELY expecting more actual BL than was in this LOL. not that i'm really upset, bc honestly i really like the way that ash and eiji's relationship is written in a shoujo-y "they obviously care about each other a lot but it's not going to be outright romance" kind of way. bc like, honestly? that makes it way more emotionally satisfying (and devastating). i think it would actually make less sense if anything more happened In the story (though more happening in the epilogue wouldnt hurt LOL)

how the FUCK was this published in a shoujo magazine

the time period change to modern day from the mid-80's has both helped and hindered this series bc like. on one hand. much easier to do everything with a phone. also the update to shorter's character design was excellent,10/10 no notes. on the other hand. the Everything About It makes it so obvious that it was written to be a product of its time.

speaking of ^ ash turning from A Guy Who Knows How To Use A Computer into a hacking genius is so. why. i mean you can update it for sure but Why Like This

god i wish this had more room to breathe sometimes bc the exposition goes WILDLY fast sometimes. why did they try and do 19 volumes in 24 episodes. the 39 episodes that the director wanted would have been so nice to have

that said: the emotional moments that i actually give a shit about and that make up the core of the weight of the story are given what they deserve. at least up to volume 5 they are. gestures at ep 9? and 22 with a pained smile

i literally could write an essay about why it works so well as a spin on the american-style gangster story even while it definitely has flaws. and how its influenced so many fucking things. my god.

it has flaws for SURE but the rest is so good that i don't care. which is rare for me (gestures at nirvanai/neo twewy being other examples)

spoiler thoughts under the cut (like full-very-ending-of-series spoilers) but YEAH UH I LIKE THIS THING CAN YOU TELL BY HOW MUCH I WROTE ABOUT IT.

it does kind of annoy me that literally all of the canon-MLM (probably gay but you know) guys are horrible people lol. like wow love how the gay predator stereotype is on full display here. feeeeels baaaaad. i know i know asheiji homoeroticism i am ON THAT TRAIN

however yut-lung being feminine out of a wish to carry on his dead mom's legacy is kind of a slay. ive seen people go "ugh it sucks that one of the villains is a feminine man' but while he is definitely not a good person hes one of the less terrible villains, just like. as a person. hes also a teenager in shitty circumstances just with way more power and sway

here's the part where I admit that I was spoiled on the ending so it didn't hit as hard for me OOPS. however. the anime DOES leave it open-ended and it fucking irritates me that anime-only people are like "boo i hate the ending bc ash dies!!!" when it is LITERALLY AMBIGUOUS. i have heard that the manga is less ambiguous about it but :') oh well. anime-onlys what are you doing

speaking of ^ i actually like the ending. like i think a lot of people who absolutely hate it must not have a lot of familiarity with gangster movies as a genre bc it is a genre convention that the Main Gangster dies in the end. granted this was a hayes code thing which the manga definitely did not have to do LOL but its definitely supposed to feel unfair bc ash's damn LIFE is unfair.

however i'm glad the anime makes the ending ambiguous bc that feels like a more fitting end. like ash's life was always in limbo, considering what he was doing, so making his life in limbo at the end too? Good. Yes. Do That

the fucking. everything with shorter and the sa-yo-na-ra bit. i die. that shit is so emotionally painful

i know this sounds weird but i kind of wish they dragged out the "what the hell does banana fish mean" thing a LIIIITTLE longer but by that i mean like, halfway point of the series. like they could have used a little more time to figure out what it is. also that would have let shorter live a little longer ay lmao that said this criticism also almost definitely applies to the manga soooo. you know

#and yes i'm gonna finish the manga at some point. i just bought all of it like a lunatic after reading the first few volumes so. lol #junpei.txt #mediaposting #finished this last night but just doing a thorough write-up on it now

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