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isabella1798 · 4 months
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things I wanna see in the prisoners throne/a future TFOTA book :
Taryn’s child - We know she had a son called Leander and going by the timeline he should be about 7 or 8 years old so I want to know what sort of character he is and if he’s going to be like a mini Locke (hopefully a nicer version 💀)
Eva and Justin backstory - I want to know the love story between Eva and Justin and the bargain that Justin made with grimsen (I don’t see enough people talk about this like what did he want and was it to do with Jude and Taryn??)
Eva and Asha backstory - I feel like the tfota fandom seem to ignore the fact that Cardan’s mother and Jude’s mother were best friends 😭 I want to know about what they got up to because they were said to be besties always together causing trouble (sounds a lot like their children)
The bomb and the roach - I want to know the details of their “relationship” and if they ever properly got together and how they’re doing in the court of shadows 🥹
Flashbacks of Oaks childhood - we NEED to know what he got up to in his teenage years to turn up the way he is cause I just know that he needs therapy 😭😭
Badass Wren - I loved her in the stolen heir and I can’t wait for her to put everyone in their place she deserves her revenge for everything that happened to her (although if she touches Jude and Cardan I will sue)
Tiernan and Hyacinthe - I want these two to have a happy ending and forgive each other 😭 the tension between the two of them drove me insane
A big fight scene with our queen jude - I just NEED a duel scene with jude… the last time we got that was the queen of nothing with grima mog and any scene with jude in a duel is *iconic*
Grima Mog - I want to know what happened to her and if she’s remained grand general ? if she has I want to see her and Jude’s relationship because the first time they met they tried to kill each other but at the end of qon they become each others biggest supporters
Nicasia and the undersea - even though nicasia is horrible she is still a very interesting and iconic character + we know there’s a war beneath the waves and her and her mother have become weak so I want to know whats going on there and if she’ll ask for help from Jude and Cardan
The royal council - if we go back to elfhame I want to see these guys and how they co-operate with Jude and Cardan as their leaders 😭
Madoc, Oriana, Vivi, Taryn, Jude, Oak reunion - we started the trilogy with this family and I think it should end with this family reunion because the last time we saw them Vivi, Taryn and Jude cut contact with Madoc and possibly Oriana (what we know) but Oak still stayed close with them? What’s the relationship like with the Duarte sisters and have Jude and Taryn resolved their differences?
Madoc and Jude - I want to see more of this father daughter relationship especially after madoc’s exile and find out if he still wishes to kill her or take the throne from her
Heather - is heather still dating Vivi and does she know about elfhame again?
AND OF COURSE MARRIED JUDE AND CARDAN - what have these two been up to since we last saw them? how is married life between the two of them? how is their relationship going? Are they affectionate with each other in public? How protective are they of each other and the big question… is Jude pregnant? The theories circulating around her being pregnant have been driving me insane because there are so many pointers to her being pregnant and if she is with child, then she should be early within in her pregnancy because oak would have noticed her stomach…
Anyway that’s it 💅
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brainlessrot · 2 years
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Here you go @patterned-flannel !!! again, thank you so much for the request <3
| Part 1, Ace, Deuce, Jack |
| Part 2, Epel, Sebek, Ruggie | <
i got distracted while writting and ended up making epel and sebek’s different from the given prompt, sorry!
First years + Ruggie - They accidentally make you cry - part 2
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Epel;;
You had asked Epel for help, since you had been allowed to go to a thrift store nearby, the headmage being “generous” enough to give you some pocket money, enough to buy a couple of clothes so you’d be more comfortable and a little bigger closet, having only some lost clothes that did not fit you that well and the old hand-me-down uniform you used.
So, knowing that Epel had gone under really… extensive fashion lessons from Vil, you trusted that he would help you choose something that would fit and look nice on you. But you were so wrong, so, so wrong.
Your first error was even thinking of him to help you, he absolutely hated going shopping, but he couldn’t reject your invitation knowing your situation, so he acted like a big boy and accepted, but you could see his mood sour the more you spent inside the store, and it made your interactions with each other much more awkward. And your second mistake was thinking that Vil’s hard classes would work, sure, Epel might fake his way around, but when you were the only one around that knew who he was, he let loose, acting much more rude and letting his country accent slip, not caring about, however, the things Vil had successfully drilled into his brain did not disappear, instead, they went from Vil’s harsh words through Epel’s brain translator, making the usually strict words turn into emotional damage.
“Ye really like that shirt…? ‘Kay, but ye better not come cryin’ to me if ya get thrown into yer rash by accident, ‘tis looks like absolute horse shit.” You hadn’t even shown him the piece of cloth you were looking at, and he was already crushing your style choices.
“Uggh, ye better not be lookin’ at those tremendously horrible pants right there, do ye want to look like a roach? ‘Cause you’d be doin’ it great with those.”
“Mmmh, ‘m not even gonna say nothin’ ‘bout that jacket, but you’d be better off settin’ it on fire to warm yer hands in the winter, ‘tis only works as fuel, and only if yer really desperate.”
“Oi, get yer grubby hands off them shoes, they look like-“ You had enough, even if he was annoyed because he did not want to come— even after he agreed— he should be at least emotionally mature to know that what he was doing was horrible. But who’re you kidding, you study at NRC, who has that much emotional maturity?
You left the shoes on the rack with enough strength to make it shake, the sound of the vibrations not too loud— but enough to make him shut his trap.
You only side eyed him, your gaze being enough to make the strongest magician of the world shit their pants, and who wouldn't? The prefect's wrath was terrifying to anyone who knew who you were.
The rest of the day went in silence, Epel following you like a lost puppy, hiding his tail between his legs. It left him to his own mind, repeating his own words as if it was a broken record, the more he thought about it, the more he felt like an asshole, and he wasn’t that far off.
You ended up grabbing what you liked, not even sparing a glance back at Epel, checking out the few items you bought on the way out, he pulled at the sleeve of your uniform, now too flustered at his own wrongdoings, a full 180º from his actions beforehand.
“Prefect, just wanna say, ‘m… ‘m very sorry.” He twiddled with the hem of his own sleeve between his fingers, looking down at your feet. “I was acting like a dipshit, I did not want to make yer day awful, Granny would be very disappointed in me, and ‘m too. I’m sorry I made ye mad.” You stared at him for a while before agreeing with him, he had acted like a dick, and you had gotten really mad. However, you felt that he was truly apologizing and felt bad at how he acted, so you accepted his apologies— but you told him that he was on thin ice, and the only way that he would be safe would be that the next time his family sent some apples, he’d give you some. To which he agreed, promising you that you would not find a less than perfect apple from the ones he’d give you.
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Sebek;;
Oh, the mighty (half) fae Sebek, who had decided to make your day worthy of living by giving you the honor of his presence. Which would be appreciated if he wasn’t such an annoying ass.
He had seen you studying outside, completely alone, and decided that you, even if a mere human, deserved some of his help. And don’t get me wrong, he could be a good hand, after all, he studied hard and it showed in his grades. But the problem was that, first of all; he doesn’t shut up, ever, the second thing is; everything that comes out of his mouth has something to do with Malleus or how great the Thorn Valley is, and last, but not least; his volume is too loud. You could ignore him if his voice wasn’t quite as strong and potent, but alas, that is just wishful thinking. His loud demeanor couldn’t be ignored, the sound finding its way in your bones, inside your skull, vibrating through your brain. But it did not enter from one ear and leave from the other, oh no, that was impossible. And thanks to this, you were now even more stressed than before, great!
“HUMAN, you have done that equation completely wrong, from start to finish! But oh, what can you expect from a mere human?! After all, they are all low in comparison to Sir Malleus! Did you know that he is a legend in the Thorn Valley because, when he was only a couple of dozen of moons old he managed to defeat on of the top wisest sages-“ Every word that he mustered felt like a rock, falling onto your brain, making its own indent, and every hole it made, every time his words squashed your brain, you were closer and closer to losing it. “HUMAN ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?! Surely you must know about this story, right?! …You… You don’t? How can you lack the most basic of the basic knowledge from the Valley?! UGH! I can’t be even surprised, you are a lowly human after all.” That’s it, the last rock that managed to tilt the scales off, your brain going into overdrive. You closed the book you were currently using with enough force to create a pretty loud sound, making Sebek flinch and look at you with confusion.
Before he could even muster another “HUMAN” from his lips, you threw the book at him, as he was sitting in front of you, rather close because of the tiny table, you managed to hit him square in the chest.
“HUH?! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING HUMA-“ You shushed him with an accusatory finger, you got off on him, telling him that if all he was going to do was to be an annoying and racist brat he could go fuck off and follow Malleus around like the mutt he is. Your furious stare, looking directly at him, mixed with the way your voice was dripping with venom, left him without words, something that didn’t happen everyday.
You got up from your seat, grabbed your bag and walked around the table to grab the precious book you had thrown, you could sulk about possibly damaging it later. You started to walk off without telling him another fuck you in a hushed tone.
You ignored the heavy footsteps that followed you. The way you could physically feel the way he was brooding, right behind you. You didn’t want to talk to him any longer, or tears of frustration would fall from your eyes soon.
But after some minutes of following around and muttering something under his breath, just as you reached Ramshackle dorm, he spoke up.
“Huma- Prefect,” He stood stiffly at the end of the stairs that led to the main door of the dorm, arms perfectly straight and parallel to his torso, a forced position, perhaps out of nervousness or just familiarity. “I am extremely sorry.” He bent forward, almost forming a 90º degree angle, his hair fell forward, his gelled back hair sticking out as if they were glued together, how much did he apply every day? “I have wondered about my actions, and I have come to the conclusion that I was not acting in an adequate way towards you, so I offer you my sincerest apologies.” Even his apology felt as stiff and forced as his stance, perhaps he meant what he said, but his words were not… well, his.
You asked him that if he wanted to be applauded, and he only looked at you in confusion, shouldn’t you have accepted his apologies? He had done it exactly as shown in books, why wasn’t it working? You told him that even if he apologized, he still was an annoying cunt, and that you were not happy with him. That made a grimace appear on his face, had he been that bad? Yes, yes he had.
“I… I accept your words of rejection, however,” You rolled your eyes, this was making your head hurt. “I still stay by the fact that I did not intend to berate you willingly, Prefect, after all… you once called me a… friend, and I wish to remain in that position if you’d let me.” You sighed, that felt better, even if it was not enough for what he had pulled beforehand. You told him to shut up and get inside, as payment, he was going to help you with your studies, and ONLY with studies, you did not want to hear a single word that did not have nothing to do with the books.
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Ruggie;;
You looked at the sad remains of money you had left after buying Grim food, you had put a limit of money you’d use for each day, since your funds were running low, and single handedly Grim’s tuna took a huge chunk of it. With the little madol you had, you could only afford a sandwich from the cafeteria, one of those that were more bread than anything, but at least you wouldn’t have to go the rest of the day without any food in your stomach, which was better than nothing, but still quite depressing.
You stood in the queue for a while, waiting as other students brought the sad cafeteria food the ghost prepared, it was not their fault, they were wonderful cooks, and managed to make the best of the things the headmage gave them as supplies, which was very little, so you respected the hard work they put into feeding the bunch of messy teens at NRC.
When your turn came, your stomach was already growling, furious that you hadn’t put anything on it until now. You bought your little sandwich and left to one of the tables, Ace and Deuce had taken Grim away, since you did not want to make the little guy see you eating that sandwich, since he would probably feel guilty, even if the start of your relationship had been rocky, the little monster had gotten quite attached to you.
You sat at the uncomfortable bench, looking at the food in your hands, you were hungry, but even then, the sandwich looked quite unappetising in your eyes.
“Shie-hehehe,” You recognized that laugh almost immediately, but who wouldn’t? Everytime you heard his laugh you got flashbacks from the incidents that surrounded Savanaclaw a while ago. “What do we have here? Why are you so alone, Prefect?” You deflected the question with another one, asking him if he was here to buy Leona anything, since he usually didn’t buy food from the cafeteria. “You’re quite bright, yes, I have his wallet right here.” He played with the wallet in his hand by throwing it in the air and catching it with ease. “But what do you have there?” He ogled the sandwich in your hands as if it was the best of the best, made by the most popular chef that ever existed, when in reality it was two slices of bread with two pieces of lettuce, and some strange matter inside. “What do you think… shouldn’t you share?”
You didn’t even notice your hands extending forwards, presenting the sandwich to Ruggie as if it was an expensive present, you tried to resist his magic, but it was too strong, and you couldn’t get out of his control. He snatched it out of your hands, taking a huge bite out of it. You stared in disbelief for a couple of seconds, your soul crushing. You had used every madol you had left for the day for that miserable sandwich, and now you stared at Ruggie, happily munching away at your conquest.
Warm tears started to drip down your face, leaving a shiny trail behind, you weren’t being overdramatic, as some would say, your body demanded food, and you could not listen to it, since it had been stolen.
Ruggie stopped biting the bread the moment he heard you sob, eyes wide and ears pulled back in worry. What happened? Why were you crying? He tried to ask you, but you hid your face in your arms, laying on top of the ugly cafeteria table. He shook your arm, the half eaten sandwich forgotten in his other hand.
“Prefect?! Are you okay? What happened?!” When your breath calmed enough to allow you to speak, your voice was quiet, breaking from the tears still spilling from your eyes, you told him that that sandwich was your food, the only food you could afford for today, since you had used every other madol to feed Grim. He felt his soul crush, you reminded him of what would happen daily back in his hometown, and he felt horrible for being the reason you were hungry and sad,
“Okay, hey, look at me,” You sniffed, wiping your eyes so you could see him properly, without the blurriness the tears added. “I’ll fix this, I'm very sorry for what I just did.” He put an arm around your shoulders, rubbing circles with his thumb on your shoulder, his soft voice as he tried to console you. “If I had known I wouldn’t have stolen it, but I’ll make it better, okay?” He quietly chuckled, turning your head to look at him. “I have an idea, but please calm down before we do it, yeah?”
You nodded, and after your breathing evened out, he walked with you, interlocked elbows, towards the register.
“Here, choose whatever you want, I’ll pay,” He winked, playing with Leona’s wallet. “Leona’s treat.”
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Hey Stiff,
@scittiesenjoyer here (why won’t Tumblr let me ask from a side blog)
I kinda went off in the tags of two anonymous asks you got implying you were racist for giving Scar a big nose in your art
I’m here to double down
Because I love your art and seeing you in the community and it makes my blood boil to think that some dickhead accusing you of something you didn’t do will make you feel less welcome here (honestly I wanna be a lot meaner to that anon, but I’m choosing to believe that they were coming from a good place and are just ignorant rather than malicious)
Anon has taken a very real issue and over applied it to the point of almost parody. I would like to make it clear that I am white myself and was raised Christian (agnostic now not that it really matters), so by no means an expert on the issues faced by others. But I do listen to Jewish people and have read into the topic of harmful Jewish stereotypes seemingly more than anon. Prepare for me to give you two whole sources more than that anon
Yes overly large noses (often also hooked) are used in caricatures of Jewish people, but never in complete isolation. Here’s a post on Jew-coding, the practice of applying character traits that make you think of Jewish people. Which can be good or bad, depending on what is making you think of Jewish people
https://www.tumblr.com/roach-works/703234602671751168/on-jew-coding
It doesn’t touch on large noses, though it is often brought up in discussions around art and animation. Especially as villains are often negatively Jew-coded. Think big hooked noses, curly hair, bankers/moneylenders (or otherwise tight with money), and of course stealing or harming blond haired, blue eyed children. Here’s an article that goes more into that for Disney especially
https://www.heyalma.com/why-do-so-many-disney-villains-look-like-me/
I think something important about most of what you will read on this topic is that it’s never a single trait in isolation. It’s the layering of bad Jew-coding that makes something racist. A college student being frugal is not a racist stereotype. But if that college student also had curly hair, was cowardly, antagonised others, and had a thick New York accent then we’d need to be concerned
You giving a character with no illusions to being Jewish a big nose is not racist. You’re not making him the villain, or greedy, or part of some shadow council or otherwise applying any negative (or positive for that matter) Jew-coding to him. You are just drawing a guy and having fun with your art style
I know nothing I can say will take away how you’ve been feeling about that initial anon, it feels horrible to be accused of something like this. Especially when it comes out of nowhere, and in this case is quite unfounded. I know I would have been scrambling trying to figure out where I went wrong. I hope knowing some of the context helps alleviate any distress you’ve been feeling
Please keep playing with proportions and your art style. There is nothing wrong with exaggerating only select features while leaving the rest proportional, the implication that there could be baffles me. I totally understand you wanting to take a break from posting art for a bit. This would be a massive blow to anyone’s confidence. But I think it’s important that you not let this steal away your joy in creating the art you want to
I’m happy to talk more on this or anything else if you wanna reach out, sending love and artistic inspiration
Hi, thanks for the ask!
I think I can see where the anon is coming from when it comes to some of the stuff I drew but I genuinely never thought it would come off as anything bad? Like to me my design just sorta looks like a character you'd see in a cartoon, which is why the ask took me so off guard.
I also feel that since I'm white and I can't really talk about this because I'm not really well educated when it comes to this sorta stuff? Like I don't want to argue with someone or try to defend myself when I don't know enough.
I've been meaning to read up on some stuff but adhd has been making it hard to do literally anything tbh. I need to get medicated so I can read non-fandom related stuff and in general actually do more productive stuff (more art, other stuff i enjoy I haven't been able to do because executive dysfunction) but I'm getting off track here dkvfkdjge
Ive been real anxious lately and that ask really got to me so I don't know about any art for now. I just need some time I guess for the anxiety to ease up idk.
Basically. What I'm trying to say.
I dont know enough about this and in no way would I ever want to do something that's bad or comes off as a racist stereotype or something.
Thanks for the sources and thanks for the nice words
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baurbiediv · 1 year
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PAIRING ➔ jack harlow x rapper!reader
GENRE ➔ instagram au
A/N ➔ going back to my old ways and going back to my dad!jack x mom!reader days, i miss it so much + i’ll be making a masterlist for all family works for jack!!
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vyglitchcraft · 1 year
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I wanna be a housewife to Ghost or anyone in 141 but how can i do that when all of my cooking has a fuck ton of spices in em, Brits can't handle spices or spicy things in general, they're gonna have stomach ache every time they eat my cooking
Although this got me thinking who in 141 has the WORSE spice tolerance? Imagine Asian!reader eating something like ayam geprek or samyang, one the guys wants to try and asks "is it spicy?" "No not really, here you should try!' And after one bite, they run to the kitchen chugging milk or water like no tomorrow
So heres my list
Ghost
- he knows he's not good with spice, i mean he can handle spicy chicken wing or something similar but he won't go out of his way to get something he knows would wreck him
- compared to other brits? He could handle spice very well
- eats things with a fuck ton of siracha or chili sauce he probably can't handle any type of Sambal except sambel ijo, he can handle that
- but if eats something that is way too spicy for him, he will be completely silent, even more than usual. yeah he feels pain, like horrible amounts of pain, he's just good at hiding it
Price
- i mean he's...okay? Not as good as Simon but he can handle a bit
- similar to Ghost, he won't go out of his way to find ultra spicy stuff
- it wrecks HAVOC on this man. Like he is sweating, chugging alcohol (which makes it worse), and banging the table. He hates it
- he yells at Soap or the reader for this, although don't take his words to heart, he's just in pain
Soap and Gaz
- same level of spice tolerance but definitely the weakest in reboot cast
- they dare each other to eat spicy shit just for fun, yes this includes Ghost and friends. Price has gotten tired of em doing these types of shits, he ain't listening to em complaining that they can't work today because they have a stomach ache, yeah he is tired of it
- Soap will let out curses that you have never even heard in your entire life. He might as well speak in another language like the words he's screaming out shouldn't even come out of a human, his accent also gets 10x stronger
- Gaz is much calmer, you can see the panic in his eyes as he quietly drinks a cup of milk while staring at nothing. Has no idea why he's doing this, but he knows he's gonna do it again later
Roach
- poor boy can't handle spice at all, avoids spicy stuff like the devil
- he's the one that panics and immediately goes to the sink and washes his mouth.
- he's usually quiet, doesn't talk at all but the one time you could hear him talk is when he's spiced out. He mumbles jumbled up words and cries, why did he do this to himself?
- the only exception to Price's rule because it causes him so much pain that he can't even push himself to work
Bonus! Alejandro
- Spice GOD, he's Mexican of course he can handle his spice and dammit he's actually smug about it after founding out most can't handle it
- bro eats everything with chili sauce, Ghost pales in comparison.
- the only thing he can't handle? Samyang noodles. He overestimated himself when Soap dared him to eat a bowl of it "this? Spicy? You're over exaggerating, here let me try" and then immediately regrets it
- his reaction is similar to Price. He tries to talk as much as he could because he hopes that it's gonna take his attention away from the pain but nah it doesn't work
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musigrusi · 1 year
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Aight this is Pt.2 of my list, enjoy
Part 1
Farah
HABIBI MY SISTERRRR
Will cook Couscous all day every day for her istg
Inshallah may your days be forever blessed and your plans always sucessful
Mashallah
The rEAL kind of Tea Time with pine nuts and everything, fight me
Will probs bicker about different pronounciations, 10/10 tho
I will make use of all the bomb/arab jokes I have been told and rate em with her. Will also make use of my new bomb skills I learned from Soap lol.
Throwing shoe contests
Alex
I feel like he would be the kind to speak arabic with that horrible western accent
Will defo tag team with Farah to make fun of him
Will also console him when he feels bullied
"You're doing great baby, it aint your fault you are linguistically challenged. DW we still love you"
That kind of shit
Will teach him niche curse words and tell him it's a compliment
Will watch from afar how he gets decked by Farah lol
He has a crush on Farah, say what you want. And I will bully him relentlessly about it.
I will, however, be his wingman and tell him all the things she likes/dislikes. Will teach him how to cook and season AND, most importantly, how to evade the flying shoe™
Laswell
MOTHER
I wanna be adopted by her and her wife
Will chase her with adoption papers until they are signed
That is all
Thank you for comming to my TED Talk
Valeria
The love hate of siblings, but make it two sisters.
Don't touch my stuff or I will eat your liver
But also don't touch her or I will eat your liver
Will throw chanclas at her for no reason
I can see her make my blood boil by teasing and annoying me
But I would give that vibe back tenfold
Will start a new rumor abt her and Alejandro every week
Will make and execute plans to lock her and him in a room and shit like that.
Gift her a cool shirt and wait until she wears it comfortably as her PJs before telling her that it's Alejandro's
Will send video footage of her sleeping in it and then her finding out to Alejandro and all of Los Vaqueros
Roach
I don't have too much to go off of him but the mother instincts are tingling
Teach me ASL, this is not a request, thank you
I *will* mother him just as badly as Gaz and Rodolfo, if not more.
Can't handle spice? Blasphemy, but I shall make you a serving with minimal spice.
König
Strap in, this is gonna be a long one
Listen up you Austrian Fuck
Honestly, I feel kinda bad for him because,
If he speaks English, I would have a meltdown over his pronounciation
If he spoke German, I would have a laugh flash over his dialect.
There is no way he could evade my bullying
Constant bickering over whose pronounciation is correct.
Listen you fuckwhipe, it's "Brätzel" with a nice and short ä NOT "BREEEEETZEL" OR WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU CALL IT.
This would all be in good humor
Not
Will bond over mutual hate of English and American"bread" listen, i dont know what bread ever did to offend you so much to lead you down such a dark path of mutilating its recepie but pls come back to the light
Cook off, because I like Austrian dishes and I will bribe him with Maultaschen, Röschti and Fondue.
Will have him speak French for comedy (have you ever heard an Austrian speak French? You are missing out on A-tier commedy my friend)
Mutual agreed silence
The germanic awkwardness is not felt between us.
The 'tism will also be happy, 10/10
Will force it to cuddle
Horrible Schlager and Après-Ski playlists playing on enless loop just to piss him off
Will use increasingly cringey pet names on him
Mausi/Müüsli, Schatzi/Schätzeli, Schnuggeli, Gaggibolle, Pupser, Zuckerschnute, Zimtschnecke/Schnäggli, (Creme)Schnittchen, Spatzi/Späzzli, Schnuggelpupser, Hasi/Hääsli, Bärchen, Entchen
Listen I have an endless list not only in German, but Swiss German too, which is infinitely more cringe fight me
I would not be above using French and Italian terms of endearment either because, do you know how sappy they are? You'll get a stroke just hearing them
Mon bijou, Amore, mon chéri, Caro, mon âme, Tesoro, Chouchou, mon coeur *insert gagging*
Can't rlly curse him out in my dialect since there's a 85% chance he'd understand it all, but also
He could not curse me out in his dialect bc there's an 90% chance I'd understand it all lmao.
Can and will constantly complain that he is TOO DAMN BIG and promptly abuse him for whatever one can use a large strong man for.
Will compliment on said strength and revel in his subsequent shyness over the compliment.
I could see myself be overly agressive with compliments for the sole benefit of turning him beat red or very quiet.
I love Nietsche and Kafka, two german speaking authors that the majority of german speakers hate with a burning passion. Naturally, if he were bed ridden with injury or sickness, I'd read him works of the two to him.
I am such a kind and compassionate friend, am I not?
Anyways that is all lol enjoy
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Akaza: "A bit amusing to see your castle back in action, Not as hollow as before if I would say so myself..."
Muzan: "...."
Akaza: "Looks like someone is grumpy again. No differ, you always never made a wide smile on your face every time something good happens in your life... Ay Mister Jackson-"
Muzan: "NOT YOU TO.. IS EVERYONE GONNA BE CALLING ME MICHAEL JACKSON FROM NOW ON?!?!?!?!"
Akaza: "Well. If you don't want me to.. But that shows my true hatred without making a few holes on your valuable interiors.."
Muzan: "Oh you better not.. I just had this built and I ain't having some low life criminal ruin that for me!"
Akaza: "Puhu.. You should have been more nicer to your loyal apprentices instead of making them your slaves... Think about me for example.. You forced me to become what I dont want to be...And here we are.. Back in the same scenery the day they raided our lives away.. For me.. I found peace.. But for you-"
Muzan: "..... Akaza... Do me a favor and shut up."
Akaza: "Here we go again.. Mister Muzan stirring up trouble underneath his posh style moonwalking suit.. Lemme guess, your gonna point your finger at me again.. My body still needs to recover from what you did to me yesterday.."
Muzan: "...Whatever.. Your loss anyway.. Now.. Where the fuck are the others?!"
Akaza: "How should I know.. All of them refuse to stay in contact with me... Can't really blame them.. I dislike each and everyone one of them anyway."
Muzan: "I didn't ask for your opinion on them but okay..."
Akaza: "Oh sure.. What about you and Kokushibo? I heard you and him are starting to have a massive falling out."
Muzan: "And for good riddance to.. All he does is act like he's the leader here.. When in reality I was the one who gave him my blood in the first place!!"
Akaza: "Oh really? What about Doma.. You know.. The dumbass who always gets away with things.."
Muzan: "We don't talk about him..."
Akaza: "Thats more like it.. After all.. You did made him a demon as well.. I could say that it was your fault."
Muzan: "....."
Akaza: "But to be honest with you Muzan.. I wonder what the Hantengu clones are up to. Especially that their now fulfilling out your tasks by gathering some.. Resources."
[After the Hantengu's clones did the teletubbies thingy]
[And just to make it even worse for them... They have to crash into each other as the narrator repeats their names at the same time.. With Aizetsu forcing to crash into Karaku and Urogi doing the same to Sekido. To his revolting response. At the end.. The narrator had them all be force to have a group hug.. Luckily for Muzan to arrive and intervene with this sudden approach..
Sekido needed more than therapy to remove such post traumatic stress disorder from his head.... And not to mention him choking Karaku since he was the one who thought of the idea in the first place.]
Muzan: "..... Really.. Is that what you idiots have been doing behind my back.. Acting like small roaches that can't survive one stomp by a heavy ass boot?!?!"
Also Muzan: "AND DOMA TURN OFF THAT HORRIBLE MUSIC.. IT MAKES ME WANNA RIP MY EARS OUT AND SHOVING IT DOWN YOUR EYE SOCKETS!!!!!"
Doma: "EEP! Sorry not sorry."
Sekido: "Forgive me lord Muzan.. I was totally not a part of this ordeal."
Karaku: "Yeah you were!! You agreed because we made you the promise to leave you alone for 5 hours!"
Sekido: "And that promise starts now!"
Aizetsu: "Speaking of this.. Where is Zohakuten?"
Zohakuten: "...Idiot.. I was here the entire time.. AND WHO GAVE ME THE ROLE IN BEING THE FREAKING BLUE LONG SNOUTED HOOVER?!?!?!?!?"
Urogi: *Covering his face with his wings to block out his laughter.*
Muzan: "You guys are like 5 year old's I swear to god!!!"
Akaza: "Ahh just ignore them Muzan.. Their just disobeying your orders."
Muzan: "Yes.. Thats exactly what their doing...."
Doma: "Hey Akaza-Dono. Care to join us.. You can be the sun baby if you want-"
Akaza: "......No..... I am not a baby unlike all of you!"
Doma: "Not even Muzan when he turned himself into a infant this one time-"
Muzan: "SHUT UP DOMA!!!! GOD STOP MAKING ME FEEL BAD ABOUT MYSELF YOU PEICE OF SH-"
Gyokko: "Lord Muzan! Lord Muzan!!"
[Muzan quickly snapped his head back 360 to give the slug artist the most devilish glare that ran his blood into coldness. His skin aching with freeze breeze trickled won with sweat.. Gyokko didn't dare say another word unless he would have his head ripped out clean again. Muzan was showing his anger again.. He totally was not having a good day.. You can see why.]
Muzan: "WHAT. IS. IT GYOKKO THE TWIT?!?!?!?!?!?"
Gyokko: "The child!! I saw the child leaving the secret prison room that you just installed!! He's escaping your infinity castle as we speak."
Muzan: "AND YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT?!?!?!"
Gyokko: "HOW CAN I?!?!?!"
Muzan: "UAHHHH I HATE YOU GYOKKO. FIRST YOU FUCKED UP DURING FOOTBALL AND NOW YOU CANT HOLD RESPONSIBILITY ABOUT YOUR WILL!!!! FUCK IT.. AKAZA, DOMA. AND HANTENGU BROTHERS HERE'S THIS TASK THAT YOU ALL MUST DO OR ELSE I WILL FREAKING LOOSE IT!!!"
Akaza: "Calm down Muzan.. We heard your issue loud and clear.. I'll make sure to apprehend the runaway rascal while these dimwits would act like their in a comedian show in the 80's"
Doma: "Ehh???? I wonder what children would taste like-"
Sekido: "He's a boy... Asshole.."
Doma: "... There goes my appetite."
Muzan: "HEY NAKIME.. DO ME A JOB AND MAKE SURE THE LITTLE BRAT DOESN'T ESCAPE FROM MY WRATH!!!"
Nakime: *Snores*
Muzan: "Nakime..... N A K I M E ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !"
[Sonny felt like an Olympic runner when sprinting down one floating platform to the next. He made sure to keep his eye out in case anything changes around his point of view, Nothing happening so far.. Maybe none of them notice his escape.. That could bring him good charms of joy.. Speaking of joy...]
Urogi: "WHERE DO YOU THINK YOUR GOING?!?!?!?! THE GAME OF CAT AND MOUSE HASN'T EVEN STARTED YET!!!"
Sonny: "!!!!"
[The child felt his heart racing through his muscles and bones.. The adrenaline was sure was kicking into his system.. His motion increases when the flying Karasu-Tengu swoop down closer to him. Almost snatching him like a eagle.. Sonny didn't stop to look back.. All he knows is that they are alerted to his location.. All of them hunting him down.. He was the runaway.. They are his blood thirsty hunters.]
Urogi: "Resisting!?! How pity... I wouldn't imagine your insides aching with stiches and cramps.. You know you cant run forever.. Soon enough my brothers will catch up to paralyze your ankles. Now follow my heed and give yourself up!!"
[The emotion of joy could feel the reaction of the boy decline this offer. He closed one of the sliding doors behind him, Urogi didn't have time to pull up his breaks.. The collision between him and the door was fatal for him to overcome.. Karaku jumped over him, breaking the door down and using his Uchiwa fan to demolish the offers in front. If it would mean to cause damages around the castle... All because a child refused to surrender..]
Karaku: "Get up Urogi!!"
Urogi: "Uahhh.. Karaku, I think I'm seeing stars!!!"
Karaku: "Don't make me drag your feather butt. Cause I would kindly do so!!"
[Doma skated pass them, creating a trail of ice to help him catch some grounds.. Sonny looked back. Astonished by this amazed skater and his prodigy of concentration. Sonny quickly made a sharp turn, Watching Doma slide pass him. He created a ice like ramp on the walls to help him change direction. Sonny could only run for a while..]
[Unaware about Sekido and Aizetsu watching over the two.. Sekido had his Manifesting lightning Khakkhara by his side.. Aiming to electrocute the young boy while Aizetsu aimed his Yari Spear in hopes of making devastating holes on his skin. The child wasn't aware of this.. Once he felt the shock of thunder depleting his lungs.]
Sonny: *Agonizing muffled screaming*
Urogi: "DAWWWHH. IS THE MICE HAD MET HIS END ALREADY!!!"
Sekido: "Dont loose focus you idiot.. Whether it could be or not.. The child is still alive..."
Aizetsu: "..... Where did he go?"
Doma: "Did you guys just loose him!?!?! No wonder why your uppermoon four and I'm two.. It just shows that I'm better than all five of you!"
Karaku: ".....Says the one who stupidly ate poison."
[The child looked up at the floor above him.. He can hear them arguing over him.. They were distracted.. Long enough for the child to reach towards another section of the castle.. Now alone.. He can finally catch his breath, resting his legs and lungs.. The child convulsed each breath he took.. He was tired tremendously.. His body concerning him for his health.. He thought he had gotten away with it... But only one demon he has yet to outrun from was already following his tracks.]
[Sonny stood up a few minutes later... Looking through two long stretch hallways conjoining separate parts of the castle. The demon trailing behind him made sure he rested his bones throughout his exhaustion marathon.. Before he would quickly make his move by pouncing on him with a surprise attack.]
Sonny: "!!!!"
Akaza: "Haha!! Gotcha!!! Think you had escape your trail of courage?! Well think again!!"
[Sonny attempted to make a run for it again. But the strength of upper rank three clenching onto his arm was gruesome to deny.. Akaza pulled the boy to his arms, once again. Sonny can feel his ribcages being crushed by the tightness. He was close to coughing out blood, but the bandages covering his mouth wouldn't allow him.. Akaza had the face of glee mixed with a small amount of remorse, he made sure to only injure. Not kill him..]
Akaza: "Showing your weak side wont help you make excuses... Even if your just a child with Mortality... Now struggle... THRIVE FOR ME!!!!!"
[Akaza hauled the child over his back, carrying him like a large slab of meat awaiting to be butchered. Sonny could barely breathe... His lungs felt inflated like a balloon. He tried his best.. Exit wasn't as closer to him as he thought... He felt like giving up.. But only a few more tries would eventually free his soul... If only...]
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So I don’t really plan to draw QWERTY with any of the main characters in ultrakill because they have their own story with V1 (and QWERTY operates differently, not really as aggressive/eye catching as V1) but I kinda wanna draw them at least encountering Gabriel (because I’m silly)(and don’t want to make an angel oc I’ll barely use)
This next part is just me saying things but it’s kinda plausible? For them to get noticed, I mean. I imagine QWERTY is much more resilient than the V models but that means their only strength in speed is their rollerblades and they’re pretty clumsy otherwise. Like hi Gabriel ultrakill I’ve survived the worst experiences of my life, I am a roach that can’t be killed and I will scurry around hell causing havoc where I see fit. <- speaking of the roach thing, back to that detailed art I did (which I am still insane about, wtf possessed me) in the last 2 panels QWERTY is taking a hell energy blast directly and only being knocked out of the way rather than absolutely blowing up
Ok now I’m just going to ramble about my OC:
I haven’t rlly thought of it’s origins but because I based them off the V models, I believe it was some sort of tank war machine. I mentioned yeah, they’re clumsy (looks around. At the atrocious restarts I had for V2 and Gabriel fights) and a short time in hell solidified their first goal: we need to be faster. So, of course, they get into a fight with a machine and steal their legs lol. QWERTY’s legs before would’ve probably been similar to a sentry’s. Now that I think about it… QWERTY does display qualities that’d make them older than V1 but to make sense of the gap in combat experience V1 has over them we’re just going to say that QWERTY was put into storage after being deemed “not needed anymore” (ouch). Because QWERTY is older, their design is prone to overheating when stressed both physically or emotionally. The lights on their face & arms, wings, and around the eyes will heat up and glow a dangerous orange. It’s not until the stressor at hand is removed that they’ll relax and steam will be expelled in an attempt to cool themselves off, leading to dangerous situations as they struggle to focus on multiple points of interest.
QWERTY favors piercing weaponry with the sharpshooter revolver being their main weapon of choice. The only other character I’ve made them meet is the Swordsmachine purely because when I played the demo I did so horribly against them. Just going to bend canon a little and say V1 crippled the machine during their 2nd fight and later on QWERTY finds them and ends them, taking their sword for their own.
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This above is where the sword thing comes from lol, I still really wish we had swords as an option. Though the sword isnt in QWERTY's primary weapon picks, it's still used here and there; you never know when you'll meet another swordsman you can spar with.
At the moment I'm running out of things to talk about because my brain is a little fried but going back to the overheating thing: because of the obvious "this thing is going to have to deal with this status for a while" they're built to withstand the heat longer than a normal machine. This allows them to also take hell energy attacks decently well though it's immunity only slightly helps when in contact with lava or greed's golden sand. I imagine when they're in this state they make a sort of muffled but mechanical "thump thump thump" sound from idk their engine or whatever working overtime in their chest.
I guess since I'm on the topic of sounds now, it's capable of speech although they don't talk much at all and the lack of opportunities to is leading them to lose their speech. Aside from that, they often hiss and make grinding sounds from their chest and maybe the occasional whirring. If I'm to be honest I can see them attempt to "sing" in tune with the sword's motor when it's revved.
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need1etail · 2 years
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Thank you for answering my questions :D I liked reading up on your thoughts! It's so interesting, because everyone's AUs are obviously different, and you've put a cool spin on everything!
1. I had no clue that Witch was a combo...! I thought they were only replacing Tree, and Zelda kinda just wasn't there at all, but it's so cute how you thought of that, and gave them such a cool appearance as a nod to their original selves. Honestly, I do not blame you for disliking Tree initially, because I had the same thoughts. I wasn't a fan of his throughout all of AVOS...I literally only began liking him when I read his novella, and then liked him even more throughout TBC. I think a poly relationship with Zelda, Tree, and Violet would have been cute, but as odd as it sounds, your Violet (and canon Violet) doesn't give off that vibe, but I do think you could've written it wonderfully...and probably changed my mind on it, just like you changed my mind on Needle and Alder :P I hated any mention of Alder's crush on her in the books, but now I look forward to him thinking about her in your rewrite and how they interact. So Violet being poly most likely would've grown on me as long as you wrote it :D
2. Oh, yay! :3c I'm happy to hear Marsh is okay. I actually went back and reread/did a ctrl+F for him and he IS mentioned, but doesn't have lines. That was me just overlooking him, so you are all good!! ^^ I think it's Cloverfoot who says he mostly stayed in the warriors' den while they were self-exiled :( he's a quiet boi, that's all, and seems to just keep his head down after everything. poor guy...
3. That TOTALLY made me laugh, because yeah, I can DEFINITELY see this happening. I was surprised when canon had so many cats who were horrible to Rowanstar from the start accept Dark, realize he's terrible, be allowed back into ShadowClan, AND THEN CONTINUE TO BE HORRIBLE TO HIM. like...?! literally seems like they learned absolutely nothing. so it makes sense for them to remain with Dark, because he is still alive in your world. SOMETHING clearly drew them to him and they basically had no remorse afterward, since they never showed Rowan any grace once Dark was defeated
4. Speaking of the typos you thought you made, I do think (or maybe I am being a dummy again and misread ^^; very possible) there is a bit of a continuity error in your SS and SD! It's said in SD that Snakepaw disappeared during the battle while fighting alongside Tawny at the end ("The two hadn’t been well since Snakepaw disappeared during the battle. It was said that she was fighting alongside her mentor, Tawnypelt, but they got separated and she was nowhere to be found, even now."). But she actually disappeared way back in chapter 14 of SS ("A few warriors had disappeared in the last quarter moon: Rippletail and Snowbird, then Snakepaw disappeared a few nights before.")
The same confusion is with Ripple, who vanished with her and Snowbird, but then we suddenly see him with the Kin again in the SD prologue ("Rippletail was on the verge of death, covered in scratches and bitemarks."). It doesn't say how or why Ripple is there, when he (presumably) snuck away in the night in SS. He is also still seen in the Kin, though, in chapter 16 ("Thistle, Sap, Ember, Lioneye, Grassheart, Wasptail, Rippletail, the apprentices, Whorlpaw and Flowerpaw, who had their chests puffed out, even Raven and Roach to name a few) and chapter 33 ("while Perchwing and Leafshade pummeled Rippletail.") in SS after he's supposed to be gone. Now that I think about it, could it be that Marshstripe is supposed to be the one who is said to vanish with Snowbird and Snakepaw, and not Rippletail? So that'd explain why Marshstripe is gone and Rippletail is still a Kin cat
Thought you might wanna know, in case it comes up again for them! <3
Y'all are gonna have to be patient with me and my mistaks with cats disappearing BEHXHX I swear I'm as bad as the Erins sometimes 😭. I don't like going back and rereading my stuff (cuz i'm dhwbdux self-concious) so most of the time I live purley based on memory and there are def cats I overlook and forget about (namely, Rippletail cuz I don't like him). So I'll just say that Rippletail came back to the Kin sometime after Violetpaw left and was basically just put on lockdown and was prob just meant to be thrown into the frontlines before the surprise battle. As for Snakepaw, I remember I wanted her to return to ThunderClan but I don't think I had room to mention her edhdhdb, which is very unfortunate. So she came back, fought in the battle, and disappeared afterwards. My poor girl.
I always try to take background characters into consideration but sometimes they get lost in the wave of my favorites lmao. I'll start keeping notes on that stuff tho I swear, I hate when I make mistakes like that, even if it's small. A lot of stuff isn't seen, especially when it comes to the Kin after Violetpaw and Needle leave, so it's both hard to remember who's still there and easy to just come up with excuses bfjedhxu.
THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING ELSE THO <333 I'm so glad you're enjoying it!! Canon AVOS is bad lmao I'm glad I'm making it better.
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lunaticalis · 2 years
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when will god stop trying to be funny by sending me 3 cockroaches i want to burn everything. kill kill kill kill kill
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beann-e · 3 years
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Bnha Characters reacting to when you quit your job
bakugou
your steps were quiet as you tried to work up the energy to unlock your front door. Your hands sweating and cold when you finally got the energy to put the key in the lock a deep exhale leaving your lips when you finally walked in.
Your Body only carrying you to your kitchen counter before you dropped your keys and bag on the same counter your body now rested against.
The room heating up and shifting from the ice quiet atmosphere youd created when you felt strong arms wrap around your waist and pull you back to meet a hard chest
Small kisses being planted on the side of your neck as you let out another sigh of relief as you spoke trying not to drown in the comfort being given to you “ baby “
Your body shook as you heard a deep grunt of acknowledgment “ we — we need to talk “
you felt as another set of kisses were placed to your neck before his head snuggled into the spot between your neck and shoulder “ I— I think I made a mistake“
You bit at your lip as you kept going “ I— I was trying my best to stick up for myself y’know like you told me”
“ mm—and did you“
“ I did —I mean I did stick up for myself and I had to I needed to bu—”
“ slowly losing interest y/n “
you let out a shallow cough “ but I think I did it at the wrong time “
his body stood up a bit straighter head still remaining in the same place somehow “ baby I —i lost my job “
You felt as your boyfriends body went hard almost as if he was trying not to slam your own body into the floor in anger his grip around your waist only getting tighter “ like I said I — I wrong time“
“ wrong time? — y/n wrong place “ he screamed as he jolted your soul out of your already shaken figure. His head flying back to look at you conveying all the anger and annoyance he held, “ what the fuck do we do now “
you let out a small laugh to try to ease the tension “ we — we rely on your hero check ? “
You watched as he sucked his teeth and moved out of the kitchen “ I can barely feed a fucking roach with my salary y/n “ his voice getting louder as he walked into the living room you following closely behind “ i — i can barely feed you — us — y/n this is why we don’t have little crumb snatchers running around now “
his voice deep and heavy “ cause we’re broke do you get that babe ? huh no — fuck — you— fuck fuck fuck you gotta go back — you can’t just be chilling around the fucking house while i’m working my ass off that’s not how starting a family works y/n “
“ baby it’s just until I can get a new job “
“ tch— and how long will that take y/n “
“ well I— “
“ huh months ? “
“ well n— “
“ couple weeks “
“ I mean hopefull— “
“ babe you don’t even fucking know “ he sighed as he griped the skin on the bridge of his nose “ so fucking stupid — so so so fucking stupid “
the room went quiet as your eyes dropped to the ground. “ wel— no — I — I don’t know kats” you shook your head “ I— I really don’t“
“ and that’s the problem y/n “ he screamed eyes finally opening to look at you.
God, he loved you but seriously you just didn’t think sometimes
It’s not that he was calling you stupid it’s just that he really really loved you
He loved that you listened to him. That whenever he gave advice you heard it and went with it.
The night he told you to speak up he was honestly just fucking with you. He always forgets that he has someone who loves him now meaning he’s taken seriously. He always forgets he’s not in high school anymore.
He can’t say something crazy and asshole—ish and expect to just be ignored. He has someone that loves him and will truly listen.
Your not the stupid one
nor the one in the wrong he is
and he knows he is because he heard everything you said about your situation. Yet, he knew you were different from him whereas he had been speaking his mind for years regardless of ranks.
You couldn’t.
You had a job where everything relied on ranks and status. You couldn’t just say whatever the fuck you wanted to like he could and yet he convinced you that night to speak up whenever your boss gave you extra work you didn’t wanna do.
His eyes felt heavy and so did his body his brain automatically beating himself up as he stared at you imagining the rough day youd had. If he was pissed off with the current situation he could only imagine how you felt.
Someone who hated to rely on others yet, now having to rely on their boyfriend.
“ come here “ your eyes lit up at the statement as your tired body wobbled over and into bakugous arms. Head hitting his chest as he crushed you “ I love you and i’m proud of you “
your heart sank.
“ fuck those idiots you only have room for one anyways and hes— fuck trust me I know i’m enough “
Shoto
“ so “
“ so “
You sat on the couch legs splayed out in front of you and hands playing with the tassels of the pillows placed next to you.
God you loved these pillows. You actually remember the day you bought them.
Y’know back when you had money
“ y/n “ you watched as shoto shifted uncomfortably on the couch next to you “ my love what are you doing home “
He shook his head confused at the body placed comfortably next to his own “ your not supposed to be home for “ he looked down at his watch moving his suit jacket up his arm to create space and to make sure he was seeing the time correctly “ for 7 more hours “
you let out a short laugh “ you sound like you just got caught cheating sho “
his eyebrows crinkled together as he stared at you in disgust “ y/n I would never “
His hand moved to be placed on your thigh “my love is that what you think ? — if that’s why your here then I can assure you tha—I mean honestly if so I would never be stupid enough to disrespect you in our home— you could’ve went to my office at least I mea— “
“ I lost my job shoto “
The air shifted as the hand on your thigh suddenly felt colder than before “ I— I lost my job “
you took a deep breath shaking your head “ it’s a long story on why but i’ve been leaving the house — pretending really— to go to work “
You chuckled “ god i’m sucha bad person “ your small chuckle turned into a hearty laugh as you felt your body go slack “ A fucking horrible timekeeper too if I managed to forget my husband gets off before me on weekends “
“ do not say these things about yourself “
“ it’s not like it’s a lie “ your tear filled eyes coming up to look at his. ” right “
“ I will not stand for this y/n “
“ for what — having an unemployed s/o—i mean you already have one so not much to do about that “
you scoffed “ why don’t you want a housewife ? huh“ you smiled “ I can wear the skirts for you y’know with the aprons cook you dinner and maybe we can have kids y’know we can even get —“
“ enough “
your body shook your eyes widened facing the 6 ft male now towering over you “ your always joking about serious things and I — I don’t understand “ his eyebrows creasing in desperate need to understand you. Eyes darting around your face “ how “
his voice going deeper as he got angrier “ y/n you lost your job“ his eyes grew wide “ do you realize how serious this is “
“ wh— “ you shook your head letting out a short scoff “ of course I do —I mean sho i’m the one who qui—lost it “
“ no you clearly don’t “ he scoffed “ not if your sitting here making jokes in my face “
His mouth quirked up in disgust “ it’s almost insulting — disgusting really “
“ wh— sho—“ you felt as a tear fell from your eye “ baby what could be so disgusting huh ? so ‘ insulting ‘ about me choosing to leave huh “
his eyes softened “ because of your reason to leave “
“ my reason ? “
“ my love I know you — I know you didn’t get fired and I know you wouldn’t just leave you loved it there “
your head dropped as your fiddled with your fingers “ so that means something led you to make that life changing decision and it hurts me that you were forced to make it “
Your heart broke, he was right he was always right, for days at work youd been dealing with an overbearing co worker who would tell you to do everything they didn’t feel like doing and when you finally decided to say no to them
They went and told your boss. Who even though you’d been working there longer than your so called coworker still believed everything they were told.
That was the day that you sadly found out your job favored years over hard work.
Due to the other person being there longer you were trumped in telling your story. It was seen as not necessary because , someone who was there for so long would have no reason to lie on someone like you.
A newbie
“ someone made you quit this job “
“ sho no they— I decided “
You felt as the couch shifted from him kicking it. You thinking he was moving to grab his shoes except walking past them and unlocking the door instead.
“ baby where are you going — we need to talk about how we’re going to split the bills now that i— “
“ i’ll handle it “
“ shoto you can’t put everything on your dads card we’re not “ you let out a soft exhale “ we’re not children anymore “
“ i’ll pay for it all myself — and you can be my little housewife “ he scoffed as your expression grew sour “ it was so funny a moment ago right “
“ shoto i’m not gonna ask again where are you going “
“ where else “
your eyebrows came together in a furrow “ wh— “
“ my love you work for my company ? obviously who ever I put in charge “ he shrugged walking barefoot to his car unlocking the door “ isn’t doing a very good job if they fire their bosses s/o ? “
He got into the drivers seat as he turned the car on and reversed the car “ needs to learn respect no ? so i’ll just have them switch places with you“ he smiled softly “ i’ll see you when I get home “
His once furious eyes turning soft at your body hidden in pajamas “ go inside baby —it’s cold —go order us some takeout i’ll be back in a little ok “
“ sho “
“ just let me handle this —i love you and i’ll be right back my love—go “
You shook your head softly “ go y/n “
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IUI - Roach is Baby
Wifey told me Jask needs to meet Roach and fuck she was RIGHT
warnings: I... went a little horse girl on main? sorry? no triggers, just cuteness. also i was tipsy whilst writing the last half so like... im sorry if theres typos or its unreadable lol
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“I’m sorry. I just have to go check on Roach before we go to dinner,” Geralt cringed as he turned away from the restaurant Jaskier had wanted to go to. 
Jaskier just put a foot on Geralt’s dash and made himself comfortable, “Oh what’s wrong with our baby?”
“Our baby?” Geralt nearly swerved into a ditch. 
“I’ve seen enough pictures and heard enough stories that I happen to have grown attached. Now answer my question,” Jaskier didn’t seem phased at all. In fact, he seemed to think it was perfectly normal to just adopt your partner’s animals after three months of dating.
Geralt took a steadying breath and tried not to read into it. Jaskier said wild things all the time, he was just beginning to get used to it, “She got her teeth floated.” 
Jaskier was quiet for a moment, tapping Bonnie the Blue Footed Boobie on his thigh, “I’m having some horrible image of pumping her mouth full of water until her teeth come out, please tell me what this means.” 
“Horse dentist filed down the sharp bits of her teeth so she can chew better.”
“Oh! Ow!”
“Oh no, they sedate the horses. That’s why I didn’t answer last night. I- uh. Didn’t want to leave her in case she laid down and got cast.”
Jaskier shifted and peered at him over the rim of his sunglasses with a fond smirk, “Sweetheart, I don’t speak Horse Girl.”
“Cast is… cast? Getting stuck laying down? But stuck on or under something? Once Roach did it by rolling on a pile of shavings I hadn’t spread yet so she couldn’t roll back over where she had room to get up. I had to pull her back over it by her legs…” he chuckled at the memory then paused as he turned into the barn’s driveway, “I see how this sounds odd.”
Jaskier sat upright and leaned forward, mouth open in awe as he took in the stables that looked like something straight out of a high(er) budget daytime soap, “So this is why you live in a studio.”
Geralt sighed as he parked the truck in front of Roach’s barn in between the indoor arena and the massive covered wash racks, “Yup.”
Jaskier got a brief tour, or more accurately, he followed Geralt to Roach’s stall and pointed at things and asked questions the entire time. There were so many horses. He’d never seen a horse up close, except for that one mounted police officer on his trip to Canada and that wasn’t an all too fond memory. He was almost vibrating with excitement when they reached Roach’s stall. 
Geralt stepped in and greeted her so softly Jaskier thought he might faint, “Hey, Ro. How’s my sweet girl?”
She pressed her forehead into the hand he held up and nickered. Geralt just laughed and scratched under the little tuft of long hair between her ears. He leaned forward to give her a kiss and whispered something in her ear that Jaskier couldn’t catch despite his best efforts. 
Geralt turned back to face Jaskier, looping one of his arms over Roach’s neck and giving him a proud almost-smile, “Wanna come say hi?”
Jaskier ever so hesitantly stepped down into her stall, “She won’t step on my toes if she doesn’t like me right?”
“She might. She’s never met someone in Berks and daisy dukes,” Geralt winked as he ran his fingers through Roach’s mane. 
Jaskier took a moment to register his sarcasm and flipped him off with a grin. Geralt gently gripped his wrist and manipulated his hand into a flat surface, popping a sugar cube in his palm.
“Just keep your hand flat and let her sniff you. She’s easy to win over,” Geralt’s voice was unbearably fond and Jaskier found him watching his face more than the horse reaching her nose toward his outstretched hand. 
It was one of two times since he’d known Geralt that he didn’t have at least one solid worry line in his forehead. Hell, his whole body was more relaxed.
Roach took the sugar cube and explored his hand, wiggling her upper lip over his palm and wrist before snorting and shaking her head.
Jaskier yelped and jumped back, earning a confused head bob from Roach and a laugh from Geralt, “It’s okay. Something just tickled her nose.” 
“She’s just so big…” Jaskier muttered, stepping forward and holding his hand out just like Geralt had shown him.
“You can pet her too.”
Jask just brushed his fingertips over the white patch on her face but she pressed into him, bobbing her head a bit to use his hand to scratch at a certain spot between her eyes. 
“Oh! Hello! Does this mean she likes me?”
Geralt’s smile covered his whole face, another thing Jaskier had only seen a handful of times, “She does. You want to go for a ride?”
“Now!? In shorts?!”
“Oh no, sometime next week maybe? You’re not supposed to ride for a couple days after a float.” Geralt started running his hands over her back and belly, then her legs as if he was looking for something. He pinched right at the peak of her rump, making her flinch a little bit and swish her tail, which he seemed satisfied with. Then he pushed at her middle, just gently leaning against her and watching her feet. When nothing happened he seemed pleased and moved on to checking her water and kicking around some of the shavings and, to Jaskier’s disgust, poop. 
“Darling what are you looking for?” 
“Anything unusual. She looks fine though,” he draped his arms over her back, now on opposite sides from Jaskier, “Could I convince you to walk her up and down the breezeway for me?”
Was this the date night Jaskier had been expecting? No. Was it absolutely adorable and delightful to see Geralt so clearly in his element? Fuck yes. He giggled and played little games with Roach and was so gentle and patient with both Roach and Jaskier. It was, so far, the best date they’d been on, first one included. Jaskier had gotten a little peek at who Geralt was when he was truly at home. 
After a brief and very goofy showmanship lesson, they strolled out of the barn with Geralt’s arm draped over Jask. 
“I’m sorry. Restaurant’s probably full by now…” Geralt sighed, opening Jaskier’s door for him. 
Jask hopped up on the seat and pulled Geralt to stand between his knees, “I don’t give a flying fuck about where we eat. This was lovely.” 
There was a look in Geralt’s eyes that reminded Jask of a little kid being told they could play outside for one more hour, “Really? You had fun?”
“Of course, darling,” Jask mumbled as he pulled Geralt further into a kiss, “Just give me heads up next time so I can wear my boots.” 
“You have cowboy boots?”
“Well they’ve got a rather high heel… but they’re still technically cowboy boots.” 
Geralt leaned his head back and laughed, “I’m getting you barn boots.” 
“If you insi-,” Jaskier shrugged, cut off by Geralt’s lips on his, where they stayed for several minutes. 
They were definitely too late for a table. 
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ajbwasntwriting · 3 years
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Daughter!Reader X Negan, Reader x Daryl: Chapter 8. Civil Unrest
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In a few days you were up on your feet, your need to survive driving your fast recovery. As soon as you could sit up without nearly fainting and you could bend your fingers without much pain you started taking patients. Mainly burns and cuts. You kept your head down while working, adding to your intimidating reputation. They didn’t realise you were just trying to conceal yourself while looking for familiar faces. You rarely left the medical bay, even when it was icy cold.
Carol checked on you regularly, seemingly incredibly concerned for you. It almost pained you to suspect her to be out to get you. Luckily she seemed convinced that because you had been alone for so long that you’d take a long time getting used to the walls. Maybe she figured out that you were just biding time for leaving again.
“Are you okay?” Laura pulled you from your thoughts. You looked up suddenly, nodded, and went back to your reading. All these patient profiles from the previous physician were thorough. “Why would Emmett be this detailed with extremely basic medical care” you tought, then again he was a captive here just as much as you were. He probably had nothing better to do. “Are you sure? You look so serious.” She continued. You looked up to her. She was lying on one of the beds chewing on a piece of hard plastic. Having to keep a watch on ‘The New Doc’ would’ve been extremely boring.
“Just a lot of reading” you sat up and stretched your arms, not realising how long you had sat hunched over the hand-written pages. “Doctors have horrible handwriting and this guy sure likes to drag his point out”
“How bad is it?” She asked. You lifted the profile of another patient and followed along with your finger.
“The left Thenar has suffered tremendous infliction resulting in the loss of elasticity and possible avulsion of the tissue” You read aloud in a dramatic voice
“What?” Laura said, taking the plastic out of her mouth for a moment
“He pulled the muscle in his thumb, possibly tearing it” you flopped the paper down, rubbing your forehead.
“And all those pages are full of that shit” Laura pressed. You sighed with a nod.
“I never thought I’d be grateful to have done AP english.” you sighed
“Okay smart ass no need to show off” Laura chuckled, chewing on the plastic again.
“Please,” you sat back in the chair “My old man made me do it. ‘You already speak english so it should be a breeze’ he said”
“Those kind of parents?”
“You’re familiar?”
“Yep” Laura sat up, hunching over her now crossed legs. “My dad was a lawyer. Mom was an accountant. They kept pushing me to over achieve”
“Bet they weren’t happy with that” you spoke, pointing to your neck to reference Laura’s tattoo. Her hand went over it instinctively.
“I had already skipped town with my boyfriend before I got this.” She laughed. The smile melted away as she slowly stroked her neck. “Hadn’t seen them since. Probably dead.”
The room got a lot more quiet. It was crazy to think you both were so close in age but had gone through so much hell in the same world. But Laura was a saviour. You were Negan’s kid. If you were to be friends it would have to be at an arm’s reach.
The momentum changed when Carol arrived in, holding a small tray with cookies on them. The smell told you they were fresh. Your heart wanted to tell her to get out, but those cookies smelled too damn good.
“How’s the hard work going ladies.” she spoke with a cheery voice, setting the tray down in front of you. You were on it instantly. You took a cookie with you as you limped over to lock the door to the medical bay. “Any news?” Carol whispered
Carol had asked you and Laura to investigate the uprising of Negan supporters in the Sanctuary. Well, mainly Laura since she would know more people in Carol’s eyes. The payment, cookies. Though Laura would probably do it for free. She enjoyed the new peace that came with being aligned with the other settlements.
“Just the usual hot-heads” Laura sighed. You limped back to your chair.
“They like to complain to me.” you gently sat down. You’d only been back walking without the full splint for a couple days now but the clunky half splint on your lower leg wasn’t exactly walker friendly. “‘You should’ve seen how great we were when Negan was running the place’ and other shit”
“What do you think of it?” Carol asks you seriously. You suck the sugar off your fingers happily.
“He mustn’t have been that good if he’s not in charge anymore.”
They had their little meeting then as Carol was leaving you piped up,
“How’s the bridge team?”
“No.” Carol retorted quickly as if speaking to a child. “You are not going out there how many times do I have to tell you.”
“I could help-”
“You’re needed here Y/N” she spoke firmly.
“Yes, mom.” you groaned from your chair, earning a laugh from Laura. Carol left quickly.
“Why do you wanna join the bridge team so badly?” Laura asked through a mouthful of cookie.
“I miss the fresh air, I guess” and there’s more chances to get away from you all.
That evening you were restless. Normally it was the pain that kept you up late but it also exhausted you. You got out of the medical bed you’d claimed as your own, one of three that outfitted the med bay. You limped your way out of the medbay, not bothered if you woke Laura. The bathroom was down the hall so she would just assume you had to pee, especially since you had taken the torch dedicated to midnight bathroom visits. Being the medic gave you the luxury of a torch instead of matches and a candle.
It hurt to climb up so many stairs, with both your wounds and the cold seeping into your skin, but you’d be tired by the time you came back down anyway. You walked onto what used to be Negan’s floor. Your ‘family’s’ floor. You’d wanted to see it for a while now, out of curiosity more than anything else.
You first went to your father’s room. Pushing the door open you felt a burst of cold air whip around you viciously. The room has been stripped of its furnishings, right down to the carpets. Taken away to be burned most likely. The windows were shattered, the bullet holes in the ceiling giving away the method. It was so completely devoid of any sign of human life one would say it always had been. You closed the door and continued onto the parlour where the wives would spend their day. This room didn’t have windows but the room was still completely void of any of the glamour that once adorned it. The only remnants was the wall paper which was peeling off due to the damp.
The image of the forgotten rooms didn’t stir emotion in the way you thought they would. You imagined getting overwhelmed with emotion, but you felt nothing. No that wasn’t right, you felt a loss. Not a loss of the grandeur you had gotten to enjoy in captivity, not a loss of the fake smiles from your many ‘mothers’. You felt a loss of your father. You mourned the man you had called your father, and the idea that all that was left of the memory of him were these halls where cowards bowed to him. You felt an overwhelming realisation that the man you called ‘Pops’ had died long before ‘Negan’ formed.
Your final destination was your room. You figured it would also be empty but your room was a bit away, down the end of a hall few knew how to get too. You’d had more roaches as visitors than people. Your father had chosen it for you so the ‘common nobodies’ wouldn’t see you easily, another measure to keep you safe.
It also worked the other way as you round the corner and see a light coming from what used to be your room. The hall was lined with offices and storage rooms you knew you could dive into if someone appeared so you turned off your light and walked down the hall gingerly on your feet. You were now only a couple feet away from the door when you heard voices coming from the end of the hall, from what used to be your room.
“I still can’t believe they put this bitch here to keep an eye on us. That fucking redneck was an ass but atleast he didn’t pretend to be all fucking nice”
“It’s probably a play to get us to relax. They’ve got us locked in this factory and don’t give us nearly enough food, and they won’t let us go to the other settlements”
“We’re prisoners. They said they only wanted to lock up Negan but now we’re all starving.”
“Enough of your bitching.”
They went on to talk about how many people were on their side and their efforts to get weapons. They clearly had no idea you were listening. After all, what kind of idiot is gonna climb up over ten floors for no reason. Other than sentiment perhaps. It sounded like there were about four people in the room, but they spoke like they had a few under their influence. They were looking for weapons and a means to get back at ‘Rick and his posse’.
“We’ll bring them that bitch Carol’s head on a spike for them.”
“What about the bridge? We got people working there for food.”
“And then what? They’re just gonna keep extorting us for slave labour or let us starve.”
You were so drawn in by their words that the door opening startled you. You charged from your spot into an open room, a storage closet of a sort. You knew it was too risky to close the door so you stood against the wall next to the door. They walked along the hall bantering loudly. You sidestepped deeper into the room, knocking something with your foot making a loud metal sound. The voices stopped and you instantly froze, holding your breath like your life depended on it. A light shun into the closet, then the other way.
“Probably just a rat” one of the voices spoke. “We can set some traps and stew it for dinner”.
They continued down the hall, their steps growing faint a minute or so later. The adrenaline began to subside and the pain from the recent strain on your leg made itself very apparent. You stepped out of the closet and walked down the hall to your old room. Maybe they left some evidence you could use to barter for your freedom.
You opened the door to your room, only illuminated by the moonlight coming from the window. Unlike the other rooms, your room hadn’t been completely ransacked. The mattress had been taken off the frame but the metal skeleton remained as well as the rug under your bed. Other than that it appeared empty. You turned on your torch to get a better view.
On your bed frame lay what had to be near a hundred dead wild flowers. Your breath caught in your throat at the site. You moved and sat on the bed frame, the metal sending a chill up your body. You placed a hand on the dry stems and something hit the ground with a thump. You moved to look under the bed as quick as you could, reaching under the bed you cut yourself on something sharp. You moved your torch on it and grabbed it again, this time from a less dangerous end.
Under the bed you pulled out the knife that had your name engraved on it. The metal shun bright in the light as if lovingly polished until it’s inevitable abandonment. You hadn’t realized you had begun to cry until a tear fell onto the blade and began to fill the engraving.
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justasadboi · 2 years
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I am in so much physical pain and even more mental pain. I’m so tired of never feeling like enough regardless of if I actually am or not. I don’t know how to continue living every day like I’m not just a really bad person but it’s getting harder and harder every day to convince myself I am a good person and even harder to try and continue to be that good person. I just wanna run and hide. I miss my mom as pathetic as that is cause she has only ever treated me like her best friend and personal rock but somehow also makes me feel like shit All the time but all I want is to have a mom to fucking cry to who wouldn’t turn it into one big well why don’t you just move back home and figure it out type thing. I’m just trying so hard but also somehow gaslighting myself into thinking I’m not trying at all. I just know that I cause so many problems in other peoples lives no matter what anyone says I know I am problematic and ig I’m just worried that I’m just meant to be alone cause I was a horrible person in a past life and this is the punishment life. I’m also lowkey seeing spiders that I don’t actually think are there cause we have roaches not spiders but I’ve seen two today that no one else has so that’s a little scary but it’s fine. Idk how to be good and that’s all I wanna do. My inner child is constantly screaming that I’m being bad and I shouldn’t be bad I should be a good “girl” and I should just be quiet and kind and not cause a big scene and be the easy kid who doesn’t need anything and can entertain themselves and just be good. I just wanna be good for once. I don’t think I’ve ever been good before.
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jaimehwatson · 3 years
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I made another Snowpiercer playlist!
After posting my Wilford/Audrey playlist a while ago, I added some songs that didn’t quite make the cut to a different playlist, intending to put together another similar one. But rather than focusing on just one ship this time, I also ended up getting really interested in theorizing about what Wilford’s relationship with Melanie might have been like before the Freeze, and exploring the idea that maybe there was something going on there and some kind of love triangle with Audrey.
So here’s my new playlist, full of absolute jams that could apply to any combination of relationships involving Wilford, Audrey, and Melanie, and/or just general Snowpiercer vibes! Read on for more detail about the songs I selected, and as before, content warning for references to canon abuse & self-harm/suicide.
1. “The Tradition” by Halsey
Oh, the loneliеst girl in town Was bought for plenty a price Well, they dress her up in golden crowns His smile hides a lie
She smiles back, but it's a fact That her fear will eat her alive Well, she got the life that she wanted But now all she does is cry
Thanks @onetrainsnowpiercer​ for getting me into this excellent album! I thought it would be fitting to kick off the playlist with one that could suit the earlier days of Wilford’s relationship with Audrey, like my previous playlist was more focused on.
2. “cardigan” by Taylor Swift
'Cause I knew you Steppin' on the last train Marked me like a bloodstain, I
I knew you Tried to change the ending Peter losing Wendy, I
I knew you Leavin' like a father Running like water, I And when you are young, they assume you know nothing
Did you think I would make a Snowpiercer playlist without Taylor Swift on it? Not a chance. I picture this one being more from Melanie’s perspective, reflecting on possibly having had some kind of ill-fated romance with Wilford when she was young and naive.
3. “No Children” by The Mountain Goats
I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow I hope it bleeds all day long Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises We're pretty sure they're all wrong
I hope it stays dark forever I hope the worst isn't over And I hope you blink before I do And I hope I never get sober
The only reason this perennial favourite of mine wasn’t on the first playlist was that I had too many Mountain Goats songs already and wanted to keep things balanced. But this one got all the ones that didn’t make it to the first playlist plus some more I thought about later, so I’m kind of giving up on that balance by now. They just have a lot of great songs about terrible relationships, and I love them all so much.
4. “Gold Guns Girls” by Metric
I remember when we were gambling to win Everybody else said, "Better luck next time." I don't wanna bend like the bad girls bend I just wanna be your friend Is it ever gonna be enough?
This is another one that I can picture being about young Melanie, gradually growing more aware of everything that’s terribly wrong with Wilford and his approach to life, and of how little he cares to try to fix it.
5. “You’ve Haunted Me All My Life” by Death Cab for Cutie
And there's a flaw in my heart's design For I keep trying to make you mine
You've haunted me all my life You've haunted me all my life You are the mistress I can't make a wife And you've haunted me all my life
And this one I can see being Wilford thinking about either one of the women, and his unhealthy attachment to them and inability to keep them around for very long—maybe once he’s finally reunited with them both on some level in season 2, but still can’t fully persuade them both over to his side.
6. “Old College Try” by The Mountain Goats
From the cities to the swamplands From the highways to the hills Our love has never had a leg to stand on From the aspirins to the cross-tops to the Elavils
But I will walk down to the end with you If you will come all the way down with me
Another Mountain Goats classic. If you divorce it from its context of being from a concept album about a horrible marriage, I actually think this song is kind of sweet in the way it describes a couple still committing to try to make things work despite a whole host of problems. But never mind that now, because I’m putting it back in the new context of a whole collection of horrible romantic relationships!
7. “Risk” by Metric
So you're beaten up but you bounce back It’s all part of the pull And the story runs like a soundtrack We repeat 'til we're full Started slow, started late Started strong, then we lost faith Started slow, started to lose control The more we accelerate, the more we accelerate
Half of arranging any playlist I make is just trying to split up the Mountain Goats and Metric songs so that they aren’t always clumped together. Anyway, this one seems especially fitting to me in its imagery of a speeding vehicle of some kind (it’s a train, I’m always picturing a train) alongside its description of a relationship going badly.
8. “Big God” by Florence + The Machine
You know I still like you the most The best of the best and the worst of the worst Well, you can never know The places that I go I still like you the most You'll always be my favourite ghost
I think this one could be any one of the three of them contemplating their complex feelings about the past at some point around season 2.
9. “I Still Do” by The Cranberries
I don't want to leave you Even though I have to I don't want to love you Oh, I still do
There aren’t as many specifics that match the characters going on in the lyrics here, since it’s more of just a general break-up song, but I also really like the creepy way it sounds.
10. “Fault Lines” by The Mountain Goats
But none of the money we spend Seems to do us much good in the end I got a cracked engine block, both of us do
Yeah, the house and the jewels, the Italian racecar They don't make us feel better about who we are I got termites in the framework, so do you
This one feels really fitting for pre-Freeze Wilford, especially the engine imagery!
11. “I Don’t Care” by Fall Out Boy
Say my name and his in the same breath I dare you to say they taste the same Let the leaves fall off in the summer And let December glow in flames
Erase myself and let go Start it over again in Mexico These friends, they don't love you They just love the hotel suites
Another song that is simply a) an absolute jam, and b) generally fitting for my favourite obscenely rich asshole and his terrible relationships
12. “You asked for this” by Halsey
I want my cake on a silver platter I want a fistful in my hands I want a beautiful boy's despondent laughter I wanna ruin all my plans I want a fist around my throat I wanna cry so hard, I choke I want everything I asked for
This one I can picture as Audrey—or maybe Melanie too, but especially Audrey—beginning to regret getting involved with Wilford, but only once she’s in way too deep for leaving to be a safe or easy decision.
13. “my tears ricochet” by Taylor Swift
And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet
Much like several other Taylor Swift songs, I just know in my heart that it’s the type of music Wilford listens to in secret, while possibly drunk and definitely singing along very dramatically. This one he dedicates to Melanie once they’ve met up again in season 2.
14. “Speed the Collapse” by Metric
All the way from where we came Built a mansion in a day Distant lightning, thunder claps Watched our neighbor's house collapse Looked the other way
This one has a lot of good apocalyptic imagery that I can imagine scoring Wilford’s life in the last few years before the Freeze, as he makes his plans to save himself and let so many others die.
15. “Ox Baker Triumphant” by The Mountain Goats
I will thank my ride and crawl my way back inside To the guts of the building where my enemies Hide in the dark like roaches And I will signal the camera crew and everyone will do What he's been trained how to do Sweat dripping from my face as my moment approaches
Click your heels, count to three I bet you never expected me A little worse for wear Practically walking on air
I love this song a lot, and listening to it lately makes me imagine Wilford plotting his revenge while on his way to catch up with Snowpiercer before the end of season 1.
16. “Firewood” by Regina Spektor
The piano is not firewood yet But the cold does get cold So it soon might be that I'll take it apart, call up my friends And we'll warm up our hands by the fire
Don't look so shocked Don't judge so harsh You don't know You’re only spying Everyone knows it's going to hurt But at least we'll get hurt trying
This has to be one of my favourite songs of all time. It’s very beautiful, and I love the piano in it. I’ve always personally interpreted it to be at least partially about someone surviving a suicide attempt, and the overall imagery about burning a piano for warmth—and this bit about not judging someone for doing that—reads to me as more of a general statement about the difficult choices people struggling with mental illness and other similar issues have to make to survive. I listened to it recently and I could picture Audrey singing it in the nightcar. I think it suits her well.
17. “Cry for Judas” by The Mountain Goats
But I am just a broken machine And I do things that I don't really mean Long, black night Morning frost I'm still here But all is lost
I think the imagery of this song suits the show a lot in general, but I can also particularly imagine it being Wilford in a rare moment of self-awareness about how much damage he’s caused to the world and the people around him.
18. “Rock ‘n’ Roll Suicide” by David Bowie
Time takes a cigarette, puts it in your mouth You pull on your finger, then another finger, then your cigarette The wall-to-wall is calling, it lingers, then you forget Oh oh, oh, oh, you're a rock 'n' roll suicide
I love Wilford a lot. I don’t want anything bad to happen to him ever. I hope he kills more people, and I hope he gets his train back, and I hope he wins. But if he does eventually die in the show, I hope he’s found in the bathtub with there being some ambiguity about whether he really killed himself or whether one of his victims turned the tables on him, and I hope the climax of this song swells as the camera pans over his dead body. That’s the only Wilford death I will accept, thanks for coming to my TED talk.
19. “Source Decay” by The Mountain Goats
I park in an alley And I read through the postcards you continue to send Where as indirectly as you can, you ask what I remember I like these torture devices from my old best friend Well, I'll tell you what I know, like I swore I always would I don't think it's gonna do you any good I remember the train headed south out of Bangkok Down toward the water
Okay, I promise this is the last Mountain Goats song on the playlist. It’s just—it’s perfect. It has a train in it. And on the podcast “I Only Listen To The Mountain Goats,” John Darnielle commented that there’s barely anywhere you can go south of Bangkok before you hit the water, it’s a train going nowhere, it’s so good. It’s also one of the songs I’ve previously ripped a line off for my fanfiction titles!
20. “Sellers of Flowers” by Regina Spektor
The sellers of flowers Buy up old roses They pull off dead petals Like old heads of lettuce And sell ’em as new ones For cheaper and fairer But they die by the morning So who is the winner? Not the roses Not the buyers Not the sellers Maybe winter
And Regina Spektor closes out the playlist again! This song is another one I picked more on imagery and vibes than anything else. But since it’s about a young child in a world that seems to be moving inexorably toward an all-consuming winter, if it suits any of the characters, maybe it’s an appearance of Alex here at the end!
Thanks for reading, and I hope you enjoy the playlist!
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