#i think that goes without saying really

[spoonyruncible]

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I always forget that sometimes I get medically sick in a way that makes no sense but is also dramatically debilitating. Dramatically. Like, I sleep sixteen hours at a time, I have all the symptoms of a high fever with no fever, my stomach is ruined, I become moderately delirious, my anxiety spikes, and my whole body breaks out in a rash that looks a lot like measles. This lasts anywhere between four days to five weeks.

I dunno, I figure at some point I just kind of accepted it happens and that no one would ever help me. But I also kind of just put it in the back of my mind all the time because there doesn't seem to be any fixing or predicting it. Heat seems to, if not bring it on, at least make it significantly worse as I begin my Agonies ( I call this phenomenon my Agonies) by sweating so constantly that I am stickier than a lint roller and twice as miserable. There are chills, of course, there are always chills.

But the thing is that, through the joint pain and the extreme exhaustion, through the sweat slick fever mist, I always make sure my dog gets her goddamn walkies.

At the end of the day I'm the sort of a thing that's just going to feel bad rather a lot of the time. Much of this is no one's fault. But Rose doesn't know any of that, she just wants to sprint through the hot July air eating all the moths she can catch. And what I know is that, before she came to me, she was dumped in a crate full of her puppies which means that the most important reason for me is to make sure this stupid little animal is happy and loved no matter how terrible I feel. And I have felt terrible. I've missed two weeks of appointments, only barely made it to the pharmacy today (and my pharmacist had worried about me), and just kinda got by with the groceries I had on hand. But I'm not letting down my dog. I can't do shit to look after me, but I can haul my miserable corpse upright long enough to take care of dog.

#i am ninety percent sure i am on the tail end of it #also as a bonus i didn't get any hallucinations this time #personal post #i think that goes without saying really #i am very small and i have no money #but i actually do keep rose pretty well in toys and snacks #this is seriously the best dog I've ever met #i've known dogs who were straight up people and she's not one of those #she's just a highly compressed pit bull #and when she's happy she will run at me do a kickflip off my chest and then turn it into a barrel roll and repeat #i love her so very much #when i first met her she was scared of everything all the time and cried and cried and cried even when i shut the bathroom door #she still hates when i leave but now she's a proper terror #oh also she ate my thermometer #i was in the bathroom for two minutes and she ate it #i.... am actually still very sick #but i did make it to the pharmacy! #so that's a win #also groceries i have on hand is not as concerning as it sounds #i have food issues so i always have apocalypse bunker level supplies #i am never gonna go hungry #not on my fucking watch #that is fucking over and done with #not living no place where i'm afraid to eat #just ignore this as i am plainly still in the throes of delirium

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags) #shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes) #i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized) #it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can. #we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

[sneez]

my lord of autism

#discworld #havelock vetinari #artwork #i have read. A Lot of discworld this year #i just finished the watch series so im moving on to moist next. very excited for moist #anyway i love 100% of the characters but vetinari is probably my favourite hes a massive bitch i love him #other characters who are my favourites include sybil angua carrot and constable visit. and vimes but he goes without saying #also vetinari is about as close to canonically acearo and autistic as a character has been since sherlock holmes which means da world 2 me #i was talking about this yesterday but i think him and holmes would get along. steepling their fingers at each other #i have a lot of thoughts about vetinari but i cant really express any of them i just rotate him in my head often #i hope you are all doing well my friends and that you are enjoying the end of the year :D i luv you

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: violence mention / death mention / ]

Will never stop thinking about how Leo, all alone in an endless void and being beaten again and again and again by the only other living thing around, still finds comfort in that space. The situation he was in was completely hopeless, and in any other circumstances he would not have escaped, at least not fast enough to save him from permanent (or even fatal) damage, be it physical or mental.

And yet, despite the bleakness of his situation, despite the agony and helplessness, all he needs is one glance at a crumbled photograph, one glance to remember his family, and that’s enough of a reason for him to smile.

Maybe that’s why his powers center around manipulating space - because no matter how much space is between them, no matter how dire his own situation may be, just the thought of his family, alive and okay, is enough to give Leo hope.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #the prison dimension is horrifying on its own #add in a monstrous being that towers over you and has vowed to ensure your suffering? #god I can’t imagine how scary that is #Mikey opening the portal was a miracle because if he hadn’t managed it there #it’s really up in the air what could have become of Leo #personally I subscribe by the theory that you straight up can’t die in the prison dimension #so it’s a prison in all ways #but the thought of a Leo who manages anyway who adapts and continues to have hope despite it all… #Leo saying he’s nothing without his family is a double edged sword really #because the thought of his family alone is all he needs to live. to hope. #to smile #nothing without them…but they’re EVERYTHING to him #and maybe he doesn’t realize it but…the feeling is mutual #one thing too is that hope that comforts Leo so much is not just that #should he think his family needs help - that hope can turn into determination #I’m unwell about this family #actually on my point of their powers - I truly do think the abilities tie in not only to their personalities #but to their relationship to family and love in general #kinda like love languages in a way #Mikey with his chains and time abilities values being around his family the most - he wants them to experience living in the moment togethe #Donnie is someone who is 100% a gift giver to show his love - his constructs are exactly that aren’t they? gifts of his mind #Raph is someone who willingly bears the weight of the shield - he protects his family like the best big brother possible #and Leo - he goes off on his own a lot but his mind is constantly on his family anyway #like a sailor at sea no matter how far he travels the compass always point in one direction - and for him that compass points home #even if he can’t make it back - it’s still there #and that’s enough

[canisalbus]

the art you made of plushie machete and vasco is SO CUTE, would it be alright by you if i tried sewing them?? I’d tag ya if i posted pics of ‘em anywhere, of course ☺️

If you like them that much, sure! Tag me/send me pictures if you do, I'd love to see.

#a couple of people have expressed their interest in making their own plush versions of them #I don't have anything against that I think it's really sweet #this goes without saying but just try to treat them nicely they're very dear to me #answered #variousnumbers

[agir1ukn0w]

y'all really think we don't know coriolanus snow, son of crassus xanthos snow, is a (future) dictator and mass murderer who is responsible for the deaths of hundreds of thousands of innocent people, the vast majority of whom are children, including finnick odair??? y'all really think we don't know that even as a youth he's already a controlling, narcissistic, scheming, calculating, traitorous son of a bitch?

you've severely underestimated our powers of media literacy, and also of knowing the difference between reality and fucking fiction.

#and this goes for anyone else with the brass ovaries to simp for truly vile characters on main purely because their actors are hot #you think the marvel fandom got where they are today with loki without simping hard for him even when he was a genocidal maniac? #you really think i give a shit if kylo ren worked for the space equivalent of neo nazis? #you say 'get a grip' when you tell us off for thirsting for these characters but you ought to be pointing that finger at yourself #because if we're the ones who really understand the difference between dreams and reality #what do you think that makes you? #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #coriolanus snow #tbosas #lucy gray baird #thg #president snow #sejanus plinth #tbosas spoilers #snow #snowbaird #coriolanus x lucy gray #lucy gray x coriolanus #coryo snow #ballad of songbirds and snakes #coriolanus snow x reader #coriolanus snow x you #and yeah #after all this simping we STILL want to put a bullet in this mfer's throat

[ohdeargodwhy]

Loki, devastated

#he just looks so good when he's devastated what's a person to do #loki #loki series #loki season 2 #loki laufeyson #loki s2 #tom hiddleston #loki fanart #my fanart #tom hiddleston fanart #many-hour train journeys from london to copenhagen are pretty good for drawing #is loki a good series or am i just weak for hiddleston's waist in well tailored clothes #it is pretty good (the series - the waist goes without saying) #loved the addition of ouroboros but did not need the expositional line of 'its like a snake eating its own tail' #marvel really thinks its audience are big dum dums huh #traditional art #watercolour #pencil #he kinda looked like someone else before i added colour but i couldn't work out who #like a scream of the shalka richard e grant maybe #idk #my art

[rottengurlz]

lover, don't touch me // leave, i am a danger to you // but ooh, i hunger for you

#this is leona's vampire lover audra #i guess you could say the first time they met was when audra nearly killed her in a blood lust because she hadnt fed in so long #idk how to describe it well but audra suddenly stopped devouring her when leona looked at her with no fear in her eyes #but looked at audra like she was something to worship #she whispered that audra was so beautiful even as her own blood was splattered between them and staining her lips #leona had never seen someone or something so perfect and powerful #power that she wanted and knew exactly how to get when audra whimpered over the slightest bit of praise #i never talk about them but i am CONSTANTLY thinking about them <3 #some fun little facts is leona killed her husband in cold blood because he was pitiful and boring #she married the first person to show any interest in her just to get away from her family #he would have been a perfectly good husband for anyone else #but the best part of their marriage was when she stabbed him in the stomach 47 times and felt his blood splatter against her skin #for audra OBVIOUSLY had to make another oc who would do anything to be loved even if it means destroying herself #audra was turned very suddenly and without any guidance #she murdered her lover without even realizing it she opened her eyes to find them splattered across every surface of the room #because of that shes done everything she can to protect herself from others even if it means starving herself of blood #until she goes into a frenzy #leona is the first person she has ever willingly fed off of #idk if willingly is the right word since leona practically begs her to do it #i really want to remake leona now......... #i like how leona looks but i want her to match audra better #mysims #the sims 4 #simblr #sims 4 screenshots #sims 4 cas #ts4 cas #sims 4 edit #ts4

[sunlit-haruka]

Honestly, I think that if Kotoko doesn't have any kind of tragic backstory or deep-ridden trauma and did have a relatively normal upbringing like she says she does, it will probably heighten my enjoyment of her character and her narrative even more. I've said it before and I'll say it again, my favorite thing about Kotoko's narrative and role in the story and why she is my favorite prisoner is the fact that she is the perfect encapsulation of what I think Milgram is trying to teach. It is unfair to put her, or any of these prisoners into boxes of good and bad because both are cruel oversimplifications that only serve to dehumanize them regardless of if the audience's intentions are good or bad. By dehumanizing them and partaking in the fucked up justice system that is Milgram, you are emotionally distancing yourself from them. When you emotionally distance yourself from these people, you become more ignorant to the possibility that you could do the very thing that they're doing. That Haruka, Yuno, Fuuta, Muu, Shidou, Mahiru, Kazui, Amane, Mikoto, and especially Kotoko could all be you and you won't know it before it is too late. That is why even within this system that pushes black-and-white nuance-less thinking, the narrative itself encourages you to look beyond the surface depiction of these prisoners that we are presented with. Because in the words of one Will Wood - "If you were in my shoes, you'd see I wear the same size as you" But what does any of that have to do with Kotoko and her backstory? Well, @/archivalofsins / Gunsli made a very good post that explains exactly what I'm going to talk about in more depth, but I'll give it a rundown nonetheless. It would be very easy for someone to look at a person who has gone through tragedy or trauma who has done bad things, and say in response: "See, I can't become like that because she is abnormal. I could never do that, that would never happen to me.". Now I would hope that you don't need me to tell you that this way of thinking is a white lie cake rich with ableist frosting, but that is a discussion dug into by Gunsli's post. And I do believe, if Kotoko is revealed to have a tragic traumatic backstory, this will happen to her. Because it happened to Amane. And that is why Kotoko having a 'normal life' would be so important to me and, in my opinion, heighten her already amazing narrative and writing. Her role in the story is to be a audience parallel, she is an embodiment of the system and mindset Milgram as a story criticizes and her actions are a direct consequence of our involvement in it. Milgram is already not subtle about this fact, but Kotoko's ordinary upbringing is the thing that fully hammers the nail in the wood. Anyone can become like Kotoko Yuzuriha, trauma or not. Her beliefs, her bigotry, her fascism, her violence, and her fantasy to be the chivalrous hero who protects the weak are not things that are alien or only things that form within an "abnormal" brain. In fact, they are very normal things that a lot of normal people across the globe perpetuate wholeheartedly whether they realize it or not. Kotoko isn't some one-of-a-kind individual She is literally just a girl

#I really hope this goes without saying but this is just my interpretation of Kotoko's narrative and what I think would improve it #I am not Yamanaka so I cannot say what would concretely be the best for her story #I can only form opinions and theories based on what's already been presented to us #haru chats about milgram #milgram #milgram project #kotoko yuzuriha #yuzuriha kotoko #milgram kotoko

[rexscanonwife]

If you have an f/o that loses many people close to them, imagine them allowing themselves to grieve in front of you. To be held in your arms as their shoulders shake with the force or their crying because they need to let it out or it'll consume them from the inside out. They can be vulnerable with you, they can fall apart with you, knowing you'll help them pick the pieces back up.

#jane journals #self insert talk #💙 oh captain my captain 💙 #this is about rex ; w ; #my partner and best friend and i watched a particularly intense arc of the clone wars last night #it was funnnnn love when star wars hurts me!! #but goddd it goes without saying that rex loses people he cares for every single day #its what they were 'meant' to do. they were made to be expendable #but he knew and cared for every single man in his troop and thats gotta weigh on him over time #idk while the Really Sad part was happening in the ep i couldnt help but think how brea would comfort him #would hold him close and tight and keep him grounded #and ofc she grieves with him. #ougghhhh this reminds me of an old fic i was working on FOREVER ago 🤔🤔 #i didnt have an ending for it but...now im thinking

[piosplayhouse]

Thinking about it considering both binghe and liu qingge (shen yuan's most canonically ideal men) are described as feminine in text, you could for sure make the case that fem yuan has a Hugeee thing for butch girls that she just does not examine ever

#shen yuan goes through her life leaving a constant trail of utterly heartbroken butches she was in a situationship with without knowing #sorry scum villain got me thinking of gender presentation and queerness again.. because i do like it #even though people usually draw binghe as pretty stereotypically 'masculine' in eng fandom id say it is interesting to note in the book #how he is explicitly somewhat androgynous. as airplane says in his extra #and likewise lqgs femininity is pretty heavily commented on #i think the only character who's really described as undeniably masculine is mbj. because sqh is a certified gay ass man 5 on the kinsey #or whatnot. #anyway gender presentation and performance and adherence and queering everything up in a world that loves you!!!! #things to think about #svsss #sqq #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #genderbend tw #tw genderbend

[daffythefox]

Shoutout to people with low/no empathy who do not experience empathy for animals. Every time I see someone who has pride in being low empathy it feels like they're so quick to affirm "but I care about animals though! I feel really bad for animals! I still love my pets a lot I'm not a monster lol!" So shoutout to the people who have no empathy for animals, shoutout to the people who have to pretend to care about animals when one of their friends shows them, like, an image of their pet, it's really alienating and it can make you feel like you're broken/a bad person, but you're not.

#low empathy #no empathy #actually npd #i was gonna put a disclaimer in the post like “so long as you don't hurt animals” but that goes without saying #and i'm tired of needing that to be stated #I'm not going to fucking hurt an animal just bc I don't feel empathy for it #i swear even ppl with low/no empathy will be weird about you not having empathy for animals #like they'll say they have no empathy for humans but the second thing out of their mouth is “but I care about animals though!” #like good for you but what about those of us that don't have empathy for animals #i just think it's not talked about a lot #like. i think animals can be really cute but that doesn't mean I have empathy for them #I don't have empathy for humans either but when I say that in low empathy spaces people don't get concerned about me hurting humans #but when it's animals suddenly people act differently about it? #it's really weird #why would me having low empathy towards animals make me want to hurt then I do not get it #me when i

[sukifoof]

i think im just gonna start blocking people that engage in flowey age discourse <3 im not in the fandom for petty drama about nothing im here for analysis and art and its really irritating to be looking for art and all there is is arguments. i love uty dearly but the sudden uptick in pointless arguments regarding floweys character is infuriating. why can't we talk about how well hes written and that hes an extremely good example of ptsd why must we argue. if u disagree with something block and move on dont act like children

#im just really annoyed #this is part of the reason im taking a break from twitter its really annoying to want to see my favorite character #and instead the only 'content' is people fighting #its a shame to see it being dragged here too. every day i get a little closer to leaving social media Forever #'umm reading comprehension' hey if u have a point to make. make it. without being ableist and rude. #this goes for both 'sides' of the argument. also yes its ableist if u say that because he acts like 'that' he must be a child #hey!!! maybe dont call symptoms of ptsd something only a child can experience!!!! its incredibly demeaning!!!! #ive said this plenty times before but i absolutely do not at all care what age u view him as #do whatever u want im not ur mom. i personally dont wanna see anything suggestive or mean so i think from now on ill be blocking freely #can we maybe communicate with understanding and kindness and agree to disagree #riel

[doedipus]

kabru and rinsha are so fucking cool man. their whole party is during the falin fight but especially those two. like they build them up as being kind of jobbers, but in all of their fights that we do see, especially this one where *everyone* is on the back foot, they always come off as exceptionally well coordinated and show off a series of skills that are totally different than the main party in a lot of interesting ways. ultimate narrative foil gang

#I think the way they animated the lightning bolt spell took some of the punch out of it but it's so cool #and kabru being cool goes without saying #the scene where she stabs falin a bunch scratches my chuuni brain directly #holm summoning the undyne after the 4th floor one held up the party for multiple days is also really cool

[adrift-in-thyme]

Anyone care for a febuwhump snippet? >:)

#I’ve got twelve fics finished so far #three…? of those I think will be continued #much to the boys’ relief #…or not XD #gotta say although it’s been fun #it’s also been kinda lonely writing them without telling anyone #writing really is a very social thing for me and I’m realizing that more and more as time goes on #trin rambles

[menelaus-blue]

i had a very important realization while i was out walking today. out of the main four vnc characters, noé is the one we know the least about. he fits into a category of what i would call the glass protagonist–a guy who basically exists only to narrate the story, joining the ranks of those like nick carraway and richard papen, except he's just like way more mysterious.

see, part of what makes a narrator like nick work narratively is that we know just enough about him to 1) understand his perspective on the events of the story and 2) know what his role in the story is. nick is able to give his insider/outsider view of gatsby because he is neither part of the buchanans' world nor part of gatsby's, and his role in the story is to serve as a kind of mediator between the two of them. he's daisy's cousin in long island, but he's also a working man in city, etc, etc.

the funky thing about noé is we just...don't know anything about him. we're told a couple of things about his childhood; that he was adopted by an old couple in the human world, that they died and he was somehow on sale in altus, and that the comte took him in. but really, the time before and after louis's death is uncannily empty for the guy who we're following through this world. yes, of course it's fair to say that we know the most important things about noé, but we honestly know way more of vanitas's childhood than his, and that's a big part of the central mystery of the story.

(there's an element to this, of course, that comes from both of the examples i gave before, the great gatsby and the secret history, being novels. as readers, we get an extra level of introspection from nick and richard that is very difficult to translate directly into manga as a medium. however, i would argue that it's not impossible, and all that being said it does sometimes feel intentional on mochijun's part just how little of noé's background she's shown us.)

both nick and richard narrate their respective stories onto the reader from their position as outsiders, which we know is noé's role in vnc from the get-go. i mean, he says this explicitly in chapter one: "this is the tale of how i met vanitas, and how we walked together, of all we gained and lost, and of how, at the end of that journey, i would kill him with my own two hands". he's the narrator and this is his story, just like nick and richard, right?

but while nick and richard are the narrators, and give us, the readers, an excuse to look into their worlds, they are not exactly essential players on the board. both the great gatsby and the secret history give the impression that, without their narrators, they would have continued nearly exactly as written; the characters were doomed to fail long before the story began, and the intervention of some white guy isn't enough to either stop that. and yes, vanitas is doomed as well, but we are introduced to his death as an event that is intrinsically tied to noé himself.

"with my own two hands", noé says. he is not only an actor in the saga leading up to vanitas's demise, he is a starring player in it. (and yes, we ofc later learn that vanitas is going to die with or without noé's intervention but i think it's important to understand that this is our introduction to noé, vanitas, and the story itself) in this way, noé differentiates himself from his glass counterparts, in that he inserts himself irrevocably into the plot. he is both a character in the story and an observer, a chess piece and the one playing the game. this is why the gaps in his backstory feel so jarring, at least to me, because we are not meant to view him as solely a window into the world of vnc, but as a character all on his own.

anyways, all that being said, i'm hoping with the introduction of lady archiviste we're finally going to learn more about noé and his time with the comte, just because it's like a HUGE gap in the story.

#i think it goes without saying that domi's line about noé being a hermit for the past several years really stuck with me bc like. what. #she just dropped that line and then it was never mentioned again #noé also says in chapter one that he was sent to paris by his “former teacher” #like what does that mean. has he just not seen the comte in several years? has he been living somewhere else? what happened between them? #sometimes i think that maybe noé himself doesn't remember everything but ig we'll see #noé archiviste #vanitas #vnc #vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #the great gatsby #nick carraway #the secret history #richard papen #sorry if this got a little rambly by the end ahhhh