#i sure am tired of reading it

[qcomicsy]

Sometimes I feel like only Peter Parker gets how humbling it is to be poor jesus christ. I am enjoying my time despite not being my cup of tea (I am a dialogue person, I love dialogue I love dialogue as a dog loves little delicious treats. 60's comics unfortunately do not have the best kind of dialogues). But I am enjoying it, almost as a concept, hecause Stan Lee and Robin Dikto do not have the fear to show a pathetic little man, they don't have the embarrassment of showing your hero getting rejected by the girl, forgetting to let his suit dry and having to wear a wet scrunky suit, showing him being arrogant, being annoying, a very very antisocial guy.

I think reading so so many comics where it's clear how much the writers are trying to make the hero sound cool, the smartest, handsomest and smoothies guy in the room.

Peter is kind of a breath of fresh air. He gets it, he really does. He's not cool, he's not there yet. He's a kid doing dumb shit. Trying to do better, failing and failing and trying. No wonder so many people who got to read his comics as they were growing up hold Peter so close to their heart.

Because he's the proof you can try again, you can fuck up, in ten, twenty, thirty hell maybe forty years from now it won't matter. Just try again. Stand up. Try again.

@sciderman talks a lot about how Spider-Man is about reaching manhood and I've never get it, sure as a concept yes but I couldn't grasp why. Now I do.

It's not about waking up and being the man you should be, being responsible for having a cool montage of getting better and better. Nah it's the every day thing. Peter isn't (at least what I am getting of the comics while I read at my pace and time) the representation of becoming the power and responsability thing, he is the representation of having this as a goal. And trying each day.

#He gets it. #I am very tired but he'd get it. I'm sure of it. #He's tired too. #somehow we all are #q rambles #sci if you're reading this I'm sorry for tagging you #but it didn't felt right to hijack your take and run with it #feel free to ignore #as a treat #q talks comics

[lunarharp]

What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this. #wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it... #some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself... #maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts. #orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little. #certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'. #i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

[feral-and-or-horny]

I need..my professors..to chill the fuck out. I don't even have time to be horny

#after tomorrow my workload this week lightens up #but i am so tired. #they keep being like #this is an upper level class!! you should be prepared for the work load!!! #which yeah sure #i don't disagree #BUT ALL OF MY CLASSES ARE UPPER LEVELS #AND IM HAVING TO READ 3-5 ***BOOKS*** EVERY WEEK #AND WRITE THOUGHTFUL DISCUSSION POSTS #AND WRITE ORIGINAL STORIES FOR MY ***THREE*** WORKSHOPS #IM EXHAUSTED #BUT I AM KICKING ASS #my post

[cryptiduni]

…i just saw this poll and my unevolved brain gel wriggled inside my cranium like a feral fish:

idk how you look at his official art and call him conventionally attractive. my man looks like a wet dog and has eyebags for daysss. face full of pox scars, skin pale af, and those shaggy ass hair & a rugged beard hanging from his flat long face.

he is pretty *to me* but like dude???

—not exactly a heartthrob boy band material is he?

obv I wouldn’t call him “misunderstood baby uwu” if we are talking a little more seriously —but to be fair jean is having possibly the worst week of his life. the car? fucking sunk. case? unsolved. not to mention his close partner (who is also an ass mind you) doesn’t even remember him, already running around with a new one.

yeah he is absolutely foul and aggressive and degrading harry but like i said before (in my tag essay lol) judit also makes ableist comments and i don’t see people hating her because she’s outwardly nice—

and respects harry as her superior. her BOSS.

(also a friend with benefits? /nope, it’s just him harassing judit/ as well but not as a complicated relationship compared jean and harry’s brötherbund. only a few months of acquaintanceship.)

plus it’s highhlyyy likely that harry is not the only one substance abuse. —look at jean’s rudolf-looking-red-ass-nose. a drunkard’s sniffers. probably had few lines with him late at night… when your lifetime partner is an alcoholic it's hard to say no.

about the left for dead thing, they left because harry told them to fuck off. tbh harry is nightmare to work with esp pre-bender. (and am saying as a pathetic little unmedicated neurodivergent woman.)

but when the second time they left revachol was not jean’s fault, and it was judit’s suggestion anyway. the squad probably thought that since harry had someone a little more responsible looking after him. it will be fine when they come back. the tribunal was absolutely unaccounted for.

yet despite all of these things, he will try to come back to make sure he is ok and accommodate harrier to the best of his abilities which is wearing very thin. look at him trying to make up to our harry boy:

anyways am incapable of writing coherent thoughts (even though i want to talk about it for hours) that make sense so go look at sygneth’s jean psychological analysis instead. it is an excellent read. please go read.

#op might wanna get their eyes or head checked lol. they looked at a little too much fanart. #+do not interact with the original poll. don’t look it up. it’s not worth it. don't give it traction. don't attract drama. #am sure op is just a troll. prob barely spent any time playin/readin DE. not that i am that much media literate but still... #i am sure there are things i left out. oh well... #i know that you need high EDC build run or lotta reading to understand so his “lore” so is kinda gatekept-- #but it’s frustrating to see shit takes like this lmaoo #also don’t get me wrong i like judit. she is a tired working woman w/ a pathetic husband + 2x children. she just wanna grab jean & go home. #p.s stella as in stella from ‘‘helluva boss’’. idk didn’t like its S2 i think she coulda been more complex character. #but not everything needs to be deep and meaningful i guess. simple villains are ok. #her anger is justified towards her husband’s infidelity but she’s kind of a dumb royal brat. esp in s2. just calls of his assassination rig #heron vs secretary #angry bird vs angry bird shit fr beuh #disco elysium #jean vicquemare #jean posting #jean heron vicquemare #loyal is the he… #no. am not tagging HB or stella. #kinda long #longish post #cryptid rambles

[plantboiart]

Projection time once again. Kian as a little kid with autism who doesn’t realize people don’t like him. Who gets so excited over everything and shares his interests with everyone and doesn’t get why people always seem to end up finding him annoying. Kian who tries so desperately to make friends but always messes it up somehow. Kian who latches onto every new person he meets because they haven’t gotten the chance to get sick of him yet. Kian who is so desperate for love and attention but never receives it before he moves go Galloway and meets the other guys. Kian who spends ages before finally telling them about his love for music because he doesn’t know how to stop himself from going overboard and he doesn’t want to lose them too. Kian who can never act normal enough to truly feel wanted and loved.

#kian who knows hes annoying but keeps going anyways because he just desperately wishes hell be loved anyways #kian who has rand and rolan tease him about his interests with 0 malice but who still waits for the day they end up getting tired of him #kian who never believes himself to truly be wanted. only tolerated. #kian who plays into the character he’s perceived as because at least that way if hes hated they dont hate who he really is underneath #kian who never says when the teasing hits too close to home because hes terrified of the reaction if he tells them #anyways. uh. pretty sure my irl friends wont read this post but #idk really hope they dont! i am far more comfortable sharing this with strangers on tumblr! #jrwi show #jrwi #just roll with it #jrwi bitb #jrwi blood in the bayou #blood in the bayou #kian stone #jrwi kian #bitb kian #autistic kian stone propaganda once again

[illegiblehandwriting1]

went to the best store on the planet aka barnes & noble yesterday with my heart set on shakespeare and had a crisis over whether i should get Fantasy Space Lesbian Necromancers or Man in Coma Loses Memory and Saves Human Race but with Real Physics (both of which i have yet to read but desperately want to) so of course i walked out with hamlet and the four swords manga *sighs in nerd*

#what makes it better is that i've already read the fs manga #but now i have my own #also YES im gonna annotate hamlet who do you think i am #but yeah i was deliberating between Gideon the Ninth and Project Hail Mary #but my public library has both of them (i think) so i can at least get them #im such a fucking nerd ok it's hilarious #but did you expect anything less i sure hope not #how to tag this hmmmmmmmm #zelda #chicken scratch #four swords #project hail mary #gideon the ninth #and we will leave it at that i think #imma go to bed now #plan is to finish ch17 edits (thx inthi) and summary the rest of the fic tmrw #will it get done? who fucking knows but im tired as all hell

[tastycitrus]

looking for cass fics via cass’s tag on ao3 be like

here's a story about tim where cass is a minor character

here's a story about jason where cass is a minor character

here's a story about dick where cass is a minor character

here's a story about damian where cass is a minor character

here's a story about literally anyone but cass, who is still just a minor character

rinse and repeat ad nauseam in whatever order, that's it that's like 90% of cass's character tag. also she's either barely present in her minor role, written out of character, or both at once

#cassandra cain #i am so tired. i just want to read about my girl. #not the 108th story about tim or jason being the poor little meow meow of the bat-family in which cass is barely a person #honestly this applies to steph and duke and probably anyone who's not batman or the four dudes. we're all suffering here #i think ao3 should implement some sort of major/minor appearance criteria for character tags #because it sure is tilting to look at cass's tag and see the entire first page is about pretty much everyone BUT her #in fact i've literally filtered out both tim and jason while searching cass's character tag #and i STILL got stories with them as the main focus. what the hell is this

[the---hermit]

Old pictures of my messy desk and some tlt book I found in the wild.

15|04|2023

Today was mostly made of me plaguing my dad (again) with my protohistory reviewing. This is the final big one and I am more or less half way into it. Tomorrow I will take the day off to recharge a bit and then I'll finish it between Monday and Tuesday morning. I am so tired I don't even feel nervous about this exam. Most of my to do list for the day was ignored but it's okay because I did my most important task. The good thing about today is that I found some new audiobooks which I'll start very soon.

Productivity:

started a new big out lout review of the protohistory notes I have to study in relation to all the pictures of archaeological finds. I am all done with the Chalcolitic era, and halfway into the Bronze age

Self care:

read first thing in the morning

📖: The Priory Of The Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon

#this post will be most surely edited in a couple of hours to add some stuff like my duolingo practice #but now i am tired and that means a cup of herbal tea and a audiobook #studyblr #studyinspo #uniblr #university #student life #studying #currently studying #currently reading #books #desk #study space #knife gang #journal #journaling #notebook #notes #mine #the---hermit

[lovelyfoolish]

tbh i’m not really a meta person but i’m a bioethicist by training and i thought this could be interesting to discuss 

i think n and m’s routes both have this underlying, unexplored discussion of bodily autonomy (which is what vampirism is all about when you’re a bioethicist. i am not just here for the sexy fangs, i am here for the ethical questions that will give u a headache!) 

and their experiences diverge and parallel and form this complete picture of what it means to be and have a body and it would be really fascinating to see a love triangle route for them because of it

m’s route, with its focus on the conflict between physical and emotional intimacy (putting aside, for a second, the shallowness of the separation between the two, because to be physically intimate with someone takes just as much bravery as sharing your feelings with them, actually), has to place an emphasis on the consent aspect of bodily autonomy, where choices you make about your body require your complete understanding and allowance, free from undue pressure

n’s route has a preoccupation with their vampirism. there’s this psychological concept called moral injury, where you feel like you’ve done something (or acquiesced to something, or allowed something) that is deeply against your morals/values/life, and your moral injury can become a disorder. it’s similar to ptsd (and often walks hand in hand with it), and people who experience moral injury feel intense shame or guilt about it. i think maybe n becoming a vampire caused them some fictional equivalent of a moral injury, especially considering the circumstances in which they were turned 

so n’s route approaches the question of bodily autonomy from the opposite side, when you have no choice but to consent (which is really common with disability, where you have to do things you don’t want to do because you do want to live) because to not consent would be death 

does that make sense? 

it’s like. m’s route is about what you do with a body. n’s route is about what you do to a body

#twc #disclaimer: i have not read book 3 so i don't know if i missed anything i'm just going off memory #if i delete this it's because i decided i was overthinking it #ptsd tw #idk what else to tw about but i am sure there is something so #ask to tw #long post #sorry for the snippy aside about physical intimacy the discourse on emotional vs physical is just. like really tiring lol #they're inseparable one is not superior to the other #anyway just some thoughts i had while i was working on the flutterby fic

[paramountpetrichor]

Sighing wistfully. I think vinsmokecest redeemed Ichiji would still be very distant and very /minimally/ a touch-instagator when it comes to his siblings. Like in my head, yes obviously they're free from germa, live together, and are in a polycule. (Yes Sanji is in it too even though he lives with strawhats. 0124 just “”somehow”” and “”coincidentally”” appear on the same islands that he's on quite often. They ain't subtle. At all.)

But basically what i mean is while his siblings, coughYonjiespeciallycough, often show their love through kissing, hugging, and touching, i am a firm believer that Ichi's a gift giver/acts-of-servicer. This idea first started by me thinking how funny it'd be if any of 0234 said they wanted something super offhandedly (like.. Reiju half-heartedly mumbling about how pretty the earrings of that one noble woman back in that town two islands ago were) and then suddenly it's Ichiji's life mission to go Get That Damn Thing.

Reiju wants that pair of earrings? Ichiji is going back to that island and is killing that woman herself if she won't hand them over. Yonji suddenly really wants a trinket from a store halfway across the Grand Line?? Ichiji left 5 minutes ago to get it. Niji needs new goggles and the business that normally provides him with them comes from the south blue??? Mf Ichi's already scaling the red line. Sanji wants a certain spice that can only be found in the new world???? Ichiji's halfway to laughtale lookin for it.

Idk just. The idea of Ichiji dropping off the face of the earth and then showing up again after 2-5 business days of going awol only to have one of his partners wanted trinkets wrapped up in a cozy little gift is making me crazy. 0234 are concerned every time he's gone for too long (specifically Niji and Yonji, they got that Separation Anxiety) but everytime Ichi comes back with that smug, almost invisible smirk holding an item so small and meaningless to literally everyone but them, their hearts melt and they just /can't/ stop smothering him for the next day or so. And Ichiji just basks in it bc, while he's not one to advance with physical affection, i said nothin about him rejecting it :]

#i prolly have more to say on this topic n my thoughts abt it but. am tired. eepy even #i have two moods when it comes to vscest the most tooth rotting fluff youve ever seen as a way of healing otherwise unhealable wounds.. #..or the most raunchy perverted n embarrassing shit youve ever read and ever WILL read. no in-between #anyways tags #vinsmokecest #sure ill tag the chiji ships in this #ichini #ichiniji #ichisan #ichisanji #ichiyon #ichiyonji #hm. would reiju n ichi be #ichirei #ichireiju #or reiichi #reiichiji #idc either way rlly lmao. anyways hii other 5 vscest shippers do you think im cool 😖😖 #proship please interact

[lottieurl]

i'm well aware there are single parents out there working full time but i think working full time and living alone with my dog is about to put me in a psychward

#why cant i handle what other people seem to handle effortlessly lmao #im so fucking exhausted and burnt-out i need demonic possession to save me or smth #like please @ random demon you will do a better job for sure #idk its like. my dog is now spending so much time alone when im at home that i feel really guilty #if i wanna go out or do anything that doesnt involve her #i have no damn time and energy #i might spend half a free day cleaning but its all a mess anyway #and then i will come back home like today just exhausted after 5 days of work in a row #and i just wanna take her for a walk and get myself smth to eat and chill a little #and i find! is poop all over the damn floor i finally managed to wash like a day ago #and it stinks so fucking bad i nearly throw up cleaning up #and then have a breakdown in the bathroom. as you do. #HOW DO PEOPLE LIVE LIKE THIS I AM SO FUCKING EXHAUSTED #its also not fair to my dog idk this sucks so much #i doubt anyone read all this bht if you did hi and sorry #needed to vent unfortunately #wah im TIRED

[jakeperalta]

I miss when travis kelce was just the guy who presented kelsea ballerini on snl to me. that was the most I ever needed to hear about this guy

#i mean nothing against him i'm sure he's a perfectly nice guy #but i did not sign up to read 800 posts a day about him #i am TIRED i miss when all the swifties thought joe was boring because at least then they shut up about him #talking

[hesgirf]

idk how much canon there actually is on t’hy’la so i may be directly contradicting it here but i really dislike the idea that it’s just Soulmates. that two people can be born to be t’hy’la and that will never change. listen. being born into that relationship takes away from the time and effort spent to create it. kirk and spock were not immediately t’hy’la - they BECAME t’hy’la. i just think it’s worth MORE when it’s made, rather than born. it takes years to make it to that level of relationship. it takes work. it takes love. two people cannot make eye contact and immediately know; there is nothing TO know at that point in their relationship. you are not t’hy’la. you BECOME t’hy’la.

#idk im just spitballing #im sure it’s been said before #i am just tired of the sheer number of fics i’ve read where it’s treated as the classic version of soulmates #that’s not what this is #sure you may be born with the potential to be t’hy’la #but that doesn’t mean that it’s a given #that’s not how relationships work! #girf talks #star trek #spirk

[camellcat]

I wonder if Scott's alpha teeth made him nervous even after he got used to them just Being A Thing Now. If, when he would catch the glint of red eyes staring back at him, he had to still an instinctive flinch and try not to think of all the people who have threatened to or almost ended his life with that same vibrant hue. If the feeling of blood under his claws, on his skin, in his hair and soaked into his clothes ever became normal, if it was ever something truly able to be numbed and ignored. If seeing his shadow with pointed ears and elongated claws and shredded shirts gave him day terrors like the Nogitsune never went away; a paranoia that everyone could see how fucking messed up (how scary) he was. If Scott ever truly moved on from feeling afraid of being a monster, of becoming a Monster. Not all monsters do monstrous things, but all Scott has ever seen is monsters who choose to act like their namesake.

If he continues to be cautious and aware of his teeth, of his eyes, of how blood is overwhelming and what it's like to be afraid --- because if he looses his humanity, his tie to slow healing and faulty lungs and what it feels like to be prey to somebody else, how will he be any different from the monsters that plague him?

Scott is the outlier, and he does not let his monstrous features define how he chooses to behave and who is chooses to be.

#I'm having so many Emotions over Scotty rn #Scott McCall is so Fucking Good #even when he makes mistakes and fucks up and is flailing for someone to help him because his entire world has just been tilted on it's axis #and it's terrifying and shit just Keeps Happening and no one is trust worthy and he has to trust everyone bc he's just trying to Stay Alive #and make sure every single person that he can keeps on breathing even though he really does not have to considering no one else would #he is do his fucking best to Stay Good. #I think many of the villains in the show were just people who forgot what it was like to be people #and maybe some who never were at all #it's late and I am so tired I can barely read what I've said #does this make any sense at all #is this cringe as fuck it might be tell me so I can delete it if yes #fun fact I can write as well as draw #not very good and not very often but sometimes it forces its way out of me to be known and remembered #scott mccall #teen wolf

[quarklynx]

I read 500 pages today. Five hundred.

What is wrong with me, why do I do this. Why can't I just enjoy books at a normal pace?

#lynx thinks #it is nearly 3 am and i am so tired #which is a good thing i guess considering how lwst night went for me #hopefully I'll actually be able to get to sleep and stay asleep #but for real... I've read half the book already and i just got it from the library today #why can't mr sanderson speed up the pace on these things i mean do they really need to be 1000+ pages each? #i would say that i havent done this kind of thing since i was in high school but that would be a lie #when i found SVSSS and MXTX's other works i went just as rabid reading them #I'm pretty sure i read all of TGCF in like a week bc it was in an online format and i had no way to know how much i was fucking reading #that work is multiple times the size of the bible and has very few words in common with it #absolutely unhinged behavior on my part tbh