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snzluv3r · 6 months

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i know there’s a lot of chronically ill/medically complex people on here so i was wondering, have any of you ever struggled with medical burnout (for lack of better words)?

(also gonna rant real quick under here sorry for the negativity)

i’ve been really struggling lately because it feels like half of my time is spent making phone calls and scheduling appointments and going to get tests and scans and spending months of my life just in limbo on waiting lists. i’m so sick of feeling like my health is a job and constantly being at the hospital for appointments like it’s gotten so bad that i can barely bring myself to take my meds anymore. it’s just so exhausting sometimes and i wish there was a way i could take a break from all of this without potentially making my health worse.

even today i woke up really sick and had to miss out on something i was really looking forward to yet i still feel this responsibility to make all of the medical calls i was planning to make anyway because i’ve been putting everything off for so long. it’s not like making those calls is that much work but it gets so frustrating being bounced around or not getting a straight answer because insurance or referrals or whatever other stupid healthcare system process that makes this all so much more complicated.

i also am still on the waiting list for my new PCP and have no idea when i’ll be able to actually meet her, yet my psychiatrist decided (without consulting me or my therapist) that because my meds haven’t changed recently (they absolutely have), i can just get all of my psych meds (including adderall) through my PCP….which i don’t technically have. i’m so frustrated because my nightmares have been so bad for years and they’re only getting worse and every med i’ve tried for PTSD nightmares is either bad for my physical health or doesn’t work at all and that’s really not something that i necessarily trust a pcp with??? it’s just not necessarily in their scope and i’ve had too many prescribers fuck up my brain and body by recklessly putting me on different psych meds without proper knowledge or research.

i’m just so frustrated and i’m so miserable right now i wish i didn’t have to do this for the rest of my life. and the fact that EDS literally just gets worse with age like? i don’t think i CAN do this for the rest of my life it’s just an endless cycle

sorry for complaining and ranting so much nobody is even gonna read this and that’s okay i just needed to get it off my chest

#i’m so so so so so tired #all i wanted to do today was be productive and go to this thing #and i woke up at 6 am sick #got a cute three hours of sleep and am in too much pain to sleep now #and i have to be at the hospital at 7 am tomorrow #not snz #sorry ignore this just rantinf #cw mental health #cw medical stuff #sorry idk how to tag it #i literally showed up to my last appointment with my psychiatrist and he said “’well i’ll probably never see u again bc this is our last se’#SINCE WHEN #like you could’ve fucking told me so i could make other plans #whatever #i shouldn’t be surprised anymore

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winterjays · 1 year

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so I’m gone from tumblr for a week and you’re telling me people collectively make up an entire movie that never existed, complete with casting, plot, motifs, a soundtrack and queer subtext ??

#I shouldn’t be surprised anymore #only on this website

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frnkiebby · 3 months

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fucking pretty~🎃

#like i know i shouldn’t be surprised anymore #but he really is just so so so pretty #and i really just love him so so so much #like #what a fuckin asshole #frnkiebby #frank iero #mcr #frnkiero #mcr5 #frnkie #mcrmy #my chemical romance #my chem #ilhsm

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billdenbrough · 1 year

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i love starmora so much like their gradual shift across gotg vol. 3 absolutely decimated me lol

like. “you know, i’m still not who you want me to be” “oh, i know. but who you are ain’t so bad.” the way she smiles at him??????? followed by (once she’s stepped past him, a moment of hesitation, this inch of themselves they can let be real offerings without having to be completely bare) “i bet we were fun” and his little “like you wouldn’t believe” i am ruined!!!!!!!!

#gotg v3 #gotg3 #gotg vol 3 #gamora #peter quill #starmora #sorry for the endless tags i am just covering my bases so blacklists work #but GOD i am like. destroyed. lmao #genuinely think this is the most fascinating route they could have taken after endgame #instead of trying to return gamora to who she first was #this is a movie about finding yourself and finding your home and like #the thesis about guardians vol 2 was finding your family and finding it in each other #but homes are not families. your home shouldn’t be in someone else #and they’re never going to be the people they once were. quill can’t love himself bc of the way he was in her eyes anymore #now he has to find something else. the way she has. now he has to find HIMSELF #and the legendary star-lord will return. and maybe when he does‚ they’ll still surprise each other in the small soft ways like they did #in this film #every little time they defy each other’s worst or most exasperated expectations in this movie and trade small smiles it made me feral lmao

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captainfern · 2 months

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my darlings what should i focus on writing because honestly i’m in a slump and need some sort of motivation 😭

#obviously most of the options are just smut #i feel like this shouldn’t be a surprise anymore #captainfern

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iwaasfairy · 3 months

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rambly rant in the aftermath of this whole situation. I wasn’t gonna say anything because I didn’t have anything new or smart to say

but now I really wanna implore my followers to think critically in light of tumblr “drama”. because it’s dangerous. inflammatory posts are so easy.

imagine being called some of the worst words for one second, could you as easily defend yourself? even if you knew you had done nothing, how easy does it seem to convince an angry mob that they’ve got it wrong? definitely not as easy as making the fucking post at least.

I don’t want to talk whatever allegations. its not about the post of the week. its about the culture around drama, and free-for-all that surrounds it.

the lack of critical thought and understanding that smart, grown humans are able to give these situations is sad. past blind gut reaction anger and disbelief, do yall do anything with those thoughts afterward? parroting some talking head without thought isn’t insight. the people who make these posts on anon and think that gives them free reign to do the most despicable shit,

if you wish real harm, if you doxx, if you threaten someone’s life or innocent people who aren’t even involved - you’re straight up a bad person. the person you’re calling out may be a bad person too, but there’s no way you’re the “good guy” there.

can you actually think about what you believe in regards to the thing?

some of you seem to think everyone acts in service of you and your beliefs, instead of their own reasons and beliefs.

I know angry people are gonna start shit bc you have the critical reading skills of a goldfish so again, this isn’t a judgement about the situations that have cropped up in dc spheres last few days. I can’t say anything that hasn’t been said before. It’s about how y’all react to it. Drama isn’t an excuse to become a horrible person for a few days. And if you take any chance to publicly act like a shitty person, maybe you just are a shitty person.

It shows that most of you have no fucking clue of what you’re talking about. Publicly airing your problem w someone isn’t public service.

we all understand that a subjective bad interaction isn’t proof. it doesn’t criminalise someone to be shit person to talk to, but that’s 90% of the rbs.

If you have a gripe with someone, you talk about it in private, or to friends, or block them. And if you’re gonna call someone out, make sure you can line up the facts. Not assumptions.

The vagueness is so distasteful. If you don’t have enough fact to label them with that word publicly, maybe mind your business and dislike the person in quiet. no one said you’re not allowed to dislike someone.

have some fucking class. unless you’ve made sure that what you’re saying in the Whole truth, it probably isn’t. it’s your belief, and your belief isn’t any more important or right than anyone else’s. so many of you are seriously, seriously embarrassing. good job doing absolutely nothing for the betterment of anyone.

#‘I understand why dc is used’ but apparently only the dc you personally wanna consume #??#people who’ve followed me probably knew how I felt about this thing already so this shouldn’t be much of a surprise #i literally have my own gripes with a lot of the topic discussed #firsthand as a victim #yet every victim ive talked to seems to agree that even our personal gripes don’t set the rule for what someone can use to cope #if you send anonymous hate I really really genuinely don’t support you as a person #I hope you go away #bc some of the reactions to drama in the last year or so has been #foul #they’re not even cosplaying care anymore it’s just straight up any excuse to act crazy #ring ring #tw.discourse #I guess but not really bc I genuinely have nothing to say about the stupid slew of posts that have been going around

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greenmeanqueen · 1 year

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first off, alicent is not a “pick-me”, so jot that down,

#do i need to write the essay #i shouldn’t even be surprised anymore with The Takes and yet #alicent hightower #pro alicent hightower #alicent hightower defense squad #anti hotd fandom #anti targ stans #a gal thinks

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eggy-tea · 2 years

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Listening to the Queen of Attolia audiobook and got to this line:

It’s more likely than you think.

#but only because sounis is an overconfident buffoon who continually underestimates gen #you really shouldn’t be surprised by that one anymore #also i went to find the quote in the ebook and it turns out that i had 1) already highlighted it and 2) already made that joke #queen’s thief #eugenides

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consultingpiskies · 1 year

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In case anyone was curious about how it’s going in the US Midwest

Just saw a car with a bumper sticker that said “Why do we need Jesus when we have Trump?”

#us politics #this is not hoosier hospitality #trump #cp says things #I know I shouldn’t be surprised anymore #but that is just so blatant #trumpism is a cult

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clunelover · 8 months

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Okay one more tale of Jeremy’s visit to MIL (they’re leaving tomorrow! Home Monday, school Tuesday…eep).

MIL is very anti waste, in that “person who grew up in the depression” way, except obviously she didn’t…idk she’ll try to save absolutely anything, so her kitchen is always full of, say, used paper towels that she rinsed really well and has hung to try to dry and reuse! A noble goal but always executed in a way that looks weird and hoarder-y and like there are random bits of trash all over.

Anyway, she served some cake the other night that Jeremy thought looked good, so he took a big slice, but then it turned out to be gross (and he said she brought it out again the next day and found it was covered in mold, so he suspects it was already off when he initially tried it).

She is an unreasonable person who takes great pride in her cooking and really wants everyone to kiss her ass for it, so he tried to spare her feelings by covertly throwing it away. (I think this is not good - like, shes nuts but let’s all be adults here and just say “sorry didn’t care for it”…but that’s a battle for another time) .

Anyway, the next day she said to Jeremy, “did you not like that cake last night? Cause I found it in the trash.” And then told him that it was still perfectly good, and seeing as this was a low-traffic trash can, she took it out and ate it.

WHO DOES THAT?! I don’t even really mean the eating out of the garbage part, although ew, but more the CONFRONTING SOMEONE on what you found in the garbage part.

#I shouldn’t be surprised anymore I guess #but some of her behavior is so foreign to me #even as someone who also has a personality disordered mother

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yeahperfect · 2 years

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The analists of Viaplay were talking about the qualifying difference between Lando and Daniel. Statistics don’t lie; Lando has been stronger this year so far.

But what came next was shocking to hear and I gasped! So according to an analist of Viaplay, Andreas Seidl has told him in Austria that Mclaren is driving with only one (1) racer. As in: only one (1) racer can generate points for the team.

I mean; can Mclaren be even more disrespectful to Daniel Ricciardo? Honestly...

#can't believe this team #to discredit your driver that way #i shouldn’t even be surprised anymore #don’t get me wrong #lando has been brilliant #and i am so happy for him #but the disrespect from andreas to daniel #daniel ricciardo #lando norris #mclaren #formula 1 #f1

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roseofcards90 · 1 year

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You know hr you could’ve, idk, told me when I was put on the schedule to work again since I have no way of knowing

#bruh I shouldn’t she be surprised from her anymore #my posts

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yourtipsygrandma · 10 months

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So I got injured at work 2 years ago and have some permanent restrictions so couldn’t go back to bartending.

I was unemployed for a while but the workers comp insurance was refusing liability/wouldn’t pay so I had to get a lawyer. It’s been a back and forth battle for a year and a half but they’re not paying me again (in my state they’re required to give me part of the difference in pay if I return to work and make less and I took a massive pay cut) so my lawyer scheduled a meeting with a state appointed workers comp doctor, who basically acts as a neutral party to determine if my injury was from working or not/ if I have ongoing restrictions.

So I go to that meeting this morning, and we’re doing general background questions then he asks:

“So, have you been able to return to work?”

Me: yes

“The same place or industry?”

Me: no

“What’s your job now?”

Me: …….I was recently promoted to paralegal at a personal injury law firm.

The appointment was then delayed for a few minutes because he could not stop laughing at the irony that I, currently in a legal battle over my personal injury lasting over 2 years, returned to work by becoming a legal assistant at a personal injury firm only to be promoted within 6 months to paralegal. He thought it was the funniest shit he ever heard.

#and honestly he’s right it’s fucking hilarious #we were going over the night prior to my injury and he was like #oh so you don’t make 600+ cocktails in a night anymore???#I said no I strictly make stirred martinis #and he started snickering again #I honestly think I made his day lol #the irony #it’s kinda beautiful #also #as paralegal at a personal injury law firm #I regularly have to ask other people to do bits of my job #because the insurance company I’ve been legally battling only has one lawyer #so I really shouldn’t talk to them #I can’t wait until my case is settled and be like #SURPRISE BITCH. WHY ARENT YOU PAYING THESE BILLS FOR MY CLIENT?

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em-allay · 2 years

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I’m at work and therefore can’t watch the episode yet, but, um, what…?