#i say be very afraid

[lhkingkat]

he has no mouth yet he bites (he is violent)

unfinished alternate colors!! i liked it but the tawny owl colors hit harder

#art #kitty kat art #digital art #hermitblr #hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #grian #grian fanart #people say be not afraid #i say be very afraid #bcuz he'll tear ur fucking eyes out

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[uncanny-tranny]

The interesting thing about medically transitioning is how you might just be treated with the wrong framework.

When I get my hormone levels checked, for instance, they check it against the wrong type of person, so everything is flagged. Did you know that testosterone encourages hemoglobin production? Well, my hemoglobin is perfectly in line with male levels, but my levels are checked for the wrong endocrine system. Before I realized this, I was really confused as to why my hemoglobin was two grams over the range given, and was confused as to why that happened, and worried about if I should be worried about that. But it was a normal consequence of my testosterone levels, which are also flagged though they are well-within the range that is typical for my age and health categories.

The way we treat and measure for trans people and trans patients will affect the treatment and education they receive. There are ways in which hormones especially can influence how one's body operates, and with that in mind, you also have to change the way you interact with a trans person. With my testosterone levels, if you were to measure them against the incorrect endocrine system, you would fail to treat me in reality - that being the way my body has changed and maintained homeostasis since being on T.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #trans medicine #i still need to get my levels checked but i've been busy #but since going on T they have been very satisfactory #like even going 'they should go on assigned sex' wouldn't work for somebody like me. #like. i am still on testosterone. and it's changed me and my body. therefore the way i am treated and measured ought to reflect that #hemoglobin is a fun word to say though. try it. say it. out loud. say it (are you afraid.) #i use myself again as an example because i think that experience perfectly encapsulates my frustrations

[terristre]

I know request says closed but I just wanted to tell you that we’ll finally be getting the Glorious Masquerade event this month. Any thought pookie? You excited?

I AM COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS til i can bully this man 💥🥊

#‼️‼️‼️‼️NEVER BE AFRAID TO COME INTO MY ASKBOX TO TALK ABOUT RANDOM BULLSHIT!!!!! IM LOVE YOU FOREVER 🥺 #this doesnt count as a request bc no one would ask for nightmare sexy pinup malleus #anyhow. idk if youve noticed but i go pretty hard with religious themes with some of my ocs (hi covered mirrors in october day 1 👋) #& a good amount of my art outside The Sillies is crazy illustration stuff that goes HARD on symbolism & themes #so like. needless to say im VERY excited to finally get my hands on this asshole LOL #actually my original direction for this was going to be a rollo & idia thing exploring the false equivalence of hades & the christian devil #(that also ended in a homophobe rollo punchline 👍) #ask tag #twst #yayayayy thank u for asking it always makes me so happy ^^ <3

[mavilez]

wolfsong fan cover 🐾

this was a project i worked on for an art mentorship program i was a part of last year, in which i got to work with an art director to illustrate a cover for any book of my choice. i picked wolfsong cause it's one of my most beloved books, and i had wanted to create a cover for it as a personal project for a long time 🧡

#theres honestly so much i could say about this piece #just know that i was very very scared to post this which is why i waited almost a whole year to do it #i pushed myself really hard with this one and i was extremely critical of it #basically i was afraid it wasnt good enough #but since i worked hard on it i wanted to share it #so here it is #green creek series #wolfsong #my art

[ameamedraws]

#yugioh #prideshipping #atem #seto kaiba #ame draws #just the idea of seto leaning into atem’s touch once he’s comfortable is so dear to me #just like #you know #this man is so touch starved I’m afraid #also atem is definitely the guy that just starts saying these things unbothered #also sorry for no art in a while I have been struggling a bit #still very much into them

[babydarkstar]

so many griddlehark doomers on this website. smh my head…….theyre doomed by fate AND the narrative to be intrinsically intertwined no matter what. i cannot conceive of a finished locked tomb series where theyre not lying dead in each other’s arms or existing together in some fugue state of unbeing. not even death can separate the lesbians that scratch each other bloody and then cry in each other’s arms. they have been fated to orbit one another literally since their conception. one flesh one end, bitch.

#also harrow literally lobotomized to forget gideon and she still couldnt in the end #anyways i often think abt the whole #‘i gave you my whole life and you didnt even want it’ #and the thing is like. yeah gideon. she didnt want it because she never wanted to lose YOU who was attached to it #you who she just bonded with. has had a very tumultuous girlbestfriend situationship with #when i think abt how young they are i fucking scream #this is why i hate john gaius. insane man. kill him to death alecto #tlt #griddlehark #tlt spoilers #anyways. thinking about the saddest girl in the whole world tonight :( #this is a john gaius HATE account all my homies HATE john gaius #anyways. why is everybody so so scared that theyre going to have a terrible endgame #baby theyve already been falling through a terrible endgame thru the duration of their entire existence #i will say. if harrowhark ends up with anybody else i’ll have to off myself #i support womens wrongs but ianthe can go be wrong somewhere far away from harrow #im about to go through the entire series again so i can screenshot and prove why im right about this #theres a narrative thread to follow #and never once have i been afraid of them not finding their way back to each other #the thing is like. above everything. these girls exist to orbit each other #gideon thinking harrow is her past when harrow has always been her present and her future #harrow thinking gideon’s death will be her undoing #because to harrow. gideon is unable to die. she WOULDNT die for so long #and when she found something to die for. she went to it with her whole being #but heres the thing. one flesh one end is more than just becoming one body and dying one death #idk im incoherent i need to talk abt this in a post instead of tags #i will. soon

[royalarchivist]

Quackity: Oh, it's gonna be so cool to see how this develops. I'm excited, I'm gonna try my best. I'm not the greatest at Minecraft whatsoever, I did nerf Green Team a little bit by accident on the second day. My bad! But, you know, I'm so ready to just grind out and see what we can do, and I just–

I wish everyone saw it with the same amount of, like, kind of enthusiasm. I think all of this and all the development and all the potential arcs, that's going to fcking allow for something absolutely incredible.

And if anyone ends up clipping any of this, something I do want to say is I implore people to view everything with a lot of enthusiasm. No stress, no anxiety, just a lot of enthusiasm. Because, again, this is going to allow for a lot of cool things in the server. Not just now, but in the future, too.

#Quackity #OiBagi #QSMP #QSMP Purgatory #Purgatory #Green Team #Bagi #Alright last one for tonight I got things to do #But Quackity did say ''if anyone clips any of this'' so I wanted to make sure I shared that final message he gave everyone #Because I agree! #I know fandoms can be toxic and people can have POV brainrot #But I hope everyone is still able to remember the reasons why they love QSMP so much #and I hope they're still able to find enjoyment -- if not with the event itself then with your streamers #I personally wasn't a fan of the Debate part of the Election Arc #But I still enjoyed myself because the people I watched made it funny or they poked fun at it or they avoided it completely #Don't be afraid to block people or mute / block tags or anything #And for the love of god stop using Twitter if you can #I've significantly reduced my usage (even though I love seeing fanart -- though many fanartists are moving to Tumblr; which is nice) #I primarily use it to keep up with the update accounts and see what the CCs are up to #But anyways. Take care of yourselves guys. The toxic people can be loud but they are just a very vocal (very annoying) minority #Love and enthusiasm is always the majority. After all; that's why we're here in the first place!

[witchspeka]

I love my girl Miwa but as soon as I read that this image immediately popped up in my head:

#HAVE SOME STANDARDS GIRL DAMN #i want this relationship to work out too but this aint it #how do we relationship #cine te a intrebat #uhmmm theres SPOILERS past this tag in case u care to read this yourself just a quick warning #i kid i joke but this scene fucks me up i like how this manga handles queerness. it shows how messy and painful it can be #like we already got a bit of that with sae and her relationship with sex but this mmmmmm this one i didnt see coming #imagine u work up the courage to confess to ur high school crush and she says she cant date you #not cause she doesnt like you. quite literally /because/ she likes you and wants to take ur relationship seriously and respect you #but she cant do that. because shes afraid of people finding out. of having to hide all the time. of being ostracised. she's tired. #she cant find the strength to do that. #the frustration of being loved but society denying you the possibility of being together... ill clown on Miwa (its very easy) but i feel bad #for her #gaud i need to sleep hai pa

[eight-pointed-star]

#fëanor #maedhros #my art #silmarillion #the brainrot continues i'm afraid. yes i'm aware of how much feanor&maedhros stuff i've drawn and written here in the past couple of weeks #i too am horrified. not surprised though #fëanor & maedhros #why so many floral ornaments on their clothes? they're noldor! you might ask. and you would be completely right #i have no idea what i'm doing #i have a very limited fantasy i just copy the ornaments from whatever clothed i find on pinterest and like #i DON'T enjoy thinking ohhh what kind of clothes and ornaments would these characters wear if we take into account their culture and the we #ther (which we know nothing about) their individual personalities their character arcs and symbolism the parallels between them and the oth #r characters. i DON'T care!!!!! and i can't just leave their clothes unadorned. so here we are #i say if the clothes match the characters vibe — great amazing good lovely. if they don't — fantastic splendid beautiful wonderful

[icaruspendragon]

i love finding out what people were afraid of the most as little kids because little kids have such big brains. like some kids are afraid of quicksand or the monster that lives in the car wash or spiders or being sucked into the tv. my brother was afraid of water while i was afraid of being possessed by a demon. but ultimately, we were both afraid of the same thing, weren’t we?

#do you know what i mean #i was also very afraid of the devil #so maybe i do have religious trauma #but whos to say

[front-facing-pokemon]

#blipbug #yeah i have no idea what's going on with this thing #tall little thing. elongated little head with its big ol' eyes #tempted to say “not really very interesting evolutionary line” but i'm afraid some orbeetle fans will obliterate me in the comments #so i won't. because. it kinda is a cool evolutionary line #just one that i personally had forgotten about

[butchmartyr]

give proof of bechdel defending michfest after the publication of the script she made criticizing it

on the DTWOF blog she openly praises michfest with a friend for its anti “male socialization” policy, and this is in 2017. she’s a cis white lesbian with the set of unprincipled gender politics and anxieties over trans women that you’d expect from a michfest centrist. you could’ve just googled this, so I want you to sit for a second with the defensiveness you’re feeling and why you’re so eager to silence talk of transmisogyny

#you could scroll down a post but it’s fine. xd #like. mo is a self insert very clearly. she says this. mo is also afraid of using the bathroom with a trans woman #until the manic pixie dream tranny teaches her a lesson #asks #I don’t even hate dtwof necessarily it has some funny bits I just think it sucks nobody will ever acknowledge the transmisogyny

[trashfactorysstuff]

Rozin art post. I’m just saying that if they where together, none of the avatar lore would have existed but Nickelodeon had to have the dads divorced.

#OUGH #them #they live in my head rent free like wtf #i really think that Sozin was gonna be a gay character but they where afraid how it was gonna affect the show by that time so they didn’t #cause I have long ass list to say why I think Sozin is such a gay coded character #but also I like to see Rozin very angst where Roku dosen’t have feelings for him tho #so expect a lot of angst later on when I draw them #anyways #a lot of art during my time in the fandom without showing for the 17383 time #Roku #Sozin #rozin

[dawaytoamarillo]

Unpopular opinion mayhaps, but I always thought that the actual reason Tank crashed Johnny's birthday party wasn't just so he could antagonize him, but that it had more to do with Ripp than with Johnny.

Because Ripp has friends and Tank doesn't, because Ripp can sneak out, and hang out with these friends and go to parties and Tank can't. Because in his mind he has a strict code of what he's allowed to do and what he's not allowed, and shouldn't absolutely do, as it is implied in the gba game

This is a direct result of Buzz's militaristic education, of course, which consequently prompted Tank's desire to please his father and his fear to disappoint him.

However, even though he wants to please his father, I believe that he actually doesn't enjoy nor does he look forward to all the training that Buzz's makes him go through. No, I rather think he secretly hates it (though he will never admit it out loud, at least a young Tank, that's it) and that he's already aware of the fact that that he didn't had a normal childhood and isn't having a normal adolescence either.

So he resents Ripp and he's jealous of him because he's able to break the rules, not only that; he's determined to break them. And Tank isn't; he probably feels like he's in too deep already.

So yeah, my headcanon is that he crashed the party to fetch Ripp and take him home with him. Because if he doesn't get to have fun his brother shouldn't either. He also wants to fight Johnny, of course, but like I said I don't think fighting him was his main motivation here

#ramblings #it is so very sad and tragic #bc if these two worked together I'm sure they would be a lot less miserable than they're at the start of the game #Buzz has ruined these boys completely I'm afraid #the fact that in the psp game Ripp ended up giving up completely his dreams and resigning himself to work in the army too #and Tank is confirmed to have developed anger issues in the psp game too #I think that that says it all #Worse of all is that Buzz most likely doesn't care #ts2 #tank grunt #Ripp grunt #johnny smith #Buzz grunt #Grunt family #the sims 2

[luposlipaphobya]

"I could live as Augusto for a while. Have you ever met him? Everybody loves him! You'll love him too." "I'd rather have Melisande." "Well, let's enjoy Melisande while he's still around."

Melisande (@the-nothing-maker's character) and Lazuli (my npc) finally had the guts to flirt a little during our dnd game.

#dnd #queer romance #my art #val cardinal #meluli #there was some cheek touching and even an invitation to diner! #we're playing for 2 years now and I need them to kiss so bad ahhhhh #right now my players are in a very dangerous position so there's a chance that Mel has to disappear or take another identity for a while #we're afraid they'll have to say goodbye soon... #kiss your fellow business partner