#i refuse to be that sort of person

[greensaplinggrace]

I think one of the biggest differences between bangel and spuffy is that angel isn’t a partner to buffy. he’s not even someone she knows that well. he’s not someone she’s ever familiar with, and he’s not someone she can ever fully rely on.

yeah their romance was big and grand and all the things a tragic fairytale romance is. but at the end of the day their relationship is so incredibly surface level. all there is is the idea of love, and not even the real thing.

#btvs #spike btvs #spuffy #buffy summers #anti angel #anti bangel #just in case #tbh I’m usually a multishipper when it comes to this sort of thing but… #b*ngel comes across as so surface level to me #there’s no real force or depth to it #even disregarding the weird vibes angel gives off about buffy’s age and his condescension and when he first fell in love with her #and all the ways he keeps her hooked by refusing to leave her alone after breaking up with her #a choice that he makes ‘for her own good’ - which he seems to do a lot #it’s that he has no real impact on her as an actual person/slayer with interests and complexity and depth #while he hurt her and affected her #sometimes it feels like he barely made a scratch at all to what actually represents her personhood #anyways I don’t hate him or the ship really and I get why people like him #it’s just to me it’s kind of ridículous that people #say he was it for buffy #when he was barely even a partner #that’s high school romance not real bone deep love #myramblings

[goldensunset]

here’s my final philosophical take for the day. i hate advertisements for food and drink that get even remotely close to asmr or anything fancy like that it is my biggest squick ever i don’t want that thang anywhere in my ears. don’t whisper or otherwise speak to me in a low tone do not crinkle or chew or slurp etc etc that is downright foul-mannered i will start attacking something like a feral dog

#let’s put it this way if it would be considered rude to speak like that in conversation #or weird #or if it would be considered rude to make those sorts of noises while eating publicly with someone #then what makes you think it’s gonna fly with the audience of an ad. the person you’re trying to sell something to #you walk in and violate all social etiquette. and you expect this to endear me to you #no brother. i am going to be disgusted #peach rambles #tragic! a food i actually really enjoy i refuse to buy anymore bc of an ad that was annoying enough

[bonefall]

mistystar n who

I think fratboy Podlight who sends his powerful grandmother stupid texts is a VERY funny concept.

"My dad didn't love me because he could never move on from the lover he had in his 20s. My sister is up to no good. I party hard at Aftergatherings about it, are you rockin' with me?"

He is 38 cat-years-old.

#BB!Podlight #Aftergatherings #Better bones au #Fennelposting #There's a secret AU of the AU where everything is exactly the same but the cats have the ability to text tbh #I do occasionally just for fun imagine what their phones would be like for no particular reason #Misty is the sort of old person you think you'll have to teach how to use an app #But the moment never comes and you find out she actually has a whole ass burner phone and even refuses to upgrade to-- #--a more modern model because she doesn't trust a device she can't take the battery out of #And your blood goes cold for a moment because like... Gamgam?? Silly funny gamgam with the long speeches at gatherings??? #When pressed she's just like ''once you give a secret to the world you can never take it back. Knowledge is power and power is a weapon.'' #It's fun. I wish I had a way to translate half of these fun phone thought experiments into canon compliance lmao #Btw just as an aside. If this ever DID become an original project it would probably take some inspiration from like... #I really love the new Zelda games' magitech take on an apocalypse. VERY cool idea. #Months ago I had a passing thought of Fallen causing such an apocalypse and entertained it for fun for a while. #Put it down ofc because I like the project in its current form #But it was a fun thought.

[abimee]

i have to make it a point to draw both versions of him as well because he is cutesy both ways. if you ever see me favoring his human design you gotta chase me with a hot iron pan

#when ppl would get ornery about like certain artists favoring drawing their gijinka of a character over the canon design #i just sort of ignored that because i personally didnt care every artist after all is one isolated event simply seen in a large group #however i refuse to become someone who favors human emils design. i love his skeleton form a lot and the arc of his #about coming to accept the way he looks makes me wanna go out of my way to draw that form #hes not scary or weird looking to me hes emil... my little baby.... my potato chip #the floating book game #fanart

[gifti3]

Asmo seems like the kind of person who acts normal (as normal as an asmo can be) about mc having a breakout but dreads the idea of them seeing even a single blemish on his skin

This can be interrupted as haha goofy ahhh or i can turn this into a serious thing where asmo cant let ppl know hes less than perfect or he'll disintegrate

#Throw in some misunderstandings and mc takes it as: #asmo is “above acne” but they apparently arent and it makes them feel some sort of way #Like they arent equal #And yea ig thats true from a physical standpoint cause “demon and human” #But im talking more about their relationship #Like u want to feel equal with ur partner right? #and if hes refusing to be vulnerable about these things while letting mc be vulnerable #its like wow this guy is untouchable #i dont feel worthy enough to date him or something like that #or u feel like ur not even dating a real person #Asmo: MC I dont get acne im built DIFFERENT! 🥺 #do demons even get acne.... #who knows #i dont even know if they have to go number 2 #solmare release the biology sheets NOW #obey me asmodeus #obey me #obey me nb #obey me nightbringer #asmodeus x reader #do u think mc feels like asmo treats them like a fan at times and not his partner #id die honestly #like NO BITCH WE ARE MARRIED STOP THAT

[utilitycaster]

Having Orym be the point person for the discussion with the temple is also really fun because on the one hand I do think he's got the viewpoint most favorable to deities among the party, but on the other he was also raised in a druidic nature-based society. I think the fact that he's got doubts about the situation given his background is pretty telling.

This also tangentially reminds me that on NADDPod's Short Rest which I listened to yesterday, the players all covered how they learned in the last session that one of the enemies of their current arc is a druid, and how all their knee-jerk reactions, as people whose first campaign had a beloved druid character from a beloved druid society, was not "oh shit the bad guy's a druid," but "oh he's secretly a GOOD GUY." They got past it because of his actions, but it was a very real bias!

#critical role spoilers #critical role #i have a weird draft post that doesn't quite fit anywhere but like. the ashari's hierarchy gets an eternal pass from the fandom #despite it sort of playing both ways re: the gods AND the inherent power gaps/privilege/inaccessible leadership position #and i think it does come down to the fact that much of the fandom flat-out refuses to treat Keyleth as a person w/all that entails #hilariously candela obscura (the org) does ashari like 10x better than ashari #wow you protect the world from threats after your city was destroyed in a cataclysm? like it's hard? #anyway point being orym is in a weird place w/in the ashari and I trust his druid judgment more than the fandom's

[gynecologistmsfrizzle]

Hmm I believe I remember learning a few years ago that when one is asked to acknowledge that they’re impacted subconsciously by systemic racism/sexism/homophobia etc, or is told that they’re behaving in a way that’s bigoted/harmful, “no I’m not” is the wrong answer. So I think some of you should get less excited about saying that when Jewish people tell you you’re being antisemitic.

#guess what. Your views on Israel and Palestine ARE in fact going to be influenced by the fact that one of those nations is Jewish. #Just as it’ll be influenced by the fact that one of those nations is majority Muslim. #Just as your feelings about police shootings will be influenced by the majority of victims being Black or Indigenous. #Just as your feelings about EVERYTHING will be impacted by the social forces that have shaped you and colour your perception. #Antisemitism actually DOES colour the words of people insisting that targeting Israeli civilians was a legitimate act of resistance. #Just as racism and Islamophobia colour the words of Israeli politicians and soldiers who insist that wiping out Gaza is a fair price to pay #for wiping out Hamas. #it has been absolutely staggering to see person after person on this site #casually assert that rules of war do not apply when the civilians they protect are Israeli #and refuse to consider even the SLIGHTEST possibility that the ease with which that assertion came to them #might have SOMETHING to do with an internalized belief that — say — #there is no such thing as a Jewish civilian? that all Jews are inherently loyal to other Jews above any loyalty to justice? #that all Jewish people wield a sort of inherent power that makes them less vulnerable and therefore acceptable targets? #Of course you’re antisemitic. Yes. You. I am too. We all are. We live in an antisemitic society. #And if you‘ll acknowledge that societal racism and sexism and homophobia inform your subconscious beliefs #and you’ll critically reflect on THOSE #but you won’t afford antisemitism the same dignity #I think that probably says something about something. #Just to be clear this actually isn’t a post that says anything about my stance on Israel and Palestine #because my stance on that is actually extremely simple— FTR it’s ’apartheid and war crimes and forced displacement are bad things’ #but this is about the internet’s RESPONSE #and the downright celebratory glee that I saw people have on oct 7th #and the fucking twisted excitement they’ve shown treating further Israeli war crimes like ammunition to justify it #and the simple truth that — while I’ll believe you MIGHT still have condoned it — #I do not believe any of you would have CELEBRATED the massacre of thousands of civilians in a period of minutes #if. those. civilians. had. not. been. Jews. #Rhi talks #palestine #antisemitism #Yeah and I’ll post this one too. Anon is still on. String me up.

[bright-and-burning]

what’s your favourite thing about your favourite driver?

i have been Thinking on how to phrase this… probably that lando is very very relatable to me 😭 lots of the things people hate about him are things i see in myself unfortunately LOL

his food icks… so real. coming across as perhaps brash or rude on accident… real. the swings from self deprecation to extreme confidence? real as hell. the random touchy moods? he’s so me. i can���t remember other things but i KNOW i have drafts that are like. “unfortunately i am a lando bc i too would do the goofiest shit to get my friends to pay attention to me” or whatever

#i’ve fully embraced being loud and annoying which has made me a far more confident and happier person LOL #i very rarely am like ‘am i annoying 🥺’ in my feels anymore bc it’s like. #yes bitch u are!!! and guess what that’s how you’ve made all sorts of friends!!! #i do worry sometimes that some day my personality will become an unsustainable performance #as i have kind of turned up the dial on some bits and turned down the dial on others #but idk . it’s working so far. i’m good at making friends bc i refuse to be afraid lmfao #and is it really a performance to fully accept who u are and be yourself dialed up to 100… idk. #ask

[hotmess-exe]

it's not my story to tell, so i won't be writing it, but i sincerely hope to see an interactive fiction someday where the protagonist is a felon. specifically, i'd like the protag to be someone who has served their full sentence and just gotten out.

there is so little respect and empathy for that perspective, so i just would love a well-written IF about it

#maybe there is one and i'm unaware? #if #just thoughts #writing #was just thinking about the stigma that ppl who kill during psychotic episodes face once they are approved for release #and ofc the skepticism and wariness of the general public makes sense esp of whichever community was actually affected by the crime #but like #what do we believe y'all #wtf do we believe #is psychotherapy real or should ppl be locked up forever for doing something while literally out of their sane mind #do we believe in reform or do we keep everyone locked up bc it's more comfortable to treat people like refuse #do we believe in live and let live or do we want ppl to never live on if we personally deem them undeserving of peace or life #is psychosis a real thing or are we all pretending to understand and empathize with mental illness #fr fr #i just really hate how ppl are so comfy reacting in certain ways to that specific sort of perpetrator idk lol #gut reactions are one thing and using our brains and what we objectively know about psychology in combo with that is another #and when it comes to criminals ppl are very happy to abandon the latter and fully embrace the former #but claim to still be good decent people like............... #do you truly believe crimes committed during a psychotic break should be weighed the same as ones not? #cause if you do like... fuck you??? #and if you think they shouldn't.... then we *must* apply that logic to how we treat and perceive ppl cleared as not a danger #there's no perfect system anywhere but i hate how individuals are so quick and willing to disappear people we view as problems #the constant war on the unhoused is a good example too #mh #at capacity #the great sham #abolish prison anyway yknow

[minimoniii]

and they’re boyfriends

#oppenheimer #lawrenheimer #i just made that name up 💅 let’s get this ship sailing #IDK how to explain it but the CHEMISTRY they had #it was unbearable i felt like i was choking on air when they were close to each other #so good. literal art #wait sit down let me convince you to ship them!! #personally i shipped them from the first moment but the scene that is really precious for me is that one #when Izzy and Oppenheimer are sitting in the hallway and you see Lawrence walk in and then immediately leave when he sees them #cause like. you KNOW he came there to give a NEGATIVE ass review but then he saw Oppenheimer sitting there looking all defeated #and he just couldn’t do it #and i especially think of that scene in contrast to the discussion on Kitty’s testimony #since both of these scenes occur in the hallway some fake-deep analysis is necessary #it’s like 🤌🤌 Lawrence protected Oppenheimer with his silence the way Kitty protected him with her testimony #sort of a way to hold onto his morals while letting Oppenheimer go just out of sentimentalism #(my bad theory is that Lawrence was HURT by the knowledge of the affair w Ruth because it meant he wasn’t the only one 🤫) #(GOD i can just picture their relationship it would be so MESSY) #(Lawrence hopelessly in love. Oppenheimer being well aware and just using him for his body. Lawrence who can never refuse him anything.) #(wait did this turn into a foil for the relationship with Jean???? but with the roles reversed??????) #also?? irl Lawrence DID testify against Oppenheimer and ripped him to shreds (😭) so like. we know what movie!Lawrence protected him from #ohh and what i also find really interesting is the parallels with Kitty since off the top of my head there’s 2 more #the fact that Oppenheimer takes Lawrence to New Mexico as he did with Kitty later #and the fact that Lawrence encourages Oppenheimer to be ambitious and take the opportunity w the project #(and iirc it’s his words that finally convince Oppenheimer?) #anyway that was my dissertation on why you should ship them; if you aren’t convinced then i hope i’ve at least made you mad 😴

[vestboyfriends]

nancy starts reconnecting with parts of her childhood after all that shit went down for comfort. this prompts her to start a collection of stuffed animals, get into d&d again, pick her old lotr books up from the dusty shelves, experiment with make-up like she did as a preteen...

she even starts making friendship bracelets again but only gives them to very specific people; dustin has a green and yellow one he matches with steve, robin has a red, orange and yellow one she refuses to take off even when she showers, and jonathan has a purple one he turned into a keychain because bracelets kinda make his skin itch and he can't keep them on for longer than half an hour (of course, nancy helps him with redesigning it).

eddie has one, too. it's blue with a single pink bead in it. nobody really questions it, and if they do, eddie just shrugs and tells them that nancy ran out of blue beads and had to improvise. little do they know, nancy has a pink bracelet with one blue bead in it, matching eddie's.

it's not like nancy thinks eddie is more special than the others, or anything like that. it's just that eddie has been there, encouraging her on her journey to rediscover that part of her life she had forgotten.

when eddie caught nancy reading lotr behind school during lunch, he plopped down right beside her and talked about it with her for the remaining of their break (they now have weekly meet-ups where they discuss about the plot points nancy reached during the week). when nancy wanted to rekindle her relationship with d&d, eddie did not waste a second to organize a campaign just for her. when the two of them found themselves at the byers-hopper family's new home for movie night, nancy revealed to wanting to try out the lead actress' make-up on herself, and eddie told her he would have helped. (nancy thought he was joking; he wasn't.)

and when nancy ended up crying in eddie's arms after everything had felt like too much, when they both trusted each other enough to tell the other tiny little secrets about themselves and who they truly were, when eddie showed up at her house with cheap liquor and a box full of beads he had found at the flea market after a rough day... it was then that nancy knew she had found herself something precious.

so yes, nancy wheeler has a best friend. that's another thing she needed back from her childhood.

#this is just pure word vomit but i needed to get it out of my brain #i love platonic nancy/eddie so much they are consuming me i could talk about them for hours on end #nancy wheeler #eddie munson #what could be a good duo name for them. umhhhhh #THEY DONT EVEN HAVE A SHIP NAME #i refuse to call them nanced even though i admit it sounds pretty funny #freakpriss ??? #does it sound weird. #it does doesn't it #god do i really have to call them nanced #wheelson ??? #its even weirder #ALL OF THIS FOR A PLATONIC SHIP NAME ONLY I AND MAYBE 2 OTHER PPL CARE ABOUT😭😭😭 #sorry for being mentally ill #ves goes bla bla bla #headcanon #sort of #SHOUTOUT TO THE PERSON THAT THEIR SHIP NAME IS EDANCY !!! UR A REAL ONE #edancy #ok i may prefer nanced though #im speedrunning an enemies to lovers trope with the ship name nanced

[menlove]

not to be like. Annoying about it. but what really gets me abt beatles fans of like. really Any demographic who complain that it's disrespectful to assume john & paul were anything but straight boy besties bc "men can show affection for their friends" or whatever is just like.... once again it always comes back to: if this were a man and a woman, would anyone be out here crying about their friendship or would it just be an uncontested fact about rock history? like. when you look at everything they've ever said about each other, what their friends and partners have said, the songs they've written about each other, etc it's like. pretty blatant. the only reason it's Not a "fact" is because it's two men. like whether you want to think they had a physical relationship or not (which is smth we can never know bc that's no one's business) it's just so weird to insist it's disrespectful to point this stuff out. like. again. do you guys say any of this stuff when people talk about straight relationships in history? or is this hesitance and distaste Solely reserved for gay people?

(none of this means anything to my followers who don't care abt the beatles scroll on ur fine I'm talking abt ppl deep into this but w a side of homophobia they can't shake)

#and I mean I guess this goes for really any time the topic of queer people who weren't out comes up #like obviously I'm not talking about in history fields saying woah hold on we can't call this person trans/a lesbian/whatever bc #those identities didn't exist yet and we don't know and it's just historically irresponsible etc #but when people just flat out Refuse to even entertain major historical figures as any sort of queer #as if it's any more disrespectful or weird than the other million assumptions historians make every day #which AS a historian I just find the whole thing frustrating on every end! #but this isn't about that it's about beatles rpf w a side tangent lmaooo

[writeouswriter]

In honour of the Barbie movie, digging out this massive stack of trading? collector? cards that I found at a yard sale maybe 19 years ago and thought was like the coolest thing as a kid:

(Just pulling out some random examples cuz the deck looks like this):

#barbie #not writing #saw that caption at the very back of the pile and thought tumblr would appreciate it: ride ‘em Ken #I used to sort them by ones I liked or by ones that had just one person vs multiple or etc #world of fun sorting these things #undescribed #might try to describe later when I’m on my laptop #for now there’s very basic alt text saying what they are but not full detail. my power is out. #never saw anyone else with these cards ever #honestly no memory of where exactly I got them but I refused to ever give them up #tell me one of you had these?

[asbestos-11]

huhu the struggle of finding blade fics that are about him and his struggle with immortality and whatnot. huhu pleaseeee there's too little gen fics about him.

#fei's talking corner #i filter the living shit out of ao3 but by god i cant find anything #i refuse to read any renheng fic (i am a fixed dynamic person) and thats probably where one could find interesting stuff #but i find that romance annoys me more than not in these sorts of character exploration fics #its also a struggle for other characters too. like on god dr ratio is worse in this department. like hello i love all the aventurine angst #but can i pls get crumbs of ratio character study too? #surprisingly neuvillette and furina have a couple of genuinely good gen angst fics #tho most have either wriollette as a ship (and i cant find myself to like the ship or wrio as a character) or theyre nvfr #or its a cursed combination of character angst + ship angst + good lord this is beyond awful characterization #and i think the cherry on top is trying to find alhaitham character studies that dont involve kavetham or romance #like so far there's only been 1 fic thats been a character study i enjoyed and resonated with me but it still featured kavetham in the end #sighhhhhh why am i doomed to like characters who are so interesting and yet people only care about ships with them?

[sneakyboymerlin]

Why do so many people in this fandom obsessively treat Morgana like she’s nothing but some passive helpless eye candy who can’t make decisions for her own adult self and is just pushed and pulled and shaped by the men in her life… I’m serious, you all need to manage your misogyny.

#those fans have a tendency to ship her in the worst possible pairings too. won’t say what cause i don’t feel like trigger tagging for it rn. #and then they act like merlin was some sort of monster to her because they. like. refuse to rewatch the series or something idk. or at least #watch it through a normal non-radfem non-classist lens where you like. actually care about the oppression and not just morgana alone. #merlin was able to help her without revealing his own identity so that’s what he did… what’s not clicking #and you still ship them even though you apparently hate it so much ??? you make merlin’s view of morgana into one of objectification #and then ship it ???? just to woobify her as this innocent helpless white woman damsel in distress caricature #how does it not make you feel sick to turn her into an object like that #okay i admit this is vagueing @tio/dolma and their merry band of arm•r + m•rdana shippers #actually sickening #will definitely no longer be interacting with that person now 💀💀💀 #fandom critical #tw incest mention #tw csa mention #ish #because… m•rdana is weird okay they met when she was in her 20s and he was like 10 maybe. get out with that shit. same for merdr-d. bad. #tw misogyny

[dirt-str1der]

Love characterising nishikiyama as a booze hound drug hound meth addict high every day body mass 75% alcohol hands constantly shaking literally spacing out while driving fifty over the speed limit using elderly folk as speedbumps one hand on the wheel and one hand free to do more drugs and coming into work while functionally deaf and blind and he is still leagues more competent at his job than kiryu

#Yakuza loveblog #i dont talk about nishikiyama enough because im kazamapilled and hate him a little bit but im also kiryupilled and love him so much so you #see my problem? like i adore when nishiki is just. better in every way than kiryu and nobody ever sees that because theyre all too busy #sucking kiryus cock like okay nishiki had the rest of his life planned out when he was twenty and he was an extremely successful criminal #and getting himself noticed in many many circles then kiryu steps outside and gets into a street fight immediately and the entire tojo clan #surrounds him to throw cash at him like nishiki was actually doing so well for himself before his life was ruined. nothing is his fault #like i love just accepting that nishiki has one hell of a substance abuse problem and nobody cares enough about him to talk to him about it #and kiryu thinks its normal because hes the only one who can see that nishikis doing some great work out there so he must be doing #everything right. inconceivable that nishiki has any sort of ‘problem’ hes the real screwup and kiryu knows he makes life harder for himself #but he refuses to change because hes convinced that thats the only thing hes good at. like i believe that nishiki has a coke snorting #mechanic in game like harry db and without his coke buff he cant do as much damage like with it his output is on par with kiryus whos just #been blessed since birth by the violence gods. anyway kiryu is the only person in the world who thinks that nishiki is great do you get it #nishiki has lived his entire life in kiryus shadow and he doesnt care that kiryu has a natural charisma that he will never have. he has to #get out there every single day networking and socialising and hustling and nonstop landing interviews with cool magazines to get his name #out in the world while kazama takes kiryu out and drags him by the elbow to meet people like this is my son kiryu who has every disease and #everyone claps and cheers like i cannot stress enough how on top of the game nishiki is compared to kiryu. he has a car. kiryu doesnt even #have his own lighter. they are not on the same playing field and yet nishikis always trailing behind him because opportunity is always #knocking at kiryus doorstep whether he likes it or not and nishiki gets fed scraps and nothing else and hes the one with ambition he wants #the view on top and most importantly he wanted his brother there with him but nobody ... likes him ... nobody likes nishiki nobodys in his #corner he onky had kiryu and when he lost him it was quite literally him against the world. it always made me laugh how at the end of yk1 #harukas paying her respects at nishikis grave when the only time he ever cared about her was because he wanted her little pendant and he #(actually fucked how alone nishiki was he didnt even have his own fucking men to rely on he was basically working alone with someone he knew #was using him like ??? he was fucking desperate) anyway i really love to think that kiryu being nishikis only friend and the last person in #the world who thought kindly of him (barring like ... kashiwagi) was grieving terribly over his death and haruka being a sensitive and #sweet little girl took the initiative to ask about nishiki and i think kiryu would tell her stories every night of the kind of stuff he and #nishikiyama would get up to when they were her age. he would tell her how amazing nishiki was and how he always looked out for him how he #took care of his sister and how he would always be the one to remind them of impending birthdays and the like. nishiki cared about the #little things .. and he made kiryu want to care about them too but theres just something different between them because nishikis always #been a better person than him .. and he would tell haruka in a voice that sounded like he was begging her to understand that nishiki wasnt a #bad person.. though he did bad things he was a good man and he still wishes with all his heart that he could have done more to save him ...