#while he hurt her and affected her

[greensaplinggrace]

I think one of the biggest differences between bangel and spuffy is that angel isn’t a partner to buffy. he’s not even someone she knows that well. he’s not someone she’s ever familiar with, and he’s not someone she can ever fully rely on.

yeah their romance was big and grand and all the things a tragic fairytale romance is. but at the end of the day their relationship is so incredibly surface level. all there is is the idea of love, and not even the real thing.

#btvs #spike btvs #spuffy #buffy summers #anti angel #anti bangel #just in case #tbh I’m usually a multishipper when it comes to this sort of thing but… #b*ngel comes across as so surface level to me #there’s no real force or depth to it #even disregarding the weird vibes angel gives off about buffy’s age and his condescension and when he first fell in love with her #and all the ways he keeps her hooked by refusing to leave her alone after breaking up with her #a choice that he makes ‘for her own good’ - which he seems to do a lot #it’s that he has no real impact on her as an actual person/slayer with interests and complexity and depth #while he hurt her and affected her #sometimes it feels like he barely made a scratch at all to what actually represents her personhood #anyways I don’t hate him or the ship really and I get why people like him #it’s just to me it’s kind of ridículous that people #say he was it for buffy #when he was barely even a partner #that’s high school romance not real bone deep love #myramblings

[fairyroses]

requested by @lexkent: the scene in "Shattered" where Lana sees Lex on the ground in the stable sitting curled into himself, and she looks anguished to see him in such a state, and she's so kind and compassionate to him

+ bonus Lana, after literally almost dying:

#thank you erin for requesting this because these scenes are incredibly underrated #like the moment where lana hands lex the drink and he smiles up at her with such an innocently adoring look....... many thoughts head full #(yes I know it all goes horribly wrong right after that but shhhhh) #she's just soooo soft and gentle and sweet with him and it's hitting all the best hurt/comfort buttons in my heart 🥺 #just look at all the comforting touches!! lex almost never receives that kind of genuine affection/positive physical contact from other ppl #I think it's also worth pointing out that lana decides at the end of the ep that being around *clark* is dangerous and she should avoid him #but she never expresses a similar sentiment towards lex or blames him at all for what happened #and a few episodes later she even tells him that he could have visited her while she was recovering #......god I still can't get over the fact that her first words when she wakes up in the hospital are 'how's lex' like I really could cry #she's the best and I won't hear a word to the contrary #smallville #smallvilleedit #svedit #lana lang #lex luthor #clark kent #lexana #dcmultiverse #sv 3x08 #my gifs

[fluffypotatey]

OH YOU KNOW WHAT I JUST REMEMBERED!!!!!

ok, ok, so Guggenheim Museum attack is where Gwen meets Miguel and Jessica and joins their spider society, right?

well, when watching this movie a second time, i noticed that Miguel gets an alert on his watch-thingy about a ‘Canon Event’ happening! he even tells Jessica to be careful and not disrupt it. and you know what happens after they defeat the (very beautifully, ink animated) Vulture, Gwen reveals herself to her dad.

apparently, according to the little algorithm thing Miguel’s got, Gwen was always meant to be forced into revealing herself to her dad and have this ugly falling out and i just—

I literally sat there in shock (and more tears) during this scene because both Miguel and Jessica were aware (i don’t know how aware or how much about this canon event they knew) and chose to not interfere until the very end.

maybe, i’m wrong tho or maybe i misheard, but it really helps put into perspective that while Jessica and Miguel have empathy and consider themselves to be good people (or the people who have to do what’s right even if it feels wrong), they are steadfast in their goals. they are willing to have a teenager go through that (a forced coming out basically is what they was. Gwen saw no other way to maybe have some kind of talk with her dad even if she didn’t want the reveal to happen like this).

and i’m just….idk i’m not okay

#gwen stacy #spider gwen #atsv #atsv spoilers #spiderman atsv #across the spider verse #across the spider verse spoilers #across the spiderverse #maybe i got very emotionally affected by this scene because of personal reasons and maybe it ignited more anger towards Miguel but yeah #idk if worded any of that properly #but basically this bit where Miguel and Jessica willingly stay back while Gwen is forced by canon or something to come out to her dad #it like a little intro to the goals and motivations of Miguel and Jessica later in the movie #They see it as a better to hurt a few than the whole multiverse but jfc #i mean….props to Jessica for being willing to take Gwen in after???? for understanding that what Gwen went through was traumatizing #for having that but of empathy and compassion to know that even if what Gwen went through was a ‘canon event’ she needs comfort #like bro #imagine what would have happened if they didn’t take Gwen in???? #would her father actually shoot her???? would she have to be given a fucking ‘I’m sorry’ speech while he dies???? #would she even last that long as spider woman because of this???? #AND RHEN LATER WHEN GWEN MENTIONS TO MILES THAT THE GWENS OF THE UNIVERSE NEVER HAVE HAPPY ENDINGS????? #WAS GWEN IN HER WORLD ALWAYS GOING TO BE A TRAGEDY???????

[cacturne]

“Carmine is not the worst” and “kieran is not the worst” are statements that can and should co-exist

#Its always either “carmine did nothing wrong kieran is a stupid unhinged brat!” Or “kieran did nothing wrong carmine is literally abusive!!” #No. Theyre not. Neither of them are. Theyre just nd/mentally ill and cope with it badly #Its really not that hard come on #Also as an older sister with a younger brother a lot of the mean dialogue is pretty typical #Obviously that doesnt negate the fact that for kieran it hit him in his issues but he never spoke up about it and kept it to himself #And carmine is pretty dense and a bit in her own head so it makes sense that she wouldnt notice without being directly told #And with her specifically its made clear in dialogue throughout that she does care about her brother #She thinks about how in her mind things might affect him and chooses what she thinks is the option that wont hurt him. Though obviously #shes not the best judge there. But thats understandable she isnt very good at reading people #And kieran just doesnt know how to cope with his problems. When stuff gets too much he bursts and lashes out. A normal thing for a teenager #Obviously this now frightens carmine and she starts backing down distancing herself and generally just closes up around him #Because while she is abrasive she doesnt really *realize* she is. And its easy to see kierans abrasiveness as something inherently hostile #(Because even if he doesnt really mean it it still is aggressive) #Hey wait a second why am i infodumping about kieran and carmine pokemon in my tags #This is like the worst way to do it. Sorry cutting it short ty for reading if you did #ghosts howling

[aq2003]

i'll start drafting long posts talking about how some people overblow ten's ego/arrogance especially dw dudebros who ignore his guilt/depression/trauma and how his thinking of regeneration as death has less to do with him super really loving being Dweeb Alien David Tennant and more to do with him not wanting to move on from the deep love and grief that has defined his identity . and then i will not post these drafts because i do not want to be more annoying about ten than i already am

#like i so so deeply do not want to come off as one of those 'stop criticizing him! hes traumatized :(' ppl but also are you guys like #even considering the fact hes traumatized at all #how a full season is dedicated to how his ptsd affects him and his relationship with martha #and how him trying so hard to push his feelings down and not let himself be helped ends up deeply hurting martha too #i really do feel like people forgo this and instead subscribe to. like. #'it's like he had a bad breakup w his girlfriend and gets a new girlfriend and treats her like garbage bc he doesn't really love her' #rather than 'it's like his gf died and hometown exploded and he doesn't know if he should even have a friend and accept their attempts #to help him through his grief because he's afraid he'll lose them like he's lost everything else. But also he cant survive on his own so #he will drip feed himself human connection while not considering how unfair this is to the friend involved that he doesnt know loves him' #this isn't even touching on his suicidal tendencies in s3. like god #dr who #Uh oh i read this post and these tags over and looks like i AM being annoying about ten once again. its not my fault he's worms in my head #10 era

[thatone-highlighter]

The last 3 imply that Marceline grew older but he recreated a younger version that still liked and trusted him or one that doesn’t remind him of bad memories

#this idea is so facinating to me #i think personally i subscribe to the idea that shes alive and doesnt talk to him because of PB #because of the people makinh the betty comparison with marcy and bonnie. its so yummy i love paralells #but the idea that he got so lost in the crowns madness he did something to hurt her and/or kill her #hooough mmmmmm yummy. and maybe that pushed him to the edge #because in ooo even has IK he still deeply cared for and seeked out marcy. regularly. #so even while under the crowns full influence i thibk he would be Devestated if something happened to her #let ALONE if it was something he did himself. maybe to the point he just wants to get rid of it #as much the madness WK doesnt have. it still seems to have affected his memory and/or attachments. i lost where i was going #i could even see marcy confronting him about pb and him losing it and hurting her and then regretting it and wanting to ‚fix‘ it #by bringing her back. but he cant stand to see her face anymore as a constant reminder of what he did. so he bribgs her back as a kid #full of love and trust in him and none of the bad things #Tree Man Posts #adventure time #fionna and cake #f&c #f&c spoilers #marceline adventure time #the winter king #f&c the winter king #polls #princess bubblegum #candy queen

[ratgingi]

woe characters inspired by some of my cats be upon ye. info on them in my tags lol

#dialtown oc #jack dlc #twerpys head is a sledgehammer bc the cat theyre based on was born in a wall lmao #he works at the petstore with outis bc i got said cat frm the local petstore #lilys head is a fluffy couch pillow thing and she works at an animal shelter bc thats where i got the cat shes based on #twerpy is genderfluid bc we make jokes that my cat twerpy is genderfluid a lot #also i feel like shed be aroace if she were a person. its just the vibes yk #lily isnt labeled as anything shes just vibin #the 2 are part of a big sorta found family type shit that consists of chars based on my other 3 cats i just didnt feel like drawin more rn #twerpy is really mean and stuck up but is secretly super sweet it just takes them a long time to warm up enough to someone n show it #shes also secretly incredible at like. comforting people and helping them out. but again only shows it for people hes warmed up enough to #lily is super confident and full of herself and spoiled. she thinks shes super fuckin smart but she is very much Not /lh #she loves attention though and gets her feelings hurt super easy #also shes Huge on physical affection. she loves giving people hugs and holding hands and shit #like. shell be like oh im so fuckin hot and cool literally no ones on my level and of ur like eh idk that fit isnt really that good on u #she will start Crying. and get mad that youre being mean to her for no reason while sobbing #and probably will hug onto you while doing it #twerpy also gives really good hugs but they Hate being touched. so if it willingly touches you then youre incredibly lucky special #also lily loves sitting in peoples laps #if youre friends with her she is far more likely to sit on your lap instead of any chair in the room nd thats just smth youll have 2 deal w #dlc wiki

[drinkthemlock]

alright now azevedo (fake álvares) is not just a bit of a cunt he is straight up the villain of this novel.

#up until now at least. i feel a redemption arc coming for him #rosauraposting #the story is basically that azevedo invited a few of his friends from school to visit the house of a friend of his (the major) to eat- #-fruits from his orchard. he also has a very beautiful daughter named adelaide- #-whom azevedo is courting. belmiro; one of his friends; catches adelaide’s attention; gets really jealous of azevedo and falls off a tree- #-(they were picking fruit from the trees); so he has to stay at the major’s. azevedo stays with him; trying to malign belmiro at every oppo- #-rtunity (boy is Jealous). it goes dreadfully wrong and adelaide shows more and more affection for belmiro. when they both go to school the- #-next day azevedo starts spreading rumors about adelaide to get revenge on both her and belmiro (who is at his side at all times bc he hurt- #-his foot on the fall and has to be carried around). and that’s where i stopped reading. #there’s the racial and class aspect bc adelaide is not white (her father is half-romani and her mother was black) and belmiro is poor and- #-provincial while azevedo is pretty; moderately wealthy and from the court (Rio) #and the rumors he spreads about her are not only misogynistic but racially motivated (not necessarily because he thinks in that way but bc- #-he wants to weaponize adelaide’s race against her. something she is very insecure about) #(the boys are rousseauists lol) #it is Not Looking Good for Him

[haleelah]

Yo people think of this

Dick a lone hunter. Living on the skirt of town, all alone and isolated with only his two hounds as company. His relationship with his extended family is strained, especially after the death of that boy Bruce took in his place. The one who would look at him with worship in his eyes, like he had been searching for something all his life and had finally found it. His demise. His passing had broken them all. Dick didn't form that much of a relationship with him to began with. Too angry at Bruce and too involved in his work and life to care for one more stray Bruce plucked from the streets. But god it had left him wounded. And while the wound had closed it has yet to heal even now.

Dick spends a relatively simple life now. Long gone the glory he once bathed in with his team to a life of tending to cold hollow house with no one to wait for him in it.

Dick first met him after slipping from a cliff where he got himself injured. Something near fatal if he didn't get help as fast as possible. Apparently he separated far a way from his hounds way too far for them to find him in the right time. Not like the poor animals would be able to think of bringing in human help before setting in to find their master anyway.

As he was finishing that thought, He appeared right in front of him. From the snow like a soft blotch of blood with his red fur, a fox. It looked at him and he looked back at it in return. Tentatively inching to where he lay, Dick gripped the knife inside his pocket, ready for the worst, if it decided to attack for whatever reason. But just a few inches from him the fox looked into his eyes. This close Dick can see them now a beautiful haunting teal colour, something he hadn't seen on any other creature before, almost otherworldly. And in it's gaze Dick found something familiar, he doesn't know how, but it feels like this fox recognised him. And Dick in turn recognised him too.

He went away after that, leaving him all back alone. Dick contemplated his departure, somehow feeling lighter of his impeding end. After some time, that couldn't be even an hour long if his estimations were right, Dick heard the sound of dogs and people. He screamed his lunges out for them, with as much strength he musterd after much blood loss. Harsh haltings and the sound of shuffling through the snow, Dick looked up in time to see some of the town's hunters with their own hounds and his, coming his way.

"Richard! Thanks the Deity we found you"

"How?" He managed weakly.

"Your hounds came back to town following a fox! Our own joined them and we followed them to get them back to home, because for some reason they weren't listening to orders.", "and we also worried of your dog, as we know of how well trained they are and how they would not dare leave your side... we worried something happened to you"

Dick didn't really pay much attention past the "Fox" he looked around willing to catch him again and he did. It looked at him from far away. Kept on looking for sometime and then trotted away.

Dick thanked the fox and he thanked the gods for sending him to Dick.

The second time Dick met him, was when he was nursing a heavy fever amidst a snow storm. Harsh knocking on his door had awaken him from restless slumber. He wondered what person out of their mind would be out and about at this time, or it simply could be someone seeking refuge at his shamble of a house. Either way Dick readied his hunting knife and riffle. He opened his door with a harsh gush of storm air entering his house blocking it from him, almost protectively, was a younger man. Dick's high fever faced with sudden cold made his mind all fuzzy and dizzy, because he recognised those eyes, and that face looked like it belonged to someone who never got the chance to grow into it. His illness took the better of him, Dick fell into a strong, warm, chest. Wide shoulders and powerful arms engulfed him, warmth seeping into his quivering body.

"Shush, I got you now"

Tears filled his eyes for some reason, from his illness, the cold or the unexpected surge of weird emotions, he doesn't know. He Couldn't have put his fingers on it even as his life quite literally depended on it. With this stranger at his doorstep, and him in such weakened state.

But Dick felt safe. This man would keep him safe.

Dick woke up. His hounds were laying by either side of him. He looked into his room to find doctor Thompkins in a chair by his side.

"Good morning Dick. How are you feeling? Last night must have been a hard one on you."

"I had a simple fever. What are you doing her Dr Thompkins ?"

"I am afraid it wasn't as simple as you'd like to believe.. if not for that young man taking care of you through it, you might have not gone through last night Dick.", "which, answering to your question, was the one to seek me after you had stabilised a bit. Quite the young man he was, to seek me and drag me through the storm to get to you"

Dick's braind was still fuzzy with the memory. He had thought it a hallucination and nothing more. No person should have had those eye. Especially not him.

"Where did he go" he said instead "I don't know. After he got me here he just left without a word, and you know me I don't ask unnecessary question and would rather spend the time and effort tending to my patient" a beat of silence "you don't know him either" a statement not needing a confirmation "you don't know who I know or might not know", "But I do Dick. Everyone dose know how isolated you are and it's a face I haven't seen around town before"

Dick didn't have anything to say to that. He only thought "Maybe it's an envoy from the deity, a guardian angel, if you Will" he declared. And even through the dizziness and fuzziness he felt, he could confirm. That the weight he felt propping him was very real and human.

"Don't be ridiculous, I never sought you as a religious person"

"Hmm" Dick allowed, signalling he wanted the conversation to end. which Leslie allowed easily.

As she finished with directing him to each medicine he was supposed to take, she made a promis to come check on him in the early evening then she left him to his cold empty house again.

Dick stroked his hounds thinking, yearning, was the fox only going to come to him in times of need? Did he only allow himself in Dick's life only when death was at his door steps waiting for him? Did Jason only come to ward the angels of death away from him, because he regarded Dick as something precious to him,but his anger for Dick's neglect and detachment of him made Jason punish Dick by never returning back to his life properly?

Dick left his hands to his eyes slowly. As the weight of his loneliness settled on his shoulders, the tears started to flood. He hoped his hands were enough to shield him from Jason's ever watching eyes, least he be watching now, and so he might blame Dick's pain on his own self.

#jaydick #i will edit for typos in thw mornings #so many typo and i have toothe ache pluse its like 11 in the evening which is like 4 in the morning for me #anyway inspiration came from my header #image #jason as fox spirit reincarnation or whatever you wnat it #i write with a split screen hence the unforgivable typos #good morning #made some edits if you see more no you don't #This is sort of a fantasy au i wanted to have dick as a witch of some sort who was taken by bruce #also from a family of magicians #jason died in a horrific circumstances and the way he was able to return back to life was thanks to talia but he had to makea contract with #a spirit or a demon for his soul to fully return to his unexplicably a live body #a fox spirit happened to take pity on him and so the contract was formed #much to talia's annoyance #because while she would have preferred a demon that would be more difficult for bruce to accept his son with #she also wanted jason to be safe too it's very conflicting for her she is not simple evil in this story #mind you i'd like to believe she has a kind of complex affection towards jason in any story #alright so jason refuse to go back to the waynes after he found that he since long been replaced by not one but three kids #jason hurt so much for it his and wanted nothing but to avenge himself #it was only by accident that he saw dick someday where every thing changed for him #dick looked terrible he also looked so sad gone that strong bright leader which hurt jason even more #he never blamed dick for not getting close to him #even before he got his own taste of the betrayal of being replaced with someone else #jason understood he took something from dick so he held no grudges toward him #but back then it one for jason and the whole world for dick #now though... now dick has nothing and no one #so instead of a grand vengeful plan jason decides he will put his effort into learning magic from talia and to take care of dick #tf i need to put this in another post #this tooth ache is destroying me people

[yardsards]

i fuckin HATE when my brain makes me feel positive emotions/longing for my abusers

like goddamn, let me go back to my usual pure uncomplicated loathing and contempt

#eliot posts #mostly about my dad #i have almost no positive memories of my mother #but sometimes i DO feel sympathy towards her #which sucks a little bit but not nearly as much #but with my dad there WERE good memories. times we had fun or he gave me affection #and realistically i know that even while those good things were happening #there was the knowledge in the back of my head that i had to be careful not to set him off and that he could hurt me #and that the sweet praise he gave me was conditional and he was happy to call me mean shit like the r slur when he was displeased #the times him playing with me turned into him toying with me til i cried because he thought it was funny #the gifts he gave as an attempt to buy our forgiveness without apologizing or making any effort to change #and yet my brain's just like ''hey? remember the good times?'' BITCH every second of those years was drenched in terror #abuse mention

[pyonzzz]

btw why are people voting mahiru guilty and not kazui uhm ?

#milgram #mahiru shiina #kazui mukuhara #imo it should be either theyre both forgivable or it should be reversed #i dont think mahiru should be seen as guilty because while yes theres something wrong with her she didnt really do anything wrong ?? #if her partner never told her she was doing anything or didnt try to help her for both of their sake then she couldnt of known how bad she #had been acting #shes really bpd coded !! i say this as a bpd haver whos been in basically her exact situation #meanwhile kazui was well aware of what he was doing to his wife and still didnt do anything #i dont think hes very unforgivable but theres a severe difference between a mentally ill / delusional person and a very self aware person #either forgive them both or acknowledge that kazui has to take more responsibility for his actions since he KNEW what he was doing #even if his wifes suicide wasnt his intention he would know how awful his actions were #mahiru doesnt seem aware at all that hurting in a relationship isnt good and thats definitely a trauma thing !! #besides with her ( possible ) bpd its likely she was delusional in thinking that this was just how love is supposed to be #a fucked up kind of '' you scratch my back i scratch yours '' mentality #tldr kazui was aware of his affect on his partner and mahiru wasnt just admit you hate women #ALSO DONT ???? CALL MAHIRU A YANDERE I SWEAR TO GODS

[humanveil]

i need someone to spray me with water whenever i start thinking about elliot stabler

#olivia is not special he is also intrinsically intertwined with ME #anyway a show spanning your entire life is fun bc it starts affecting the way you reflect on your younger self. #like isn’t it funny how as a teenager the thing that drew me to elliot was the paternal figure he represented. #that’s what i found comfort in. #you can see it in a lot of the fan content i made back then. so much of it was hurt/comfort centric and soft #but then when i was 19/20 and decided to rewatch the series chronologically the thing i found comfort in was #actually elliot’s anger. because something bad had happened and i was angry and there was no where to #put it but he was angry too!!! and wasn’t that just fucking refreshing. #and now at 24 he’s still inherently comforting to me. and it’s both his anger and his paternal nature but also i think it’s his love #boy just has such a big heart it makes me 🥴 #i have a similar sort of journey w liv but not as intense cause while i’ll kill for her i AM an elliot girl #terminal svu brainrot

[nuoc7mia]

the shoujo-fication of unripe apples pt 2: ch 69

(ft miae being the cutest person on earth)

#moon reads aslfua #aslfua spoilers #i love the little sparkles that soonkki using during like those heartbeat scenes ; they r soooo fitting and cute LOL #properly captures young / first love imo #anyway! i did not axtually expect miae to be the first one to catch any sort of feelings and i think it’s funnt that she #‘s experiencing it like its a disease JJAJSJAJ super curious as to where this goes both bc of her lack of experience w love as a real emotio #(rather than the fairy tales that she associates them w) and how this affects their relationship #cheol’s definitely gonna notice if the dynamic changes whatsoever since she’s usually brazen with her feelinfs n desires #kind of nervous that he’ll be hurt by it ; i think he would’ve retreated back into his walls if this was earlier than the sports day #i do think he’s gotten better at communicating tho and acknowledges the importance of her companionship #so hopefully no real angst is in sight for a while 🫶🏻 ahah!

[loveofastarvingdog]

last night i had a dream about the two guys from brokeback mountain, magical portals that would switch you between two places/periods in time and could still affect you when you weren’t around them, a girl who used to be a prodigy and now struggles to even get c’s, and a different girl who used to be a friend to one of the brokeback guys before she started growing violent and angry from the effects of the portals. it was a wild dream

#timothy's txts. #there was even a piss-kink fanfiction (about the brokeback guys) that had won awards #it was like the two men from brokeback mountain were real men in the dream but i was also sort of watching their story and if i looked away #i didn’t have to watch the end #and also there was fanfiction about them?? #and that’s not even mentioning how they were from different sides of the portal and heath ledger had let himself use and be affected by the #portal so much that even when he wasn’t around it he would sometimes glitch out that time. sometimes even for a while #the smart girl who was struggling was like sort of a portal guide but her dad didn’t want her around them or the portal #and the angry girl had been a darling but the portal affected her wrong and corrupted her and made her 1. not want to leave and 2. destroy #anyone who came around the portal or bothered her #she wasn’t particularly pro active about it though she just got really angry. she couldn’t really hurt you. or she didn’t. not sure which #the portals basically took you between two different times in the same place except for the fact that it was a different place with similar #geographical markers but also the same time period and also sort of the same place but not. it was confusing #but the icing on the cake is that I HAVEN’T EVEN WATCHED BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN #tw caps #minors dni #nsft

[trans-leek-cookie]

Ok now that I think abt it that was very shitty of Diane to do

#Bojack Horseman spoilers? I guess? It's been over for a while but this is late in the season- #ANYWAYS it bothered me not bc of how it affected bojack (I would kill him over it tbh) but it just felt weird #And I had the realization that it took a real genuinely shitty thing he did and made it into an event in a show #Plus even if he is shitty (which I believe) its VERY GROSS to thrust him into a position where he is kissed (and has to reciprocate) withou #Without warning. Like acting yeah but usually you can prepare for that. #BESIDES THAT it makes it seem. Idk less like a bad thing that happened to a person but rather just a nebulous Bad Thing? #Like it erases penny from the narrative and just makes bojack the center. And he deserves consequences but... not like this. #Also the way she made something that should obviously be seen as traumatic (only we the viewers really saw the actual reaction Penny had) #But also it should be Kind Of Obvious. You know??? If you're able to realize it's That Bad you should realize She Suffered. And it's really #Gross to take a person's actual trauma and repurpose it for fiction in what? A revenge fuelled haze?? #And it kinda circles back to. Yeah ppl who do bad things deserve consequences but that shouldnt come before helping the people they hurt #God I think Diane is a good character who isn't always meant to be seen as right but also it gets played up so much and I just wish she'd #Idk get more called out for some of it? Maybe she does. But sometimes I get annoyed by her tbh #(Also not helped the fact it feels like she was written by white people? I know she has a white VA which :/) #Much to think about. Also she should have called Mr penutbutter out harder bc while it's not The Same it's a very similar issue and it's #Honestly A Little Weird she just let it slide like that? Anyways yeah she has a problem w caring more abt how she looks that how the actual #Ethics and morals of the situation turn out. #Wheeee

[that-jack-kline-bestie]

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#honestly i think id be in a much better place mentally/emotionally if id never developed empathy #maybe i wasnt made for it or maybe its the fact that i started developing it at such a late age #but its like my brain can't handle it #it hurts #and theres things from my childhood that when i remember them i have to process them almost anew #because i didnt have to emotionally process them #or the emotional process was quick #i mean my dad and his fiancee broke up and had a huge fight and my dad threw a toaster and it broke her nose and he went to jail for a bit. #i dont like to talk about it because people get scared for me and i feel ashamed #but my dad has never done anything like that before or since (this was 6 or 7 years ago) and has never done anything to make me feel unsafe #in fact i feel safest around him #but yeah when my mom told me what happened i cried for a while and she tried to put me in therapy #but i didnt need the therapy #i had genuinely gotten over it #and now years later with my empathy fully developed and a more mature view of what happened im having to reprocess a lot #i just have such a different view of the world and am so much more and differently emotionally affected by things