#i really like guys who are good with their hands ahahahahahah :))))))

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Could we get Harper SFW Alphabet?

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?) Harper is super affectionate! He shows it though physical contact (if you're ok with it), acts of service, and some light teasing

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?) Absolute gremlin. Playfull bullying. Throwing rocks at your window at 2am to come out and join him for some questionable shinanigans. He's all about being an absolute goof and having a good time. Though if you ever need anything he'd insist you don't hesitate to come to him, he'll help out a buddy however he can (Whether by legal means or not :) )

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?) Harper fucking LOVES to cuddle. He'll wrap his long ol arms around you and hold you as close as he can without hurting you. Nuzzling his face into your hair with the biggest, goofiest grin… Good luck getting away from him any time soon :)

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?) He likes the idea of having a family some day, but he won't raise a fuss or anything if you're not for that! He's an excellent cook since its one of his main hobbies, and he likes to keep things fairly tidy… He isn't very diligent about laundry though… putting it away neatly anyway, he more often than not has a pile of unfolded clean laundry frequently being transfered between his computer chair and his bed. He does keep the dirty ones in the hamper though

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?) HAHAHAH Break up? HHAHAHAHA Thats funny :)))))))))))

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?) Harper already ready to get down on one knee the moment he gets you to like him back… fuck he's prolly ready before even that

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?) He can be very gentle if thats what you prefer! He's a big guy but he knows how to be careful. Soft tender hugs, holding your hand in his, gentle kisses to the cheek. As far as emotionally, with you he's more than happy to open up and let you know just how much he adores you, going on and on about every little thing about you that makes him smile

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?) He loves hugs! He'll take em any time he can get em. Hugging you close while cuddling… Hugging you from behind while you're working on something… Man could just be looking at you for a few seconds and he's just filled with the urge to wrap his arms around you~

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?) Dawg already been saying it to you while watching you sleep for like the past year LMAOOOOO

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?) Ahah… Ahahahah…. Ahahahahahah.. You remember that guy you told Harper about who was hitting on you last night? It looks like they're now on fucking fire… shame really ( ovo)

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?) His kisses can range from soft and gentle to rough and firm depending on the mood. His lips are very soft n you kno he keeps those suckers moisturized He loves to kiss your thighs and neck, also leaving little nibbles as well uvu Personally he loves to be kissed on the cheek, lips, and on his scars… Just makes him feel all tingly inside |D

L = Little ones (How are they around children?) Harper is pretty ok around kids, he def tolorates them better than he does older people, especially if they match his goofy gremlin energy. He's very much one to egg them on to be mischevious and if they're all going gremlin mode you'll 100% catch him playing and messing around with them, letting them hang off his arms, giving them piggy back rides, playing video games with them, ect. He'd also be very protective of em. He def has a soft spot for kids… And if they were his own then even more so

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?) Harper isn't the most early of risers, he's a lil slow to wake up and usually goes through 2 whole ass pots of coffee before he's even functioning, then even more throughout the day He also takes a little bit of time to get ready in the morning just tending to his teeth alone, he has a whole routine for them that takes up half an hour. And expect to be spending at least another half hour even before that just trying to convince him to let you go so you can get out of bed

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?) If its not a date night or anything then usually chilling together, watching movies, playing games, doing whatever fun little activities you guys can come up with. Though he'd love to take you out frequently for nights on the town, shopping and taking you to nice resturants and events. He wants to spoil you day and night but he also knows the importance of down time uvu

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?) He'll start slow, trying to get you to warm up to him. But once you're official he'll gradually open up more and more… Though there are some things he'd rather you never find out :)))

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?) At you? Rarely if ever. At everyone else? They're on thin ice just being in the same room as him… and even more so the same room as you :)))

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?) Harper memorizes everything he can about you. Every little bit of information he can get his grubby, oversized hands on he's already commited to memory and he knows more about you than even some of your closest friends thanks to all that good ol fashioned stalking he been doing uvu

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?) When you both first reached the camp and he realized now he'd be able to openly interact with you without you easily being able to get away uvu

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?) Mega protective, the minute Harper even thinks something or someone is a danger to you he's immediately putting that big ol body of his between you and whoever/whatever it is. And if you were ever hurt? Whoever is responsible is going to be finding their subscription to breathing being cancelled real soon

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?) Oh the man is going all out on special events like those if you let him… Fancy dates, taking you to your favorite places, making you the absolute BEST food if not taking you out to wherever you wanted to eat. He'd make sure every date, anniversary, special event with him is one you'll never forget0 As for chores, he doesn't mind doin em, especially things like cooking :)

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?) He doesn't bother with small things like matching his socks. And he has a bad habit of picking at his fingertips especially when he's nervous

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?) Harper likes looking cleaned up but other than that his style and vibe is pretty chill. Not like grungy or anything but also not super fancy… I guess just slightly above average attention to it?

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?) Very much so, he wouldn't be able to bring himself to function much past taking care of his Nonna, and when she's gone he'd pretty much just… give up

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.) He makes random noises when he's bored or focusing on something, half the time he doesn't even realize he's doign it. But sometimes he'll just look at you, freeze for a few seconds, and then make some silly noise before giving you a goofy laugh

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?) He hates avacados. He also doesn't like things being super messy/dirty

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?) He talks in his sleep sometimes… Sometimes its just random gibberish, others you could hold full, if not very strange, convorsations with him while he's sleeping

[onlyhereforangst]

WWR 

Ok y’all if you thought 18x05 was long, you in for a trip. Get ready for lots of caps, lots of not PG-13, and lots of overanalysis. I hope this lives up to the hype since it took me forever and a day (literally almost every minute of the 20 minutes of scenes took practically an hour to breakdown, I have a problem I know). Anyways, let’s get sweaty under the cut because the day ain’t young no more 👇🏼

Their bickering in the car but Nick smiling the whole time is a huge married vibe but also he’s so happy she’s alive and will take any shit she gives him vibe and I’m here for it. Pluuuuus Ellie avoiding nicks question about the phone call 😭 he’s so freaking concerned for her (he’s been through his own version of PTSD), his voice drops all the teasing and he actually opens up a little bit - really wants to make sure she’s ok. He needs to be there for her and ugh poor Ellie, those walls are going back up after that hug- a momentary lapse in her usual self. She’s so far outside of her comfort zone talking about feelings and weaknesses and she immediately deflects. Nick respecting that deflection is also huge growth for him, knows it’s not ok to push through like a person like him would normally do and force her hand. He knows she needs space but also clearly ready to be that ear to listen or shoulder to cry on whenever she needs it.

His joke about notable mustaches only to be the butt of the joke about using the word notable later is hiiiiiilarious. 

Her comment about Zillow 😂 um excuse me ellie you looking for houses and to settle down 👀 but then(!!) Nick pushes her down the stairs first when shots start, getting her out of harm’s way and putting himself in danger like he always does my heart 😩 like he’s still on the stairs by the time she’s in a cell “safe.” And side note damn they are good shots, oof. 

The toilet bowl scene is easily one of my favorites. Nick freaking out over Ellie moving hers and him not being able to had me DYING. Like legit cackling over his worry she’s suddenly way stronger than him 🤣🤣 and then he gets SO pissed they took their car hahaha like so mad he hugs the damn wall in frustration. But then he claims he’ll rip out the bars of the window (you know, to make up for not being able to move his toilet and still prove he’s macho) and Ellie’s comment about superhuman strength & his agreement LOL. His anxiety level of being trapped and more so Ellie being trapped is getting to him already. He is reaching for any possible way to get them (read: her) out of there safely it doesn’t matter that the plan sounds outrageous. Cue him moving back to pissed and breaking the toilet with his damn foot like 🥵 we get you strong Nick but no need to show off. Hot damn. His “I really think we’re stuck in here” after that IDK why but had be laughing again. I’m pretty sure I said “no shit Sherlock” at my TV watching live because thank you Captain Obvious. 

Aaaaaand then when she pauses and finds the bomb bricks but goes so quiet oooooof he’s on high alert. You can practically hear his heart pounding and then he goes and starts panicking slightly when she doesn’t respond with our first use of a first name, “Ellie we have a wall between us, what is it?” But his tone is so frantic and his eyes are darting around putting the whole picture together and my heart aches for him. He’s starting to realize just how helpless he is to save her. The exact thing he likely swore he’d set out to never let happen again (Ellie in danger) after last episode, is happening again. And this time, it’s not like he can go hunt the guys down, he’s quite literally stuck. Helpless with no way out. Aaand here’s where Nick starts to lose his patience. Pissed at himself for not saving her before, not being able to save her now. Pissed at everything. He cannot comprehend how she is in this situation AGAIN and he can do nothing. But oh lord, he doesn’t even realize it’s about to get worse...

Him brooding over this crappy situation in a corner and being the cautious one is so unlike him (but also so telling as to how unnerved he is by her being in danger once again and not wanting to do anything to make it worse) and Ellie calls him on being “so careful, cowboy” and hot damn again she really does like a man in uniform doesn’t she??? 👀🔥 and she not picky on the type of uniform either 😏 but Nick immediately deflects because he’s not *quite* ready to talk feelings so let’s get down to business about counting bullets BUT the second Ellie starts to worry again he goes into hyperdrive protective and caring boyfriend partner. Without hesitation he tells her they’re going to figure it out because goddamnit he HAS to figure this out for her. He can’t fail, again. And he’s so so SO worried about her & her mental health right now and I sincerely love it. I know Ellie doesn’t want to have that conversation but I stan (I can’t believe I’m using that word, I’m not hip enough for that word) an empathetic boyfriend who supports their significant other when facing mental health issues (like PTSD in Ellie’s case) ❤️❤️❤️ Nick breaks my heart, he wants to be there for her- wants to be the one she feels comfortable enough to open up to and he just gets so dejected when she rejects his probing again (but I don’t blame her, it’s *hard* to open up about these difficult topics), his body language slumped over the bars and tone is just so defeated even if he tries to snap back into his usual Torres self (newsflash it ain’t working bruv because she’s not totally wrong in calling you hovery). Yet naturally he gets annoyed because he JUST CARES ELLIE DAMMIT LET HIM CARE. Like you go through this entire list of him trying to protect you from everything that could go wrong because HE CARES. HE WAS TERRIFIED HE LOST YOU ELLIE. HE TRULY THOUGHT HE’D NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN. NEVER TOUCH YOU AGAIN. NEVER TELL YOU HE LOVES YOU. HE CARES. AND HE CANT LET ANYTHING HAPPEN TO YOU AGAIN. HE LITERALLY WANTS TO SAVE YOU (his own words because god damn this show plays with my emotions 😭😭) FROM ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING BECAUSE HE COULDN’T SAVE YOU FROM GETTING KIDNAPPED AND HAVING TO FIGHT YOUR WAY OUT OF A PLANE RIGGED TO BLOW. Ok done with yelling for now but man this part gets me. The implications are so important even over trivial stuff. He felt helpless and Nick Torres cannot do helpless, so he tries do to everything else in his power to keep her away from any danger no matter how little it seems. Even hot coffee is too much for his precious babe and while he knows she’s not some delicate, fragile flower- he knows she can hold her own (& has called her a badass as proof), his heart can’t possibly take another explosion on an airstrip. Even if that airstrip is something like a burnt tongue. Ok I die now 😩😩😩

But let’s come back to living because this bullshit Nick “I always tell you what’s going on with me...you ask I tell you” exCUSE ME. Is this the same man who claimed he was being overprotective and that Ellie was like a sister to him?!???!! Yeah, I call bullSHIT that you tell Ellie what’s going on with you. (And Ellie calls BS too, btw buddy). 

But when Ellie finally decides to open a little I love it. I think she finally understood at least just a bit that he just, simply cares about her & her well-being. So she gives him a tiny taste of what she’s going through. And god Nick’s face when he understands the gravity of what she’s having to face mentally. Like I know he knew but I don’t think he knew just how bad. And you can just see that hatred towards his perceived failure turning inward once again as the mood shifts in these cells to somber. Plus Ellies last comment here with them *needing* to find a way out of there- girrrrrrrl poor baby girl 😭 she’s struggling so hard right now and trying so hard to not let it show and not let it get to her but you know she’s terrified. You know she’s desperately triggered. UGH Ellie 💔💔

We cut to Ellie desperately trying to figure out a solution to getting the fuck outta there and once again my heart aches for her triggered self. Nick seems desolate and frustrated, shutting down slowly as it seems less and less likely they’ll get out. Buuuuut then the GUM. Ahahahahahah Ellieeeeeee how do you know about that last piece of gum for “breath emergencies”??? AHHHH this man’s jeans are so damn tight (& yes trust me I would know, I observe) but like also you staring at a spot on said tight jeans that’s only maybe five inches from a different outline 👀👀👀 GIRL I FEEL YOUUUU. GET. IT. Plus she knows exactly what he calls it and I freaking love that. His excuse for why he has to save it is also hilarious 🤣 his breath emergency later hmmm doubt you wanted to save it to MacGyver something Nick sooooo you got another thing in mind?? 😏 and then LMAO it’s mushy because his pants are sweaty I’m rolllllling. Your pants too tight Nick? (this is not humanly possible btw) ALSO is this why later Ellie says she expected Nick to be more sweaty??? If it is and now rewatching I kind of feel like it is, omg what a great callback on her part 🤣🤣

Nick trying to coach her on the proper way of opening the cell door is hilarious because bitch which one of you was able to move their toilet Nick 👀😂 but oh damn now it’s when shit goes downhill fast. 

Nick not being able to see anything and his frantic questioning is amazing compared to Ellies absolute panic realizing she is once again facing down a bomb. I feel like her calming breaths are a coping technique Jack has been helping her with but man kill me now, Nick’s face?? When he realizes what he thought was helplessness earlier has just shot yo exponentially??? Oof with a capital O. This poor man needs a damn drink and yet all he can have is a club soda boy I *feel you* on that (side note #letsgetthisbabyoutmybellyasap). His woman has gone and gotten herself into another bomb encounter for the second time in a week. And he CANT DO A DAMN THING ABOUT IT. Can you imagine the absolute inner (and outer, give it a sec) freak out he’s having?? He wants to save her from hot coffee for Christ’s sake and now he can’t save her from a rigged bomb. Talk about a shitty situation. 

I just love the Torres Teachable Moment little discussion. Like Nick’s smirk gets me. I really don’t think he knew she had a name for it or realized that she caught on to what he was doing (trying to help her grow as an agent without being obvious or “degrading”). And then we move on to comparing arm length and I crack up 😂 “my arms are longer than yours” and “no they’re disproportionately short for your body” HAHAHA like what the hell have you guys been doing to know this?? Do you stand *that* close together with your arms down to know their lengths comparatively and how much do you stare at Nick, Ellie? Daaaaaaamn. From his gum to his arms to his body I see you 👀 I’m not hating tho I would too 😏 I think what I loved most about this whole jail scene (aside the ending obvs) is the quick flipping back and  forth from joking & teasing to dead serious & worried. Like they’re both trying so hard to keep it above board and light- trying desperately not to think of the implications of what’s happening but then (usually Nick) those intrusive thoughts sneak through and he can’t help but redirect them back to serious. It shows their inner warrings with themselves and just how hard this is for both of them. How much they want to appear strong and unflappable but they both know deep down the whole situation is eating away at them. And Nick bringing up her standing on a bomb only moments before he tells her he’s going to shoot the wall- OOF. Ellie’s genuine terror for him injuring himself and her then not being able to do a damn thing about it because she’s standing on a FREAKING BOMB is so painful to watch. Like she’s stuttering she can’t get it out fast enough, she needs to stop him, she can’t fathom him getting hurt while she’s helpless (uh, hello there theme of the episode how have you been). Nick’s facial expressions through this scene are also so telling. He goes from “this isn’t a big deal” to “oh shit she’s panicking” to “holy shit is she going to open up, is she really talking about this” to “fuck it’s my fault she had to go through that and it’s tearing me up inside every second” to “hooooooly fuck is she about to say what I think she’s about to say?? Is she about to confirm what I know deep inside but am too afraid to say aloud?? Is it true??” And ELLIE OH ELLIE. Reliving that *has* to be hard, has to. To finally bring it up after she’s been dodging it all damn day...you know the thought of him getting seriously injured had her more than rattled. And she cracks open those cement walls around her heart so briefly, the glimpse in it provides I think a turning point for Nick. Finally seeing that it’s not just him, she’s in deep too. Even if she can’t say it, can’t say she was fighting to see him again 😩💔 he knows. She says he only has one bullet left and to save it and they’ll figure some other way with tears in her eyes my HEART. But Nick gets it. Nick gets it because he’s been in the exact same situation. His eyes as they process the implication of her words and the fear for his life running through them 🥺 his simple “ok” is so unlike his normal self, you just know he’s once again doing anything and everything he can for. Even if that means standing down and not fighting for his way (the natural instinct for him). He knows what she needs is reassurance he won’t accidentally shoot himself. So he does it 😭 But him pacing (as a man of action suddenly faced with forced inaction) & Ellie begging for an inventory over and over (a woman of logics and data faced with PTSD) is so painful. You can tell they’re both struggling and neither wants to admit it but also they both need to do something - for Nick that becomes finally deciding to shoot a foothold in the wall and for Ellie that meant trying to go over their facts again and again but suddenly she’s once again terrified Nick is going to injure himself. The one man she fought to see again might hurt or even kill himself and she can’t do a damn thing because she’s standing on a bomb for fuck’s sake. Aaaaaaand cue the blow up. Cue Nick voicing his worst fears of Ellie accidentally triggering the bomb. Cue Ellie getting defensive because she’s so damn used to be babied and treated like she can’t take care of herself. Cue the “overprotective hovery man crap” line that had me rolling on the floor (tbt ROFL). Cue Ellie calling herself a girl but Nick calling her a woman like DAMN get me where it hurts Nick- that right there is a man who respects the living hell out of this fiiiiiiine representation of a woman in front of him 🔥. Cue Ellie saying because I’m “me” like um FUCK YES IT’S BECAUSE YOU’RE YOU AND HE’S TOO SCARED OF LOSING YOU ELLIE. Cue Nick finally losing his shit and getting reeeeeealllllllll like hallelujah do you hear the church bells?! Even Ellie knows to finally pause and listen. Nick never loses it on her, never. She knows this shift is serious and it’s happening. And omg his confession can I just have a moment of silence for the GROWTH.

Thank you, it needed commemorating. The same Nick who didn’t belong to a team is the Nick that is out here claiming he can’t sit idly by while the love of his life might get blown up again. He’s NOT OKAY WITH THAT AND NEITHER AM I. NOT AFTER THIS GODDAMN SCENE. His head bob accentuating just- how- important this is to him is so in character (thank you Wilmer) and theeeeeeen shoot me the way he has to fucking collect himself from almost crying. The emotion- there just aren’t words. Literally he has to look up to the sky and blink back those tears you know are threatening to fall at the thought of the woman who he still *technically* hasn’t told that he loves her could potentially die, again, for the second time in a week. So guess the hell what? He’s telling her (sort of). He’s telling her he would do anything, anything, put himself in danger’s way if it meant there was even the tiniest chance it would save her. Pardon the callback but- HE WOULD RISK HIS LIFE TO SAVE HERS. DON’T YOU REMEMBER ELLIE. YOU SAID I KNOW. DO YOU KNOW NOW. DO YOU. BECAUSE GOOD LORD CAN YOU MARRY THIS MAN ALREADY BEFORE I DIVORCE MY HUSBAND AND DO IT (jk love you honey 😘). But like damn, she knows it now. That look- she bites her lip and has tears in her own eyes at the realness she can feel even through a cement block wall. It’s a feeling she’s not used to. She isn’t used to being a person someone would literally risk death for. She doesn’t think she deserves it (sip on that like whiskey, mull it over, let it sink in & cry about it). Even if she knows she doesn’t need saving (and so does Nick), she finally realizes it isn’t about that. It isn’t about he feels like she can’t do it. It’s about the overwhelming pull that your life isn’t greater than the one you love. That love, real true love, is knowing you would do anything for that other person (and they the same) because the world would be worse off without them in it. And Nick will never be okay with a world without Ellie. Never. Their joint quiet after his confession is so powerful. There’s no claims of falsehood, there’s no trying to quip back at him, there’s no trying to stop him. It just settles into the room- into their hearts. They’ve crossed a line and it means so, so much. Nick can feel a weight lifted off his shoulders as he loads his gun and gets ready and Ellie can feel a weight settle on hers from the need to reciprocate. And not out of pity, it would be out of truth. But she knows it isn’t the right time. She knows she has to do it, and she will. She held back earlier when she couldn’t say she was fighting for Nick, but his outburst and confession gave her the courage in this scene. She finally has confirmation she means to him like he means to her. And she has to know, she has to know if he means it or if it was heat of the moment so when the dust settles she inquires, “what’s going on over there?” A pulse check. A way of asking without asking—did you mean that? And the shock of confirmation of her face as Nick, dead as a doornail serious says, “close calls make you live harder”….holy hell. That’s the moment it snaps for her, everything snaps into place—the agony he’s gone through not only this week, but the past couple years of close calls. He’s done beating around the bush, he’s living harder, he’s going all in, he’s getting what he wants. He refuses to let anything like a damn jail cell rigged to blow stand in his way. And she knows, she knows just how important she is to him. He might not have said those three words, but that phrase- that phrase was a direct window into Nick Torres’ soul. And by god I love it. 

But Nick pulling a prank on Ellie like that is also so Nick- the little shit. The genuine concern in her voice when she yells his name 😭 like dude, her worst fear, something causing ongoing trauma in her head right now is the ONE THING you decide to tease her with??? I should expect nothing less but damn that’s low 😂 her checking on his status update with Gibbs though feels like such a role reversal from earlier and it cracks me up, side note. 

When they’re getting ready to stand down the returning brother and Nick gets in position next to the wall but can’t even look ahead- he’s just staring at Ellie, oof. In that moment he’s brutally and painfully aware she can’t hide for cover. Not only can she not hide, he can’t cover her because he’s (locked in a cell but also) out of bullets. He’s once again near helpless and the woman he loves (and has now finally kind of told) is a sitting duck. Someone get this poor man a damn club soda, I repeat. 

And the little talk between the two parties- I love that Ellie takes point. Love that Nick lets her. Like damn that’s a supportive partner right there and I 👏🏼 AM 👏🏼 HERE 👏🏼 FOR 👏🏼 IT. He knows she can handle this shit and he will willingly let her. But nooooooowwwww weee gettinggggg to the goooooood paaaaaaart. 

Ok first, “good to see you” - this man has missed her face. Straight up dying to see her in the flesh. Just listening to her voice and not seeing the emotions written on her face is not enough. Seeing her alive, smiling at him, he needed it. But of course, let’s keep it light, act natural Nicholas. 

“I thought you’d be sweatier” - excUUUUSE ME ELLIE. Not only did you just call out his reference to his sweaty jeans earlier, you also WANT TO SEE HIM SWEATY DON’T YOU. THAT SMIRK SAYS YES DON’T LIE. And honestly, I don’t blame you shhhhh.

“The day is young” - can I get another excUUUUSE ME NICK. Words- they don’t- function. Because that knowing smile of hers- SHE’S OKAY WITH IT. GET YOUR MIND OUT THE GUTTER YOU TWO THERE’S A HOMICIDAL MAN UPSTAIRS. YOU’VE GOT TIME TO GET SWEATY TOGETHER TONIGHT YOU HEAR ME. THAT DAY IS YOUNG AND SO ARE YOU SO GET THOSE BRICKS AND THEN YOU CAN GET TO BANGING LATER. I just fucking can’t with their smirks. I can’t. This isn’t the normal banter, this is the fuck me banter and I’m okay with it. Because right after the I-wanna-get-in-your-sweaty-jeans banter we have Ellie putting her HAND ON HIS GD HIP AS HE PASSES ONLY TO MOVE UP TO BOTH SHOULDERS. AND THEEEEEEEN HOLY HELL SOMEONE LIGHT A MATCH BECAUSE THIS BITCH ABOUT TO EXPLODE FROM SEXUAL TENSION. Is it possible to rewatch this scene a thousand times in slo-mo and still not have watched it enough? Because that is me. That will always be me. How are they so in tandem, so in sync as they look up mere inches from each other- directly into the other’s eyes knowing exactly how serious this situation is and yet pausing to freaking gaze longingly (read: have eye sex) at each other. And I’m sorry Nick looks down at her lips like three times??? For a good while too?? Sir nothing you said required you to look there. nothing. And also there’s no way his hands aren’t on her I thiiiiiiink they’re on her upper arms (based on the last shot as he’s walking to get the bricks) but like hold her tight Nick please. Also while Ellie doesn’t look at his lips (in this scene) holy shit those are some come-hither eyes if I’ve ever seen them. “I’m sure” ABOUT YOU. SHE’S SURE ABOUT YOU NICK. SHE’S SURE SHE’S READY TO GET SWEATY WITH YOU NICK. Like literally, this girl had been leaning up against the cement wall for a looooong time before he has to pass her and now, NOW that Nick has to pass her- SHE STANDS UP TALL. TO GIVE HIM NO SPACE. WHILE SHE’S STANDING ON A BOMB. BITCH YOU WANTED IT. That was a damn power move Ellie and I am not mad about it. She so easily could have leaned back, given him a ton of space to get around, but nooooooo she stands right there, middle of the tight opening and says yes Nick come get 1mm from my face, touch me here, touch me there, touch me everywhere don’t care 👀 while you pass. I’m sure I’m okay with it because you’ve just eye fucked me and it’s exactly what I wanted. And I mean come oooooooon just the underlying emotion behind both of their words. Nick isn’t just asking if she won’t move her foot- it’s his way of asking if she’s ok and she looks SO much better, more relaxed now that he’s with her. The tense, anxiety-ridden Ellie that was asking for inventory or snapping about him being overprotective, is now at ease despite still standing on said bomb- all because Nick is right there with her and if that doesn’t make you 🥺😭 I don’t know what will. Like she can’t even take her eyes off of him even after rude brother interrupts this gold moment of theirs until Nick has already completely turned his head towards the dude. She’s just so relieved to see him standing there, so close to her, feeling his warmth underneath her hands again. 

Side note to prove my earlier point, when Nick casually reaches through to throw the bags of bricks through the door Ellie is leaning on the wall and THERE’S SO MUCH ROOM. HE COULD HAVE EASILY PASSED. 

Nick looks like he literally wants to murder the guy, enraged that he’s the one who put Ellie in this situation again. We would’ve seen swan!Nick if it wasn’t for Ellie choosing this moment to finally share her feelings. Because remember- she’d decided she was going to reciprocate but knew it wouldn’t come off the right way before. Now’s the time. Now when the immediate threat to their lives is gone (excluding bomb of course). Now when they’re alone, they’re together, and she can look him in the eye so he knows she’s serious. He can read the truth in her eyes rather than doubt her words said across a jail cell wall. 

“This isn’t about me, it’s about you” - well damn that got your attention didn’t it Nick??? So used to putting Ellie first, putting yourself second its weird to hear it come from someone else isn’t it? That someone is worried for your safety? That someone needs you living and breathing just as much as you need them doing the same? His eyes immediately change from Imma kill this man to did I just hear this woman right. 

“I’m not okay with you getting blown up either” - first off, the parallelism is what makes this absolute *chef’s kiss* because Nick has literally zero chance of being blown up if he runs after this dude. Shot? Yes. But blown up? No. Ellie has chosen these words precisely to call back to what Nick said earlier. To make sure he’s aware she understood the weight of his earlier confession and is making the same one. They are on equal footing- their feelings are not only reciprocated but just as strong as the other. She could’ve said anything else but choosing his exact words was so poignant in the moment. It’s like the difference between saying “I love you” & “I love you too” compared to “I love you” & “I really care about you.” And the way she says it with such confidence, she isn’t playing around, she didn’t even *have* to bring up their previous conversation, she’s got determination etched across her face with a ghost of a smile on her lips. She means this, and it’s dying to bust out of her. And so the shock to Nick’s system is quite frankly understandable. This is Ellie - someone who hours ago didn’t even want to tell him who she was trying to make a phone call to. Ellie who has walls the size of Mt. Everest erected around her heart. Ellie who could have brushed off his earlier comments said from the safety of a cement wall between them. But no. This Ellie is all-in, she’s ready to own up to her side. She’s ready to lay it on the line just like him. Equal footing. If Nick is ready to jump, then so is she. And he’s just so taken aback- glancing at her lips, blinking through the shock as he processes. Processes the weight of her words on their relationship. He knows he could laugh it off, make a joke about his superhuman strength not allowing him to get blown up, or he could man up and take them both forward. Ellie doesn’t even flinch under his stare, if anything she becomes more confident, more resolute in her words and her stance. Her eyes searching his for what his reaction will be and for a brief moment I swear there’s a tiny bit of worry, a tiny bit of unease that he wasn’t ready for her to repeat his words back to him. 

“Well, what are we gonna do about that?” Oh YOU HEARD. That smirrrrrrrrk Nicholas stop iiiiiit, Eleanor’s standing on a bomb you don’t need to light her on fire!! Because this is a challenge, a goddamn challenge. Staring straight into her soul saying, “oh you want me and I want you? How about we blow this popsicle stand and go get fucking sweaty ok? Because that’s what I want to do about that 👀🔥🔥🔥” and not only is the smirk sexy as hell but it’s also got this glint of elation. Like he could not be happier she said those words back to him. That he finally took Ziva’s advice, wasn’t a wuss and WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT IT PAID OFF. But his words also tell of a little nervousness. And not necessarily in a bad way, more as in a leaving it to her way. Putting her in the driver’s seat of this relationship knowing it’s where she’ll feel most comfortable. Given all she’s been through, like all of it not just the past week, he knows that she needs to be in control of how fast they move. And once again his chivalry and thoughtfulness of her is just- I cry. He doesn’t just assault her with what they should do next, he leaves it for her to decide. For her to weigh in on how far and how fast she wants to take them. And by the little shy smile Ellie gives him- she knows what he means. She knows her words have hit their mark and that he respects her enough to let her lead the way. And now she has to make her decision, a decision we DON’T GET TO SEE BUT I’M NOT BITTER IT’S FINE. But a decision nonetheless. 

I honestly go two ways on this- the most obvious of hell yes they kissed right then and there and started *something* and then the bitter realistic one of they were probably interrupted by Gibbs (who was literally outside like right then based on timing) but also may have just continued to stare into each other’s eyes- still slightly taken aback by everything they just shared and what it means for them. Still unsure of how they “work” as people who *love* each other, not just partners. Having that reality sink in as they continue to face off and wait for a rescuer. That reality sinking in could lead to obviously very good things (that we better see on our screen or I will fucking riot) or a slight nervous closing-off. Like not quite closed off closed off, but a tiny retreat when the gravity of the day falls down on both of them. I don’t think either will believe they only said what they did because of the situation/moment they were in, but it’s still a lot to deal with after all is said and done. I sincerely hope they unpack this in the coming episodes and give us some direction of what happened after that jail cell scene. 

I love the Torres told McGee about what happened today and I’m so curious about how much detail he told him lol but I also love that McGee has now received genuinely good advice from Torres twice now (the one about the reunion and now this). Just goes to show you the brotherly bond they have ❤️ but also that the advice was the same advice he literally lived out that day. Close calls make you live harder, almost as an affirmation to himself (Nick about what happened), but as something he knew McGee needed to hear too- they all do. 

And then this bullpen scene - one, how far of a time jump is this and whyyyyyyy won’t they telllll meeeeee. They hate me. Two, Ellie coming over so close just to hand off a file that he doesn’t even look at 👀 three, THEIR SMIRKS. WHAT DO THEY MEAN. Because Nick is holding back the world’s biggest smile as Ellie gets close to him and Ellie is just all nonchalantly checking him out with a brief eye-sex scene. Like damn this fine man doesn’t want me to blow up and I don’t want him to blow up either 🔥 Now does this mean they absolutely got together and did the nasty after they got out of that cell? Of course not. We can only dream, and write fics. This ending scene is very reminiscent of what NCIS loves to do with their power of open-ended persuasion at the end of an ep, see On Fire for example. The ending music and comments combined with the shot of Gibbs leaving in the elevator is literally there to try and persuade you that he killed Xavier. In this ep, the ending music and voiceover combined with their looks at each other is there to try and persuade you they totally got it oooooon. Not to say they didn’t, but I don’t trust NCIS one damn bit. 

All in all, cannot *wait* to see where they take ellick the rest of the season. Emily hyped this ep and man, she did NOT disappoint. Let’s see that shift that is going to ripple for the rest of the season now like Wilmer promised 🤞🏼

Oh and my only side note because this was insanely insanely long and if you’re still reading I’m proud of you for hanging in there with me & my screams into the void, send me an ask screaming back it’s ok I’ll love you for it—waaaas the whole team poking fun at Torres for using the word notable was downright hilarious. That and Gibbs trying to do everything himself, I can’t. Comedic gold. I love. I would go from dying of laughter to intense emotions so fast in this ep I got whiplash and for that, I am thankful to Gina. She always delivers 🔥

#ellick #WWR #ncis #lol this is literally a total of 6k words #what is wrong with me #don't answer that #hope y'all who stick with it enjoy 😘 #18x06

[hurricaneonanesthesia]

Stargazing

Hi! Admin Anesthesia here! It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Ahahahahahah...sorry for being really inactive. I’m still having a really bad writer’s block and this is low effort, but here’s a story I spontaneously decided to write instead of doing my chemistry homework. As you can see, I am failing said subject. Enjoy! -------------------- Summary: Dream had been missing for the whole day and George gets worried. He decides to try and find him. When he finds Dream on the roof, he doesn't know what to think.

Trigger Warnings: None

Content Warnings: Swearing -------------------- “Hey...I got your text, Tubbo. You can’t find Dream?” George asked as soon as he came into the house.

“Yeah, we-....did you run here?”

George was breathing heavily, nodding, “Yeah, why wouldn’t I?”

Tubbo shrugged, “No reason, it just seems kinda weird for ‘just friends’ to do.”

George tried to rebut but was breathing too hard to get it through his lungs. Of course, Tubbo would still bring it up after 7 years.

"Tubbo, it's been 7 years."

"Okay? And?" The younger raised an eyebrow, "That doesn't change anything. If anything, you two have been flirting a lot more since you rejected him."

George rolled his eyes, "Tubbo."

"Whatever. Dad and Aunt Puffy's in the other room. Tell them you're here."

George just scoffed, messing up Dream's younger brother's hair up before walking into the living room.

“George….what are you doing here?” Schlatt asked as soon as he caught sight of the teenager.

“Tubbo told me that you guys can’t find Dream. I didn’t see him in school today, so I got worried. I’m here to help you find him.”

Immediately, Schlatt and Puffy gave a look at one another, which George recognized as the same one Tubbo had given him.

“Okay, you can stop that!” George huffed, “Where did you last see him?”

“Going to sleep yesterday. He was missing in the morning, but we all assumed he went to school. Imagine our surprise.”

George sighed, “He's been missing for the whole day. Nothing seems out of the ordinary, so I don't think he'd run away. Alright, can I check his room and see if he left any clues?”

Schlatt nodded, “We’ll be looking around the school for any clues. Feel free to come join us afterward. We're going around the neighborhood to see if anyone else has caught sight of him. It's getting dark.”

“Cool." George smiled as he went up towards Dream's bedroom.

He looked around. It looked the same since the last time he had been in the room. Dream's bed was made and there were fresh clothes on his bed that he hadn’t put away. George looked around his desk, only finding a note written in scribbles.

They were romantic gift ideas by the looks of it. Chocolate, flowers, jewelry, song, etc. Probably for the guy that Dream had said he was desperately in love with.

George rolled his eyes. Dream had been so insistent on him moving on from George. Something that George would never admit hurt him. Because George was in love with his best friend.

He looked around for more clues, as to find where his best friend was.

Dream's iconic green sweatshirt hung from his chair. He never went anywhere without it, whether it was just cold or if he wanted to give it to George. A gesture he did often to tease how big it looks on him.

A breeze came in through the slightly opened window and George fixed his gaze on it.

George pursed his lips as he opened the window all the way before stepping out onto the roof.

As soon as he came out, he called for Dream's name, looking around. No answer came, so he tried to walk around the room. It was pretty dark and he didn’t see where he was going, so of course, he started to trip on one of the roof tiles.

“Woah, woah, woah. That’s really dangerous. What have I said about going onto dangerous things without me next to you?”

Someone had caught him and George looked up to see Dream.

“Hey.” He felt his breath be taken away as he looked into Dream's eyes. “Did I ever mention how good you look in the night?”

“Oh, very funny.” Dream rolled his eyes as he pulled George along towards where he was hidden. A place in the roof which wouldn’t be seen when you come out of the house nor when you came out into the roof. “I’m guessing because you can’t see most of me in the dark?”

George giggled as he sat down next to his best friend, “No, I just think you look really good underneath the moonlight.”

“...oh, well then thank you.”

“So...are you going to tell me what’s up?” George asked as he noticed Dream hadn’t let go of his hand yet.

“What do you mean?”

“Well...for starters, you ditched school and worried everyone for a whole day by disappearing.”

“It’s not like those fuckers care about me anyway. All they do care about is what power I could bring them.” Dream snorted. “Which is why I’m also asking...what are you doing here?”

“I was worried and scared that something had happened. I know that you won’t believe people when they say that they care about you because at the end of the night….you’ve been through some shitty things. I know that you won't admit how bad Schlatt was of a dad to you and how you never wanted Tubbo to feel this way, but they still care about you and Schlatt is trying to become better. Even if that isn't enough to convince you, I’ve been here since the start, haven’t I? And I’m not about to hurt you...so you can trust me.”

Dream was quiet, clenching his jaw as he looked off.

George sighed, “What did you do the whole day?”

Dream shrugged, pointing to a notebook on the side, “Writing.”

George raised an eyebrow and Dream just pulled the notebook away from him and just pushed George to lay down on the roof.

He was pointing at the sky, “Ursa Major’s right there.”

George glanced at the constellation, “It’s quite magical.”

“Will you tell me the story again?”

He looked at Dream in the eyes and sat up, pulling Dream up. George held onto his hands, “Dream….what’s going on?”

“Nothing! Why would anything be going on?”

George just gave him a worried look, “I won’t judge.”

Dream sighed, “I’m scared.”

“Of what?”

“People leaving me. It just keeps happening. Over and over again. And I don’t know why I’m even telling you now...because I know that one day you’ll leave me too. Because no one….stays for me. Why would they anyway? I’m absolutely golden to everyone at school. Yet, I'm still the manipulative bitch to them. At one point, everyone realizes that I will never change and then they give up. They leave, wanting more than I can give and-”

George just pulled Dream into a hug. “I promise you...I will never leave you. Because when it comes to it, every part of you is amazing. Your flaws and all. Who cares what other people think? As long as I’m here for you, right?”

Dream seemed to stiffen at the hug for a second, but soon relaxed, “I guess.”

“So? Why would that make you skip out on a school day like that?” George asked.

Dream sighed, “As you know...I’ve been….infatuated with a guy.”

George's heart sank. Right. For a second, George had almost forgotten that the guy he was desperately in love with was desperately in love with another.

“Did he hurt you? Quick, tell me the name so I can hunt him down. I-”

“Nothing like that.” Dream chuckled, ruffling George's hair, “I’m just scared that if I tell him...everything will crumble down and he’ll leave. And when he leaves, everyone else will too.”

“I won’t,” George whispered, looking at Dream genuinely. “No matter who it is, I won’t ever leave you.”

“I doubt it.”

“What could make you realize that I’m not lying? That I would do anything for you?”

Dream sighed, laying back on the roof, “So...gonna tell me the story about Ursa Major or what?”

George laid next to him, humoring him as he told the story. At the end, George looked at him, “Are you seriously not gonna tell me who it is? He’s clearly hurting you.”

Dream didn’t say anything, just leaning his head next to George's and pointing to Orion’s belt.

He sighed, “DREAM!”

“Why do you want to know? Because I know that he’ll know as soon as I tell you. And I know I’ll be hurt because he’s desperately in love with someone else. I just don’t know who! I’ve known all my life that we weren’t supposed to be together, but I’m desperately in love with him and that little piece of hope is what is still keeping me going! I...want to move on...but I can’t.”

“Dream…”

“Forget it.”

George looked at Dream with pleading eyes, "Dream...please. Just tell me who it is and I’ll help you.”

And in that moment, George knew that look in Dream's eyes. Dream needed to tell someone, but he was scared.

All George did was place a hand on Dream's shoulder before Dream gave in.

Dream huffed, looking at him, “It’s you….okay? It’s always been you. ever since that first day that I saw you, ever since the first time I asked you out, every single day...I fall in love with you more. And I know it’s not healthy because you don’t love me...but you told me that first day when I was rejected that you’d give us a chance in the coming years. And I’m waiting for that chance, but I know it’s never going to come. And...you’re going to leave me soon….so if you are, please...just do it now. Because I don't want to be stuck in this rut all my life, wondering what we could be.”

George stood there in shock. Dream laid back down, turning away from him.

Dream was...still in love with George.

George gave a small laugh, “I guess that makes the two of us, huh?”

“Just go, George. I don’t want any jokes.” Dream muttered bitterly.

“No, no, Dream, look at me.”

He didn’t move, so George sighed, standing up and making his way to where he was.<

Holy shit, George did not think this through. It was really high up.

"Oh boy. I did not think this through. I forgot about my fear of heights." George muttered and Dream sighed, holding out his hand.

He took Dream's hand as he successfully sat back down. He smiled, “Thanks, Dream.”

Dream sighed, nodding. He looked away from George, but was still holding onto his hand so that he wouldn’t fall if he tried to stand up again.

George took the one not holding Dream's hand and used it to help cup his cheek, making him look at George.

Dream wasn’t ready for any sort of rejection, George could tell.

George just leaned in until they were inches apart.

“George, what are you doing?” Dream asked quietly.

“May I?”

Dream didn’t do anything, seemingly frozen.

"It's now or never, Dream." George whispered, "Because...I love you."

All Dream did was close the gap between them. George melted into it and Dream let go of George's hand to pull him closer. George hung his arm from the nape of Dream's neck, going deeper into his kiss. As they realized they needed air, George was the first to pull out.

“I’ve been in love with you since the day you offered a lollipop to me. I wanted to say yes that day you asked me out. But we were so young and everything was terrifying. I was scared that you’d leave me alone. I've been abandoned by a lot of my friends. I didn't know if you would too. So when you talked about you being in love with this other guy, I just thought that you had moved on. But here we are...standing on a rooftop 7 years later and you’re still in love with little old me.”

“You...love me.”

George nodded and Dream laughed, pulling him in for another kiss.

“I love you too.” Dream chuckled as he finally laid back again, pointing to another constellation and George finally listened, helping him name the stories related to each constellation.

#dreamnotfound #dreamnotfound fluff #big brother dream au #dadschlatt #aunt puffy #mentioned tubbo #mentioned puffy #mentioned schlatt #high school au #dream smp #hahaha help #i wrote this instead of doing my homework #dnf #dnf confession #dreamnotfound confession

[hitsuhinahappiness]

Scar Map - All Sewn Up Chapter 2

The halls of Shin’ō academy were noisy and filled with the voices of its students, socializing before class, grabbing their books, their pads, their swords, and their fighting equipment. Although the area was crowded and loud, one voice rang out louder than the rest, at least to Toshiro Hitsugaya.

He sat near the window, waiting for one of his Kido classes to begin. Hitsugaya watched his longtime-friend chat with a male student, one with dark brown hair and bright green eyes. He first felt something was off about him when he had snaked his way behind her storage locker and surprised her when she slammed it shut. Toshiro would have lost interest and assumed it was a friend of hers playing a prank, but then he heard her yelp in surprise. That peaked his attention. Hinamori was nice enough to the guy, but she didn’t seem like she wanted to engage him any longer, assuming she had a class of her own to go to or an instructor to see. The bold brown-haired boy didn’t seem to catch the hint.

“I’ll tell ya what, I’m throwing a party at my parents’ place. They’re off on some mission in the world of the living. Gonna have lots of sake! Eh? Whaddya say?”

“You know, that sounds like so much fun, but I’ve got a lot of studying to catch up on, so thank you for the invitation, but I’ll have to take a raincheck.” She responds politely, then attempts to walk to her next destination, but is once again halted in her tracks by the boy, who slid in front of her as she tried to step away.

“I don’t think you understand,” He says, narrowing his eyes. “My name is Tajima Yoshiyuki. Both of my parents are full-fledged soul reapers. I’m kind of a big deal around here.” He points his thumb towards his chest and continues.

“I’m gonna be the one carrying on their legacy. In fact, I even plan to surpass them both and become a full-fledged captain of the Thirteen Court Guard Squads.” Yoshiyuki crosses his arms over his chest, closes his eyes and states smugly,

“You don’t just say "no" to me. What have you got to lose? So far, you’re a nobody--AGH--!”

The arrogant man was unable to finish before Toshiro grabbed him by the back of the neck and twisted his arm behind him. He slammed Tajima up against the wooden lockers with a solid ‘THUD’.

“I believe she politely declined your invitation,” Hitsugaya said to him in a low growl, pinning his arm further up against his back to force a sharp 'CRACK' from his bones.

“GAHAA--!” Tajima screams.

“Maybe you should learn how to take a hint!” The silver-haired boy exclaims as he pulls Yoshiyuki back by the collar of his uniform, spins him around, twists to the side to put all his weight on one foot, then pounds his other full force into the already regretful boy’s back, sending him flying into some chairs.

Toshiro is left holding his right fist out in front of him as Yoshiyuki stumbles and slips as he tries to get up onto his feet and finally scurry away.

“Same temper, same old Shiro.” Momo chimes in behind him. His shoulders relax from their tensed state and he glances back at her.

“It’s been a while! Look at how much you’ve grown!” The pig-tailed girl exclaimed.

He turns and before he’s able to reprimand her, she’s practically on top of him, her arms around his neck, hugging him tightly. He settles on letting her have this one and relaxes in her arms, after all, she did just get harassed by some strange, wolvish student in the hall.

I’ll have to have a chat with the headmaster about Mr. - … what did he say his name was?

Hitsugaya blushes as Momo buries her face into his shoulder.

“Thank you for coming to my rescue, Shiro, although,” Momo begins, as she lifts her head to meet his shining emerald eyes and places a palm on her hip, the other still slung around his shoulder.

“I could have handled him myself.” He smiles ever so slightly back at her.

“I know that, stupid. I just wanted the assholes here to know that you’ve got someone in your corner who isn’t as polite and kind as you manage to be. Don’t get me wrong, Momo, you’re strong, but you’re a pushover, same as always!” He begins to brush her off of him, and Hinamori pouts.

“You can’t let them treat you like that. You’re better than them. You know that. Can’t you feel the energy growing inside you?” He says to her, now holding her shoulders and staring into her chocolate eyes.

Hinamori sighs and nods.

“So… you’re going to be a soul reaper now, huh?” She says as a smirk creeps onto her lips.

“Kinda lame, don’tcha think?” She prods, elbowing him in the ribs. Toshiro crosses his arms and closes his eyes with a hmph.

“Yeah, yeah, I know…” He sighs.

She knows there’s something on his mind, so she waits patiently, even as others pass to get to class. Toshiro continues when all the students flood into their respective classrooms and the hall is vacant save for the two of them. His eyes are cast anywhere but her face to avoid showing emotion.

“Granny wasn’t doing well when I left her.” He admits. Momo’s eyes become wide and filled with worry.

“As it turns out, I’ve been… suffocating her with my… immense spiritual pressure. I wake up every morning and the room is just… coated in a layer of ice... I suppose I didn’t have any other choice than to come here and learn to control the powers inside me.” Hinamori nods, and once again, draws him back into a hug. Normally, he’d resist, but right about now, Hitsugaya realized she was just what he needed.

“You made the right decision.” She tells him before lowering her voice and saying, “I really missed you.” His eyes widened a bit, he had never heard her sound so… wanton. He shakes it off, just happy to be in her orbit once again, and rests his hand on her head, hugging her back.

“Yeah, I guess I kinda missed you too.”

They both chuckle softly, seemingly lost in a world of their own. Toshiro allows her to rest her head against him for a few more moments before slowly taking a step back and taking a hold of her shoulders again. He can tell she’s exhausted, that she’s been training extra hard lately in preparation for their final exams, which, unbeknownst to her, he’d be taking the exams alongside her as a prodigy student who was able to skip a few years due to his raw talent.

“You need to know,” He takes on a more earnest tone.

“If you’re ever in trouble, I’m going to do everything in my ability to help you. I won’t ever leave you alone or let anyone hurt you, okay?” Hitsugaya looks deep into her eyes, a serious and concerned expression on his face. She frowns at him a little and uses her thumbs to try and smooth out his eyebrows.

“Okay… the same goes for you, you know… you’re so serious, Shiro. Lighten up a little.”

I’m sure that’s what you’d tell me right about now.

“Lighten up, Toshiro.”

The things I’d do to hear your voice again… and yet, how am I supposed to face you? I’ve let you down. I wasn’t strong enough to protect you. How can I tell her that her idol and mentor has left for good? And that he is now our sworn enemy?

He walked out of the meeting hall to see Rangiku waiting for him, her back against the wall and her arms crossed over her chest. She looked up when she heard the doors open and her eyes glistened.

“Oh, Captaaaain~What took you so looong~” She sang, skipping towards him.

“Matsumoto,” He started, striding up to her.

“I need your help with something... “ He looked around and spoke to her quietly.

“Are you willing to break some rules?” He asked. Rangiku froze, narrowing her eyes at him. Her captain raised an eyebrow back at her.

“... Well?” He badgered when she didn’t answer.

“You? Break the rules?” Her serious expression couldn’t have held up another five seconds before she started to break down in hysterical laughter. Toshiro rolled his eyes.

“You--AHAHAHAHAHAH, y-you want me… to help YOU--” Before she could finish and incriminate the both of them, he slapped his hand over her mouth. She stopped laughing.

“Come on. Not here.” He said frigidly, flash-stepping out of sight.

Rangiku sighed.

“This damn boy..”

A/N: I hope you all enjoyed the second chapter! As always, constructive criticism is never not welcome. Let me know what you all think so far!Sorry the italics are weird, I tried to only italicize one word at a time, but it won't let me! Strange. I know I'm doing this code things right! I think..

#HitsuHina #Toshiro Hitsugaya #Momo Hinamori #Bleach #Bleach Anime #Bleach Manga #fanfic

[juminsmysticmc]

Hiya! Im still a bit new to tumblr so i dont know if this is exactly how i ask for a request ^^; if its not im sorry ,_, but ill to request a RFA and V, Saeran meeting with a MC with one arm (like she lost her arm in a accident, etc.) PS i love your content! Its very interesting, enjoyable, admiring, and fun to read! Have a good day/night take care of yourself! :)

RFA + Minor Duo meeting a Mc with only one Arm

Hello Baby! Thank you very much for your nice comment! I hope I didn’t let you wait for too long! And by the way, you did it perfectly right (the request thing I mean) I remember the first time I tried to use Tumblr, ahahahahahah.

Jumin

You were really scared to meet Jumin in person.

You respected the black-haired man and looked up to him  so you didn’t want to make any mistakes to hurt his reputation. You knew perfectly well that other people would talk about you.

But when the guard led you in and Jumin noticed that you only had one arm, he acted as if it wasn’t anything.

He didn’t even ask you, which made you comfortable.

He was literally the first person on earth who didn’t ask you about it, which made you feel special and see him in a special way.

When the night time came, you began to tell him on your own ,,You didn’t ask about the other arm,’’ you began.

,,No, of course, I didn’t. It’s something You need to tell me when you’re comfortable. I don’t want to force you into anything. If you want to tell me, I will gladly listen to you. If not, I will patiently wait for you to be ready,’’ he told you and stroked your hair.

And so you told him about your accident, feeling comfortable telling him for the very first time.

What surprised you too was that no one ever said anything bad about you or your arm, not even that you got an artificial limb two years later, something that Jumin gave to you as a present and made you the happiest woman on earth.

Zen

,,Okay!’’ you took a deep breath and rang the doorbell.

A few moments later, Zen opened the door, surprised to see you.

You weren’t nervous at all.

You were sure of yourself.

And perhaps this was something Zen liked about you too.

The time came and the both of you sat together on the couch and began to talk when he asked you how it happened that you only had one arm.

,,You don’t need to tell me if you’re uncomfortable. I’m sorry if I’m being rude,’’ Zen tried to explain.

,,It’s okay,’’ you assured him.

,,I am okay with it,’’ you nodded and told him, without any problems that it happened in a car accident when you were 17 and driving with your friends.

,,Let’s say that I was lucky,’’ you told him.

,,I mean, I can at least enjoy this moment with you here. My friend, however, didn’t lose an arm. She lost her life,’’ you told him.

This was something that actually made you emotional again, but after Zen hugged you and told you that he respected you for being so strong, you were feeling better again.

Yoosung

,,Mc!’’ Yoosung called you when he could finally meet you.

He hugged you and actually made you notice that he injured his eye. He also told you that he did all this just to save you!

You guys talked a bit until he wanted to take your left hand and noticed that you only had one arm.

Of course he looked a bit shocked and you noticed it, but he quickly looked up at you and looked at you with cute puppy eyes.

,,I’m sorry, this was pretty idiotic of me, right?’’ he asked you.

,,Kinda, yes,’’ you honestly giggled ,,but I am used to these looks so-’’

,,NO!’’ Yoosung shouted.

,,I actually thought I saw wrong and tried to blink a few times. I got worried that my eyes turned so bad in so little time… I’m sorry, I swear, I have no problem with it!’’ he whined.

You could hear from his voice tone that he meant it.

,,It’s okay, Yoosung. I trust you. Let’s talk some more, okay?’’ you smiled.

And indeed Yoosung didn’t seem uncomfortable, but instead tried to make you feel more comfortable and kept holding your hand the whole time, making you feel safe in his presence.

Jaehee

At your first RFA party, your worst fear was that the RFA members would do anything to draw attention to your missing arm.

Well, your fear kind of came true, but also got erased by the happiness you felt when Jaehee asked you to open a shop with her.

The action made you cry out of happiness because if she would have wanted, she just could have hidden the idea about her project, but instead she still asked you because she believed in you.

After the party, you decided to ask her about it ,,I mean, you saw me and you saw that I was missing an arm, why did you still ask me?’’

,,Mc, because this doesn’t matter to me! I like you as a person, not because you have two arms! I like you and your character! I believe in you, just like you believed in me. This time it was my job! And together we can achieve our goal,’’ she mumbled and smiled at you.

The both of you practiced a few times and you could perfectly handle the coffee shop with Jaehee and the help of only one arm.

You became the most famous coffee shop and you and Jaehee were really proud.

Saeyoung

The red haired man already knew from your medical records that you only had one arm so he was kind of prepared.

However, Saeyoung didn’t imagine that his mood would dampen so much when he met you for the first time.

Of course it wasn’t because you only had one arm, but because the situation was really bad.

And besides, he was concerned about your health.

Luckily, things calmed down after the whole mess.

It was a big shock that Jihyun died and it was a pretty hard time with Saeran while he stayed at his house, but after the mess was cleaned up, Saeyoung had the chance to listen to your side of the story since he only knew what happened from the medical records.

You finally told him that when you were younger you leaned your hand outside of the car while driving and one day the car from the opposite side was so close to you, that you injured yourself pretty bad and had to have an amputation.

,,Sometimes I still feel the pain in my arm even though I can’t. It’s called phantom pain,’’ you told him.

But your story only triggered Saeyoung to learn something more about artificial limbs and made him build a super high technology prosthesis for you, of course it was only because you agreed with him and felt comfortable.

Saeran

At night in bed, Saeran still apologized to you for hurting you so badly when he was Saeran.

,,I said horrible things to you,’’ he whispered.

,,Don’t worry,’’ you responded.

Saeran hurt you back then, but Ray helped you feel better and this actually made up for all the mistakes Saeran made.

Besides, you knew that he wasn’t in his right mind.

Saeran had no problem with the fact that you only had one arm. Instead, he was pretty amazed by you and all the things you could do despite only having one arm.

You could also do a lot of things with your feet and this made him respect you even more because he knew perfectly well that he would never be able to top you.

Even though he already had so much to do because of Saeyoung and his ,,Father,’’ he always tried his best to help you and support you with everything you had to do.

Having a person like this actually made you feel so much better.

Jihyun

At first, the blue-haired man got scared that Rika did something to you.

Knowing that you were in an accident still made him very sad, but Jihyun still liked the way you enjoyed life.

You were his inspiration for everything in the world.

And thanks to you, his adopted daughter was also able to learn that everyone in the world, despite being different, still deserved to be treated well.

Jihyun was also the first person you ever told about the loss of your arm and the story behind it.

He still remembered the day perfectly.

Even though the poison made him feel sick, listening to your story on your lap and knowing that he had a strong woman beside him made him get through the pain and made him always confront his fears.

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13.09.2020// 23:17  MEST

#jumin han #jumin x reader #jumin x mc #zen hyun ryu #zen x mc #zen x reader #hyun ryu #Yoosung Kim #yoosung x reader #yoosung x mc #jaehee kang #jaehee x mc #jaehee x reader #luciel choi #luciel x reader #luciel x mc #seven x mc #seven x reader #saeyoung choi #saeyoung x mc #707 x mc #707 x reader #saeran choi #saeran x mc #saeran x reader #jihyun kim #jihyun x mc #jihyun x reader #mystic messenger #Headcanon

[emsvegetables]

Hi! Congrats for the 1.5k! May I get a haikyuu date please? I'm Rebeca, I'm serious, shy, I easy get embarrassed and nervous, my face turns red:( haha my friends say I'm super cute adorable kind funny and that is easy to get along with me, people tend to support themselves on me, I like to help, I'm super romantic and loving, I love hugs, tender words and actions, I love to laugh, I laugh easily at funny things, not to mean/grotesc "jokes", I've never had a bf and I really want to be in love 1/2

Rebeca here hehe 2/2 I look for a boy that is smart funny kind respectful romantic selfconfident and goofy? I easy get anxious so I want someone who is mature enough to understand it, love me and accompanied me thru that, I'd like us to be a team, to laugh enjoy and get enthusiastic together, I want someone loyal and patience who loves to cuddle. My ideal date would always be at a amusement park or at a picnic, I feel is perfect to have fun talk get relax hold hands and hug. Thank you so much!”

hi rebeca!!!!! thank you <3!!! HMM

OSAMU MIYA

yessss!!!! definitely him!!!!!

he loves teasing you sometimes bc he loves to see your face turn red and it’s so cute <3!!!!!

he’s definitely funny, kind (in a weird way LOL), romantic (HE MAKES FOOD FOR YOU ALL THE TIME), respectful (literally he is a GENTLEMAN PLS he always helps u carry things if he sees you struggling with them)!!!!

he’s also mature enough, and he’ll always be by your side so if you ever get anxious, you can count on him to calm you down!!! he’s super loyal too, and would never do anything to betray your trust bc he’s a good guy!!!!!!!!

a date with him...

hmm!!

he probably just tells you to dress light one day and you’re like ????

“samu where are you taking me?”

“it’s a secret :)”

!!!!!

and then he’s grinning at you when you come out of the room and he’s pressing a kiss onto your forehead.

“you’re cute.”

!!!!!!!!

he laughs when you blush and push him away AHAHAHAHAHAH

and then he brings you...

TO THE BEACH?????

and then he’s laying down a picnic mat and bringing out his onigiri and other things!!!!!!

and you’re like

“is this a picnic????”

“why? do you not like it? we can go home if you want.”

NO U LOVE IT DJEJDJDISUD

#osamu x reader #haikyuu matchups #hq matchup #haikyuu matchup

[mysterylover123]

BNHA Rewatch: Episode 61 “Deku vs Kacchan Part 2″

 mysterylover123

O.T.P.

This is gonna get kinda emotional.

Deku is turning Kacchan’s fight proposal down. Dammit Deku! He’s being serious!

Hoo boy that Kacchan face. No light in his eyes. That realization, just…just bleeding through…hoo boy.

“If the way you admired him was correct, does that mean my way of thinking was wrong?” OMG ITS HAPPENING. HE’S REALIZING IT YA’LL.

The flashbacks to bb Deku and Kacchan the feels.

The white void, it’s just the two of them. 

That Deku line from the first episode. I’m transported right back, ya’ll. It’s that first love again, that same feeling I had when I first discovered this series all the way back in summer of last year.

So Deku starts by thinking too hard about what’s going on and immediately gets blasted.

“You think too much” hoo boy recently Mother’s Basement posted the analysis of this fight and pointed out that this is actually a flaw of Deku’s that he can learn to remedy by adopting some of Kacchan’s impulsiveness. Never has the phrase “you complete me” been more accurate.

This freaking animation. It’s so beautiful. OMG.

“Wait for me” OH MAN BB DEKU BB KACCHAN RUNNING I’M DEAD I AM DYING

Cause he loves ya you dope.

Cute overload

WHY WHY WHY hoo boy Kacchan flashbacks.

Dat little trip oh man. He’s so bummed Deku doesn’t wanna fight and Deku’s little kick actually knocked him down.

Ooh boy. Here it comes. The music went out

Hold his freaking hand some day dammit

Oh god I can’t watch this again I can’t I can’t

“why is to you became strong…while I - “ OH GOD HERE IT COMES HERE IT COMES

OH GOD. Slow clap. Okamoto and Chapin both deserve freaking awards for that performance. I mean holy shit. That voice acting. Those cracks. That hit. It makes me cry. I’m tearing up right now. Cause you see, this whole episode, it really rests on the ability of Bakugou’s Seiyuu and VA to pour everything into the performance. It’s not going to hit without both of them giving the vocal acting performance of a lifetime, and they both knocked it out of the freaking park. I actually love them both as his voice; I don’t have a preference for dub over sub, as regards their performances (not the dialogue translations), because both are incredible. Just. Slow clap. All of the awards, please.

Look at how Deku looks at him. He’s the best. He just…he cares, so much. I mean, you’d admittedly have to be a pretty heartless bastard not to feel a little compassionate after hearing that speech but still. Kacchan’s so fucking lucky he has Deku and he doesn’t even know it. I want one too.

He’s crying. Me too.

Kacchan no Kacchan no nononononono 

Oh god Deku you beautiful darling

“may not be any meaning” I DISAGREE THIS IS THE CULMINATION OF AN ENTIRE SERIES’ WORTH OF 100+ SYMBOLIC CHAPTERS DETAILING YOUR GROWTH FROM ANGRY YELLING RIVALS TO RIVALS WHO SUPPORT EACH OTHER DAMMIT IT’S EVERYTHING

“May not be any meaning in winning or losing” lol are you just saying that in hindsight, Future Deku, cause you know you lost?

Deku didn’t have to do this. He didn’t have to fight Kacchan or even let him know the truth.

And note, he didn’t accept until he realized there was someone he could save. Someone who needs saving, to be helped. And this is how to help him.

“The only one who can accept his feelings is me.” Ya’ll heard that haters? Say it a little louder for the people in the back, Deku. He’s got his heart.

And look who’s smiling again, eyes lighting up again, the minute Deku started fighting back?

“I couldn’t just completely reject him” Guess who also sad that about their fiery spiky blond spouse in BNHA? Kacchan’s dad in that omake about their marriage.

Their relationship was wrong, but now it’s right. 

They never talked about how they really felt. Communication is the cornerstone of a healthy relationship, folks. Go on. Talk about your feels. Your real feelings.

Of that was one hell of a hit.

That speedy recovery though. Deku is fast. 

Oh wow Kacchan hit it too

That smile. That smile OMG that is THE HOTTEST, by far, that Deku has ever looked in animation. And I don’t say that lightly.

The translation here is either “I’ve” or “you’ve” gotten stronger. Both fit fine, which is the crazy part. Deku could be either saying that he himself has improved, or complimenting Bakugou, which does admittedly make more sense with what he was saying before, while ‘I’ve’ fits his cocky grin here better. I want him to flash a cocky grin more. It suits him. (BTW The English Dub compromises between the two and says’ we’ve both’.

Katsuki assumes Deku has a plan. Always overestimating him.

“That’s what I hate about you” OMG HE FINALLY TELLS HIM HOW HE FEELS. “I can never tell what you’re thinking” Because ya know he’s so good at understanding how everyone else thinks and feels.

He’s always being mean to Deku. Deku has seen him at his very worst and yet still admires him. Maybe that’s scary, you know? Unconditional love is…kinda terrifying. But so, so beautiful. So he has to rationalize it that Deku is just looking down on him.

Wow Deku sure took you long enough! He’s been saying that since day 1!

“I wouldn’t want anything to do with them anymore” Deku there you go being empathetic and wonderful and perfect again. So understanding you darling, darling boy.

 “Along with the parts I hated about you, I saw all the amazing things you could do.” THAT’S ADMIRATION, FOLKS. ADMIRATION WITHOUT IDOLIZATION. Without hero-worship. Acknowledging the good and the bad. Seeing a person for who they really are and always, always seeing the best of them, even at their worst.

“MUCH CLOSER TO ME THAN ALL MIGHT” Do you hear him guys? The closest person to him, closer than All Might. Closer than his freaking #1 favorite hero. The dub version has “actually in my life”, which isn’t a bad idea either. Both are true. That is so powerful. The person who

Oh yeah and again how does Deku advance in power? How does he Go Beyond? KACCHAN. Full cowling, he found from him. OFA itself, he gained by saving him. And 8%.

THAT SMILE. “I thought you were amazing.” He loves you you idiot. 

He kept chasing after him. He’ll never stop. He won’t just give up.

He passed him. And Bakugo looks happy. Possibly because he wants Deku to do better. Possibly because it seems to be confirming his might-makes-right theory. Possibly both.

ANIMATION-GASM AGAIN. 

AHAHAHAHAHAH ITS THAT CUT ITS THAT CUT DEKU’S DANCING FEET

THE VOID AROUND THEM IT’S JUST YOU AND ME 

AND THE BLOCK OMG THIS IS BEAUTIFUL THIS IS THE MOST FREAKING BEAUTIFUL ANIMATION IVE EVER SEEN

I’m serious. They brought out all the stops for this one. Of course. they knew, they had to know, that this was it. The animation, too, had to be perfect, or else it wasn’t gonna come across. And it is. Even better, in my opinion, than the animation in the stuff that came before it. Bones you are incredible. 

Higher gear. Can anyone doubt that Katsuki is important to Deku’s journey after this?

“This is gross, so I can’t say it”.. “I love you?” A reactor I follow actually said that after that line. That’s how intense they are.

Anyway IMAGE OF VICTORY SPEECH. The Ep that keeps on giving. 

Kacchan is his image of victory. The other side of him. And he adopts some of his traits.

“The part of you I hate and yet” How much love can you have for a person when you can somehow still admire the darkest, meanest parts of them? I don’t have a very perfect definition of love but I think that’s probably a big part of it.

“my image of victory is of you” feels overload. Feels O.D. 

dat crane shot.

My one disappointment with this episode is that they used the US of Smash OST instead of the Katsuki and Izuku OST for this scene. CMON GUYS. SERIOUSLY. THE KATSUKI AND IZUKU THEME HAD TO HAVE BEEN WRITTEN FOR THIS EPISODE AND THIS MOMENT ALONE. WHAT WERE YOU THINKING. 

“I have to beat you” the music the feels omg

Hahaha psych. Kacchan wins anyway. 

WOOF. Like OK this is in the manga, this positioning, but it’s only for one frame. In the anime it goes on for like, an uncomfortably long time, with the slow panting, and the close-ups on the twisting body parts, and…combined with the fact that all of Deku’s admiring girlfriends in this arc have also landed on top of him in a similar pose, and you can’t blame me for the fact that my mind went into rather…R-rated territory. 

Kacchan’s disappointed. He didn’t want Deku to lose. He wanted Deku to win.

That breaking  voice again. Don’t make me cry more dammit it’s too late.

ALL MIGHT! I need an MST3K style All Might commentary-reaction to this entire damn thing. Seriously Hori. If you ever do an extra, please make one that’s a serious of All Might panel reacting to this whole thing. I NEED THAT. 

Finishing each other’s sentences again.

“It’s too late” IT’S NEVER TOO LATE YOU CYNICAL PORCUPINE.

This is such a great moment of catharsis. Why Deku indeed? Well, you’re about to learn.

THAT LINE DELIVERY AGAIN. That Broken voice. Both voice actors are too good.

Deku’s legs though. WOWSA. A little detail I’ve noticed is that Kacchan has really buff, sexy arms and Deku has really buff, sexy legs. Because those are the body parts they use, while the reverse parts are more average.

“I’m weak too” You’re making me weak I can’t take it. His voice his voice that fucking voice

DEKU’S EYES. THEY’RE WELLING. 

HE’S GONNA CRY TOO.

I also need an All Might in my life. I kinda blame myself all the time for things outside of my control. Deku AND Kacchan both blamed themselves for what happened. For All Might’s end. And neither one was really responsible, but they’re just like that. I relate, painfully, to both of them. I have a Deku side and a Bakugo side - deep down, I think we all do. Maybe one more than the other, but that’s what you get when you create two characters who initially act as kind of…distilled embodiments of two sides of the super-hero coin. One all super with no hero, the other all hero with no super - at least, at the beginning.

THAT PIANO MUSIC IT SOUNDS FAMILIAR. IT’S ALL MIGHT’S FREAKING THEME YA’LL!

Ooh boy All Might’s BKDK Speech! Both of their teachers ship them, you guys. All Might AND Aizawa both give big, beautiful speeches about their compatibility. In case you somehow missed it. 

Being fixated on victory like you, young Bakugou…and wanting to save those in trouble, like you, young Midoriya…both of those feelings are necessary.” “You guys are perfect for each other”, says the reactor I mentioned earlier (who isn’t even a hardcore BKDK shipper, mind you, it’s just that it’s that obvious.) And it’s true. You need both. They want each other, they need each other, because they have what the other lacks. They complete each other.  

This is the shonen rival equivalent of having the couple in a rom-com confess at the end of act one instead of act three. It upsets all the cliches and is all the better for it. Though even the most hardcore, dedicated anime rivals, I don’t think have ever gone this married-couple with the ‘mutual respect’ and ‘making each other stronger’ thing.

WIN AND SAVE SAVE TO WIN. They look each other in the eyes.

Oh god not that voice again I’m dying. Don’t make me cry again Kacchan.  

“Don’t lose.” SUPPORTIVE KACCHAN I LOVE SUPPORTIVE KACCHAN.

“I’ll get stronger” CONFIDENT DEKU I LOVE CONFIDENT DEKU. 

“Of the students only you.” ONLY YOU. 

I put this moment really high on my list of Kacchan’s nicest moments, because it means a lot to me and to All Might. All Might acknowledges it. He’s a good secret keeper.

Oh and Deku thanks him too in the English Dub, BTW. Not the manga but nice dub touch. 

OMG he’s such a Tsundere.

He told him everything. HE KNOWS. The only one who knows. None of Deku’s other love interests do. And he has no interest in telling them. 

Kacchan asks why he told him. And I’ve got an answer, after obsessively rereading Chapter 11/rewatching Episode 8 a lot: BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU, YOU IDIOT. You were mad at him for lying about his quirk to you. You asked what was going on (loudly). You accused him of lying to you your whole life. So he told you the truth. Because he can lie to his mom, and he can lie to his friends and teachers and the entire freaking world. But he cannot lie to YOU. Because he loves you. Idiot baka. 

Oh and what’s that music playing there? Why does that sound familiar? YOU SAY RUN YOU SAY RUN YOU SAY RUN IT’S BACK. And you know? That’s I think because YSR symbolizes Deku’s heroic inspiration. The inspiration he both takes in and gives to others. And here, he’s both being inspired by Kacchan, and inspiring him at the same  time.

Now Kacchan is doing the same. “Chosen one” He knows. Deku is better. He’s gotta surpass him.

LOL THIS IS FUNNY. THEY SURE BICKER LIKE THEY’RE MARRIED.

This shot composition. Get it? ALL MIGHT’S THE THING BETWEEN ‘EM.

Oh and this. Yay some character development from Kacchan! Another nice moment of his in this ep. Three times! 

All Might Meta’s a bit about how Kacchan took responsibility and felt bad and does a Mom guilt trip on Dadzawa. They’re getting to be kinda married too now.  

“I went in pretty HARD”. OMG stop it you’re making me think bad things again. Just F*CK already.

Their first act as a married couple is to clean the house together. OMG domestic fluff. 

And now for the best Post-credits scene ever. 

Wow Uraraka ships it so bad. 

Oh and some Todobaku bonus! Aw I guess Bakugou just turned down his 3some offer. 

Ooh awkward silence. 

YAY! Though they did kinda wreck it by having Deku bring it up instead of Kacchan 

NOW THEY’RE HEALTHY ENOUGH TO TALK TO EACH OTHER LIKE HUMAN BEINGS.

Kacchan just praised me. Life is good.

Episode 61 is my favorite episode of my favorite show. I think it’s the best and will never be topped. Feels, left and right. It’s really just perfect. Funny, all 3 of the transcendent, best-of-the-best BNHA eps (This, 49 and 23) are basically just two characters fighting for 20 minutes. Nothing more or less. Yet they’re all so, so good. And this one is…I don’t even know how to put it into words. It’s a phenomenal tour-de-force of acting, visuals, animation, music, and of course, writing, all combining together to be just absolutely unsurpassable. Everything that makes this series good, boiled down to it’s essence. And yes, this did seal the deal for me with BKDK. I liked it before, but this made it a done deal. No going back. And I love it.

BEST GIRL OF THE EP: Uraraka for being so supportive.

RANKER: Top 5 Best Moments of This Episode: (it’s really more like a top 50)

5. Deku’s little Dance number

4. True Rivals at Last

3. True feelings at last

2. The Image of Victory Speech

1. “Why did I become...”

#my hero academia #season 3 episode 23 #deku vs kacchan 2 #midoriya izuku #katsuki bakugou #all might #katsudeku #bakudeku #lol i basically just #screencapped the whole damn episode #like from top to bottom #i can't help it #i love it #the best #otp #bkdk is everything ya'll #this episode is so good #i don't think it'll ever be topped #they did it you guys #they actually went and did it and knocked it out of the park.

[ain-t-bovvered]

15X11 Commentary

I’M AN ASSHOLE THAT FORGOT I STILL HAD THIS EPISODE TO FINISH LOL.

Bunch of tired and caffeinated Europeans ( plus a sleepy American) scream together, and then die and try to get on with their day ( lol AS IF)

@smol-and-grumpy​​​ (Nat)

@dean-winchesters-bacon​​​  (Kat)  

@waywardbaby​​  (Zee)

@ain-t-bovvered  (Giulia)

Nat: 3

Nat: 2

Nat: 1

Nat: go

Giulia: lol that tapping tho

 Zee: The hissing again

Giulia: Didn t need the hiss

Nat: All good thing must come to an end

Nat: Ew

Giulia: This song tho

Nat: "Big Sam left Seattle"

Zee: He’s too mousy

Giulia: DADDY

Zee: Oh the snacc

Zee: Tf?

Nat: Ah

Giulia: AAAH JEEZ

Nat: Yum

Giulia: he had to have that deep voice. Damn

Nat: Who dat

Zee: Of course

Giulia: Yummy

Giulia: I hope the Winchester won’t kill him

Giulia: Wow

Zee: Ouch

Zee: Welcome

Giulia: MY BABY

Nat: Ah the other daddy

Giulia: LOVE HIM

Zee: When did his voice get so deep?

Nat: snorts, they really went right

Giulia: WHY DIDN T THEY USE THE PHONE

Zee: Silent mode

Nat: SILENT MODE IS ALWAYS AN OPTION.   I AGREE

Giulia: what a dad

Zee: Old school bitches

Nat: That smolder

Giulia: Change your diet

Zee: Damn. Does he really sound that deep?

Giulia: Jensen doesn t

Nat: Jensen doesn't but he does have a loud voice

Giulia: Compensating for last time’s kick

Giulia: HEWWO

Giulia: Agent Watts

Nat: Working a Case in Alaska

Giulia: Lizzo

Nat: I'm too old for this shit

 Zee: Jack

Giulia: AAAAAH BB

Nat: WHAT

Giulia: AWE BABE

Nat: BABY

Giulia: AWE

Giulia: DON T

Giulia: MY HEART

 Giulia: THAT FUCKING UGH

Giulia: WOW

 Nat: LOL

Zee: Stop shouting y’all

Nat: WE'RE ON A BUDGET

Giulia: wow

Nat: Two forks

Nat: awe

 Zee: Awe poor babies

Giulia: Snort he’s lactose intolerant 

Nat: I feel you Dean

Zee: Nuts is good

Giulia: Nuts is good

Giulia: Yeah

Nat: NUTS IS GOOD

Zee: He should shut his face

Giulia: Yeah you are

Giulia: THAT POUT

Nat: Sort of an accident. Yeah

Giulia: DEAN CONTROL YOUR FACE

Giulia: sounds like a job for them

 Nat: OH NO

Giulia: OH UH

Zee: He’s so done

Giulia: aaah not ready for cas reaction

Nat: CAS IS DONE

Giulia: AAAAH

Zee: I mean you can stab him but not baby

Zee: Oh shit

Nat: WHAT

Giulia: AW JACK

Nat: NO

Giulia: I DON T UNDERSTAND

Nat: WHY

Giulia: oh ok

Zee: A heart?

Nat: NO

Nat: JACK BB

Giulia: Lol those bar are always the same tho

Zee: Tf is that coin ?

Nat: Winchesters are broke

Zee: Two waters

Giulia: Waters

Nat: Two waters

Nat: PAX

Zee: Pax

Giulia: PAX

Nat: PAX THE SNAXX

Giulia: TO THE MAXX

Giulia: look at him

Nat: so deep

Zee: What she said

Giulia: He’s getting me distracted

Nat: touch it

Zee: Touch it

 Giulia: TOUCH IT

Nat: i'd love to

Giulia: don t mind if I do

Giulia: Average

Zee: Control your fucking lips

Nat: lol of course "keep playing"

Zee: Is this the deep voice ep?

Nat: It's probably a criteria to be cast

Giulia: Can he stop with his hands

Nat: I know

Giulia: When he was 4

Nat: Swinging clubs before you were born snorts

Zee: Between naps and snacks

Giulia: The triangle right

Nat: you saw it too. THANK GOD

Giulia: of course. 

My eyes went : ZOOOOOM

still me: 

Nat: I swear it was on purpose

Giulia: He’s so strong

Giulia: Oh

Zee: I think I miss important

Nat: What

Nat: that fucking smolder

Nat: stop your lips

Giulia: Yeah

Nat: fuck off

Giulia: What she doesn’t say

 Nat: oh oh

Giulia: I DON T LIKE IT

Zee: Lots of hands close-ups, I ain’t complaining

Giulia: ah

Giulia: Sam

Nat: Bundles of eggs?

Giulia: Witch hex bags

Giulia: IT’S REALLY NOT

Nat: ah

Zee: Does she really not know ?

Nat: OH, she knows

Giulia: Where is the snac

Zee: should have walked away

Zee: There’s one

Nat: What

Giulia: Ah

Giulia: MY OTHER BABY

Giulia: MURDER BABY

Nat: Wha does Jack want

Giulia: hearts

Zee: But why?

Nat: I'm on a roll

Zee: Sucks you in

Giulia: What he said

Nat: OnE mORe GamE

Giulia: I heard Daddy out of dean’s mouth and im not ok

Zee: I’m dying here

Giulia: NICE

Nat: He's so full of himself

Giulia: KICK MY ASS TOO

Giulia: SO COCKY

 Zee: Smack is better

Giulia: NO KICK IT

Nat: oh no

Giulia: AWE

Zee: Rodeo

Giulia: are we spending this whole ep with jazz music and pool

Nat: Sam so proud

Zee: Hell of an ep

Giulia: Stop that tongue

Nat: Apparently not

Nat: OH shit

Nat: He ded

Zee: The crinkles

Zee: I’m dead

Giulia: Dean will be happy

Nat: Dean won't like this. He just involuntarily killed a man

Giulia: Yup

Zee: Great

Nat: shit

Giulia: Yup

Giulia: Awe Sam

Nat: Sam's always so righteous

Giulia: Well he actually doesn’t seem so bummed

Zee: Annoyingly so sometimes

Giulia: Baby treat me right

Giulia: AWE HE GOT IT RIGHT

Nat: No, because he's really set to beat Chuck

Giulia: yeah

Zee: Awe his face

Giulia: SNORT

Nat: Ah Cas showed his badge right?

Giulia: yeah

Nat: Did ya see?

Nat: He was holding it up the wrong way?

Giulia: .

Giulia: PAX

Nat: She's the one who played you, Dean!

Giulia: the fuck he is

Giulia: Dark castiel?

Zee: A what ?

Giulia: With that black trench coat

Zee: I want cas dressed like that

Giulia: He should have had the black trench. In the promo he was

Giulia: Ok but how is Jack alright now 

Nat: Billy got work for him

Zee: Hello

Giulia: HEY SNACC

Nat: See. It's her

Giulia: AWE SO YUMMY

 Nat: He's bulkier than Dean

Nat: I CAN ALWAYS MAKE MORE SONS

Giulia: Can I be in that sandwich tho

Nat: A beach read?

Zee: Beach read

Giulia: Beach read

Giulia: Wow

Nat: YES YOU ARE BABY

Giulia: AHAHAHAHAHAH

Nat: TOLSTOY

Giulia: TOLSTOY

Nat: Tell her

Giulia: don t touch sam

Giulia: OF COURSE SAM

Zee: Oh come on

Giulia: HEY STOP THAT

Zee: Thanks for the recap

Giulia: so tired of people hurting my innocent baby ok

Nat: Jack's not afraid because he knows that he's gonna come back

Giulia: Completely innocent

Giulia: U like children

Giulia: Yuck

Giulia: Kill him

Nat: YEAH you fucking pedo

Giulia: AAAAAH

Giulia: DAD

Nat: so billy sends Jack out to kill those

Giulia: NICE

Zee: Dad to the rescue

Giulia: I AM NOT PREPARED

Nat: That eyebrow

Zee: We could use some more light

Giulia: SOB

Nat: Sammy you got this

Giulia: He is so worried

Zee: So focused

Nat: Liver failure... and she looks at Dean lol

Giulia: Liver failure

Zee: THE god

Giulia: Little guy

Giulia: Squirrley as hell

Zee: Welcome to the club

Nat: When you apes climbed down from the trees... aw

Giulia: Thanks

Giulia: Oh this is actually interesting tho

Nat: Get her on board and then go against Chuck

Zee: She knows Chuck

Nat: I mean

Giulia: All the gods

Zee: And when you lose

Nat: Dean lol

Giulia: YAS SAM

Zee: Learnt from my brother

Giulia: No stop it

Nat: NO

Giulia: NO

Zee: There’s always a catch

Nat: DON'T

Giulia: STOP

Zee: They will say yes

Giulia: OF COURSE

Nat: WHY DID KNOW THAT SAM WOULD SAY YES

Giulia: AWE SAM

Giulia: not to the Winchesters

Zee: 15 years

Nat: Ok, but now beat her alright

Giulia: SUCH HEROES

Nat: But like, she fucking lives in a pool hall. What are the odds

Giulia: I ‘m sick of this music and pool tho

Nat: Hate it

Nat: NO

Giulia: Of course

Nat: Are they gonna die

Zee: Fuck

Zee: They can’t yet

Giulia: Thanks

Nat: Ah right, still 9 episodes to go

Nat: Our luck will do that on its own

Giulia: Awe

Nat: Wait what

Zee: She let them out

Giulia: Sob

Zee: Our kind

Nat: Awe

Nat: She helps them

Zee: Make him play yours

Giulia: Make him play yours

Zee: Mojo back

Giulia: Awe are they back to normal

Nat: Awe

Zee: Yes

Nat: Good

Giulia: Dean stuffing his mouth with cheese

Nat: Scratcher

 Nat: lol

Zee: Porn

Giulia: Sob

 Giulia: What was that high note lol

Nat: Back to back double cheese burgers

Nat: Oh oh

Zee: Wait for it

Nat: Oh oh

Giulia: can t wait for jack

Nat: Oh Oh

Nat: OOOHHHHH

Giulia: SOB

Giulia: HEWWO

Nat: AAAAHHHHHH

Zee: So much hurt

Giulia: AAAAAAAAAAAH

Giulia: SAAAAM

Nat: I didn't think I would cry

Giulia: SOB

Giulia: NO

Giulia: STOP DEANP

Giulia: HE LOOKS AT CAS

Zee: Our son is back

Giulia: SOB

Zee: And you let him?

Nat: every day I wanted to come HOME

Giulia: awe Jack bb

Giulia: Grandfather

Nat: He's afraid of me.

Giulia: YES HE IS

Nat: JACK WILL BECOME THE NEW GOD

Giulia: OF COURSE

Giulia: but they just said that there can’t be no god

Zee: So it won’t be the Winchesters?

Nat: It's plausible that Jack will take over.

Nat: He's not God-god. He's Jack-god.

Nat: Ok, so promo then I need to leave

Giulia: UGH

Giulia: if don’t come I’m dead

Giulia: ...same

Giulia: Snort

Giulia: I need Jesus

Nat: What I say

Zee: March 16!

Zee: Hate it

Nat: Sob

Zee: It’s been established

Giulia: I just wish they could change the finale date

Zee: I mean why do they have to drag it like that?

Giulia: There are festivities or some shit idk

Giulia: The superbowl?

Giulia: Whatever

Zee: Oh that shit is on?

Zee: We have a month and a half to find a solution

Nat: There. He showed it the wrong way first?

Zee: Yeah he did

Zee: Lovely dork

Giulia: Ah shit I was writing here and look after he turned it around

Zee: Me too

Nat: Yes hi hello, this is Pax the Snaxx

Zee: Yes hi hello

Giulia: Fuck

Zee: I didn’t ask for this

Nat: Apparently, I don't care

Zee: Apparently you’re a bitch

Nat: Apparently, he's not been always a snaxx

Nat: Because

Nat: snorts

Giulia: Aaaaand it’s gone

Giulia: I love beards, my god

Zee: So fucking vanilla

Giulia: I can’t taste anything

Giulia: This tho?

....the flavour is amazing

Giulia: Yum

Zee: I can’t complain about this flavor either

Zee: Nat started chaos and now she’s sitting somewhere laughing like the evil bitch she is

Nat: No, like I've seen other pics of him and I will spare it for you. But like in the ep he's a damn fucking main course

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[whyisnicole]

Show Me Your Darkness - Chapter 8

You were killed at the hands of HYDRA but you came back stronger than you once were. They used you, mutilated you, silenced you, but they didn't break you. After getting out, and making friends with a few super-allies, one villain is about to unite your worlds in a way you never saw coming - but at what cost?

After all, every good hero - or villain - has a tragic tale to tell. Don't they?

Trigger Warnings:

Dark, Language, Violence, Death, Killing

"One Batch"

 "Red, just shoot the sons of bitches already! We don't have time for this shit!"

          Frank…

             Check…

  Two Batch"

 "Ah fuck, just leave it to me - I've got this shit, just not for long!"

         Wilson…

              Check…

  "Penny"

 "Y/N?  Y/N!"

         Matt…

            Check…

  …

"And Dime"

                   Blood. Everywhere you look. So much red.

 You remember the hit - some mutant had been able to slip past you while you were supposed to be holding post and keeping fire away from the crates holding weaponry. They were like a chameleon, literally blending into the shadows and setting off one of the detonators before anybody even knew they were there.

 You don't know how long you've been down, but you know you need to get up.

 Staggering to your feet, your vision still blurred, you grasp a hold of something that feels like charred wood to your right. Leaving over, catching your breath and grabbing your side, you lift your head up and attempt to wipe some of the crimson from your vision.

 Before you can even take in a proper breath, the wind is forced from you as you feel a hard hit rattle against your spine. Back slamming against the floor as your legs are swept from underneath you, your vision shakes into focus just long enough to catch a glimpse of the assailant wreaking havoc on your body.

 The moment your eyes meet theirs, you freeze.

 They’re you.

 A slap against your face and a knee to your ribcage makes you scream out. You take one hit after another, each time you’re able to open your eyes the slightest bit you see something different.

 You see yourself.

You see Frank.

You see Matt.

You see Alex.

 Over and over, you’re met with punches and blows delivered by people that you cannot force yourself to hit back.

You take it in, you do everything you possibly can to block out the pain and focus on your body. Focus on your senses. Focus on your skills.

You breathe in, capturing as much air, as much energy, as much power as you possibly can, and let your mind do the work.

 Your eyes fly open with a scream followed from your lips. The mutant once atop you is no more, and your wings are spread full force as your health begins to rejuvenate.

The pain subsiding.

Your lungs filling back up with air.

And everything shifting into focus.

 You shake your head and give a good look at the destruction around.

 You look up to see Matt on a platform, fighting a small group and putting them all on their asses.

You look over to see Frank posted and covered, able to take out anyone within his line of sight.

You look around to see Wade… nowhere…

  “AHAHAHAHAHAH!!! You’re about to be killed by a fucking forklift you dickless pricks!”

 Found him.

 Now that everyone is accounted for, and seeing as to how they’re more than holding their own, you quickly fly yourself up to a tall stack of crates, feeling the energy inside to assure nothing is going to explode or malfunction if it’s hit or crushed. Landing atop, you fully survey the room.

 About a dozen and a half more visible targets and a whole lot of blood everywhere.

 You still and focus in on one person at a time. By doing so, you’re able to get a sense of their body, of their energy, and force it from them.

The first is a male, human, and his stature is tall, lean, features are blue eyes, blonde hair, and he’s mid-twenties. You can’t even see his face but you already know that and more.

It’s always difficult, no matter how many times you do it. Killing people, that is. Of course, there are some harder than others, but with your abilities unless you use a weapon, you end up having to get personal.

 You hone in, pushing past the sorrow.

 You see him stop as you reach out your arm, hand opening, practically beckoning his life to force itself out of him.

“Eric! Fall in!”

His memories begin to fill your mind. It happens nearly everytime and it doesn’t make things any easier.

He falls to the floor, eyes rolling back and mouth opening.

“Grenade! Get down!”

   A soldier.

A cloud of black smoke falls from his lips, entangling its way down his body as if saying goodbye to it’s vessel.

“We can make your life have meaning. You can regain your purpose.”

   HYDRA…

You stretch out your arm and demand the energy come to you. You watch as it shoots through the air and straight into your hand, traveling up your arms, finding your neck, and resting between your shoulder blades at the base of your wings.

 Next target.

 Over and over again, life after life is disintegrated and bodies are lining the floor.

You hear a few more grunts coming from Red and whoever it is he’s still grappling with. Until the sound of a gunshot ends the ruckus.

“Damn you, Castle,” Matt breathes, hunched over in an attempt to reclaim his breath, “I almost had him.”

“Yeah, yeah, I know. You almost had him on his ass just so I would have to come over and finish the job. So I cut in early, what of it.” Frank finishes dismissively, reloading his weapon and not even looking up.

 Here it goes…

 It isn’t uncommon for Wade and Matt to get into it on their views of morality. Murdock had loosened up a bit as of late with the more intense cases, and sometimes it wasn’t even the fact that Frank wanted to kill somebody that would set him off. Sometimes it was just when things got to be too much. Matt usually sat back and did his thing while Frank, you, and Wilson did yours; but, when times were getting tense and Matt was at a short end, it was common that an argument would flare up.

 “You don’t know that.” Matt fought back, hands now on his hips as he stood standing up with his stomach slightly protruding, still catching his breath.

 “Oh, don’t I? Taking a look to your left I can clearly see the same son of a bitch that you K.O’ed the last time you were out with us. Don’t you get it? It’s all the same! They won't stop unless we make them stop.” Frank yells, putting a bullet in the very person he was just discussing, assuring that he never as a chance to wake from the beating Murdock had given him.

But it doesn’t stop there.

Frank goes around, executing each and every person who hadn’t already been put to an end.

 You just watch.

You’d be lying if you said that you disagreed with him. You don’t wanna have to see any of these people ever again, and you were at the end of your moral rope in deciding if keeping someone this evil alive was really gonna pay off.

 So you stay quiet.

 You stay quiet as you watch Matt throw a num-chuk at Franks wrist.

You stay quiet as you watch them go toe to toe.

You stay quiet as you watch Castle put a very winded Matt on his ass and, in the split second it takes for him to get back up, execute the last remaining unconscious villain.

 “Screw you, Wilson.”

“Yeah, fuck you too, Alter Boy.” Frank spits back at Matt, walking across the platform, heading for the stairs that lead to the lower level where you are.

 “Guys,” You hadn’t even noticed Wade until he spoke up. Your eyes trail over to him to see that he isn’t looking at you or the two arguing men. You can’t see from where you’re standing, so you slowly start to creep out from behind the piled boxes and rubble, energy ready and flowing at your hands, clouds of black fog dancing around your lightly closed fists.

 “This is not a shooting gallery, Frank! One of these days someone’s gonna think you deserve this, what are you gonna do then?”

“I just have one thing to say to that, and it’s that they better not fucking miss!”

 “Guys!” Wade yells, raising his voice way above the low level he had just muttered out.

“What?” Frank screams, looking down over the railing in a distracted attempt to see what he wants.

 Before you can get in a place that you can see what’s gong on, Wade simply says,

 “We’re not quite done yet.”

 Just then you get to the clearing, and the sight that meets your eyes makes your blood go stone cold as your heart drops to your stomach.

You see a being, teeth long and sharp, with its mouth curved into a sickening smile exposing them all. There's drool dripping from its mouth, and veins covering its large, muscular, tall, tentacle like body. Then, as it emerges from the shadows, all you see is red.

But, what scares you the most isn't the look of this beast, or what it may have in store for you, or what it is, or where it came from. What makes your vision blur and knees go weak is who is held within its grasp.

      Alex.

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Who could it be? ^.^

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SPOILERS! WLATE/AER Chapter 62 English Script

SPOILERS! READ AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION!

Hey there, fellow WLAE/AER fanatics! We present to you today this fan-made English Script of Chapter 62 of Lezhin webtoon “At the End of the Road” by Haribo, which is available in Korean. The English version will release soon. 

As most, if not all, of you know, there are parts of translating that are objective, and other parts that are subjective. No two translations will be identical. We hope that our version of this chapter’s dialogue and text will enrich your experience in reading “What Lies at the End”.

Please be sure to purchase the chapter to follow along. 

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~GET READY TO DIE FROM CRINGING AT THE HAND OF WOOJIN’S CHEESEBALLNESS!~

TRANSLATED BY: Kirin

PROOFREAD BY: Daisies and Lilies  

PROOFREAD PROOFREADER: Kirin (As in she proofreads my edits, haha!)

AT THE END OF THE ROAD CHAPTER 62

By Haribo

English Script

*ding-dong*

*ding-dong*

*ding-dong..*

*ding-dong...*

TAEMIN: ...The doorbell is ringing.

Go check.

WOOJIN:....

*ding-dong*

*ding-dong*

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: Wasn’t there a similar situation before this, too…?

WOOJIN: …

I’m going to kill whoever it is.

*rumble…*

*quick strides*

*quick strides...*

TAEMIN: I don’t know who’s at the door, but I should probably pray for their souls to rest in peace.

Scary bastard…

*creak...*

*slide over*

MINJUN: Siwoon-ah♥

I missed you♥

*slam*

*shoves in*

MINJUN: Wait, wait!!

We even bought a present for you, so if you act like this, won’t you break our hearts~?!!

WOOJIN: So what.

MINJUN: You’re too much~!!

Open up~!

Siwoon-ah♥♥

*crumpled...*

MINJUN: As expected, I knew you’d be home~.

What were you two doing?

Were you guys doing scandalous things?

Hm, hm♥?

WOOJIN: Stop spewing nonsense; just say what you need to say, and quietly go home.

*rumble*

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: So you’re still angry.

MINJUN: So mean~!!!

It took a lot of hard work to buy this present and lug it all the way over here!

Isn’t that right, Hoon-ah~?

HOON: …(nod)

MINJUN: Well, at least take a look, for starters~.

We brought something super fun♥

MINJUN: Ta-da☆

*voila*

TAEMIN: What the heck is that?

MINJUN: Huh~?!

Siwon doesn’t know what Jenga is?!

So you really are an old country bumpkin~?!

TAEMIN: ...Shut up.

MINJUN: This, you see~.

You first set it up like this

And when it’s your turn, you have to carefully remove one block, without knocking over the tower!

If the tower crumbles, then it’s game over for you~

And then the penalty game begins~♥

MINJUN:Rather than explaining it hundreds of times,

And because it’s more fun to learn as you go,

Why don’t we just start, and have Siwon go first~?♥

TAEMIN: ...Hm.

TAEMIN: This,

Is this how I’m supposed to do it…?

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: This is surprisingly nerve-wracking...

*carefully*

TAEMIN: Oh,

I did it.

MINJUN: Good job, Siwon~.

Just like that!

TAEMIN: What?

Unexpectedly, it’s ea-

-sy…?

Huh?

What’s this?

For 5 turns, please speak with a toddler-voice?

TEXT ON BLOCK: For 5 turns, please speak in a toddler-voice.

MINJUN: Ah, that’s a mission♥

If you can’t do it, then a penalty is waiting just for you ><♥!

TAEMIN: ...What?

*drop*

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: Tell me these things sooner!!!

MINJUN: Hey~.

How long do we have to wait~?

Do you give up and accept the penalty?♥

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: Toddler?

What would I know about how a toddler talks!!!

*tremble*

*tremble*

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: Why do I have to speak like a 5-year-old toddler at 19 years of age…?

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: ...but

*frustrated*

A penalty from Choi Minjun would be craploads worse than this, right…?

I have no choice...

TAEMIN: ...Next!!!!!

EVERYONE ELSE: !!!!

TAEMIN: Next person’s tuwn…!!!

Min,

Minjjwun’s tuwn…

Huwwy up and stawt…

EVERYONE ELSE: ……..

…….

…..

………

…….

MINJUN: PUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH~!!!!!!!!!

“Minjjwun” kekekekeke

“Minjjwun” he says. kekeke~!!!!!

*snicker,*

*lowers head*

MINJUN: Siwon

you’re really cute~!!!!♥

Ahahahahahah-!!!!!!!!

Dearie me, dearie me, was that it~?

Toddler Siwon~?!!

MINJUN: Since it’s Minjjwun’s turn,

Shall Minjjwun go for it~.

Hm~.

“Please hold hands with another player of your choice until your next turn.”

Hoon-ah~♥

Lend me your hand~.

WOOJIN: Han Siwon.

TAEMIN: ……

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: No matter what you do, I’m keeping my mouth shut, so don’t even try to bait me.

WOOJIN: Yoon Taemin.

TAEMIN: ……

WOOJIN: Want to kiss?

TAEMIN …!

*abruptly*

TAEMIN: Are you crazy?!!!!

WOOJIN: Where’s your toddler speech?

Shouldn’t you properly do your penalty?

*smirk*

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: This…

This asshole…

On purpose!!!!!!!

TAEMIN THOUGHTS: Damn it,

I was supposed to endure it…!!

I was supposed to endure it…!!!!!

*grinds teeth…*

*grinds teeth..*

*plops down*

*plop*

TAEMIN: Argh…!

Ugh…!!!

Weawy pwisses me off!!!

I said, it pwisses me off...!!!!

Min Woojin, you fwuk…

You fwuking bwastawd…!!!!!!!

*slides out*

TAEMIN: What?

What’d you get?

TEXT BOX: End of penalty

TAEMIN: “State 3 characteristics you find charming about the player to your right.”

TEXT ON BLOCK: “State 3 characteristics you find charming about the player to your right.”

TAEMIN: Right side?

What’s this?

Isn’t that me?

Keke. That turned out well.

Go on; let’s hear it~. You bastard.

Don’t I have countless charming qualities?

WOOJIN: … …

WOOJIN: Ahh.

Yeah, you do have a lot.

You say you want to protect someone, and then you actually go for it, and that’s really cute.

You pretend to be tough,

But when you’re under pressure,

You have no clue what to do-

All of that is cute.

Because your pride is a force of nature,

You want to see things through to the end and win,

That’s also really cute.

*POOF*

*what!!*

When you mumble in your sleep, it’s really cute,

When we kiss, your face gets all red-

TAEMIN: THIS BASTARD!!!

STOP!!!!!

*Quiet….*

TAEMIN: ...I’m exhausted.

*slides...*

TAEMIN: Those guys,

They finally left after being so bothersome until the end.

WOOJIN: They probably did all that just to pick on you.

TAEMIN: You did the exact same thing; you know that?

*Ha..*

TAEMIN: It’s already morning.

It’s pointless to get some sleep…

TAEMIN: Min Woojin,

Do you have time today?

WOOJIN: Why?

TAEMIN: ...There’s a place I want to visit.

TO BE CONTINUED.

DUN DUN DUN...

#What Lies At The End #at the end of the road #wlate #Haribo #english script #yoon taemin #min woojin #lee hoon #choi minjun #love jenga #cheeseballs #aegyo #chapter 62

[beebomeebo]

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Type: fluff

Request// “do you do anything besides smut? if so, can you do a fluff about a girl who's really depressed because her dad and stepmom are total assholes and brenny walks in on her relapsing and everything is all cute and cuddly bc they cry together and i need to be in a fucking relationship when that happens oml”

(A/N) Ahahahahahah sorry guys for being dead for so long, it has NOT been the best year for me but I'm dedicated to get more stuff done and get my shit together. & omg guys, thank you so much for 400 followers!! I’m sitting here in bed at 3:56 in the morning almost crying because I didn’t think my writing was that likable. Anyways, have a dribble drabble

Warnings: sneaky Bren, crying, the tiniest bit of angst, self-doubt, back talking, slight physical fight as well as verbal, cursing, :) fluffy Bren (: , !!no smut!! 

Pairing: Brendon Urie x Reader

Word Count: 2.2K

 I finally arrive home after a very long day at school. As I walk through my front door I slightly lower my shoulder so my backpack can slide off and heavily meet the wood floor. I throw my hair into a messy ponytail before slugging myself over to the couch. All I wanted at this moment was a nice nap.

I cross into the main hallway and into the living room. Not even bothering to walk around the couch I flip over from the back of it. Landing face down, the fluffy cushions mold to my body as I reach for a throw pillow to place my head on. Right as I close my eyes I feel my phone vibrate in my back pocket. I groan quietly to myself as I dig it out. Keeping my half my face buried into the pillow I bring the screen to my face to read the text message.

 Brendon :)

Hey, how did school go?

 Too tired to write a real response I type:

 Stupid. Gonna sleep, txt u l8r

 I then toss my phone onto the coffee table and melt into the warm couch cushions.

-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-

“Y/N! Y/N!”

I’m abruptly yanked out of my dream. My vision goes from black to hazy to a blur. And as my eyes adjust to my surroundings I feel a soft object collide with my face.

“Y/N! Wake up right now!” I turn to realize that my bitch of a stepmother, Sara, had thrown a pillow at me. “I specifically told you to clean the bathroom and the kitchen when you got home. And what have you been doing for the past two hours?”

I peel myself from the couch and glance over at the clock to notice, indeed, that two hours have passed. “Uh, sleeping?”

Obviously very pissed, Sara mumbles between her teeth, “Worthless child.”

“I’m sorry, what?” I retaliate.

“I said, ‘worthless child.’” She replies, this time slightly louder. “All you do around here is eat our food and sleep. You never do chores, you never do anything for this family.”

“What the fuck do you mean I don’t do anything? I literally just gave your dumbass dog a bath.”

“Do not use that language with me.”

“Or what, Sara? Or fucking what?” My blood begins to boil as Sara’s face turns with anger. With my adrenaline up, I quickly stand to face Sara. I was a good five inches taller so I wasn’t really scared of her. Just as I was about to turn around to retire to my bedroom Sara quickly raises her hand and strikes it across my cheek. I stumble slightly but quickly regain my balance. Now beyond pissed, I shove Sara into the kitchen counter behind her and her back collides with the marble. She falls to the ground clutching her back.

She picks her head up and looks up at me. “Go live with your fucking mother.”

“Fuck you.” I spat and then stormed into my room, making sure to grab my phone from the coffee table.

As I was leaving, Sara shouted, “Nobody loves you, you ungrateful brat.”

I shoved earphones into my head and turned the volume as high as it can go. Then I just lay there in my bed, looking up at my ceiling. My vision becomes blurry as droplets of water develop in my eyes and then disappear down my face as I blink them away. Soon, I can only see blurry before I completely shut my eyes and just weep. A small puddle forms on my pillow where my tears have landed. I try to lose myself in the loud songs that played through my headphones but I couldn’t help replay those words: “Nobody loves you.” It was as if my head was a broken stereo and those words were the only songs that would play.

-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-

I stopped crying about twenty minutes ago and now was blankly staring up at my ceiling, imagining what it would be like if my dad never met Sara.

A whole lot better. I thought to myself.

After a few minutes of creating my perfect life with just my dad- one where he never went to that bar and met Sara- I hear a muffled tapping noise through my blaring music. I quickly sit up to see if it was my dad coming in to yell at me. But my door remained closed and unmoved. Shrugging it off as just my imagination I lay back down but here it again. I jerk myself upright and this time I lower my music volume and take an earbud out.

“Yes?” I say quietly. No response. Then, the tapping noise starts up again, this time a bit louder and aggressive. It catches my attention that the sound was coming from my window. Tap tap tap. Unaware of what was waiting for me on the other side of the glass, I grab my softball bat that I kept in the corner of my room. As I slowly creep toward my purple curtains a faint silhouette starts to appear; as I step closer and closer the figure becomes taller and taller. Fear surges through me like lightning as I become only inches away from the sheer that masked the figure. Tap tap tap. I close my eyes, take the deepest breath my lungs can receive, and gather every ounce of courage that I have. Swiftly unmasking the window, I raise my weapon in anticipation of an attack. The figure becomes recognizable from the tall, dark hair to the sharp line of their jaw. I pause in space as my mind races to attach a name to the face.

“Brendon.” I breathe with relief mixed with surprise.

“Y/N, let me in! And why are you wielding a bat?” The boy says through the glass.

“What are you doing here?” I asked hushed so Sara wouldn’t hear me. Setting the bat against the wall I unlock the window and lift the glass so Brendon can crawl through.

“You weren’t answering my calls and texts and I got worried.” He says to my back as I close the window and pull the curtains over to cover it. I sigh in response.

“I just haven’t been in the mood to talk to anyone,” I say turning around to meet him.

Brendon’s face shifts from soft to concern as his eyebrows furrow and his puffed lips gap open. His stocky fingers gently graze the side of my face that had previously made contact with Sara’s palm. My eyes darted to his shoes. He wore his favorite worn sneakers and I noticed there was still dirt on them from waiting outside the window.

“Don’t tell my Sara did this.” His voice was stern yet soft.

I stayed silent, scared that if I speak my words will catch in the back of my throat. I clench my jaw to pull back tears that were forming.

Brendon cloaks me with his arms as I’m pulled into his chest. My arms wrap around his torso and hold tightly onto him. We stand there for a moment in perfect silence.

“What did Ms. Skank do this time?” Brendon asks gently pulling away from me and pulling me toward the bed to sit down.

I sat on my cross leg next to him as I relive the entire scene, making sure to tell Brendon every moment I could recall.

“’Go live with your mother?’ What kind of person says that type of thing?” He asks with disbelief.

I shrug, staring at my wood floor. “She knew it would hurt me. That’s why she said it.” I feel the similar adrenaline kick as my heart picks up speed. My jaw clenches, my fists close tightly, and my body stiffens as I reply every moment that Sara has made me feel worthless and stupid. Then I think of my mom, how gentle she would be, how understanding. My muscles soften at the memories of her.

Noticing my change in mood, Brendon squeezes my hand and pulls me to his chest. I rest my head on his shoulder and he rubs my arm.

“I miss her so much.” I finally whisper, teardrops hitting Brendon’s leg.

“I know, I know.” He hushes, gently placing a kiss in my hair.

I break away from him. “You know, if I hadn’t gone to that party this never would have happened.” I choked.

“Y/N, don’t blame yourself. This is not your fault.” Brendon’s puppy dog eyes scan my face and I notice that a thin film of water was developing on his bottom lash line.

I break away from his eye contact and lower my head to hide my face. “Sometimes I wish I was with her. Forever.”

Stumbling on his words Brendon chokes, “Please don’t ever say that, Y/N. I need you. You’re the only thing that’s real in this shit hole of a town. If you left I don’t know what I would do.”

I finally gather the strength to look up at Brendon; his eyes were bloodshot and puffy, there were small rivers running down his face and his bottom lip quivered. I crash into his chest and let all my emotions go. All the pain and hurt that I’ve been bottling up pours out of like a waterfall as I clutch onto Brendon. He began sobbing along with me. In that moment, we were both vulnerable. Yet, together, we were strong.

After what felt like ages, the sobbing calms and we’re both just left holding each other. I break away to wipe my smeared makeup off my face but Brendon beats me to it. “I’m sorry for being such an ugly crier,” I whisper into his hand.

“Join the club.” He chuckles and I catch a glimpse of the hairpin curl of his smile.

I smile weakly at his joke.

“Why don’t we get you cleaned up and watch some movies, huh?” He raises and offers his hand.

I nod and accept his hand in mine as he leads me to my bathroom. I blankly stare into my mirror as Brendon turns on the shower. My body feels numb and exhausted from crying and all I can do is stare at my reflection. Noticing my lack of movement Brendon wraps his arms around my waist and rests his head on my shoulder. I hold his strong arms. We make eye contact through the reflection and I become lost in his deep brown eyes.

“You know, you’re the most beautiful girl at school.” He speaks to me. “I was so nervous to speak to you last year. And when you said yes to going on that date- after like, five attempts- I was beyond excited. You make me feel like a kid in a candy shop.” His cheesy words force my cheeks to redden and I try to muffle my laughter. “And you taste just as sweet.” He winks and smiles at his own humor.

I roll my eyes and break away from his grip. “Ok. It’s time for you to leave.” I laugh as I playfully shove him out of the bathroom.

“The way you scream my name is so sexy!” He says quickly before I close the door on him.

“Shut up!” I yell through the door. Once in peace, I grin like an idiot. Stripping my clothes off my body I feel the water and once naked, I step into the steaming chamber. Every muscle relaxes as I lose myself in the water.

-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-

I turn off the shower and step onto my bathmat. The yarn bristles tickle the space in between my toes. I reach for my towel and wrap it around my wet body. Opening the door, I notice Brendon sitting on my bed flipping through Netflix. His attention switches to me.

“Feel better?” He smiles.

“A little,” I answer making my way to my closet.

“Oh, I already got your PJs ready.” He lifts a pile of fabric that was at his side. I smile and take the clothing from him.

We stare at each other for a moment before he gets the idea and turns his back to me. I face my back to him as I let the towel drop to my feet. And quickly slip on the warm, soft fabric. I turn around to a smiling Brendon.

“Were you watching the entire time?” I laugh, chucking the towel at his head, landing on his head and drapes over his face.

“Maybe.” He sings through the towel. “You’re just so sexy.” He chuckles, removing the towel from his face.

I roll my eyes while I take my place next to him. “So, what are we watching?”

“Well, I was thinking either Finding Dory or Minions.” He showcases the most childlike grin.

“Really?” I say sarcastically, “Kid movies?”

“Finding Dory it is!” He pecks my cheek and clicks on the movie title. I roll my eyes as he pulls me to his chest. Shuffling my body, I adjust to cuddle up to him. My arm drapes perfectly around his torso and I feel the steady movements of his breathing. Brendon nestles his face against my hair, planting a kiss on it. “You know I love you, right?”

“Shut up and watch the movie.” I tease.

“Well fuck you, too, then.”

#brendon urie #brendon urie smut #brendon patd #brendon urie fluff #Panic! at the Disco #panic and the disco smut #panic at the disco fluff #Twenty One Pilots #twenty one pilots smut #Josh Dun #joshua dun #josh dun smut #tyler joseph #tyler joseph smut #fall out boy #fall out boy smut #Pete Wentz #pete wentz smut #patrick stump #patrick stump smut #brendon urie x reader

[justtextmeoppa]

You’re stunning Kim Namjoon

Hey Sweetis🦄 I love when I see the request are open again😂😍so if its possible could u do a scenario with RM where he is on Tour with the boys and u surprise him (u are also a Idol) with alot of skinship and some jokes from the members🤔😂if its also possible before the show in the show and after the show in one scenario if u have problem to understand what i wrote u know where u can find me💕THANK U SOOOO MUCH FOR UR HARD WORK DONT OVERWORK TOO MUCH AND I'm really sorry for so many request💕

SORRY FOR THE LING WAIT!!!!!

Hope you like it littlee-cutiee

illi

It has been almost two months since you last saw him, Namjoon was on a world wide tour and you were really proud of him, but t the same time you missed him like crazy. You were even having a comeback so you couldn't even properly talk to him like you wanted to. Luckily after 2 months that seemed an eternity to the both of you, your manager agreed to let you go to Singapore with the other members to attend at the concert.

You got really excited when you got the news, but you wanted to surprise him so you pretended to be like super busy and distant while planning the trip with your friends.

Thankfully when you got at the airport there was no one, maybe because it was like 2 am, but you were so nervous that fans would've found out that you were relieved. BTS's manager knew you were all gonna come the concert, so he send a taxi to pick all of you up and some bodyguards just in case.

-Unni why are you so nervous? -I am not.. -Ya Y/N you're like sweating ahahahahahah -Stop teasing mee!!!!!!!

When you first told the others that you were dating Kim Namjoon, they didn't believe you at all. You were close to Jackson and you just happened to meet the both of them in at the karaoke, and that when got to know him. You were sure, it was love at the first sight, you've always admired him as an artist but that night, you didn't saw Rap Monster, instead, you saw the messy Kim Namjoon who laughed so hard at your jokes that Jackson got angry.

Makeup artists, stylist, managers, they were all running here and there behind the stage and you were nervously shaking finding your way to the room of the boys where they were getting ready. When you finally stood in front of the white door you felt butterfly in your stomach, like the first time you went on a date.

You still remember his dimples and the dorky smile he had on his face when he picked you up with the manager. You just went to see a movie together and ate at a noodle shop near the norm, it was like 3 am but you had so much fun you remember it like it was yesterday. And then, the kiss he gave you in front of the dorm, it was so sweet you always smile remembering it.

He lightly put a hand on your shoulders and looked ant you in the eyes, smiling and just lightly kissing your lips. You still remember how his lips were so soft, his perfume he put on for the date and how his hand were resting on your shoulder while the other cupped your face gently.

Knock Knock

-Yeaa You heard the deep voice of Tae. You opened the door and slowly pecked to see if Joon was there -Hello? -YAAAAAA Y/N!!!!!!!!!!!! Tae got quickly off the chair and run to hug you, you became close really fast maybe also because you were the same age too. -Tae, is Joon here? -No, he's in the other room, what are you doing here? -I wanted to make a surprise! -Y/N your comeback was amazing!!!! You should have rest home tho.. -What are you my mum Tae??? -Just saying.. His bright smile appeared and you couldn't help but smile too, when you saw Yoongi behind him

-Yoongi-ssi! -Y/N! Nice comeback!! Joon is coming here! -Thanks Yoongi-ssi!!

And that is when he entered the room with Hobi by his side. Hi hair were messy, makeup done and stage clothes on. He looked at you but probably didn't realise you were actually there for a good 30 seconds. But when he finally did he just run to you and picked you up, hugging you really thigh and kissing your neck softly. He put you down after a minute, keep patting your head and looking at you with an adorable smile it drove you crazy.

-OK, WE ARE LEAVING!!!!! -Bye guys, see you later!!

Joon didn't take his eyes off you while you waved back at Jimin and Tae.

-What are you doing here? E said softly, almost whispering -Just wanted to surprise you! -Are you mad at me? He suddenly turned serious -No, why? You cupped his face and looked at him with worried eyes -You've been distant lately..and... I know we're both busy.. -Sh..it's ok..I am here now You hugged him, on the tip of your toes and started to caress his hair to make him relax. Namjoon were not a confident person, because of what netizens wrote too. It didn't bother him at first, it was ok if they thought he wasn't good looking..but after a while, it all became too much, and you had no idea why he started saying that maybe you were too much for him. Looking at Kim Namjoon, Rap Monster like that really broke your heart. He was not just your boyfriend, he was an artist who you admired so much..

-Oppa, what if we go to vacation after this tour? -Mmm..where do you wanna go? -Wherever is fine..jut us, ok? You hugged you again and kissed your temples.

-Oppa, I am proud of you..remember that, ok? -I will Y/N..Thank you..and.. I watched your comeback..it was amazing...just..let me talk to your stylist ok? -Why? -I just..you know..those shorts are a bit too short..aren't they? You laughed and lightly punch his shoulders -You should wear fewer thigh pants too then!! -Y/N..i would pay to wear lee thigh pants -Ahahah I know.. You just stood there, looking at him for a but while he did the same, you could see your reflection in his eyes.

-Oppa you should go now..ok? -I should.. Let me just kiss properly my girlfriend first, ok? -If you insist..

You missed him so much, but you finally were together again, and you couldn't be more proud of your man.

-Y/N -Ye.. -I missed you -I missed you too -Yea we all missed each other..but now we have to go, come on Namjoon You heard Yoongi speaking and got suddenly really red while Joon hugged you one more time and kissed you softly again

After the concert, both of your groups went out for dinner, and you sat next to Joon while the others were drinking and partying like crazy. Suddenly Joon took your hand and whispered in your ear -You're beautiful Y/N, I missed you -Me too..and you're stunning Namjoon -No, I am not.. -Yes you are, and I love every inch of you He covered his mouth with the other hand laughed softly -Oppa..let me show you tonight..how much I love you -Mmm..sounds interesting He smirked while looking at you and kissed you in front of everyone, something that he rarely does unless he was really drunk or really happy. -YA HYUNG NOT IN FRONT OF THE MAKNAE -COVER HIS EYES -Jin Hyung is not like we were doing something crazy, I just kissed my girlfriend -KOOK DON'T LOOK!!!!! -UNNIE PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE -Ya girls stop!! Like you don't watch fifty shades of grey in the middle of the night -COVER HIS EARS TAEEEEEE -Why is everyone so weird today?

You looked at Namjoon and couldn't help but laugh.. your family were definitely one of the best parts of your relationship, even if sometimes they were a bit extra. -Love you Y/N, can't wait for later -Oppa..let just sleep Jin Hyung in another room ok?

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[ellstra]

Tagged: by @poolsidescientist​

Rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose however many people you want to tag!

LAST… [1] drink: ice tea [2] phone call: my mum [3] text message: @sinningsquire​ [4] song you listened to: currently listening to As the World Falls Down by A Girl in Coma from this amazing Kylux playlist [5] time you cried: I don’t remember, maybe last week? [6] dated someone twice: ahahahahahah no [7] been cheated on: nah [8] kissed someone and regretted it: no [9] lost someone special: in a way [10] been depressed: ya [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: three times which is three times more than I would have liked

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS [12] Green [13] Silver [14] Royal Blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: not significant ones but yes [16] fallen out of love: there was nothing to fall out of [17] laughed until you cried: Last week, maybe this one? they all merge together ugh [18] found out someone was talking about you: My teachers [19] met someone who changed you: Yes [20] found out who your true friends are: sadly no [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: that’s an oddly specific thing...and no. we’re not actually friends on FB

GENERAL… [22] how many of your tumblr friends do you know in real life: 3 now! [23] do you have any pets: nah, but we’re going to have a rabbit soon [24] do you want to change your name: no [25] what did you do for your last birthday: it’s been nearly a year I have no idea but I guess it was something very boring [26] what time did you wake up: 8:45 [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping [28] name something you cannot wait for: finding someone outside my family who’d genuinely care for me [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: Last night [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I could make people like me. [31] what are you listening to right now: Accidentally in love in above-mentioned playlist [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: Does Tomáš count? [33] something that is getting on your nerves: disorganized syllabus [35] elementary: Is this about American school system? [36] high school: Looks like it is. [37] college: 1st year of medschool [38] hair colour: brown dyed red atm [39] long or short hair: short. I’d get a buzzcut just because but I wouldn’t hear the end of it [40] do you have a crush on someone: just little ones to give me something to distract myself with at school [41] what do you like about yourself: I have a good memory

[42] piercings: only those in my ears my parents got me when I was a baby, but I’d love to get an eyebrow one

[43] blood type: A+ [44] nickname: Not using it anymore [45] relationship status: a sad potato [46] zodiac sign: aries [47] pronouns: she/her [48] fav tv show: I’m not currently obsessed with any show but I do enjoy relaxing while watching Friends rn [49] tattoos: none but planning to get one when I finish this year at uni [50] right or left handed: right

FIRST… [51] surgery: I was about one and tried to walk when I wasn’t ready. nearly ended up one-eyed [52] piercing: I was a teeny tiny baby [53] best friend: I don’t know if I ever had a best friend? but there was a good one in 4/5th grade [55] vacation: idk I was tiny [56] pair of trainers: I know I said I have a good memory but what are these questions?

RIGHT NOW… [57] eating: does chewing a chewing gum count? [58] drinking: nothing atm [59] I’m about to: talk to my dad who just got back from the USA [60] listening to: currently nothing, waiting for my dad to get out of the shower [61] waiting for: see above [62] want: my allergies to go away [63] get married: heh to whom? [64] career: I’m trying not to cry over anatomy textbooks

WHICH IS BETTER… [65] hugs or kisses: kisses. I don’t get these unwanted quite as often as hugs [66] lips or eyes: eyes [67] shorter or taller: team short people FTW [68] older or younger: are we talking about wine? cheese? [69] romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous [70] nice arms or nice stomach: arms [71] sensitive or loud: how does that compare? [72] hook up or relationship: I have zero experience with the former and next to zero with the latter so who the fuck knows [73] troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant? idk

HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger? yes. i knew his name but yes [75] drank hard liquor? yes [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? a lost a piece of a contact? [77] turned someone down: yes [78] sex on first date? you wish [79] broken someone’s heart? I don’t know? I mean there was that guy in seventh grade but he was very dramatic [80] had your own heart broken? no [81] been arrested? no [82] cried when someone died? yes [83] fallen for a friend? no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself? usually, unless depression kicks in [85] miracles? I suppose [86] love at first sight? not exactly love but attraction that could turn into love [87] santa claus? get your American bullshit away from me [88] kiss on the first date? I don’t see kisses as that much of a deal so yeah [89] angels? not really

OTHER… [90] current best friend’s name: my best friend rn is my kylo plushie tbh [91] eye colour: green [92] favourite movie: there’s way too many but let’s say Die Welle, Juno, The Man from U.N.C.L.E., Treasure Planet and many others.

I’m not going to tag anyone since I already bothered enough of you, but feel free to do this :)

#tagging game

[darling-stay-with-me]

Did I just have an existential crisis about my tragic love life (or lack thereof) and are going to write it out under read more? Yes, I did and yes I am. 

If you are going to read then enjoy...?!?!

So I am 24 and never had a serious proper relationship. A lot of it has been me and the mental state I have been in but we are going to go through every guy (coz there aren’t many) that I have had some sort of connection with. 

1. Josh - the way I meet this guy was at a school social at age 13/14. This guy followed me everywhere but never said a word to me. I found it creepy more than anything. I can't remember how he got my number or how we started ‘dating’. But all I can remember was going to a park with one of my best friends coz fuck I wasn’t going to go alone. And hang out with him?! It was fucking awkward. But I only did it coz I thought I was meant to... everyone else was doing it so I should be right? 

2. Matthew - Once again meet at a fucking social this was at age 14?. I don’t even know how we got ‘dating’. But once again it was something that was forced upon me. Everyone was like he is such a nice guy. I am sure he was but I wasn’t into him at all but coz of PEER PRESSURE I went out with him. I don’t think we actually went on any dates. OH HOLD ON NO THERE WAS ONE. We went to a movie (Year One - hated it) and I sat next to him FUCKKK FORGOT ABOUT THAT. The other thing was that his family was good friends with my dad’s side of the family. But around Christmas he found my address and sent me earrings - this was not couriered so this meant he drove there to drop it off. Thankfully I wasn’t there I was in Wanaka. But Dad bought it with him. And IT WAS SO FUCKING AWKWARD OPENING THIS SHIT IN FRONT OF MY PARENTS. I WAS VERY CREPT OUT. THE EARRINGS WERE NOT NICE EITHER. 

3. Jeremy - Never meet this one but I was almost forced to go on a date with him because he was a nice guy and everyone thought I would like him. HE HAD A FUCKING MONOBROW! I am mean you do you but I do not find that attractive at all. I was able to put my foot down on this. (but you might see a pattern emerging). 

4. Simon - this one makes me laugh coz the same girl that tried to set me up with Jeremy, tried to set me up with this guy. Once again he was a weird guy, wasn’t attracted to him at all. But the funny part of this story is that the girl that was setting me up with him ended up dating him AHAHAHAHAHAH. I could see more of a connection between them than I ever had between me and him! 

5. Conor - now this one is probably the closest I have come to a relationship. TAKE NOTE OF DIFFERENCES. He worked at the same place my sister did so she set me up with him as a formal date. We went to go to see a movie, he was really nice and super funny. It was great. We had a good time at our formal. He was actually my first kiss as well. We ended up dating. This was with official dates. He came and had dinner at my home with my parents. It was all official. I did really like him. But he went from 0 to 100 in 2 seconds flat. We dated for maybe 2-3 months. And in the course of a month, he said I love you, I said it back even though I didn’t mean it (shitty I know). He wanted me to go away with him to meet his grandmother. It was too much for me. I broke up with him coz I was struggling mentally and with my health but I also wasn’t ready for that level. I needed to by myself. 

6. Zach - was a guy that I meet at a friends party. I am about 18 now. He was a lovely guy and I guess because I was nice to him my friends leapt at this and decided we needed to be together. I never felt that way about him. I was just being friendly with him and we had a good vibe and that was all. But APPARENTLY BEING NICE MEANS YOU ARE FLIRTING. Nothing happened with him. I sort of separated myself from that I was like nope not here. But even now at a party people will try and set us up. 

7. Alex - he is my only terrible experience. I was at a party when I meet him. We were probably flirting, traded numbers, went to a club, made out. That was it. We have a similar group of friends so we were at the same parties. Every party when he was drunk he was all over me (very possessive) but when sober he never talked to me. I wasn’t here for that. So I was like nope I am out, I deserve better. He wasn’t overly pleased with that. Don’t think he had heard no very often. We were at the same party again and I ignored him (didn’t like that). he cornered my best friend - had her against a wall and put his hands on either side of her so she was trapped questioning her on why I wasn’t talking to him (it was very dominating and creepy). He then went one step further and started calling me every few minutes on my phone, tried to corner me, got his friends involved. Ended in me having a panic attack in the bathroom coz I felt like I had no one in my corner standing up for me. Then another night I walked past him on the street (this was after a night out) I was walking to get a taxi (i was with a friend). He followed me (no joke) 3 blocks stopping me every few metres trying to talk to me and touching my face and my arm. I kept telling him no and that i didn’t want anything to do with him. My friend (a girl) was doing nothing to help me. We got the taxi stand and FINALLY my friend spoke up and told him to leave. He touched my face one more time and walked off. I felt gross and scared after that experience. Years later I found out he had raped a girl and I was like i am not surprised coz there were a couple of times I was scared for my safety. 

8. Adam - literally wasn't going to mention him but I have to. My first true guy friend. We meet in the first year of uni and just kind of hit it off. First year and second year we were super close. And if I am completely honest with myself I liked him (and even more honest I still like him). Something happened at the end of the second year and the beginning of the third year. I still don’t know what it is but he cut communication with me - no explanation. I was really hurt by this and vowed that I had cut him off as well. I bad mouthed him a lot at parties (i am terrible I know but I was hurt and he left with no explanation)  But in my 5th year, we ran into each other again and reconnected... kinda. I was very careful around him I didn’t want to get hurt again. We weren’t at the same level as what we were but it was alright. We reconnected even more beginning of this year when he got back from OE. He had grown up more and we were kind of at a place we were in the first year. I am still very cautious around him coz I don’t know what is going on in that head. And he isn’t good at talking about his feelings/communication in general. But there have been some decent moments. He confuses me the most. We are VERY flirty with one another when we are drunk. But I don’t think we would be a good match dating-wise and honestly dont think he thinks of me in that way. But who knows. He is single at the moment. I might find out more in April when I go back down. 

So that is the majority of the guys I have had a connection with. Something I noticed that I was forced into a lot of these ‘relationships’ by friends. The common thread I noticed was me being the one to put with guys that aren’t that successful with women and because I am nice my friends think I will be a good one. Aka I am too nice to say no. None of those guys I have ever felt an attraction to at all. Honestly, have felt repulsed by them. 

The one that I had no outside friend influence was Conor and he had potential but I fucked that one up. I wasn’t ready for that.  Adam was also someone that had no outside friend influence. We meet at a lecture and he stalked me on facebook and added me, we had mutual friends. And that was it. 

I just never really thought about it. How I was never really that into the guys which I think has fucked me up more than I realise. Made me question myself a lot. Found actors attractive af but men IRL not? What does that mean? Nothing is the answer! 

I think Alex fucked me up more than I realised. He never hurt me physically but he did feel very uncomfortable around him. I felt so small and defenceless with him which I HATED. I am someone who has always stood up for myself and others but it is difficult to even when you stand up for yourself they don’t listen and don't take no for an answer. And I also think back if I hadn’t been as strong as I was something very bad could have happened. There are things I wish I did differently but I have learnt from the experience and that's important. 

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