#i probably wont sleep

[holeodemony]

Welcome to this series(maybe) of stuff(posts) where I write about how weird(fucked up) my brain is!

Well shit, here we go again.

So, a bit of context.

I do not get a lot of sleep on most nights, whether it's due to my ADHD spotting a shiny, me forgetting medicine, or a number of other things. I joke that my brain only lets me get five hours of sleep.

Last night, I got in bed at a (somewhat) decent hour, allowing me to get seven hours of sleep.

Great! Seven hours. It's not as good as eight, but it's still amazing, in my opinion!

Well.

This fucker (points at own head) decided that seven hours was too much, and despite the medicine I took, and wouldn't go to sleep for an hour.

What's worse? I woke up an hour before my alarm.

Yay.... five hours. Again.

#my brain is so annoying #just let me get sleep #i just want sleep #whyyyy #sleep deprivation #my brain is so tiring #did you get the pun? #anyways #i'm going to lie down for an hour now #i probably wont sleep #i'll just pretend i am #night.

[you-need-not-apply]

I want to wake up to like 3 dms and an ask pls?

#ask #dm #messages #send me stuff #send #please #sleep #sleep is for the weak #i probably wont sleep #i have insomnia #insomania #coz screw me

[peachgingerrabbit]

I have a phone interview tmr for a clerk position with a library !! They reached out to me a mere hour after seeing after my c.v. sooooo I think I have a good shot

#im still vibing with stress #i probably wont sleep #me talking

[stiffyck]

Guys why aren't we making Scar a red panda hybrid

#HE THROWS HIS HANDS UP LIKE A RED PANDA #WE ALL KNOW THIS #COME ON #DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW FUNNY AND CUTE IT WOULD BE #imagine a hermit sneaking up on his and scar just screams and throws his hands up #like COME ON #THATS PERFECT #PLUS #HE GETS A CUTE TAIL #AND EARS #HAVE YOU SEEN RED PANDAS #THEYRE ADORABLE #and also probably my favorite animal #BUT COME THEYRE SO CUTE #(i should be sleeping cause i literally get up in less than 40 minutes but i woke up an hour ago and IVE BEEN TRYING TO SLEEP AGAIN #BUT THE SLEEP WONT COME #I HAVE WORK. WHY CANT I SLEEP #gtws #goodtimeswithscar #hermitcraft #stiff talk

[cosmicstarlatte]

Choso is the type of guy to never want you two to go to sleep angry after a fight, if he can help it. :(

He’ll try to talk to you but if you need your space he’ll give it. If it’s the end of the day and you two still haven’t made up, he’ll remind you how much he loves you and hopes to fix it the next day.

And you know in your heart he’s not saying it to manipulate you in any way, he just really does love you and needs you to know that, for peace of mind.

Because God forbid anything tragic happens to either of you before making up, it’s a scary world out there.

He’s already lost so many people close to him. :(

#He probably wont really sleep that night tho tbh. if its you that’s angry. /cries #Idk if I'd ever get in a bad fight w him tbh I can't see it #choso x reader #choso headcanons #jjk choso #choso #choso kamo #◇˖・ﾟ— › cosmic jjk . ⊹ #jjk headcanons

[tamdoesart]

So, um, I finally watched Arcane... And this lil shit has gone ahead and stolen my heart.

#arcane #arcane fanart #silco #arcane silco #i binge watched this show TWICE #IN 3 DAYS #i dont know why ive been sleeping on it for so long #i regret it sm cuz now ive missed out on most of the fun fandom shenanigans #great timing for season 2 though right? :eyes: #heartbroken this sly lil man wont be in it probably #tam arts

[yuzuuu4]

imagine not finishing your dailies and you're supposed to go to bed already

#i cant wait to post this after the one day mark hits. #i actually quite love making connected pieces #its very fun ! #story is literally just they wont sleep at normal hours #this would probably be set like an hour after the dan heng one #dancae #dan heng #(now he's the hand) #caelus #honkai star rail #hsr

[spontaneousglitterbees]

#genuinely i didnt do this on purpose i was just very tired when i went to draw yesterday and did pose practice instead of new comic #but then i see franz kafka trending this morning and i remembered this hellsite has the most arbitrary holidays i love it #dr draws #danganronpa #dr #ndrv3 #drv3 #kokichi ouma #ouma kokichi #kokichi oma #oma kokichi #glittersart #TAPP AU #if you want it doesnt have to be #but i am working on an ask about how everyone is holding up post-sim #mostly in writing if thats alright bc im not positive yet how to draw out the story i want to tell #and therein is a small headcanon that kokichi kinda. for several reasons has a bit more intense a time than most of his classmates #and sometimes he Needs to sleep at arbitrary times during the school day. if he wont do it voluntarily he'll just kinda faint- #- which is especially frustrating for him because the lack of control and his inherent distrust of most people fuel his paranoia- #- and over time he designates a couple of Probably Secure places around campus that he can sleep if his dorm is too far. #ive started setting it up (itll take a lot of drawing to explain it all) but one of them is the animal shed #i do want to try actively to write about Students Who Aren't Kokichi but this all did start bc im kinda fixated atm #actually i think kokichi has been in all of the comics so far. like at least appeared #which will probably continue to be true as kokichis brand of pranking #('i put a kick-me sign on kaitos back and when saihara sees it theyll have an excuse to talk. all according to plan.')-caliber #is a nice device to crash characters into eachother like bumper cars

[sundewa]

grian sketches :D

#“im leaving mcyt” i lied i just (probably) wont do anything that goes with the current timeline bc im not watching #grian #watcher grian #ariana griande #grian fanart #mcyt #hermitcraft #sundewart #my cat was sleeping on my lap as i was drawing these

[cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga]

cute girls with glocks

Look I say this with all the expertise and love for all mechanical systems a Machinist can but dear god Glocks are just an ugly ass gun. Like most modern firearms are bland pathetic homogeneously colored utilitarian nightmares.

Cute girls should have a piece that is worthy of their cuteness like a break action long nose revolver with a polished and hand engraved walnut grip, something that was made with passion and an eye for detail. Not a mass produced thing made with the cheapest metals and plastics.

#Ask #Anon #Im half a sleep and Probably wont remember I typed this in the morning #But I have a lot to say about mechanical systems in general

[iskender-x]

um hello.

i kinda got resurrected... i was so sick i could barely sleep lol. im better now <3

#tohru adachi #my art #everytime i switch brushes i start to draw a little different #i barely draw anything other than fanart i feel bad for my ocs #i have phases where i only draw either fanart or original stuff #do you think dojima lends tshirts to adachi when he sleeps over >_< #he probably makes him leave before sunrise #he deserves it #lmao #waiting for the day where i wont be sick anymore #staying up until 4 am drawing isnt helping me recover i bet #oh well #iskoart

[revasserium]

Zoro x fem oc, where she is a princess. That’s it. She’s a princess.

so i got a request a while back that was basically the same thing so... stay tuned 👀

in the meantime, here's the world's shortest sneak peak:

“Times up, Princess — drink,” and though there’s nothing soft or even forgiving in his voice, but you feel yourself relax as everyone boos and you take your shot.

The heat of Zoro’s gaze only lingers on your skin for a moment longer before he leans back again, that familiar almost-grin tugging lazily at his lips as he turns half-lidded eyes towards the rest of his crew.

#roronoa zoro x you #roronoa zoro x reader #opla x reader #opla #roronoa zoro #one piece #one piece x reader #x reader #this is what i was doing at like 2:30AM last night in the complete darkness in my living room in a sleep-med induced haze SO #we shall see how coherent it comes out #(it probably wont but we can pray) #🌧 raindrops

[sparring-spirals]

I got to say I really liked the episode (despite only having watched exu calamity of the exu series) and I think maybe Matt needed a breather after so many fast paced, lore filled episodes.

however, I am kinda bummed that the fcg processing has been put on hold for (at least) two weeks now and that means that, despite them being great actors that truly merge with their characters at the table, their reactions will be much less raw and there’s a chance some of them will forget tidbits of information, emotions they felt when it happened because they (as role players) will have had time to process it out of the game and it might create a dissonance in the game. tbf I kind of felt the difference even between the end of ep 91 and the beginning of 92 but it made sense because technically they were still running and couldn’t afford to process. idk. I have hope that we’ll still see that raw emotion, but I fear it won’t be as impactful as it could’ve been, especially if they’ll have to put the “reporting for duty” hat on immediately when they get to the camp

I think being a little bummed about the sort of unexpected hiatus on the Bell's Hells/Post F.C.G processing is super understandable! As someone who also really did enjoy the Crownskeepers return (hello im still yelling about Opal internally), I'm kind of in the same camp of being kind of thrown/disappointed about not getting to really dig into/sit with the Bell's Hells post-F.C.G loss. Like, LOVED the Crownkeepers, fascinating second half, kind of meh on the specific timing.

I'm holding my reservations about whether they're going to have to keep running/moving once we return to their portion of the story, since hey, until it happens (or doesn't!), we don't know, so I don't feel like getting too in my head about it until then.

That said! I do think that in general the cast puts characterization and staying true to the emotions of the character/story as a very high priority within the campaign. I think you're right that it won't be the exact same as if they had done a big emotional blowup/goodbye/processing scene in the same ep where they lost F.C.G, or immediately after. I don't think that means it has to be less impactful, just that- yeah, they'll have had more time to actually think/process it.

But they're also all professional voice actors who have, IMO, thus far shown how much they think about the inner lives of their characters and enjoy really digging deep into the emotional/interpersonal aspects of roleplay.

My assumption (my hope?) is that with additional time to think about + process a devastating/deeply emotional loss for their character(s), they'd choose to lean into that more, and not less. It wont be the same as the immediate raw reactions, thats true! But i dont think that means it has to be less impactful, even if they (as people) have had more time to process, and will be choosing how their characters, fresh off the loss, react. I dont think thats a guarantee it will be less impactful/emotional (maybe the additional thinking would actually enhance the reactions being true/insightful to the characters vs gut reactions from cast), but it will be different.

But if the cast chooses to lean into the heartbreak/emotions, and the circumstances of the BH in the upcoming ep enable it, I'm sure they can still kick my ass (emotionally), timeskip or not.

In general, I'm cautiously optimistic about what could happen next! Even if I don't love the timing thus far. I think there's still plenty of ways for me to get what I'm hoping for wrt F.C.G/BH. :] There are plenty of ways for me to get let down too, probably, but until it happens, or doesn't, I'm opting to not get too doomery about it. We'll see.

I uh. Hope that helps? A bit? Being bummed about specific things you were hoping for being off the table is totally reasonable. just hoping to lend an alternate way of viewing it, if desired.

(i wrote the sentence: "don't be lamenting your chickens before they hatch" and then went "what the fuck" out loud. i spent 4 hours at work today just doing systems diagramming and my brain is fried. clearly. keeping this here for my own entertainment.)

#im kind of tired im sorry if this makes no sense lmao. i appreciate the ask! sorry if my answer comes off as flippant. i do get where you're #coming from and wanted to share how im personally choosing to approsch it haha #critical role #cr spoilers #c3e92 #bell's hells #spar speaks #ask away! #speculation #fcg #imo its like how we probably wont be getting situations like marisha shellshocked live tweeting after jester saved beau with a cupcake #but we get the cast doing sneaky little tweets before the episode airs but after theyve already experienced it #different for sure. doesnt have to be worse. thats more up to personal opinion i think #i fully wrote that chicken thing and went. thats the idiom right. and then stared at it and went. ... no. its not. #should i have waited to answer this ask? maybe. but oh well. #i should probably get some sleep though

[ra-vio]

I gush about TP a lot

#loz #legend of zelda #twilight princess #link #I can probably count on one hand how many times I've drawn TP Link #I have a hard time playing tp cause of my attention span 😭 i cant play it again unless it gets a switch release #cause then I wont be able to find the energy to finish #i have a playlist I would listen to to sleep to in the morning cause my house is loud #i think for a week i awoke in tears to the tp ending song lmao #its in so many ways the best #the attention span thing is weird cause when I was a kid I thought it wasn't long enough but i cant play it now #cause i think its too long. which doesn't really make sense #considering how often i played botw from start to finish

[s0fter-sin]

i’m trying to find a soapghost fic but literally the only thing i remember is soap calling ghost, “you lavy-headed wankstain. means you’re a toilet-headed cumsplat, sir.”

#thats it just that one line #it got their voices down so well and im so annoyed at myself that i didnt save it #i think it may have been a ghost sleeps with soap before al mazrah and soap doesnt know fic but i downed like 20 of those in a row #so even if it was i probably wont be able to find it #i know it was mutual pining but again that doesnt really narrow it down #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #ghostsoap #soapghost #fic #we’re a team. ghost team

[itsjaywalkers]

guys i got home really late and . kinda drunk . so my friend convinced me to call in sick tomorrow (i've never done it not even when i was actually sick) so i texted my manager, the one who's on shift tomorrow and i'm hoping for the best........... wish me luck?

#i'm gonna set my alarm at like 8 . just in case . #bc i was supposed to do the open tomorrow #thats the only reason why im calling in sick #any other shift i would've done without much issue #but theres no way im going in at 9am when its almost 3am rn and im still trying to sober up #just so i can go to sleep #this one manager is lovely and we get along well so im hoping she'll be fine with it #she probably knows its bc of the hangover and not bc im actually sick but #im not the first one whos called in sick bc of a hangover and i wont be the last #my other manager went out with us tonight and she also got super drunk and im her favourite so im hoping she'll back me up #WE'LL SEE #i just wanna rest properly tomorrow and SLEEP and maybe write too.. #is that so much to ask for..