#i need him for god's sake

[o0corruptedghoul0o]

Phillip Graves // CODMWIII

Graves: ...h-

Me: (s)creams

...

oh be still my beating vag- heart

#cod #phillip graves #call of duty #codmwiii #gifset #codgif #he fills up graves #he can fill me up too #i don't mind #gosh the things this man makes me feel are concerning #i'm fine #actually i'm not #i need him for god's sake

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

#pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #Percy shows up at CJ and squints at Nico like ''hm. why do i feel like i hate you? like i just wanna punch you in the face?'' #and Nico just immediately goes ''huh no idea anyways i have to go-'' and jumps into Tartarus #but not before he gives Hazel essentially a detailed explanation of ''this is Percy i cant say much but please dont let him die <3'' #and Nico's whole Tartarus trip was basically a whole ''im doing this so no one else has to'' #only for Percy and Annabeth to fall in like one book later and Nico proceeds to spend the next book internally screaming about it #and then Cupid calls him out on it and the next book #Nico's just like ''at this point im hoping i keel over within the next week just so i can force this dumb crush to chill the fuck out'' #Nico staring pointedly at Will: ''For my own sake i need to form another crush RIGHT NOW so i can finally get over Percy.'' #''this has been so bad for my health'' #Nico's crush on Percy is just too funny to me. horrible pick my guy. terrible job. love that for you. he could not be less interested. #Percy LITERALLY TRIES TO KILL NICO and ditch him in the underworld and Nico is somehow STILL like ''but i love him'' #Percy basically chokes him. beats up his dad. tells him ''go get smited by your dad for me.'' and ditches him. #and Nico's opinions/crush on him DO NOT CHANGE #though also Nico's reaction to Percy beating up his dad + skeletons is SO funny. his jaw is on the floor. he's flustered about it. #he just witnessed Percy be incredibly hot and proceeded to go ''yea i'll do anything for this man. collect reinforcements of 3 gods? sure'' #nico you absolute DISASTER with HORRIBLE TASTE. you can do better. raise your standards. #which tbh is funnier when you factor in sun and the star. Nico just wont stop crushing on guys who dislike him and everything he stands for

[delizbin]

what a difference a night can make…

#jesus it really is all about choices isn’t it #some smooth because god only knows how much haymitch needs it #and me as well to be honest #it’s like… catching fire to mockingjay transition #he aged like 40 years in a few months who can blame him #somebody hugs this man right now for gods sake #i love him so much #haymitch abernathy #effie trinket #the hunger games #thg fanart #hayffie fanart #hayffie #thank you #my illustration #also changed my signature for some reason #new year reasons I guess #watch me go on a spiral I dare you #me and mitch are literally one single being #i am so sorry that book!haymitch had to go through all pf that alone #I am sure he tried to take effie with him that night as well #alas #thank goodness for the movie canon

[mewtwo24]

I finally finished reading the fourth volume of svsss in full, and thing is--the first time through I only read the bingqiu content because I was ravenous for more of their happy ending.

Turns out that was a perilous mistake.

Because I started reading the airplane extras. And I swear to god. MXTX is trying to kill me

What do you MEAN demon lord Binghe was sitting on his big fucking throne. All stoic and forbidding. Surrounded by his demon generals who don't know shit about human courtship. Asking them what he should do, fully demoralized by constant rejections from sqq, only to have airplane tell him to act more pathetic and needy. Which is already hysterically funny and insane, UNTIL LBH'S RESPONSE IS THIS, KILLING ME INSTANTLY:

LUO BINGHE. WHY DOES HE SAY IT LIKE: "I already tried that, didn't work--nothing works :/ not mean, not maidenly, not housewife, not spicy, not capable disciple. Is doubling down on clingy really all it will take? What's a born hater with only one love in his life to do????"

The dichotomy of him sitting there like 'how can I reach the unfathomable depths of shizun's heart?' A HEART HE'S ALREADY WON OVER, MIND and then in the Holy Mausoleum solving the puzzle without blinking and being like 'oh yeah you just have to hit the acupoints, no sweat.' Literally the comedy writes itself I'm so--

How am I supposed to be normal about this. MXTX understands the juicy quintessential queer joy of a person with the world's power at their fingertips wishing only for love. Willing to do anything to earn that love, when unbeknownst to them it's already been freely given. Totally not screaming and yelling and clawing at the walls

And that's not even touching airplane's uproarious account of events. The way he's like 'lol what's next, lbh and sqq are best friends now? smfh' only to see lbh TACKLE SQQ LOVINGLY. FOR SQQ TO BE BASHFUL ABOUT IT BUT SO SO FOND OF THE LITTLE SCAMP. This when we've been experiencing sqq's constant inner monologue of 'I'm so cool and so dignified about my role, truly the epitome of propriety and poser-level fortitude.' Meanwhile, in their universe:

Airplane constantly flaming???? Sqq and lbh in his observations????? His absolute bewilderment and confusion????? Legendary. No notes every single second of this shit was hilarious.

Airplane's comment that sqq + older adolescent lbh traveling together was just watching a couple in their honeymoon phase. OR the fact that lbh is exceedingly petty and refuses to share their food in the wake of airplane's interruption of their time together, until sqq relents sheepishly and insists airplane eat what's left (ONLY AFTER PLACATING LBH WITH MORE FOOD FROM HIS PLATE, SOBBING)

Watching airplane salivate over Mobei-Jun and acting like that's totally normal behavior. Finding out mbj and airplane got together first. Finding out sqq encouraged airplane. LIKE THIS. WHILE HE IS STILL IN DENIAL ABOUT HIS OWN FEELINGS:

Mobei-jun clearly thinking their arrangement is a forever thing, heartbroken his human abandoned him with all the hapless fury of a scorned wife swept away by false promises of fidelity. Airplane writing demons to be the type to beat up their crush lovingly and still unable to connect the dots about mbj's feelings. Mbj letting him go and respecting his wishes, only relenting when there's indication airplane was poorly processing his own feelings and didn't actually want to leave. Mbj caring for him and listening to him as soon as airplane voices what he needs directly and with clarity. None of these gays are functional and it's everything to me

Unrelated, but I physically can't hold this information in anymore:

I'm still reeling from younger lbh having his sexual awakening from the image of sqq wrapped in the immortal binding cables. Condemn me as you like he was so, so real for that.

And no I will not be taking any comments about how luo bingge couldn't bear to see luo binghe cherished in ways he never got to have and all the haunting implications of that. I will also not be taking any comments about luo binghe's instinct to look for sqq in that alternate universe, only to be shaken to the very core to be unable to find his shizun anywhere. The unspeakable and latent horror of his relentless mind likely piecing together what happened, but unable to say it; to suspect what is true, and live with the harrowing confusion of his double's actions. To blame himself, to assume that he had let his anger get the better of him in that world and result in unspeakable folly...

I also refuse to talk about how heartrending it is to hear Tianlang-jun weakly say "In the end, I really can't bring myself to hate humans." The implication that the foolishness of that hope and bright-eyed fondness--the very thing that put him through such unspeakable agony--couldn't be beaten out of him entirely. To discover that his faith in Su Xiyan hadn't been misplaced, to the contrary: his beloved hadn't scorned him at all, but rather fought to the miserable end to protect the fruition of their genuine feelings of love when she couldn't protect tlj or herself.

How MXTX has sqq deliberately draw parallels between their situation and that of ygy+sj and tlj+sx; desperately wishing it might not be too late for them. The concept of breaking cycles of abuse and harm pervasive throughout the newly devised story, how it evolves for the better only when love takes the place of power, pride, and domination. How the moment sqq chooses vulnerability instead of saving face, the genre shifts to the so-called "cringe" girly genre where most if not every character is more fulfilled, more true to themselves. How the "male-oriented" former genre was aimlessly sensationalized and sexualized, how it was a sustained performance of aspirational toxic masculinity. How men objectify other men without end. All of the unspoken gendered implications that come with that.

Anyways. Going to go put my head in a sandbox and try to process everything I just witnessed because even a second reading is not enough to find a modicum of closure.

#svsss #bingqiu #moshang #i swear to god this series is just 'gay man who doesn't know shit inflicting his delusional reality on everyone else and inciting chaos' #and literally it's slapstick levels of hilarious every single time; mxtx never change #also i fully agree that we did not get NEARLY enough mobei-jun and sqh/airplane content #the amount of mental illness to mental illness communication going on there was astonishing #mobei-jun being afraid of his uncle and bringing sqh because that's the only person he trusts fully (WAILING NOISES) #sqh having a tantrum but running away because for the first time he was honest about his needs + his dissatisfaction with catering to other #how that reflects his narrative compulsions and how he felt forced to warp more creative story paths for the sake of survival as a writer #how sqq's restoration of much of his original intent--as well as mobei-jun's acceptance of his needs--helps airplane begin to heal #how his happiness begins; how just like sqq he wanders in such confusion and denial before he's forced to realize what truly matters to him #SHREK VOICE: STORIES HAVE. L A Y E R S #it feels like modern day shakespeare and when i say that i don't mean it in a hollow elevating sense i mean it more like #mxtx just hits that perfect balance of poignance but also hilarious concentric circles of botched communication and brainworms #okay but real talk for a minute? .........;-; #the way lbh constantly struggles with such a crushing feeling that he'll be abandoned over any little mishap/thing/problem #really hit me where it hurts??? if only because its so clearly an anxiety that stems from original goods' upbringing #the way it becomes even more heartrending when you think back to all the sect leaders clamoring that he should have been killed as an infan #that he should have been aborted as a fetus--insisting right in front of him that his birth was a mistake and a disgrace #over having demon blood in his veins. like my god that scene is so viscerally upsetting i struggle to read it #the way its so easy to see the demons as a manifestation of otherness in precipitated form #how both sqq and sqh are influenced by human rhetoric without evening meaning to--assuming the worst against their better judgment #how both sqq and sqh both struggle with their own otherness in different ways and only find solace when they begin to accept who they are #how their lovers (lbh and mbj respectively) both are willing to navigate those confusing waters with them #how both demons love them as they are--accept them as they are despite how difficult forgiveness of perceived betrayal is for them #ty mxtx for changing my brain chemistry #as i get older i have such a fondness for the messiness of thematic queer self-discovery and growth into self-acceptance #that and how youth can so easily be defined by perfectionistic self-harm and the violence of repression

[notsoevilmagistrate]

I’ve been thinking of Kung Lao, not just MK1 but generally as a whole, and how he’s always pushed aside—number two. In some ways nothing is ever really his. Liu Kang, his best friend, becomes a god and goes onto to make a different timeline and stay there, and before that he got to be Earthrealm’s champion(in mk11 Liu Kang seemed like everything anyone EVER talked about with him). And of course it’s beyond that too: his name isn’t even his(“descendant of the great Kung Lao”), and his destiny and goals seemed to be based a lot on something predetermined for him, it’s a bit tragic.

#goddddd kung lao if only you weren’t constantly compared to people #your own family for God’s sake #first your great ancestor then your best friend #you wouldn’t need that faux persona #it’s soooo upsetting how despite all the bragging it’s obvious he doesn’t see himself as skilled as he should be compared to the rest #is this projection? #maybe #anyway back to your regularly scheduled tags #mk #mortal kombat #mk1 #kung lao #mk1 kung lao #mk11 kung lao #just kung lao #I wont count liu kang in this this isn’t about him(for once/funny) #mk11

[t3chborb]

Petition to set Ramattra's hair free in base form

#Borb's Scribbles #Overwatch #Ramattra #for gods sake look at him #he's gorgeous with his hair down #i am also highly envious of the fact his mane is low maintenance #bro doesn't need to cut it or use a million different cleaning products or even BRUSH it #luxurious locks with little effort #he's living the dream tbh

[spineless-lobster]

Alexander the great and hephaestion are so patrochilles coded it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach like how the fuck did they make the iliad in real life what the actual hell this is so fucked up

#THE WAY HEPHAESTION DIED A YEAR BEFORE ALEXANDER????? HELLO???????? #honestly mad respect to alexander tho he saw the blorbo from his book and went ‘I am going to be him’ #AND FUCKING DID IT!!!! HE IS ACHILLES IF HE WAS REAL!!!!!!!! #no one can reach the degree of ‘he’s just like me fr’ than alexander did with achilles #both their names start with A for fucks sake #and their stories have been straight washed and their partners forgotten #EVEN THEIR HORSES ARE FAMOUS!!!!!!!! THAT’S INSANE!!!!!!! #at war with a powerhouse enemy for an extended amount of time… (though he did conquer like A LOT so…) #both are young as hell and are destined for greatness #god… #it’s 12am I need to go to sleep #alexander the great #hephaestion #history #alexander x hephaestion #achilles #patroclus #the iliad #patrochilles

[wolfsnooze]

where does everything go when everything’s gone? / for my heart cannot break much more

#tumblr gets this first for once much love #i dont know…..if im happy with this……….. #But its done^_^ #need to see 44 minutes of king HEALING of king JOY of king PLAYFULNESS #he is in so much agony atm SAVE HIM. #him feeling responsible for the wellbeing of others bec hes a titan… #going from all (perceived) power no responsibility to not wanting power and putting responsibility on himself #giving himself up to the collector for the sake of luz and his family and the isles #agh… #hes too young for this. HES TOO YOUNG TO BE A GOD!!!!! HE DESERVES TO BE A KID AND NEVER WORRY ABOUT THIS!!!!!!! #anyway…..tags…… #my art #toh #the owl house #toh fanart #the owl house fanart #the owl house season 3 #toh season 3 #king toh #toh king #king clawthorne #fan art #fandom

[himejoshiangels]

dc I will break into the writers room if I have to. give me a duke solo run called dawn of the signal and make it about him finding his place in the greater gotham community and reconnecting with his old neighborhood and give him a rouge or make him a new rogue that serves as a narrative foil to reflect his flaws but also his strengths and make it 15+ issues long and make him a little more assured in himself but still finding his way, bring up his training arc with Bruce and his time with the other we are robin kids better yet retcon that stupid ass comic that said they're not friends and more BETTER YET make one of them the rogue and have them reconcile and stuff and then talk abt his relationship with his parents and with Bruce and with the other batkids maybe and at the end give him a mural in the narrows

#maybe sneak a bf in there idk #have him grow out his hair and cry and reflect and USE HIS CHARACTER FOR GODS SAKE #i am a prophet a visionary i just need to break into dc hq come on whos with me #the signal #duke thomas #thought bubbles

[lordartsy]

collection of me trying to figure out how to draw this guy

#im going to drink him #hi-fi rush #hfr chai #'why does your style look different in all of them lol' i am currently not taking questions. #mister chai fi rush my everything this is the greatest birthday gift i have given myself #the past week has been 'do i feel like drawing him or do i feel like going back to the game and unlocking his costumes' #i am struggling to articulate what this game has done to me oh my fuck? #the thing of 'im addicted to a characters voice and i am combing through the VA's entire filmography' is happening again #(stares long and hard in the mirror) chai fi rush is gonna make me play persona 5 for gods sake #why is this game like 10 hours long i need it in my circulatory system

[cloudyvulpine]

i hate it here how tf am i supposed to violently hate valentino to the point of watching episode 4 will raise my blood pressure but then ship him and vox like there's no tomorrow 😭 h e l p i can't be the only one

#i literally hear the voice of angel in my brain and if he finds out i enjoy vox/val i don't know if he'll forgive me 😭😭😭 #like seriously i want to rip valentino to shreds but put vox in the room and i start chaning my mind lik eNO #GRRRRRR I WANT TO KILL VALENTINO STOP MAKING HIM CUTE WITH VOX #fighting for my life ong #HELP I PUT THIS IN DRAFTS BC IT WAS LATE AND I DIDN'T KNOW IF I WABTED TO POST IT OR NOY #BUT THEN ANGEL CAUGHT ME LOOKING AT VOXVAL SHDSDBDJSBDVF #my to-do list for today is literally draw; write why i think i need therapy; and write an apology to the angel dust that lives in my head #voxval #help their so cute together but their so awful #hazbin vox #hazbin valentino #cw valentino #doing this for angel's sake bc he doesn't like seeing any positive valentino content 😭 love him for that #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel valentino #voxval is my guilty pleasure and by god do i feel guilty #staticmoth #STOP CAUSE THEIR SHIP NAME IS CUTE #I ALMOST SAID SHIT NAME SJHDBDVSBXHDN

[gio-cosmo]

This is my favorite image ever I think

#burger #guys oh my GOD I had a burger the other day after not having one for like ? almost a year I think? nearly fainted #it was so glorious and amazing #bacon cheeseburger save me…save me bacon cheeseburger…bacon cheeseburger…. #I love burgers but only like once a year #like if I eat them on a regular basis I find them disgusting #I have to limit myself #okay I really don’t know why I’m talking about my burger eating habits rn MOVING ON #anyways #JINNNN🫶🫶🫶 #the Jin fixation is soooo crazy rn #obsessed w him tbh #since atlas is so obsessed w spin-offs they NEED to give me a Strega spinoff #like I do NOT need to see the phantom thieves for the umpteenth time GIVE ME STREGA PLEASEEE PLEASE PLEA #no hate to the phantom thieves still love them 🫶 I just need them to MOVE and make room for some other cast members 🫶 #IM JUST SAYINGHGGG #still love them tho #all I’m saying is atlas has soooo many cool side characters that perhaps they should oh I don’t know maybe focus on them a little more #please #for my personal sake #they should make a Strega spinoff and in the title screen say “for tumblr user gio-cosmo’’ #come on atlas I’m waiting 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ #LMAOOO #persona 3 #p3 #jin shirato #persona 3 reload

[littencloud9]

thinking abt kunikida in the sheep au…

#‘how would this work’ i dont know but the VOICES #sorry this IS meant to be kunichuu. for my sake #imagine how it’d be like having another ability user in their group. someone chuuya can share the burden with #but also chuuya who doesnt WANT to drop that responsibility. smth smth natural instinct is to protect #vs kunikida who is loud and idealistic and takes leadership #not in the ‘IM THE LEADER’ way but in the ‘LET ME HELP YOU BITCH’ way #also him doing silly magic tricks with his ability to entertain the younger ones :’) #him and chuuya taking turns keeping watch. letting each other rest for once #kunikida being fiercely defensive of chuuya. he recognises chuuya’s strength but isnt afraid it would be used against them #bc he knows how loyal chuuya is. also ‘if chuuya ever hurts one of us ill hit him so hard he dies’ and hes 100% serious too #chuuya finds it so cute #maybe this is ooc but idc we’ve never even seen 15! kunikida. god i need it so bad #ALSO. kunikida with a sheep bracelet… it is Blue :)

[thebirdandhersong]

on the good news train today: I have finally finished the last chapter(!!!) of my Inklings challenge story, which marks the FIRST ever Inklings challenge story I've ever completed properly :'D coming in at 30,810 words (yikes) (it did get out of hand, I must admit), it is definitely not a short story, but it IS a piece that I think articulates a lot of what I've been thinking about lately re: love and death, and, considering everything, is probably something I needed to write. I am very happy!! It has been a wild ride, but a deeply clarifying one.

#ALSO i went to watch hadestown on friday and i came out of that a changed person. i will literally never recover from that experience. #hadestown also has significantly shaped this story along with HMA's little mermaid and goblin market and sir orfeo btw #anywayyyy i am going to BED i have midterms to study for tomorrow which i have been putting off for too long!!!! #inklings round 3 #i'm bracing for impact this week (it's gonna be ROUGH) but i am holding to julian of norwich's wise wise words for this one #all shall be well and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well! #including midterms (of which i have TWO right after reading break. ain't no rest for the wicked and the righteous #don't need none and who knows where i fall) and boy problems and family worries #all SHALL be well!! #why my soul are you downcast! why so disturbed within me! #put your hope in God for I will yet praise Him my saviour and my God #magpie said think of jane austen's wise words too #(friendship is the best balm for the pangs of disappointed love) and she was right :) #im sitting on my little raft and paddling steadily onwards! #thank you for sitting on the step with me through the dusk and blue hours and dark days #all shall be well for pete's sake!!!!! all SHALL be well!!!!! #last year of school log

[phddyke]

damn casey hartley really like...haunts the narrative huh

#nitw #casey hartley #night in the woods #i am not the first person to say this nor will i be the last #but i think about him a lot #he's just #oh god #the way the cult said no one would miss him #and then mae misses him #she says she's sad thinking about him all alone #germ says he used to ask every crust punk if they say casey #keyword 'used to' #gregg says casey's been offline since he disappeared #which means he likely tried to message him before giving up #bea joining the band to cheer gregg up #gregg trying not to be hurt for casey's sake bc hes happy he got away but he misses him #the way his ears *flatten* when he finds out casey dies and they never do that any other time in the game #the way he demands to know who did it so he can kill them and angus doesnt stop him even though hes likely worried #cause he knows gregg needs this #and BEA stopping him because she UNDERSTANDS the unbelievable pain and rage hes feeling and theyre closer for the first time for it and she #worried about him #casey's parents putting up missing posters and still not knowing what happened to their son #mae and gregg. you gotta tell them #AH

[lovesitcomsandgaystuffs]

Ibara is always waiting for Hatanaka

#sick and twisted #Like she already waited for him for 120 years #I need this man to go back to his time and go see his wife ASAP #for god's sake she's having a baby