#i love writing like this bc it's kinda like a fic but not really

[some-thrilling-heroics]

the purpose of this post is for me to figure some stuff out so i'm open to feedback and discussion

disclaimer: i love Halsin, he's my precious bear man

but damn i am pissed

i started to really dig into the epilogue, specifically that last morning after the brain goodbye scene in the room at the inn where he says he has nine wagons of kids and he will aid the people in Thaniel's realm

sadly i can't find any footage of what he says when Tav goes "oh a community built with your own hands, i'd love to see that" (or something to that extent) bc i think that is the one option that nullifies the goodbye and i think? he just asks if Tav is sure and then happy end bells

but even so

the interaction practically starts with "why does this sound like you're saying goodbye?" - oh that's because he is. at least for now. but Tav can visit, he's very eager for them to visit - and then narrator is like a tenday later Tav went to the commune and then the party invite stuff, not important

and I'm like....

it just hit me how - yes, Halsin has abandonment issues and he wants to help those orphans and all the homeless refugees and all the great stuff but like…… HOW DARE YOU DECIDE FOR ME THAT I DON'T WANNA GO WITH YOU????

watching that on a loop three times seriously hit me hard and i don't like it (as in me, personally, not in the sense that it's bad writing or it makes no sense for him to do that, maybe it does - if somebody can help me wrap my head around that, I would be super grateful bc atm I'm stuck in my own emotional reaction to Halsin making decisions for me)

in my head Tav's response to that should be: fuck you, i don't want to visit - fuck that! i wanna go with you and move in with you bc I love you but i guess you don't really want that huh? oh you do? then I guess we are at an impasse, huh?

bottom line is - what do I want to do with it in my fic?

i could ignore it bc i kinda wanna, i don't want them fighting like that

on the other hand it would be great to have this devolve into a conflict, bc i already sprinkled a few tiny bits of them saying not the best things but then the other kinda steps past it or around it and they are fine, but it would add some realism for them to have a serious disagreement about their (joint) future and about communicating and making decisions and could be something to be revisited as a work in progress for them to grow into as their relationship keeps going

i don't mind exploring difficult shit in my fics, i already decided to commit and give Tav my trauma and it was very cathartic just drafting that bit, and this turning into a conflict could play into that I suppose, could work really well

I guess my problem is the dissonance between Halsin doing that unintentionally bc of his own issues and him generally being very considerate and respectful of others, especially Tav imo, he was perfectly happy to follow their decisions as a leader but now I guess they are no longer the leader and this is his thing, his commune, his new purpose in life and ofc he could never be selfishly happy when he could be doing good things for strangers but like.... i can't grasp that step how from that he goes into "therefore I shall not offer this as a choice for them but instead make that a foregone conclusion that this is goodbye, at least for now" - is it bc asking means risk of rejection and he'd rather reject himself to spare them both the interaction?

sorry this got rambly XD but anyway - thoughts?

#halsin #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #epilogue halsin #last time i rambled in a post like that #i got great results so #here's me hoping ;) #pls help

[softhairedhotch]

Hi love!

I wanted to drop off some more headcanons,

starting off with hotch hates haircuts. Always has. The clippers snag at his scalp and the buzzing sound whirring around his head is disorienting, the lights sting his eyes. The scissors always come too close to his ears, the cold metal and threat of a sharp slice freak him out. The water spraying all over his face is just plain demeaning and trying to describe what he wants despite having had almost the same haircut for 16 years frustrated him because every barber alive wants different lingo from him. He doesn’t even want to consider the blue gunge they clean the tools in between clients. Not to mention the prickly hairs under his collar no matter how careful they are to prevent it. Hotch Hates Haircuts™️, it’s an all around stressful event that tests his patience.

Until, reader starts cutting his hair at home. In his own bathroom, patiently using scissors instead of clippers, no harsh lighting, no water overspray into his eyes and ears and nose. Just slow, gentle hands around his head and temples, the occasional kiss landing on his forehead. It becomes a serene sort of experience.

hotch hates haircuts amen !!!

i love the idea of the reader/you cutting his hair so much. like, it's such a soft intimate loving moment, ya'know?

the first time you cut his hair, it's because you realise it's getting a bit longer than usual. you think it's really cute the way his hair flops over his forehead. but after a few weeks, you notice it's irritating him. he brushes it away as if it's burning his skin, an annoyed huff leaving his lips. after gently suggesting he go to the barbers, you become aware of just how much he hates getting his hair cut.

when you suggest cutting his hair for him, he's immediately against it. he doesn't want to be a burden but most importantly he doesn't want any reason to be annoyed at you, and the thought of getting overstimulated when you're simply trying to help him makes him feel sick with guilt. however, after much persuasion on your end (mixed with lovey dovey puppy dog eyes and lots and lots of gentle smooches all over his face), he caves in after a few days and decides to let you cut his hair.

he prepares himself for the worst, expecting that once it's over he'll have to go on a run to calm down or even go to bed early so that he can have a few hours alone. the thought of possibly shutting you out after you help him makes him anxious and he gets the urge to call the whole thing off.

when aaron gets home later that day, you gently lead him to the bathroom and show him your set-up. one of the kitchen chairs is sat beside the sink and a pair of scissors, ones you bought specifically to cut his hair, rests on the edge of the bath. when he sits down, you lovingly smile at him and press a soft kiss to his lips, cheeks, and forehead. as a last surprise, you pull out your phone and open an app before the overhead light begins to dim. it's a smart bulb you found when you went shopping earlier and aaron almost bursts into tears at how thoughtful you are.

the hair cut itself takes a while due to only using scissors but aaron, to his own surprise, finds it relaxing. he almost nods off once or twice, the feeling of your soft hands combing through his hair and resting on his shoulders bringing him a great sense of comfort. occasionally, you press a kiss to his forehead or nose when you find yourself standing in front of him, and the adorable relaxed smile on his face, combined with his pretty eyelashes resting against his cheeks as he rests his eyes, makes it worth it each time.

once you've finished cutting his hair, you softly push it back the way he usually does and smile down at him lovingly, feeling a twist in your gut at just how much you love him. he looks up at you - completely calm and peaceful and not at all overstimulated like he always is after a haircut - and he feels the exact same way. he gives you the most loving kiss ever and thanks you profusely, promising to make it up to you somehow and telling you how much you mean to him and how he never imagined feeling as happy as he does when he's with you.

after that, he never lets his hair grow too long.

#hehe i love him sm #ugh he's so real #i love writing like this bc it's kinda like a fic but not really #i don't feel like i have to make it perfect yknow #i can just get my thoughts out and post #aaron hotchner #aaron hotchner x reader #aaron hotchner x gender neutral reader #criminal minds #aaron hotchner headcanons

[hella1975]

you ever have a fic get you in such a chokehold you start pacing your room and talking to yourself

#THIS FIC WAS WRITTEN FOR ME SPECIFICALLY #BURN IT ALL DOWN BY DOROTHYCANFLY ON AO3 THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF MY TOP 5 FICS OF ALL TIME EVER #IT'S GOT THE BEST DABI CHARACTERISATION IVE EVER COME ACROSS IT'S GOT REALLY WELL WRITTEN DABIHAWKS #THAT FITS BOTH OF THEM LIKE THEY'RE MEAN AS HELL ABOUT IT AT FIRST #IT'S GOT STUPIDLY DEVOTED TOUYA-SHOUTO IT'S GOT PROTECTIVE BIG BROTHER TOUYA #IT'S GOT MENTAL ANGST WRITTEN LIKE A DREAM THE WRITING IN GENERAL IS INSANE #IT'S ACTION PACKED BUT DONE WELL SO THAT IT'S NOT TEDIOUS IT'S FUNNY IT'S GOT TWISTS #IT'S KEEPING ME ON MY TOES I NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING OR HOW FAR THE AUTHOR IS WILLING TO GO #IVE LITERALLY READ 300K WORDS IN TWO DAYS AT THIS POINT LIKE I AM ABSOLUTELY FINISHING THIS TONIGHT #WHAT THE FUCK EVEN AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF AFTER THIS #EVERY NEW THING THAT HAPPENS LITERALLY HAS ME GETTING UP TO PACE ABOUT #I CLOCKED OUT OF MY MUM TELLING ME OFF EARLIER BC I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS FIC #DO U KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS BASO JUST SIGNED MY DEATH WARRANT BUT I DIDNT CARE #losing my goddamn mind respectfully <3 if anyone has read this pls yell with me about it #and if anyone knows mha and wants a fic rec PLEASE let it be this one it's my fav mha fic ever and ive read A LOT #it gets quite smutty in the middle but if that's not ur thing the author tws very well and u can kinda just scroll #so that u still get the important character developments without it being just pure smut lol #god this FIC. holding it in my fucking fist and squeezing the everloving life out of it im going INSANE #i cant remember the last time a fic got me this way im literally giggling about it all #HE FOUND A REASON TO LIVE AGAIN THEY TOOK THIS MANGLED BLOODY BOY AND SAID WE LOVE YOU #YOU ARE GOOD YOU CAN STAY YOU CAN REST NOW WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND HE CHOSE THEM! HE CHOSE THEM! #OVER HIS REVENGE AND HIS RAGE HE CHOSE THEM! IM GOING TO BE VIOLENTLY SICK #like the author LETS DABI BE A CUNT. the first chunk of the fic he's actively not a good person #and his coping mechanisms are shot to shit and we WATCH HIM GROW FROM THAT i have cried several times over the most mundane shit #goddddddddDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDAKSJFJKAGSFIUAHGJKAKG #mha #fic rec

[chryblossomjjk]

guys thank you so much for sticking around with me despite my lack of content… ive missed writing and talking to you all and responding to reviews so much. going to start working my way through responding to the reviews on the weekend and answering asks. ive finally started writing again the past two weeks, and today is the first day ive felt that excitement that i used to feel while writing. makes me realize how much i love this community. thank you for being here.

#and i really hope you guys like this new fic #im kinda nervy to post bc it’s nothing like groundbreaking or anything #just a fun lil piece #n that’s okay 🤧 #i hope it makes you guys laugh #and i hope some of you who relate to these characters feel comforted and yeah #anywho #gonna go write 🥹💗 #im so excited to dive into glimpse of us after this too like #this plot is my golden child fr #v much my magnum opus fic and yeah ugh #can’t wait #love you all

[dirty-bosmer]

Me talking about Lucien Lachance: Sick little freak (derogatory) Die

Me talking about Arquen who has 5 lines of dialogue and is canonically rumored to have feasted on his remains: My quirky girlfriend who deserves love and respect. They hate to see you winning, queen. ily girl.

#I've taken on the burden of being a hater cause he's not bullied enough; it ain't much but it's honest work #but fr the Black Hand are kinda losers. Didn't do their research ordered a purification that didn't work and got smote #can't feel bad that any of them died and never cared that Arquen ate him cause at that point in the questline nothing could have galled me #I was like “oh word?” sick little freak (loving) bc I support womens wrongs #Adrian if you see this I blame you partially cause you're also a hater and it has fueled me #Lucien Lachance #Arquen #the dark brotherhood #tes #Pls guys I don't really care about any of them its just fun to horse around and poke fun #also I am in the middle of writing a Lucien/Silencer fic so really I am the clown here

[oshitgirlie]

im looking through the cookie run sfw tags, for old times sake and like ... wow i really DID dominate the tag huh

#im like. in a super nostalgic mood rn #and im not even blowing my own horn because . it is true #and a lot of others have told me so #i've mentioned this before but i really did play a huge part in the cookie run x reader community until i stopped writing #one of the biggest blogs (which is why i still cant bear to leave rxspbrrry forever) #like mrs immortal said my red velvet fics were half the reason she created her own blog #and i created the cookie run sfw tag for non yandere writers to use #my red velvet and clotted cream fics are literally iconic #at first it was like Um. Wow. i caused this impact? #bc i was still kinda healing from genshinblr 2021 #but the cookie run community was soooo supportive to me back then and they helped me whether they know it or not #i love you crkblr 2022. i love you i love you i love you

[seventh-district]

it’s finally getting cold enough that i can bring my cardigan collection back into rotation without feeling like i’m gonna melt into a puddle the second i step outside!!!

#Seven.txt #my face #i have rematerialized back out of the void to once again make my once-in-a-blue-moon selfie & life update post #i’m running on 4 hours of restless sleep and the single banana i ate for lunch earlier today. let’s do this #hrrrrg i hate the lighting in my bathroom but i refuse to take pictures in the absolute Mental Illness Disaster Zone™️ that is my bedroom #anyways. got diagnosed with Mystery Pain Syndrome at the dentist today. so now i take ✨steroids✨ #the less funny explanation is that my tooth still hurts with pressure nearly a month post-root canal and That’s Not Good #so we’re trying some new medications to see if that fixes it. and if not then who knows. root canal pt.2 the sequel. or extraction. sigh #and so the Dental Saga continues. todays visit went quite well in spite of the unforeseen mystery pain delaying the tooth-shaving plans #we had some time to kill so he managed to fill some of my other tiny cavities while i was there today so that’s good #okay moving on. what else. uhh. OH they finally came out and ran the fiber to the house last week!!! now i’m just waiting on one more- #-guy to come and finish the interior install and the long awaited fast internet will finally be mine eheheheheeeee #now i can feel my hours upon hours of unedited gameplay footage breathing down my neck :) #man i’ve got so much stuff piled up right now. i’m drowning in Tasks and it’s a lil overwhelming but i’ll handle it all! eventually #uhhhhm my current writing project is coming along well! i’ve never put so much time and effort into a oneshot before in my life #its a labor of love though and i think i’m gonna be really proud of myself (and the fic) once it’s complete #even if no one reads it bc it’s so goddamn self indulgent and kinda lowkey throws canon out the window but like. fuck it! #if i want Astarion to write a song on piano and perform it for me while mentally taking me on a trip down memory lane. then so be it #fr though i’ve never written anything quite like this and i rlly want to do it justice. even if its unrealistic i still want it to be Good #in other news i received word that one of the chickens i sponsor at my local Gentle Barn has passed away so i had a lil cry abt that #i feel so bad for his little tiny chicken wife. they obviously loved each other and it’s like. so sad when one half of an old couple dies #like. she pulled him out of his depression after his 1st wife died. now who’s gonna be there to pull Her out… #anyways let’s not get all sad about that again. in happier news my cat who i presumed died/got killed has returned home uninjured!!! #after that huge stray dog chased her into the woods i thought we’d never find or see her again #but then the morning after i started grieving her she showed back up hungry as hell yet completely unharmed like the enigma that she is #so that’s one definite highlight from earlier this month. uhh what else. rapid fire summary of the past few weeks let’s go- #Jersey turned 10! Bullet turned 10! my 6 year Veganniversary happened! i’m approaching 700 days on DuoLingo! #i’ve written more than 20 thousand words! i’ve been facing some fears! fighting my OCD! taking care of myself! (kinda!) #anyways things are far from being all sunshine and roses around here but i’m trying to focus on the good stuff for the most part #for now tho i have a headache and have reached 30 tags so it’s time to go shovel some mashed potatoes into my mouth :)

[gregmarriage]

you know that whole thing where it’s like ‘ the same two people falling in love over and over again’, literally me with writing tomgreg getting together over and over again ✌🏻

#the amount of times these fuckers have confessed their love for each other #not even just fics i’ve posted #i literally have snippets for fic where the only thing i’ve written is the love confession imaooooo #it’s what i’m about x #my hopeless romantic ass being like ‘’i loveeee slow burn bc it’s hurts so good but also can they kiss five seconds in’ #i mean i’ve written slow burn before kinda #but is 16k words where only like half (?) of that is slow burn really slow burn? #i’m unsure what constitutes slow burn sometimes lol #also tomgreg have the drama and obstacles in their way which makes it fun to write #also i love writing for them just anyways bc they are batshit #can really exercise my language muscles with the way these two fuckers speak imaooooo #anyways i love and miss them always <3 #gwen rambles #gwenposting

[inevitablestars]

it's stupid to be upset by not getting feedback or comments or kudos or whatever on fics but like... it really does make a difference, doesn't it?

like there's been times that i've gotten a few comments like right after posting and that made me like so excited and happy and wanting to immediately write more

but those aren't the times i remember and i hate it... like when i'm in a slump all i think about are the times that i have posted and no one reads or cares and no one interact at all. that's what sticks with me (and probably other writers too)

if you don't write then maybe you don't know how important comments are to writers but they really are

#sorry that this is kinda complainy and also super dumb #i've just been feeling very 🙃 #i love writing but what i love more is sharing it but what's the point in doing that if like no one cares? and how do i know if anyone cares #if the only comments i get are from my friends that i tell everything about the fic too? #might delete this later bc it sounds like i'm just whining about wanting comments #but that's not what i mean by this bc i feel like this applies to other people too #idk sorry i'm just ugh #i do really really appreciate anyone who reads and comments even if u only comment once i will treasure it forever

[theloveinc]

hello everyone just want to say sorry for not writing lately ‼️ I am just a little low on ideas currently and am waiting on my computer charger to be shipped in ‼️‼️‼️

#I have my Kiri asks I wanna get to soon as I have my compooper again #also I’m trying to think of a long fic idea bc I’m really tired of only writing short stuff (sigh. my own fault) #but I’ve been reading … not trashy novels but … best sellers like Carrie Soto is back and I wanna write a short version of that !! #I’m kinda thinking abt how I can turn that one idea abt Bakugo and praise into something #but idk if I wanna do canon universe or an au #but it’s on the brain !!! #sadly my computer is out of commission rn boo #so behind on hw because of it too LOL thankfully it’s mostly poetry and some other stuff #anyway I just wanted to say how dearly I miss and love u all!! #caitie blabs

[boxwinebaddie]

i FINALLY had time to read rm 4 and oh my god.. STANS MOM CALLING HIM CUERVO I STARTED TEARING UP UNCLE NINA WHAT THE FUCK. AND KYLE BEING MARRIED TO STAN IN HIS HEAD HOLY SHIT THAT WAS THE CUTEST CHAP YOUVE EVER WRITTEN I THINK. AND HIM DRINKING OUT OF THE THERMOS SO IT TASTED LIKE METAL HOW DO YOU EVEN COME UP WITH THIS STUFF

thank you so much for reading my weird little fanfic, my beloved!!!! also, to answer your last question: i have no idea, i am literally criminally insane, my brain comes up with crazy things, psych ward 5150 grippy sock vacation level plot lines omggg. lock 'er up, boys!!!

but CUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERVOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

CUERVO NATION!!!! WHO IS UUUUUUUPPPPP!!!!!!

i was hoping someone would catch that!!!! i published my fic and i was vibrating with nervous and excited energy just waiting for someone to drop the word cuervo in my comments section or my inbox so i am SOOOOOO FUCKIN EXCITED OMG!!!!!

( i was sitting on that piece of lore for so long, it was KILLING ME!!! )

bc literally in that entire 16k word chapter...litrally only 1 word actually mattered...and it was cuervo tbh...my son my son my son MI HIJOOO

( also sharon using the masculine o instead of the feminine a and correcting herself...sharon PLEASE KISS ME!!!! tom move over omg )

i remember at first when i was planning out rm i just had raven be stans crimson dawn pseudonym because goth stan in the show was raven...but i am insane i require all of the choices in my fanfictions to mean something, so i couldn't just...have that be his name for no reason...so when i was developing his character and specifically his latino heritage i was like...

....what if i made it his precious childhood nickname?

*wrings my hands like an evil genius*

she also didn't give it to him for no reason, there's a lot of symbolism, with michelle/michi and cat stuff too i'm so...WE'LL GET THERE!!!

but yes....te amooooo cuervo! <3333 besitoooooo baby!

( everyone be so so nice to ravenstan please i love him so so much i hope you guys also really like him im...protective over him omg )

I KNOW KYLE AND STAN BEING MENTALLY MARRIED IS SO SAD AND FUCKING CUTE TO ME!!! and i mean!! technically!!! even tho i didnt write that flashback in little stan did propose to kyle by starks pond with that little pine needle weaved ring w the fresca bottle cap super glued on it so like....idk THATS LEGALLY BINDING TO ME!!!

i'm fucking...like despite the difficulties and hardships they'd face...which would be a lot more than pep!style just bc stan is transmasc, being less white passing than pepstan is by a lot, kyle being jewish and people being fatphobic towards him...OF ALL THE STYLES...THEY HAD THE BEST CHANCE AT BEING HAPPY!!!! THEY WERE IN LOVE AT LIKE 11!!!! KYLE WAS BEING DELULU BUT IF STAN LIVED RIGHT NOW THEY WOULD ACTUALLY MARRIED!!!

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh

its so sad too because ughhhh kyle was treated so inhumanely because he was overweight growing up ( i know that was a weird plot choice in rm, but there was a reason for it, i think it also makes cartmans character more insidious to me bc of his cruelty and prejudices ) that obviously it shattered his self confidence and had him develop very unhealthy eating habits and body complexes

so now that he is like...actually malnourished and fucking dying, its fucking sick because he was ALWAYS BEAUTIFUL but now that hes 'conventionally attractive' no one will fucking leave him alone...like he gets stopped EVERYWHERE hit on by everyone...so sometimes he just tells people hes "married" and...will occasionally tell people his husbands name is "stan" which......ur delulu baby but i love you

the thermos was so :'( he really misses him so much its so sad i got sad writing that part because everyones like kyle u gotta let go but it fully traumatized him and like??? never getting closure about the love of your life dying is so fucking awful!!!!

like idc that they were 11 like when you Know you Know!!! when you Meet the love of your life you Meet the love of your life!!! your Soulmate is your goddamn Soulmate, okay? and like??? how the fuck are you expected to conduct your life as normal knowing your one true love is DEAD???? in such a violent, fucked up and unpleasant way??? never getting to say goodbye????

uh...cant wait to um...fuck up kyles life by telling him that the hot lead singer of the band that keeps hitting on him is his presumed dead super best future husband...thats gonna be fun haha! whew! FUN!

the fact that he sits there every year....UUUUUUUGH

spain without the s dude...

but i'm so glad you liked that chapter and actually??? Everyone really liked that chapter which AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA YOU GUYS!!!!

when i tell you...of all the updates i've written...pep and rm...i have NEVER been more nervous about uploading a chapter

it's bc the rm universe is so canon divergent and i'm writing a very atypical account of style thats not as easily followed the fandom

and i was worried that the lore would be poorly received, it would be too out there, too long, too boring but

I THINK ITS MY BEST WORK????

like its my favorite chapter ive ever written ( i really love chapter six of peppermint but chpater four of rm...has the energy of pep six...but its sadder...deeper...has the added bonus of stans home life...future ky )

i think the only exceptions to favorite chapters are....

omg so in a little bit...there is an rm chapter...that is my favorite outline for a chapter ever...since i started writing rm i have been WAITING to post it...id say ill tell u when you're there but you'll know...honestly after this chapter the next string of rm chapters should be...pretty iconic but THAT PARTICULAR ONE...AAAAAA

there is also one near the very VERY END OF PEP and it was gonna be a oneshot actually but i built this whole fic around it...oh my god...im so EXCITED TO POST THAT ONE...when we get there u will also know....AAAAAAAAAAAA thank u for reading my trash u guys!

like i really...have never felt more nervous about posting something but ultimately i did because i have never felt more confident in ho hard i worked world building and writing something? like i spent so much time making everything so cohesive, making sure every part of the canon, eveyr line of dialogue, every word made the fanfiction better, gave it depth or would contribute to the plot later...

so the fact that you guys really loved it...i want to cry tbh

i'm glad you guys are enjoying the world that i am building because its very special to me, i qorked very hard on it and as much as i really, really, love pep...i think the intricacies of the rm universe are really fucking awesome and i'm enjoying the dark raunchy macabre psychological thriller mystery romance energy of the rm world aaaa!

-uncle nina, rm super fangirl

ps. i love looove rm, i love talking abt it you can ask me any questions about it any time and i will answer as long as i am not spoiling stuff xx

#CUEEEEEEEEEEERVOOOOOOOOOO #the little cuervo headstanon for raven is like one of my favorite parts of rm bc it gives actual meaning to his stage name and #it also plays into other parts of the fic im really excited to get there a lot of it comes out in that chap im excited abt writing #its why im kinda rushing on 5 because i want to get...over there so badly omg #BUT YES I LOVE JERSEY AND RAVENSTAN BEING MARRIED AS HELL IN KYLES HEAD #and kyle just mourning him like a widow every year under a maple tree taking a picture with his stanley marsh smolder and his polaroid #u know theres just like 6 other polaroids of kyle almost in tears trying to smile pendejo every year on stans bday #stans gonna see those one day and cry a lot i just know it fml #ugh but im so glad u think its my cutest chapter #I AM PASSIONATE ABT RM FOUR LIKE I THINK ITS REALLY REALLY GOOD #i do not talk about my fanfics like that ever but i feel very confident abt rm for bc i think its well done very cohesive and evocative #also i love a flashback u know me #so im glad u liked it and everyone liked it bc...it healed my relationship with writing sm #it was so freeing to write something that i loved and have it loved right back....i love u guys on that note

[tapedsleeves]

BTS for your fave passage from your new nate/jo por favor?

IDK if I have 1 passage that's my favorite for it tbh? the part I'm proudest of is the part after Nate presses pause, mostly because I worked really hard on it- how to get Jo to be just a little nervous about it, but mostly proud of Nate speaking up and not trying to talk over his feelings, but wanting to explain what he was trying to do. I think I threw away the original notes, but I think i just, cut out a whole section, had Nate say "I didn't like that, it felt icky." and then had Jo be like "oh. thanks for stopping that, i don't want you to feel like that. can i explain what i was going for?" while they're BOTH giving so much physical reassurance that they're both like. good and here and want to be there.

it's probably one of those scenes that reads like "he would not fucking say that" but idk, sometimes you just gotta write the healthy(ish) relationships you wanna see in the world.

also, one of the things i also enjoyed was like. Getting Nate to take naps. Even though he doesn't do it before games, he does take several naps in this fic. Because I looked at his face before the VGK game and went "this is a skeleton, this is bones. I want to feed him a sandwich and smother him to death with a pillow (force him to rest)" and yeah. sometimes you also have to write the naps you want to see in the world.

#!!! thank you for asking #i feel kinda bad bc like even tho this fic took me like a week to write it really did just. mostly line itself out #once i'd gotten the major beats It was pretty smooth sailing it was a) having the internet AND motivation to write it #and b) fucking writing it #there was also a part where my beta laughed at me for saying “sad news” instead of bad news and i was like ... it's SAD news #and they were like “don't you fucking change it. it's so funny. it's perfect” #a brief excerpt of me and my beta yelling at each other: beta: get loved idiot. me: GET CARED FOR

[pyrriax]

How about c!Redd, c!Guts, or c!Krow for the character bingo if you’d like! Or Branzy or Zam if you wanna do some lifestealers instead!

i love a challenge and am now gonna do all of them :3

(done with the utmost love, i'm very fond of all of these characters actually <3 i just honed it to base opinions)

in order: c!krow, c!red, c!guts, branzy, zam

((i will say that i haven't watched c!red or c!guts' povs, which is why i lack opinions on them. i've been meaning to and then i got dragged into being hopelessly fixated on lifesteal pfvdfnjk; and for the fact like 98% of what i've written recently have been branzy-centric fics that actually include zam a Lot. so. you've handed me my blorbos on a platter and asked for opinions pdfvfndjk))

#ask a ghost #asker: oneformercy #i love giving opinions and i could talk forever and ever about these Creatures #i've been wanting to write some fics with focus on characters that are less popular/common (especially for outsiders) #and c!guts was actually on my list for that bc i think they're really cool and from what i heard of their backstory it'd be fun #HONESTLY this bingo does not do my opinions justice because i have so many thoughts about all of them. #i mean i have read your ramblings about c!redd and you're like 99% of the reason i want to watch his pov... #he's such a guy. #(it's kinda funny you can tell who i watch the most based on how many of the boxes got ticked) #OK enough rambling lol #i will never claim to be an expert on these guys pfvnjfdk i know c!apo the best (watched his pov like three times through)

[skrunksthatwunk]

update i've written like. 3k words of the goromi encounter chapter tonight (for this fic). gonna keep at it but i thought y'all should know: yes it's been like 3 weeks, no i haven't forgotten about it. she's been marinating. i've been cooking up some good shit though and i'm SO SO SO excited to finally be getting to some parts of the outline that i just realized y'all aren't aware of yet. hehehehooohoo >:)))))

anyway hopefully it should be done within a couple days :3!!! thanks to everyone for their support so far, i swear i'll respond to the comments eventually. i look at them and giggle likee. embarrassingly often lol

#it's been one of the toughest chapters to really figure out how to write because the balance between the canon dialogue and how i wanna #spin it character-wise is kinda complicated. also i don't wanna just. copy the whole exchange. nor do i wanna insert new dialogue #(for the goromi hostess minigame part of it). but i managed i think #it's also very much the climax of the story (though there's a couple chapters after this) so like. less slapstick and more oh BIG emotions #oh how to work the you're not a woman line into a trans affirming reading of kiryu. the literary gymnastics i'm going through. y'all. #i mean it fits with my characterization in the fic i feel but it's still kind of a headache to fit everything together yk #i was also kinda putting off going through all the goromi dialogue options again.. not bc i don't love her i just got brain stuck :/ #nyarla dni #rgg #anywaay i've really only got the end scene left to write. im gonna go back and edit what i've written tonight first though

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rose and dave brainworms :)

#it me #idk ive written a bunch of scenes that are just them in this dave fic I’m writing #theyre so siblings!!! they annoy the shit out of each other on purpose ❤️ but also they get each other like no one else #also that art earlier about how theyve died together in three diff timelines. mwah.... #theyre intrinsically linked two sides of the same coin way way more than any other pair in hs I think tbh #like I feel like john and jade barely interact after a certain point :( #which tbh is kinda sad bc they couldve done some sick reality bending parallels between jades bec powers and johns retcon ones..... #vriska and terezi are also a solid duo but again. not really the same #anyway they love to bother each other but theyd also be the first to go along w the others bits no matter what ❤️ #they truly embraced their twinship immediately hehehehe #homestuck #rose lalonde #dave strider #strilondes

[deus-ex-mona]

it started as a simple song-inspired fic, how did it end up like this

#aka i finally remembered why i don’t write fics anymore: the musical #man i just had a really weird day. first i woke up from this messed up dream #in which i filled a half-full bottle of perfume with water and then sprayed said concoction into my mouth when i got thirsty #i remember that ​the perfume-water tasted fragrant though. like the taste spreads through your entire mouth and around your airways #and then i cleaned my room in a ‘my mind says no but my body says yes’ kinda thing. sadge #i wanted to sleep my holiday away mans…. :((((((( what a waste #oh right the song that inspired this fic was one of my favourite songs from my childhood. and it’s 20 years old this year i think… #though. even though it’s 20 years old. there is somehow???? no proper english tl of it??? like???? lol????? #there are only semi-accurate machine tls s o b s the song deserves better fr #the cg animation in the song’s mv did n o t age well though lmao. still love it though~~~~ #then again. the only reason why it even inspired this fic is bc i misheard the chorus as ‘aizo aizo’ after looping it one too many times #i hate my life i hate everything how did it come to t h i s #i want my holiday back. i shouldn’t have wasted it cleaning my room of all things. sadge… #it is suiyoubi my dudes #added to my personal cringefic compilation #g od how am i still able to find that tag when i have to type out literally every other compilation tag hello??? tagging system??? you ok???