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i love tommy calling buck "evan," but i think it would be hilarious for them to get deeper into the relationship and during a tiff, tommy throws out one of those adoring, incredulous evans, and buck is immediately like, yes, thomas? i want them to have the world's bitchiest love language

#oh i love this #bucktommy #911 abc

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the passage of time is horrifying and scary and i hate it

#cas talks #like no wdym i can never return to the past

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Can we please make "I'm depressed" a valid reason to out-of-the-blue fall off the face of the earth?

I'm not busy.

I'm not tired.

My plate isn't full.

I'm not swamped with work.

I don't have a cold or flu.

I'm not laying awake at night. (But I am sleepy throughout the day.)

Nothing tragic or traumatic has happened.

I nor anyone I know or work with is going through anything.

You didn't do or say anything wrong.

But I'm not sad, either. I'm not homesick or in mourning. I'm not angry at anyone or anything.

Nothing is wrong...

I just woke up and suddenly being alive sucked, eating became a dumb idea and nothing mattered. I canceled training for the next two weeks, making up a lie, saying I'd be out of town on business.

And I have no other explanation for that, but I don't [can't] say anything because the word "depression" might as well be "itchy" to some people.

"Here, have a mango. You like mangos, right? This should cheer you up!" But I'm not sad.

"Just think happy things!" But I'm not sad.

"Did something happen? You know you can always talk to me!" About what? I'm not sad.

It'll go away just as it came: on its own.

How long it'll stay in my system this time is anyone's guess.

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You know what I want to see? Buck wearing Tommy's clothes for everyone to see. Like, maybe he slept over unexpectedly and wore Tommy's shirt and pants because he didn't bring spare clothes. It has to be clothes that we saw Tommy wore before. If this happens, I'm going to lose my mind. 😍😳

#bucktommy #911 #911 abc

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every now and then I start reflecting on how much mental illness has fucked up my life and it makes me feel sick, I could have been so much more

#been thinking this a lot lately #i thought i was gonna be something #guess not

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i really need to see Evan & Tommy actually date and have a real, beautiful relationship. the idea of them openly crushing on and falling for each other. i want to see them loving to learn more about each other, like how Tommy takes his coffee <3 i’m unwell i need this so deeply they are so cute i’m obsessed

#911 abc #bucktommy

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I lost him, Eddie. No, You saved him. That's how he remembers it. And now, it's his turn to do the same for you.

#i love them so much #911 #911 abc

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bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

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Something about being at the absolute bottom feels like home

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Growth isn’t always constant. Relapses happen. It doesn’t erase all your success.

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I love this shot sm. He looks so.......puppy 🥹😩😩💕!!!!!!

#i am so in love with him #tommy please give me one chance #tommy kinard #lou ferrigno jr

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"tommy is the stepping stone" "i'm so sad that he's gonna be gone at some point" "this is just the start of buddie" "i hope he stays on good terms with the team and we see him on occasion" well guess what. i get to live in the land of my dreams where tommy is a main character who gets an adorable boyfriend and keeps flying eddie to vegas and keeps teaching buck muay thai and he goes to bobby's barbecues and then at some point we even get a tommy begins episode. have you considered that

#tommy kinard #lou ferrigno jr #911 abc #911 spoilers

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lou ferrigno jr really strolled up to set after five years, flew a helicopter to a capsized cruise ship in the middle of a storm, scrunched his nose multiple times, kissed oliver stark like he'd been training for it his whole career, improvised the chin grab, and i'm supposed to what. not love the guy??

#911 spoilers #911 abc #lou ferrigno jr

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noooooo i don't have a praise kink haha..... it's just a coincidence that my pupils turn into little pink hearts when you tell me i've done a good job 🥴🥴🥴

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why do words have to be so hard

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tim minear, if you don't let us keep him i swear to god-

#i need him to stay please #lou ferrigno jr