#i liked between 1&2 well enough

[seas-below-moons]

I'm so disappointed about the jihyo solo and 24 hours later i'm still not over it

#i've hated the group's latest trend and i feel like she was pulled into it #i don't mind the more mature concepts #hello??? icsm??? #CRY FOR ME???? #both amazing #the eyes wide open album was amazing and while i loved formula of love more i still loved it so much #my problem is not the more mature concepts #i liked between 1&2 well enough #but rtb i did not like very much #it's set this new tone for the group that i am not a fan of #i resold my tickets for the concert bc i couldn't stand it #i've been a fan since their debut and it's just... so disappointing #i love her so much she's my ultimate favorite #comparing ny's solo to her solo is ridiculous #ny obviously had so much more production value and love given to it #i feel like they made her hold back so much #i'm just really really disappointed #i was expecting to be disappointed with the current trend but i'm sad anyway #i've been hoping for her solo for so long and was even mad when it was ny first #but this was not it #for me at least #i wish her and the group the best-- #MISAMO??? THAT WAS AMAZING #even that had better quality!!!! #do not touch was so good!!! so much better compared to this!!! #why is she getting the short end of the stick #ugh i'm so mad #she deserves so much better than this #i wish her and the group the best but i'm so removed from this group now #and if they grow and i'm no longer their audience that's fine but i'm going to miss them and their music dearly

[flashhwing]

man going into bg3 I thought I wouldn't like Astarion just based on everything I saw about him on tumblr and at first I was right and for all the reasons I expected but like 70 hours of gameplay later he's literally top 3 for me

#karlach is number 1 obviously #astarion and gale fighting for number 2 #and then it's wyll and then lae'zel and then shadowheart #i'm sorry shadowheart you are so so so interesting on paper but so boring to talk to #the gap between lae'zel and shadowheart in this rankign is. larger than the gap between any of the others #between wyll and lae'zel is particularly small. i like him better by such a tiny margin #bg3 #realizing now that top three is just. the top half fjdkls tehre's only six companions (that i know well enough to rank so far) #i mean there's also halsin and jaheira #but i don't. idk. i don't know them well enough #halsin seems to think i'm romancing him which is kind of putting me off. tbh fjdkls #jaheira is so cool. i need her to like me so badly #this has been a post

[spirallingstarcases]

we want to hear the unhinged things!

i completely forgot abt this ask skdhdhsh but ok!im gonna put it in the tags! no one but freaks allowed in there!

(here are the photos again for ref)

#GO AWAY FREAKS ONLY GO AWAY GO #spi.answers #anon #this is all very #not sfw #like the tags at least #okay i think i’ve added enough that it should say read more when it comes up on the dash #1.) i need to jerk him off over the shorts and see the light fabric turn dark as he cums. #2.) i need his fingers in my mouf and pressing down on my tongue 👍 #3.) well. i need to crawl between his legs and live there #4.) i wonder if his happy trail is either too light or too soft/fine to be captured by the camera. i should be allowed to investigate. #5.) i bet it would be nice and soft to put my face against. you know what i’m talking about.

[eulchu]

drop the cookie dough recipe 🔫

who are you .

#ok fine #two bowls #1 bowl pour one cup of all purpose flour microwave for a minute and a half but do it in 30s intervals and stirr between those intervals #2nd bowl pour half a cup of butter half a cup of brown sugar and 1/8th of granulated sugar . stirr with whisk #in my case i did it with a fork LMAO it also works but it's harder . stirr until you get a nice consistency and everything looks mixed in #add half teaspoon of salt and 3/4 of vanilla extract (that depends on how much you like vanilla. i think 3/4 is the perfect starting point) #mix together again #add your butter batter to the flour and mix for a bit then add 2 teaspoons of milk to help it mix better #if it doesnt mix well enough keep adding teaspoons of milk #mix until u get the dough . then add chocolate chips and mix again #voila #asknootfound

[yeonban]

Honestly tragic that Light went down the path he did in the 2nd half bc in the beginning Tobias would've really liked him. He wholeheartedly agrees that the only way to bring REAL "justice" is by making sure the perpetrator will never be able to do evil again, which will never be achievable through lawful means like incarceration (especially in cases where they're connected to a bigshot who can bail them out) so the only way to truly get rid of evil is, like Light figured, through kiIIing them all

#muse: tobias. #Ironically enough Tobias thinks Light isn't (wasn't) harsh enough in his 'judgements'. HE would've made sure they suffer WAY more #I think the biggest differences between Tobias and Light are that 1) Tobias doesn't view himself as a 'God' or anything of the sort; #though he doesn't hurt innocent people for fun or money like they do; he views himself as not THAT different from his enemies #I mean sure he's disgusted by 99% of them but he's aware he does many things the faint of heart would never be able to stand looking at too #2) Light does everything as if he's not involved. He sets out 'judgements' to people who are far away; through more indirect means #whereas Tobias is much more involved. He PERSONALLY sets time aside to deliver the payback to the people who are in high positions #Most of the time he makes sure their last ever conversation is w him. Sometimes their death is remote (but still horrible; i.e explosions) #other times it's by his hands in which case they Wish they could've died like that ^ instead bc his torture isn't Only physical #3) Light doesn't care who he has to discard; being willing to kiII even his closest allies who would never think of turning on him #whereas Tobias would Never abandon his true allies like that. He knows damn well how hard to get across they are and he treasures them #so he's willing to take heavy losses to save them if need be; and certainly won't ever discard them the way Light would #4) Tobias knows damn well that by doing what he's doing it means he's eventually going to end up dead like his enemies and he's fine w that #meanwhile Light seriously thought he would conquer the world; have nothing happen to him whatsoever; then die a peaceful death #I should write a proper meta on the similarities and differences between Light (+L) and Tobias sometime bc I keep thinking about them

[lovevalley45]

honestly i think the 100th ep got one thing wrong with the early legends dynamic and that is that. they weren't like bros. but they were definitely united Against rip

#alli says shit #like those scenes with carter must have taken place between ep 1 n ep 2 #n while yknow it's all exaggerated #i also think it's like. they don't each other well enough to be fighting yet #but they Do know they don't trust rip lmao

[mymitochondriaforpresident]

Residency…

Even my eyebag’s eyebags have eyebags at this point.

#oh the drama #residency #medicine #surgery #eyebags #please #and i’m doing double work right now since my co-res decided to milk the parental leave system #love that (/s) #and right when the new interns started #so they’re going to be on easy street when they come back since the interns will be prepped and ready to go when they come back #i mean eight weeks off… #and they aren’t even the ones who gave birth #and i’m on call as much as the interns are at this point #i didn’t even get a chance to breathe between PGY-1 and PGY-2 i feel like an extended intern right now tbh #and that isn’t right #sorry but all the extra work getting dumped on me isn’t fair #when they come back they better be ready to WORK #sorry if that’s bitchy and insensitive but what about MY well-being? #i needed to rant this out my therapist wasn’t enough i needed tumblr lol #and i did all this while recovering from a leg injury #if this dude gets the chief position over me i am going to lose it #personal #update: thanks for the hugs and hearts guys 💜💜💜💜

[daz4i]

love my social worker he's so sweet and i love my mentor/guide/one day i'll find a fitting english word for what her role is too. last time i met the former he said they talked abt the thing i'm starting this thursday and said "while it feels like these circumstances may be impossible for you, logically speaking you shouldn't succeed there, yet both of us are certain you will" which is very nice but also AAAAAAAAAAAAA

#they're right like these ARE p much impossible circumstances for me #but i do think they think too highly of me and i'm definitely gonna disappoint them 🥲 #this was both assuring yet. like. pressuring. if that's the right word idk #ik there's the whole. 'what if i fail' 'but what if you don't' back and forth but genuinely. realistically speaking. i most likely will #i have never been able to maintain those daily structure stuff like school for example #and while i do hope that since this is only 4 short days a week (with a break in between 2 and 2) and smth i like doing - #- then i'll have an easier time. but. it's still gonna be so hard. #there's a reason i don't go out or wake up early ughhhhh it's bc i hate doing it. idk if theater would be enough to make up for that #and what if i don't like the people what if i don't get along with the directors what if i struggle with remembering lines or physicality #which will make it all so much harder and make the part i'm supposed to love unpleasant as well #what would i do then 🥲 #. why am i anxious about this rn. i have a tough day ahead of me for a different reason i should probably focus on first 🫠 #vent #sorryyyyyyy it's 1 am and i need to clear my brain out it seems #also maybe i want. advice. or encouragement. idek what i want. here. i don't wanna have to worry abt this but that's impossible ofc #(my mom told me today that she wants to tell me there's nothing to stress about but she knows that'll just be incorrect 😭 and she's right) #(dw she meant it nicely and gently as in she knew i'd just get mad at her for saying it lol. and i mean. again. gotta be realistic)

[waywardsalt]

Have you ever thought about how Linebeck describes Jolene as "crazier than a rabid squid"- only to then be possessed by a literal rabid squid later in the game?

Cause I sure have- especially after seeing a lot of your BellumxLinebeck stuff

mmmmghmm im gonna be honest i haven't thought about it much at all

linking it to my bellum x linebeck thoughts, im not too sure what to make of it in context with my other linebeck notes and w/e

there's also my idea that linebeck has a special interested in shellfish and by extension squids, and the idea of him having a weird thing for bellum, and just... enjoying sealife, and it's kinda of...

he compares her to a rabid squid to link in order to i think... offer a shorthand explanation of what she's like, and i think it (with some other stuff) is kinda just another little peek into how he might feel abt her?

i mean he also compares link to a dog in that one letter? i'm not sure where im going with that one. i dont think linebeck particularly likes dogs

i'm not sure abt the link between that and him getting possessed, jolene is kind of just... there a lot of the time and doesn't really do anything except 1) show that linebeck has enemies and 2) show that people know about link's quest by the end, linebeck generally references sea creatures a few times in ph

relating to bellum x linebeck, i dont see him comparing jolene to a squid an indicator of anything in relation to that, with linebeck having a thing for bellum its more of like. there's a lot of complicated ideas i have with what goes on between them during bellumbeck and bellum being a squid thing is more linebeck having a bit of a monsterfucker streak and having a bit of a thing for like. being tied up. as for literal squids he kinda just likes them as food and to dissect and learn about

like i think 'rabid squid' is more like linebeck just tossing out some derogatory shorthand to explain how he thinks of jolene as some fucking. violent annoyance he has to deal with that he doesn't fully understand

tbh i see the comparison but imo it comes down to a difference in characters and interactions and histories, there is the rabid squid thing (and i think in the manga too theres a vague parallel drawn ig) but im not. sure. what there is there just beyond. linebeck talks about sea creatures and wants to get the fuck away from jolene

i'm not entirely certain what you've been thinking about with that comparison, but i haven't been thinking much about it and it's kinda. eh ig???? its something

#asks #musicncomics #like im gonna be real jolene is a character i do everything i can to avoid half of the time #im not too sure what your thoughts on this are but i can tell you like jolene leagues more than i do so like. idk #idk i have a hard time talking abt jolene bc i Do Not like her so im not really sure beyond this stuff its just. idk #bellum also isnt a literal squid like looking at actual squids the most comparisons are surface level and dont work too deeply #he kinda just looks like one at first glance but 1) doesnt line up well enough and 2) we dont have enough info on him anyways #hes more a reference to a squid than an actual squid bc there is the reference to sperm whales and giant squids fucking hating each other #but while oshus is literal whale bellum is like. some thing in the shape of a squid #im not sure what parallels oyu can draw between the jolene thing and bellum thing. if anything theyre opposites? #w/ jolene its like things got so bad (or w/e) that he just robbed her n fucked off and she decided that was enough to warrant murder #while with bellum things get so good (w/ link and co) that he risks his life for em and is turned against them for it? #tbh this kinda comes down to me having a pretty negative bias against jolene and. that ship. so yeah sorry #im not gonna give this any main tags or anything this is way too far off the beaten path and kinda negative #idk i hc linebeck as gay and a lot of other linebeck hcs just kinda. suggest that he kinda had a really shit time w/ jolene #i dont like her im trying to figure that shit out so i can be like. fair at least in how i write her but i dont like her #salty talks #sorry that i keep tearing away from the rabid squid thing but its like a minefield when i try to talk abt anything w/ jolene #theres not a ton of parallels or like shared themes or w/e and its just too dissimilar in little ways that its just. a thing #ill add this in a few hours later idk if youll see jt but like. i can go in depth and discuss stuff #in dms like im fine with that its just weird in posts bc like tagging and my thoughts are a mess #like if you wanna elaborate on your thoughts thats fine

[rollercoasterwords]

ok hi made a substack for various bits + pieces of non-fanfic creative writing i have lying around. not v much 2 speak of but it's there 4 anyone interested! if i write any more bits + pieces i'll maybe put them over here :•)

#after looking thru literally everything i have written over the past 10 years there were only. #3 short stories 2 poems + 1 in-between thing that i liked enough 2 share lol #and since i really don't have anything else to do with any of this stuff. might as well make a blog for it ig.... #also drew the little bone logo myself on mspaint...isn't it cute...

[queer-crusader]

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#tw period #im so sick and fucking tired of this shit #like. im not even in extreme pain! im at low-to-medium level discomfort that comes in waves all day #but that's the PRELUDE. my period hasn't even officially started yet #and i don't know what this means. idk if this means i'll be slammed as if by a fucking freight train tomorrow if i don't take my meds #i think it will bc that's becoming the norm. light periods are quickly disappearing or few and far between #im so tired #(doesn't help that i didn't get enough sleep last night but still) #and i feel that while my periods are pretty brutal they're not the level i see people with diagnosed endometriosis speak of #i've got meds that pretty much suppress the majority of it leaving me with just an undercurrent hum of pain #which is a fucking blessing btw bc without them i would be almost unable to function on day 1 and 2 #so im like well ive got something that works and it's easily available drugstore medication so surely it can't be THAT level of bad #like. it's bad. but it's not [insert chronic illness] right? #i just don't fucking know. all i know is that this sucks and it happens every month and im uncomfortable to go on hormones and just. #it fucking sucks. #i remember when my periods felt the way im feeling right now (as im yet to start bleeding) and it scares me #idk if it'll get worse but it sure ain't great already #anne speaks

[arcenergy]

my nobody asked for opinion on contest mode crota's end is that it was very good

#misc #very well balanced between not having to disgustingly optimize dps and in depth mechanics which are my favorite part about learning raids #the most fun contest mode experience ive had in a long time we only got tilted at crota because everything in that room hit like a fucking #freight train and just living long enough to dps phase was a challenge in itself #then we came back today and steamrolled him but it is what it is #i didnt do challenge mode because 1. my team started late 2. we did it blind 3. we were very tired #i didnt run the raid again to get the emblem oh no . shoot me. i ran RON contest mode twice and i wanted to die #speaking of root of nightmares i farmed nezarec 3 times today and i got pants. every single time. i screamed #destiny #also can someone pleawse please PLEASEEEEEEEE tell bungie to upload the new ost for crota's end its so fucking good

[yo9urt]

ball dur's gait 3 is ruining my life

#mine #I THINK I LOCKED MYSELF OUT OF AST4RI0N ROMANCE BY ACCIDENT #AND THE WORST PART IS I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW!!!!!!! #LIKE. WHAT SCENE DID I FUCK UP IN. WHICH DIALOGUE DID I MISS. WHERE DID I GO WRONG #i just got to act 3 and i had the option to ask him why him and my char haven't [ahem] in a while and i decided to click on it #and he finished the conversation by being like 'yeah theres never going to be anything between us' #i insta-reloaded to my save right before the convo because i refuse to accept that as being canon #even though i know the structure of this game well enough to know the fact that i have the option to have that convo #is like a 99% guarantee that i cant romance him #but fuck me man i wanna be a little delusional and keep believing #but if it's really over...............then 1. i'm very upset especially because this is my self insert #(although that is oddly fitting in its own way) #2. i still care him so much and in my heart i want to believe maybe after the events of the game something happens between them #3. im going to kill myself #and 4. on the upside i guess this does offer some interesting story/rp aspects i could play with in my silly mind #but fuuuuuuck me man i was counting on being able to do it i really thought i could get this to work................... #fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck man #so many things have gone wrong in this run it's almost kinda funny #i guess this also adds another playthrough to my planned list cause even though i watched the supercut and i know his romance already #i still kind of want to experience it for myself...even if it's not with my insert :( #but then again my tavs and durges will always be a little bit of an insert cause i'm going to project on them and they'll always #have something in common with me #i can try again in the future... #my 2nd run is going to be durgestarion with durge resisting the urges which i think will be really fun #but i guess im gonna need to use a guide LMAO #fuuuuuuuuuuck dude even though i reloaded to make the convo uncanon i feel like me and my little tav guy are sharing a deeply painful momen #ok this is too many tags WHATEVER i have a call in 30 minutes and then i'm playing the game for the rest of the day #even if he doesn't want me i will still care him...... #oh i guess that's the other upside is i can see nonromantic dialogue i might not have seen otherwise #i'll probably see friend dialogue in future playthroughs when i romance other characters but who knows

[aeide-thea]

[witcherposting ahead—nb that this is all totally lighthearted and it's fine if you feel differently!]

anyway what i'd started to say before tumblr ate my post was that like. disclaimer that my approach to netflix witcher canon is that i fully reserve the right to cherrypick, because some of the changes they made were good but others were character assassination, and that obviously i get that if one isn't cherrypicking one does have to actually Grapple With Certain Things 🏔

but like. that said—the more 'Geralt Must Grovel for Weeks and Probably Scourge Himself, Look at What He Did to Poor Sad-Eyed Woobie Jaskier' fics i read the more i'm fucking grateful for the tiny handful where jaskier's just been like, yeah, i never bought that bullshit tbh, he was lashing out and he owes me an apology for sure but a single angry outburst does not in fact scupper an extremely well-established relationship of literally twenty years' standing in one fell swoop???

like i just. idk. imagine remembering that jaskier's a cheery irrepressible little shit and not actually as crushably low on self-esteem as all of us are. of course that would probably require *netflix* to have remembered that, so, you know, no actual shade to anyone who's been projecting that onto him! but just like. idk. they're obviously not siblings but they honestly do have that vibe in certain ways and it's just like. did you never say something overdramatic and shitty in the heat of a fight with yr sibling growing up and then after taking a bit of a breather just like. make a rueful face and apologize for yr respective roles in winding each other up and move tf on, without having, like, a whole extended OTT reparations process where you tell them repeatedly how perfect and sinless they are and how you know you're a miserable worm who doesn't remotely deserve their sunshiny presence in your life but would be so grateful if they could, possibly, somehow, see their way to forgiving you despite yr essential unworthiness—

#anyway. i think there are like. MAYBE like three of you reading this blog who give a shit abt this fandom‚ lol #so i'm mostly just talking out loud to myself here‚ which is fine‚ what's a perblog for if not that #but it's just like. yeah on the one hand you don't just get to yell at people without apologizing at all #on the other hand like. some relationships are strong and elastic enough that one (1) snip is not going to cut them #even a vicious one! #also like. jaskier DID handle that convo clumsily lbr. like. obviously geralt was not Justified but. #if i'd just had a vicious breakup and somebody came bumbling in making loud awkward small talk about it? jesus. #anyway. really ultimately this is just a 'have consumed much too much witcher fic and the Patterns are starting 2 irk me' thing #but it's just like. sometimes things are conflict between two imperfect people #and not a Good Woobie and a Sinful Meanie #anyway. time 2 go reread Sekrit Mutual's fic in which they actually keep in mind the fact that jaskier is a selfish gremlin #who despite himself really does love geralt and as a result is like. constantly torn between his nature and his urge to do right by geralt #but like. fundamentally he's a buffoon and a popinjay who yaps aggressively and then runs back behind geralt's legs #and joey batey leaning into his Soulful and Romantic side (that he does also have) doesn't actually erase that about him‚ nor should it! #anyway. this post is careening all over the place but i think it's just like. exactly the same weird terfish moral binary #that ppl have been talking abt with like. gender and kink and a whole range of things #where like. you always have Victims and Perpetrators #and so jaskier has to be like. the femme bottom victim which makes geralt the macho perpetrator totally undeserving of sympathy #and it's like. actually they're both imperfect people and neither one fits very well into their society's idea of what a man is #and what if we actually examined them as individuals rather than tropes and also remembered yennefer was fierce and interesting #and what if ciri weren't‚ like‚ a manhattan private school girl with her brows done while we were at it #getting a little overambitious with my wishlist there though i know

[tellmegoodbye]

I've had some time to collect my thoughts after a couple of days so here they are even though nobody asked.

I really loved the finale. It was devestating, no doubt, but I think this is their best one yet and I absolutely loved how they handled it. There was so much grieving in this episode, not just from Carlos, but from Owen and Judd as well. But despite everything they chose happiness and the wedding ending up being beautiful and bittersweet and joyful all at once.

There has been the question of deleted scenes but there's really only one we've seen so far that I would have loved to see in the episode. Other than that, I'm just glad we get to have them all as extras. I don't think the wedding needed them though.

Another thing I'd like to add is that yes, sometimes storylines can feel rushed in shows where you have a lot of characters and especially if there are clear favorites within a fandom. There was a lot going on, but that doesn't necessarily mean any one character's storyline is less valuable than another's. I guess I'm speaking as less of a fandom member and just more as an enjoyer of the show if that makes any sense. I love all of the characters in this show, and while I would be lying if I said I liked every single storyline, that doesn't mean I wish they didn't happen. In this case, however, I loved all of the storylines and I think they all made sense together given the theme of this episode. I personally don't think any of them shouldn't have been there in favor of getting more wedding content.

Honestly, my only regret is not getting off of tumblr as soon as the final bts stuff started coming out. I'm pretty bad when it comes to guessing things so if I hadn't been aware of the theories I literally would have had no idea and it would have hit me so much harder. It still got me pretty good though.

Again these are just my opinions so feel free to ignore everything I say if you didn't feel the same. I'm happy though, and I'm going to continue being incredibly annoying about this show. ♡

#I'll just touch on this in the tags cayse more people have put this a lot more eloquently than I could #but in terms of the decision to kill of gabriel I know a lot of people feared two things #1) it was too close to the wedding 2) potential future storylines would take a hit #and if it had happened any other way I would have agreed with the second one #but the fact that we got that scene between him and carlos was really important #and they way it happened really opens the door for revisting this in the future #I would honestly be really surprised if they don't come back to this mystery because there's a lot of potential there #and speaking of potential I think we reallly started to see so much more of carlos and a side of his character that we've never seen before #him dealing with his grief and in the end chosing to allow himself to have his wedding #that moment between him and owen #I loved all of it and I know in shows like this it can feel like characters start to get stagnant but this is definitely not the case here #not just carlos but everyone else had moments this season that just showed us so much more of them #and it makes me excited for their character development and what future storylines will hold #anyway I think those are all of my thoughts #if you're going to say anything please be nice I don't really do well with negativity #I usually stay out of fandoms for actively airing shows because discourse isn't great for my mental health #but since y'all are like 90% lost shameless mutuals and 10% bots I feel safe enough to share my opinions publicly lmao #har rambles #911 lone star #weewoo rambles

[hobisexually]

x

#I switch back and forth between. idk. #1) despair #2) anger #3) defeat #4) exhaustion #5) sooooooo much spite #and so much internal crying but almost none of the external? #like the tears won’t come they only did last night and then I just sobbed like the world was ending and that’s because ? #I didn’t get the raise I wanted? what? #there’s so much going on both in my personal life as well as in the world in general and THIS is what finally makes me cry? get it together #and at work I almost feel normal (because I gaslight myself into believing I’m fine in order to be able to function) #and the second I get on the train? bam #I break #and I’m so so so so tired I just can’t do it anymore all I do is fight and yet somehow they? manage to make me feel #like im not fighting hard enough? #what the fuck? #also this whole enlistment business makes my existential despair so much worse I can’t see it separated from each other #like all I see is every single fucked up system in this world right now that’s interconnected #which………………. I’m generally a ‘keep fighting and hoping because what’s the point otherwise’ girlie and that’s still true #but mustering up the will for it has been Hard #(which yes is a privilege to be able to say I’m aware. that too WHAT AM I WHINING ABOUT I have a roof over my head I’m good?) #I’m trying very hard to fight my isolating myself instinct but I’m not sure I’m succeeding #fucking hell #also on top of all that my playlist decided that playing safety zone and snooze after each other was a good idea #so now my soul is shattered into a million pieces 👍🏽 #cool #I’m over it can it be after Christmas yes