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cemeterything · 2 months

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#🐉#personally im option 1 because at least if its the second one at least some of the fault isnt mine #i can live with being unable to control or predict other people #whereas if i cant articulate myself in the first place i feel a lack of self control. which i cant stand.

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hadesforpresident · 2 years

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fruits basket collector’s edition, volume 12 by natsuki takaya rating: 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 date finished: 25 november 2022 https://www.instagram.com/p/ClZ8SMau31d/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#fruits basket #natsuki takaya #sohma family #kyo sohma #yuki sohma #tohru honda #reading #books #manga #i'm so sad to be finished #may read it again in the new year #who knows #i lack self-control

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superxstarzz · 17 days

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have you done rogue of void and prince of heart? dick and roxy...

u can't. u can't just say that and expect me NOT to sprite them

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eshacchi · 2 years

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#tangerine #bullet train #aaron taylor johnson #looks around scratches head #I apologize for my lack of self control #these are ratchet but oh well

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robogirl2000 · 2 months

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they are robot dreaming

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more doodles under

#robot dreams #robot x tin #robotin #hehe #lacking self control #they are so cute #i love them so much #gayposting

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danandfuckingjonlmao · 2 years

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klaus hargreeves hearing three (3) symptoms of a disorder from a child that he just met and coming to the conclusion that he definitely has it is a mentally ill mood

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jealousdoll · 7 months

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hhhhhhfuck. want to be in a group lobby with a bunch of boys playing all sorts of different co-op and they're all happily bantering over mic. when one of the more 'polite' boys asks why you're only typing and use so many cutesy emojis/emoticons as they're casually discussing the next game, you suddenly get shy. oh. it finally came up. all's been lighthearted, maybe even playfully flirty at most sometimes. they start to notice other nuances, such as the way you get "flustered" and are way more expressive than typical dudes who are chronically online. unless you're a total fruitcake, who unironically in chat says "petite and breedable? no- petite, breedable and kidnappable! ~ ଘ꒰⑅ ´ ˘ ` ⑅ ꒱♡" ... least to say it caught some of the boy's attention. just being put on the spot is almost enough to elicit a confession or reveal, but you kept your wits even if your brain is so damn fuzzy.

until they suddenly put two and two together with all the damning clues to realize: ...... you're a girl. a female.

not just a random from a public group's link getting found through some obscure tag online, but a girl that was from a group chat and had been concealing this info, and other now-desired details, for at least a few months. the tension over the collective call would be intoxicating. the emotional charge, the lowkey intimidation, the bated hesitation in replies, the private groups created just to have disgusting side chats, all occurring without her even knowing that every message has nothing but raunchy barely legal claims from each member after hearing the "news". no shame. boundaries? never heard of them. dick's hard, don't care.

something shifts and it gets... weird. one or two of the boys suddenly "have to go", but are just too embarrassed to admit they're so excited just as the concept there's been a girl in the group the entire time (what does she look and sound like? what is she into besides games? what does she look like when you pull her cute stupid hair and act like she's your little si-), while some suddenly got quiet or had a supposed 'mood shift'. just a simple piece of somehow-crucial knowledge caused a fat fucking stir and its apparently such a spectacle she suddenly worries they're talking separately without her.

she's late, but she's right.

eventually the one boy who ever introduced her to this hormonal gaggle of imps caves into his supposed "friend's" requests to see this mystery girls face. and he may or may not have gotten a a photo of her adorable tits months ago when she was drunk and lonely. god forbid you have a moment of weakness, huh? well, that weakness and vulnerability is what gets your no-longer friends (try fuckbuddies and new stalkers, honey) off. not that you'll ever know, dumbass.

he betrays your false sense of trust and security and before you know it, multiple dudes are posting cum tributes to the newly-created smutty general chat, sharing increasingly fucked up fantasies as time goes on. all while you flounder, almost alone with barely any context. but don't worry, your scumbag discord bestie is dick in sweaty hand as he halfassedly 'reassures' you how you're still safe, anonymous, good with him. yeah... good with him. for him. all of them would agree. he kind of likes how desperate and so damn stupid you are. makes you out to be like some ditzy little sister. fuck. he could get used to that. not like you have a choice. him and his friends own your pathetic clueless ass. they want nothing more than to see you drooling on their dicks like a thoughtless puppy, mind broken and muddled only for sex- only for them. don't hurt yourself thinking so hard, you won't have time to with them beating a path to your shithole apartment's door to violate you day after day anyways. some are already trying to find your other socials, any hint to where your sweet brainless fuckholes might live.

aren't you so lucky? what cool friends you have, sweetheart.

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wabunguss · 15 days

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*appears outside ur door*

so, we gonna ever see more art of cronus in a collar?

yes. yes you all vwill. i cant showv the full drawving because its freaky. like freaky freaky. his dick vwas so long i had to use twvo images to cover it up /j

man my friends followv me and im hornyposting on main this is crazy im sorry friends. but to the rest of you i knowv yall are FREAKY. anywvays cronus the type of guy to wvomit vwhen hes ovwerly horny but not because im like projecting or anything I SWVEAR I SWVEAR. IM NORMAL GOD DAMMIT!!!!!

#suggestive #cw suggestive #cronus ampora #impulsepilled hornypostmaxxing #this anon is lucky i lack self control #whatever its a cheat day ive dealt with enough today #oversharing on the internet goes hard #please dont be weird to me about it though #keep your shit in your pants ffs #i dont wanna be seeing that

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oatbugs · 1 month

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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

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redr0sewrites · 1 month

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i need to write more for switch eris this is not a drill

as usual im yapping in the tags 💀

#i am a firm switch!eris truther #i just KNOW hes a versatile switch #he could totalllyyyyyy be a mean rough dom #super controlling and kinky like we already KNOW he can conjure fire cuffs and hes deffff good at degrading- etc #but i also could see him as a service top or pleasure dom who can be a lot gentler and focus on praising you #or just pleasuring u in general #but i ALSO see him as like a BRATTY sub like this man is practically BEGGING to be put in his place #he teases and talks back like he's the shit but the next thing u know he's whining and bitching ab how u wont fuck him #BUT I ALSOO see him as like a very gentle or fragile sub when he's exhausted or just not feeling great #beron has pretty much ruined his self esteem and his self preservation in general and i think that deep down he'd thrive #if he was being pampered and praised #like he'd turn into the male version of a pillow princess (as a wlw person i am aware that that id a wlw term but idk how else to describe)#but like he'd gen just want u to take care of him yk?#anyways yea versatile switch eris my beloved #i could take him #(not in a fight)#rose rambling #anyways plsss send sub/switch/dom eris requests i am MORE than willing to oblige #(especially sub eris there is such a painful lack of that and ik he can be one bc he told me himself)#hehe #eris vanserra #eris vanserra x reader #eris vandaddy #eris headcanons #eris vanserra headcanon

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lepusrufus · 4 months

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Have some sketches while I make peace with knowing I'm a masochist and my brain has the audacity to come up with animatic ideas

#is it a good idea?#yes #am I still mad at my lack of self control #also yes #my art #baldur's gate 3 #what even are the selunite robes they're such a pain in the ass save me

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dazzelmethat · 2 months

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In my story all monsters were at one time natural or human and have lost that humanity. If a scientist could turn a plant into a person (homunculi) then anyone can turn back into a person. Personhood is spread as a cure to the supernatural like a viral infection.

This comic is quasi-personal though. It is through the eyes of Ame but also includes some of my own autistic emotional worries. Of progress, discipline, embarrassment of the past self and fear that discipline is the only thing holding you together.

#my art #original comic #my ocs #the world is bleak for my ocs because it is cathartic for me #the imagery of pruning is so .. PUNGENT to my plant kids that i even extend that imagery to my other ocs #i wound up keeping my handwriting because I felt it made it more personal #I kept the comic kinda simple.. i was feeling a certain kind of way when I made it #it feels like I only became self aware in late highschool and that I realized everyone else was having thoughts and realized I was behind..#though vera is more of the 'fear' of a lack of control and I'd say ame is more 'embarrassment' of the lack. immortals are 'guilt'#for me.. a fear that I'll become an idiot if I don't hate myself. a fear of laziness. of cruelness #or maybe i'm just interpreting my moral conscience as self hatred (and there is another oc for that!)

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kember-writes · 1 month

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Monday snippet

Big big thanks to @prongsfish for the tag <3 Here's a few paragraphs from chapter five of Hateful Creatures.

James leaned back in the chair, his head tilted slightly to watch Regulus. “You were mumbling in your sleep," he said. No, no, fuck no, anything but this. “And shaking. Lily told me you’ve been having bad dreams. Is that something… new?”

He made no mention of any incriminating words, and Regulus felt something in his chest loosen slightly. “Yes, ever since I ended up here I’ve been having these terrible dreams where idiots from my childhood won’t leave me alone. Oh, wait.” James’s face turned sour at the statement, but Regulus pushed through. “Lily doesn’t know as much as she likes to think she does. And I’m fine, thank you,” Regulus said, swinging his legs off the bed and standing to prove his point. He barely wobbled. “So you can go now. Please.”

“You know,” said James, also standing, and Regulus realised again how tall he was, “you were actually becoming somewhat bearable these last few days. Like you used to be. But if you’re going to get like this the moment something riles you up, I’ll be happy to lock the door again.”

“Be my guest,” Regulus said with a smile, sweeping his arms towards the door as though to usher James out. “It might keep me safe from your awful friends and their experimental curses.” He sneered as James stormed past him, wrenching the bedroom door open and slamming it shut behind him. After a pause of a few seconds, there was a squelching sound as it sealed.

Regulus kicked it, but it didn’t budge. It vibrated on its hinges as someone on the other side kicked back. He heard stomping in the hallway, footsteps clattering down the stairs, then silence.

Brief background: Regulus is temporarily detained at the Potters' house and they're all being Completely Normal about it. The Situation isn't putting anybody under any sort of Stress. Dumbledore is being Extremely Helpful.

Tags for @wolfpants because I'm always interested to know what you're cooking and @veryinnovative because the workings of your mind both frighten and intrigue me. And an open tag for anyone else who wants to share something :)

#once again I have no concept of how long a snippet is and I lack the self-control to stick to it even if I found out #the fun thing about fanfic is I can emulate SPOP and it's a fun little easter egg rather than a plagiarism case #Regulus your Catra is showing #fic: Hateful Creatures #Regulus Black #James Potter #jegulus

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minhkhoas · 7 months

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A lot of people seem to mistake Khoa’s anger at being called broken by Bruce as some sort of personal admission that there is something “wrong” with him but I, personally, view it more as Khoa feeling an inherent sense of betrayal at the fact that the one person he thought understood him suddenly shifted his perspective on him.

He’s fully aware that he’s set apart from his peers & seemed to be content with that until he met Bruce— Bruce, who seemed to be a kindred spirit even when he and Khoa fought, who had consistently targeted Khoa’s actions instead of the thought processes behind them even when they did fight, who never once insinuated he needed to be fixed until that moment.

The moment of them on a bridge in Moscow in B:TK #5 is a testament to the level he places Bruce at in itself; by acknowledging that Bruce changed his mind about being alone, he’s accepting Bruce as an equal. Even after they fought and parted ways for the last time after Lazarus, the fact that Khoa kept Bruce alive solely for fighting still implies he views him on equal footing as him/“worthy” enough to spar with.

The scene in Argentina irrevocably shifts the narrative of them being equals when Khoa realizes that it’s Bruce who doesn’t seem them as equals anymore. Bruce seems to be the one thing he can never leave behind to the point where he suggests they work together even after all of the arguments they’ve shared over the years. He implies Khoa’s inability to care about people in a way that’s expected of him is wrong, and even goes so far as to assume what Khoa’s feeling.

It’s not the lack of initiative on Bruce’s part that sets Khoa off, nor is it the fact that he declined Khoa’s invitation in the first place— it’s the fact that Bruce implies there’s something fundamentally wrong with him which, as a result, means Bruce never wants to see him again. Khoa’s angry because he’s always seemed to have the upper hand in their relationship, but he never expected this. It’s always been Khoa leaving Bruce in some capacity, whether it’s him leaving after their first fight in the wilderness or him leaving after saving Bruce at Lazarus. He’s always left on his own terms. Bruce is the one person in the world who made Khoa feel like he was understood in some capacity and despite burning the bridges between them on numerous occasions, he never seemed to plan for the fact that Bruce would get to it first.

There’s a significant level of vulnerability in Khoa’s actions in the context of the Argentina argument and the larger scope of his appearances.

Khoa specifically emphasizes the fact that Bruce doesn’t get to utter his name or see his face again because the fact that he’d done both in the first place was a sign of trust, and that trust was lost the moment Bruce spoke Those™ words.

To me, his reaction in this moment isn’t an admission of self-loathing or hatred towards himself at the fact that he’s incapable of experiencing certain things, and I honestly don’t think Khoa has ever experienced intense feelings of unworthiness/low self-esteem surrounding the negative views on his personality disorder. His relationship with Bruce borders on obsession at some points, and the disillusionment caused by the realization that their dynamic has shifted significantly without him being able to control it is what angers him.

Khoa has been shown to have moments of possible guilt/regret at his actions such as the fact that he couldn’t save Phantom-One, but that could be chalked up to him being disappointed at failing as a crime-fighter. He never once puts the blame on himself for anything, so I don’t view his hurt in this scenario being formed out of a place of self-doubt or self-hatred.

#mars.txt #dc #minhkhoa khan #ghostmaker #Guys i dont know if this makes sense.#BUT BASICALLY LIKE IDK. I think people make Khoa unnecessarily self-loathing/self-hating sometimes #Most of his frustrations seem to come from a lack of control over situations/‘failing’ at what he does when he knows he’s better than that

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stray-but-okay · 2 years

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#stray kids #skz #another case of I went to gif one thing and was distracted by this man so I made a random gif for no reason because I lack self control #anyways #lee know #lee minho #sea breeze #tw: flashing

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unopenablebox · 2 months

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i'm fighting demons but the demon is making biweekly posts about how perfect 🌸 is

#i hear your objection but right now those posts are weekly at MOST.#girlfriend tag #box opener #does everyone else have really good impulse control to only say things online that have content or are interesting #or is the intense degree of my interest in and emotional responses to my girlfriend itself some kind of weird problem unique to me #they're just. so charming and great. yesterday i got really excited #because after about two hours of being apart i walked to the location where i had arranged to meet them #and they were there‚ in the location.#not like doing anything. we didn't have plans. they were wearing a jacket? and sitting on a ledge swinging their legs cutely?#but i also sometimes get that excited if they're just standing still and not wearing a jacket. so idk.#i know other people have blogs and also partners they like! am i just discovering that i lack the facet of self-discipline that everyone #else uses to avoid inventing the tumblr version of a wife guy

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