#i know im an introvert

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[lotus-pear]

NEW MAYOI CARDDDDS MADE ME SILLY THEY CANONICALLY HAVE GIRLS NIGHT SLEEPOVERS IM SOBBING UEUEUUEUEUE

#MY FAVS FINALLY INTERACT I FUCKING WIN LETS GO LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO‼️‼️ #CHUUAKU SLEEPOVER I AM TWIRLING MY HAIR KICKING MY LEGS GIGGLING BLUSHING FINALLYYYYYYY THE BESTIES EVER IM SO HAPPY #MATCHING CARDS. MATCHING PJS. TELL ME YOU SHOP TOGETHER WITHOUT TELLIMG ME YOU SHOP TOGETHER #I LOVE THEM SO SO SO SO MUCH FUCK DAZAI AND ATSUSHI THIS IS MY FAV MENTOR DAD AND THEIR PRECIOUS STUDENT #ANYWAY THEY R LITERALLY LIKE THE BESTEST OF FRIENDS IN MY MIND I LOVE AWKWARD AKU AND LIKE OUTGOING FUN AMIABLE CHUUYA #LIKE...........EXTROVERT ADOPTING AN INTROVERT BESTIE. THATS EHAT THEY R LIKE. TO ME #GAAAAAHHHHH THANK YOU MAYOI TEAM #also sry idk how to draw aku's hair it's the biggest mystery to me💀💀💀 shoutout to artists who know how to do that #(i am not one of them) #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #akutagawa ryuunosuke #ryuunosuke akutagawa #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #lotus draws

[mystilotls]

The escalation from "I'm going to graffiti motivational quotes" to "I'm going to play obnoxious sirens of my voice everytime you get close" to "I'm going to unite with the server to bury you alive with your home, and I'm going to plant trees so it looks like you were never there" is certainly something.

#original post #grian #hermitcraft #the introvert has spoken! #shitpost #as much as i want Doc to be his evil self i dont think he can come back from this #the prank was so powerful Iskall came on the server just to help #and the fact that Grian immediately disbanned the buttercups afterwards so Doc cant even destroy them #he'll find a way #you know how petty you got to be to bury and decorate someones base /j #there were rumors the season was going to end and if thats true im just convinced they want Doc to break it #the worst part of all this is that Doc's one supposed ally in all of this helped bury the perimeter #the best part was Iskall coming to help that was too funny for me #im not sure how this is going to go

[dailycupofcreativitea]

Drew a little comic of Gohan and Piccolo inspired by Gohan getting a telescope for his birthday during the Cell Saga filler! (Astronomers, please don't come after me if I got any science wrong 😭🙏Ex. I know Gohan basically implies the planet is emitting light but it could also mean the suns that were probably “born” with it when it was wished there!)

#idk i study dna not planets TT_TT #ANYWAYS #im happy I drew piccolo smiling throughout this comic! #just being a bro with gohan! #just doing fun friend things! #a coupla introverts havin a good time! #of course hed be smiling! #comic #dbz #dragon ball z #gohan #son gohan #piccolo #also wonder if the light from old nameks explosion will reach them soon #or has reached them #does that technically mean if theyre 'peering into the past' that way that goku is still lowkey tryna escape that explosion #i wanted to write something like that but i got lazy #anyways i dont even know if space works that way so XD

[totalshockwaves]

just played threads of you demo

me: *immediately falling for Vince and Andrew*

*vince avoiding the bookshop, the implied history between jean/vince/andrew in their relationship charts, andrew's bio referencing a bad past and him being a loner in the present, andrew's relationship to vince being "its complicated" and asking if vince is okay, vince's being "strangers" but also just andrews name, jean and andrew disliking each other, wyatt mentioning in HIS relationship chart that vince and andrew used to be inseparable*

me:

#shut up allie (tag) #bitch im nosy i need to know what happened between those threeeeee #like *eric andre voice* let meeee innnnnnn #at this point it's pretty obvious my types are fictional introverted redheads and dudes with white/silver hair #and emos obvs #threads of you: beyond the bay

[emilee-has-legs]

played the @wildmelon cas game.

#she's a vamp #and has freckles #i know yall can't tell that well #whatever #also im an ambivert #but i didn't have any good medium hairs #im feeling introverted today anyway #emilee has legs #sims #the sims #the sims 4 #the sims community #thesims #ts4 #maxis match #maxis mix #sims 4 #sims 4 simblr #sims 4 cas #sims 4 create a sim #sims 4 screenies #sims 4 screenshots #my sim #my sims #sims screenshots #*cas. #wildmelon

[soldier-poet-king]

I want to live in a house with people who love me. There is sunlight coming in the windows. Something smells wonderful in the kitchen. Laughter and music drift in from another room. Maybe there are some vegetables growing outside, or a really fat cat. It isn't perfect, it's maybe cramped, maybe messy, but it's enough.

#franposting #literally. that trigun piece got me #can u tell living in hell (parents) has been weighing on me even more lately #i mean. i would also tske living alone over this #i get lonely easily but also im a weird introvert creachure #love parallel play and cohabitation #but also need a lot of downtime #anyway. anyway. anyway. #i can dream. even if i know its not real #gotta keep myself sane somehow #because. because im slowly dying and every good thing is being choked out of me #i need to live on my own terms again. i was never so happy or hopeful or free aa that #now is just. survival. but i want to thrive and live

[nyctes]

people love to cry about how f1 drivers are professional athletes not entertainers and yet when one of them has a more introverted personality they talk as if he personally offended them...log off and go touch some grass

#max verstappen #it makes me upset and i know im overreacting but it hits a bit too close to home #let the guy be introvert in peace and just focus on your faves #formula 1 #len.txt

[xbralis]

ethubs scarian evilworm and xbralis all have the same emotional appeal to me but if you asked me to put it into words i would die

#something something guys who fall into patterns together as easy as breathing but dont neccesarily speak the same love languages #alternatively the introvert and his weird dog. #i know what im saying. i do.

[fishfingersandjellybabies]

A qpr is a queer platonic relationship :D

Its like being in a relationship with your friend and calling them your partner/boyfriend/girlfriend but its fully platonic

I'm pretty sure a lot of people put damian in mainly QPRs (for those who hc him as ace)

ooooooh I'd never heard that before! but it makes sense!

haha I hc him as ace, but a hella demi ace, but also kind of only for jon 😂 he is jonsexual to me (canonly, we all know I'm a mess when it comes to just fic 😂)

#damian wayne #asks #anon #im an introverted homebody ace i know nothing about society tbh 😅

[hella1975]

hella I'm out for a friend's bday and I typically don't visit restaurants like it's a whole thing w my friends how UNAWARE I am of shit. Anyways so I ordered a burger that I didn't know would have so fucking much added on it, this thing was HUGGEEEEE I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY DIDNT WARN ME ABT THIS. I was chided by my friends for not requesting a burger with less on it, I DIDNT KNOW. so this burgers huge I don't know how to eat it I'm cutting it into pieces and it's falling apart and there's stuff I'm trying to pick off of it, it is a nightmare on my plate my friends are absolutely making fun of me with how I've just decimated this thing. and um. I wore my nice clothes today I can't lie it was my fit with my patched up jean jacket and pinwheel hat also I've got a mullet and my hair curls so ive been told i could he on stranger things. very silly of me. WELL I GUESS IT GOT ALL THE WAITRESSES ATTENTION. THEY WOULD COME OVER JUST TO SAY THEY REALLY LIKED MY OUTFIT AND IM HERE HUNCHED OVER MY PLATE I WAS SO EMBARRASSED. the waitress who took my plate was so nice abt it but I've suffered greatly today

CANT BELIEVE IM SEEING THIS SO LATE BUT THIS IS SOOOO FUNNY. you got beaten by a burger. do better

#im glad the waitresses were nice!!!!!! imo compliments from waitresses are the most authentic kind #it's like if a child says you're cool like you KNOW they're being dead fucking honest for better or worse #and waitressing you have soooo many interactions like it's such a socially draining job that anxiety tends to go out the window #even with introverted waitresses so odds are they were literally just saying it for no other reason than bc it's true #i had the reverse the other day i was in the toilets middle of my long as fuck shift trying to fix myself bc i just looked and felt grim #and this random customer came out and was like 'i love your eyeliner btw!' and i almost CRIEDDDDDD #bc id had an utter meltdown with my eyeliner that morning as well like it was NOT a good eyeliner day i fully rubbed it all off #and started again at one point which NEVER happens to me. so she said that and i was like girl do not do this to me rn 😭 #anyway im getting off topic! glad ur outfit was bomb and that ur friends laughed at you for being unable to defeat a burger <3 #ask

[mystilotls]

Currently watching the Redstoners of the server on their beds, kicking their feet in the air, and twirling their hair at the thoughts of what they'll do with autocrafters, all while scribbling blueprints with their glitter pens

#original post #hermitcraft #the introvert has spoken! #shitpost #I know mumbo wanted it really bad and i can feel him bouncing off the walls #also watching Doc rant about the possibilities #im excited for the crafter too (doesnt know diddly squat about Redstone)

[devil-acid]

GOD DAMMIT I WANT LU MUTUALS TO TALK ABOUT

BUT IM ALSO THE MOST ASOCIAL MOTHERFUCKER EVER EXIST AAAAAAAAAAA

#me looking at people on the same fandom i am: wooaaa #also me remembering all the effort I have to do to become friends in general: nvm I like to be alone #i dont even know if im an introvert because I can get alone with people #THE PROBLEM IS WHEN I WANT TO INTERACT MORE IN A DAILY BASIS WITH PEOPLE #THATS WHEN IM GET TIRED AND PREFER TO BE ALONE #but holy shit man

[boxwinebaddie]

is fingerbang in rm?

oooooh...iiiiinteresting.

but i'm gonna say no. :/

i Wish i could put them in rm because that would be so iconic, but there's just too much crossover with the characters; i wouldn't know how to work it into the story with everything going on already.

however! i will raise you this:

so back in the stone ages when i used to run the BWB twitter, i came across a post that you might remember me retweeting/replying to a tweet with a picture of fingerbang kyle and regular stan in it.

at the top of the post, someone retweeted it saying something to the effect of 'ugh, i hate celebrity x fan plots, so boring lol' and maybe it's petty but that made me heeeellla overprotective and Viciously Angry bc that's the plot premise of my entire fanfic and i literally don't think it's boring at all??? yes, i'm insane.

that pissed me off, lmao.

but anyways i was looking at that picture of finger bang kyle and regular boy stan and was like...oh my god it's just rm in reverse???

so here's my pitch for the reverse remember au fic aka...

forget?

shdlkshdlkah

so i think that the plot premise or chapter one would hinge on the fact that it is shelley's birthday. and for shelley's birthday, she and her friend got two tickets to go see finger bang live and in concert, world famous boy band, like one direction, beatle-mania level famous.

buuuuuut her friend backs out at the last minute, so she's left with this extra ticket and that girl was her ride so she basically can't go.

let's leave that off to the side for a moment though, so i can tell you a little about what i think forget au stan marsh would be like...

who i think...

is an absolute fucking LOSER.

like i am talking major loner-stoner energies, has literally one friend and i think its butters who is also his roommate, never goes outside, literally just holes up in his room playing his guitar, writes a bunch of really dark edgelordy songs no one will ever hear — they are actually quite good, but again, sort of political and bleak and beat-poetic, is a serious music snob, like really really fucking annoying about music...might bring him working at vinyl tap back, but i also support city wok delivery boy stan, basically only goes outside to barely pay attention in class ( he's a music major at cu denver ), go to work so that he can buy more pizza, beer, video games and i think he's saving up for a really fancy guitar or to see shows which are his safe place.

i predict that he probably is still bleach blonde stan, i maintain that he can still be half mexican like ravenstan, could be really cute if he brushed his hair and stopped slouching, vegetarian, wears the same beanie from high school, rotates the same like four or five tee shirts which are all covered in stains, full of holes, etc. most of them are band shirts or 100% hemp tegridy farms work shirts from when he was working there in high school which he barely got through, btw, cs get degrees, probably wears the iconic stan leather jacket that is obnoxiously covered in pins, big baggy jeans, like, huge, and ofc, the stan marsh combat boots bc he's an midwest emo king.

i assume he has all the stan piercings, certainly the nose one...should i give him the ravenstan lip piercing for shits and gigs? some tattoos?

but yeah, i love him but he's pathetic. he has like zero social skills. he had one girlfriend and it was wendy and they broke up a million times because he kept accidentally fucking up by boyfailing too hard. bi but i don't think he really knows that. like i feel like he has some bi panic moments but he kind of just takes a shot and swallows those down and tries not to think about it so stan probably thinks he's straight.

interesting.

anyways! stan is gearing up to go to this gigantic metal festival that he's ben waiting for..Forever but then gets a call from his mom who is like "stanley marsh, it is your SISTER'S BIRTHDAY! you are driving her to this concert and that is final!" he complains soooooo much like shelley why are you fucking ruining my life to go see gay one direction????? holy shit???? i hate my life????

but the hotel room(s) are already paid for and stan has the tegridy farms family truck ( riley made me moderately obsessed with little beat up pick up truck farm boy stan i love him ) aka weed for speed aka mary jane ( she is stan's baby ) so he picks shelley up who tries to play finger bang the whole way there but stan is a snob and he is like i am driving i am picking the music, but shelley and him keep fightng and probably break the radio and they have to sit in silence hdlksah, the whole time shelley is going on and on and ON about finger bang and how obsessed she is specifically with kyle, who stan doesn't know much about other than the fact that he is little and ginger?

sigh we can have tall boyfail loser midwest emo weed farm skater boy stan and short cute fresh faced world famous popstar kyle as a treat, you are welcome to everyone, but mostly riley.

also because i gave jersey an accent, i mean, i don't think forget finger bang stan has a super strong accent but there's probably a little twang there just from being all the way out there in super hick nowheresville rural colorado, it kind of embarasses him so he doesn't talk much or very loudly at all, might have a slight stammer?

idk i love him he's a qt. <3

anyways they get there and it is PACKED!!!!! it is literally hell, stan is so overstimulated holy shit, like forget ( why am i calling it that like that is so fucking funny ) stan is so introverted, he is not vibing. also because it's all mostly screaming girls with signs and stuff, shelley is one of them, she is holding up this really obnoxious one that says 'DEFILE ME, KYLE' on it like gOOOOOOD.

he's in hell fr fr fr.

but it gets worse because right before they are about to get in, this group of rabid fans runs by and one of them knocks her red sugary drink all over stan and completely douses his shirt. he's ready to die. the hotel is too far away, so he has to go into the stadium store and buy something to wear but sigh...the only option...

is black tee-shirt with the words FINGERBANG ME <3 in a big pink glittery font...but sigh...*raven vc* at least it's black. he has no choice but to buy it rip the guitar fund.

he goes back in with shelley and the finger bang boys come out i think its cartman, kenny, kyle and wendy but...wendyl? might be kinda spicy if stan's ex-boyfriend was in fb, also bc that makes him confused about his sexuality...nina rm/fb trans rights, baby!

stan hates everything about their upbeat, capitalistic, commercialist vibe, all of it is really obnoxious bubble gum pop stuff meant to be peddled to teenage girls, its almost propaganda and makes stan sick.

which, speaking of, the songs are bad, but the singing, he's realizing, is actually quite good, particularly the singing done by the little ginger finger bang boy who shelley is obsessed with who...for some reason stan really cannot take his eyes off of. he also thinks he might be crazy but he swears they accidentally locked eyes a couple times, which meant stan had to take a swig of flask he stashed in his jacket.

but i'm gonna finish this post out with a bang or, rather, a finger bang if you will, because i think ala the virigin sacrifice schtick in rm, they probably single some audience members out...

shelley picks the extremely oppurtune moment before that happens to use the restroom and basically pawns her gigantic DEFILE ME KYLE SIGN off on him, so he's just holding this kyle sign and the FINGER BANG ME teeshirt so naturally, fingerbang kyle thinks he's a fan, gets really close to him, winks, steals his beanie, replaces it with his white, blingy, fluffy ushanka and says

"Hey Cutie,

Wanna Get Finger Banged?" <3 ;) xxx

LKHDSLKSHLKHSLKHD I CAN JUST SEE RURAL BOY MIDWEST EMO STAN HEAVY BREATHING HAVING A BI PANIC ATTACK LIKE OHHHH GOD OH GOD LITERALLY CANT SPEAK FEELS LIKE HES GONNA THROW UP FB!KYLE RIZZ IS WAY TOO STRONG HELP

anyways...Scene.

this was so funny to me. like obviously it's not a real thing or anything but it was interesting to imagine an alternative world where finger bang is the famous band and kyle is the big celebrity, not stan. i think maybe they're looking for a 5th member and butters joins the band??? also maybe style have some secret red string of fate tying them together that neither of them know abt?

live, laugh, fingerbang.

uncle nina, celebrity x fan enthusiast

#this was so funny to me i don't know what the hell this is #but it made me laugh so there #finger ban(d) supremacy baby! #this kind of thrilled me so u can ask me silly questions about the fake forget fingerband universe if you want #i am a little obsessed with lanky introverted mid west emo music snob music major rural colorado weed farm boy stan #and tiny bubblegum pop boy next door super cheeky flirty it boy golden boy kyle who probably has a lot of demons and #idk i get the feeling he's got some sort of secret addiction or really dark past...something i think fb stan can sense in his aura #do i give fb stan the stan-a-thesia #idk but he can tell that hes putting on some kind of act #something about maybe having wendy become wendyl #and end up in fingerbang just seems dramatic and interesting to me and really explores sexuality and gender identity #fb stan is repressed that whole fanfic by the way holy shit #i guess its enemies to lovers again #i love drama #i feel like butters is butters and not marjorine #but maybe also transitions through my fake fic #why do i kind of like midwest emo stans twang deep country backwoods colorado accent and his awkward stammer #kyles voice is beautiful by the way he also can do ballet <333 #he is very cute stan is sick all the time its so bad #OKAY IM DONE ARE WE OBSESSED #oh god what if i had finger bang order city wok #and stan deliver it oh my god #luv my fake fic #where is the prissy preppy rich boy kyle visits tegridy farms and has a paris hilton simple life moment and gets chased by the farm animals #and doesnt know how to milk cows or shuck corn or anything and stan driving the tractor and pitching bails of hay shirtless #that is the content i want to see

[patrice-bergerons]

I'm in a place where I need to be smothered with love for a day or two to feel right again but I don’t really have anyone I can just ask that of in a few simple words and my hunger is making me feral and angry which puts meaningful human connection further and further out of reach. Truly a most unfortunate spiral.

#and it's like when you are an introvert and you are in a new city where you didnt know anyone before #ya it takes time to make friends #and sometimes you have false starts -- people move away #or don't have time for you l #and you just have to persevere and keep trying and connections will form #AND i have at least 3 people where if i said im rly going thru it atm can you pls make time for me #they would. and they wouldnt even begrudge it #but #no one died you know what i mean? i cant justify saying haha yeah im feeling feral and insane and lonely for no reason #sigh

[vala-dreams]

Y'all ever realize that you're not actually shy and for some reason your whole life everyone called you shy and introverted and your mother berated and compared you to your father for it but you're???? not even shy????????

Like I talk so much to my two friends and I dump information about shit I like or know about to other people and I can refuse to take flyers from people handing them out on the street I literally talk so much,,,,,like I'm not shy why did everyone tell me I'm shy I feel like I would talk to so many more people if everyone hadn't told me I was introverted

#like fr what was all that about #did i just wake up one day and declare im the most introvert to ever introvert and then forget about it??? #why yall so sure???? #i cab talk to cashiers like yeah its a lil awk at first but i get by just fine #i can talk to people i sit next to on the bus #i literally talk so much it might be a bad thing cause i genuinely cannot shit up once i start #idk im just angry i lived my whole life just accepting that im shy and not talking to people and now i cant change and i just sit there #in the corner because that's the place you said was mine and now it looks comfortable to me #or something idk #mental health #being shy #introversion #like does anyone else feel like this i want to know #idk how to explain but i just feel like shyness/introversion wasnt a personality trait i originally had but i stopped talking as much #because people(adults back then i dont think anyone my age ever called me shy back then i was literally so loud)told me i dont talk #and i thought that was me i believed them and that became part of me