#i just really like elves ok

[thrumugnyr]

I mean, it's technically true.

#at least i didnt let him take my vallaslin as well or it would be even weirder to go home #lol #Dragon Age #Dragon Age: Inquisition #inquisitor lavellan #fenharel #i just really like elves ok #also watch me trying to do backgrounds #has this joke been done before? #probably lol it's so on the nose

[eldrtchmn]

wip ⚔️

#art #my art #dark art #dark fantasy #elves #wip #I might just leave it like this #idk #and start something else #I finished all my comms!! #since years I don't have anything (ok not really true) to draw #feels weird #personal

[youssefguedira]

behold, the product of yesterday's lotr au discussion (for @spacegirlsgang)

Nicolò has not spoken to him in days.

He hasn't spoken to anyone. He walks silently at Yusuf's side, hand always on his sword, eyes always on the horizon. When there are people who need it, he helps, tends wounds and lifts the younger ones onto horses and hands out food. He still does not speak, and Yusuf worries for him.

They have already lost Quynh, and Sebastien. Dizzy and Jay may well be dead by now for all they know, and Nile and Lykon… he does not really want to think about it for long. He only hopes they are alive. And now Andromache, too, is gone, and Nicolò will not speak, and Yusuf cannot help feeling very, very alone without him. It is strange: Yusuf would have thought, just a week or two ago, that he would have been glad never to see Nicolò again. Now, the thought terrifies him.

When they make camp that night, Yusuf takes his place by the fire with his sword across his lap and prepares to keep watch. Nicolò joins him, after a while, but instead of taking a seat and silently watching the horizon as Yusuf has come to expect him to, he speaks.

"You should rest," he says, voice hoarse as if – well, as if he hasn't used it in days. He carries two bowls of stew, one of which he passes to Yusuf.

"So should you," Yusuf responds. He's exhausted, but neither of them have slept much – he's not sure Nicolò has slept at all since they lost Andromache.

"I do not need to sleep like you do," Nicolò says, which almost makes Yusuf laugh.

"Bullshit," he says. "Even you can't go this long without needing to rest."

Nicolò doesn't say anything to that. Doesn't even meet Yusuf's eyes, but Yusuf can tell how tired Nicolò truly is, and suddenly he cannot bear it anymore.

"We cannot keep on like this," Yusuf says. "This is not – if we're all that's left, I cannot do this without you, Nicolò."

Nicolò is quiet, for a while. When he finally speaks, he says, "Try to rest, Yusuf. I will keep watch tonight."

Yusuf waits. Nicolò does not move, nor show any sign of conceding. Just as stubborn as Andromache – well. He doesn't let himself finish that thought.

He waits a little longer, but Nicolò remains silent.

"Wake me for the second watch, then," Yusuf says, finally. Nicolò does not nod, but Yusuf no longer has the strength in him to push. He falls asleep quickly.

When he wakes, it is morning, and Nicolò is nowhere to be seen. Yusuf can only hope he found someone else for the second watch, and that he did not stay awake all night, but he would not be surprised if the latter were true.

During the day, they keep to their regular routine – Nicolò's silence and Yusuf's attempts to find anything to do that isn't think too much – but that night, when Nicolò finds him, he sets his sword down by his side and asks, "Will you wake me for the second shift?"

Yusuf nods quickly, too quickly, and Nicolò smiles, though it is small. It's the first time Yusuf's seen him smile in days.

He wakes Nicolò for the second shift and sleeps after that, and the next night, Yusuf takes the first and Nicolò the second.

It's a start, at the very least.

–

The day after they reach Helm's Deep, Nicolò is the first to see the rider.

He does not realise who it is at first: the figure is too distant. They wear a cloak with the hood pulled low over their face, and lean heavily over their horse, as if injured.

Nicolò's first thought is that it is a scout. His second thought, which he discounts quickly, is that it is Andromache, which. It cannot be. He does not dare imagine it.

When the figure keeps approaching, he shouts a warning to the guards on the walls. Yusuf, who had fallen asleep beside him, his back against the stone, startles awake. "What is it?" he asks, still half-asleep.

"I do not know, yet," Nicolò responds. He gets to his feet. Yusuf follows a moment later.

"I see it, now," Yusuf says, furrowing his brow. Nicolò's hand goes to his bow, just in case. If it is a scout, he will deal with them quickly.

Then, suddenly, Yusuf's eyes go wide, and he curses. Taps Nicolò twice on the shoulder, and runs along the wall, down the stairs, towards the gate, shouting at the guards to open it.

Nicolò looks again, then, and realises what Yusuf has seen. The rider's weapon is just visible over their right shoulder, and Nicolò knows the carvings on its handle, knows them because they are the twin of the carvings on the hilt of his hunting dagger, because both weapons were forged by the same person.

He is moving before he truly has time to process the thought. The gates are opened far too slowly, creaking with the movement, and by the time he can see the rider again she is sitting straighter in the saddle, a wide grin on her face, urging her horse forward. It is only Yusuf's hand on his arm that keeps him from running through the gates to greet her; when Nicolò looks back at him, his smile is bright enough to rival the midday sun.

Andromache.

Finally, she is there, riding through the gates like a king returning to her kingdom, like she had planned this all along, like Nicolò hadn't seen her fall from a cliff only a few days ago. She dismounts easily, before the horse has even fully stopped, and then he is running, and she is meeting him halfway and gathering him into her arms and laughing, even as he thinks he starts crying.

Then Yusuf is there too, and Nicolò has to step back but cannot bring himself to go far, and Andromache hugs him too, while Yusuf laughs, bright and loud.

"Where have you been," he is saying, and "I thought you were dead, Andromache, I thought we had lost you," and she laughs again and cups the back of his neck with one hand and says, "I'm okay, Nico, I'm okay."

"So," Andromache says once Yusuf steps back, too, her grin sharp despite how exhausted she must be. "Tell me what I've missed."

#neon writes #tog lotr au #the old guard #look. i have Feelings abt it #firstly. helm's deep is the Major turning point for joe and nicky's relationship but we're starting to lay the groundwork here #i think they're not quite there with talking about feelings yet. but on their way #nicolò a) letting yusuf sleep through the night and b) actively asking him to take the first watch (i.e. listening to him when yusuf says h #needs to rest) is really. its something for me #i don't know if the thing about elves not needing to sleep much is true just go with me on this one. also if ive mixed up timelines its in #service of the Brain Worms. ok #in the actual hypothetical longfic this would be interspersed with other sections / the reunion might be from another pov #the bit about blacksmith andy is one of my favourite details about this au #she makes quynh's necklace AND nicky's knife n him being able to recognise her by the design of her axe because it's the same as that of hi #knife. Yeah it's important to me #anyway mary as always i hope you like this <3 and thank you for continually enabling the brain worms

[inflammatoryfandomblog]

I do find it interesting that ATLA managed to use a very black and white narrative (stop Evil Empire) to tell several character stories with some nuance, while TDP claims it has a nuanced conflict and flattens everything to try and make up for that, ultimately leading to protagonist centred morality more than anything. And if they didn’t want me to compare the two then they should have let go of the ATLA references right away.

you're right and you should say it.

the constant and shoehorned references to ATLA do not really do this show any favors. honestly might be part of the problem (why are there 7 primals with color-coded elves? to follow ATLA's pattern of marketable separable elements. why is it an adventure story with a core crew? because ATLA was like this too. etc etc.)

but anyway. yeah. ATLA had a very simple main conflict to provide a constant source of tension throughout the show (even if they dropped the ball at the last season re: the plot), and this structure allowed for episodes that explore other aspects of the setting and characters while still making everything feel relevant and tied together by said conflict. it's not some arthouse show by any means, but it has good compelling story work into it. genuinely great show.

tdp immediately opens up with the nuance and it never really delves deeper. you'd think that opening with characters being aware of the cycle of violence stuff would be interesting and the show would explore that more, but it just... flatlines there. there's no progression or graduation or exploration of themes as the seasons go on like in ATLA. very rarely are there new questions being asked or arcs that feel sensical.

honestly the main characters having to be perfect in every situation is the biggest problem with tdp. the mains are not allowed to have shortcomings or mistaken judgements or anything to meaningfully interact in any way with the nuanced set-up. they emotionally exist entirely outside it, which ends up making them the Messiahs of Peace Who Can Do No Wrong. good for fandoms i guess, people bitched and whined about bato and the water tribe for years. but it's not very good for storytelling.

and also, they're just bad characters and the writers can't put two and two together while still asking you to take their world very seriously.

anyways i'm just rambling at this point. good observation.

#tdp #tdp critical #for the tag filterers #ezran is legitimately a fucking awful character #callum is pointless and doesn't make sense within the larger world of the show #remember that <<path to darkness>> fear in season 4? no build-up #no exploration. nothing. just signposting for a Dark Arc because all the cool kids are doing it #like unless you were stupid it was clear that both viren and callum struggled with feelings of insecurity and wanting to be great #like really. no reason except extremely shitty foreshadowing and honestly a waste of screentime. like i'm sorry #but the fart jokes were unironically more characterful. claudia is emotionally immature #never got over her childhood. and her poopoofarty humor is a legitimate way of portraying that. viren realizes this. see i can be nice. #but like. for the mains? the human rayla joke may be funnier but does rayla's prejudice against humans ever play a role in her character? #oh no she's not allowed to be bigoted. neither are her parents. they have to be Good All Along. #and like the sad thing is the characterization of claudia like this is most likely not completely intentional. #devon giehl is like oh claudia likes terry because she thinks he's special in only a way *she* can see. #and not the more obvious nuanced explanation of claudia generally believing things about elves + dragons #but having the sense to realize that this doesn't mean every single individual is evil. but no she's just IRRATIONAL. ok then. #writers shut up and not ruin something that accidentally worked challenge level: impossible #asks #ask #anon #good ask honestly. #just rambling at this point

[eyes1nthewoods]

"omg the *guy i've never heard of in my entire life* to astarion pipeline is so real!!!"

#guy who's never played dragon age voice #level lan. fen rizz. #i think they are elves? #looking back on blorbos ive had and it honestly doesnt seem like much of a pipeline and more like a conspiracy board. #nightcrawler xmen evolution -> spider-man -> lucifer lucifer fox/netflix -> jonathan sims tma -> astarion baldurs gate #there's probably more i cant remember #ok well the dragon age tag is kind of a lie i've heard of them #i just really have no feelings towards them due to not caring about dragon age #i tried to figure out how to play what i think?? was the first game?? a few years ago and it wasnt on steam so i gave up.

[volfoss]

also its very funny bc choosing a misdeeds mission will have mistos going up to you and being like 😒 do you REALLY wanna do this one. like the one im doing rn is about this sibling who was like hey. i dont want my sister to date. kill the guy shes dating. and mistos was like this is mushy relationship stuff and i dont wanna get involved :///// and when i get there, shalvas starts the battle with smth along the lines of i really dont want to do this but here we go. literally what is his deal

#twist rambles #♟ #normally hes like ok ^-^ lets go into battle. its very funny to me bc its not JSUT my guilt over doing anything bad in games but they #will just be fucking miserable when u do evil missions. its very funny to me bc like. shalvas DOES have an established character. 10000% bu #if vol/foss was popular i knowwww people would give him the giorno treatment of no personality and he sucks to a majority of people. #but anyways it IS silly to me that mistos has to give his 2 cents on every mission you go on. even if its not an evil one. i think he prob #is mad at shalvas for taking this evil mission but shalvas is also on mad at me island due to me making him do this one so. really its only #fair. or something. its silly to me i like the little touches that they add. bc idk like normally ur protag in a game is pretty moldable to #ur choices. ie like. tw2s you have to pick the guys that suck so bad or the elves we are insanely racist to for a lot of the game #and like. when u look canonically. peepaw does notttt like to pick sides w the war. and esp since he doesnt have his memory back fully by #the time he makes that choice theres no way that he can use his prev knowledge from the LAST war to inform his choice. and that game treate #it as like yeah siding w the govt who are notoriously rly bad or the elves who are well. they sure fit them into the trope of i wrote a bad #guy and he has valid points but to make sure ppl hate him i have to have him do extreme evil. so u dont WANT to choose the elves side. #unless u suffered thru the really fucking bad racism in the books irt that. which i did. so for me its very funny to like. see vol/foss #handle the thing of ok u have choices and one of them is something it doesnt seem like the protag would do. in a more natural way ig.

[thasdorah]

looking at my muses and trying to make sense of the outliers (the 3 who aren't elves and don't choose elf forms and were not elves at any point in their lives)

#» out of character — ⌜number one elf apologist.⌟ #the answer is I love to latch onto underdeveloped girls too #it's 2 actually not 3. could be 3 if I finally made a blog for lorna. could be 3 if instead I chose the impulse to make it whitemane #not that I don't like picking up the underdeveloped elf girls either #staring directly at lana'thel and kelantir #hsvdjshdisud #I really need to just stop making blogs #and write more in all the ones I have #tolkien elves are to blame bc I read lotr at like eleven #and obsessed over arwen for a while #i never got through the silmarillion but i remember going after the beren and luthien stuff #just bc arwen and aragorn #I entered the elf phase and never left ig #it's ok i like it here #love my pointy eared and long lived little guys and girls (un)dead or alive

[promithiae]

So I read witchmark this weekend. I could not put it down, which was refreshing because it's been a long time since I've been able to finish a book. I think the problem is that you know, my attention and my time is so limited that if I don't get absorbed into a book pretty much immediately I cant stick with it. And I really miss reading books. I read all the time, but its fanfiction (which is just as worthy as books domt get me wrong, but it's a different experience) where I know the characters and the setting and the rules of the narrative already. I miss learning new stories and settings.

I think I just need to ease back into my reading habit by sticking with my favorite niche genre- mysteries in a fantasy setting (theres a reason the Watch books are my favorite discworld books). If you have recommendations hmu. Queer characters a plus but not a requirement.

#books #bookblr #murder mysteries are great but i alao like other kinds of mysteries too #i like solving puzzles #any fantasu setting btw #urban fantasy? great! elves and dwarves? lovely!! edwardian magic users? lets fucking go! #i just really like fantasy ok?

[crymeariveronceagain]

definitely not listening to Prince Of Egypt and thinking of all the ways that Moses was a sort of type(as in typology) of the coming Messiah sought after and looked for by the children of Israel, and how I could write a whole story about Sophie becoming a sort of elf-Messiah, how she is someone destined to save the world, a deliverer, anointed and told to do everything in her power to protect her people(the elves) from the problems they've created, and that are inflicted on them

#no thoughts just english/theology major ramblings #ok but messiah stories are so interesting and sophie is so very a messiah type of character #like look at how she's portrayed #asdfghjkl #i cant brain just think about sophie being the elf messiah who was anointed from her conception to save the world #is reluctant messiah a trope? because if so Sophie Foster is 100% a reluctant messiah #is messiah even the right word #maybe i should just be using 'chosen one' #but really messiah in my mind works better because like i could write so much expansion on elven religion and MAKE sophie that figure to th #em #someone who was prophecied and promised and that the elves were searching for for years #it would explain why alden was looking for her and why the council didn't want to you know? #like i want prophecies about Sophie Foster saving the world idk #kotlc #kotlc sophie #sophie foster #rant in tags #kotlc headcanons #kotlc thoughts #elf religion #kotlc headcanon #prince of egypt #the prince of egypt #kotlc fandom #idk im just thinking so hard rn

[thrumugnyr]

Tending to the Halla

#Dragon Age #Dragon Age: Inquisition #Halla #Lavellan #this is just so I have proof that my Inquisitor is actually nice with kids ok #also I really wanted to draw a baby Halla #and I really just like elves #doing dalish stuff #(drew my Inquisitor with both arms at first lmao) #(awkward) #also the return of my staple background trees #one of these days I'll learn a new background i swear

[the-wiggles]

What if I jarjar binksify regulus black what then

#ok hear me out so #imagine regulus being stupid #like so so stupid #but also weirdly lucky #like in canon we really only know like three things about this man #we know that he was in slugclub but like he could’ve just fucked shit up good enough to make excellent potion after excellent potion #not to mention that slughorn couldn’t resist collecting the new black heir #we also know that he loved kreacher beyond reason and also regardless of familial beliefs and treatment of house elves #that is so jarjar #kreacher probably saved this poor kids life mildly once and our little idiot went well I guess I love you forever and ever #lastly we know he was a disillusioned deatheater #so imagine our little guy just sort of #goes along #with what his family expects and what his friends are doing #but he just keeps accidentally finding out shit that does not sit right #which leads him to the locket etc #and his luck runs out #UNLESS #mans survived but just got mega lost afterwards #like imagine this idiot escapes barely via botched apparition #and he’s flat out dumb plus concussed plus he has actually no idea where he ended up #so he just #makes a life wherever that little dummy ends up #presumed dead by all in his past #people who deadass knew him and knew how stupid he was have all these theories #that maybe he was secretly an evil genius and Voldemort felt threatened after he gained too much power #ring any bells? #can we please binksify him #I do truly love the current characterizations of regulus but #can you fucking imagine

[offestivities]

gonna make a new character because why nOT.

Rough details:

alethas older brother by 300+ years (??) unk name (thinkin majd, Rowan…??) but he is definitely the historian of Solaris and is all seeing to the events that have gone on/will go on in addition to having insight to other elven communities. Some communities even invite him to help fill gaps with their own histories.

Well traveled and ventures away from Solaris often to learn what others are doing and if there’s anything interesting he can bring back home to hopefully introduce (but, his parents are very much set in their ways… they dislike change and won’t even consider smoothie/boba straws smh)

#Elf boy elf boy elf boy!!!!!! #I just really like elves ok and I wanted to make a new elf character #ooc

[vuulpecula]

✖ @closedcoffins cont.

      She looked away at his initial answer, the portrait of politeness, for she knew it was a lie. It did not wound her pride, bruised perhaps, but the sensation did not last long. Cahir continued and she watched the horizon as he did. Listening while two songbirds floated on the warm breeze, creating great arcs around the limbs of a tree. Their small bodies illuminated in reds and golds from the slowly sinking sun. How simple their lives were, Fox thought, how safe.

      Humming, she gave his answer, his true answer, a measured nod. Allowing the silence between words to soak up in the orange light. For what felt like a long while there was only the song of the birds and the distant, insignificant chatter of people on the streets. Going about their day as if nothing was changing, as oblivious as the birds. “I did not take you for one to go back on their word once given, though, I would not fault you if you did.” She appreciated his honesty and rewarded it with her own, spoken softly.

      “You needn’t apologize to me, there is nothing to forgive,” Fox shifted her gaze to him long enough to offer an encouraging smile. Absently, she twisted a bracelet about her wrist as she pondered prompting him for more. For something, anything, that may hint that he was feeling the same as she. That all the world was changing. A notion she couldn’t help but wonder if it was happening for the right and just reasons. “It is probably improper for me to ask, but, what sorts of other things have occupied your mind during these strange, uncertain times?” Again, she offered a smile, careful not to allow too much worry to invade her features for one could never know who was watching.

#closedcoffins #[ ok ok ok your response really inspired me so i literally wrote this at work ] #[ idk i just really love the idea of a pre-blood of elves setting??? like the pause before the plunge??? ] #x | v. people like to invent monsters and monstrosities. then they seem less monstrous ( THE WITCHER TWO. ) #x | i'm not living i'm just killing time ( QUEUE. )

[rosecreates]

The favorite places of the BG3 Unholy Trio are as follows...

Sylve: She grew up in Rivington and after she became a mercenary and managed to earn herself a home in the Lower City, she found herself spending a lot of time in Elfsong Tavern to relax, and it soon became her favorite place.

Raven: The Bazaar of Menzoberranzan, where she often found a place to 'perch' and watch the people go to-and-fro, or spend time window shopping. Prior to being adopted into House Mizzrym she would also scam people, and even though she can't say she enjoyed having to make ends meet through conning, she can't deny it was fun fooling people into believing her.

Nimue: Prior to losing her memory, her favorite place was Bloomridge Park. Her foster parents took her there often, where she often had picnics with them and played with other children. After killing her foster parents when consumed by her dark urge when she was a preteen and covering up the murder out of fear, she was taken in by the Church dedicated to Corellon Larethian that she had often visited with her parents. She constantly visited the park at that point, watching the scenery from afar whilst drowning in her thoughts, if she wasn't praying at the Church for Corellon to purge the urges from her and forgive her for her sins or mourning her parents at the graveyard. After losing her memory and returning to Baldur's Gate in Act 3, she regains several memories when taken to Bloomridge Park and finds herself spending a lot of time there again to reminisce.

#{oc info} #{oc: sylve} #{oc: raven} #{oc: nimue} #nim having worshipped corellon before fel eventually took her to the bhaal temple is really sad actually because i very much make it clear- #that she for all intents and purposes is just an imitation of a high elf. she adores elven culture and takes pride in her identity as one- #and it WRECKED her when she realized she was a fake one and that corellon must surely despise her (i dunno if he actually does but)- #because why would he ever accept something like her. a bhaalspawn imitating a high elf. who has surely killed many elves at that- #including the family that took her in and i figure she probably slaughtered the church too which is just AGH. shes just wants to be a- #normal high elf. she probably had planned originally to become a cleric of corellon. her parents probably were clerics of him. and she- #wanted to be just like them. when it was realized the natural power she held and capability to become a sorcerer she maybe was gonna be- #like a sorcerer/cleric hybrid of sorts. but things didnt turn out that way. when she killed her parents she dropped any and all of her- #cleric training because she felt like she was too tainted to become a cleric now. focused more into sorcerer studies and maybe was trained- #by some sorcerer who she met at church. whenever she wasnt at bloomridge or the graveyard or praying for forgiveness ofc. and then- #she probably slaughtered her church as an adult and thats when fel came and took her to bhaal so haha :-D #nimue is not ok dear lord help her nkjgfbjkbgf

[elvesofnoldor]

like anne rice could be such good writer if she just wrote with compassion and empathy for her characters. There was this "baby Jenks" character from the beginning of the queen of the damned and her story was so afforded so much genuine love and compassion it was literally my favourite part of the first part of the book. Baby Jenks' story reminded me of some of the best Sandman one-off characters' story tbh, it was that good. Wish Anne Rice always write with so much love and compassion though. Anyways, It's no wonder, tbh, that Baby Jenks character is actually Claudia (lestat wept for that girl because he was weeping for Claudia from his life, pretty sure at this point Anne Rice consciously projects her own motherhood onto him). maybe at that point in anne rice's life, she has heard enough about things like re-incarnation and all the better places one can go to after death that all that stuff is allowing her to started to make peace with the tragic death of her late daughter?? but i wonder if she ever got to walk out of her grief? cause idk? she kept writing vampire books??? to the end of her life???

like it's honestly such a mess that she wrote IWTV in response to the very tragic death of her daughter. I have to be honest, i cannot begin to imagine just how painful it is to go through something that traumatic, but i also felt like writing a psychosexual gothic horror vampire story is not exactly therapeutic either. It's kind of funny that it takes getting into the vampire chronicles for me to truly understand what vampires really are. But i do, finally. Vampires are not weird fantastical creatures, they are not Death itself, and they are certainly not Life Everlasting. Vampires, like ghosts, are simply a spiritual embodiment of the very rejection of Death. They are very effective device to examine the human condition, because we as human beings all fundamentally reject the inevitability of death and obliteration of the self we currently possess. We inherently fear change, fear loss, the changefulness of life, and the annihilation of self. Vampires embody a certain state of mind that's frankly universal in humans. But I don't think Anne Rice always wrote her vampire chronicles knowing vampires are??? if she ever knew??? Definitely not at the beginning though, when Louis was definitely just her self-insert and he brought Claudia to live with a theatre of vampires and they live happily ever after. I mean, midnight mass really got the Point when it says "the only way to achieve True Immortality is to accept and embrace death, and because vampirism is inherently about rejecting death, it will NEVER be life everlasting". Honestly the only reason that motivated me to read more Vampire chronicles is....well...i wanna know if Lestat can just? idk, be happy? be free? But this dude kept trying to get together with his abuser and i honestly don't even know what to say. Really i do not understand why Anne Rice kept making it happen. I have seen zero evidence that Louis changed to become better person and someone actually deserving Lestat's love. And more importantly, idk man, im not a psychologist but can you stop being a p*dophile??? so um. humm. i don't fucking know about this, lol. Like, im gonna be fucking real here, fuck all that "lestat was a bad person" " lestat was manipulative" shit, please grow a brain!!! Lestat was a good and loving person!! Period! all his bullshit has to do with the fact that he died a horrific and traumatic death and was never able to free himself from the pain and despair that trapped him in his vampiric state. But to let go of his pain and truly be the good person that he always was again, it'd require him to...well, embrace true death. But since Lestat will never end im guessing he will just have to stop being a bonafide vampire and become some sort of dark fantasy faery creature lmao. I'm starting to suspect the reason people think prince lestat trilogy is cringey because her vampires just...aren't even vampires by the end of it lol. Im suspecting that Anne Rice literally had to come up with some fantastical mumbo jumbo to justify her vampire characters finding happiness because these bitches kept walking into the sun and they kept not dying from it. I mean, lestat croaking for reales is kind of depressing so MAYBE i will take this shit. maybe i will still read the prince lestat trilogy lol. I heard there is bloodborne lore in there.

#mae overshares #i dont wanna say it but i think i finally decided to get into vampire media cause i was just fucking depressed #ok my life sort of fell apart mid 20s couple of years ago and i hadn't talk about it and i never will #and it was why i went back to tolkien. i had to escape into tales of elves (immortals) to numb my own pain #but for the longest time i was crying all the time just thinking abt the possibility that my loved ones will die #i was so scared that i will never see my grandpa before he passes. im still mortified tbh #i can't face the changefulness of life. and i longed for everything to stay the same. for lack of loss #im afraid of aging. im afraid to turning old. you know. regular depression shit #and im raised buddhist!!! and a key buddhist teaching is that you have to let go of the self to be free #the only way to life Everlasting to stop being obessed with the current consciousness you possess #you have to accept that the person you are now WILL disappear. but you will never end #i know exactly what Life Everlasting is supposed to be and i still! wish for fairy tale immortality! #faith is nothing in comparison to pain. pain overwhelms everything. faith. reason. knowledge #i think maybe tumblrinas are just crying for help when they casually joke abt getting immortality from vampires #cause for the first time in my life i got the morbid humour? i was like 'haha yeah if a vampire came and kill me i will say thank you <3' #i was like 'the thought of becoming some sort of horrid creature is kind of cool as long as i stay young forever <3' #'esp if said horrid creature wants to fuck me <3' #honestly. it's really hard to let go of pain. and my pain was nothing compare to the shit a lot of people had to go through #it's so EASY to become trapped in your own pain and grief

[busket]

I understand personal preference and that some people just don't like ships with men, and that's ok! but I'm annoyed at the implication from some fans that labru has less depth as a relationship than farcille or any other wlw ship in dungeon meshi, and the idea that people are only shipping it as a joke, or because they're horny, or because they're misogynistic and don't want to look at female characters, etc etc. I've seen people call it like, "bloodlust obsession that turns to horniness" and it made me realize that the people who don't ship labru don't understand their dynamic at all. labru shippers didn't just pull this out of our asses lol

a lot of the story around kabru involves how he and laios are perfect opposites of eachother. NARRATIVE FOILS, if you will. everywhere kabru thrives (social interaction, charisma, the surface) laios completely fails. and everywhere that laios is most successful (in the dungeon against monsters) kabru keeps getting killed. not only that but their desires are mirrors of each other too: laios grew up bullied by humans and wanted to become a monster, kabru grew up dehumanized by his villagers and then the elves, so he wants to affirm his identity as a human being.

despite how kabru should be repulsed by laios due to his hatred of monsters, he's drawn to him instead. kabru spends the entire story trying to get to laios to talk to him and to get to know him. firstly he knows laios is closest to defeating the dungeon lord and needs to sus out if he's a good person, but he admits that he really wants to be friends with laios too, not just to determine his virtue but to see what value laios sees in monsters. he wants laios to share his interest in people, he wants laios to be interested in him back. kabru never had any true bloodlust or desire to kill laios, he was prepared to go that far if laios wasn't a good person, but once finding out that he has good intentions kabru spends all his energy trying to help laios instead. and when you consider that kabru spent his childhood believing he was half monster because of how he was ostracized in utaya, his curiosity about how laios could possibly love monsters feels so much more personal.

and for laios, he's not used to anyone taking an interest in him. people are constantly telling him he's weird, and the person he believed to be his best friend told him he couldn't stand him. he misses falin so dearly because she thinks he's the coolest man on earth, so meeting someone and being told "I hate monsters but I still want to know YOU" would have an impact on him, I think. in postcanon they become good friends, kabru becomes laios' right hand man to help him with more of the dicey social aspects of being a leader. laios asks him to stay by his side and help him, and kabru says "yeah, that's what I've been doing this whole time"

I wouldn't claim that a romantic relationship between them is CANON, but I wouldn't even say that about farcille either tbh (and I love farcille just as much so don't come for me lol) this isn't a comedy crackship that yaoi fans just made up. laios and kabru are really multi dimensional characters and they're made to reflect eachother in every way, even down to their physical design. so it's not out of nowhere that people ship them

#dungeon meshi #labru #MY INSANE YAOI RAMBLINGS