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lilliths-httyd-blog · 1 year

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Why not watch Race to the Edge? We have:

The neurodivergent guy who's just so tired. Threw himself off a cliff once or twice. Likes dragons soooooo much and everyone just rolls with it. His entire life revolves around his hyperfixation (dragons) and it kind of bleeds into everyone elses life.

The neurodivergent guy's best friend cat. Does not like it when neurodivergent guy puts himself in dangerous situations and frequently sasses him for it. Is often seen batting around balls of paper for fun. Has killed an unfathomable amount of people and will kill again.

The token girlfriend who wasn't actually a token girlfriend in the show and had an actual personality and hobbies and insecurities and stuff. Has anger issues and will take it out on the twink at the slightest provocation. Probably more worthy of being chief than the chiefs own heir at this point in time. Secretly feminine. The superior version of this character and everyone loves her.

The twink. Used to be one of the jocks in high school and turned out to be the most flamboyant and feminine of the squad. Wrote a book once. Probably to impress the nerd like he's so gay for the nerd. Loves baby dragons like sooooo much he will cuddle them all day. A little sassypants who pouts and complains a lot. Is not good at following instructions. Will sacrifice life and limb for his friends and almost died for them several times.

The twink's self insert oc. He larps as a Coachella kid. Once fooled the smartest man in the world into thinking he was actually a Coachella kid. Deep in his heart he is just a misunderstood rich white boy.

The nerd. Reads books to the point where the universe decided every almost single one of his spotlight episodes would be a parody of a book. He made dragon trading cards once because he's a fucking nerd. Is probably a licensed doctor and if he's not then nobody's noticed yet. Is a total helicopter parent over his fucking dragon who spews lava and has a tail-bludgeon so who knows whats going on in his head.

The twink made a self insert OC for his boyfriend the nerd and then there were some hypnotism hijinks. I want to see God Complex and Coachella Kid interact so bad.

The resident drag queen. A scholar, philosopher and fashionista who would do a dramatic reading of Dante's Divine Comedy for fun. Has a pet chicken who he has a... questionable relationship with. Has a mace who he also has a... questionable relationship with. Doesn't know how to do math.

The resident pyromaniac. Has literally no fear and will actively dare people to kill her. Has not once been killed so it seems to be working. Will be captured and spend her entire time in captivity mercilessly bullying her captors. Could probably make Ryker Grimborn cry. Made Snotlout cry. Way smarter than she looks and is considered the smarter twin which is insane considering Tuffnut is a known genius.

The incredibly angsty Mary Sue. You either love her or hate her and I love her. Fits every single Mary Sue trope in existence to a T to the point where I feel like it was on purpose. Don't get me wrong though, she's a genuinely compelling character. Emo. I think that she should date Astrid.

#people who only watch the movies confuse me #rtte #httyd #race to the edge #httyd movies

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abby118 · 6 months

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Watching the Loki series is like watching an endless gag reel. It's so bad it's surreal. Loki doesn't feel like Loki. That's not Loki. It's like we're watching Tom Hiddleston just flail and flop around in a bad suit. He reminds me, (and someone else also pointed this out, I can't remember who), of the Edgar suit in Men In Black. And I can't help but wonder if that was a conscious decision Tom made, to act like a possessed, reanimated corpse? We'll never know, of course, but every time I see video clips and gifs, I just see the Edgar suit and if it wasn't so laughable, I could cry.

I completely agree. I couldn't even get through season 1 tbh. And I'd thought ragnarok was bad and out of character...

My advice would be to avoid it completely. I've got the tags blocked, I don't look at the new content and just stick to the original. It truly makes me so sad for the entire fandom, to see such complex and deeply interesting character destroyed and stripped of his very essence. I've been a fan of Loki and the characters from the Thor movies since 2011 and hyperfixated big time. I won't let some disney bullshit ruin that. It helped me through the hardest times of my life and I see parts of myself in the personalities of the characters, having grown up with it being a safe place. It even inspired me to find interest in the norse mythology despite it being so different. I read numerous books and studies on it and I feel like you can catch little glimpses of it in the original franchise.

Sadly, it feels like Tom is so out of touch with who he is supposed to be portraying. I hope this is the result of a contract and not entirely his own input. Although, I'm worried that might be my wishful thinking.

I was studying the soundtrack of Thor 2 the other day and how much thought went into it and it made me weep internally. Brian Tyler studied the characters' personalities and brought that into what he crafted. It was full of care. He even named one track Lokasenna, which if you don't know, is the name of a poem belonging to the poetic Edda and is about the conflict between Loki and the Aesir (asgardians). I also love how the og Thor franchise had the recurrent theme of light & shadow. Returning back to the brian tyler vid- the theme he was talking about is named Shadows of Loki.

Now, compare it with what we got in the last years (sth that feels like a very badly written fanfic). That is just a single example.

For me, the ending of Thor 2 is the end of canon and I am writing my very extensive continuation. It's the best ending we could have gotten in terms of fanwork because it's an open ending. A still in-character-ending.

The series feels wrong, it feels like utter mockery and I'm not here for it. With that said, my blog is a safe space for everyone who feels like this or gets bullied by the new "fanbase" (yes that happens)

Thank you so much for sharing your opinion, I appreciate it more than you know 🖤💚

#loki #anti loki series #anti loki show #2011-2013 loki supremacy #og loki supremacy #og loki #ask #I love u anon

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dragcnbreak · 6 months

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more autistic little mike……. please im begging.. Begging..

ANONNNN why are you me. autistic and little mike are such important headcanons to me so here are some thoughts on how his autism would interact with his littlespace >< also this isn’t really an x reader. there’s no mention of the reader at all. just pls let me be autistic about mike ok

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• his depression has caused him to fall out of love with a lot of his hyperfixations and special interests so being little feels like the only time he can really indulge in them

• with the help of people on here, i landed on some special interest headcanons!!! i think he really liked legos and airplanes when he was younger so that translates over to his littlespace

• vanessa finds the airplane that garrett had when he went missing and gives it to mike. he cries for a while every time he sees it but he grows used to having it around and plays with it when he’s little

• he also gave up his legos to abby when he thought he aged them out. but she does eventually figures out about his age regression and sneaks the box of them into his room one day

• along with his airplane and legos, he also draws and watches cartoons. he draws so many planes and could definitely specifically name the ones he draws. he read a book when he was young and just never forgot them

• I FORGOT ABOUT DREAMS. dreams are definitely one of his special interests and that translates over to littlespace too. he’ll always draw scenes from his dreams right after waking up from one. he thinks they’re super cool (or sometimes really scary) and he just has a huge collection of his dream art

• also like i said in my first little!mike post, i think he allows himself to stim more when he’s little. he represses it as much as he can when he’s working or with other people but when he feels safe enough to be little, he feels safe enough to stim too

• his stims are more tactile than anything; his hands always have to be doing or touching something. he flaps them when he’s excited or just doing something stimulating in of itself.

• he also rocks a lot, either on his feet or just his entire body. and this is a stim that helps him feel better when he’s having a meltdown or breakdown too

• speaking of meltdowns, they don’t happen too often because he Hates feeling weak. but they do occur when he’s little more often than not.

• (self harm mention and description here) it’s not like the happiest headcanon but I think he punches himself and bangs his head against walls when he’s having a meltdown. it’s sort of a stim but also self harm because he feels like he deserves it

• he doesn’t regress to too young, maybe around 10, so he knows what he’s feeling and he’s aware of why he’s feeling it so he’s just not always a happy little. but that’s okay

• he doesn’t have a lot of sensory issues tbh? when too many things are happening at once, he can feel overstimulated but it’s not often. he prefers the dark but doesn’t mind brightness. he doesn’t mind something that’s loud but he does get scared by a loud noise easily, but he can handle things like concerts. he’s kind of a picky eater and does get autistic about certain food (like having a comfort food or eating something once every day)

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this kinda turned into me rambling about autistic mike sorry HAHHAHA I told y’all he was important to me. Anyway. Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed <3 I have a lot of requests that might take me a bit to get around to but they’re still open and always welcome

#mine #text #asks #sfw agere #sfw age regression #agere #age regression #headcanons #autistic mike schmidt #mike schmidt #michael schmidt #fnaf #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy’s movie #five nights at freddy's #my hcs

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nomadstucky · 6 months

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Ghost Blurb

Yes, I will be expanding on this in a future fic. This IS a whole ass fic bro. LMAO This may be a one off writing for Ghost, it depends. My issue is that I hyperfixate on characters. This hyperfixation has taken hold for at least 2-ish weeks now. So this is PEAK Ghost brain rot, right here.

This has NOT been edited, or beta-read. All mistakes are my own.

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT, BLANK BLOGS WILL BE BLOCKED.

So this is NOT a blurb... 1,025 WORDS.

I feel like it's canon at this point, but Ghost would absolutely cum untouched from eating you out. I mean, picture this.

It had been such a rough day for him. The recruits had been incredibly taxing, whether not listening to him, or pushing him. All he wanted was you.

You had this uncanny way of calming him down, and you hadn't even really been seeing each other. It wasn't exclusive, but you were the only female on the base, so it made sense that he sought you out.

While the other men had flirted with you, you declined them every time. You weren't even sure why, you just had a feeling they wouldn't be able to satisfy you the way Ghost had.

Given the nature, there was an amount of trust that the two of you had. You didn't ever push him to show his face, or divulge any information. He offered bits and pieces. His name, and some general information. Ghost was a man who very much was able to keep himself under wraps, while simultaneously indulging in certain pleasures.

Ghost very rarely denied himself the pleasure of you. Most times, he wanted to get the two of you off, but he hardly ever sought pleasure from your pleasure alone. He didn't even realize that was a thing that existed.

On this particular day, Ghost found himself to be needy. He could not get you out of his head. It was like you had ingrained yourself into his brain, and refused to get out.

He found himself waiting for the moments where he caught glimpses of you. However fleeting these looks were. Ghost only ever caught sight of you a few times, before he had to train the new recruits. In the mess hall, seeing you walk into Price's office, and then once more while you were walking to your room.

Ghost found himself calling the training off just over an hour into it. He hoped that you were still in your room, hoped that he could just bury himself into the comfort that you brought him.

He didn't want to attempt to understand his own feelings, no, he'd much rather just get lost in you, and your body. He knocked before entering.

You knew it was Ghost before he even entered, he had a very distinct knock that he always used with you. Setting your book down, you looked at him as he was entering.

Smiling up at him, you greeted him. "Are you okay? You look tense." You commented.

"I just need you." Was the only response he offered, proceeding to shuck off his tactical gear.

"How can I help?" You stood from the bed, moving closer to him.

Ghost shook his head and walked you back to the bed. "Lay down, bunny."

You did as he instructed, the nickname ricocheting through your brain. In the entire time you and Ghost had been sleeping together, he had only ever used 'bunny' once or twice. When he was incredibly desperate.

"Fuck, I just... I need to taste you. Can I?" He asked, slowly working your lounge pants down your legs.

You nodded, Ghost had always been a gracious lover, however he had only ever eaten you out once or twice before. You assumed that it wasn't his thing. All thoughts in your brain had halted, as Ghost pulled you to the edge of the bed simultaneously pulling his mask up just past his mouth.

You whimpered his name.

"Fuck bunny." He growled, pulling your panties back only to snap them against your skin, before pulling them to the side.

Gasping, you arched your back slightly. Watching him as he settled to his knees on the hardwood floor.

"Si, your knees." You reached up to grab a pillow.

"Don't give a fuck, bunny. Let me enjoy this." Was the only 'warning' you had, before he was flattening his tongue against you.

You whined, hands falling to the mattress beside your head. The man lapped at your folds, alternating between paying specific attention to sucking at your clit, and spearing his tongue into you.

In the few times he had eaten you out, it never felt like this. He had been more reserved, trying to feel what you liked, and what you didn't. What made you scream, and what made you squirm.

His fingers dug into your thighs, sure to leave marks in the morning. You ground your hips against him, as he slowly brought a hand down to gently slide two fingers into you, slowly pumping them.

Growling, he sucked your clit into his mouth. You whining, gripping the bedsheets in your hands. "Fuck! Simon, please!" You circled your hips, begging for what? You weren't sure.

Ghost groaned, sucking the soul from your body, through your pussy. Straining in his boxers, he refused to do anything until he got you to cum. He wanted you to cum more than anything else right now.

Your entire body locked, you felt every nerve-ending, every cell in your body burned like fire. This felt different. "S-Si. I need--"

Ghost growled, ripping himself away from you. Eyes on you, blazing. "I'm gonna give you everything bunny." Was the only thing that he said before reattaching his lips to you.

Your back arched, one of your hands moving to cup the back of the balaclava, you found yourself wishing for it to not be there. Not to see his face, but to feel his hair, to grip his hair, pull him closer to you.

A chant of pleases left your lips, your entire body feeling like it's on fire. With one final set of sucks and pulses from his fingers, you came. With a scream of his name, you came so hard you saw stars.

Slowly leaning back, Ghost chanted "Yes, yes, yes." before flooding his boxers, completely untouched.

You gasped, looking down the length of your body, you watched Ghost throw his head back. "D-Did you..?" Your hoarse voice trailed off.

Ghost merely nodded, with his head still facing the ceiling.

"That's hot." You commented, biting your lip as you watched Ghost slowly move to look at you, a renewed fire in his eyes.

A smirk slowly rose on his face, and you knew you were in deep trouble.

#reader insert #cod simon riley #simon ghost riley x reader #simon riley x you #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley #simon ghost x reader #ghost x reader #ghost cod

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goldenretriever-boyfriend · 6 months

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hello! i'm blue, your local sillyguy and typical golden retriever boy :3

about me!

most people know me as blue but i don't really care how you refer to me! i'm an 18 year old autistic genderqueer transmasc dogboything and i'm cool with any pronouns other than she! [he, they, bro, that one, it, blueself, etc. are some good options!]

my interests!

my special interest is five nights at freddy's! i love everything to do with the silly bear game, including the games, movie, books, merch, theories, and fanworks. my favourite fangames are playtime with percy and dayshift at freddy's!

my other interests are music, horror movies, art, singing/voice acting, original characters, and the furry fandom, and my current hyperfixation is the fast food mascot, jack in the box!

i am also known to enjoy homestuck, undertale, deltarune, dialtown, among us, welcome home, and bluey, amongst other things!

ask box!

my ask box is always open! feel free to send me anything, whether it's a simple hello, a question, a meme, or an entire rant! don't ever be afraid to infodump! i might not have a very exciting response but i promise it makes my day every time knowing you thought of me!

send a bear emoji 🐻 in an ask and i'll respond with a random fnaf meme from my collection!

socials!

you are free to ask for my discord, toyhouse, or artfight! i don't use most social media outside of those, sorry!

the rat 🐀

sometimes you may see me mention "the rat" without context. he is simply just the personification of my thoughts! more specifically, any random, silly, incoherent, 3am type thoughts. i thought it was funny to turn my brain into a furry and it... got out of hand. feel free to ask about her! you can also find more about them from posts tagged with #the rat, see rat posts under #ratposting, or see any posts that please the rat under #ratcore! [just fyi, i refer to them with she/her or as a girl sometimes, but i must request you do not.]

finally, in case you haven't noticed, i type almost exclusively in lowercase. sentence case feels icky to me and i avoid it at all costs. :P [consider it my typing quirk!]

thanks for reading, enjoy your stay!

#gay barking #gay art tag #gay inbox #<< my main tags!#most of my fandom tags follow a similar format but my tags are a hellhole only i understand lmao

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lanaevyssmoved · 8 months

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NINE PEOPLE YOU WANT TO GET TO KNOW BETTER ❣️

tagged by @moonmothers @flymmcargo @kelemvorr @baldursgate2 !!!!!!! thank u so much.. u are all so sweet and thoughtful...

tagging @cetra @dandeyrain @princeofhags @mercymaker @lord-woolsley @hibernationsuit @alongtidesoflight @shadowcursedballs @tombtaker :D no pressure of course my friends! you may also consider this an invitation to talk to me more :3c

favorite color: wellow... ✨🍯🐝🌻💛⚡ i have loved yellow since i was very small my sister loved purple so everything she owned was purple and everything i owned was yellow.. and my room is still entirely yellow everything is YELLOW..... it just happens i gravitate

last song: uhhh spotify says i was last listening to last chapter in time, first chapter in eternity by VVN it absolutely fucks but bare in mind it might make you sad? tis music to make you feel and that shit always has different effects on people. OOP and spotify shuffle Just put on times change by umziky which is CUTE glitchpoppy stuff OH and spotify just put on higher by ia. which is vocaloid ur welcome.. this says how slow i am huh am i typing too much AND NOW ITS into the woods by phildel im making u a playlist

last movie: last movie i watched was godzilla king of the monsters with aisling teehee... every movie i've watched recently was with aisling... hehe.......

currently watching: WELL i was watching breaking bad but i burnt out around season 3 after i was binging it all day long and before that i binged all of desperate housewives all day long without any break so am i surprised i burnt out? no. also desperate housewives fucks

currently reading: uh i'm like always reading the six of crows by leigh bardugo i will open that book consume the Content and then close it whenever i feel like reading parts of it........ actually reading thru a full book currently no....not really but lets say crooked kingdom yeah

current obsession: mayhaps this question is pointless but i am deep in an autistic hyperfixation on bg3 which is showing no signs of dying down or stopping i will also say i am hyperfixating on gale himself and honestly my oc afhiri. and i think its safe to say illithids too i cannot stop myself from gobbling up information on them and i think about them just as much as the others ...........

sweet, savory, or spicy? i will sayy savoury!!!! i do like sweet but not as much . i am currently really obsessed with gravy..... not american gravy or whatever the bwi'ish kind.......... had to confirm that because i ain't got a fucking clue what american gravy is like . but i know its different!!!!!! due to my very english upbringing i never consumed spice ever in my life until i started to introduce it into my own diet a year ago and now i can eat things that say spicy just fine!! and they are very delicious. i really enjoy spicy noodles especially

currently working on: I HAVE TWO AFHIRI GALE FIC WIPS CURRENTLY ... :3c one of them is a cute domestic scene i'm writing through aislings influence and the other is a fat and large post game 3 years later fic that i cannot describe in any way than a psychological horror fic. :).....

#fray.txt #I HOPE THIS WAS GOOD.....#IVE NEVER DONE ONE OF THESE BEFORE

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e-adlirez · 10 months

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Violet and Geronimo: seriously we need a crossover involving the two please

So here's the dealio. I've got way too much time not-studying that I'm giving myself, and whenever this happens in particular, I am reminded of the fact that these two have not met in-canon yet, excluding every single Italian-only book where Geronimo meets the Thea Sisters for interview shenanigans ever (like the one time Thea got married). Whenever these thoughts spiral, I am left to think about how similar and yet different these two are, and I'm now thinking of ideas where they switch spots for a limited time. So here's a thesis on why I hyperfixate on these two in particular, their similarities and differences, and all the entertaining shenanigans we can get from these two hanging out.

Let's begin with the general stuff, specifically the general agreement that yes, these two are very similar to each other. Even looking at these two generally, it's clear that they're very similar to each other. Think about it: a shy, sensitive bookworm who's into classical music, gets motion-sick easily, and tends to get dragged into shenanigans that they sometimes can't be bothered with. Yeah, it describes both of them, doesn't it? Besides the "sometimes" part, everything matches both of them perfectly-- in Geronimo's case, he always gets dragged into shenanigans he can't be bothered with, every single time; meanwhile with Violet, if I had a nickel for every time her sleep or routine was shut down by either the plot or her friends, I would have a handful of nickels and one sleep-deprived Violet in the Caribbean. Anyway, there's that. The both of them are crazy similar in canon.

For the more niche things they have in common, both of them are planners; they hate being told things at the last minute and being dragged into things they never planned for, unless it's something urgent. Both of them have terrible luck in things they do (Geronimo's entire series is fueled by his bad luck, and Violet has gotten screwed over in the special editions by RNGesus so much that her alive state is held together by duct tape and chewing gum), both of them are night owls who like sleeping in and waking up late and chilling inside all day (see Geronimo's Awesome Agenda for an Amazing Afternoon, and Violet's vacation plan in Prince's Emerald until plot happened and the one time Colette called Violet "lazy" in one of the Thea Sisters' secret diaries in the Italian series--), and they both love art of the traditional/classical variety.

(Both of them also have unconventional pets-- Violet has Frilly the cricket and Geronimo has Hannibal the goldfish. I can't believe I'm only noticing this now.)

Canon also likes to bring this up. I dunno if this carries into the later books in Italian/not-English, but Thea in the early books is implied to have a soft spot for Violet. Thea opened conversation with her in Dragon's Code and gave her advice, later in the same book she is shown pondering about Violet and how she'd get along with the other girls, and I will ask you right now to read the non-English translations of Ghost of the Shipwreck because they are very cute and Violet giving Thea the Jade of Truth in the original plot (that Scholastic completely butchered) gives me the same energy as a kid timidly showing their parent a drawing they made, and I adore it. As far as I know, the Thea Sisters' existence in the Geronimo Stilton franchise is only brought up in special Geronimo Stilton books that are unfortunately not translated to English and probably never will be :'D. In the Italian books, there are books where the Thea Sisters cameo for Geronimo to interview them on certain things happening, like that one time Thea was getting married. No, it wasn't a bluff, apparently.

And on top of that

YOU

GUYS

AREN'T

HELPING!!! /affectionate (the timestamp of this clip is G saying "I'm a sensitive mouse". Guess who else is sensitive. Eeyup.)

Anyway, now that we have their similarities fleshed out, what would a crossover situation offer? Why would this be palatable? And to that I say, it's the differences between the two sillies, which can be summarized in one sentence:

Geronimo is resting angel face, Violet is resting bitch face.

I make it a point to establish that Violet has canonically dished out THE most shade out of all the girls, being capable of roasting anyone and everyone just from listening to them and then opening her mouth (Secret Invention had Colette deal with the Karen students from Mousebridge, I'm telling you right now if Violet didn't have to babysit a group of wholesome Russians and was stuck with them, we would’ve have roasted Brits on the buffet). From her own friends to pretentious jerks to menacing villains, Violet has roasted every single one of them at least once. Imagine if G and Vi had a crossover where maybe they're sharing things about their interests and having a good bonding time together, and then Trap or someone else suddenly bursts in like "HI G I'M ABOUT TO BE A DICK TO YOU AND PEER PRESSURE YOU INTO ROLLING WITH IT", and then Violet simply roasts the living crap out of whoever it was in a way only Violet can. For example, a scenario:

Trap: Hi, G! I just got a coupon to a cool restaurant in town! Wanna come along?

G: Wait, really? You mean it?

Trap: Yeah! Cross my heart and hope to die, this is legit!

G: Why, thank you! I'll be more than happy to come along, but I do have Violet here, so erm...

Trap: She can come along if she wants!

Violet: Oh, I couldn't possibly. I doubt the coupon would cover a third person.

Trap: Don't worry about it! It's all on me!

Violet: No, I'd hate to take a chunk out of this coupon's coverage just because I'm tagging along.

Trap: It's fine! I'll take care of it!

transition weee, all of the food was very spicy because it was a new Southeast-Asian restaurant and also Trap hoarded like crazy, and plot twist, Trap never had a coupon and was planning on paying for the meal with Geronimo's credit card

G: *silently crying over the price of the meal because of Trap's binge-eating*

Trap: Whoo! That was delicious! My compliments to the chef! What'd you two think of the meal? It was nice, right?

Violet: It was, yes. We should eat out again next time, my treat.

Trap: You mean it??

Violet: Of course. A friend of Geronimo's is a friend of mine. Please don't see me as a stranger because we just met today.

Trap: Geronimo, this girl's so nice! How'd you meet her?!

G: S-she's Thea's student visiting from Mouseford for an interview... *silent sob*

Trap: Whoa, cool! We should totally hang out today!

Violet: I'm afraid I can't. I have things to do later. We should keep in touch, though. Feel free to call if you need anything.

G: Wait, WHAT--

Trap: Cool!!

G: Violet wait no you don't understand--

Trap: This is-- holy crap-- we should ex--

Violet: I'm terribly sorry for the interruption, but I must go. We'll keep in touch, don't worry.

Trap: Okayokayokay here's my-- OOOHHH IT'S DESSERT TIME!

it was only until after that lunch that Trap realized three things: Violet never gave him nor Geronimo her phone number, she never received Trap's phone number, and Violet's interview with G that day was already finished, so she technically had nothing else to do in NMC.

If you need more context, then here's a video to explain:

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I also find immense entertainment in swapping out G for Violet in certain situations, like for example getting dragged into something she never wanted to do. Violet is the exact opposite of G in terms of the whole doormat situation, because she does NOT let people walk all over her, and she isn't the type to tolerate behavior that irritates her. In fact, she is the type of person to passive-aggressively remind people of her presence if they do stuff that pisses her off without any acknowledgement of her presence. If she passive-aggressively called both Colette and Pam out because their behaviors pissed her off (Colette multiple times for her diva thing in the early books and Pam because she liked blasting rock music in her dorm), then just imagine how much smoke would be filling the room from her dealing with people like William, Wild Willie, Bruce Hyena (which is funny because he was her professor at one point), Hercule Poirat, and moooaarrrr. She’d be roasting them so hard that the smoke alarms would be triggered homies, it would be beautiful. Yes this is why I hyperfixate on these two so much, having them interact would be so entertaining, especially how much G’s and thus Vi’s behaviors tend to get roasted by the members of the Geronimo Stilton cast.

C’mon, G’s watching a historical documentary being called “boring” and “old news” by Trap? Thea and Trap both calling G boring because he’s an indoor person and enjoys a peaceful and mundane life? Wild Willie and Bruce telling G that he’s as exciting as a clam and really needs to go out more?? Do you hear the wok hay sizzling yet? You’d better be, because deep-fried mice is on the menu tonight and the serving is so big that only the two-handed wok was big enough to house it :]

Anyway, you get the idea, Geronimo can’t assert himself to save his life, Violet asserts herself to the point of being a roast lord, amazing, hilarious, would like to see these two gel with each other and deal with each others’ crap. Aight that’s enough from me, I’ll let you come to your own conclusions about it :3

#geronimo stilton #thea stilton #thea sisters #I will elaborate on Vi roasting the crap out of everyone at some point #I definitely will be doing something for that it’ll be amazing #the fact that it’s all canon makes it even better

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praublem-child · 3 months

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How do neurotypical people go around saying that they have favorite movies and shows and books and songs, when they never consume their entire being?

I feel like this is the one thing I will never even begin to grasp about neurotypicals. I can begin to grasp social expecations and contexts, and I can even manage to understand how their brains are wired and work because I'm specializing in psychology right now. I get it, even if I think it's stupid most of the time.

But they claim to love a show and can't name every character in it. They claim to love a song but don't have it stuck in their head all day every day for weeks. They claim to love a book but they don't remember their favorite paragraphs word-for-word. They claim to love a hobby but they don't spend all of their spare time doing it.

They claim to love things, but those things don't eat their brains. Those things don't tie into every single thought they have throughout the day. Those things don't make them absolutely thrilled at the idea of being able to go home and indulge in them.

Neurotypical people don't start shaking with how much they love something. They don't have to squeal and wiggle in place when something big happens in their favorite media. They can't ramble about these things for hours-days-weeks-years if they had the chance. There's no happy dance when they have their favorite food, and they don't find it interesting to watch the same youtube documentary about their "favorite" things on repeat for months.

And I just,, I don't get that? I don't think I will ever be able to begin to grasp that honestly. How can someone claim to enjoy life when the things they say make them happy don't fill them with so much joy their bodies literally cannot contain it.

I have been attatched to my current hyperfixation (probably a special interest at this point tbh) for three years now. I write about it, I read about it, I put together puzzles about it, I have clothing, pens, notepads, calendars, art, everything you could imagine related to it. I have stickers for it all over all of my belongings. My walls are covered in posters for it. My computer and phone backgrounds are all related to it, my favorite colors have literally changed to match it, and half the things I say are quotes from the show. I spend my time watching edits and theory breakdown videos, I ramble about it to my friends and send countless videos related to it to them. They aren't interested, and I know this, but it's how I show affection and not only do they understand it, but they do the same back to me.

It consumes me. It consumes me and I love it, more than I can possibly explain. And I can't fathom how people can experience things any other way.

#neurodivergent #autistic #actually autistic #special interest #hyperfixation #neurotypical people are weird

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thescarletwitchsapprentice · 2 years

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Imagine: You, a student at Kamar Taj, catch the attention of an unlikely person for a particular reason. (Yandere!Stephen Strange/Yandere!Doctor Strange x autistic!ADHD!fem!reader)

*Not my GIF

(CW: Heterosexuality, slightly-big but legal age gap, magic violence, the dove isn’t dead. it’s only slightly injured, death threats but from the reader, executive dysfunctioning)

Author’s Note: This idea just came to me on a whim. So....I don’t know too much about Doctor Strange or Christine, but I saw MoM....six times. I decided I wanna expand my horizons maybe a little.

Reader is 18+. Also Strange is autistic because fuck Benefit Cucumber for what he said about us autistic people.

You feel like you’re falling behind.

Even with all of your practice, you’re behind a lot of the other students because it’s not being taught in a way you understand. Even with Wong’s extra tutoring sessions, it’s still difficult to understand.

So you dive into as many books as possible, even breaking into Wong’s study, trying to understand the science behind it. Before you know it, you’ve made a whole-ass mind map and somehow end up hyperfixating on the multiverse. By the time you look up from your other mind map, it’s past midnight, you’re hungry, thirsty, and have to use the bathroom.

As you attend to your needs, a certain sorcerer happens to pass by what you’re working on, but stops when he sees how extensive your research is.

“This doesn’t look like Wong’s handwriting....” he ponders.

When you come back, you come to a halt and gasp. Strange looks up.

“Oh shit!” you exclaim. “I’m-I’m sorry, I....I know I’m not supposed to be in here, but....I’m just.....I--”

“You’re trying to understand the magic you’re struggling with,” he finishes.

You nod.

“Yeah....how did you--?”

“I’ve seen you struggle during lessons.....I suggest slowing down and focusing.”

“Already tried that, genius,” you scoff. “But ADHD and autism can be bitches sometimes.”

Strange studies your work some more.

“This is.....extensive,” he comments. “Have you been working on these all day?”

You nod.

“I’ve been trying to figure out if there’s some sort of formula or technique or science behind magic and how I can apply it to my studies, but then I got sidetracked when I saw a passage in a book about the multiverse, so I got caught on studying that. Did you know that there’s a theory that dreams are essentially ways to look into the lives of our multiversal selves? If that’s true, then there’s a universe somewhere where I’m the Sorcerer Supreme. However apparently some people aren’t able to dream because there’s only one version of them throughout the entire multiverse, so they have no multiversal selves to look at. One of these books mentioned that this is common in those who have the power to travel across the multiverse, which is very rare. I feel like I’m getting close to something huge, but I’m not sure what it--”

You realize you’ve been blathering on and stop yourself.

“Sorry, I--I tend to get carried away when talking about things I’m passionate about,” you apologize sheepishly.

“No, it’s....it’s fine,” Strange says, seemingly a bit dazed as he looks at you. “Listen, I won’t tell Wong you were in here, on the condition that you come with me to the Sanctum tomorrow.”

“Why would I go with you?” you ask bluntly.

“Because I have more books that you can read that may help your research.”

This catches your attention and you nod.

“Okay, I’m in.”

“Meet me by the entrance tomorrow morning at 7 am,” he tells you.

You nod and head off to bed. As Strange teleports the research to the Sanctum, he can’t help but think back to how passionate you were discussing the multiverse. It almost reminds him of....

“Christine,” he says in a low voice.

Yes....you remind him of Christine. But she’s married now, and in every other universe, it seems him and Christine are destined to fail as a couple. So if he can’t have her......

His mind begins to form a plan.

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You wake up and head out to the entrance to Kamar-Taj as soon as possible. When you arrive, you see that Strange is waiting there.

“What about the research?” you pant.

“I teleported it to the Sanctum,” he answers before opening an orange portal.

The two of you step inside into the Sanctum. While you take it all in, Strange sets up a few last minute things.

“C’mon,” he says after a few moments. “I’ve got the study all set up for you.”

He takes you upstairs to a study and you’re blown away by the sheer number of books in it.

“Is....is this really all for me to study?” you ask.

He nods.

“Go wild,” he says, indicating to the desk with your research on it and a pile of books to get you started.

Excitedly you rush over and dive right in, losing track of time. What feels like only a few minutes turns into twelve hours. The moonlight shines in the window of the study; that’s when you notice how musty it it.

Going over to the window, you try to open it, but it shocks you with a sort-of orange magic. Yelping, you jump back and begin to worry.

You rush over to the study door and find that it’s open. The hallways are quiet, so you sneak over to the stairs. You try to go down it, but find that you’re thrown back once again by orange magic. Then you attempt to portal out, but realize that your sling ring is missing. Your heart pounds wildly. You rush around the upper floor, desperately seeking a way out, but everything is blocked with orange magic.

“What the hell is going on?!” you whimper.

“Are you finished already?” a familiar voice asks behind you.

Yelping, you whirl around to see Dr. Strange and you breathe a sigh of relief.

“Thank God. Strange, you need to help me. I’m trapped on the upper floor by this weird orange magic--”

Suddenly you stop as the memory of teleporting to the Sanctum resurfaces to the front of your mind.

“Orange magic....” you whisper.

“Is something wrong, (Y/N)?” he asks, stepping forward.

You step back, realizing what’s going on.

“Strange, please....” you pant. “I dunno why you’ve trapped me here, but you have to let me go.”

“Why would I?” His voice sounds sinister, making your blood run cold. “Why would I when you’re so thorough about research that you’ve found answers to questions that sorcerers have been asking for centuries....Christine Palmer?”

“Wha....? That’s....that’s not my name--”

“Are you sure? Because you remind me so very much of her.”

Your heart is racing, and not in the good way.

“Wong won’t let this slide, you know,” you threaten. “He’ll get suspicious when I stop showing up to lessons and then you’ll be exposed.”

“I’ve already taken care of that,” he says casually. “I told him that I’m taking you under my wing for studies at the Sanctum.”

“....I-I’ll...I’ll...” You’re losing footing.

“You’ll what, Christine?” he asks.

Anger seethes through you.

“I’ll kill you!”

You lunge towards him, but suddenly find yourself levitating in the air, making you cry out.

“....I wouldn’t try that if I were you, Christine.”

He keeps you in the air as he walks you away from the stairs while you cry out, begging for him to let you go. He brings you into a grand bedroom and sets you down on the bed before putting a forcefield around you.

“Since you’re so insistent about running away from your future,” he tells you. “I’m going to make sure that you know where you belong in the present, Christine.....with me. Now get some sleep. I need you awake tomorrow for more of your research.”

He shuts your door, and you soon hear the click of a lock and see the doors glowing orange. Your heart sinks as you realize the truth.

Your fate is sealed.....

#yandere doctor strange #yandere doctor strange x autistic reader #doctor stephen strange #doctor strange #yandere marvel #yandere avengers #marvel #avengers

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aowyn · 6 months

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tag game!

TAG SOMEONE YOU WANT TO KNOW AND/OR SOME OF YOUR BESTIES

tagged by the lovely @emilhe! thank you for tagging me! <3 <3 <3

Favorite color: pink!!! like a warm pastel pink

Last song: i have been playing the hades soundtrack on loop all day and right now mouth of styx is playing!

Last movie: i have no idea honestly. OH actually i watched the red white and royal blue movie again a few days ago bc it gives me modern au merthur feelings

Currently watching: nothing lol. too many projects to work on first!

Other stuff I watched this year: over the garden wall (naturally), star trek strange new worlds season 1, ofmd season 2, gomens season 2, one piece live action, probably some other things i cant remember

Shows I dropped this year: none i can think of? castlevania i started but it's on hold not dropped!

Currently reading: i have 30 unread books on my nightstand and they haunt me every day. i am in the middle of dracula bc of dracula daily, lotr bc of lotr newsletter. i am in the middle of green mars (mars trilogy) and fingersmith by sarah waters but i haven't picked them up in a while because i decided to read the entire mistborn trilogy instead, which i finished

Currently listening to: hades soundtrack as per question 2 but earlier today i was listening to danger days by mcr!

Currently working on: kelsier mistborn cosplay! is the biggest project. but im also working on recording cassettes to play in my car bc my car is from 1998 and doesn't even have a cd player. im sure im working on other projects too but the craft table is a disaster right now so i can't remember

Current obsession/s: there are a great many things im highly interested in right now but none of them quite feel like hyperfixations unfortunately. you will know when i have a new hyperfixation because i will reblog so many things about whatever it is. some things that im interested in right now are cosmere, homestuck, good omens, ofmd!

i tag @minamiren @morluin @totallythejiffybot @bishops--knifetrick @andreth-with-a-sword @child-of-the-fairy-folk @aredhels @garden-holic @gayjaytodd @feanor @cerealbastard @leaves-of-teas @rose-ncrantz @maebird-melody @celebrimbooooor feel free to do or not do this tag game <3

#thanks for the tag i love doing tag games!!!#said el #things im in

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lcevinolusola · 11 days

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hello, I hope you're well. I live for hetalia and was rec'd to ask about your pirate au! I would love to hear about it if you'd like to tell :)

my first day on tumblr in what feels like a week and i come back to a question that makes me want to ramble like a madman for DAYS. you are so sweet for sending this to me (and im sorry if this ends up being an essay you were not asking for). fun fact: i have had to rewrite my answer to this ask no less than 3 times bc every time i started talking, id go on a tangent about pirates that was in no way relevant to your ask. apologies for taking so long, but yes! here we go! im putting it under a read more bc i cannot for the life of me shut the fuck up.

i do have a pirate au!! maybe one day it will eventually end up seeing the light of day, but as of right now it is sitting in my google docs next to a 95-page doc of all the sources and fun facts and tidbits that i find interesting about pirates. pirates are kinda my thing, idk if thats obvious or not. insert marge simpson i just think theyre neat meme here.

essentially, its pirate!antonio and venetian-not-quite-nobleman!lovino. im still playing around with that venetian part, but idk ill probably keep it, since it makes sense with lovino's family and all that. the entire premise of the story (and what sparked the idea in the first place, apart from me just thinking antonio would look sexy in a pirate captain fit) is that one scene in the strips where romano is reading a history book about how spain spent a ton of money on him when he himself was in rags. we all know spain canonically showered romano in wealth and money, even when he himself was wearing tatters. that idea sat with me for YEARS before i decided to do my own spin on it, culminating in the characters of pirate captain antonio with a grudge against the world and too much to prove seeing bastard lovino who lives in a family of nobles and cannot have any of it, even if he is loved and adored by his family, and who just doesn't????? understand him????? doesnt get why he chose to stay with that family for so long????? without leaving that world behind and being free and cutting himself loose????? he doesnt get the familial attachments and the sense of responsibility lovino has to his family, even if he cannot and will not inherit the title that comes with the vargas name.

antonio ends up raiding their merchant ship they were sailing on and kidnapping him for money or something idk im still playing around with that part, and lovino is just this absolute mystery to him, but ofc this is antonio who is bullheaded in his stubbornness, which i find to be enchanting and cute, and thus we slowly get into the love story of two people who were fucked over tremendously by their societies and their worlds and who just wanted and tbh deserved more, something different, a freedom they would never be able to have in their average life.

smash-cut to however long later and the entire basis of the story is lovino 'i am surrounded by status and wealth and prestige and will have none of it to my name' vargas being adored and cherished by antonio 'love me and i will give you the world, love me and i will give you everything' fernández carriedo. bc!! i!!! think!!! thats!!! neat!!!!

anyway yeah thats kinda where the idea for it came from. i have a few spamano stories written, but i am shamefully lacking any historical hetalia, which is terrible considering history is my entire degree, but im getting there. i hope this in some way answered your ask!!! youre welcome to also hit up my asks or dms if you ever wanna just chat hetalia or anything else, since i too live for this wretched fandom, and have since i was like. idk 12. thank you so much for sending this! i love having an excuse to word vomit about my hyperfixations, and this story has been bouncing in my brain for a frankly disgusting amount of time, and i have only recently decided to put it to paper and make something out of it!

#you are so sweet for this thank you so much #also id love to know who rec'd my au bc i need to kiss them like what a compliment #sorry again for how long this took to answer! ive been away so my tumblr time has been sorely limited #i do hope this answer was worth the wait ghjkjh #appleblondie0397 #asks

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just-a-tiny-goldfish · 2 years

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Reading stories with a oblivious reader will never not be fun for me. LOOK there is just something so nice and strangely heavy? To readers in fanfics after they have connected the dots and found out they are borderline dating a pro- every time they have spoken or been alone together has to be re-analyzed. Why? CAUSE OMG THERE WAS A PROHERO IN YOUR HOME???? WTF

Like I think izuku would be the easiest to mistake for an average joe-everyone in the Mha world is different and unique- and after he goes pro obvi ppl like copying their number 1 hero. It would be so easy to just meet izuku out in a clothing store I think, maybe you both happen to find that ✨one✨ limited edition hero clothing item and you just start gushing abt the hero it’s based off of, and he’s info dumping (and you are creeping closer to the item and just, Yoink- bye bitch) and like fight me on this-he WOULD most def try to buy it off you-at this point your looking at the money and your like 😧 bestie just take it. And maybe after you guys wanna continue your convo-cause you both are hero nerds-so you keep meeting up and when you find out-hold the freak up that’s DeKu?! Your excuse is “yes I hyperfixate on hero’s sometimes but deku just didn’t catch my attention he’s kinda lame 🤷🏽‍♀️” like yes he did bestie you almost made out with him last Tuesday 💀

Bakugou would have a slightly more difficult time- entirely his fault tho cause ain’t no way youre gunna ✨not✨ know that’s bakugou if he’s yelling in a store with every swear under the sun okay? Speaking of stores- I think you could meet him at one🖐🏽 it’s cute and domestic shut up. I think maybe you guys live near each other and he’s always pretty good of keeping on the low; after seeing you shop for a sec it’s obvi you don’t know what you’re doing- he’s damn is this pity? He’s noticed you like to cook? Maybe, but all your ingredients are shit. He will most def say something like “ that brand sucks get this” and just dumps like a whole basket of things in your cart🙂- and your like damn stranger you cute and so sure of yourself so I guess I will try this- and surprise surprise this dish is def not garbage anymore. This goes on for a sec eventually u invite him over to try a dish and obvi he’s not gunna be all covered up and low key AKA you have the oh shit moment- that’s pro hero Dynamite.

Shouto would be the most difficult-besides his distinct appearance something about him is just slightly off? Like this guy deff has the vibes of 10$ for one banana is normal-it’s just the rich boy vibes are too potent😭 I don’t think there’s anyway ANYONE could come across shouto and not know it’s him. So this is how it’s gunna go you’re taking your daily little commute past a park on your way to work right? Well today you have noticed that the man who always sits at the same bench always reading has left his book-you, the Good Samaritan decide to return it the next day. You do and what do you realize omg it’s pro hero shouto-but he looks like a deer in the head lights as you approach- he clearly looks like he’s trying to blend in (even though bi-colored hair is poking out of his hat and the sunglasses barley cover his poor job at concealer on that scar) so you pretend for his sake-instead you just hand him his book back as casually as possible and maybe your a fan of it so you kinda go on a little info dump and as this happens he relaxes -mission accomplished- except he forgets his book the next day and the day after and the day after that and after that and after that eventually you guys have grown super close and you two find yourselves alone one day and he comes clean “I can’t build this relationship on lies” so dramatic and he ‘reveals’ himself and you’re like “omg omg it’s prohero shouto I can’t believe it” 🤓 would you ever tell him you knew all along or would you spare his feelings?

#is there even a way to be oblivious abt shouto #shouto x reader #bakugou x reader #izuku x reader #deku x reader

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scoups4lyfe · 1 year

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Bipolar Essay PART 5

Ian's short movie (part one) open with a voice over and then the first song that plays, aka the introductory song, is SERAPH.

For me, "It's his last conversation with his God as he sets his wings on fire. In those moments when my world starts splitting, it's a question from me as to why it always has to be like this."

This line really **HIT**.

I have literally (in my online journal entries) written, "[God] Why have you forsaken me?" During one of my more debilitating episodes.

Because, ey yo? WHY does it always have to be like this?

Literally feels like we're a shattered teacup tossed to the floor, and now we can't be put back together ever again and we just have to constantly live with that knowledge that our own glass shards are what's killing us.

And yet...."So hold me this one last time" is the last words Ian chooses to end the conversation he has with his God on, and that KILLS me even MORE.

Because, same.

(Lmao. If y'all aren't religious in any sense of the word, you might just be reading this like 'PSHsht' but bare with me.)

God to me is all that is beautiful in the world. He is

hope.

And so what do you think it feels like to be abandoned by hope itself?

Icarus is a very apt metaphor for someone with BD.

Not a lot of people discuss the Hypersexuality aspect of Bipolar disorder.

To the point that even I -- someone WITH bipolar disorder -- had misconceptions about it.

One thing that I never knew was that the excessive sexual behavior, thoughts (and what not) were compulsive and unwanted. "Seemingly uncontrollable."

I learned this about hypersexuality in a podcast, actually -- where the host (who has BD), and a psychiatrist, discuss bipolar things -- hypersexuality being one of the things they discussed.

The host even stated that he once called / texted his family that he was sick instead of going to a get together because he was so horny that he spent that entire day m@$terbAiTing. Like 20 times in the span of a few hours.

(Which isn't healthy, and def. something the psychiatrist said she would hear and go, "yeah. That's not normal.")

The host stated that sometimes he wasn't even turned on at all. But he still felt the compulsion to follow through on the act. (Y'kno, because its a compulsion.)

I don't think these aspects of hypersexuality get discussed enough. I was fr sitting there listening to that podcast like:

Not that anyone needed or wanted to know this, but I am basically aroace (more ace, less aro, LOL) through and through.

Unfortunately for me, I would suddenly have bouts of hypersexuality during hypomanic and manic episodes which caused me a lot of confusion and self-loathing.

Going from absolutely no sexual thoughts, interests, or desires, to suddenly a plethora of all of those things combined with a compulsion to complete such an act ---made me think of myself as someone disgusting and morally wrong on every account.

It was painful too because it's not like I **wanted** to do any compulsive behavior, or to think, or act on any of that nonsense, because I wasn't INTERESTED in those things. I never was! !!!!

Literally the only way to distract myself from that nonsense was hyperfixating on a tv show, book, music, youtube --anything to distract me.

Now -- you see why, "Hypersexuality" is so much more than, "wants to have a lot of sex" or "being overly promiscuous" 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫 🦆

I feel like the statement "Entering an episode isn't easy" is rather redundant, LOL.

But well and truly.

It isn't easy.

What gets me the most is the uncertainty.

I don't know when a new mood cycle is going to hit. For me -- I'm a rapid cycler. Mood switching happens more frequently than I'd like.

My mood journaling makes this fear and uncertainty obvious. I never know if I'll go to sleep and wake up normal, or more "able", or if I'll wake up zapped from all of my humanity.

When I'm hypomanic I can feel on top of the world -- like I've finally fixed my life and from now on I'll do everything right. I'll work out and eat right, and sleep when I'm supposed to, and read regularly, and engage socially --- blah blah blah blah bLAH.

(You get the point.)

Because that energy never stays. I'll "dip" and soon all I'll be able to think about is the agonizing question of how anyone can stay awake longer than 2 hours without needing a nap.

Literally me after 2 hours of being awake:

When I'm in a depressive episode, I go from being someone like "SENKUU" from Dr.Stone, to straight up being Sleepy Ash/Kuro from Servamp. (My friends have also compared me to Shikamaru.) ....Not that this is anything important 🤪.

For this one, let me expand on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

OCD can be defined as:

"a disorder in which people have recurring, unwanted thoughts, ideas or sensations (obsessions). To get rid of the thoughts, they feel driven to do something repetitively (compulsions). The repetitive behaviors, such as hand washing/cleaning, checking on things, and mental acts like (counting) or other activities, can significantly interfere with a person’s daily activities and social interactions."

Source: https://www.psychiatry.org/patients-families/obsessive-compulsive-disorder/what-is-obsessive-compulsive-disorder

I bring this up because intrusive thoughts come hand-in-hand with OCD. For Bipolar you can have auditory hallucinations -- like hearing voices, and / or you can have intrusive thought trains that are debilitating.

For me I have mental compulsions.

Often my intrusive thoughts will either be (1) Unwanted sexual thoughts that are disturbing or (2) Blasphemy aka a spiral of intrusive thoughts cursing out God as if its in my own voice

--> These force me to spend hours of my time constantly saying "Shut up" and "Stop" in my head. Doing my best to disrupt or distract myself away from the thoughts. As you can imagine -- that kind of makes it hard to focus on things in everyday life.

I stated this before but sometimes I have to imagine myself fighting my own intrusive thoughts. Though like 0.2 seconds later they start back up and the cycle continues.

This one shouldn't be all that surprising.

Depression can / is one of the constant fears of someone with BP. As it always looms ominously on the horizon like some sh*tty tax collector.

Like tbh -- I'm on antidepressants and mood stabilizers and blah blah blah--- I don't care if the antidepressants are making me hypomanic. I prefer that insanity compared to the depression.

Do you know how much it fvcking SUCKS to have absolutely ZERO energy? To constantly have to nap, but it never makes a difference because like 15 minutes later you'll be just as tired as you were before, if not more?

FR I'm legitimately afraid of who I'll become or what will happen if I get off my antidepressants. Like....when I say "I don't think I could live" (like that) I mean it. And that terrifies me.

Closing up on this part of the PPT, here's (of course) the link to the short movie that these slides reference:

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PPT Essay: [1], [2], [3], [4], [5], [6], [7] , [8], [9]

PPT Essay Extras: (1), (2), (3), (4), (5)

Visuals of a Depressive Episode: (1), (2)

Journal Entries: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

#was originally going to add a video in this post #but again with tumblr nerfing me LOL #I'll be posting it next as an essay extra #my thougts #manic depression #dpr ian #dpr we gang gang #bipolaire #actually bipolar #fvcking moodswings ⚡️✌️#a scoup of life 🔫🦆#neurodiversity #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #mental health #tw: mental illness #christian yu

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death-in-a-handbasket · 2 months

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I joined this account today because I’m sick with no content related to my fucking hyperfixation on my beloved Yukito, so hello! ( And maybe sorry for my bad english ). Thank you for being there for Gaiden fans. I would love to share my headcannons here...

For starters, I would like to say that AYATSUJI IS GOTHIC AND ANARCHIST, because honestly, isn’t growing up being exploited by the government since childhood that your pain will be misinterpreted as just an “arrogant personality.”

And I also love to see him as someone who values art. In addition to having dolls in his basement, there are also paintings that strangely seem to scream through his wounds, a reflection of what is familiarly brutal about this delicate-looking man.

The type of music he listens to ( he rarely listens to music due to sensory overload issues ) has no lyrics OR he oscillates between 3 songs from the album Lullabies to Paralyze by QOTSA ( ‘In My Head’, ‘The Blood Is Love’ and ‘You Got A Killer Scene There, Man...’ ).

His favorite type of literature is Dark Romanticism. I swear, it is no wonder that he collects semi-mythical dolls ( in a sense of to admire and preservation ), when this type of literature reflects the grotesqueness of these creatures and the austurity of human malice.

ANYWAY, I LOVE MY PRECIOUS HUBBY ꒰ ۶ৎ つ ς ꒱

AHHH hello dearie !! welcome to yukito nerd central aka we hyperfixated on a character that the fandom does not know or give a fuck about 😔‼️ but hey we’re getting an English translation of the light novel so I’m SUPER excited (also no worries about bad english you sound just fine honey :] !!)

I need more fanfics and fanart of this man. gaiden community (referring to the same four people) save me gaiden community save me 🙏

first of all I LOVE the idea that this man is anarchist, like I feel he understands why the government is there and why it needs to do what it does but that doesn’t stop him having an abject dislike for the very organization that basically keeps him on death row and only has him alive because he’s useful, idk man you’re right that’s gotta brew contempt fr, also I like thinking about how he’s gotta specifically hate the police force too because he could practically do the work of an entire unit of officers, I don’t doubt that the police who know about him probably slack off because they know he’ll take up the slack 💀 I mean he has to or he’ll die

ALSO ART LIKER YUKITO. TRUTH. there’s no way a man with such adoration for dolls doesn’t appreciate and pay the artists who make them extremely well, I bet sculptors in his area love him because he’s an excellent patron, also he no doubt vents through the dolls and artwork he makes, all that internal anger and suffering has GOT to go somewhere

as for music, I always imagined he’d like stuff made between the 1910s and 1960s, Otis Redding is always a man that comes to mind when I think of music for him, also you have to know he’s listening to that shit on records, bro does not have Spotify ‼️

ALSO YES DARK ROMANTICISM 🙏 if him and Poe start a book club it’s over for everyone, they are reading about horror and the grotesque every day of the week and discussing it in depth 100%, these are antisocial men of course they’re reading about the terribleness of humanity <3

thank you for visiting my inbox hun !! feel free to send asks anytime, he is truly the husband of all time 🫶

here is ms paint yukito I made during lecture as a treat :]

#discount confessional #bsd #bsd gaiden #Yukito ayatsuji #bsd ayatsuji #Fox’s figments

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The Vampire Diaries

I ship you with Damon Salvatore!

Hear me out, I know this may seem out of left field but actually I think you'd be a really great pair. Maybe it's because I'm a sucker for the whole opposites attract thing. Damon likes to act like he doesn't care about anything, when in fact he does care. But he's very particular about who he cares about. Damon would roll his eyes at how empathetic and caring you are but it would make him more drawn to you. He'd want to keep you safe and if anyone tried to take advantage of you, he'd make them regret it.

Who is your best friend? - Bonnie Bennett

Tropes

Opposites attract (particularly Brooding Boy, Gentle Girl)

Happily gets hurt protecting the other (Damon) x Fusses over them afterwards (you)

Headcanons

Damon sees you putting other people before yourself and that would cause him to insist on putting you before anyone else.

He'd tease you about how excited you get over your hyperfixations, but never in a mean way. His teasing is always followed by a nudge to encourage you to continue telling you about them.

What Would You Be? - Witch

The Originals

I ship you with Elijah Mikaelson

With Elijah, you are far more alike than different. You both care deeply about those you list among your loved ones. Elijah would admire that similar nature in you. And after centuries of being manipulated and lied to by others, including his own family, Elijah knows how to spot it and will intervene on your behalf.

Who is your best friend? - Camille O'Connell

Tropes

Everyone can see it

Completely devoted to you

Headcanons

Sometimes you'll have 'dates" where the two of you are cozied up, each reading your own book. Occasionally talking about your books with each other.

No matter what you're talking about, or how long you go on for, you will have Elijah's full attention the entire time. He'll make mental notes and ask questions every so often, all with a look of pure adoration on his face.

Marvel

I ship you with Steve Rogers!

Steve has a big heart made of gold, he's brave and resilient and he'd admire all of those traits in you. He'd love how empathetic and willing to help others you are. And whenever you're scorned, he'd stand up for you and comfort you. And your passion against injustice would endear you to him even more. He'd definitely be unable to conceal a grin at how adorable you are.

Who is your best friend? - Wanda Maximoff

Tropes

Mutual Pining (which resulted in Bucky and Wanda locking the two of you in a room together until you confessed)

Grins at the mere mention of them (Steve about you)

Headcanons

Steve would make sure to let you know how much he adores you every day. Multiple times a day. Whether it's with actual words, kisses, gifts of books or items for your collections. Steve would make sure that you could never doubt how much you mean to him. And yes, the other Avengers tease him about being a lovesick puppy for it.

Steve loves to participate in your hobbies. Or at least observe you while you're doing a hobby. When watching you, he'll draw you. He has a lot of drawings of you. And it becomes a thing, where you both have so many drawings of each other that Steve starts buying folders and then filing cabinets for them.

From your very first date, the other Avengers started placing bets on how long it would be before the two of you got engaged.

What your powers would be?

Empathy - including all of it's sub-powers like Empathic Healing & Empathic Communication

A special addition for each fandom

#ships #ship exchange #matchups #matchup exchange #matchup for perseephonee #the vampire diaries #the vampire diaries ship #the originals #the orignals matchup #marvel #marvel ship

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