#i hope i didnt share too much

[sk3l3t0n444]

woah sleeping on the couch :0 havent done that in like 3 years

#it feels like i time traveled into the future even though im doing something i used to do a lot in the past #like everything is kinda different #like i dont remember getting another dog and thats the sort of stuff you tend to remember #it seems like a lot changed after i took a nap #like the kind of nap you have when youre really sick and you wake up like 12 hours later feeling so refreshed #except i dont feel refreshed i just feel like i missed a big lesson at school #im going to try and sleep #also i have no idea what this app is and im just gonna post this cuz why not #good night potential people who see this #i hope i didnt share too much #um sorry good night

[justinegreenpie]

#ssoblr #star stable #This has been such a long time coming #I had the idea around the time we got the new character models and tried with those first #but the old unrealistic proportions with the high waisted bottoms and really cropped tops just fit so much better #So I decided to “just” do it in Blender #As you can see I managed to get the basics to work #but I didn't have access to SSO's rigs #so I wasn't able to pose them at all and they're stuck in these awkward t-poses #But I had too much fun and put in too much blood sweat and tears to not share them anyway #it was really fun getting to mix the old and new models #for example with the hair styles #so I was able to choose the best of both worlds #i kinda gave up on the old models and blender half way through and settled on just doing it in game with the new models #i also didnt wanna let the beautiful butterfly decorations of the temporary race go to waste #but that reignited my obsession and i finished the blender project too #or at least as finished as i managed to get it #hope you like it! #star stable online #sso #starstable #winx #winx club

[creaturefeaster]

wet & cold

#i was mesmerized by water on spider webs the other day #but. this didnt turn out as well as i had hoped #it started as a warm up before other art but it just kept going #so even though i dont like it much I'll still share it because i worked too long to have it not be seen tehee #also in the quieter safety of my side blog instead of my art blog as usual lmao

[nilesmoon]

Path to Freedom: an Amprule First Note analysis thingy

Due to popular demand (of my 3 friends), I've decided to type up another break down of an amprule illustration!!! yippee!!!!

Once again let's start simple!! the light composition!! There is a clear light/shadow duality happening in this illustration so here's a neat chart I made to show it:

Now you might notice the red/green tint I added, as well as how Chungsung is in the light meanwhile Dongha is in the dark. So let's break down the components of each side.

Dongha is surrounded by shadows. The shadows likely show how he feels trapped in the Yeon family. The paintings that surround him add even more pressure because he has the Yeon family name to live up to.

He is looked down by the paintings behind him (it's only Chungsung who's looking up at him) meanwhile Dongha doesn't look at anyone, he fears that he has failed the family (his father). He seems to be considering his choices between the two paths he could take.

What are his two paths exactly? Well, they're shown through the doors! The door next to him and the door below him.

The door next to him will possibly take him deeper into the mansion. The path is pitch-black and the darkness will make him feel even more lost. This path will probably keep him trapped in the mansion forever.

The door below him is lit up and will possibly lead him to the exit. The path is lit up and it all seems good, but there is yet another painting in the way. His fight for freedom won't be easy but we already know that he is determined to take that step forward.

The physical locations of the doors could also mean something. The one that leads inside the mansion is higher up, it means that if Dongha wants to keep his social status he's gonna have to give up his freedom. But if he wants to become free he'll have to "lower" himself and possibly lose his status. (It is worth pointing out how the positions of the characters show their imbalance as well.)

Now, everything I've mentioned to this point has been focusing on Dongha's struggles, so where's Chungsung in all of this?

I've talked about the role colors play in Amprule art in my previous post. Chungsung's red contrasts with the Yeon family green and gives Dongha a place to Be. There is no red in this illustration, Chungsung is as trapped in the family as Dongha is.

Just with the way he's positioned shows us that he is leaning toward the idea of freedom (is it his freedom, does he want Dongha to be free, or is it just his willingness to be a tool for Dongha's freedom). And if we take account of the light = freedom & shadow = restraint meanings, the light is practically shining upon him.

But at the end of the day, he is still only a butler and he is waiting for Dongha to make a decision. His loyalty to Dongha is not something to question, we all know that Chungsung will stand by his side no matter which path he chooses. However, if Dongha chooses to go deeper into the mansion he might end up being separated from Chungsung and their distance would become even bigger.

"To me Amprule means freedom." is something Dongha says to Hajun in the Showdown Aftermath drama track. Dongha forming Amprule is not only him choosing his freedom but choosing to get closer to Chungsung as well. Though I suppose neither of them are aware of how they've been closing the gap.

Considering how this is a bit of a "prequel to Amprule" type of image it gives us a decent look into just how suffocating their lives in the Yeon family were. They still haven't made it to equal footing, but we know that they're slowly getting there and setting themselves free.

#not mentioned here bc i didnt wanna derail Too Much is the fate drama track #bae straight up tells it to his face that the stronger their bond becomes. the stronger amprule will get #which causes the showdown drama track. and chungsung playing geoguesser to find which market baby hajun & dongha went to #if i become even more deranged one of these days ill literally type out a line by line analysis of them sharing the candied apples #anyways heres to hoping that this whole thing sounds coherent. i wrote down all the points i wanted to make #just. the role of chungsung is SOOOOO important to dongha. his constant support means so much to him. blowing them up #fucked up dadmom and sonboy combo the world #paradox live #amprule #yeon dongha #baek chungsung #nile talks #Btw if y'all want me expand on other stuff or just wanna talk about amprule in general. I am always here. I gave many things to say #*have not gave

[thelien-art]

Melkor writing his book in the fourth age Valinor; inspired by @foxindarkness fanfiction: "Build Up A New Us"

This started as a sketch last week when I was rereading it and then I just got gripped by it, then I added a background and I didn´t hate it, so I had to make Melkor himself more detailed and I liked it enough to want to show people, also everyone who hasn´t read it yet? What are you doing? Go check it out, it is my favorite fanfiction EVER!

#its about melkor and mairon in the fourth age and how they try to keep on going while their pasts keeps hunting them #and its over all just written amazingly #its sweet angbang with so much angst and some silvergifting too later #i hope its okay i posted it fox i just want to share your amazing writing with as many as possible again i hope thats okay #i didnt go with my own design as i didnt fell like it would fit and i read him as looking something like this #silmarillion #tolkien #jrr tolkien #melkor #morgoth #silm art #my art #digital art #fanart for fanfic #the mushrooms are hiding behind the trees in the garden in the shadows #and many others for that sake

[jiggery-duggery]

how I look suggesting to my group partners that we do our bio presentation on vultures

#reggietales #specifically how they evolved convergently and might throw in a note thrown in on conservation too bc theyre. in trouble!!!!!! #they said they didnt have any ideas and we needed a topic i was like 'well i do have one idea..........................' #they seemed receptive so we'll see. i feel kind of bad like im forcing them but!!!! augh!!!!!!! we needed a topic and i had that one in min #and they said they were cool with anything so. idk i stressed that we rly didnt have to do this topic i was just throwing out an idea i wan #them to be interested too. its not fun if their hearts arent in it. we can pick p much anything lets do something well all enjoy yk? augh #i hope its ok. i hope theyre not secretly mad at me. mayb i should have been quiet. idk #i hesitate to use the word neurodivergent to describe myself bc ive never been formally diagnosed with adhd or autism #and i also dont think im negatively impacted enough by any traits i share w those disorders to qualify to have them #but i am for sure fucking abnormal about birds and vultures like. hyperfixation is the only word that fits. maybe even special interest idk #like i almost dont WANT to do this topic it weirdly feels like. selfish??? idk im just. aaaahhhhh!!! lmao #*staring haggard and weary at myself in the mirror gripping the counter with a white-knuckled grip* i will be normal i will be normal i wil

[anawrites3]

Dick halted before passing the living room entrance, taken aback by the scene he witnessed. When he left - and it's worth noting, only for a minute or two - his father and his fiance sat as far away from each other as sofas and armchairs arrangement allowed it. They weren't exactly engaged in even moderately polite conversation but /at least/ they weren't arguing as well. It wasn't that bad. Now although...

To be completely honest, Dick wasn't sure what happened. They were still sitting in the same places, still not talking, and still not even looking at each other. The atmosphere shifted a little, that was one of the signs that he missed something possibly important. There were more signs, probably way more giving, such as frozen meat Bruce held to the left side of his face, or smeared blood under Slade's nose and his beard that looked like he tried to wipe it quickly.

Of course.

"The fuck?" he asked pointedly looking at Alfred, the picture of elegance and composure, standing straight in the corner of the room.

"Master Bruce and Mister Wilson had a...disagreement" butler explained throwing one of his disapproving looks their way.

Of fucking course.

"It was quickly resolved" to that, Dick noted, Alfred seemed to look a little too self-satisfied "and I proposed something cold to cool gentlemen down. And for the damage, obviously. Mister Wilson refused."

Bruce only murmured something unhappily but Slade was rather stubborn about getting on Alfred's bad side, like refusing his polite act of mercy wasn't enough. "I'll heal in an hour, no need for that sh-"

It's going to be a long evening.

Anon this is BRILLIANT!! Amazing writing too!! Ahhh its so good!!

Bruce and Slade are trying their best to not fight each other but only when Dick is in the same room 😂 They don't even mind Alfred there lmao I love it, I wonder what they were thinking when they started that fight - they had to know that Dick will be back soon 🤣 It's "We'll act like nothing happened, maybe he won't notice" kinda thing 😂💕💕 amazing

I love the idea so much, let me add a bit to that 👀

"I swear to God, you are worse than children." Dick let a sigh escape his lips as he sat down on the sofa, right in the middle of the room. That way he was sitting evenly in between both Bruce and Slade, and they both looked conflicted whether to move closer to him or stay where they are, as far away from the other man as possible.

"He started it." Bruce complained under his breath and Dick sent him a pointed look.

"I really don't care who started, Bruce. And it's not like it matters anyway, you both are way too old to act like this."

Slade crossed his arms over his chest with a mumbled complain and leaned back against the armchair he was sitting on. Dick glanced at the blood still smeared over his face and stood up again with another sigh.

"I can't believe you two, I literally left for three minutes!"

"A lot can happen in that time."

"Yeah, I can see that." Dick remarked, bitter. "Fighting, making a mess of yourselves-"

He reached for a tissue to gently clean up Slade's face. The blood stopped running already thanks to the man's healing factor but his nose still was fractured if not broken from the punch. It would take a while to heal and while Slade got way more serious injuries on daily basis, it still must've hurt like hell.

Dick looked down at the button-down shirt Slade was wearing, at a few drops of blood that got on it and let a small pout enter his face.

"My favorite shirt too..." he lamented quietly.

Bruce looked away. Slade shifted a bit in his place, uncomfortable. Good, they should feel bad about it!

"I can wash it out, it's just some blood." Slade assured him with a half-shrug. His rough fingers found Dick's wrist and squeezed gently. "Or I can buy another one like this."

"I don't want you to buy another stupid shirt, I want you both to stop fighting!"

"Dick-"

"Little bird-"

"No! Shut up, I don't want to hear it!" Dick snapped, taking a step back to glare at both of them. "You're both important to me and I'm so fed up with all your stupid fighting! You are going to start acting like adults and learn how to live around each other without trying to kill each other!"

Bruce ran his hand down his face, suddenly looking tired.

"You know it's not that easy, chum."

"It is! You're my dad and Slade is my fiance, I'm not going to give up on either of you because you don't like each other!"

"It's Deathstroke, Dick! This has nothing to do with disliking, this man killed thousands-"

"I love it when you're calling me your fiance." Slade hummed with an easy smirk as if Bruce didn't speak at all. He sent Bruce a look over Dick's shoulder and enjoyed the way Wayne tensed. "Can't wait until we change it to 'husband' though."

Bruce clenched his jaw with so much force that Dick worried about his teeth. He hated being reminded that Deathstroke would soon become a part of his family and Slade knew it far too well.

"You're not helping, Slade!" Dick hissed.

Slade looked back to him and pressed his lips to Dick's wrist before pulling him onto his laps. Bruce leapt up from his place.

"Not really trying to."

Dick screamed.

#anon #sladick #dickstroke #thank you again anon!! #its great #hope you don't mind me adding to it 👉👈 #i never know if its okay but i couldnt stop myself its so good!! #i love it so much #my reply #my writing #dad bruce #slade feels kinda bad but he's too much of an asshole to admit it #and he likes annoying bruce okay #serves him right after messing up his contracts all the time #he'll make it up to dick later #im sure bruce and slade will make up one day #alfred quietly watching the drama to share it later with jason #oh and sorry it took me so long to reply anon!! I'll be better #im just sick rn and had a few things to take care of so didnt have much time earlier #but i got really happy when i got your ask!! #love you #you really made my day!

[silhouettecrow]

365 Days of Poems: Day 5 (January 5th)

Pale Heart

a heart

calcified

hardened with bone

turned white as ivory

grown over with ossification

a heart

enclosed

surrounded in a glass prism

outlined with gold filigree

circled by wax and flame

a heart

spellbound

whispered into blindness

chilled by crystalline frost

held in a dreaming state

a heart

a̷ ̶h̵e̷a̵r̵t̷

а нҿаят

ʇ̴ɹ̴ɐ̴ǝ̴ɥ̴ ɐ̴

a̴ h̪ͥe̢̳̝a_̂rt̢ͨ͘

it's ₳ ⱧɆ₳Ɽ₮

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Here's the link to the corresponding writing prompt post

#dont mind me playing catch up with these #ive fallen behind with posting them (and luckily i havent fallen too far behind with writing them) #so im hoping to catch up with writing and posting these poems in the next few days #anyway i wrote this poem with the magic: the gathering card dusk rose reliquary and mag09 a fathers love in mind #despite those inspirations i think i wrote something separate and its own #i just hope the horror of this poem is clear and felt #as for what i did on the 5th there isnt much to share other than i fell down a rabbit hole of job searches (sadly i didnt find much) #other than that i think i recall not feeling too well and my girlfriend and i working on art via parallel play #the magnus archives #tma #the dark #the dark tma #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #poem #poetry #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least

[vanyafresita]

decided yesterday i wanted to make a zine... and now i have TWO of them planned with sketches of the pages and everything lmfaooo

nobody can stop me now 😛

#this is getting out of hand #first one did it unconsciously and didnt realise i was planning to share it publicly #and then i was like #well shit i cant share all im writing on here #yk how the horrors of being known are.... #so i started making a second one #and im having so much fun #just sketching and planning to do collage in some pages and stickers and acrylics and and and #and a friend of mine wants to do one too #i hope we can exchance zines im so happy i love his art and his writing and his mind he is so creative and has such cool ideas #and i will be sharing digitally here one of them too ofc !!! #vanya strawberry flavored

[kojakaj]

being an older sibling is like fine and fun. until its like. “oh my intense desire to protect and defend you is because i traumatized you throughout our entire childhood on accident. and somehow you still managed to live a better life than me in every aspect. and the only way i will ever be able to make up for how much i scared you is to constantly be in your service from far enough away that you never know.”

#i didnt traumatize her on purpose i was just mentally ill as a kid #idk #theres only so many times u can scream that u want to kill yourself before ur little sister hears #and when u share a room shes gonna find the blades u hid sometimes #i hope she never knows the things ive done for her #do u think she knows that i would step into the arguments with my father and yell the loudest so that he wouldnt yell st her #do u think she noticed that i would always fight back for her so that it would come my way instead of hers #idk. its mostly over now #my dad doesn’t scream as much #which is good but i sometimes wish he would #idk why #i mean it was never that bad anyway #but like. you’re allowed to externalize all of that rage when somekne else starts it #thats why he likes to piss us off #cuz the rage is gonna be there no matter what. its nice to let it out and have matched too #i dont want to be like my father but theres something comforting in the fact that at least he has the same thing in him #less comforting that i know it will never go away #idk its more fun to hurt someone else and be hurt by them then to just hurt urself #ANYWAY #lol. i got off topic but whatever. #this should go on the mentally ill side blog but whatever #milo ignore this post <3 unless ur texting me abt it #but like those r ur options u gotta acknowledge it to my face or completely ignkre it

[girl-bateman]

Crazy how many kids grow up afraid that someone else will find out abt their parents substance abuse issues when it is something that literally affects 1 in 8 families.

Crazy how many kids grow up feeling lonely and misunderstood while there are likely several other kids in their class going through the same thing.

Crazy how many kids grow up isolating themselves and lying to others for the protection and comfort of parents whose job it should be to protect them.

#obviously this is somewhat generalising bc everyone handles substance abuse differently #but for every single person ive spoken to whos been through the same thing i have growing up #the statements above have been painfully accurate #anyway it makes me so profoundly sad thinking abt how much energy i wasted constructing a world of lies to protect my dad #which like ? protecting him from what? the judgement of my friends? i think he can live with that #i was so embarrassed abt it when i was a kid- i thought the whole world would fall apart if ppl found out #but like why? that shit has nothing to do with me. he embarasses himself. im not to blame for his actions #i remember doing a school project in 8th grade and my friend made a joke like 'dont worry my parents arent alcoholics' #and this boy was like 'no. dont worry. my dad is an alcoholic so i dont judge you' #and im still not sure if he was joking too ? but it didnt feel like a joke #but i still wish i could have reached out and said something. or just acknowledge each other in some sort of shared pain #idk. i still think abt him #hope hes doing good. he was a sweet kid :) my mom rly liked his mom lol

[castingcomets]

Every summer I feel like i've grown a lot and I'll do better this time around but then the Autumn hits and the specific way it makes me feel has changed and grown and compounded too and now like every year im sitting here with so much homework feeling so lost and uncertain. And I want to make cookies

#GIRL .. GET A CLUE. Every year #Last year i remeber feeling at first that the autumn madness was the same as the winter madness and that #it shared elemnts with the spring madness #and i stopped thinking of it like that bc Thats Stupid. #I understand seasonal nostalgia sure but you dont need to put it quite like that . Im sure theres too much overlap for discretion of terms #But right now im like. OK this is autumn madness ceritifed like 100% pure #Lastb year i had a lot of energy so the signature enervation was curtailed so i confused it with some other things #But this is certifed . And i feel like an idiot #''oh i can do fall classes of course i did that my whole school career didnt i? my whole life'' DROP OUT OF HUMANITIES NOW . #Im not sure if there even is a winter madness but i know that there is the January Reckoning to be weary of (seasonal deporession) #I feel like winter classes would be easier at this point come on . #I was hoping that this year would be easier bc ive grown and learned stuff and like #I DID NOT WANT TO RELIVE THE MISERY OF LAST YEAR DOING ONLINE HOMEWORK IN THE BASEMENT #THINKING ABT dbgt characters like my life depended on it even though i hadnt the time . #And it's already better im sure bc im doing in-person school now which helps but STILL. I just want to sleep for forever #I did this last year too i made a post like this and ranted to myself in the tags EXPECT ONE NEXT YEAR TOO

[modern-alebrije]

that last post reminded me that last week i wad thinking a lot about my grandma, and how her last words to me had been through the phone over thousands of miles apart. she'd been intubated, and i couldn't understand anything she said. i was 10 going on 11, and we'd been in the US for a few years by then, so when we spoke for that last time, it'd been a few years since we'd been in the same room together.

and so i kept thinking about how i never got the chance to get know her as an adult person, just as my grandma. everything new i've learned about her since has been through the people in my life who knew her. when i got my promotion at work, when i went to kansas for a work conference, i wish i could've told her about it.

i remember lying to her, that last time we spoke on the phone, saying "yes grandma" as if i knew what she was saying. i can't remember what her voice sounded like anymore. the last thing i ever said to her was how much i loved her.

#death mention #damn... grief really isn't something you ever get over #you just learn to live with it #and it sneaks up on you every now and then #anyways i hope this post isnt too much of a bummer #but i really wanted to share it because i know that i feel better when i read about how other people live on after the death of a loved one #she passed from thyroid cancer so her death wasn't unexpected #that phone call was made specifically to speak for the last time #and i kind of hate that i didnt get to understand her final words

[todayisafridaynight]

YEAH totally understandable, I have a zillion WIPs lying around for the same reason... I of course eagerly await whatever you decide on though! Also I have actually read it like four or five times lol it is a huge comfort and I was feeling down + still trying to write something at length about both fics so have to revisit them at least on occasion

AT LEAST FOUR TIMES i aint got any words other than thanky ou fro enjoyin the fic so much !! ♪(´▽｀)♪(´▽｀)

#snap chats #understatement of the century we all KNOW how i get when it comes to how i feel bout writing and just. things that involve words in general #so TRULY thank you so much im glad i was able to write somethin THAT enjoyable. im glad it can be a source of comfort too (❁´◡`❁) #ngl ive had it in the back of my mind that you were going to write somethin bout the fics i wrote #but i thought you already did so- or at least said what you needed to already i didnt know you were still writin bout themv jaLKJg #i'm excited to see what you have to say at length then- scared just a bit but LMAO excited all the same (❁´◡`❁) #in that though i hope i can get something out for tomorrow ! i miss sharing things but ive Truly just been in the deep rut this month #case in point i was supposed to answer this two hours ago but ended up pacing for all those hours instead （；´д｀） #in any case ! time to do some brainstormin on my end o(*￣▽￣*)ブ

[astrxealis]

lowkey just got a therapy session from my philosophy teacher ohmy

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #<- I ANSWERED A QUESTION and it's like 'how easy is it to share the real you' and then. okay. okay #miss is right fr hfhfhdhshshwhsjsh #okay to say my answer here a bit! i answered that uhh its hard bcs its kinda like theres a Lot of layers #and i sort of put out a different persona for everyone i meet. and its hard to tell what really is. Me #i feel a bit embarrassed sharing but also ty miss /gen LMAO </3 <3 #tbh i am really such a big fan of philosophy #but it's weird for me too bcs my. inherently nihilistic mindset is in such a clash w my also inherently hopeful and positive mindset too #very weird!! philosophy makes me want to tear out my brain but it's also. really nice bcs i like my brain (???) #humans are so interesting. the world. everything #i love psychology and philosophy so much hehe #Zhdhrheheh IDK IF I EVEN ANSWERED CORRECTLY TBH GOOD GODS I HOPE I DIDNT JUST REALLY EMBARRASS NYSELF #<- OVERTHINKING. dw imm okay #but my glasses are so uncomfy rn uhghghhhhhhhhhh. also i want a haircut soon fr

[louismygf]

lucky again lyrics

#i love this song. i love it so so much....:( #louis said i can interpret it in anyway i want to so im interpreting it as kind of a love letter to himself #hes saying he was just a regular guy once but he was just lucky once bc of xfuk and his time in 1d #theres this maturity in there where he accepts the criticism people throw at him bc 'he must have incredible luck to get picked'... #bc ''his voice isnt that impressive or that hes not enough'' #he accepts those....‚ but then he says he could be lucky again in his next endeavors. in his solo career #in fitf interviews i've noticed how he keeps saying he's ''lucky enough'' to be making the music he wants to make #to share his music without... really worrying about money or the means to make his own festival or etc #fame (and especially at the level 1d had) can really make you lose your way #louis once ''chased radio'' by following the trends‚ by having those collabs w steve & bebe #not speaking for him but im guessing those songs (or the sound at least of those songs at least) didnt make him fulfilled‚‚ #but now. he figured it out‚ and he made his way back to a life he would choose. #i'm a hard man to find (meaning he lost himself along the way) but HE figured it out and he loves himself for that 😭 <- my interpretation #idk i think it's a self-love song and he's recognizing his own strength by pulling himself out of that darkness/madness #and finding clarity in how he wants to live his life or how to manage his career from now on #he dresses songs up as love songs directed to his partner so well #in this song its probably supposed to be about him & a lover getting back together but for me it feels autobiographical #the superman lyrics are really good too 😔😔😔 #rrghhrgr i just think these lyrics are so good . many layers to them. it's one of the most hopeful in the album :‚) #very curious as to what louis thinks of this song and what sentiments he can share about it #oh god i havent even talked about the first verse🥺 #you give and give until it's gone away. in his relationships‚ in his career‚ in 1d most especially. #i see how hard youve worked to be yourself GOD. this ties in w the negative side comments he keeps getting. way back then (xfuk) & even now #hes. just reassuring himself. it's a feel good song for himself (tbh hearing the song is so uplifting & motivating i love itttt) #YEAH ok enough. again‚‚‚ i. want to hear louis speak ab this song i hope he does somehow....‚ #he accepts he was lucky for being put in a band like 1d but he also accepts and affirms the hard work he's done in his life #and that... he could be lucky again....:) #louis it's just bad luck for now 😭❤️‍🩹 you'll be lucky again !! rest up & gws‚ dont be too hard on urself ily🫶🏽 #also just to be clear those critics r wrong ok sure luck was involved but what really made louis get picked is his perseverance