#i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months

Text

...

#what do you call it when a mind is lacking in depth of m thought? is there a word for that?#because all my mind can do is spin in tiny circles. never push any further. no depth of thought #i cant even carry out this line of thought to completion in my head. i have to write it down like this or else it remains stuck in an eddy #its so frustrating. when my thoughts are pressured i spin so fast it feels like my head might pop but the thoughts never go anywhere #bc they just repeat the same god damn things all thr fucking time. they drag me around in circles. then when im feeling low or even like #normal. my head just feels empty and it freaks me out. i have no intersting thoughts to think. theres nothing behind my eyes #possibly its just my brain on 0cd. but how am i suppose to escape the spiral if its in my own head? i guess im just supposed to changr my #reaction to it. recognize what it is and let it go. but i dont like it #i just want to curl up on a warm tile floor. press myself into a quiet corner and not think anything #in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place #i went there for my birthday when i was like 12 bc i liked it so much. the botanically gardens and the butterflies and the stained glass #i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired #god. there was a really cool talk today and im always like im not that inattentive lol but then i cannot for the life of me follow a talk or #read a paper all thr way through. my short term working memory is just a tiny little cup. easy to overfill #so i miss mostly everything. its so frustrating #its all frustrating. whatever. back to the psychiatrist tomorrow. probably up thr lamicta1 dosage #bc im past where i was last time i had a reaction to it 💪#i just wish i wanted to draw. drawing just makes me tired and impatient rn #unrelated

7 notes · View notes

3ggyb0y · 11 months

Text

bitches be so dramatic like calm down this is not a nation wide issue this was just playful banter between two folks how the FUCK did you take it this far???

#ugh… i hate when people have drama- i don’t understand…#maybe im a moron- but like- i dunno #i jusr #dont get it #augh #like so much shit is happening #Over a playful joke? I’m not even part of this drama and im trying so hard ot understand #couldnt you just #Fight #in private #uh #uhm #yeag #😼🤙#Deleting this later bc i donr wanna get yelled at #Im justq #foaming at the mouth like- no??? That’s!! Not!! How!! Laws!! Work!! What!? This!! Is!! Stupid!!#So tired of drama on my dash i just wanna see my silly little guys being silly…#Augh…

11 notes · View notes

floral-hex · 7 months

Text

gosh, I miss flirting and being mushy with someone

#it is still early evening. it is TOO early to be yearning.#this isn’t like an advertisement for flirting or anything don’t worry #I will NEVER flirt with you!#I am just the legally required sad uncle guy on here #and not the weird kind. the kind that’ll let you have a sip of their beer or drive you to the mall #or whatever I dunno I’m getting too deep into this #ugh calling myself an uncle makes me feel old…#…and then I remember I actually am an uncle and my sister has kids #don’t call me uncle. you can call me dad. but like step-dad. the kind that just wants you to think they’re cool #also I wanna kiss your mom #no but really how is your mom doing? how’s her butt? what’s her butt doin?#im a little tired so please I’m gonna ramble a bit #what was I talking about?#oh yeah… YEARNING!#I want to be mushy!#just wanna send someone a picture of two kitties with funny little hats and say ‘me n you’#me n who?!?#could be you? 😘#NO! that’s what this whole post is about! it could NOT be you! keep it professional #I don’t want to make my mutuals annoyed with me by making them think I’m flirting with them #why am I talking about all of this? this is dumb #sorry I’m just sitting in this car in a parking lot waiting for my bro to get out of school #which… shit… is pretty soon. guess I need to stop zoning out #uhhhh sooo…. kiss kiss kiss #and I love you forever #goodbye I guess #you can ignore this #text

2 notes · View notes

diwyllian · 1 year

Text

im mentally beating up the ea app with a stick as we speak im so done with it

#the AMOUNT of times ive had to restart my laptop just so that the app will start sims 3 is too many #like it shouldnt struggle like that #if i need the app to launch a game it should be able to do its one v simple job okay #so tempted to get sims 3 on steam instead but ugh i have like 95% of the packs and ummm dont wanna spend that much money okay #i know i can do the non legal way but i dunno how well itd work with the store?? bc i have world and stuff #im just tired and this is my comfort game let me have it #worlds*

3 notes · View notes

princemick-archive · 2 years

Text

not me slowly relapsing again, fucking suck my dick brain don't do this

#kyle.txt #tw mental health #or smth idfk what ti tag this #anyway irl lit what is social engagement? idk how to talk to people and be nice and normal and mask normally fucking piss off #and me eating a full meal i dont fucking think ive done that in like 3 weeks so thats fuckinf shit #and now im noticing it here to where i feel to tired to like talk to my friends and be active on here and like that in combo #w this feeling of like 'eh they can do it w out me' fucking SUCKS bro i dont wanna ugh #also mostly with gcs like the pmgc thingy is like fine i mean i am still kinda tired but like i dont feel a pressure to be someone there #while in both gcs i do and theres this feeling of they dont care anyway so who cares ya know #anyway thats my brain relapsing into stupid shit from YEARS ago which i dunno why but ok #it fucking sucks #im fine bte just wanted to rant for a sec #tell me what to tag this if i tagged it wrong but its a #delete later #anyway so #tw ed #eating disorder tw #just to be safe bc i mention it in the tags

4 notes · View notes

yuribalisms · 7 months

Text

Man I can handle pain. My pain tolerance is scary high and I can get through life completely normally while in excruciating pain and ppl will RARELY notice anything is wrong. But fuck it makes me so mad when my period cramps get bad enough they wake me up from sleeping. Cuz like, I just get up and start my day as I normally would despite the pain, I’m just sleepy. Like I can get dressed, cook, go to work if applicable with little difference….. but my body won’t let me sleep through them? I fucking hate it here

#I was off today too so I actually had the opportunity to sleep in today I’m so upset 😭#i guess it is a good thing tho cuz that means I can nap later when I’m tired #and if I had to work today I’d have to go on just a few hours of sleep and be exhausted #it’s just like. ugh. UGH why do I have to deal with the excruciating feeling of my abdomen collapsing in on itself like this #just get rid of that shit for the love of GOD #I dunno…. I’m also just Suspicious because like #I normally bleed SO MUCH during my period #like bleeding through the biggest most absorbent ultra strength pads in a couple hours #and I am…. barely bleeding at all this time around……#like…… what is wrong with you….. why are you suddenly doing that…… it’s stressing me out #oh well. at least this means I will NOT be on my period for next weekend tho #cuz I was gonna be v mad if that happened #im v excited and ready to have a good fun weekend with Lee and I was gonna be so irritated if my period landed on that again lmao #kaz rambles

1 note · View note

sensitivegoblin · 1 year

Text

Ramble

#I’m sad on my birthday so I’m trying to fill the void with sex n drugs #i miss feeling like I had someone and that someone could actually want me #:(#just a few weeks ago I thought I was definitely gonna get kissed today #i feel so stupid #i just wanna feel loved I keep putting myself out there but fuck #it’s so painful being single and unloved #it’s really hard to feel pretty or sexy #i just feel used like I moaned loudly for him on recording because I trusted him #i just feel like a gross idiot I dunno I just wanna be someone’s princess/prince #ontop of all of that I’m really a shit friend I my energy for conversation is just so low I can barely talk to my family #i break down and I’m so tired after every conversation #in my head I’m just living every day for other people because I’ve given up hope on me #im tired I just wanna be genuinely relaxed and happy #i wish I wasn’t disgusting and could have a love without sex #if I wasn’t hypersexual I feel like o could find someone to love me or fall on love with my friends #but it’s just too painful to ignore I’ve tried #I’m sorry I’m just ugh #my chest is empty I’m in desperate need of love #but that’s the one thing you can’t buy

0 notes

italiansteebie · 11 months

Text

I think I've kept y'all waiting long enough. Part 2 of this

"we? sorry Eddie, but I think it was you who fucked up this time. we see the way you look at him man, and. if you say he's changed then. I dunno. I guess I believe you."

It's Gareth who says it.

Gareth who's Eddie's main man, his confidant, the robin to well... his Steve.

and that's what makes it worse because he knows the disdain Gareth has for the guy, and here he is, telling Eddie he fucked up by letting him go.

"What do I do?" he asks, voice at a whisper, like he's scared of the answer. "You stop fucking around and make our stupid ass babysitter smile again," and that could only be, Eddie turns, looking for the source of the voice. Yep. Mike wheeler.

Dustin stomps over to him, "dude. we've been over this. Steve likes you. not as a friend, okay? I know you like him too, hell. even max can see it and she's fucking blind!"

"true." and there's max and Lucas, slowly making their way down steve's basement stairs, hands tightly gripping the railing. and now he knows he's got no choice. He's in Steve's basement, with his brats, and the rest of hellfire staring at him wait for him to move, and he knows he can't put this whole thing off like he wants to.

because if he's being honest, he wants to cancel hellfire, send everyone who, make max get up from the seat she just settled in, and run back to the trailer and hide from the world.

but now he's got an audience of people, people who weren't even sure about the guy two seconds ago, who were willing to berate Eddie on his behalf.

so he's got to go make it right. (and maybe he's got to get over the humiliating fact that he too, has become absolutely enamored with Steve Harrington. and he shakes that thought away because it's not humiliating. the guys a real catch, Wayne loves him, and so do his friends apparently, and he's just down right, nice. which Eddie was not expecting).

so he huffs, looking around the room, even max's cloudy eyes are pointed in his direction, waiting. and he bounds up the stairs.

"Steve!" He calls,

"Steve, I need to talk to you,"

and Steve rounds the corner, looking tired, "Eddie, I swear I'll stay out of your hair, you don't have to leave. I- I know you don't like me but, I- I want to prove it to you that I've changed. I-"

Eddie cut him off, "Steve, Steve. you don't need to prove anything I- I was being an asshole. I was embarrassed to have a crush on you,"

"not helping your case, Eddie,"

"I know, I know, ugh! Im not-" he pauses to scrub a hand down his face. "Im not good at this so im just gonna come out and say it. You are- too good for me. you're so fucking nice. I don't get it, and here you are listening to me, and you don't have to! I hurt you and you let me play my stupid game in your basement! you apologized to me. and so. I was scared , okay? because im not stupid, I could see that you liked me, and I- I was so scared that I didn't deserve you that I got mean, and you don't deserve that, not from me, not from anyone and I- I'm just. I can't tell you how sorry, and stupid I feel,"

"ed-"

"no, Steve. let me grovel, okay?"

"Eddie, you don't need to. I- I forgive you."

"You do?"

"Yeah. On one condition,"

"whatever you want, Stevie."

"ask me on a date."

"wh- okay." Eddie breathed out nervously, wiping his palms on his chest, "Steve, would you do me the great honor, of going on a date, with- with me?"

he saw the shaking of steves shoulders, oh god, did he make him cry again? Jesus, what was wrong with him? he was about to open his mouth to apologize, "yes, Eddie," Steve laughed, cutting him off, "I'll go on a date with you," there was a twinkle in his eye, and Eddie almost cried at the thought that he was the one who caused it.

there was an eruption of noise behind him, turns out his audience had followed him, waiting to see the ending. "Kiss!" Dustin called, "Kiss! kiss, kiss, kiss, kiss!" Oh god they were chanting now, and Steve had an expectant look on his face. "Well?"

and there it was, the fairy tale ending.

Eddie pulled Steve in for a sweet kiss, only pulling him closer to deepen it. there were hoops and hollers from the crowd behind him, and once they pulled away from each other, Eddie looked at his friends and even caught a smile on none other than mike wheeler's, king of teen angst, face.

and who knew it would turn out like this? (I did. we all need a happy ending).

Tags: @hyperfixationgoddess

@vhelt @i-have-three-feelings. @queerdeerling @sunfloweringstories

194 notes · View notes

shelfwar · 1 year

Text

Wolfman X Reader

~Pregnant~

Welcome to a requested imagine, my dumbass deleted the request but hey luckily I screen shot it.

Warnings: Vomiting,unplanned pregnancy, mentions of sex, choice words.

The sun slowly poked through the blinds as a nauseating feeling rose in your throat. Instantly you jumped out of bed, as a arm tried pulling you back to bed. "Ugh, I'm gonna be sick!" You screeched as the arm relaxed, then you sprinted towards the bathroom just barely making it, you vomited. "Love, you okay?" "I just threw up Wolf, what do you think?" "Uh, sorry." You felt him kneel next to you rubbing your back as you tried to pull yourself back together.

"It's okay, I'm here." He said lovingly. "Thanks Wolf." You said as you leaned back as your head hit the cold wall behind you, as he wrapped his arm around you. "Would you like me to stay home with you love?" He said as he kissed your forehead. "No, I should be fine Wolf." "You sure." "I'm sure Wolfy" "Mm, okay. Well I'm gonna get ready, but first!" He carefully picked you up bridal style before walking over to your shared bed, and gently laying you down whilst covering you up in the covers.

"Get some rest love." He said as he kissed your forehead. "I will Leonard. I love you." "I love you to y/n." Wolfman left the room as you started to doze off.

When you woke up you slowly trudged to the bathroom and as you were doing so, you realized that you missed your period. You and Wolfman practiced safe sex besides the day you came called the base "home". Bile rose in your throat as realization hit you, as you puked into the toilet once again. You were showing signs of pregnancy, the morning sickness, tender breasts, fatigue, always tired.

So once you were done you raced to your room and started to get dressed, opting to stay cozy you left on your pajama pants and just put on one of wolfmans academy sweatshirts. You walked down to the pharmacy and gazed at the plethora of different tests that they sold. Deciding on the electronic one you picked it up along with some condoms just in case if this was a false alarm.

When you got home you speed walked to the bathroom while taking off your pants and locked the door behind you. You shakily opened the text and the directions before taking the test and peeing on it. Once that was done you put the cap back on and sat on the toilet lid and waited patiently. While that was happening you heard the front door open close with heavy footsteps coming your way.

"Love you in there?!" "NO. I mean yes." "Will you unlock the door please." "No-no I can't let you in." "Are you hurt?" "No." "Please let me in." He said as he started to rattle the door knob. "Leonard!" "What, I'm nosey and I just wanna see-" while he was talking you grabbed the test and glared at the plus sign, you were pregnant. "Shit!" You unlocked the door with Wolfman staring at you with curiosity.

"I'm pregnant, Leonard." You said as you walked up to him with the test still in your shaky hands. "Lemme see." He said as he took the test from you. His eyes grew wide as he looked up at you. "Your pregnant?" "Yeah." You felt a tear fall down. "Im gonna be a dad!" He said as he lifted you up and twirled you in a circle. "Your not upset?" "Why would I?" "Cause." "Cause what love?" "I dunno." "That doesn't give me a valid answer love."

"Cause I didn't know if you were ready to be a dad." "Of course I am, I want kids so I could show them the farm." He chuckled. "Of course the farm." "Damn right." Wolfman leaned down and captured your lips with his as he aimlessly rubbed your non existing bump. "Love you." "Love you too Wolf."

#wolfman reader #wolfman x reader #top gun 1986 #request

56 notes · View notes

artsyunderstudy · 1 year

Text

15 Questions | 15 People

Rules: Answer these 15 Questions, then Tag 15 People

Thanks for tagging me @aristocratic-otter!

1. Are you named after anyone? My mom was working in a daycare and met a little girl named Ashton and thought "that's a pretty name" and here I am. I agree, I like my name. It's unisex and people call me sir a lot over email, which I don't mind. People also call me Ashley over the phone which I ... do mind. Don't call me Ashley.

2. When was the last time you cried? I can't remember exactly, though I know it was recent. It was a little cry, I was just lost in a thought spiral.

3. Do you have kids? Not yet :(

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Yes, but mostly just when I'm in a good mood. For laughs. I don't generally use it in arguments or when expressing anything negative. I'm very very straightforward in those situations.

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people? I really don't know. Probably just their expressions, and clothes because I like clothes and I like to see how people choose to present themselves. Not in a judgey way, just a curious way.

6. What’s your eye color? Brown. Dark, dark brown.

7. Scary movies or happy ending? Happy endings, I don't love being scared.

8. Any special talents? I have been told I'm pretty good at art and writing. I can also sing but I hate getting ANY attention for it so usually I just sing at home, about things I'm cooking or if my husband says something weird.

9. Where were you born? Fort Worth, Texas

10. What are your hobbies? Outside of fandom?? I love travel planning. Like, travel too, but I'm particularly into the planning. I have trellos. They are magnificent.

11. Do you have any pets? Yes! 2 cats and one dog.

Pumpkin (orange tabby, grumpy, chonky, great pillow, made of trouble, loves being squished so much we call him squash, likes it rough the little weirdo, has been with me since the beginning and we are very attached to each other),

Kira (a skinny grey patchy kitty with big paws and frog eyes, very sweet and polite, will tap you on the shoulder for attention, gets right up in your face when you're eating to beg for food she's not actually interested in, will not be put off, will not give up, and likes to sleep under the covers, weirdly obsessed with my husband)

Ember (cute as fuck cattle dog mutt, probably hates us because we're low energy and she is HIGH HIGH HIGH energy, loves head and chin scratches, dangerous because she cannot contain her excitement for any humans, doesn't understand personal boundaries AT ALL and has paid the price for it a few times, she will paw and lick and jump and bork and snurf, very afraid of loud noises and locks herself in the downstairs bathroom when there are fireworks, dabs a lot, sleeps a lot, loves going to grandma's house (grandma's house!!!!), my husban and i are completely fucking obsessed with her and she's tired of hugs)

12. What sports do you play/have you played? I am very bad at sports. Very uncoordinated and asthmatic and also bored by them. I did play soccer when I was little, and danced. Terrible at both. I like putting the basketball in the hoop, could do without the running and dribbling. Ugh, running.

13. How tall are you? 5'4"

14. Favorite subject at school? English, out of the core courses. But I wasn't a good student. Way too ADD. Art was my favorite class. Art and Chorus, but those are electives so I dunno if they count.

15. Dream job? I genuinely don't want to do the stuff I love for a job. I went to school for Art, I got a DEGREE, but I work in Ed Tech as a Success Manager meaning I just make people successful and happy all day, and I love it and I'm really good at it (im a good problem solver, let me solve your problems). I guess I would have liked to be a teacher, since that's my favorite part of my job currently, but teachers get the shit end of the stick and I couldn't do it. All my love to the teachers out there.

Anyway, I don't want to get paid for art or writing, even if they are the only things I want to do with my time, because the minute I'm doing it for money and not just because I'm excited about it, I hate it.

This was the opposite of an answer to that question, wasn't it?

Tags under the cut along with pictures of my pets.

@cutestkilla @bookish-bogwitch @hushed-chorus @you-remind-me-of-the-babe @captain-aralias @shrekgogurt @erzbethluna @stitchyqueer @fatalfangirl @thehoneyedhufflepuff @messofthejess @chen-chen-chen-again-chen @moodandmist @palimpsessed @larkral

#tag game #about me

46 notes · View notes

opens-up-4-nobody · 9 days

Text

...

#ugh. im so tried. why is crying so exhausting? i havent done anything. this is bullshit #we went from a slow motion breakdown to full on freakout meltdown today #luckily no one was around in the lab this morning bc i couldnt stop crying #so i went to the counseling center and made myself their problem #canceled my committee meeting. which everyone tells me is fine. its all fine #think about going home for a while they say. maybe tell ur dad ur having a bad time thry say #but im so tired. and i dont kno what to do and its all falling apart #i just feel like im brushing up against the limits of what i can do intellectually and its like well where do i go from here?#what do i do with my old data? how do i move my project forward? whats the point of any of this?#why did i put myself in this position? would taking a leave even help? id still have to come back to the same mess #its just so frustrating bc theres no solution ill find satisfying. everything just sucks.#idk what my advisor even told my committee. bc we were supposed to meet tomorrow morning. ugh. it would have been so bad #it also sucks bc im so drained that i can just feel my own weight when im trying to talk to ppl #like u kno when ur being a wet blanket but u dont kno how to fix it. like srry my vibes r wretched. maybe im just stuck like this #i dunno. my dad invited us home for a week in july and also plans to come out to visit me in August. but that seems like a long time away #i dunno what im gonna do. what a disaster #unrelated

13 notes · View notes

eddies-house · 8 months

Note

Oooooh I just knew he wanted her house, but we don't hate him for it 😭 he did exactly what she's doing, he ran away and never dealt with any of it. He's suffering so much still, him remembering Chrissy 💔 aw gaahd that was so sad that he thinks he's not meant for love.

The way she's trying to imagine him in his own space relaxed and doing his own thing, it's like that never happens for him. He can't sleep, still traumatized from what happened, his business is in trouble. I can't wait for him to let himself like her more and get some peace.

I have a whole ass theory building in my head involving stuff mentioned this chapter and Jett. I just. I dunno man. I liked him that first chapter he was mentioned, but now I don't. I'm usually spectacularly wrong about stuff like this though, so who knows 👀

Awe and he goes so soft for her at the end when she's hungry 😍 argh I can't wait for them to be all in love and for him to get a decent night's sleep, baby boy has gotta be tired

Anyways I loved this chapter! It's my favourite so far and I love love the details of Eddie's place in particular, all the cereal and the guitar and all of it. Can't wait to see what happens next 🖤🖤

AHH YOU MAKE MY DAY WITH THESE

i am so sad for him like baby boy feels so undeserving of love and its like he never even had a shot at it either before he decided that for himself UGH THE ANGST

no but eddie is such a STRESSED boy. I can't wait for him to get some peace either, boy is going through it </3

LMAO i love that jett has just become this secret villain for you, you're like...idk about you....

WHEN HE GOES SOFT FOR HER !!!!!! my favorite!!! need them to kiss immediately but i will stay strong

thank you for reading <3 im so glad you liked the details of his house, they are so important to me because its like a piece of him UGH I CANT WAIT TO GET TO THE MUSHY STUFF BUT ITS A SLOW BURN AND ITS GOING WAY TOO SLOW (which only makes it that much more satisfying but still im yearning)

#ILY #vics mail #asks #smoke signals #eddie munson fic #eddie munson x reader

10 notes · View notes

dreamwinged · 3 months

Text

im so anxious today i dunno what to do :( everything seems like too much, everyone (irl) doesn’t understand me nd they’re talking too much it’s making me overwhelmed, im so tired but i feel guilty staying at home, i have schoolwork but it’s so hard to get motivated…. ugh :(( i just feel like i can’t handle life rn

#.mei’s chatter ˚༘⋆ ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖#.vent

6 notes · View notes

matoitech · 11 months

Text

ok uhh okay. spiderverse 2 thoughts. in bullet points for the sake of my churning brain cuz im just not rly sure how i feel abt it rn. like it was a good movie? i enjoyed it it was fast paced i didnt realize 2+ hours went by which also segues into my first thought but like. yeah i have thoughts.

first of all that was like a super weird ending decision to make it a part 1 of 2. zero warning for that. and i sat in that theater till credits bcuz i genuinely thought i was being punked and the movie was going to finish, bcuz it did not at all feel like a place to stop for the movie. it ends like right before the climax?? yes they really. extended themselves damn far for this one and it would be a lot to tie up in like another 45 minutes of movie but also like you couldve done it.. i really dont. understand. like ppl just sat in the movie theater like wait is it done. theyre ending it here? for real? like it wasnt the kind of ending you expect from this movie

animation was obviously gorgeous and insane i dont even need to talk about what eye candy it was. the different styles all together the fight scenes ugh so good yeah yeah everyone knew it would be a trip

rly cannot stress enough what a Direction this sure was. i dont like say it as crit necessarily just like. did they over extend. maybe. they sure Extended. i would expect this maybe for a third movie not a second but they were clearly trying to blow the first one out of the water. it was just.. a lot looser. it needed to be tighter. i dont know what theyre planning for the 3rd movie but i really did not like. vibe with that ending decision

they changed peni’s design slightly and gave her a cooler mech so thats nice. maybe they listened 2 criticisms abt that

i cant decide how i feel abt a lot of the dialogue tbh it rly wasnt my thing a lot of the time like. the changing writers were kind of.. obvious. and there was a LOT of dialogue bcuz this movies purpose seems to be a very Character Driven story to prepare for the next? like theyre TRYING to say stuff thats for sure. also it was rly quippy in a way that i feel has gotten kind of tired with dialogue writing like SOME dialogue was genuinely funny and good to me like i wouldnt say it was BAD or something (some of it was bad.) it was just.. noticeably different? the tone for this movie was changed from the first which again isnt bad youre telling a different story it was just Different yeah. some things i rly thought couldve been handled like with more subtlety.

i guess we only had one movie with the original cast but some stuff just like i personally was sitting there trying to figure out if it felt in character or not. its rly hard to explain if u havent watched it i think and maybe im just crazy i dunno. im absolutely not opposed to making ur characters fuck up and make mistakes but like. huh. i guess. i would not expect otherwise from gwen bcuz shes a teenager but i was.. surprised that peter was going along with it like ? hes a middle aged man lol he wasnt like taken advantage of or manipulated in any way. not like they were trying to say that w the like spider group anyway, like i dont think they were tryingto say gwen was necessariyl taken advantage of or anything, like they werent trying to make them read as ‘evil’ if anything just like wow these ppl sure have Problems they are going thruogh. but like still? im not invested in peters character even it just felt kind of weird. miles went fucking through it too like jesus christ im still trying to wrap my brain around all this it sure does feel like theyre putting these ppl thru comic book trauma

what i went through emotionally wheni realized they were going to do Dark Miles i dont even mean that as criticism or anything its just a bold move man. buti was sitting there like yeah of course they would. hope they make it work

i dunno i probably have more thoughts im just kind of like sitting here lol like what a weird decision. if they hadnt ended it like that i probably would have my thoughts more tied together bcuz the movie itself wasnt tied up?? so its kind of hard to even like think through everything on one watch

#spiderverse 2 spoilers #itsv 2 spoilers #atsv spoilers #idk what tags ppl use #spiderverse

8 notes · View notes

frostbite-the-bat · 2 months

Text

god yesterday i was so excited and motivated to play toontown and this update is pretty awesome, i love the new animations and the new cogs but most of it is basically ONLY a new coat of paint and theres nothing new to do, aside from beating up some of the new cogs to get them added to my cog schticker book. so i kinda lose motivation about it really, REALLY quickly.

i am already dismotivated and tired in general today, i got better sleep than last night and i dont know how i even functioned yesterday. so my lack of motivation and my shift of focus of Want To Play Other Game Despite Hyperfixation (minecraft and stardew valley on my 'wanna play at least a bit today' itches) is explained this way

but man. without friends i don't feel like checking most of i out - and a lot of my friends from my club already did so, without me, while i was asleep because of timezones.

(if any of u read this its not your fault im pissed at myself for being the one [well, now we have 2] europeans in our club)

so i dunno. i still gotta digest this update more, but realizing it added basically no new gameplay dismotivates me greatly. it was needed especially with some quality of life things like better tasks for clubs, emoting in a cog suit, cleaner animations (and quicker animations, too).

but holy hell there's nothing *new* to do the novelty will die off very quickly. it's just an april toons wait for me again. good update in terms of quality, i'd say.

but honestly? overhyped. i may be wrong though. bu whatever, it's my opinion and i am feeling pessimistic today. this doesn't mean i don't like the update, i do like it and it excites me. but urgh. okay. check out new things and log off and its the same. but i get it. volounteer team. they're not gonna add any big things yet. got hopes up.

mmm i've just been negative with staff or other reasons so i suppose my naturally harsher criticism stems from that. but again i still have very big respect for the work they do and i myself would not be able to do these things. but as someone who has like 133 laff and all they have left to do is graham(had task for almost year, cant get friendgroup to first time with me), prestter (skipping), oclo and maxing clo and ceo as the grindy things (and some drops, like mistys drops. how did i get all dave drops before misty.) theres so little to do like a lot of my enjoyment comes from playing with friends. and timezones are a thing. if you have lower motivation good luck getting shit done here

ugh still i cant overstate how dearly i love this game, im hyperfixated on it for a reason. and im not demanding theres more content NOW. it takes lots of time to develop. but as i keep privately yapping for Hours. staff needs better communication and pr and less of this arg shit. builds hype and then what we get is a new coat of paint

is it a good one? yes!!! does it give me new shit to do? not really. aside from wanting to draw the new cogs and new misty design.

ugh. am i being too negative? i may be. i dunno. feels odd to ramble about this knowing full well there's at least like 3 staff members who know me. maybe not on this account but, yknow.

1 note · View note

vergilberg · 2 years

Text

i'm not in yakuza mode right now, which is unfortunate bc i love Happier Than Ever'verse! so have some fuckin . snippets or something 😭 im literally only capable of writing dialogue for this AU

[id: Haruka — “I buried you! I buried you, and I thought you were dead, and for the longest time I thought you were never going to come back and right when I started accepting that, you did. I just — I can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep seeing you leave and come back like it’s nothing, because it is something - to us, to me. You’re here but, to me, your feet are still in the grave. And you — you won’t let us pull you out of it.” /end id]

-

[id: 1969 is not the year of the tiger, but it is the year that Shintaro Kazama meets Futoshi Shimano /end id]

-

[id:

“It’ll be less if we leave now and if the police aren’t looking!” Sohei laughs, “you know how I drive.”

What was it Sohei used to say? He drives like how he fucks: hard and fast? Ugh. Shintaro was going to die.

/end id]

-

[id: If Kazama, Nishiki, and Yumi are dead, then Kiryu is a ghost - lingering too long around their graves, in the early morning mist and the light smoke from the burning incense. In a more literal sense, it’d be easy to mistake Kiryu for some kind of spirit, with his longer, greying hair, and tired eyes - not to mention the fact that, legally, he is supposed to be dead. /end id]

-

[id:

Shimano — “Look at this place. What the hell are you doing Kazama?”

Kazama — “You won’t — you won’t understand anything even if I told you.”

Shimano — “Really? Try me. Explain.”

Kazama — “An orphanage —“

Shimano — “Yeah, I know—“

Kazma — “For - for the children of … of those I’d killed. I … figured I’d save them. Give them a chance at life, and, you know, I could try to be—“

Shimano — “Try to be what? A good person?”

Kazama — “I … yes. Yes. To be a good person.”

Shimano — “Hah. That’s fucking funny. You think just … taking them in is gonna erase the fact that ya killed their parents in the first place? Ya think you can just…. atone fer yer sins by helpin’ the people ya hurt?”

Kazama – “What did you want me to do?! Abandon them?! Leave them to the wolves?! Is that what you wanted from me?!”

Shimano – “Nah… that’s not it. What I wanted was fer ya to own up to your shit, Shintaro. Ya think yer doin’ good, do ya? Ya think yer a good person, doin’ all o’ this?! Well, yer wrong.”

Kazama – “At least I’m better than you are. You probably would’ve killed them too.”

Shimano – “Nah, this isn’t about me. Now – are ya? Are ya really better than me? At least I have the fuckin’ balls to own up to the horrible shit I’ve done fer the clan. You – yer tryin’ to be noble to cover up the fact that yer a goddamn murderer. Bein’ noble doesn’t mean shit if ya ain’t got anything to back it up, and ya sure as hell don’t. Not with how ya keep yer hits all hush-hush nowadays.”

Kazama – “What are you trying to say then? That you’re the good person between us? That you’re noble? Don’t make me laugh. You – you revel in the blood, the violence, the death that we live in. You’re a fucking monster.”

Shimano – “Yeah? Well, yer not a good person either, Shintaro. I dunno how ya got it into yer head that ya were, but yer fuckin not. Yer a yakuza – we are yakuza – but yer hands…. they’re bloodier than most. How many people have ya killed? And how many o’ those kids of yer’s aren’t gonna know their parents ‘cause of you? Some o’ them? All o’ them? There ain’t a difference - not in the world we live in. Spilt blood is spilt blood, all th’ same. Ya have the damn gall – the nerve – to say I’m a monster? I have some fuckin’ news for you then. Yer a monster too, and I ain’t gonna let ya forget it.”

/end id]

-

[id:

Majima — “What’s worse, d’you think?”

Saejima — “Hm?”

Majima — “What’s worse? Th’ fact that he keeps leaving or… the fact he keeps coming back?”

Saejima — “Hm. Yer accent’s slippin’.”

Majima — “My — for god’s sakes, just answer the damn question.”

Saejima — “Sometimes people jus’ come an’ go like that, Majima.”

Majima — “And him? You call that just ‘coming and going?’”

/end id]

#yakuza #rgg #yakuza fanfiction #haruka sawamura #shintaro kazama #futoshi shimano #kiryu kazuma #goro majima #taiga saejima #kazuma kiryu #majima goro #saejima taiga #shimano futoshi #kazama shintaro #happier than ever verse #v writes things #KNOWING HOW TO CHARACTERIZE PEOPLE? WHAT'S THAT? (starts screaming and crying)

24 notes · View notes