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#in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place
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#what do you call it when a mind is lacking in depth of m thought? is there a word for that?
#because all my mind can do is spin in tiny circles. never push any further. no depth of thought
#i cant even carry out this line of thought to completion in my head. i have to write it down like this or else it remains stuck in an eddy
#its so frustrating. when my thoughts are pressured i spin so fast it feels like my head might pop but the thoughts never go anywhere
#bc they just repeat the same god damn things all thr fucking time. they drag me around in circles. then when im feeling low or even like
#normal. my head just feels empty and it freaks me out. i have no intersting thoughts to think. theres nothing behind my eyes
#possibly its just my brain on 0cd. but how am i suppose to escape the spiral if its in my own head? i guess im just supposed to changr my
#reaction to it. recognize what it is and let it go. but i dont like it
#i just want to curl up on a warm tile floor. press myself into a quiet corner and not think anything
#in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place
#i went there for my birthday when i was like 12 bc i liked it so much. the botanically gardens and the butterflies and the stained glass
#i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired
#god. there was a really cool talk today and im always like im not that inattentive lol but then i cannot for the life of me follow a talk or
#read a paper all thr way through. my short term working memory is just a tiny little cup. easy to overfill
#so i miss mostly everything. its so frustrating
#its all frustrating. whatever. back to the psychiatrist tomorrow. probably up thr lamicta1 dosage
#bc im past where i was last time i had a reaction to it 💪
#i just wish i wanted to draw. drawing just makes me tired and impatient rn
#unrelated
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